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Author Topic: Dating Thread - Part XVI: Go On That Date, Sleep In Late, Make It A Great 2008!  (Read 27642 times)

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Hi GFs~

I saw that we were in need of a new thread so I stepped up!  I love trying to think of new titles.  This Dating Thread is like the Super Bowl, we'll have to make sure we know our Roman numerals by the end of the summer!   ;)

BT~  Glad you didn't give in to the nicotine craving.  I guess your system gets pretty dependent on that Chantix.  Spend your $$$ on that, its better for you!

Drag~  Good to see you post, I knew you couldn't stay away for too long!  I was looking at Google Earth today with Iceman and we looked at Amsterdam.  Iceman went there in the 80's and said everyone gets around on bikes, and that the streets are very narrow.  It made me think of you pedaling to work!  Be happy you don't have to pay for gas in a car, the prices in the U.S. are ridiculous!  Also, I know you have had a lot on your mind, but you know I always say that you are a tough one, and will weather any storms.  You have the power to guide your life in any direction you want, we all do.  I want to take my own advice and stop planning, and START LIVING! 

I think I get so caught up in the perfection of trying to plan for the future that I miss out on the present, exhausting myself in my mind.  Remember to embrace the here and now, the present.  The "present" is truly our "gift."

Queen~  Happy Birthday to you GF!  Sorry to hear you mouth is bugging you.  I used to manage a dental office, and aside from going in to see the dentist, here's what you can do.  Gargle with warm salt water to clean that area out, and when you brush, don't brush too hard.  Ibuprofen will help reduce any inflammation in the area temporarily, but you may have to keep taking it every 4 hours.  Take it with water and it may help that headache to subside as well, perhaps you are dehydrated a little bit?  Or perhaps the toothache is leading to the headache.....Get it checked out soon, cause treatment later on can be very expensive.

I am at Iceman's house, we are having a wonderful time together this weekend.  He is warming up the couch for me, so its time to go watch some football!  More soon!


For new readers, here's our "Dating Threads" history, which started in June 2007!

Part I:       http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=12526.0
Part II:      http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=13850.0
Part III:     http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=14375.0
Part IV:     http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=14848.0
Part V:      http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=15148.0
Part VI:     http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=15558.0
Part VII:    http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=15951.0
Part VIII:   http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=16271.0
Part IX:     http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=16637.0
Part X:      http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=16913.0
Part XI:     http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=17115.0
Part XII:    http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=17324.0
Part XIII:   http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=17723.0
Part XIV:   http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=17900.0
Part XV:    http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=18150.0

~ Cindy
« Last Edit: January 12, 2008, 08:20:44 PM by MOONLIGHT1114 »
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Happy Birthday Queen.

I thought of another reason why not to have unprotected sex with a guy who is aware of your status and still doesn't want to use protection. If he doesn't want to protect himself from something as awful as HIV God knows what else he might infect you with. You could wind up HIV positive and have a half dozen other stds to boot.

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Hi GFs~

I am SO glad that the Packers stomped the Seagulls, after those damn birds beat my Redskins last week.  The snow was awesome to watch during that game!  Woo-hoo!

Win~  As far as my neck, I suffered a chair to the head via bar fight by unknown redneck, back on 7/7/01.  Then on 11/16/02 I was in a fender bender, some dumb ass decided to come over into my lane and he hadn't cleared the front of my car.  I stomped on the brake so hard and then T-boned him.  I held the car straight and we connected on the driver's side and front end, and he ended up on my passenger side, up in a driveway facing the opposite direction.  I got whiplash and a sore lower back from that, and all of the neck probs from previous said chair were aggravated again.  So, I am a Band-Aid.  As if diabetes and HIV weren't enough, I now have fibromyalgia.  I have shelled out $30 a week since the last week of June to get massages this year.  I can't imagine how I would feel by now with the dry weather if I hadn't had the massages thus far.

Queen~ Sorry to hear about the Rx snafu.  I know your "window" is short as far as when you can re-order your meds.  I can order about 5 days earlier each month via ADAP, so I have nearly a month stock-piled at this point.  How's the toothache?

