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Offline Queen Tokelove

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Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« on: May 16, 2008, 01:43:09 PM »
I think I have to toot my own horn here..lol...I like the name of the new thread, it rhymes and I think we ladies have some things we need to get off our chests. I know I sure as hell do. Still no stimulus check and still no word from the liver doctor on where to go. Now I have to go back to my previous game plan of waiting for Section 8 so I can look for another place and getting this car legal so I can get back and forth to these other specialists. There is not much else I can do for my son at the moment so I need to get my mind back on track.

Not much else going on with me today. Have a good weekend ladies...
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
Cherish the simple things life has to offer

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #1 on: May 16, 2008, 02:31:09 PM »
Queen, I love the new title.  I'm about ready to call someone in government and tell them to shove the whole stimulus idea up their ass.  I refiled Wednesday (well, that's when I sent it out in the mail), so I don't even know if I'll be getting one or not.  I hope by Tuesday, when your case manager comes to see you, they will have called you about seeing the specialist.  It all sounds so frustrating.  My bff has a punching bag in her basement that she uses all the time.  I think we could use one.

Yes, I could roar right now, truly.  I went to Kroger's and looked at the milk  1/2 a gallon was like $2.79 or $2.99 (can't remember which).  It's ridiculous.  So, I'm not getting one today, needless to say.  I know what I said about the food pantry in the last thread probably sounded like whining.  But damn, off-brand chili that has no beans in it (and other stuff like that)?  Sometimes I think they think poor people will eat anything.

I don't know when the person who gave me herpes will read the pm I sent him; I don't know how he'll react.  I really don't care.  But he is, as someone told me, very passive/agressive, so he'll probably start some off-the-wall thread about something he thinks up in his head to make people feel sorry for him.  He loves to have people stroke his ego.  I just want to kick his ass, so bad.  I would post more, but then he would probably be identifiable, and I don't want to risk getting t.o'd.  But what you said Queen, I know where to vent. 

Well, nothing else to report.  I'm going to lay down for awhile.  I'll be back later.
I've never killed anyone, but I frequently get satisfaction reading the obituary notices.-Clarence Darrow

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #2 on: May 16, 2008, 03:03:58 PM »
I love the new title.

Can't write now - just wanted to say that - Im only now home (21.00) and about to eat

GRRR!
"If you keep one foot in yesterday, and one in tomorrow, you piss all over today". Betty Tacy

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #3 on: May 16, 2008, 05:09:30 PM »
I called the freaking IRS 800 number and got hung up on after their spiel of we have no information crap. At least my rent rebate was done but I won't be getting that til July. Funny, I mailed them at the same time and my rebate was done on May 6th. So here I sit, broke and stuck like Chuck.

Betty-- You know who should man the hell up and take responsibility for his actions. I know there is nothing he can do but he could at least apologize and beg your forgiveness regardless of the fact no condom was used. He knew what he was walking around with, if you know what I mean. To some I may sound like a hypocrite because I don't disclose and have had sex but at least I used a freaking condom and knew enough to know that the risk was low. Ugh. And I swear if he starts a thread on some bs consider me getting a time out because I will read his ass the riot act!!!!!

Dragonette---No more stinky fruit....*LOL*
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
Cherish the simple things life has to offer

The Royal Blog

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #4 on: May 16, 2008, 07:00:49 PM »
I am back!

I didnt go anywhere, Nothing wonderful like that noooo

My computer crashed. Several hundred dollars later we got the old girl running again.

It will take forever for me to get caught up with the posts I've missed.

Glad to be back.

Offline Queen Tokelove

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #5 on: May 16, 2008, 07:02:52 PM »
Welcome Back Wini. I thought you were doing the campout thing with Comp and Humm. So what happened? You pick up a virus that made you crash? I need your video expertise when you catch up on the reading.
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
Cherish the simple things life has to offer

The Royal Blog

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #6 on: May 16, 2008, 07:07:16 PM »
Naa my harddrive just decided it didnt want to live anymore. No clue why.

Comp and Humm canceled that camp out. I've had so much going on here with the kids and work I dont know if I would have had time for it anyway. I usually get to see them a few times a year at least with other social outings so thats ok.  Video expertise? I dont know if I am an expert or anything but I'm willing to help if you let me know what the problem is.

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #7 on: May 16, 2008, 07:12:53 PM »
Aww, hate to hear that they had cancelled the campout. I always wanted to go to one but it was never financially possible. Not really having a problem but bought a dual cam that does video. Am wondering how I can record the video to do what yours does at the bottom. I would like to get some video of the kitties to use as an avy if possible. Teach me ole wise on---Queen of Video.... :D
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
Cherish the simple things life has to offer

The Royal Blog

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #8 on: May 16, 2008, 07:55:58 PM »
I had to google for the links because I lost all my links when the computer crashed. I found most of them but there is one I really like but cant remember.

What I do is take several photos and use one of the online animators and make several photos into an animation.
Sometimes I play with the individual photos like this recent one I added horns and a mustache and fire but its all from tinkering with them online.

the sites I could remember are:

http://gifsun.org/
http://www.gifninja.com/CreateAGif.aspx
http://www.lunapic.com/editor/?action=help
http://imator.com/
http://picasion.com/

and to edit photos
http://photobucket.com/?special_track=nav_logo
http://www.gifworks.com/image_editor.html


Have fun playing







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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #9 on: May 16, 2008, 08:22:10 PM »
Welcome back Wendy.  Sorry you didn't get to go on the campout and that your computer crashed.  If mine ever does, I'm just screwed. 

Queen, you and I are both broke.  I know it sucks.  I'm going to have to quit smoking in the next couple days, if I expect to keep eating.  Luckily though I have patches, so it shouldn't be too bad.  It's funny to be so broke, I can't even smoke (hey, that rhymes).  My gay bff just e-mailed me tonight saying how he went to Wal-Mart and spent $100.  It's been eons since I've been able to spend that kind of money in a grocery store.  I can't even remember the last time.  Thank heavens someone else knows how I feel.  I guess we can keep bitching on.  It helps.  And oh, I sent a copy of the pm I sent that person to one of the goderators, just in case.  I don't think you're a hypocrite.  You use condoms.  We didn't because of him being poz.  But I agree, he could have at least told me about the herps.  Fucker.

Well, I haven't had an eventful day at all.  I did go to the library to return the two books I finished.  And I got a few movies for the weekend.  One of them is that sorta new vampire movie, 30 Days of Night I think it's called.  I hope it's good.  I love a good vampire movie.  Have a good evening ladies.
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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #10 on: May 16, 2008, 10:01:12 PM »
Thank you Betty. I enjoyed 30 days of night. I love scary movies.

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #11 on: May 17, 2008, 03:42:53 AM »
Hi to all

I suppose my thing to get off my chest is the difficulty I have with the format of the dating thread - which leads me to post less than I want to ..
i will try to explain - please understand it is just the way it is for me right now with the format of here - not personal at all

So I have to apologise again for not coming in the women's forum - well the situation is I do want to and I do read it as often as I can - so I guess now I lurk :)

But the reason I do not post is I can not get in here every day as I have other commitments and when I do have computer time I have to use it to do my job on the PNI ORG UK forum I founded.........................

..................so by the time I get into here, things have moved on so much on the dating threads and I just can not keep up with what everyone is doing - the time difference does not help either as I can wake up in the morning to find 20 posts have been made since I last read the dating thread!!!!

Then I feel that it is rude to post without mentioning most people - especially as many are kind enough to mention me even though I have not been around for long - and then I sort of give up because to do such a post the only way I would be able to and address most topics and issues and people in it would be to have this writing/input window open in one browser window, the dating thread in another, go from one to the other and spend more time than I can on it -

Just thought I would explain also that although I am a prolific writer at times I am dyslexic - so bad that unless I checked, altered and spell checked every post I make several times before I send it - then no one would be able to understand what I have put so writing a post takes me and inordinately length of time anyhow.

So I do find the format of the dating thread difficult -

I would personally prefer, like on our PNI forum,  separate threads for different topics, where anyone can join into that topic regardless of who started it and it is not seen as highjacking if you join in on someones else's topic, not just to support them  because you too can realted to the issue or the topic of that thread reminds you of an issue of yours.


This is how we get over the difficulty on forums of if an individual starts a thread it being considered rude or highjacking to join in in a conversational way - we simply have the rule that NO thread can be considered your own except in a section called 'your Dairy/Journal' Every other thread on any topic women are free to join into in a conversational way and completely highjack it with their own issues if needed.

 But I know that on most forums it is etiquette that if you start a topic it is your thread and to use it in a 'conversational ' way and turn it to your own concerns, is highjacking .

So at first because I find the format of the dating thread difficult I have tried to start threads here of my own that I had hoped would lead to discussion e.g about drinking and HVP , but I guess because on here if you start a thread it is your own?

So  they ended up not as a general discussion I hoped for  where others brought in their experiences or opinions, but as my 'issue' thread . That was not really what I intended and if I tried to keep them going or had started lots of other threads it would look like I was trying to hog attention on here out of proportion to others.

And to deal with that - i.e to have a place we can have a conversation on here and not just a load of threads started by individuals on their issues - you have evolved the dating thread!!!

I understand that this is how it has evolved and it suits most ..............so would not try to change anything in an established forum

  • I hope you understand what I mean? - This is not a complaint to you or saying that I am not willing to try to adjust and to learn how to relate on here...
    I was just trying to explain that because I founded a support forum that works another way, and because I have not really used any other forum and my internet time up to finding I had HIV has been almost exclusively on that forum

    I just wanted to explain that I am finding the different way of doing things i.e having a conversation and using the the dating thread to do this - difficult........so this leads me to post much less than I want to



Well having explained - I want to be here and talk  here to all you lovely women so ...................

From now on - I have decided to write it as it comes and if I fail to mention anyone or anyones situation - just believe it is not out of disrespect or not caring, I can only keep in my head a couple of issues at a time, and address a couple of posts at a time.

Veritee XXXX
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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #12 on: May 17, 2008, 04:44:22 AM »
Queen - you said 'Still no stimulus check and still no word from the liver doctor on where to go'

What is a stimulus check and why do they do it?

I ask because as I have mentioned before my HIV consultant was very worried about my liver - it seems if you read my blog, unnecessarily so, as my liver function tests have gone back to normal and my scan showed a completely normal liver!!
I think they worry because I am always totally honest about what I drink and that I worry if I drink anything at all and soemtimes - when I drink nothign but when I first went to the clinic I was drinkign more than usualy because I was usiang it to get through finding out I was HIV , my husband being in hospital and my not getting treated for HIV then so felt in Limbo - I do not drink like this at al now I am on treatment!!

In a way my problem with alcohol is not that I drink a lot more than most social drinkers but because I had an alcoholic dad I worry because now I drink at all...................
And present myself always and to everyone as a problem drinker - yet I have no idea if I am???? most who know me do not think I am at all, and my husband does not think I am either and he known me best and what I drink. But because I was teetotal up to 8 years ago but started to enjoy a dink then,  since then I have worried that I drink and that I may be like my dad!!! So I present to any doctor as if I am alcoholic and they take that and than reinforce my worry

Oh well - gone on about meand my issues again - sorry

Just wondered Queen what this test was ? and if I should have it to be sure about my liver?

Also what is: IRS 800 number - I have no idea what that is either? Is it to do with benefits/money?

I just wondered?

Winiroo - sorry about your computer, I had that last year. I build and repair all my computers ( did a PC technicians qualification years ago) so it does not cost me that much as I only pay for the bits not the labour. But it is time consuming when a PC bites the dust- as usually as well as changing the hardware you have to back up your data, reinstall and reconfigure it and it is that which takes the time. And I have been weeks without a working PC before.

Living in a very rural place I see my computer as my 'window to the world' and hate being without it with the curtains closed even for a day :)

Bettytacy - so sorry about the herpies. Personally I would give him hell, as much hell as you can! Do not let him get round to doing a subversive thread on here just attack first. As someone else said I am sure he knew what he had. You can not have genital herpies without knowing!! and you especially can not have an active outbreak where you can pass it on without knowing. He deserves whatever you can give him. I would join in if I knew who he was!!!

Tendai   - did you get your undies? i ask as you know I have a friend from Zimbabwe who is living here in the UK only about 3 miles from me  - who I met through HIV as she has it too - and she is going to Zimbabwe in November for a visit and goes to the capital often where I believe you work.
So as your post is so unreliable I asked her if in principle she would be willing to get a package to you if you needed?

You probably do not want me to do this ???-

but she is perfectly willing if you live or work somewhere she can get to, to bring a package of undies or anything else you really need to you in November when she is visiting - if you did not want to you do not have to meet her she could just post it through the door of your work or home - that is as long as it is not to far for her when she visits the capital.
 
She also said that if it is not convenient for her to deliver it she has friends who travel thoughout Zimbabwe and she could probably get someone to deliver it - so if you do need anything and can wait till November both her and me would be really happy to buy it and put it in a package for you and she will try to get it to you - just PM or email me me if you want to take it up,

My Biggest Rant

As this thread is for women to ROAR - great idea.
My ROAR is that I do not believe that HIV should be treated in a GU clinic as it is in the rural part of the UK I live

it is not so in every part of the UK - in London hospitals for instance there are separate departments/units for HIV that also provide complimentary medicines etc and are a much nicer environment than we have here in Cornwall

A GU clinic is basically a STD clinic - and it makes me just soooooooooo mad that I have to go their for HIV treatment.

Yes I accept that for most in the UK HIV is sexually transmitted, and as I got it off my husband it was for me too.

But my problem is not this - it is that the clinic is geered up entirely for those with a 'curable' STD, who will be 'in and out' very quickly and will probably not have to go there again unless they have unprotected sex again. It is also a physically terrible building , a 'prefab' well past its sell by date - tucked away so it is not seen at the back of the hospital and has facilities that are completely substandard and should have been long replaced - most STD clinics in the UK are like this!!!!!! due to the stigma I guess?

So the GU clinic is just not geered up or conducive for HIV patients who will have to go regularly to that clinic for the rest of their lives.

And on a personal level

If theses HIV meds so give me a 'near normal' lifespan, I rellay do not want to be siting in that GU clinic every few weeks or months as an old lady of over 60 to my 80s, with a load of young and younger people with short turn STDs - as apart form the HIV clients most of those who use a HIV clinic are young people, men and women  - who have made a 'mistake ' contracted curable STDs and are there briefly for an exam and a  course of antibiotics !!!!!!!!!

I am only 5 years off 60 anyway and at my age I already stand out in that very small and very cramped waiting room - I find it degrading and undignified .......not that older people do not get STDs but believe me I would not, as I know very well how to protect myself and if I did not have my husband I doubt I would bother with sex anyway, certainly not with the bother of a new person.......................so I just would not be in a STD clinic at my age if it was not for this HIV!!!!

and also resent that I have to endure such bad facilities and have to go to a STD/GU clinic for my treatment because everyone else their will be cured very soon and back to their normal lives and sexual activity, but for me I could have another 20 years of going to that awful clinic!!!

They do in fact have a chance of geting enough money to build a new one within the next 10 years - this will help if the building is better it will be nicer to go there -  but HIV will STILL be treated in a GU/STD Clinic by STD doctors, it is this I most object to

As HIV is for life, and it has life changing implications - I just do not think a GU/STD clinic is where this should be addressed anyway

And indeed it is not  - addressed!!! Because none of my consultants are HIV specialist trained in the first place - some may now do only HIV, but they were all trained for STD work - HIV patients do get the good medication available here in the UK from that clinic as we do from all, but what I do not get is any holistic treatment that takes into any consideration how HIV affects me as a person, my relationships, my life and how it will affect the rest of my life...........yes I probably expect too much, btu if you do nto expect and stive to get - you will never have!!

So every time I go there I am 'besides myself' with anger - that yet again I have HAD no CHOICE but to go for my treatment in that degrading place!

it is of course degrading for all to go to a STD clinic that is so substandard - but at least if you have another STD and not HIV, you only have to go their a couple of times - for me it is for life and it makes me mad that where I have to go is Crap!!

