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Offline swede_dish

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« on: February 15, 2008, 10:01:28 AM »
               These are the hardest days, just me and what I like to call my "bug". I had been dating David for a while, but in the end he couldn't handle it.  I don't necessarily blame him. I mean, we're pretty young and I didn't want him to feel obligated to stay with me just so he doesn't feel like a jerk. I did origionally think he was an ass, but I guess it's better to find out sooner than later right? According to him his parents were making him feel guilty about my status. They were worried about his health, having children in the future, ect...which I can understand. They are worried about his health, but I'm not stupid. I am never going to put anyone else's health at risk. I'm not even sure I would want kids if I was negative, to be honest. They poop alot and cry alot. No thank you. If I wanted something that poops alot and can't walk, I would get a dog with a limp leg.  Not that there's anything wrong with that.

         I've started school again and going on with whatever I was going to do with or without him. I just with it was with him  :-\

Sorry, but this is the only place I can openly talk about my status and I feel comfortable with you all.

Please be well...

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« Reply #1 on: February 15, 2008, 10:18:28 AM »
J,

Sorry honey....better you've found all this out sooner, rather than later.  I wish it didn't have to be like this.

Hugs to you, sweetie.

Alan  :'(
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« Reply #2 on: February 15, 2008, 11:14:25 AM »
Don't be sorry.  that's why were here.

And school is good.  It's a good place for finding guys.  I bet before the term is over, you'll  be out with someone else.

robert
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« Reply #3 on: February 15, 2008, 11:19:30 AM »
You're smart, and cute, and clever, and funny, and you have a great laugh that comes easy, Swede (okay, at least in my head...that's how I see you),
and there's someone very special out there for you.

I feel it in my bones, dear.

Chin up. 

It's his loss.

xox

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« Reply #4 on: February 15, 2008, 11:55:45 AM »
Thank you loves =) , I'm just being mopey today...



J,

Sorry honey....better you've found all this out sooner, rather than later.  I wish it didn't have to be like this.

Hugs to you, sweetie.

Alan  :'(

Thank you Allan, you have always been a sweatheart and your words really warm my heart <3

Don't be sorry.  that's why were here.

And school is good.  It's a good place for finding guys.  I bet before the term is over, you'll  be out with someone else.

robert
We do have a large group of good looking chaps here... Now if only they would wear chaps. Of the assless variety...

You're smart, and cute, and clever, and funny, and you have a great laugh that comes easy, Swede (okay, at least in my head...that's how I see you),
and there's someone very special out there for you.

I feel it in my bones, dear.

Chin up. 

It's his loss.

xox

=) I just need to shrink you and keep you in my pocket <3 Thank you
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« Reply #5 on: February 15, 2008, 12:11:16 PM »
Voorspoed  :-*

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« Reply #6 on: February 15, 2008, 01:22:11 PM »
Awww, BabyGirl, sorry to hear that you are having a rough patch. It's his loss and with your personality, I'm sure you'll find someone else in no time. Now where are those assless good looking chaps at?  ;D ;D ;D
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« Reply #7 on: February 15, 2008, 06:44:33 PM »
Sweetie, as ademas said, it's his loss.  Why, if you were lesbian (or bi as I am) I'd date you myself. ;)

I'm with the ladies, assless chaps, bring it on!
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« Reply #8 on: February 15, 2008, 06:46:08 PM »
I am bi ;)
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« Reply #9 on: February 15, 2008, 06:47:20 PM »
Hey, and I recall from another post that you live around, was it Grand Rapids?  You know, I'm just over the Indiana border, in a sister city to South Bend.  This could get interesting.
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« Reply #10 on: February 15, 2008, 07:40:30 PM »
Hi Swede

Just for you..I haven't tried painting a bare assed cowboy yet..but I might give it a go one of these days.. ;)

Hope it cheers you up a little bit.

Hugs
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« Reply #11 on: February 15, 2008, 07:52:11 PM »
Hey, and I recall from another post that you live around, was it Grand Rapids?  You know, I'm just over the Indiana border, in a sister city to South Bend.  This could get interesting.

Oo la la! ;)

Hi Swede

Just for you..I haven't tried painting a bare assed cowboy yet..but I might give it a go one of these days.. ;)

Hope it cheers you up a little bit.

Hugs
Jan :-*



Awww Jan thank you love! It's a wonderfull painting!
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« Reply #12 on: February 15, 2008, 07:57:29 PM »
Hey, and I recall from another post that you live around, was it Grand Rapids?  You know, I'm just over the Indiana border, in a sister city to South Bend.  This could get interesting.

It's already got my interest.

My God, I sound like a straight male.  But seriously...
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« Reply #13 on: February 15, 2008, 08:05:04 PM »
It's already got my interest.

My God, I sound like a straight male.  But seriously...

Are you thinking threesome, Timmy?  Honestly, I don't know why my mind is gutterish tonight.
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« Reply #14 on: February 15, 2008, 08:27:02 PM »
Are you thinking threesome, Timmy?  Honestly, I don't know why my mind is gutterish tonight.

Well, be it known that the fact of the matter is that your resident mo here actually does consider himself to be bisexual...though most definitely leaning toward the male side.  I'd say I'm somewhere along the 90/10 split, but I'd be dishonest with myself to deny that 10% as anything but very real.  I know that a lot of people consider bisexuality to be bullshit, but fuck 'em.  I don't feel any obligation to try to convince anyone of my attractions.  They are what they are.