BT~ I'm always so glad to see that you are excited about your classes.  You are really a cool chick.  I swear, some day I'll have Iceman drive me to see all of you.  I'll go pick you up, and then we'll swing up and see Queen.  Then off to Jersey, down to the Carolinas....Oh how I wish there was a way to meet Tendai and Drag.  My girls, my girls, I love you all.

Yes, I am just smitten tonight.  Iceman and I are doing SO good.  I have always been the one to sort of hold back and not flirt too much, try to be reserved, etc, in a new relationship, but I am getting so much more comfortable with him.  Its like crazy energy between the two of us, he ALWAYS brings me up, always tells me nice things when I don't expect them.  Best thing is, the man is sincere.  I can see it in his eyes.  (Oh, his EYES, you tell 'em Drag, you've seen a pic of my man....lol).  

Yeah, I'm in deep girls, I have never been so fortunate in all of my life.  I pray for all of us, for all of us to get through our struggles, no matter how small they seem, and to find truly GOOD people to be a part of our lives.  It seems we all have something going on at some time or another, and its the greatest thing to see us hold each other up.   :)  I have been so blessed to have Little Sis and her husband, as well as Iceman, to be supportive of me.  I am struggling so much with this neck and the vertigo, but being strong mentally will always see me through.

Tonight I send some of my strength to all of you who need it.  Whether it be in finding that special someone, in getting along with a significant other, having the willpower to quit bad habits (but chocolate is still OK!), having the strength to do the right thing in the face of adversity, in walking away when we need to.....WHATEVER it is, you are my Family and I want ALL of us to find joy in our lives.

Quick question, what's the first thing that pops into your head?  Right now, what are you most grateful for?  Doesn't matter if its the Diet Coke you just got out of the fridge, or the cat you just fed, or the family member you just had a good talk with......

Right now, I am most thankful for my strength and perseverance, because it is bringing me good things!

Sleep tight, my GFs, see you in the morning!   :-*

~ Cindy
« Last Edit: January 12, 2008, 11:17:41 PM by MOONLIGHT1114 »
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I'm grateful for good memories. Loving touches. Sugar and caffeine. :o

Offline Queen Tokelove

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The swelling around my tooth has gone down quite a bit. The headache is gone too. Probably because I took an 800 mg ib. As far as my meds, the Atripla I can only refill every 23 days. The Ziagen I'm not really sure about but because of the deal with the Atripla, I usually wait til the night before to refill.

Hey, I wanna see a pic of Iceman and those sexy eyes of his. I wanna see what has you sprung, Cindy.. ;D Nothing to report as usual. I got a little bit of money for my birthday, some more bath stuff, and a zip up type thing, forget what you call it. Thinner than a coat but quite warm. And Nefertiti from my son. No big plans and my bday is about over in under 4 hours. I guess I am just grateful to be here even though it would be nice to have someone to share my life with. But life shall go on.

I wasn't interested in football today since my squad doesn't play until tomorrow. I still hope Jessica keeps her ass at home. I think T.O. is going to play tomorrow but not gonna know til the last minute. I forget who we play, oh, I think it's the Giants. If I remember correctly we have beaten them previously and we have home field advantage.
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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What I am most grateful for is my recovery.  I went to an NA function tonight and heard a wonderful speaker from Gary, IN.  It was really awesome.  And the people there are my family.  The speaker there was talking about how grateful he is to be able to live life again and about how we should always be ready to help the newcomer.  And that's true with anything.  So right now, I'm grateful I still have a brain left to think with after all the shit I've put my body through.  I'm grateful for the people in my life, that's another thing I'm grateful for.  We don't know how truly fortunate we are. 
I've never killed anyone, but I frequently get satisfaction reading the obituary notices.-Clarence Darrow