ROAR Over

If I have left you out, sorry but I am thinking of you
veritee XXX
« Last Edit: May 17, 2008, 05:03:04 AM by Veritee »
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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #13 on: May 17, 2008, 05:10:06 AM »
From now on - I have decided to write it as it comes and if I fail to mention anyone or anyones situation - just believe it is not out of disrespect or not caring, I can only keep in my head a couple of issues at a time, and address a couple of posts at a time.

but surely that's the case for most of us? I only address the last 5-10 posts, whatever I remembered, it has to be a bit random b/c there are many posters on here. next time they might be others posting and I address them and ignore the others for a bit. don't worry too much about that V

Betty how's the pain? any better? no money is a good as motivation to quit as any, lemonade out of lemons and all that. don't get me wrong being flat broke is no joke to me. but I hope at least there will be a good outcome for you re the smoking.

Win glad to see u, I was a bit concerned to be honest but since others have mentioned a trip I just assumed so.

I'm going to Amsterdam soon to meet a bunch of poz women, most of whom are from Africa, BF is coming along cos there will be other men too. Its back to 15 degrees and rain here. we will spend most of the day on trains - about 7 hours return! its at those times that I curse not having a car. Queen one day we have to get you (and Cristy and anyone who enjoys a smoke) to AMS, not that its not lovely even when you dont smoke but put it that way back when I did it was like finding paradise for me.

I had something on my mind the last day besides the molluscom (which is spreading like wildfire), and that is that my ex is dying. I used to have a BF in Thailand, who is also HIV. Both of us were poz at the time but we didn't know it, HIV is quite pervalent there so it was just a strange coincidence, I was extremely careful with him - I never had any kind of contact with his semen - so I know he didn't infect me, even though it would be easy to pin on him b/c he is the only poz person I know I had sex with, but also as the signs of my infection were there before we met, and I did have unprotected sex, I just dont know any of my unproctected partners to be poz.

Anyway he is dying now, been in and out of hospital over the last 2 years, he is dying from cancer not AIDS, b/c his HIV is treated, that is subsidized there but nothing to do with cancer is, he has a large tumor in his gut, it was diagnosed but he can't afford anything to treat it, it needs to be surgically removed, biopsied, and probably he needs chemo as well. I can't help him b/c even though its way cheaper there, it is out of my financial league. I helped him before with hospital bills but that's something different. He is employed and his employer is understanding, but basically what I am now praying for is that he will die peacefully and not in a tortured endless way. Even though he is an ex, we parted on good terms, and that makes me very sad.

so yeah (sigh).

Ive been hesitant to talk about it cos everyone here has their troubles and I know Queen has her scare so I didnt want to bring up cancer, but it's been weighing on my heart in the last weeks. it also made me realize yet again how fortunate I am to be able to get treated. it gives me a fighting chance, which he doesnt have. corresponding with him is so sad on one hand, and on another I admire his philosophy and strength. I guess that comes with age too eh, things just get more serious, about births and deaths not fun and games.

love you ladies, thanks for lending an ear, sorry it was so heavy this time
have yourselves a great weekend

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« Reply #14 on: May 17, 2008, 08:25:54 AM »
Good morning Ladies.                       Queen, love the thread title. I don't think you are a hypocrite,you used a condom so....Win, sorry your computer crashed. If our crashed, I would just be without a computer. I can't afford to replace it but my dad probably would.                                                             Betty, sorry about being broke and the sucky food that is offered at food pantries.I think that is so fucked up about the herpes. He should have told you and let you decide. Sorry fucker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!                                                 Veritee, reply to who you can remember. Nobody replies to everyone  but as far as the layout, it is what it is.                                              Dragonette, I researched the molloscum and I was wrong. I did not have that at 14, I think I just had warts. Hope you have a great time in Amsterdam.  As far as the ex, I think it's normal to be concerned.                                                                                                    I have a really nasty cough. I CAN"T smoke cause it makes me cough too  hard. I have a doctor's appointment Monday and a whole list of stuff to talk to him about. If I can just get through work tonight, I will be okay. Anybody I missed, Have a great day. Cristy
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« Reply #15 on: May 17, 2008, 08:50:43 AM »
Morning ladies,

Veritee, usually what I do when posting here is to look at the "topic summary" that's right underneath where I'm posting, so I can remember everything everyone has said, as it's right there.    I don't blame you for not wanting to go to an STD clinic to get treated.  I know how I would feel-probably that people would be thinking, "wow, she sure comes here an awful lot."  You know what I mean.   The IRS here in the US are the "tax people," government employees that Americans send their tax information to.  The stimulus payment is something our awful president thought up to try to stimulate the economy.  It means most people will get free money from the government-it's a one-time thing, and how much someone gets depends.  It's turning into a cluster-fuck.  I'm glad you're posting here again.  Oh, the reason Queen needs to have a scan is because the doctors have found a couple "spots" on her liver.  I'm not trying to speak for her.  She can explain it better than I can.

Drag, the pain is gone, as is the initial outbreak.  I'm really sorry about your ex.  Of course you feel bad.  I think that's normal.  I hope he doesn't have an agonizing death either.  Do they have an organization similar to the Hospice we have here?  They may be able to help when the time comes for that.

Cristy, you're still having problems with that cold?  Do you think it's time to go see a doctor? You don't want it turning into something that will take a long time to treat.  How's Robert's arm? 

Well, as I told Drag, the initial outbreak is over.  I sent copies of the pm I sent the guy to Ann and Jan, just as a precaution in case he were to start anything.  I don't think he will; he doesn't have the balls to.  As someone told me, he's very passive-agressive.   Anyway, I'm glad the initial outbreak is over.  I thought my doctor was going to put me on a constant dose of Acyclovir as a suppresive therapy, but he e-mailed me Thursday night and told me he's going to put me on Valtrex. 

Today I'm going to color my roots and do laundry.  I'll probably watch a couple of the movies I got from the library.  I started to watch one last night (Bowling for Columbine), but of course I fell asleep.  That should keep me busy anyway.  I hope you ladies have a good day.  I'll be back later.
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« Reply #16 on: May 17, 2008, 09:19:42 AM »
Betty, both Robert and I have doctor's appointments on Monday. Robert's arm is healing nicely but I am on the lookout for any new spots that would indicate Staph infection. So far it's just that one spot and it was a poison ivy spot to begin with. I think he just scratched it until it got infected. Thanks for asking.   Later, ladies.    Cristy

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« Reply #17 on: May 17, 2008, 12:51:25 PM »
Well, I didn't do any of what I had planned.  Instead, I was looking at the IRS website.  I found out that what I should have done when I refiled was to file an ammended return.  Instead, I filed one of the 1040's that came with the stimulus information package I got in the mail a couple months ago.  So, I printed out one of the ammended forms.  It's horribly confusing.  And now that the tax deadline has come and gone, there's no more free tax preparer places.  I filled it out the best I can, but I'm sure it's not right.  I'll tell you all, I'm about to give up on the whole fucking stimulus thing.  It just depresses me every time I think about it. 

So, I've done nothing.  I will probably watch "Bowling for Columbine" in a few minutes.  The forums are kind of boring today.  I guess everybody's busy. 
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« Reply #18 on: May 17, 2008, 12:54:47 PM »
Afternoon Ladies---

Nothing going on with me, going to try to finish my hair today. Um, let's see..There is no penalty for not responding to everyone's comments. Hell, there are times when I do not comment on what anyone says and just talks about me. Don't feel you have to stop posting and lurk because of that, Veritee. As for my liver, Betty pretty much covered it, I have a lesion whatever that is. At the moment, I don't know anymore than that.And Dragonette, you shouldn't have held back what you wanted to say because of what I am going through.

This thread is for bitching, ranting, screaming or whatever it is that has you pissed off, upset or whatever. Or even if you don't have anything you want to bitch about maybe you want to ROAR because something good has happened. The point is to share your thoughts.

I am out of here, got to get back to my hair while I feel like doing it. Have a good day everyone.
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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« Reply #19 on: May 17, 2008, 01:47:45 PM »
My sweet fellow TBs, all the love I can muster goes out from my heart to each and every one of you this fine Saturday / Sunday (for those on the other side of the ocean).  Our dance concert is tonight and I am nothing but exhausted.  I'm not cut out for endless late nights and unearthly early mornings.  The electric company decided to schedule a power outtage for this morning from 8am - 10am.  Not sure what brilliant idiot thought that Saturday morning was a SMART time to cut people's power, but I'm sure some of us would like to thank him personally - with our hands grasped tightly around his neck!  Where we live, when the power goes out, we have NOTHING - including water.  We have well water and the pump, of course, is electric.  So, no electricity means we can't cook, can't get phone calls, can't wash hands, brush teeth, or flush the toilet.  Hubby got up at 6:30 and cooked us all biscuits, bacon, and eggs.  We had to wake the kids up so they could eat and get washed up before the power went out.  There was a book fair at our church starting at 10:30, so if we didn't get washed up before..well..just...ew!  Also, the last time we had a scheduled 2-hr outtage, it turned into 6 1/2 hours!  Thankfully, it went out at 8:10 and was back on by 9:50.  Good job brilliant idiot!

My mom has been watching the 3 kids who don't dance this week while Hubby, #5, #1, Mini, and I have been in rehersals.  I called about 9:30 last night to tell her we're on our way home.  She sounded really funny and I thought something had happened to the kids.  But, she had just gotten off the phone with my dad.  Thier dog, Kandi, whom they had for 14 1/2 years had just died.  She jumped up on the couch next to my dad, then stopped breathing.  When he realized that her breathing was getting shallow, he just petted her and let her go.  He wrapped her in a blanket and laid her on the in the guest room.  They burried her this morning at sunrise next to their dog CoCo who died just after Christmas 2006.  She wasn't sick and had just been to the vet on Wed.  She'd been having breathing episodes and was going for an x-ray on Monday to check for congestive heart failure.  I'm just glad that dad was home and mom didnt' have to walk in and find Kandi dead by herself.  We haven't told the kids yet.  We'll tell them after the concert.  Mom wanted to do it, but didn't think she could, so i told her that we would tell them tomorrow before church.  We'll just tell them she was old and her heart gave out.  We DON'T want to tell them she died in her sleep - our Aspie babies would NEVER sleep, or get scared if anyone in the house fell asleep.  They understand "old" and "death" go together.  They don't need any details.

Betty: am I reading this right?  You got herpes from someone on the forum??  Not sure how I missed that one.  I didn't know you'd met anyone from this board, except, oh yeah, yikes!  I hope the meds are helping and you're doing better.

Cristy: I'm glad Robert's arm is doing better and isn't infected.  Poor lilttle man.  Let us know what the doc says on Monday.

I called Quick Care yesterday to get an antiviral and steroids called in for my poor lungs. I had to leave a message and they said they'd call back in 24hrs.  Well, suprise, suprise, 28hrs later I haven't heard a word!  Charge me $131 because I was there too long, but don't call me back with a prescription for something that will may make me better!  I can't believe I'm saying this, but I hope I get rejected soon so I can go see a real doctor.

Every one of you make today the best day possible!  I'll talk to you all if not tomorrow, then on Monday. Much love!
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« Reply #20 on: May 17, 2008, 01:54:19 PM »
Oh, I forgot to tell you all how my last labs came out.

My tcells are up to 139 from 122 and I am still undetectable.
I'm ok with those numbers. I wish the tcells where going up faster. Guess I'm not bouncing back as quickly as I did when I was younger. LOL
I'm tired often but other than that I am mostly ok.

I got my stimulus check. Bought a couple of shirts and a couple of things for the baby for when she is at our house. I put the rest in the bank to cover my movie rentals and for emergency money just incase I need to use my ATM card.

I found my son a new apartment yesterday. He will be moving out of the ghetto and closer to my house. I am so pleased with what I found I could just dance a jig. Its a one bedroom with 720 square feet with washer and dryer connections a fireplace and a private balcony for 595.00 a month plus utilities.

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« Reply #21 on: May 17, 2008, 06:12:36 PM »
hi ladies

am back from Ams, it was great. we just went back and from the house where the meeting was to the station, walking, but we didnt see anything apart from that.

i showed Snow's chain and everyone was wow, it's really pretty.

there were lots of beautiful children & babies there, all so well behaved, it was amazing. some of them are sadly HIV infected. there was also a woman who stays in a chronic hospital for HIV+, she is on some oxygen machine as her lungs only work very partially, she needs to be on it for life. they found her on the street in a coma when she stopped breathing - that's how she was diagnosed. she's such a lovely lady.

Betty, I have finally figured out what the stimulus is. i thought it was a tax return previously. what a headache. I hope it works out with the new forms.  Bowling for Columbine is a hard movie to watch. we have Sicko here but I am scared to watch it - dont want to get too upset. we have our share of Sicko stories here on the forums so its not like Im completely oblivious.

Cristy glad Robert's arm is on the mend.

Queen I hope the stimulus works soon for you too - and for everyone else who could really use it.

Veritee I'd hate to go to an STD clinic, even though HIV is sexually trasmitted, it doesn't affect the genitals, it's a completely different type of disease. so I don't see the logic of treating it with STDs.

Wini congrats on your new numbers. what was the reason the dropped? did you go on a med holiday? and about your son's new place, his current one sounded like such a dump. sounds great - can you find me a place, the market here is awful.

Mom sorry about Kandi the dog. at least she didn't suffer, we had to euthenize ours... its always so sad. how dumb and dumber about the medical service. How is Mini's brain fog? I hope better, she really is on some strong meds.

that's it from me tonight - feeling better, esp after sharing about my ex. at the moment I did, I felt unburdened, it really does help. so thank you :-*
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« Reply #22 on: May 17, 2008, 08:13:46 PM »
Evening ladies,

Queen, what are you doing to your hair?  Are you still taking out the braids?

Mum, that power outage sounds like a disaster.  I'm so sorry to hear about your parents' dog.  It sounds like she died in peace, which is always a good thing, but it doesn't ever seem to lessen the hurt.  You all have my condolences.  It's probably going to be very hard to tell the kiddos.  Good luck.  And yes, how I got the herps was from someone on these boards.  I really can't (or don't want) to say who, less I would get banned.

Wendy, congrats on your numbers going up.  It seems that when numbers dip below 200 it takes forever for them to come back up.  Your son's new apartment sounds wonderful.  When will he be moving in?

Drag, what exactly was Ams?  A getaway for HIV+ people?  I like things like that.  We used to have an organization that had things like Christmas parties for poz people.  There's none of that now.  The feds have cut so much money from ASO's, it's ridiculous. 

I slept for about 3 hours today.  I'm not as upset as I was earlier.  I just wish the whole stimulus thing was better prepared, thought through.  But, what can I do.  I might go to the local IRS office and see if they can figure out the whole mess with my situation.  That's what they're there for, right? 

I'll probably do my hair tomorrow and do the laundry Monday.  Tomorrow afternoon is an NA sisterhood gathering.  I'm looking forward to that.  There are some strong women, just as there are here. :)  All you ladies have a good night.
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« Reply #23 on: May 17, 2008, 09:35:27 PM »
Wendy-congrats on the numbers going up, they will continue to go up :)

Mum-sorry to hear about your parent's dog. At least it sounds like a peaceful death. Sounds like your are terribly busy this weekend, but it sounds like fun too!

Betty-sorry to hear you got herpes. that's terrible, but with meds, there shouldn't be a problem.

Drag-your trip sounds like fun! I know they are doing the cruise for poz people in the fall, and I would love to go, but I have no money :(

I am now on my fourth day of atripla and I think things are going well. The only thing that I really have noticed is that my appetite has been suppressed. I haven't finish a full meal, nor have I done my usual snacking since before I started. I am very much ok with that because I thought it was going to make me gain weight, I would much rather it help me lose weight!!
Other than working, not much is going on with me right now. Hope you all have a lovely evening!
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« Reply #24 on: May 17, 2008, 09:46:11 PM »
Aaron moves into his new place this Friday. We paid for him to move in early so we could get the dumpy apartment back into the same condition it was when he moved in. Don't know if I can but we are going to try.
He has a small hole in the wall where someone stumbled and hit the flimsy sheetrock. That wall has been spackled over before so covering another hole wont even be noticeable.
His carpet has had water leaked on it from the crappy a/c unit and of course they have used the floor to flick their cigarette ashes and what ever else him and his friends where smoking. Plus he spilled ink on it. So I doubt it will do much good but we will try to make it look decent. I want to bug bomb the place before moving his crap out of it. I hope that it will help keep his new place from being infested.

Texas has pretty good prices for housing compaired to alot of other states. But I got really lucky with this find. Apparently the complex rarely has an opening.

