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Author Topic: 1st year is over  (Read 2118 times)

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Offline shadowfluid

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1st year is over
« on: May 07, 2008, 01:18:07 AM »
What a crazy year.  Diagnosed a year ago today.  I'm trying to cope with the fact that I don't have a job or money at the moment to pay my bills.  I'm trying to remind myself of what I have...school's out in a week and had energy the past 3 days so I think I won't have to change meds after all. We'll see....it's always up and down with moods and energy lately.  Thanks to all for the support this first year.

edited to add: oh and who needs good credit anyway? Not like i'm buying a house or a car. *sigh*

« Last Edit: May 07, 2008, 01:22:33 AM by shadowfluid »
Jan 08       321/23%  VL 92,000 (very mild shingles)
Feb 1 08    Start Truvada+Viramune
March 08    470/33%  VL 320
mid-May     Start Reyataz/Norvir/Truvada
June 08      571/ 40%     VL   80
August 08   585/ 33%     VL >50
Nov  Lab error!!!!!!!!wah.
Jan 09        535      Undetectable
March 11     756

Offline ga1964

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #1 on: May 07, 2008, 01:56:34 AM »
I feel your pain, I found out my status a year ago last Dec. and things seem to get deeper and deeper.

Hope things get better for you.   

Offline AndyArrow

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #2 on: May 07, 2008, 03:22:18 AM »
I'm sorry to hear that things have been going so roughly for you (both).  I think emotionally the first year can be the hardest.  Even if you tell yourself you have completely accepted what you have found out you still don't want to believe it.

The great thing about this site is that you can see other people who are going through the same thing you.  I think more importantly though, you can see people who have lived with this for a very long time and are still here and living happy, healthy and productive lives.

Best of luck in your new year starting tomorrow!
AA
It is not the arrival that matters.  It is the journey along the way. -- Michel Montaigne

Offline BT65

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #3 on: May 07, 2008, 07:25:02 AM »
Shadow, here's to a better year. 

Oh, I stopped worrying about my credit years ago.
I've never killed anyone, but I frequently get satisfaction reading the obituary notices.-Clarence Darrow

Offline Longislander

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #4 on: May 07, 2008, 07:24:21 PM »
Hi Shadow- definitely the first year is the roughest.   Appears to me you got through another year of school, no?  Get it done, get a good career that you enjoy (with health insurance).  Your credit can be repaired with diligence and time.  Houses are huge money pits sometimes! 

I'm glad you've had some energy lately, and I hope that continues for you so you can enjoy the summer, and get on with living life~

Paul
infected 10/05 diagnosed 12-05
2/06   379/57000                    6/07 372/30500 25%   4/09 640/U/32% 
5/06   ?? /37000                     8/07 491/55000/24%    9/09 913/U/39%
8/06   349/9500 25%              11/07 515/68000/24     2/10 845/U/38%
9/06   507/16,000 30% !          2/08  516/116k/22%    7/10 906/80/39%
12/06 398/29000 26%             Start Atripla 3/08
3/07   402/80,000 29%            4/08  485/undet!/27
4/07   507/35,000 25%            7/08 625/UD/34%
                                                 11/08 684/U/36%

Offline J.R.E.

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #5 on: May 07, 2008, 07:37:42 PM »
Hi,

The first year, is a very tough year. I spent it,( Actually the first year and a half) intoxicated most of the time, after my diagnosis in 1985, until I came to the realization, that this wasn't going to work ! Wishing you a much better year ahead. Good luck with getting a job. You'll do it !! Keeping busy everyday is a main part of my emotional  survival .


Ray







 
Current Meds ; Viramune, Epzicom, 40mg of simvastatin, 12.5mg of Hydrochlorothiazide.
Metoprolol tartrate 25mg



http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=40802.0

http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=45159.0

http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=39722.msg495621;topicseen#msg495621

http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=46806.0

http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=39414.msg491701#msg491701


 In October of 2003, My t-cell count was 16, Viral load was over 500,000, Percentage at that time was 5%. I started my first  HAART regimen  on October 24th,03.

 As of 8/2514,  t-cells are at 402, Viral load <40

 Current % is at 11%

  
 62 years young.

Offline shadowfluid

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #6 on: May 08, 2008, 12:50:35 AM »
Shadow, here's to a better year. 

Oh, I stopped worrying about my credit years ago.