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Damnit, I had this long post written and lost it. Grrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!     Anyway, I am most grateful for my Robert. He has been a lifechanging experience and is the main reason I am still alive.                                  ML, good title. Speaking of dates. I am talking to a really nice guy in SC, he will probably come up in February unless I get cold feet. Also , a local asked me out Thursday. I will go cause he asked me to a place I've always wanted to go so  it should be a nice night out. I am supposed to call him tonight after I get my next 2 week schedule.             Drag, glad to see you back.                                                                SS, leave that guy alone. Win has a good point, no telling what he has and you need to stay healthy.                                                              Queen, glad you are feeling better. As for the cave, try it around 7 after and there are usually eggs. Or keep reloading the page and after a few minutes they will come up. That's how I got so many.            Betty, hope you are well. I used to go to NA but don't any more cause I still smoke weed and it would be hypocritical of me to go.  There  are some real good people there.                                   Everybody else, hope you are well. Take care. Cristy

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I am grateful for  just being.

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Eh? Got up late again today. Nothing eventful going on. I will probably just watch the game and play my game. At the moment, I am watching Ghostbusters on Vh1. All is well.
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
Cherish the simple things life has to offer

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Hello All,

Queen, I would like to say happy belated Birthday...

Just wanted to stick my head in, and let you all know that I have been doing very well with my situation..
I would like to thank all of you for your support and tough love..Queen...lol, It was reall needed..Other then that I have been doing great, I have my apt with the new therapist 2morrow, so I hope that it goes well..I need someone that I can have a long term relationship with, I feel so cheap bouncing around from therapist to therapist...lol

Anyway, I hope everyone is enjoying there weekend..Be Blessed..Camry

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Good afternoon ladies:

Well, today I cleaned out underneath my bed.  Wow, what a mess that was.  I got two trashbags of shit out.  Most of it magazines, papers with scribbles on them etc.  I really, really want a cigarette right now.  It's so incredibly hard for me not to put my scarf over my head, throw on a coat and go to 7-11 to get some smokes.  Well, o.k., when I was cleaning out from under my bed, I found a whole, nonsmoked cigarette.  So I did the only thing to do-I smoked it.  At the time, it made me sick, made it hard to breathe, all that stuff.  But now, OMG, I'm having such a hard time.  I keep telling myself all the reasons I quit, but of course, when the craving hits, none of these matter.  OK, thanks for letting me talk about it. 

Camry, I hope the appointment with your new therapist goes well and that you like this one and get some help.  Sometimes it takes a few tries before we find a counselor we like.

Other than that, not much going on here.  I haven't done anything else worthwhile today except brush my teeth and wash my face.  I haven't taken a shower.  I have taken two naps.  And I might lay back down and take another one.  I read some of my book for my Ethics class, but I just can't concentrate on it.  Not sure why.  I'm just not getting into it.  Maybe tomorrow.  OK, I hope all you ladies have a good day-
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Glad to see you are doing better, Afraid. We all need some tough love at times because when it comes to making some decision's for one's self(especially matters of the heart, and we women are so emotional) it is hard to be objective. I'm glad you didn't take my being blunt as a bad thing. It's often easy to tell someone what they want to hear but a true friend tells you what you don't want to hear... ;) Good luck with finding a therapist you like too.

Betty, I'm not mad at you for smoking that stale ciggie. Don't beat yourself up, just remember how it made you feel and try to move on. LOL cause my hair is all over my head about now too. I haven't been motivated to move much either.

Lo and Behold, Rico shows up today. Only because my roomie had lent him a knife and wanted it back. She had spoke with him the other day and he said he would bring it but never did. She left a message today and poof there he was. I didn't hear the doorbell so my roomie answered the door. When he got to the top of the stairs I realized it was him. I didn't move. After talking to my roomie, he comes in my room and tries to explain things to me. Saying he is moving back home...Uh, already knew that...He was amazed I knew since he says he hasn't told anyone...Ugh, obviously he did...Then went on to spew some utter nonsense about having to leave for fear of going to jail.....Whatever!!!! I didn't even look away from my laptop. All I say, is that I'm past caring. And he left..... I hate a liar and I don't tolerate bullshit.