My numbers where low because I decided not to take meds for a couple of years. It was stupid. I wont do it again.
I had done it once before in the late 90's with no change in my tcells but this time I wasn't so lucky.

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« Reply #25 on: May 17, 2008, 09:51:48 PM »
Betty---I did some sew in. I think I did it right this time because I got complimented on it shortly after I finished it when I went to the store. I was thinking I would take some pictures of myself later on tonight since I have a cam now. The stimulus thing is only stimulating my frustration, I blogged about it. Then earlier today I blogged some more but more on a comedic kind of entry on cultures, blacks and whites. I figured I have done a lot of whining and moaning lately. I guess you will have to read it and form your own opinion but I warn you, I did smoke a joint before I wrote it.... ;D

Dragonette--I'm glad you enjoyed yourself at your group thing. And I wish I could sample some of the good green that is over there. I would probably have the munchies for days and scouting some booty. ;)

Pink---Glad you are handling the Atripla well. I don't think it affects my appetite one way or the other. I just know when I smoke the good green, I raid the fridge.

Wini---Thanks for the links. I am going to check them out. Congrats on your numbers too. Glad your son has moved to a better crib and closer to you.

My right calf and foot has been aching for the past few days. I'm not sure if it is the rain or my diabetes. One minute it aches so bad I have to rub then the next it goes numb. Eh, it's always something.
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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« Reply #26 on: May 17, 2008, 10:18:51 PM »
LOL Does that mean we should light a bowl before reading it?

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« Reply #27 on: May 17, 2008, 11:41:09 PM »
LOL Does that mean we should light a bowl before reading it?

I will leave that up to the individual.... ;D
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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« Reply #28 on: May 18, 2008, 02:55:27 AM »
Ok, I was bored and decided to play with my camera. Then I got bold or maybe it was the good green and decided to post my pic. Don't talk about me too bad, I know I look like I am ready to whip somebody's ass. What can I say, I never claimed to be photogenic. Here is another pic I was fooling around with.

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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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« Reply #29 on: May 18, 2008, 08:20:53 AM »
Morning ladies,

Queen, I love your pics.  I don't think you look angry.  I have a webcam but have no idea how to install it.  I'm going to have my brother's gf come over sometime and show me how to do that and use the scanner on my printer.  She's the computer geek.  Watch your foot aching though.  Does it tingle and have like sharp pains?

Pink, I'm glad your meds are working out for you. 

Wendy, good luck cleaning up the apartment.  That's not a job I would like.

Well, I'm feeling better this morning.  After I eat breakfast I'm going to do my roots.  I suppose I will go get some milk.  When I stopped by the store Friday, I looked at the price of milk and just got disgusted.  Then this afternoon I'll be going to that get-together with other ladies from NA.  That's always good.  There are a lot of personalities there, though, but we all get along.  Tonight my brother will be coming over so we can continue watching 'The Wire.'  I think we're almost done with season 1.  (he gets the DVDs).  I never did watch it from that far back.  It's very good though and McNulty was getting into shit way back then.

You ladies have a good morning.  I hope everyone else is doing well-Camms, Cindy, Wish, and everyone else I forgot to mention!
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« Reply #30 on: May 18, 2008, 08:25:01 AM »
Drag - I am so sorry about your ex. I can feel how painful it is for you and can understand why. I know I can not help in anyway but just wanted to say I am so sorry.

I wish I could go somewhere to spend a day or two with others with HIV . Despite meeting a couple of people I have met few women and I still feel very isolated and have lots that I would want to explore face to face  - you live in Europe? is this organised by an organisation I could get involved in here in the UK? i.e what is this Ams?

Your point about the STD clinic is so apt i.e 'Veritee I'd hate to go to an STD clinic, even though HIV is sexually trasmitted, it doesn't affect the genitals, it's a completely different type of disease. so I don't see the logic of treating it with STDs.'

Up till now I had been thinking my complete anger that my treatment is at a STD clinic is about HIV not being 'curable' and affecting your whole life in so many ways - but from this discussion I now realise that this is part of it too. HIV does not affect my genitals at all - and I do not even have thrush. So when I go their everyone else is getting their genitals looked at and treated ( and it is temporary and curable too for them ) but s with HIV we have never even had our genitals looked at at all, and it is our whole body, our whole health and well being and in some cases - my husbands for instance - about whether we live or die !!................................

This is just not an illness for a STD clinic - but if I say that their NO ONE AT ALL out of the staff understands - they just seem to think that I am in denial that I got it through sex and it is sexually transmitted - they just do not get my points!!

Thanks everyone who explained about the 'stimulus' we have heard about it on the news but it was not called that, I hope it helps a bit with the finances.

Winroo - glad your numbers have gone up. Mine were about like yours before I started meds and although I did not have any opportunistic infections like my husband now I have been on the meds for a month I realise that I was actually feeling pretty crap - I have so much more energy now. For me that is understandable as if my body is having to fight so hard all the time against this virus with no help, I can not possibly have mush energy left for anything else! I am guessing that now I am having help this leaves me with more resources for other things, it definitely feels this way for me  - I hope as they go up you will feel like this

Pink Beu
- glad the meds are going OK . My combination is the same as yours but in two separate tablets - and I had the suppressed appetite for a while but it has gone back to normal nearly - still eat a little less at each meal - now I have been on them a month

Minimum - sorry your lungs are still so bad - and where do you live that you have to pay so much for an out of hours service and then they do not call  you back. what do you mean that you hope you are rejected. is this a health insurance thing and if you get rejected you get better care/ as it does not seem like you are getting good care now to me ??
I know I am sooo lucky living in the UK because all my health care is free at the point of service.

we do and have paid for it via National Insurance contributions through our wages and both Barry and I have worked a lot and paid a lot as you pay more the more you earn. But if you can not pay you still get it for free, so we never have to worry and that's great!! I am sorry it is not like this for all . it is the one very good thing about living in the UK

Its a lovely Sunday - hot for here so I am off to do some gardening

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« Reply #31 on: May 18, 2008, 09:49:37 AM »
hi ladies,

ok first off AMS is short for Amsterdam... sorry i never thought that would cause confusion... so no is not the name of the org. they are called positive women of the world but it is a very small local organization pretty much run by 2 women who do everything, its just a way for poz women specifically non-Dutch (so, foreigner, mostly immigrants and asylum seekers) to get away from the very hard conditions that most of them live in and for one afternoon just sit and relax and have a bite and a chat. it was started by a woman who was also an asylum seeker back when she was still in the center for these immigrants, she's had an awful time here but now her life is looking up. the group is completely local and grassroots with very little funding. it's not a support group as such, it's barely an organization...

perhaps there is something similar in the UK. I think that the only way to meet people locally (which I haven't been able to) is to try to organize something in the area b/c only people in big cities are lucky that way... maybe thru the hospital, by hanging up notices, or thru a branch of a bigger aso.

Queen I like your pic and the writing underneath, made me laugh.

Pink - good luck with the meds and glad so far so good. i wish i was on something to supress my apetite (not too much though).

Betty glad youre not in pain anymore.

Thanks to all of you about the kind words re my ex. today I was also crying b/c my parents cat has died (very stupidly and painfully as a result of a series of vet errors during a routine tooth cleaning)... did I say PMS? not that i compare my ex to the cat, I am sad b/c my parents are sad and also for the cat. I know my ex is much worse but I am sad for both things. he is suffering and I can't help him. my parents are sad and I cant help them and they were helpless to help the cat even though they tried and spend a lot of money. What can you do?

Im kind of tired and run down blah so I will be short and send out greetings to everyone else - Snow, Win, Keeping, Cristy, Tendai, Wishful, Camms, Viv, Netta, Mom, Cindy, and all the regulars and irregular posters here. hope for a good week, for all of us.

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« Reply #32 on: May 18, 2008, 10:58:04 AM »
Good Morning Ladies. I am just enjoying a lazy Sunday morning. Everyone else has gone to church but I very rarely  go so am sitting here playing on the internet. I feel a little better today, not coughing so bad. I even managed to smoke a joint this morning so that made me happy.                                                                                      Queen, read your blog, love your picture here. Your camera takes good pictures.                                                                                  Pink Beauty, I have been on atripla for a while now and have found my appetite to go back and forth. Some days I have to force myself to eat and some days I eat everything I can get. I have gone from a size 18 to a size 14 but I am happy with that. The nurse at my doctor's office suggested Ensure to make sure I get the nutrients I need. I also take prenatals and they help.                                                                   Betty, the price of food here is ridiculous, just like gas. Everything is becoming more expensive but you get smaller portions and our foodstamps got cut to $100 per month.         Glad you are feeling better, hope you have a great time at the NA sisterhood meeting .    Win, glad you found your son a better place. And closer is better , too.    Your numbers sounded kinda low to me until I read that you had taken a 2 year holiday so actually they are not that bad.           Veritee , I agree that HIV is more than just an STD, It affects our hole body, mind and soul . I go to an infectious disease clinic. You have to be referred to go  there. Maybe you could find a specialist in your are.  Hope you get lots done in your garden. We are waiting for the peas to start producing.                                                          Dragonette, glad you got to go meet with the other poz women. Hope the PMS eases soon. That is one thing I don't miss at all!!!!!   Get some rest. Everybody else, hope you have a great day.                  Later, Cristy

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« Reply #33 on: May 18, 2008, 12:09:33 PM »
The lowest my tcells have been was 3 somewhere around 1994. I bounced back up to 600 or something only to fuck it all up again messing with drug holidays.

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« Reply #34 on: May 18, 2008, 01:45:19 PM »
OK, I just wanted to clear something up.

If you all remember, about 3 or 4 months ago, I screwed a guy at an NA convetion.  The man I had the one-time fling with had no visible signs of anything, and we used a condom.  He also informed me he has Hep C, and though I don't know of a single case of Hep C transmission via hetero sex, the reason I'm saying this is because we both laid out our cards. 

When I was thinking about this yesterday, I felt myself going into a conundrum.  So, I e-mailed my doctor and asked him "could it have been possible that I got herpes from the guy I screwed one time at an NA convention 3-4 months ago that I used a condom with?"  His answer was "the chance that you got herpes from the man you had the one-time fling with, using a condom, is about 1/2%.  The chances you got it from the guy you were having sex with every other weekend (without a condom) is 99 1/2%." 

The reason I'm saying this is because I think I mentioned the infector was the only person I'd slept with in 4 years.  I remembered yesterday that this was not true.  So, I'm just keeping myself honest.  Have a good afternoon ladies.
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« Reply #35 on: May 18, 2008, 01:59:58 PM »
Afternoon Ladies---

I wouldn't hold it against you, Betty. I actually forgot about the guy at the convention and it doesn't matter since you KNOW who did it. I am just chilling and am surprised that I am even up considering I didn't go to bed til almost 6 this morning. I was just having a bit of fun with the kittens and the camera. I am still trying to figure it out and it's hard trying to take a pic of yourself even if it has a time. Finding the right angle posed a problem or it could've been that I was high... ;) ;D

As for my feet, it just started but I am considering calling my doctor tomorrow, the primary and the clinic nurse of my ID doc. It seems to be getting worse to the point my toes are hurting and I find myself constantly rubbing my feet. I didn't check my sugar yesterday at all and was munching heavily, nothing sweet but things like shrimp.

I really hate being broke and have stopped looking in my account for my stimulus check. Though I could use it now, one of my hearing aid batteries just died on me and I don't have any more. I know the other one will soon be going out. Good thing I have captioning on my tv, myy roomie is going to have to talk loud today.. :D

It's a wrap for now. I will check back in later...
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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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« Reply #36 on: May 18, 2008, 02:23:00 PM »
Hey Everyone-
My oldest son and I just got back today from a camping trip with the cub scouts. The first night was miserable and rainy and I slept in my car and last night was nice enough to sleep in the tent, a little cold but bearable.  He had a lot of fun so that is all that matters.

I haven't gotten my stimulus payment yet either.  At first I thought I was supposed to get it around the 9th, then the 16th but I haven't gotten anything.  I had actually got a shut off notice for my electric because we have electric heat and the bill is outrageous in the winter.  My case manager was going to see about getting me emergency money but couldn't do it until I had a payment plan set up.  But I couldn't set up a payment plan until half of the bill was paid(about $550).  The shut off was for the 17th and I thought I would be able to pay it by then with my stimulus check but obviously that didn't work.  Finally, Friday my SO came up with some of the money and I called to make a payment plan.  Do you know this heifer actually told me I was going to have to pay over $1000 for my electric for the next 6 months?  I said my total bill is $1100 total, yes but I calculated what electricity you are estimated to use, would you like me to calculate it without?  DUH.....if I can't pay $1000 for a couple months of service, what makes you think I can come up with it every month?  I was so frustrated last week I thought I was going to stroke.


Uggh!  I got a call from my sons father this weekend.  I thought it was my mother because of the area code and someone came on the line and said someone wants to talk to you. He wanted me send him some pics of my son and give him my address so he could write him, nope sorry, not happening.  He thinks he is only going to get 2 months, I hope he is wrong.
Drag- Sorry to hear about your ex and your Moms cat.  Sounds like you had a nice get together with the ladies.

Betty-  Sorry to hear about your outbreak.  I got that back in the day when I got HIV, hurts like a bitch.  Sorry that guy didn't have the balls to tell you about it.  I totally hear you on the food bank food, I had gotten a box that had a frozen meat something in it.  It was oval shaped and had the white plastic wrap around it, when it was cooked half of it looked like turkey and the other half was dark brown, i have no idea what the hell it was, it totally grossed me out.


Queen- I like your pics.

Win- Good luck cleaning up the apartment, your son is very lucky, you do so much for him.

Mum and cjc- I hope you both are feeling better and Mum I hope the recital went well.

Sorry if I missed anyone.

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« Reply #37 on: May 18, 2008, 04:56:17 PM »
Just checking in after cleaning up the house basically by myself once again. I swear it get frustrating and wanting to move doesn't make it any better. Snow, I can relate to how you feel with your electric bill, I go through the same thing with the gas company. I hope your ASO can help you out. Mine could only make one payment for me since I am on their rental assistance program and I am still a month behind on my payment plan. But it is getting warmer and using less gas so I hope I can get it caught up. I do not plan to stay another winter here. And the arrival of stimulus checks is a joke at best. I am glad I didn't plan on paying my bills with it. I have a plan for it.

Betty- Girl, you need to download Yahoo messenger and let me walk you through setting up your webcam. It is doable and rather simple. I am sure it came with an installation disk, most do. It's not like I have anything better to do either.. ;D

I plan on cooking some steak and fries. Something quick since cleaning has made me kinda tired. I'll check back in later.
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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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« Reply #38 on: May 18, 2008, 11:55:38 PM »
Hi! I am just checking in. Spent most of the weekend trying to stay cool. It has been SOOOOOO hot here and my air condintioner decided to stop working.... :'( Vivian (my dog) and I spent most of time at my parent's house. That's all. I skimmed through the posts. All is good for the most part. Talk to you all tomorrow!

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« Reply #39 on: May 19, 2008, 03:17:31 AM »
hi guys

hope everyonehad a good weekend.

wendy - good to see u back. at least u got aaron out of that place he was at. good luck with the cleaning, dont envy u there..

queen - i hope the doctors finds out whats wrong with your feet, it could be the diabetes..and the pictures are great. i dont know when i'll get the nerve to post mine. id u mena u sewed in your weave by yourself, i didnt think that was possible :D. u should think of doing people's hair at home or something, make a little extra cash..

drag- the molloscum is spreading? oh no, have u seen anyone about it yet? i hope its not painful.  glad u had a nice weekend meeting people and all. and sorry about the ex, hopefully he's not suffering all that much. and sorry about the cat. u're really sensitive u know that? :-*

pink - i'm glad u're tolerating the meds well

CJC -  glad Robert's arm is doing better

Veritee- thanks for the offer to send underwear. i found some finally.  theres a shop here where my little sister swear she will never be seen shopping in coz the clothes are so hideous. i managed to get some before they were finished, there were only a few left. nice comfortable cottons. i understand your anger about the STD clinic, i hope u can find somewhere better to go to.