If i had a daiquiri right now I would cheers you! But i have coffee...so cheers! I hate the fact that these credit card companies who can't speak english would stop calling my cell all day.

edited: spelling.
Jan 08       321/23%  VL 92,000 (very mild shingles)
Feb 1 08    Start Truvada+Viramune
March 08    470/33%  VL 320
mid-May     Start Reyataz/Norvir/Truvada
June 08      571/ 40%     VL   80
August 08   585/ 33%     VL >50
Nov  Lab error!!!!!!!!wah.
Jan 09        535      Undetectable
March 11     756

Offline shadowfluid

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #7 on: May 08, 2008, 12:52:43 AM »
Hi,

The first year, is a very tough year. I spent it,( Actually the first year and a half) intoxicated most of the time, after my diagnosis in 1985, until I came to the realization, that this wasn't going to work ! Wishing you a much better year ahead. Good luck with getting a job. You'll do it !! Keeping busy everyday is a main part of my emotional  survival .


Ray

That's 4 days with no energy slump.  Taking ALL the viramune at night really effed me up.  Twice a day dosing isn't so bad. :)
Thanks for the support! I just recently met someone who labels himself a "sugar daddy".  yay.

edited: can't type today apparently







 
Jan 08       321/23%  VL 92,000 (very mild shingles)
Feb 1 08    Start Truvada+Viramune
March 08    470/33%  VL 320
mid-May     Start Reyataz/Norvir/Truvada
June 08      571/ 40%     VL   80
August 08   585/ 33%     VL >50
Nov  Lab error!!!!!!!!wah.
Jan 09        535      Undetectable
March 11     756

Offline shadowfluid

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #8 on: May 08, 2008, 12:58:36 AM »
Hi Shadow- definitely the first year is the roughest.   Appears to me you got through another year of school, no?  Get it done, get a good career that you enjoy (with health insurance).  Your credit can be repaired with diligence and time.  Houses are huge money pits sometimes! 

I'm glad you've had some energy lately, and I hope that continues for you so you can enjoy the summer, and get on with living life~

Paul

I'm getting my BA in Dance this Fall 2008! I have two more classes. Dont know what a dance degree will bring me but I'm hoping to find a job soon so I don't have to escort again.  Good times!
Health insurance would be good! Thank god for ADAP and Ryan white.  I made $2,000 last year so I'm thinking of getting a tattoo that says "I heart ADAP."
« Last Edit: May 08, 2008, 01:00:29 AM by shadowfluid »
Jan 08       321/23%  VL 92,000 (very mild shingles)
Feb 1 08    Start Truvada+Viramune
March 08    470/33%  VL 320
mid-May     Start Reyataz/Norvir/Truvada
June 08      571/ 40%     VL   80
August 08   585/ 33%     VL >50
Nov  Lab error!!!!!!!!wah.
Jan 09        535      Undetectable
March 11     756

Offline bear60

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #9 on: May 09, 2008, 05:13:28 PM »
Hi
I just read your post and wanted to say congratulations on your degree. Its really more important than your HIV anniversary.

If you concentrate on doing something with the degree / career/ job, then I think everything will fall into place for you.  Dont be shy about auditioning for things not totally dance related.
( An example from a Long {read old} Timer:  about 30 years ago a young man who had just goten his degree in dance from a well respected but isolated college of the performing arts, moved to New York City. He got a low paying job dancing with one of the better known dance companies ( I think Martha Graham).  He lived in old tenement housing with other poor starving artists and shared rent with them.  One day he auditioned for a job with a group about to be formed called THE VILLAGE PEOPLE and the rest became history.  Though not trained as a singer he had the "stuff" to be a performer on stage.  He still makes a comfortable living from being one of the "original"  VILLAGE PEOPLE.)
Poz Bear Type in Philadelphia

Offline dusty99

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #10 on: May 10, 2008, 09:14:53 AM »
I'm getting my BA in Dance this Fall 2008! I have two more classes. Dont know what a dance degree will bring me but I'm hoping to find a job soon so I don't have to escort again.  Good times!
Health insurance would be good! Thank god for ADAP and Ryan white.  I made $2,000 last year so I'm thinking of getting a tattoo that says "I heart ADAP."