At the moment I am watching the Japanese version of The Eye on IFC. Last night it was One Missed Call...Is this how horror movies are going to be now? No creative thought, just steal an idea from somewhere else? That damn movie The Grudge started all this crap. I guess when any horror movie drops, I'll look to see if there is a Japanese version....I miss John Carpenter, Tobie Hooper, and Wes Craven. Even Stephen King. Gimme something to work with here, Hollywood..... :o

I hope the rest of you ladies is having a good evening...
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
Cherish the simple things life has to offer

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OK, so I went to 7-11 and got some Black & Milds.  I know, I know......  Tomorrow, back on the Chantix.
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Hi GFs~

Betty, so sorry to hear you had a smoke, or two or three....  ;D  but I can't imagine how bad the craving must be!  I'm glad to hear you're going back on the Chantix soon!

Queen~ Sounds like you DID catch Rico in a lie.  Damn those younger guys, no good, no good no good!  Esp not for a strong girl like you.  My GF in CO emailed me and said she got back together with her BF who is 10 years younger.  I told her a year ago when they started dating that it would prob lead to trouble, and it was a soap opera for her all through 2007.  Now she's taken him back, oh brother.  Stay away from the young ones I say.  Hell, even the ones our own age are trouble, you just have to have good radar, which comes after kissing a bunch of toads.  Iceman is 45 and I am 38, so far so good.  Had enough of those toads.  Nevertheless, I'm glad you can put your foot down where Rico is concerned and call it quits, you know its for the best.  How'd you like that Dallas-Giants game?  Pretty good to watch, although you know who I was rooting for!  Sorry!  ;D

Hi Camry~  Looking forward to hearing about your therapy session.  It should get better for you before you know it.  Sometimes just venting is a big help!  I'm glad to hear that you're on the upswing and doing better.

Cristy~  Sorry to hear you lost the post you had.  Remember "Control A" to highlight, and then "Control C" to copy before you post, just in case....Sounds like you are going to be the social butterfly with these dates.  I say keep your nerve up and don't chicken out.  The worst part is getting TO the date, when your mind is racing,  and usually a few minutes into it you can start to relax.  Are these two guys poz or not?  Best of luck with them, and remember to have FUN!

I am back at home, ready to go to bed.  No shows on tonight cause of the Writer's strike, so its bedtime early tonight.  I go to my primary and my ID docs this week, so I will have my latest labs Tuesday evening.  I may try to do that graph thing on this website where you you can chart your labs.

Sleep tight everyone and stay warm tonight!

~ Cindy
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OK, here's my latest and greatest bitch-

I was getting $9/month in food stamps.  Last year I didn't have to pay for my meds-my Medicare Part D prescription plan paid for it.  Here in Hoosierville, with Medicaid they have what they call spend-down.  Which means someone has to pay x amount of dollars before the state of Indiana will cover medical bills.  So......... because I got a $18/month raise in my social security, they cut my food stamps to $0, I have to pay $70/month for my medications, and my spend-down is now $130/month.  So I'm stressing right now.  I don't know how I'm going to make medical ends meet.  The food, that ain't a problem.  I can go to food banks.  But I don't know where I'm going to come up with $70/month for meds and the $130/month for the Medicaid spend-down.  That's the main reason I went to get smokes today.  SO FRUSTRATING!
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Hey Ladies----

Still nothing eventful going on. My Cowboys lost yesterday and we're done for the season. I know Jessica's ass was there somewhere...I still have not been able to get my hearing aid up there to Ed. I called my case manager about it because my old case manager use to take me to appointments if I had problems getting there. Yeah, I know you are all thinking, take the bus but my fear is I will get off the bus and get smacked by a car or something. Hey, it can happen. I did have a ride lined up for today but she got called into work, that's what made me call my case manager. And what does she say?---I'll have to think about it. What? Does she think I am going to car jack her or something? She doesn't have but 2 clients today and a few phone calls. I mean really, she only comes in twice a freaking week.