Betty - if that scumbag starts anything in the other threads he'll certainly wish he hadnt.  at least the pain is gone now..

snow - sheesh that bill is really high, its about Zim$250billion  :o :o :o

mum -hope u're feeling better

i went to my aunts over the weekend. napoleon's moved in clothes, shoes, blankets, underwear etc. he even brought a tv, radio and dvd player and a fan from the other wife.  she wrote him this pathetic letter saying how sorry she was that she wasnt the right woman for him and how he shouldnt forget his son and how she needed his help moving to a new place and paying rent for the first month, really sad. my aunt said 'good for her, now she knows how i felt when she took him away from me'. i didnt ask her why or anything just kept quiet :-X, none of my business. she sure doesnt want anyone interfering, i was told she said' its so nice waking up with your husband and asking waht he wants for breakfast for him"  ::). we'll just leave her alone. its like drag said, 'when the dick is up the brain goes up the ass' or something

12 zimbabweans were killed in south africa in xenophobic attacks coz of rising prices etc in south africa. my older brother is there and so are three of my cousins. i have no idea how they are. i'm so worried :'(

(((((((((((((((((hugs to everyone))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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« Reply #40 on: May 19, 2008, 08:25:49 AM »
Morning ladies,

Snow, is that lady at the electric company serious-$1000 over the next six months?!  That doesn't sound logical to me.  I hope you can get some help with that bill.  I hope SB gets more than two months also.  That'll get him out of your hair for awhile. 

Queen, will you be able to get help replacing that battery for your hearing aid?  It seems that it wasn't that long ago that you were having trouble with your hearing aids.  Oh, I figured out why the webcam wouldn't set up the first time I tried to do it.  I opened one "help" window and my computer told me that the program that sets up the webcam isn't supported by Windows Vista, which is what I have.  It says it was made for the previous Windows programs.  So, it won't work.  I suppose I should tell my gay bff so maybe he could get his money back for it.   Now, I'm not trying to diagnose you or anything (of course, that's up to your doctor), but with the trouble you're having with your feet, I'm wondering if you're developing neuropathy.  I have it and used to have the pain that you mentioned.  It felt like severe tingling, needles and pins etc.  I take Neurontin for mine, though I am on an extremely high dose (2400 mgs a day).  Most people aren't on that high of a dose.  If it's still bothering you, I'd say get in touch with your doctor.  I sure hope section 8 comes through soon for you.  I used to be on my ASO's rental assistance programs, but I've used them up.  If it weren't for section 8, I would be in the homeless center.  I barely scrape by every month with section 8.  I know you know what I mean.

Viv, I'm sorry about your air conditioner.  I know what it's like to not have it when the temps get up there.  It's miserable.  I hope you can get it fixed soon.

Tendai, wow 12 Zimbabweans?  That must be so scarey; it would be to me.   I'm glad you were able to find underwear.   I think you're right to mind your own business concerning your aunt.  If you told her how you really feel, you'd probably risk her anger. 

Speaking of underwear, I have to do laundry today.  I'm also going to go sit at the local IRS office so they'll help me with the ammended tax return; it's very confusing.  I'm sure they'll be packed, so I anticipate a long wait.  But wait I'll do.  I know it's just $300, but hey, $300 is a lot of money to me, as I'm sure it is to all us ladies here.

Yesterday's NA sisterhood meeting went well.  We're going to have a couple upcoming things.  One is called a speak-a-thon.  That's where we get different recovery related topics and have different people speak on them for 1/2 hour that will last about 7 hours (with a break in between of course).  One of the topics that seemed to be hot we'll be using is called "talking clean, living dirty."  We're also going to host the annual Unity Picnic.  It is as it's called; meant to bring together the different ethnicities in the program.  It's always a success. 

Nothing else to report right now.  I'll be back later.  Have a good one ladies.
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« Reply #41 on: May 19, 2008, 02:23:25 PM »
Man, I swear the IRS don't know what the hell they are doing. I finally reached a person from the number Betty provided. He told me that those of us on disability are the last ones getting processed and even though the site has a date provided, those are for people who normally file taxes. So now I guess I won't be getting mine until the first or second week of June. I told the man that they should put that on the website because people(those on disability) are thinking that they will get them on the dates they see on their website.

I called the liver specialist to see what is the hold up with where I am suppose to be going. She confirmed that it would be Pittsburgh but they can't give me a date until they receive a referral from my primary doctor. The nurse said she would be calling my primary to get the referral and call me back. I probably won't be hearing anything back today since it seems like my primary doctor is never in in the afternoon. I just got off the phone with my ID clinic nurse, my vl load is still undetectable which is good though my ID doc thinks my cd4 of 705 is a mistake because I missed a week of meds.

I am feeling frustrated and just want to bang my head.
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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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« Reply #42 on: May 19, 2008, 02:29:22 PM »
Hello ladies. Haley <grand daughter> spent the night with us last night.
Fortunately Billy <my honey> didn't have to get up and go to work early.
I got up at 6 am and went to work then had to go get Aaron <my son> and take him to register for an exam tommorrow.

I was checking my bank records last night and noticed the bank had a service charge of 12 dollars on this months statement. So I was like WTF? I checked back several months and they have been charging me 12 dollars since October of last year.
I went to the bank and asked why. Found out that since I wasn't getting Aaron's SS check direct deposited anymore they where charging me for some stupid reason.
I told the lady I wanted my money reimbursed or I was going to cancel my account.
After talking to her manager she said they could only go back 2 months.
Well needless to say I'm pissed at the bank. I'm waiting for that 24 dollars to get into my account and I'm going to close my account.
If the bank is going to charge you something and not tell you it feels like theft to me.

I don't have an extra 96 dollars to spare on bank bullshit.
They switched me to free checking. Dumb bitch says well you wont be able to use online bill pay. I've never used online bill pay. Why the hell would I want something I don't use? Apparently I wont get free checks anymore. Which I also never used.

<shakes head>

Banks suck.

Anywho, the baby just left with her mom so I have the house to myself.
On a lighter note I played with Google earth and found a picture of my house.
Pretty fun...


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« Reply #43 on: May 19, 2008, 04:32:32 PM »
My house is on google maps and google earth - with a satellite picture on both - one very close up so you can even see my car and the horses in the field and the sheds and outbuildings - and I live in the middle of nowhere :o

We used to feel really 'safe' because we live up an unmade track and while it fairly close to the village no one would suspect anyone lived up my track.

So there was never any chance at all of us ever getting burgled/robbed for instance as no one would know the house was there and when I was totally alone in this house for months on end when my husband was at sea I never feared anything because no one but my friends would find it, so I never even used to lock my car or my house doors.

But now anyone with a PC can look at our village see that there is an isolated house up the track on the moor with no one about and zoom into an areal view of our home the outbuildings and our fields that surround it

I love the internet - and the way it enables me to communicate with people from all over the world  - but some things are not so good

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« Reply #44 on: May 19, 2008, 07:06:40 PM »
Evening ladies,

Queen, the IRS is just very, very frustrating.  I hope your ID doc gets the referral done soon, so you have something to tell your case manager.  If you bang your head, I'll come bang mine next to you.  That might win us a couple free trips to the nearest mental ward.  I have a friend who's been trying to get on disability for the past couple years and his doctor tells him it wouldn't be therapeutic for him.  He says the next time he sees her, he's banging his head in her office to see if that convinces her.  I don't know why I just told you that; just know, you're not alone.

Wendy, I would close out my account also.  It doesn't seem even legal that they could be charging you for something they didn't tell you about.  And their reasoning makes no sense.  I belong to a credit union and they're great.  I used to belong to a bank, and they were some bitches.

Veritee, there have been satellites outside for years that have been able to monitor people's houses.  It all sounds very Jetsons, I know.  Yes, the internet is good in a lot of ways, but I suppose one could find out anything they wanted about someone, which in some cases wouldn't be good.

Well, I did laundry today, came home, put it away and went to another local food bank.  The quality of the food was a little better this time.  Then I came home, ate and went to the local IRS office.  I hadn't mailed the ammended return yet; I wanted to talk to an agent.  The agent told me not to file it.  She said I should have come to them before I refiled with the second return. (like, how the fuck would I know that).  I'm not in trouble or anything.  She looked online and told me someone was assigned today to my case.  So, whatever. 

Queen, it sounds like we people on disability are being treated like 2nd class citizens, having to wait until after everyone else gets their stimulus payments.  Which sucks.  And it's unfair.  But, what can we do.  I do agree though, that the IRS's website should have something stating that about disability recipients.  I'm sure a lot of people are still waiting, not knowing.  When and if I get mine, I'm going grocery shopping.  I've been eating macaroni and cheese and hot dogs since last Wednesday.  And I'm tired of it. Grateful to be eating though.

Other than that, nothing else today.  Tomorrow afternoon I'm headed back to the ASO.  You ladies have a good evening.
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« Reply #45 on: May 19, 2008, 08:34:19 PM »
You'd think people on disability or those living below the poverty line would receive their checks first.
It certainly would make since to give money to those who truly need it before those who already have money in the bank. They'd be spending it the quickest and thats what the government wants.

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« Reply #46 on: May 19, 2008, 08:49:29 PM »
Good evening ladies. Hope everyone had a good day.  My  and  Roberts  doctors appointments went well . Dr J said Robert's arm is healing nicely and that was just the right thing to do: drain the boil. He now has had all his immunizations until he is 12. Dr J said he is right on track except he weighs 63 pounds and is 46 inches tall. He is just a stout little fellow and constantly asks for food.                                  My appointment went well. My CD4 is 570 and I am undetectable. He said I just have a cold and recommended  Robitussin for my cough. He did give me some Lunesta to help me sleep. I took one about 20 minutes ago and we will see if it helps me sleep. We went by Goodwill and I found a cute summer dress for $5 and a brown polo shirt for Robert.                                                                                                     Snow, how the hell do they expect you to pay that?  I hope SB gets more than 2 months so ya'll can have a break.     Ladies , I'm done for the night , will respond to everyone else tomorrow. Goodnight.  Cristy                                                                                   
You'd think people on disability or those living below the poverty line would receive their checks first.
It certainly would make since to give money to those who truly need it before those who already have money in the bank. They'd be spending it the quickest and thats what the government wants.
           I agree

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« Reply #47 on: May 20, 2008, 03:52:13 AM »
morning ladies,

I got my period (5 months since we started trying to get pregnant) so i was not feeling too well, today I am home b/c a friend is getting married smack in the middle of that day so i have to prepare for that, do my hair etc. it feels wierd.

Win, I have had the same with my bank. They've been chargin me 8 euro per quarter just to have my account, not telling me either. I switched from my cheaper account so I could have a credit card and a few weeks later they sent me a very fancy letter from HQ denying me that - cos I dont make enough money, hehe stinking foreigner, you're good enough to upgrade to a "professional" acount for not good enough for a credit card. I shouldve swicthed banks a long time ago but I have so many direct deposits and direct payments (everything works that way here), I am not bothered. But you know what, reading you, I AM bothered. I will do it, why the hell not? I always have to wait for the shit to really hit the fan before I do something - it took me more than 2 years to switch my idiots of a GP & dentist for example.

Betty, at least there is an IRS place to drop by, here everything is automated and if a human answeres they are completely cluless b/c they are outsourced, they know nothing about tax. So that's the stimulus check, giving citizens money so they will spend it on the economy, just brilliant. It's disgusting that they put the disability last, but not surprising.

Veritee, I hear you about the google thing, it is creepy. But you are not alone there anymore, and your area in general is very tranquil, and there are a lot of lone houses too sprinkled about.

Snow, that sucks about the gas. I hope together with SOs contribution you can pull it thru. (shakes head). they just raise the prices of basic goods further and further and then wonder why people can't pay. About SB - would it be possible to get a restraining order?

My gas bill is huge too - it was avaraged at 127 Euro per month last year but this year we were heating like crazy b/c it was so cold, and we were sharing (last year, I spent a lot of time at my BFs and showered there and at the gym), so I expect it to go up to about 200 Euro (around 350$) a month. That is for the whole year, as it is averaged there are no peak months in the bills. I will definatly never attempt living without central heating again, not only expensive but frigging cold.

But here I am complaining again when in Zimbabwe things cost way more than in Europe and the salaries are but a fraction... I read about the riots in SA Tendai, you must be so scared. Have you heard from him?
 They are around Johannesburg I dont know if your brother is there. sorry I have not been good with emails in the past days, just with work picking up and me being tired I don't find the time. I don't manage my time very well either. But at least here in the forums I can keep in touch with a few people at once. I also read that the opposition leader Tsveringai (I am sure I wrote his name wrong, from memory) is coming back for the new elections despite the fact that the gov't has send a hit squad of 18 killers after him before he left. I pray that he will not be assassinated. Let's put it that way, I pray for that and that rigging the new electios fails miserably, but if the old turd just did everyone a favor and disappeared down the drain, would be the perfect solution.

Queen, good luck with the appt. I guess you will spend your stimulus on getting there - there are a lot of things I want to say about that but all of them angry and sad but I guess I have had enough of a menstrual rant today.

Cristy, good about Robert's arm. In the pictures he doesn't look chubby. congrats on your #s.

Cindy, where are you? How are you?

Hugs to everyone, all the beautiful strong women on here
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« Reply #48 on: May 20, 2008, 04:12:11 AM »
(((Tendai)))
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« Reply #49 on: May 20, 2008, 04:41:36 AM »
thanks Drag, i needed that :-*

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« Reply #50 on: May 20, 2008, 07:38:31 AM »
Morning ladies,

Cristy, good news about Robert and your labs.  I'm glad what you have is nothing more than a simple cold. 

Drag, sorry you're having another period.  I haven't had one for a couple months since starting the Depo shot.  I really don't understand how a bank could get away with taking money out of people's accounts just for someone having an account.  It makes no sense.  That's why I like credit unions.  Like I told Wendy, I used to belong to a bank, but they were really some bitches.  Truly.  The credit union I belong to has been terrific. I've never applied for a credit card through them, but that's because my credit is a shambles.  The ironic thing about me belonging to the credit union I do is because it's Notre Dame credit union and I despise Notre Dame University.  There's way too much wealth at that school that doesn't get funneled like it should.  They won't give any money to the ASO here, which makes no sense. 

Well, not much to report this morning.  Today I'm going to the ASO for the volunteer thing.  I wonder what's going on with people who don't post here.....Cindy, Wish, Snow (just haven't heard much out of you lately), Camms, Keeping, anyone I'm missing, chime in sometime.  We miss you guys.
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« Reply #51 on: May 20, 2008, 08:27:10 AM »
Good Morning Ladies!

Cristy- :)
Drag-How was the wedding?
Win-I totally know how you feel. Even though it is a small amount it adds up. Keep an eye on them! ;)
Queen-I hope you get in there soon. Have you tried calling the primary doctor to see when he/she is going to call the specialist?
Veritee- I have tried to use that but I can't find my house. I am not technologically advanced though...
Tendai-Sounds like a lot is going on

Well I am still trying to stay cool. We are getting new roofs and along with that the Home Owner's Association has decided to provide us with a "deal" on new air conditioning units. The ones up now are very old...perfect timing right? Well the "deal" is $1550! That is just for the basic unit. Yeah, like that is going to happen. I am soooo irritated! I am going to have to call the ac guy who fixed last year to come out and do it again. He told me then I am probably going to have to get a new one...add that to the list. I just want him to do what he can to get it work so I can get some relief. Of course this happens right before summer. It has been cooling down a little so that is nice.

Yesterday the kids were really good. We are finishing up state reports so they are working really hard. We also have Open House this Thursday so we are trying to finish everything we can. The kids last day is June 12th and mine is the 13th....can't wait!!!!

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« Reply #52 on: May 20, 2008, 09:04:15 AM »
Good morning ladies!  I am here and I am alive, barely.  I woke up this morning with one massive crazy headache.  It's cold and rainy and if I don't see sun soon, i'm running away.  I've been on breathing treatments since Sunday - 4x/day - and they help.  I'm still taking zertec, but I've been able to stop all the other stuff since starting the albuterol treatments.  I'm looking into the possibility of some other "stuff" that it could be, so I'm hoping for a nice, full, recovery very soon.

Win: aren't kids great - especially when you can send them home :P  I've got about 14yrs before our youngest is 18.  I've already told my oldest that he can't have kids till at least 10yrs after that (he'll only be 34)...lol..i need some "baby free" years.  I keep reading about everyone's holiday horrors and still can't wrap my head around the fact that Mini's doc actually suggested we stop her meds for the summer. 