Yes, I have dated and had sex with women and enjoyed it quite a lot.  :P  The desire to keep my life as simple as possible, an overall laziness on my part and perhaps even a bit of the whole HIV thing has just resulted in me fully adopting a "strictly dickly" approach to life;  I wear my homosexual badge and am fully happy with that. 

The bottom line is that passion turns me the hell on.  I don't care if it is male or female or what.  Romance, flirtation, intimacy, eroticism...all that makes my brain just sizzle.  It's a state that I just love to be in, and try to reach and maintain as often as I can while I'm still kicking.  It's the place where & when I most know that I'm alive.
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« Reply #15 on: February 15, 2008, 08:32:07 PM »
I'm bisexual myself, and I don't think it's bullshit at all.  And with me, the more verbal (and erotic, like you said) someone is, the better.  Before, during and after sex.  Yes, I guess that means I still 'got it.'  As far as preference for either sex, I don't really have one.  I've had LTRs with a few men and a couple women.  Both were equally satisfying.  I must admit, however, the more fantastical sex can be, all the better. 
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« Reply #16 on: February 15, 2008, 08:42:44 PM »
I'm bisexual myself, and I don't think it's bullshit at all.  And with me, the more verbal (and erotic, like you said) someone is, the better.  Before, during and after sex.  Yes, I guess that means I still 'got it.'  As far as preference for either sex, I don't really have one.  I've had LTRs with a few men and a couple women.  Both were equally satisfying.  I must admit, however, the more fantastical sex can be, all the better. 

While I understand that a great many (perhaps a majority) of "bisexuals" are really homosexuals afraid of wholly embracing themselves, I'm somewhat put off by the dismissal of bisexuality outright - especially by homosexuals...because they (we) spend so much time arguing the reality of our attraction to the larger hetero world.  It seems really two-faced to then turn to bisexuals and then say, "that just cannot be".  Same shit comes out about trans people a lot, and that just flies all over me.

Truth is, I wish I was more equally bi than I am.  I consider it the ideal state - for me, for everyone, really.  In my vision of "the perfect world", attraction would be a more open field for every adult.  In the real world, it's a different story...and I recognize that the notion of bisexuality seems to create a confusion for so many people.  I fought ever so much to claim my place here among my men.  I've just simply been too tired to even consider taking up another battle to make any more hetero-oriented relationship work.
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« Reply #17 on: February 15, 2008, 08:47:40 PM »
Well Timmy, if you do get that ruby- studded butt plug, please think of me when using it (at least sometimes). ;)
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« Reply #18 on: February 15, 2008, 08:50:24 PM »
Well Timmy, if you do get that ruby- studded butt plug, please think of me when using it (at least sometimes). ;)

Even if I don't, I've got one of my own. 

So, sure.   :P
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« Reply #19 on: February 16, 2008, 12:37:34 AM »
It was 4 dollar martini night with my lady friends so I'm a bit shnockerd...but from what I understand of the lastest replies, I need to have a lunch with Bettytacy and thunter.
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« Reply #20 on: February 16, 2008, 07:54:14 AM »
Yes, that would be the assumed plan. :D
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« Reply #21 on: February 16, 2008, 01:19:05 PM »
Queen and I have first dibs on Timtation, unless he wants all four of us at once?

BT, go put on your black leather and get ready, GF.....  ;)

J, I bet you're feeling better already!   :-*

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« Reply #22 on: February 16, 2008, 07:02:46 PM »
I am Moonlight!  Can he handle all four at once? Most men can't handle one.
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« Reply #23 on: February 16, 2008, 07:27:34 PM »
Timtation might not have a choice if we all gang up on him.....  :P
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« Reply #24 on: February 16, 2008, 08:07:58 PM »
So Iím already late for a party
And saw the computer still logged
So I perched  and thought okay do it
Read just one, and now I am fogged

Not out of the usual confusion
Oh no, itís clearly the heat of this thread
My glasses are actually misty
The steam is escaping my head!

Now fashionably late for said party
Iíll be dashing right out to the car
Imagining South Bending In Diana
And Grand Rapids Thrusting Quite Far

The Youth Pastorís holding Confession
And how, in the light of such Truths
Could any of us, unless deluded
Abandon our smutty e-booths?

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« Reply #25 on: February 16, 2008, 08:46:37 PM »
So Iím already late for a party
And saw the computer still logged
So I perched  and thought okay do it
Read just one, and now I am fogged

Not out of the usual confusion
Oh no, itís clearly the heat of this thread
My glasses are actually misty
The steam is escaping my head!

Now fashionably late for said party
Iíll be dashing right out to the car
Imagining South Bending In Diana
And Grand Rapids Thrusting Quite Far

The Youth Pastorís holding Confession
And how, in the light of such Truths
Could any of us, unless deluded
Abandon our smutty e-booths?


AMAZING.
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« Reply #26 on: February 16, 2008, 11:26:35 PM »
Can he handle all four at once? Most men can't handle one.

I'm not most men.

-T

(who is soaking up the attention)

 :P
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« Reply #27 on: February 17, 2008, 12:49:10 AM »
WOOOOO!
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« Reply #28 on: February 17, 2008, 12:50:37 AM »
Well Timmy might be able to handle us, but the question is, could we handle each other?
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« Reply #29 on: February 17, 2008, 12:55:49 AM »
I'm game if you are, GF.  "Put on your black leather...."  LOL

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« Reply #30 on: February 17, 2008, 04:12:08 PM »
yehaw! I'll grab my AC/DC records and the tequila!

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