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Offline Peter6836

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Feeling freally isolated
« on: August 11, 2008, 05:16:01 PM »
Since losing my job, and having to start working the system I am really feeling all alone. I wish there was someone that could help me fill out all of these papers.As well as keep me organized. I have just been put on more drugs and keep feeling less and less in control of what is going on in my life. If I do not take all the medication then I feel anxious if I do I feel foggy.
I was just wondering what the impact of HIV is on mental disease, especially bipolar. My HIV I am told is not quite severe enough to get me help yet it is one of the biggest reasons that I am having these problems. I just feel that the HIV drugs and HIV itself is contributing to all of this. I do not feel that I would be quite this disturbed if I did not have HIV. I am just feeling really all alone and do not know where to turn. I wish someone would be out there to help me out with everything. I have called my local ASO they would not open a case for me I am waiting for cobra paper work from my employer. I am waiting for doctors to fill out paper work. I am afraid of not getting ADAP in time to renew my prescriptions. This has all happened so quickly and I know that many people have gone through it also. I would appreciate any feedback on how to make this process less stressful.

Offline Miss Philicia

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Re: Feeling freally isolated
« Reply #1 on: August 11, 2008, 05:52:04 PM »
I don't think it's the HIV drugs and HIV itself that is the issue, but being bipolar with an HIV diagnosis IS indeed an extra challenge.  No doubt about that, but I doubt any concrete medical connection.  It's simply logical that any pre-existing mental health issues are going to become more difficult after your HIV diagnosis.  I don't think you'll find a single medical professional that would say otherwise.

Other than that you have a lot on your plate with all of these different forms and what not.  It's unfortunate that your ASO will not open a case for you, even if just until all of these bureaucratic ducks are in order.  I assume that they have cut offs for such things based on lab numbers or something, and that they don't view you as physically ill and are not factoring in your mental health diagnosis.

I know in other posts of yours you've said you feel alone, but always seem to be running around non-stop doing things for family and friends.  What's the reason again that one of these people can't sit down with you while you fill out forms?  Are they all aware of what is going on, or you hiding all of this from them?

What things is your therapist doing with you to address these "lose of control" issues in a way to better manage them?  I understand and appreciate the "anxiety vs. foggy" issue of what I assume are anti-anxiety and/or bipolar medications, but I guess if you're not passing out on the couch it might be better to be a bit foggy -- just not too much.  High anxiety can sometime make on really immobile and not able to address these things like filling out forms.

I went through a similar process of tons of forms, etc. for these programs and it can seem overwhelming.  The process does eventually settle down, and I can only encourage you to just sit down and do them.  I know you realize that nobody is going to physically do the forms for you, but perhaps it might be good to ask a friend or relative to just come over and be in the same room while you do them.
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Offline rick21007

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Re: Feeling freally isolated
« Reply #2 on: August 11, 2008, 06:03:01 PM »
Hey Peter----I agree having hiv can be a source of stress and having bi-polar disorder makes you especially vulnerable to stress.  It sounds as though a lot of things are up in the air for you right now and that alone is stress enough.  Many of us depend on our jobs--especially guys, for socializing (especially when we work long hours and find ourselves too tired to do much at the end of the day) and being out of work I can sure see how that could be isolating.  What is your support system of family and friends?  

As far as managing the stress in your life, what are you doing for yourself, like on a daily basis?  How are you being good to yourself?


Offline allopathicholistic

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Re: Feeling freally isolated
« Reply #3 on: August 13, 2008, 12:09:01 PM »
and are not factoring in your mental health diagnosis.

Peter: I think Philly hit the nail on the head .. If I were you I'd call one of those free life lines and tell them about your mental state, then ask if they can possibly call the ASO on a 3 way call. This would show the ASO that you actually felt it necessary to call a life line! That ASO needs to open a case for you! (imho)
« Last Edit: August 13, 2008, 01:26:38 PM by allopathicholistic »


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