Drag: sorry about your ex, your parents cat, and your period.  I know how you feel. 

Cristy: good news about Robert's arm.  You did everything right and he's healing up nicely.  He is a big boy, especially when I compare him to our #6 who is the same age.  She weighed in at 26lbs and 32 inches.  She'll need a nice strong boy to protect her  ;D

Queen: I feel you pain, hun.  I've quit looking.  Maybe one day I'll be suprised...maybe...one day.

Betty, tendai, wish, cindy, and everyone else...much love to you all for a wonderful week.

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« Reply #53 on: May 20, 2008, 01:50:49 PM »
Good afternoon Ladies,



Just dropping in to say hello to everyone. Nothing really exciting going on in my life at the moment. I'm still enjoying the married life. School is out for our children. My son is gone for the summer. Besides that all I have to do now is work and school. Im still waiting on my stimulus check. June isn't coming fast enough. Well im off to wash my truck. 


Talk to you gys later.

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« Reply #54 on: May 20, 2008, 03:05:15 PM »
My date with the liver specialist in Pittsburgh is scheduled for June 3rd. Now I am trying to figure out how I will get there. I am hoping that I might be able to rent a car for the day or something. I have to do some research on that and see if it is possible.

My case manager and her boss showed up for a home visit today. They sang their praises of me being so proactive with things and what a strong individual I am for the issues I am dealing with..yada yada. I expressed my wanting to move from where I am to someplace else. I updated them on Section 8 which is I am still waiting. Other than that, not much going on here.

Keeping-- I never did get those pics to my email. Resend them again if you like.

Betty-- Hope you are having a good day at your ASO.

Tendai-- Hmm, your Aunt sounds like my sister who depends on a man and puts a man before everyone and anything. But I treat my sister with a long handled spoon anyway.

Cristy--Glad you and your son's appointment went well.

Mum-- I am worried about you. Those doctors don't sound like they know what the hell they are doing. And is trying to suck your purse strings dry. Freaking Quacks.

I need to go grab something to eat. I will check in later with you guys.
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
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« Reply #55 on: May 20, 2008, 04:41:09 PM »
I keep reading about everyone's holiday horrors and still can't wrap my head around the fact that Mini's doc actually suggested we stop her meds for the summer. 


Why would they want her to stop meds for the summer? It cant be to give her a sense of normality. For her taking meds should be normal to her.

Is this doctor a HIV specialist?

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« Reply #56 on: May 20, 2008, 05:53:19 PM »
Hi everyone-
I finally got my stimulus check yesterday, I don't have much left after I pay some bills. I had to pay 69 bucks for the trip  lets graduation gowns.....what a waste, like they are ever going to use those again.  As I was leaving the school late last week with the just the trip  lets, there were 6 or 7 young boys sitting on a bench and they started calling me bitch, white bitch, slut?  At first,I couldn't believe what I was hearing but they were all staring at me while 2 or 3 of them called me names.  I mentioned to one of the teachers upstairs on Friday because her granddaughter goes downstairs too and when I came in yesterday, the head of the daycare wanted to talk to me and get me to write a letter.  I guess, a young boy wouldn't let a mother in the school one day.  What the hell is wrong with these kids?  I hate confrontation anyways but especially having 3 small ones it makes me really nervous that I won't be able to protect everyone.
SB's court date got continued until June 10th, he is going to court tomorrow but in a different town for the same charge.  I was talking to his daughter today and she said his soon to be ex-wifes lawyer is saying he might get two years.
I have been feeling so discombobulated lately, I have been tired and moody and tired some more.  I am not sure what it is from?
Mum- I don't understand them wanting her to take a drug holiday either?  What was thier reasoning?

cjc- I am glad Roberts infection is clearing up. Your counts are great!

Queen- What the hell does your case manager do?  She should be driving you to your appt, that is what happens around here if someone needs a ride or assistance.

Viv- Over 1500 for an air conditioner, good googly moogly, hope that thing has a warranty for like 25 years and includes all repairs.

Betty- I have been around just feeling blah and missing a lot of what people say unless someone else mentions it.  How are you doing?  I am glad you like volunteering so far.

Veritee- I googles my house too, that is really scary, thier is a people finder thing that if you put in names it will come up with a persons name, age, and relatives....kinda freaky.  How are you feeling?

Tendai , Keeping, Wish, Win, and everyone hugs to you all.

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« Reply #57 on: May 20, 2008, 06:42:49 PM »
Evening ladies,

Mum, the doctor wants Mini to go on a drug holiday?!  That's crazy.  I wouldn't do it.  I didn't have good results when I took one for three months.  My CD4s went from 600 down to 300 and my viral load went from undetectable to 314,000.  I've never heard of a doctor actually recommending one; not since all the new studies have come out against it.    I hope you get to feeling better.

Viv, that's a deal, aye?  Yeah, tell them you got a deal to put a shoe up their asses.  I know you're counting down the days.

Queen, did you ask your case manager about getting you to that appointment on the 3rd?  They should help out in some way; that's part of their job.

Snow, I'm sorry you had to hear that kind of language out of such young minds.  That's terrible.  I would have said something also.  No, you won't be able to protect everyone.  But don't worry about that now.  Time takes care of itself in these instances.  I'm sorry you're feeling blah.  Tired and moody?  It's not PMS?  Talk to your doctor if it doesn't improve and don't let him brush it aside.  You might be having some kind of hormonal imbalance.  Really.

The volunteering went well today and I was able to get some food from the ASO's food pantry.  So, I'm set for the rest of the month, food wise.  Nothing unusual happened today. 

This weekend I'm going away for an NA convention.  I paid for it back in March when I got some pell grant money from my school.  It's at a place called Camp Mack.  It's outdoorsy, but they do have indoor plumbing and showers, and we don't sleep in tents.  I would not do that, puh-leeze.  There's indoor sleeping facilities.  But, it's on a lake.  I'm looking forward to that.  I'll probably see some people I haven't seen in a long time.  My bff is going, and a few other ladies I've known for years. 

Nothing else to report this evening.  I hope you ladies are having a good one.
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« Reply #58 on: May 20, 2008, 06:58:30 PM »
thier is a people finder thing that if you put in names it will come up with a persons name, age, and relatives....kinda freaky. 



I googled for a people finder out of curiosity and came up with http://www.intelius.com/ I put my name and state and sure enough it listed all my relatives with my last name except my son and it even had my mother on there who has a different last name.

For a small fee they would show anyone with my first and last name all sorts of personal info about me. Fortunately for me the addresses given are not my current one. They have my former step mother listed as a relative. LOL she hasn't been married to my Dad in over 15 years.

Bizarre...



Speaking of punk kids. Seems like there are more of them now than when I was a kid.
Girls are more aggressive too. It surprises me how many kids I've had to remind over the years that I am a mom and they need to watch what they say and not cuss in front of me.

I'd never do that when I was a kid.


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« Reply #59 on: May 20, 2008, 07:40:27 PM »
No, my case manager did not even suggest driving me there herself and when she did the home visit today, her supervisor was there with her. And she did not suggest it either. Instead my case manager is trying to call my welfare case worker and see if they will dispurse any funds to get me there. I think that is unlikely and the same thing goes for medicare.If my old case manager was still alive, he would've driven me there. Now you see the kind of stuff I have to endure with my current case manager. The only option I see available to me is renting a car to go. I went to the train website too but no trains run early enough to get me there on time. Well, one leaves at 7 am but doesn't get into Pittsburgh til 12 hours later at 7 pm.

With a car rental you need a credit card, I have a pre-paid one but they may not accept it even if I put the money on there for it. I asked a friend if he would let me give him the money and use his card. I am waiting to hear back from him. If he says no then I am pretty much fucked.

And girls are just as aggressive as the boys, 3 girls here all around 11 years old broke another 11 year old girl's hip a few weeks ago. I think the girl got out of the hospital a few days ago. The girls are being charged with assault. Yep, the world we live in is pretty fucked up.

I'll be back later. I am frying some chicken so I got to go keep an eye on it.
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8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
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« Reply #60 on: May 20, 2008, 09:31:49 PM »
Win, yes, Mini's doctor is an HIV-specialist who deals mainly with peds.  Mini is her youngest patient, but she's seeing more and more teenagers.  She suggested back in January when she had the reaction to Viramune that we stop Mini's meds for 3mths and let Mini get a viral load so that we could re-do her genotyping to include the new drugs that have come out since she was diagnosed in 2000.  I was suprised since Doc was so stinkin' against even changing her susteva to viramune.  We really had to push and THAT turned out to be a disaster.  If her labs this time showed a VL or a significantly decreasing t-cell (it dropped, but from 1394 to 1207), then we would have considered it.  But, her labs are WONDERFUL on only a 2-med regiment, so stopping meds is totally off the table.

Docs called in yet another prescription for Bioxin.  It's 500mg / 2x day for 10 days.  The 20 pills cost me over $80 out of pocket.  I'm not sure it will work, but I'll try anything at this point.  And, if it doesn't work, I'm calling the doc and telling them to call in an oral med for a yeast infection.  I have a very sneaking suspicion that what i actually have is a yeat infection in my lungs.  The tests, though, are VERY extensive and expensive.  We just don't have that kind of money.  So, this is my 2nd antibiotic, and I've been on an anti-viral, steroids, and albuterol.  If Bioxin doesn't work, I'll use it to backdoor a prescription for Deflucan. 

I spent most of the day today having a good cry.  I'm so tired of being sick, out of energy, not sleeping, and generally feeling like crap.  I feel silly complaining to you ladies about something so trivial.  And, yes, i feel guilty about letting it get to me.  You ladies conquer bigger beasts than this everyday.  Thinking about your collective strength got me over my funk.  Here's to much better days ahead - for all of us.

Queen: does medicare in your state offer non-emergency medical transportation (nemt) reinbersement?  Here, we also have a medical transportation service specifically for people on medical cards.  It's usually a mini-van with a driver.  We have one here called 5-star medical.  It may be worth calling your local DHHR and asking.  We've had our share of trips to Pittsburgh with Mini.  Both to Pittsuburgh Children's and to Allegheny General.  Make sure that they will take your medical card as payment since you'll be traveling out of state.  Children's took it, but Allegheny wouldn't and we had to pay $500 before we ever saw the doctor. It took them 4mths, and LOTS of phone calls and threats, before they returned the money we didn't use.

Snow, I know what you mean about kids now a days.  It's downright scarey.  I just read in the paper today that child and teen crimes are up in our state - a state that 10yrs ago had towns with NO crimes since recorded history.  Our evening news used to be a joke because all of our "bad" news was imported from other states.  Now we have our own crap and it's insane.

All of you have wonderful Wednesday!
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« Reply #61 on: May 20, 2008, 09:49:47 PM »
Ohhh I understand now. But I don't see why they want to do a genotype if the meds seem to be working. As a mother I wouldn't want to mess with anything if it wasn't broken.

Your being sick isn't trivial. I know how terrible it is to be sick and not have a clear diagnosis and treatment. If you feel like venting about being sick then by golly you vent. I hope you feel better soon.

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« Reply #62 on: May 20, 2008, 10:43:03 PM »
Hey ladies,
Things are going well for me this week. Working all week, then have a three day weekend. Lately, I have been confusing myself with what to do with my life. I used to go to grad school for occupational therapy and had to drop out a year ago when things were not going well at school and in life. I had about a year and a half in when I dropped out. 6 months before dropping out was when my lymph nodes started bothering me. At that same time, I started losing focus and concentration and started doing very poorly in school. That lasted until I dropped out in April. My program director thought it was best for me to quit because of my behavior in school. I just wasn't able to pay attention and I had no motivation to try. At that time, I had no idea what I was going through was the disease taking over my body. I just thought it was me and my dislike for ot. But now that I know that that's what I was going through during that time and now I am fighting the disease, I feel like if I went back to school things would be very different. But would that really be the case? Was doing that really the best thing for me? Should I go to nursing school, like I have been thinking? Because I also would love to be a nurse. So now I am over analyzing everything, what I would really want to do, and all that crap. I really only have 6 months of clinicals left if I went back to ot school. I would probably want to take a class or 2 over again if I was able. If I did the nursing thing, I would have to wait another year more than likely. So now I am weighing the pros and cons I guess.
So that's what going on in my head right now.
I wish I would get my stimulus check already. Mine will not come until June 20. I didn't work much last year, so I am only getting 300 bucks, but I will take it.
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« Reply #63 on: May 21, 2008, 04:24:04 AM »
hi ladies,

Snow, OMG. I dont know what I would have done, i'd want to kill the little f***ers, but usually today its the other way, they're waiting to be provoked so they can jump on the adult and even film it on their mobile. The other day three young teenagers tried so scare me when I was on my bike, one pretended go crash into me only to swerve and laugh, I just yelled f*** you, not very mature but I couldnt help it. But the kids here are still quit timid compared to kids in the big cities, the UK, etc. Oh where are the days where you could just tell the prinicpal and he would drag him by the ear and slap him a few times. if any teacher but lays a hand on a kid he is in for a huge lawsuit.

that kind of thing makes you feel so helpless. there's a lot of it everywhere though.

Queen, 12 hours?! I didnt realize it was that far, I thought it was like 2-3 hours. how can they refer you to a hospital 12 hours away? you might as well fly there.

Betty enjoy the camp, sounds like fun. Glad you liked volunteering and about the food.

Mom, I understand Mini is on one of the most toxic drugs there is, Zerit, which pretty much no one takes anymore if they can help it, and I guess with her numbers so good the doc wants to see what other options are available, b/c if she is resistant to something and switches to it, that's when things can get bad. Her CD4s are really so high, and you only need a VL of about 200 to do a resistence test nowadays, which is nothing. i know it's kind of going against the grain of what everyone says, but basically, if you don't understand the logic behind a doctor's idea I'd take it straight to the doctor cos no one can answer your concern better then her, and I am sure you can write her an email or even a letter which would make things more organized in terms of Q&A. Most people here took drug holidays with a CD4 that wasn't high enough, I have heard that if you do it when you are over 1000 and in a supervised way there is no cause for concern.
Hope you feel better soon with your lungs and and all.

Tendai, how is it going? did you hear anything from your brother?

Viv, glad the class is well behaved, what are you planning for the holiday?

I'll check back later, hugs for now.
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« Reply #64 on: May 21, 2008, 04:53:15 AM »
LOL@Dragonette..No, it takes 12 hours by train, 3 hours by bus and an hour and half if I was to drive. That is why I am considering driving if I can afford to rent a car. I would write more but I just got done blogging and on my way to bed. I will check in later. For now all I will say is that I restarted my ad on Poz Personals and a few other sites. It's all Wishful's fault with that damn, "Where the Poz men at?" thread. I decided to cut my losses and try again. For now I have the pic up that I had for my avy but I will work on taking a better one soon.

I'll chat more later, I am barely keeping my eyes open.
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
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« Reply #65 on: May 21, 2008, 07:46:51 AM »
[quote author=minismom link=topic=20903.msg269014#msg269014 date=1211333509

Docs called in yet another prescription for Bioxin.  It's 500mg / 2x day for 10 days.  The 20 pills cost me over $80 out of pocket.  I'm not sure it will work, but I'll try anything at this point.  And, if it doesn't work, I'm calling the doc and telling them to call in an oral med for a yeast infection.  I have a very sneaking suspicion that what i actually have is a yeat infection in my lungs.  The tests, though, are VERY extensive and expensive.  We just don't have that kind of money.  So, this is my 2nd antibiotic, and I've been on an anti-viral, steroids, and albuterol.  If Bioxin doesn't work, I'll use it to backdoor a prescription for Deflucan. 

I spent most of the day today having a good cry.  I'm so tired of being sick, out of energy, not sleeping, and generally feeling like crap.  I feel silly complaining to you ladies about something so trivial.  And, yes, i feel guilty about letting it get to me.  You ladies conquer bigger beasts than this everyday.  Thinking about your collective strength got me over my funk.  Here's to much better days ahead - for all of us.