Betty, I feel your pain on the Medicare issue. I think here in Pa someone pays that fee. The person to talk to would be Philly, he seems to know all about that stuff or can point you in the right direction. Something is like that is going on with my Atripla, I can only get 23 days worth at a time because of some cut off thing.Gotta love our government. I am counting the days til Bush gets his ass out of the White House. I just hope whoever takes his place does a better job. But who am I kidding, they prolly won't or just wanna do things for the rich folks.

Cindy, I have caught Rico in a few lies really. I think his problem is he forgets the lies he tells. I also think he has a problem with putting himself in situations where he is always the victim because he wants the attention. But you know Her Majesty doesn't play the victim and I can't tolerate lies. It's like he is 31 with the mindset of a teenager. I didn't want to become a bitch to him but he left me no choice. And he often let's his mouth write checks that his ass can't cash. Hell, I wouldn't mind an older guy but then it seems like the only older guys that seem interested in me are old enough to be my father...And that is so like Ewwwww. I thought with Rico being 8 years my junior that it would be different. My radar seems to stay broke....@%&#* it.... :D
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Hey first time on the dating thread got a question. I never dated much before and sure don't now. but i went to the country for a rest and behold met a nice country lad....shit a gentle man.... hi i think your swell want to date sure....something i must tell you first..... doesnt seem to work sooo I actually met some one here at poz from canada yeah i met three wonderful friends that i converse with about life family, support meds  whatever
one from Vancouver one from back East and another from my town. now my question is  they all are normal and nice to converse,,i wish they were closer for a support group or a something. I actually had a conversation with one about life and dating.We had this  interesting conversation.... If two poz people date can't they reinfect each other with a new strain i think i saw this on Oprah with Regan. so one should use condoms when  both poz anyway for the fear of super infection or increase viral load???? or chance of a new strain any body have data on this??? is this true?? This is a gopod question for all poz women and dating!

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Good evening ladies:

Powerpuff, Ann, one of our goderators, would be the one to answer that question.  It seems that some people on here don't use protection if both people are poz.  I can't really tell you for sure one way or the other.  I used to believe that cross-infection could occur.  But then I know I read on here that if the viral load is undetectable, there is only a very slim chance for infection.  So, I would suggest that you pm Ann. 

Queen, girl, don't you hate depending on the system.  And what does your care coordinator mean, she'd think about it? (giving you a ride).  What is her problem?  She's there to help you.  I don't blame you for not wanting to take the bus.  Your care coordinator at your ASO should really step up to the plate and help you!  That irritates me.  Maybe you should go over her head.  About Rico, younger guys sometimes can be very mature-but I've only found this on rare occasion.  Not that the older guys are all that much better.  You made the right decision. 

Anyway ladies, the drama continues with the whole prescription, spend-down on the Medicaid thing.  I know it sounds like a cliche, but I'm trying just to take things one day at a time, because that's the only way I can do it.  I got such a terrible stress headache today that I had to lay down for a couple hours.  I still have a little bit of it left over.  I can't let this make me sick.  Oh, I have an appointment with a gynecologist on the 28th to see what he says about me having periods every two weeks etc.  So, that's taken care of anyway.  I hope all you ladies have a good evening. 
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Hello ladies. Been a busy day. Robert has parainfluenza, which is just a fancy term for flulike virus. I also went to the doctor and my CD4's last time were down to 350 from 490. We will be watching to see if there is a trend. My vl is undetectable so that is a relief. He gave me some leviquin(think that's right ) for my sinus infection. I also told him about me being soooooo tired and he seemed to put it off on my xanax. I told him, I have been taking that for months and have never been this tired. I also bitched cause I can barely work my little 20 or less hour job and Social security seems to feel I can work  a full time job. Not!!!! Anyway, the lawyer I contacted declined my disability case and gave me a referral # to call. I will call sometime this week cause I only  have 6 months left before they have to give me my hearing and I want a lawyer to go with me.                                                                     Queen, sorry about Rico. That's why I always try to tell the truth cause I get too confused when I lie.  Hope your hearing aids get fixed soon.                                                Betty sorry you are having issues with your services. I hate asking for help and hope you get some soon.                              ML, the local guy is not poz as far as I know but I think I will go out with him anyway. It would be a fun night out so why not. The one from SC is poz and very nice but I am not sure about him. I might just be scared, I don't know.                                         Welcome to  powerpuff. This is a great site. Hope you like it.                   Afraid, glad you have that appointment. I used to go to a Therapist and it really helped. hope yours does, too.          Everybody else, take care. Cristy