I knew an USAF pilot whose degree was in dance. (his BA, which got him in the AF) He later got his masters in Aerospace Engineering. So anything can Happen. This guy was flying Fighter Bomber Aircraft defending the country. By now he has retired, As this was in the mid 80's
17 Mar 08: diagnosed
31 Mar 08 CD4: 565,  30%  VL: 28,900
21 May 08 CD4: 600,  37%  VL: 13,000
25 Oct 08  CD4: 308   34%  VL: 68,000
19 Nov 08 Started Atripla
16 Dec 08  CD4: 580   42% VL: 70
27 Jan 09  CD4: 490   41%  VL: undetectable
24 Mar 09  CD4: 565   42%  VL: undetectable
30 Jun 09  CD4: 615    41% VL: undetectable
25 Sep 09  CD4: 595    47% VL: undetectable

Offline next2u

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #11 on: May 11, 2008, 05:23:55 PM »
edited to add: oh and who needs good credit anyway? Not like i'm buying a house or a car. *sigh*

congrats on completing another year of your life! also, school is tough, good job hanging in there, lord knows i've seriously contemplated dropping out every week for the past 2 quarters.

in response to your edit - a lot of people need good credit. i hope you are being facetious. i struggle with my credit on a regular basis. i am up to my eyeballs in debt so don't sweat it. if your credit score is fucked, fix it or don't stress it. im sure one day, if you desire, you'll purchase whatever you'll need credit for!!! HOPEFULLY, by then both of us will be significantly well off and we'll be able to purchase all or our shit with straight up cash!!! but outside the material shit, i hope your life is still sweet at times : )

best,
d
midapr07 - seroconversion
sept07 - tested poz
oct07 cd4 1013; vl 13,900; cd4% 41
feb08 cd4  694;  vl 16,160; cd4% 50.1
may08 cd4 546; vl 91,480; cd4% 32
aug08 cd4 576; vl 48,190; cd4% 40.7
dec08 cd4 559; vl 63,020; cd4% 29.4
feb09 cd4 464; vl 11,000; cd4% 26
may09 cd4 544; vl 29,710; cd4% 27.2
oct09 cd4 ...; vl 23,350; cd4% 31.6
mar10 cd4 408; vl 59,050; cd4% 31.4
aug10 cd4 328; vl 80,000; cd4% 19.3 STARTED ATRIPLA
oct10 cd4 423; vl 410 ;); cd4% 30.2
jun11 cd4 439; vl <20 ;); cd4% 33.8 <-Undetectable!
mar12 cd4 695; vl ud; cd4% 38.6
jan13 cd4 738; vl ud; cd4% 36.8
aug13 cd4 930; vl ud; cd4% 44.3
jan14 cd4 813; vl ud; cd4% 42.8
may14 cd4 783; vl *; cd4%43.5

Offline shadowfluid

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #12 on: May 12, 2008, 02:54:56 AM »
congrats on completing another year of your life! also, school is tough, good job hanging in there, lord knows i've seriously contemplated dropping out every week for the past 2 quarters.

in response to your edit - a lot of people need good credit. i hope you are being facetious. i struggle with my credit on a regular basis. i am up to my eyeballs in debt so don't sweat it. if your credit score is fucked, fix it or don't stress it. im sure one day, if you desire, you'll purchase whatever you'll need credit for!!! HOPEFULLY, by then both of us will be significantly well off and we'll be able to purchase all or our shit with straight up cash!!! but outside the material shit, i hope your life is still sweet at times : )

best,
d

Well my credit is bad bad and i have a lot of debt. But my parents bought me a new car last year since some biatch hit me.   Thanks for the sweet response. I hope you get yourself out of debt!
Jan 08       321/23%  VL 92,000 (very mild shingles)
Feb 1 08    Start Truvada+Viramune
March 08    470/33%  VL 320
mid-May     Start Reyataz/Norvir/Truvada
June 08      571/ 40%     VL   80
August 08   585/ 33%     VL >50
Nov  Lab error!!!!!!!!wah.
Jan 09        535      Undetectable
March 11     756

Offline hankgaguy

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Re: 1st year is over
« Reply #13 on: May 12, 2008, 08:42:26 PM »
Good Luck on the 1 Year. June 8 is my "birthday" for diagnosis (and just a little over 2 since the seroconversion). Started my treatment with VL of 1.82 Million (yes, million) and CD-4 of 186, not to mention bronchial drama, staph infections, etc. Thanks to my 'lovely' cocktail of Kaletra/Truvada, am now nearly undetectable (VL of 97) and CD-4 hovering around 400.

Sorry to hear about the rather stagnant financial stuff. It's tough. I remember those days. Now, fortunately, after a lot of hard work, I'm fairly "comfortable", with the exception of needing to change jobs but stay for the insurance (not to mention the acceptance of a small town local government of my status).

Just hang in there. Life will be better!
Healthy, Happy, and Kickin' Butt

 


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