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[/quote]                                                                                           Mum, what l I have to say to you is: Honey ,hush. You vent and cry as much as you want to. And don't you dare underestimate all the struggles you have. You are one of my hero's and if you need to cry or vent, feel free to do so.          I hope the antibiotics work. You have been sick with this mess for seems like a couple months now. Hope you feel better soon.                                                             Snow, children are like dogs, they get braver in packs. Glad you reported it though and I could see how it might be unnerving.              Betty, hope you have a great weekend at the campout.                    Queen, Hope you can work something out with getting transportation.Seems like they could drive you there or provide money so you can get there.. I will check out your blog.                        Anybody else Win, Dragonette, Pink beauty, Hope you ladies are well. I will check in later. Cristy

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« Reply #66 on: May 21, 2008, 08:12:44 AM »
Pink, good luck with making the decision about school, i missed your post for some reason. I was also sinking slowly with this and getting very strange for a long time but thinking "that's life".

Cristy that's a good definition of children.

I am so tired today, I am nodding off at the computer. grateful to have this job though

hope you all have a good day, it's just about to start over there and 14.00 here & in Zimbabwe - exactly the same time zone
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« Reply #67 on: May 21, 2008, 08:21:39 AM »
Morning ladies,

Wendy, I'm going to try that site out that you have in one of your posts to see what information they have on me.  I've been on different ones and looked up my 2nd ex's name, and my 1st husband's brother (because I used to have a major crush on him).  

Queen, your case manager sounds lazy.  Their damn job is to transport people to medical appointments who otherwise have no transportation.  I don't understand her not offering a doable solution.  Good luck on the personal sites.  

Mum, what you're going through is a big thing.  Don't think you're bothering us, you're not.  I would be screaming.  I sure hope they give you something that works soon.  I see the doctor's reasoning behind wanting Mini to take a drug holiday, but I still wouldn't mess with what's working.

Drag, how are you doing?

Cristy, how's your cold?

Pink, I decided to go back to school a year and a half ago.  I went because I wanted to have an accomplishable goal.  Good luck deciding what it is you want to do.

Nothing on tap for me today except volunteering this afternoon.  My gay bff is coming by this evening to get the keys to my place.  He'll be taking care of my cat this weekend.  He always does when I go away.  He's such a dear.  

I've had this (very small) grill for almost 3 years someone gave to me.  It's been outside this whole time, so it's seen a couple winters.  I've never used it.  I've never grilled in my life.  I'm thinking this summer I'll fire it up.  I've been given grilling instructions from a couple friends.  I don't want to start a bonfire or burn anything too badly.  But, I've been hearing from some people about them grilling different things and it sounds so good.  It can't be too hard, can it.

You ladies have a good day.  I'll be back later.
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« Reply #68 on: May 21, 2008, 08:33:58 AM »
Good morning my sweeties!  I am feeling somewhat better today and hopefully I can get stuff done around the house.  Yesterday I was confined to either my bed or my rocking chair and did exactly nothing.  It's sunny outside now, but the clouds are supposed to be rolling in and yet more rain is supposed to fall.  High today is 58 and tomorrow is 60.  After that, though, it's supposed to be getting warmer until Monday we FINALLY hit 80!!!!  The rain is also supposed to stop after tomorrow and give way to beautiful clear blue skies.  I can't wait!

Drag, you want to hear something even more messed up?  The genotyping that was done in 2001 showed that Mini was resistant to Zerit and yet that's the ONLY med that has never changed.  The only drug in that class that she's not resistant to is Viread and her Doc won't switch.  I JUST found out about it a few months ago and have made a ton of noise, but Doc will NOT switch from Zerit to Viread.  Any switching I'd like to do over the summer when the weather is better, she can get out in the sunshine, and there's not much going on so dealing with side effects will be easier.  In the fall, she'll start dance, football, and school.  To me, the side effects would be worse with so much more on her plate.  

But, then, we run into the memory of switching her susteva to viramune.  Other than her nasty reaction, seeing her deal with the side effects was heart-breaking.  She cried all the time, she stopped eating, she slept nearly 24hrs / day.  All she did was sit on the couch or lay in bed and cry.  Making changes of any kind really worries me.  Taking her off meds completely scares me out of my skin.  At this point, the only thing we're considering is switching to Viread.  If it was me, the decisions would be easy.  Having to make them for my child is gut wrenching.

Win and Cristy, thanks for the encouragment.  I'm feeling better this morning.  Hubby has clients so it's just me and the kiddies today.  Our #6 is all cruddy.  She suffers from horrible allergies that actually makes her skin peel off.  She also has a sun allergy, so when she goes outside, we have to keep her in long pants, long sleeves, socks, shoes, hat and gloves.  We get some pretty crazy looks to say the least.

Well, I've put off life for long enought this morning.  I need to eat something so I can take my medicine.  Then, I need to finish my ever-growing mound of laundry before we have to turn into a nudist colony.  Know that each and every one of you holds a very special place in my heart.  Even when I'm not around, you all actively in my thoughts and prayers.  Make today the very best you can.

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« Reply #69 on: May 21, 2008, 08:47:46 AM »
Mum- Don't feel bad about venting. If more people would let out their feelings we might be better off. Once you figure out what is making you sick and treat it you will probably feel better. Also, you shouldn't feel that your problems are less than anyone elses. It is all a matter of perspective. You can't compare it to anyone else and you shouldn't. Hang in there!!! Better days are to come...

Well I just could not get to sleep last night. My mind was going a mile a minute. There is SO much to do at school I keep thinking about what I have to get done. There are a couple of kids who are just making me want to scream. I have one who rarely does his homework and comes to school without his backpack so he doesn't have ANYTHING with him. I get so aggrivated. My principal told me just to let it go and not let it get me down. She has called the parents a few times (this is not the first time) and they just are not responsive. The family has had several kids come through the school. Anyways....I keep telling myself to move on.

Have a great day!!! :)

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« Reply #70 on: May 21, 2008, 09:17:16 AM »
Hie ladies
i've been playing on the internet the whole day, i'm so bad.  i got my period and i dont feel like working, nothing much to do anyway...
Mum - i hope the doctor can work out something beneficial for Mini. Glad u're feeling better now
Snow - those kids deserved a kick on the butt. its sad that the next generation can be so ill-mannered and disrespectful >:(

Hie Keeping! Glad u're enjoying married life

pink - if your heart is in nursing then go for it..

viv- i can understand your aggravation with the child, makes u wish u could shake the parents. if they cant be bothered with their child who will? those are the kids that go swearing at passers-by for no reason, its a shame..

Drag - no word from my brother, im just praying he's ok. u know i'd forgotten  that Nyasha's also in south africa. what time u knock off? im leaving at 4pm which is about an hour from now. the weather was so cold and misty today like we're in UK or something i'm just glad i dont live in a cold climate, i'd never get out of bed! i cant wait to go home..

i got a call from some guy who said he got my number from a website. i dont know why i put my number, im taking it down though im sure they had said it wont be seen when i registered. he says he wants to meet me in town today. probably another baby.  shyguy and i are just going to be friends after all.

later, alligators :-*

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« Reply #71 on: May 21, 2008, 09:40:40 AM »
Tendai, I will leave around 18.00. so there is no contact # for your brother? if you have something send it over and I will try to call him cos I know your phone system is down a lot.

Mom, Viramune has the worst reaction/allergy of all the meds I beleive, it doesnt mean that she can never switch, don't give up...
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« Reply #72 on: May 21, 2008, 01:53:13 PM »
I swear at times people really get on my last fucking nerve. I have been trying to keep people in the loop about what is going with me and getting to the specialist in Pittsburgh. After reading some of the responses in my thread in LW, I think people really are thinking I am making up excuses which is pissing me off. I don't have to make up excuses, this is my FUCKING life here and with no one really knowing what is going on with my liver why in the hell would I make up excuses anyway. It's not like I am trying to blow off getting to the GODDAMN appointment. I have done the research and none of the normal options work. The bus and train schedule would not get me to my appointment on time but people are acting like that is my fault. Then someone asked why I can't get the money the night before. Honestly, I wanted to go the fuck off on the person but I didn't because I like the person but I am not him...My check for one doesn't come in til the wee hours of the morning and our greyhound station is not open 24 hours. Secondly, I am not made of money like him who can jet set every where like Brazil and troll for men. I mean WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! I do not have anyone who would drive me there or let me use their car to drive myself there. Maybe I should do a grand theft auto and blame it on the fucking video game!!!!! See how far that gets me. And after doing the research the only thing I can see is renting a car, the only problem with that is that you need a credit card. I have a pre-paid credit card and I don't think they accept those. It's not like I am asking anyone to send me money nor have I. I am willing to go into my bill money to pay for the FUCKING car myself. My health is more important to me than my bills. If I am dead the bill collectors can't get paid.

So, I have concluded that I will no longer speak about the trip or how I am going to get there, if I get there. I swear some people are just assholes. Thanks for letting me vent.... >:( >:( >:( >:( >:(
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5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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« Reply #73 on: May 21, 2008, 04:18:41 PM »
Vent away hun.

Its difficult for some people to see things from your point of view because many have never been in your shoes.
I wish I could find a solution for you. I recall once when my son was a baby the hospital would send a cab to pick me up to get to his appointment. Those where tough times and I was grateful for the help.

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« Reply #74 on: May 21, 2008, 05:12:53 PM »
Oh boy, looks like everybody has something to vent about lately :)

I wanted to post last night but the dog got sprayed by a skunk and the office stunk to high heaven.

I talked to SB's soon to be ex-wife on the phone.  Good Lord that man has not changed at all.  He never told her about being infected either, she found his pills and asked what they were and he told her he would tell her someday?  I think it was a year or so after they met?   Luckily, she never got infected with HIV but she did get Hep C from him.  He lied to her telling I got tested when I was with my son which in fact I got tested about 5 yrs earlier and I was saying everything I said in court because I still wanted to be with him?  He started abusing her before they got married, threatening her like he used to threaten me with calling her job and her family. The kicker was when she was taking to the district attorney she found out he had gotten charged with statutory rape charges in 03 that she never knew about?  Hopefully if she goes through with the charges he will get 2 years.  The things that she was telling me last night just shows me that he has not changed at all.  I am going to fight tooth and nail to keep my son away from this piece of shit.  I have no trust in the court system and thier psychologist, he obviously played that man like a harp.

Oh and my therapist is leaving so I no longer have someone to talk too :( her commute was too long which I don't blame her for.  I just wish I could meet someone around here to talk too

Mum- Glad you are feeling a little better. I think of you as one of us, you can vent whatever you want, whenever you want.

Queen-You are a grown women, you know how to do you, fuck the people who reply to your post with negativity, that is the last thing you need right now and they obviously don't have a clue.

Betty- LOL- when I first read grill I thought you were talking about gold teeth  ;D  Had myself a good laugh when I realized you were talking about a cooking grill. See how pre-occupied I am :)

Viv- That kid is lucky to have you for a teacher and his parents should be shot.  I am sure you will get everything done.

Drag- WAKE UP, Sleepyhead!!!!!! ;D

Pink- Good luck figuring out what you want to do.  I was thinking of going back to school too but don't have a clue what to do?


Hi Win, Keeping, Wish, Ten and everyone...

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« Reply #75 on: May 21, 2008, 08:24:39 PM »
Evening ladies,

Queen, fuck those people.  I haven't read your thread yet in LW, but no one has walked in your shoes, as someone said.  It just seems that your case manager would be more proactive in this and get you transportation there. >:(

Mum, I'm glad you're feeling a bit better.  I'm so sorry about your #6's allergies. 

Viv, calm down.  Take one little thing at a time.  And good luck.

Tendai, I'm not sure about your brother's situation; I can only imagine.  I hope you get some kind of word on him soon. 

Snow, I've never heard of someone getting hep C through sex (not heterosexual sex anyway, not sure about gay sex).  Does she shoot up?  I'm just glad you're not with that asshole anymore. 

The volunteering went well.  I came home and was thinking of what to make for supper, and my gay bff came over to pick up my keys.  He's taking care of my kitty this weekend while I'm away.  He took me out to eat; he's so sweet.  He rails on me about my smoking though.  He used to smoke and quit cold turkey years ago.  I'd like to be able to do that, but if/when I quit, I'll be using the patch. 

I just had my yearly re-evaluation with housing (section 8).  My rent went up $20/month, due to my social security going up $20/month.  Unbelievable.  Every little extra, some government agency takes.  It's really unnerving.  I guess they don't take into account the rising cost of living. 

Other than that, no other news to report.  I'm a bit tired and I'm thinking of going to bed early.  You ladies have a good evening.

Edited to add:  that's supposed to be section 8.
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« Reply #76 on: May 22, 2008, 01:55:22 AM »
hi ladies,

it's a beautiful morning here.

Queen I havent read that thread either, I know you want to bang your head against the wall with frustration. People don't understand what a catch 22 life is sometimes.

Snow, he sounds like a complete creep, he really makes me shudder. The poor woman, poor you,not that I feel sorry for you but I feel sad that you got mixed up with someone like that, people like that are very manipulative and seductive though, the lie and scheme and drag people into their net without a second thought, b/c they are real psychos - absolutely no interest in anyone's feelings. Thank heavens you are not with him anymore.

Viv, sounds like the school's got your back, it's the kid's problem, what can you do you can't change his parents, or maybe you can try to talk to them, but its not your responsibility, you can only try to help but that's all... dont take it on yourself. Breathe... I get overwhelmed like that often too, when everything just becomes too much.

I have to cut this short b/c I need to leave right now, be back later... sleep tight
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« Reply #77 on: May 22, 2008, 07:08:34 AM »
Knock on wood, but yesterday I only needed 1 breathing treatment.  I've been on 4 /day since Sunday. Too leary to say that I'm fully "better".  My last round of meds cured me for a whopping 3 days before the danged elephant moved back into my chest. I'll be convinced when it's been a couple of weeks.
 I FINALLY finished the mountain of laundry, but it started again last night when everyone had baths.  It never ends.  I need to replace my clothes line, but suddenly no one sells them.  I use the kind that goes up like an umbrella.  I got my last one from Walmart but they don't have them anymore.  Niether does K-mart, Home Depot, or Lowes. 

I have an IEP (individualized educational plan) for #6 this morning at 9.  Even though she won't be registered in school, they still have to provide therapy if she qualifies, we just have to take her.  She had a speech eval last Friday and the meeting is today.  There are only 6 days left of school here, so she won't start until next school year, but at least everything will be in place.  Next year we'll also do an OT eval and add it to her plan.  We just didn't have time before the end of school.  I'll let you know how it goes.

That's about all that's happening.  It's only 7am, so I'm sure something will happen soon :P.

Take care, Friday is almost here!  According to the weather man - SUN IS ON THE WAY!!
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« Reply #78 on: May 22, 2008, 08:19:41 AM »
Morning ladies,

Mum, I guess we can be thankful for small miracles (regarding your upswing).

I have to go in and sign the new contract for section 8 today.  I think I'm going to ask the lady why housing doesn't consider the rising cost of living and feel that they have to take the raise in social security one gets.  That kind of makes my blood boil.  But I'm glad I don't have to pay full rent, so maybe I should just keep my mouth shut. 

Other than that, my therapist will be over.  I really don't have anything pressing to talk about.  I'm going to try to get him to get his motorcycle out this summer and take me for a ride.  He's got a BMW.  I know, not a Harley, but one really can't say anything bad about a beemer.  I went for a ride on it a few years ago and it's smooth.

Queen, I've been thinking about whether or not your pre-paid credit card would work.  I would think it would.  As long as there's a "Visa" or "Mastercard" logo on it, I don't know why it wouldn't.  But, I'm no expert on this.  As for what that person posted in your thread in LW, I think he was assuming you would have the money in the bank.  Sometimes it's irritating when people just "assume" things, though.

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« Reply #79 on: May 22, 2008, 07:19:04 PM »
Hi GFs~

I took a day off from work today.  Things are looking up.  I have a contract to get my roof done, just have to wait until they call and get me on their schedule, sometime in the next two weeks.

I think it was Snow who said some kids were harassing her?  Well I had some "kids" harassing me at the office.  God sure put me in the right place at the right time Tuesday evening.  I walked down the office corridor just in time to hear my name sarcastically thrown into a conversation.  I was a smart-ass and said, "What?"  because, of course, I heard "BB" (as I call her) say my name.  The look on her face was priceless when she turned her head and saw me walk by.  The two women, in their late 40s mind you, snickered as I turned the corner.  I sarcastically snickered back at them over the cubicle wall, making sure they could hear it. 

Then I had a MOMENT.  Scorpio stinger came out and gave me POWER and courage.  I walked back past that cubicle, BB had gone home, but Halfwit, as I have dubbed her (whom I have had probs with for months now) was sitting at her desk.  I took her by surprise, walking past and burned a fucking hole through her with my stare.  She immediately looked away.  I felt bad for being mean but I had had it. 

I immediately walked over to HR girls' office and said I needed to vent.  I shut the door and proceeded to lose my composure as I talked about being taunted all of the time.  I threatened to leave the position that no one else has seemed to be able to stay in, if this shit didn't stop.

So, yesterday BB and Halfwit got called into HR and were reprimanded.  It was great.  All day long I was being my nice self and they had no idea what was coming.  Both of their mgrs were spoken to, one of them is my mgr as well. 

Oh and I got my own cubicle with some quiet and privacy on the other side of the office.   ;D   ;D   ;D   ;D  Bitches.  ;D   ;D   ;D   ;D   I tell you, after Halfwit came out of that HR meeting she was livid.  I acted like nothing had happened, taking the higher road and being friendly.  I am happy in my new space, I am ordering a new chair for my bad back and I will be even more productive, having a private space in which to work, next to some professional, mature nice women. 

Keep the dumb asses over in their area, I say, lol.

Went to my Primary today and yes, he still insists that I am bleeding somewhere, so I am going for another iron level draw as well as a GI consult.  Shit, its prob just an ulcer from stress.  Iceman said he would help drive if I needed an "invasive" procedure done *yikes* down the line.

My mom's best friend's husband is going to pass any day now from prostate cancer that had been in remission but has now spread.  This friends' daughter and I went to elem school together back in the day, and our families have known each other for 30 years.  God bless you, "Clyde."  He's not even 70 yrs old yet.

Cheech got a buzz cut, I mean really a BUZZ cut today, and thinks he is cool.  He is snoring in the hallway.  Maybe I'll post a pic later.

Sorry about everyone's trials and tribulations, but hang in there.  I was SO SCARED to speak up and ask for help, a solution, at work, and already things have turned around.  Tomorrow we get off work at 230 pm cause we're on summer schedule with early leave on Fridays.  Sounds good to me.  I may have a service to go to if the family friend passes, but otherwise I am planning to cook out with Ice on Sunday and Monday.  It will be 39 degrees here tonight but 86 degrees here Monday afternoon.  Oh my white legs!

Kisses to all......

~ Cindy
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« Reply #80 on: May 23, 2008, 06:52:46 AM »
Cindy, I'm SO glad you got things straightened out at work.  It took some real guts..you go girl! *High five and a little dance*

We're finally on an uptrend to warmer weather.  Monday is supposed to be 82, 78 on Sunday.  But, rain is returning by Tuesday.  We certainly shouldn't have a drought with all this rain.  I know our well is full.

My cough is back today and it looks like I'm going to need a breathing treatment right out of the gate.  I got away without 1 yesterday and now I'm paying for it.  The elephant hasn't returned, but my lungs are full and "wet".

I keep forgetting to post this, I thought it was funny.  Last week we were talking about pets that have died.  When he was growing up, our pastor's mom owned an old folk's home.  Their house was next door and they owned a mamoth Airdale that they took over to visit the residence everyday.  The residence loved the dog so much so that when he died, they asked Susan if he could be buried in the gardens of the home. She thought it was a lovely idea. After Charlie (our pastor) dug the hole, the residence gathered to have a make-shift memorial service.

WELL....later that afternoon, they were invaded by a horde of police cars, the local corinor, and the health department.  Susan was served with a warrent to check all records and interview all the residence.  The corinor and health inspector began to exume the dog.  Apparently, someone had called 911 and told the dispatcher that a patient had died and Susan was burying them in the gardens!!  After matching all records, ensuring that all the residence were accounted for, and the corinor reporting that the patient was canine, everyone left...leaving Charlie to bury the dog again.

See, things could always be worse!

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« Reply #81 on: May 23, 2008, 07:42:32 AM »
Morning ladies,

Cindy, I'm so glad you got things straight with those bitches at work.  And let us know how things go with the docs trying to find out where that bleeding is coming from.  Good luck with that.

Mum, that story was hilarious.  I haven't heard something so ridiculous in a long time. 

Well, it seems we're not getting much traffic here lately.  At least not yesterday.  I also wonder how Netta is doing, besides others (Wish, Camms, any other ones I forgot).

Well, this afternoon I'm off for the NA convention.  I'm looking forward to getting away for a couple days.  So, I won't be back again until Sunday night (other than probably this afternoon). 

My bff made me promise that I'd go in on a no-smoking pact with her this weekend.  So, I'll be putting a patch on today after taking my shower and I packed two for this weekend.  This will make the millionth time I've tried to quit.  My therapist was telling me yesterday that his wife quit using acupuncture.  I had to remind him that not everyone has the luxury of being able to afford that.  I remember years ago, when I went through a detox in Grand Rapids, MI, they used acupuncture on the patients.  They would put five pins in each ear.  I didn't do it at first, then a couple people talked me into it.  It was the most relaxed I'd ever been, and I even had a high for a couple hours.  They told us that where the pins were placed represented different places in the body.  On a few of the chronic alcoholics, when they put the pins in the areas of the ear that represented the liver, the pins popped out.  Anyway, my therapist did say, however, that he will be getting his bike out this summer and he would be happy to take me for a ride. 

My ASO will be having massage therapy on the first Wednesday of every month from 11-1.  I know the girl who will be giving the massages.  I was in a "watch dog" Aids organization with her years ago.  I never really did like her.  She was just very creepy.  So, I don't know if I'll be getting one or not.  I don't know if I want her touching me.  That sounds petty, doesn't it.  Well, when it comes to people touching me, I'm pretty picky I guess. 

Ladies, I hope you all have a good weekend.  Be good.  I wouldn't want to come back and find out someone misbehaved (ass-kickin time). ;)
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« Reply #82 on: May 23, 2008, 08:30:35 AM »
Good Morning!

Cindy- Good for you! I hope things continue to work out well!
Mum- Take care of yourself...I think about you often.
Betty- Enjoy your weekend!
Queen- Any news?

Well you all are talking about good weather this weekend and I think we have gotten all the rain you've been having. At the beginning of the week we were in the 90's and yesterday we had a downpour! It just let loose. There was even a tornado in the inland area. It is supposed to rain all weekend. We are having the strangest weather for the end of May. CRAZY!
Open House was last night and it went really well. The kids made movies on the computer from pictures that we took on our overnight field trip and I had 9 different computers up and running and everything went smoothly. I was so proud of the work they accomplished. The parents were impressed. I also got to see some former students who came back to visit. A lot of them are starting highschool and I just picture them when they were little with me... :) It was a nice evening. Today we are going to the middle school to take a tour. I will get to see most of my former students there so it will be nice. I am so looking forward to the 3 day weekend. I wish the weather would cooperate!
Have a great day everyone!

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« Reply #83 on: May 23, 2008, 09:39:47 AM »
Mum - that must've been hilarous.  Could've been worse, they could've sent a  SWAT team...! Sorry u're under the weather again, hope its fixed soon, u need a break from feeling shitty

Cindy - good for you, that showed them, teach them not to mess with you in future. Now u can work in peace and privacy, excellent..I'm sorry about Clyde..
I wonder how cool Cheech looks with his buzz cut. cant wait for the pictures

Betty - good luck with getting a ride with the therapist, nothing like the sun in your face and the wind in your hair.. Have a great weekend at the convention

Viv- sounds like u guys had a lot of fun, u really love your job dont u? I'm also overjoyed about the long weekend, wake up real late on a monday and not feel bad about being late for work, sounds like heaven!

I heard from my brother last night. he's okay and so are my cousins. where they are there isnt any violence.  thats a relief i can tell you...
its so cold here, just want to snuggle up in bed with a warm body next to me. good thing i got my period....

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« Reply #84 on: May 23, 2008, 12:16:39 PM »
Viv- That is so cool that you take the kids on a tour of the middle school, what  a good idea.  I wish they did that around here.

Betty- Hope you have lots of fun this weekend.

Tendai- I am glad you were able to hear from your brother and he and your cousins are all well.  How cold does it get there?

Yesterday I took my oldest and one of the trips to the doc.  My oldest had poison ivy and the trip has strep.  This morning I took the other 2 and they have strep too.  When it rains, it pours :(
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« Reply #85 on: May 23, 2008, 04:04:55 PM »
Hi GFs~

Well, Clyde passed late last night (today) on my brother's birthday.  His wishes were to have a big Margaritaville-type celebration, so my parents and I are heading down to the Chesapeake Bay this weekend.  Clyde's family has a place right on the water.  We've been told to wear our Hawaiian shirts, so it should be a festive celebration of Clyde's life.  He took me to my first concert in 1980.  I was 10 years old and he took his daughter and I to see Bruce Springsteen.  I put my Sirius radio on the Springsteen channel today on the way home and thought of Clyde.   :'(  I feel so bad for his wife and kids.  They are very distraught.

I am doing OK, just solemn, thinking about Clyde and the memories I have of him from my childhood.  Going to group tonight and just relaxing.  Oh, and here's Cheech. He had a "plume" tail before and now it looks like a rat tail.  He was actually chilly last night!

The first pic was last summer when he had long hair, the other pic was taken today.  He's so cute, my BEST buddy!  Have a safe weekend.

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« Reply #86 on: May 23, 2008, 06:10:30 PM »
Sorry, I haven't been posting the last few days. This situation with getting to Pittsburgh has me frustrated and then my roomie pissed me off so I left the house for a few days. I got back a few hours ago. I spent a few nights at my bf house. Me and the roomie had a screaming match and I took off. I think this situation is not going to work and I'd be better off living by myself. Fuck, I am not anyone's damn maid and if I am going to be the only one cleaning then I need to be by myself.

I called the car rental and if I were to use my pre-paid card, I would need to produce 2 bills with a zero balance as well as pay a deposit on top of the rental charges. I don't have that kind of money and hoping I will still be able to use someone's cc, if not then it doesn't look like I will be going. My case manager is trying to contact our bus company, not greyhound. They have a program that gets people to doctor appointments locally but has never heard of them driving you out of town. My sister knows more about it so I will have to contact her, she usually has them take her to her appointments.

I am just majorly frustrated and I have been trying to stay away from the house. I need some kind of distraction.
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« Reply #87 on: May 23, 2008, 07:42:06 PM »
Hi Queen~

I have been keeping up with the thread as best as I can, and I have read about your crappy situation.  I am hoping that SOMETHING comes through and things work in your favor.  Hang in there, GF.

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« Reply #88 on: May 23, 2008, 08:33:51 PM »
I'm tired so this will be short.
We got started moving Aaron today. Cleared out a few things from my garage too. I'm beat. Its like 95 outside or something. Super hot.
You'd think we could move him all in one day since its a one room apartment but it didnt work out that way. We got most of the work done though. Now its just odds and ends and cleaning up the old place.


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« Reply #89 on: May 23, 2008, 08:35:07 PM »
Hi Win~

Your back must be killing you by now, but hey, your nails look good in that pic!  ;)

I painted mine red this week, too.  :)
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« Reply #90 on: May 23, 2008, 08:38:14 PM »
LOL They started breaking one by one so I got pist and bit the mothers off.

I'll grow them back and do it all over again. gotta keep my routine ya know.

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« Reply #91 on: May 23, 2008, 08:39:49 PM »
LOL, paint the toes, they don't break like the fingers do! 

Happy Birthday to YOU (almost)!  Happy Birthday to YOU (almost)!  Happy Birthday Dear Wendy (almost)!  Happy Birthday to YOU MAY 29th!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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« Reply #92 on: May 23, 2008, 10:08:49 PM »
Moonlight-sorry to hear about Clyde. He had the right idea of having a celebration like that.
Queen- that stinks about your whole situation. I am sure something will come up eventually to help it out. And I know how it is with roommates. I was forced to move out of my best friend's apt because she had issues. Hope that works out as well.

I went today to talk to the program director of where I went to grad school. I just wanted to know what my options are if I did go back to occupational therapy school. As soon as I started talking with her, I realized what turned me off of occupational therapy so much---that school and the teachers! She pissed me off so much....telling me I need to take initiative and junk about what I want to do with my life. No kidding-that's why I was there-taking initiative to figure out if it's something I could do now that I know what was going on when I was in school the first time. She made it sound like I was there for her to tell me that I should come back to OT school so that I didn't have to make the decision. Not at all. I just needed to see what it would take for me to go back to finish my master's. Apparently, I would have to reapply and start all over with classes. Mind you, I have a year and a half of classes. There is no way I am going to start all over again.
I am sticking with nursing. I think for the most part I wanted to see about going back to finish OT school was because I wanted to finish what I started. And because I am swimming in loans. But those aren't the reasons that I should be doing it. Also because I can't start nursing school for another year, I think that's why. I just want to get something going. I gotta be patient. :)
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« Reply #93 on: May 24, 2008, 09:43:23 AM »
Cindy: Cheech's haircut makes him look young - oh, that I would be so lucky ;D 
 
Queen: I'm still praying that something will work out for you to get to your appointment.

Betty: I hope you are having the time of your life this weekend!

Ten: Glad you heard from your brother and cousins.  I know that takes a huge burdon off of your heart.

Win: I don't even bother painting my nails anymore.  The polish never stays more than a couple of hours.  I cut them when they are long (past the ends of my fingers) and don't even bother filing them.  I do keep the tootsies trimmed and painted, though.

Snow: Sorry to hear about your babies being sick.  Is there someone who can take care of them while you are at work, or do you have to call off?  It's so close to the end of school, too.  Poor things!  Big hugs to you, too.  Sick babies are hardest on parents, I'm convinced - and 4 at the same time can't be easy on you.

Vyv: Thanks for the thoughts, hun!  Your summer vacation has to be getting close, yes?  Do you have any plans other than staying as far away from children as humanly possible? :P  That's my plans...LOL...but it never happens ;D

Today promises to be a beautiful day!  We're still trying to fix our lawnmower.  We bought the 3rd belt yesterday hoping it's the right one.  Hubby thinks this one will FINALLY fit, but a spring popped off and he can't figure out where its supposed to go.  I'm afraid we'll have to get out there with machetes if it doesn't get fixed soon.  I've already had 1 breathing treatment today and it looks like these meds aren't working.  Or, maybe they aren't working fast enough.  I spent a lot of the day yesterday discouraged and depressed.  I want to BREATHE!

We took the kids to see Prince Caspian yesterday and it was such a great movie.  Much more intense than the 1st one, with battle scenes that reminded me of Lord of the Rings.  But, it was exactly like the book and very well done.  We bought National Treasure 2 yesterday, but haven't watched it yet.  It got mixed reviews, but my anal husband can't stand owning 1 movie in a series without owning ALL of them.  I'll let you know how the movie is. 

On the agenda today, I plan on making a table cloth for our new table.  Well, it's not new, but it's "new" to us and bigger than our old one so that we can all finally fit around a table.  The "new" one will actually seat 10 so that when my parents come over, they can fit, too.  I'm going to dig through my buckets of material and make a "fake" quilt table cloth.  I made 6 pairs of shorts and 4 dresses for the girls the other day and have 1 more pair to make today.  I found the material for $2/yd - I can't buy a pair for less than that.  It takes me about 15 minutes to make them, so It's not "costing" a bunch of time, either.  Ive got a couple loads of laundry to do and still can't find the drying line I want.  I also need to clean out and organize my kitchen cabinets and pantry, but that'll probably get done Monday.

 I'm still not able to do a whole lot at one time.  I get tired too quick and then I just get pissed off.  Hubby and I leave for vacation in 15 days - I do NOT want this crap hanging around until then.  I've had it for 7mths.  It needs to go, or start paying rent.  I'm determined not to let it get me down.  Sounds good, but it's getting harder and harder.

So much love pouring out from my heart to each and every one of you! :-*
Mum

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« Reply #94 on: May 24, 2008, 07:19:20 PM »
You have pretty eyes Queen.

Thank you Cindy

I paint my toes but LOL I am such a klutz I always manage to break a corner off one of the big toes at least. I run into things all the time.


Today was the garage sale day for my street. This street has a bunch of people who like to organise events like block parties and garage sale days. We called the lady who organised it and told her we would participate. We invited a girlfriend over and she brought some of her stuff to sell too.
It was so freaking hot. I went out this morning and bought several different kinds of soda and bottled water and sold them for 75 cents a can for sodas and a dollar for water. I didn't make quite enough in drink sales to pay for all of them but we will drink them anyway so it doesn't matter.
Plus today we watched the baby all day.
We put everything up around one o'clock I guess. It was just too hot. Its about 90 outside but the heat index says it feels like 99.
Me and the baby went in the pool for 15 minutes or so to cool off. I just stripped to my underware and she was naked of course. LOL little booger peed on me. I knew it would happen. You just cant hold a naked baby without getting peed on.
 I am beat. Billy just went to pick up the daddy and take him and the baby home. He is going to stop and buy me some soup or something.
He's so nice to me. I'm glad to have a nice guy. 

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« Reply #95 on: May 24, 2008, 08:10:24 PM »
Thanks for the compliment, Wini. It is appreciated. Nothing has changed with getting to my appointment and at this point I have given up. It doesn't make a difference if I reschedule because it will be the same problem no matter when they schedule the appointment.

I am amazed that some people would consider riding with a complete stranger even if it is someone from Craig's list. There are nuts in this world and I just won't risk it. Plus I remember someone getting a room mate from there and they turned the person's home into a trick house. Uh, yeah, stand up people on Craig's list, uh huh. So, I decided that I am just going to forget about the appointment because the stress behind it is not doing me a bit of good. And if my liver becomes the death of me so be it, I tried. Some may consider what I say as a cop out but I don't think no one can say that without knowing what I deal with.

The situation is starting to make me depressed. For most of today, I have been sleeping and when I am awake I am in tears. I have been trying to keep things to myself because of people's attitude that I am making excuses for everything. It must nice not to have to struggle for anything.
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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #96 on: May 24, 2008, 09:44:27 PM »
HI Ladies!, good to be back online. I have been under the weather with asthma and had to go to the doctors cause i had no meds for it. I rarely have it, for some reason it is acting up and I use an inhaler.It is very warm here and I had to fight to get an airconditioner in a central airconditioned apartment! I finall got one Tuesday and it seems to be helping.I really missed you all. My cable and internet were cut off when I got home from va.I am just now getting it back on, since I got my stimulus check. I paid some bills but did buy myself a digital camera from wallmart. I have been aching all day . My right knee and leg feels like someone pour scalding water on me when I touch it and my whole bodyaches. I am glad to have internet and cable again,because I am an avid couch potatoe, andwatching tv takes my mind off the aches. I hope all are well and I will write more tomorrow tired now going to bed. luv to all.

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #97 on: May 25, 2008, 10:38:46 AM »
Hi Netta~ 

Take some Aleve or Advil, maybe that helps?  From one couch potato to another, you know?  ;)  Have fun with the camera, the pics look superb!  Glad to see you smiling and to hear that the asthma is under control.

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #98 on: May 25, 2008, 06:18:38 PM »
9-24-07

"My name is Doreen and I live in Sayreville. I have been poz for 17 yrs. and haven't ever been sick. My husband died March 24th and soon after I had 3 mini strokes. I go to welfare to try to get help and met a woman who needed a place to stay. I told her I was pos and we moved into an apt. together and I find out she is a craigslist hooker."

Just setting the record straight on Dorjus not having found her long former roommate via Craigslist.

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #99 on: May 25, 2008, 10:02:13 PM »
9-24-07

"My name is Doreen and I live in Sayreville. I have been poz for 17 yrs. and haven't ever been sick. My husband died March 24th and soon after I had 3 mini strokes. I go to welfare to try to get help and met a woman who needed a place to stay. I told her I was pos and we moved into an apt. together and I find out she is a craigslist hooker."

Just setting the record straight on Dorjus not having found her long former roommate via Craigslist.


I stand corrected. And I said my peace in my LW thread. I guess you will be lining up those rides soon.
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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #100 on: May 26, 2008, 07:59:39 AM »
Morning ladies,

Cin, I'm really sorry about Clyde.  It's great that you have good memories of him though.  I love those pics of Cheech.  He's going to be a lot cooler with short hair.

Queen, I'm really sorry about the situation you're in.  If I lived by you, I'd take you.  I'm hoping that the thing your case manager is checking out will work.

Wendy, happy birthday! 

Pink, I don't blame you for not wanting to start all over.  I really don't understand why you would.  I've never heard of that.

Netta, I love your pics!  I'm glad you're back with us also.  You really are a beautiful woman.

Well, the weekend was fabulous.  The place we (me and my gf's) stayed in is called a yertz.  It's like an octagon-shaped log cabin.  There was a frig in it, and ours was the only one with a frig.  But I know one of the guys who was on the convention committee and I requested that one 'cause of my Insulin and he reserved it for us.  They had great workshops, which is where the committee chooses a subject that has to do with recovery (surrender, giving back, being willing to do whatever it takes, etc.) and there's a couple speakers with long periods of clean time that talk about it.  One of the speakers was the same one who spoke at the prior convention I went to who did the Illness in Recovery workshop (at the other convention I went to a couple months ago).  He has Aids and now has non-Hodgkin's lymphoma.  He's not letting that get him down, and he's just such an inspiration.  He was sharing about how one of the guys he sponsors just took a knife and cut his arm from his wrist to his shoulder.  The guy's still alive, which is a total miracle.  He lost six pints of blood (and we only have eight).  Anyway, the guy who spoke (Jonathan) talked about surrender.  He was saying how, when he quit drugs, he made a "shrine" that had a pipe he used to smoke crystal meth out of in it etc. and he talked about when he smashed everything that he had in his shrine.  He has eight years clean.  He and I had a good talk afterward.  He took my hand, looked me in the eyes and said "we're survivors, and we're going to get through this."  He was in end-stage kidney failure a few years ago, had a kidney transplant and had to give himself dialysis.  He's had many other times of being near-death and never used through any of it, which is an inspiration to me.  One of the main speakers (people who give their story in the evening, usually 1 1/2 hours) kept saying "no matter what," meaning no matter what, don't use.  Sometimes I have to remind myself of that.     And, one of my gf's friends was there from her town and brought his Harley, so I got to go for a nice motorcycle ride.  Which of course was a thrill, since I used to be a "biker bitch."     And they fed us three times a day, and large meals which was great.  The last night we spent there, when we ladies were all in our yertz, we had a laugh-fest.  I mean, we were cracking each other up and laughing our asses off for about 1/2 hour. 

The only bitch I have about the whole thing is that where we were was a walking distance from everything.  Now, about 7 or 8 years ago, my kneecaps were broken.  In my left knee I had avascular necrosis and there's no cartilage left in it.  And my right kneecap constantly has swelling in it.  So, there were many times I thought my legs were just going to give out.  And my left leg is still really aching.  It won't straighten completely out, hasn't for a long time because of my knee.  I'm thinking I'm going to go back to the orthopaedist sometime in the near future to see if it's time to do a knee replacement and if he'll do it.  He wouldn't do it before because of me having Aids (you guys probably remember me talking about it).  If he won't do it, then I'll ask my doctor to refer me to someone else.  Having a knee replacement is a little frightening to me, because of all the stories I hear, but I can't keep being in constant sheering pain.  So, we'll see.  I have to remember what Jonathan told me (about us being survivors).  This won't get me down.

But other than that, it was great.  There was over 1,000 years total clean time there, which was awesome.  I hope you ladies are having a good morning.  I'll be back later.
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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #101 on: May 26, 2008, 10:14:29 AM »
Betty- That sounds like so much fun, I am glad you enjoyed it.  That is a good idea to find out about your options for you knees, can't hurt.  I didn't realize you were in so much pain all the time, you are a force to be reckoned with.

Queen- I am so sorry your case manager has not come through for you, that is crazy, that person really sucks at thier job!  They should at least be finding some other options for you.  Did you speak to her supervisor?  How much do you need to get your car on the road, in my opinion, they should just help you with that so at least you can have a ride to all your appointments/commitments.

Netta- Nic pic! Beautiful smile!! Glad you were able to find a camera, they are lots of fun!

Mum- I don't work anymore but I feel like I work more than I did when I was working 12 to 16 hrs a day.  I'm getting old :)  I hope you are feeling better.

The kids are getting better.  My oldest ended up getting strep too  :(  We layed low Friday and Sat and went tag sale-ing yesterday.  We got a basketball hoop for free, we just had to home and get the truck to get it, they had just put out on the side of the road, luckily my Mom had come and she stayed with the kids. 
I got my period yesterday.  Saturday I felt like I got hit by a truck, my whole body hurt and I felt drugged.  I ended up falling asleep on the couch and the boys were playing with water guns and got soaked and I woke up to my youngest boy wearing his sisters jeans complete with embroidered flowers and butterflies on the butt and legs.  I guess I should be happy he got something on at all?

We are doing nothing, as usual, today.  Cooking out on the grill and letting the kids play outside.

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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #102 on: May 26, 2008, 02:15:51 PM »
Afternoon Ladies---

I am waiting to hear back from a couple of the moderators but I am considering calling the forums quits and walking away from it. Hopefully, I will still be able to blog. I am just tired of certain people's comments that everything that is going wrong in my life is my fault because I choose to help my son, smoke weed, despite the million of times I have said why I do smoke, and because I ocassionally drink some Arbor Mist, I am now considered to be a fucking alcoholic.

You ladies have been great support but I am just tired of those who want to tell me the problems I am having is my fault or all I talk about in my blog or forums is my sex life. I am tired of explaining myself to people so the best thing I can do is just leave and let those who know it all be on their high horse. God forbid if anything happens to them..If you wish to correspond with me, I can be reached on Yahoo Messenger.

I will miss you ladies and wish you the best.
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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #103 on: May 26, 2008, 03:48:09 PM »
Oh no Queen.  Please don't walk away.  We need you here.  You know you'd be missed terribly.  Maybe just take a small break and come back?  Regardless, I've got your e-mail address.  Whatever you decide to do, you know I'll keep in touch with you lady. 

Snow, I'm sorry all your kids have strep.  It was a struggle for me when my daughter was younger and home just to deal with her when she was real sick.  The thing was, she didn't act like she was sick.  The hardest thing was to keep her down awhile so she could get better.  About my knees, well, whacha gonna do.  I'll just go back to the doctor (ortho), and if he can't give me a solution, then I'll ask my own doctor for a referral to one who will.  About the pms....have you ever tried anything like Midol?  I don't even know how good that stuff is; just wondering.  Or are you on like a birth control pill?  I'm asking because sometimes some of them can ease period time.  I see advertisements for a lot of them nowadays that say you'll only have periods 2-3 times a year.  I wonder if that would be an option for you? 

It was sunny here, but now it's clouded over.  I think we're supposed to get rain.  It's steamy.  My landlord came over last week and put the air conditioner I got from my parents' in the window.  It works really well.  I made some tuna salad, so I'll probably eat some of that in a couple hours.  Other than that, nothing going on.  My knees feel some better.  I laid back down this morning.  About 11:30, my granddaughter was pounding on my door.  She said her "mother" accidentally deleted my phone number from her cell phone, so they stopped by to get it again.  After she left, I laid down until about 12:30. 

I hope everyone has a good afternoon.  I'll probably be back later.
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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #104 on: May 26, 2008, 05:11:13 PM »
Betty--

After trying to cool down some which I am still not cool yet, I decided I can't just walk away from you guys. This place means too much to me. But I think I will take a break for a few days or so. I think I need to do this because I am at the point right now of being so mad that if someone said the wrong thing to me now due to someone else pissing me off, that I may end up sitting beside my son in the County jail. I haven't felt like this in a long time. I need to regroup.

So please don't take my leaving as a ploy for attention. I am considering trying to reschedule my appointment with the liver specialist to another time, maybe it coming up so soon is a reason for the stress, not that another time will make things different or maybe it will, I really don't know.

Dragonette---Thanks for the response in my blog but you better check out what was said about your comment. I think the person is an ass personally someone who never had to deal with struggles or have their hopes shattered due to some bullshit.

So, I will try to stay away for a few days but I was told in a PM if I am not back by the weekend to expect an ass whipping. And for this person to say that to me really means something. So it is not good bye but hasta luego....
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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #105 on: May 26, 2008, 09:01:27 PM »
Queen, we need you and would miss you if you left, Its not the same without hearing your words of wisdom, your jokes, sarcasm and the strength to survive the hell you've been going through is an inspiration to me and others, we really need each other here and don't let anyone take your joy or your passion for writting and telling it like it  really is!
 thanks everyone,glad to be back!
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« Reply #106 on: May 26, 2008, 10:18:00 PM »
Queen, you do what you need to do, but I'm glad you decided not to walk away from us.  We need you, we really do.  You're a brave woman, and we need all the brave women around here we can get.

This is going to be short, because my left knee is killing me.  I googled avascular necrosis, since the ortho diagnosed me with this before my kneecaps were fractured, and it really didn't sound good.  I had read about it before, but I had forgotten.  There is treatment for it, but I'm not sure the treatment would apply with the kneecap being fractured and there being no cartilage in it.  Well, tomorrow I'm either going to make an appointment with the ortho (who never did do anything about this situation before), or I'm going to e-mail my doctor about a referral to an orthopaedist who will do something.  I think all the walking this weekend might have done something, or it's just going to be soar for awhile.  Anyway, I'm going to start wearing the brace that the ortho prescribed for me a few years ago (well, I guess he did do something), to see if that will relieve some of the pressure. 

I hope you ladies have a good evening.  I'll talk to you all in the morning.
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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #107 on: May 27, 2008, 07:50:44 AM »
Dear Queen

I have not known you long - but I am glad you have decided not to leave.

I also believe I know a bit about what you are going through as I may have mentioned before I have been in a similar position to you -  I was terrorised - and there is no other word for it - by a group of women which ended a couple of years ago on my own forum that I started http://veritee.proboards7.com/

They would not leave me alone - they even 'stalked' me to other internet forums on the net, we banned their IP addresses they got different ones,  they found ways to bypass measures we put in .

They called me dishonest, that I took money for myself that was donated to the charity and lied about my situation, dangerous, twisted, a psychopath, that I was out to hurt other women especially new mothers with babies and contacted women who were vulnerable and who I or my forum supported and told them that I was an emotional predator and discredited my repetition anywhere they could including to other bigger charities dealing with the issue my smaller one does - Post Natal Illness and also to members of the medical profession who are concerned with PNI in the UK.

And while the charity I founded is not known in the US it is in the UK and I have often been on national papers and even on TV due to my work here!!! So it did me a lot of damage from the point of view of my work with PNI  and personally for my self esteem

And all because I dared to speak up, tell it how it really was for one woman, and put my name to it so that I was not anonymous but a real person suffering real things - and because I did not even try to pretend that being a mother for me was all great - I told it as it truly was for someone who had PNI, Post Natal Illness and they could not take it!! Scared I guess? Maybe in denial or maybe they were not women at all but a man or men with issues about women who were not 'natural' mothers or just had PNI?? Who really knows who my attackers were?

At first I thought it would not bother me as I knew it was their problem and tried to talk to them , reason with them and put my point of view and convince them that I really was genuine and not a danger to anyone

But they kept it up relentlessly for nearly 3 years and it got to me
It ended up affecting how I felt about myself, distrusting my own motives and nearly leaving my own forum and charity.

But I saw it through and pretty much know that NOTHING like this will ever get to me like this again :)
I am stronger for it - but I will not pretend it was not hell at the time.

I got through mainly because of the love and support of the women on my forum and I think it may be the same as the women you are close to on this forum give to you.

With their support and help I was able to turn it around in that it no longer bothered me and they no longer got to me ......
When they realised this - they gave up

You can not bully someone who will not be bullied
And this is what it was  - internet bullying

Stay here, so many obviously love you and support you - leaving here will probably not make them go away anyway and you will lack the same level of great support you have here.

Just my experience - hope you do not think I am speaking out of turn as I have not been here long

But stay and know that these women/ or men as you can NEVER be sure who they actually are - it could be just one bitter man or woman - and whoever they/he/she are it is just not worth leaving here for them
In a way if you do , they win, don't let them win whoever they are, and they won't!!!

Love Veritee XXX
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Re: Dating Thread XXXIV: I am woman, hear me ROAR!!!!!
« Reply #108 on: May 27, 2008, 08:05:13 AM »
Please post all further comments in thread XXXV.  Thank you.
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