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Rock 'n' rolled at work today, my numbers for production are good, but I am getting some serious vertigo with not moving while at my desk.  My neck stiffens up and I get bug-eyed, too.  I just try to work through it, through the "drunk" feeling.  You should see me when I get up and try to walk to the restroom.  Yikes!.  So tired right now and I have to get up early tomorrow so that I can leave work earlier than normal for my PCP appt.

BT, how long have you had bleeding every two weeks?  I was spotting for a few years and then was bleeding every two weeks.  Then it all ran together and I'd go for 14 days straight.  Seems that Sustiva was affecting the potency of my birth control pills, which were originally taken to help keep my cycles regular.  I suggested to my GYN in August that I go off the pill after 19 years, and low and behold my cycles are normal and light!  I go see the GYN in a few weeks, she wants to keep doing PAPs bec I had an abnormal one last May.  Damn insurance wouldn't cover the last one and they prob won't cover this next one.

I watched "Sicko" tonight.  Don't even get me started.  You know if I didn't have HIV and access to ADAP, I would be paying $500/month for my premium and co-pays? 

That is just so wrong.

More when I am feeling more rested, later this week.  Iceman is doing great, btw!   :D

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Good evening again ladies:

Cristy, you just enjoy yourself with that man.  I hope all goes well for you.  Disability is a motherf*** to get on.  I hope you get help.  With your tcells declining, it may be time.  How long have you been poz?  Have you ever had any OI's that are documented?  Anyything else you can go for on the disability, like mentally (I'm not suggesting you're crazy, but sometimes something like chronic depression helps I think).  I'm sending you good energy for all that.

Cin, I've been bleeding every two weeks for the past couple months.  And the periods are getting heavier.  On the 28th I'm seeing a gynecologist I've seen in the past.  He had to do a D&C before because of the heaviness of the bleeding.  I know how you are feeling after watching Sicko.  It's a real eye-opener, isn't it?  BTW, how's your brother doing (the one that just got home)?  It must be such a relief to have him home. 

I really don't have anything else to report.  I hope everyone is doing well. 
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Hi girls

Not much going on here.  I was reading and catching up on all of the posts and steamed my veggies to long and now they are soggie, but oh well I am not going to throw them out I hate to waste food and don't feel like cooking anything else for my lunch tomorrow. 

Well, it sounds like Christy and I our in the same boat.  Had a date with a neggie tonight.  He was nice but, no spark.  I think he would be fun to hang out with just as friends, since we have the same interest but that is about it.   Wed night I have a date with the + guy that I went out with a couple of weeks ago.  Not sure what to make of him yet.  He  text's me good morning every day but then when I send him a text back it takes him hours to respond or he does not respond at all.  He always blames it on his work, but if he is this busy with work then how is he going to have time for me?   So I will see how Wed goes that is if he does not cancel.

I am off to bed, was out with the Latin Lover way to late last night and was up early so I am going to try and get to bed early since I have to work 6 hours tomorrow on my day off.

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Hey Ladies!!

Happy Belated Bd your HIGHNESS...You know gladiator was on TNT for your Bday..i immediately thought of u when i saw it..and i watched it...

Betty: I smoke black n MIlds too..they supposedly dont have nicotine in them but they stink up your car n room...After i stopped the cigs..i started with them..uugghhh...im gonna stop soon..about the bleeding..have u ever had fibroids?..I hear they can cause that type of abnormal bleeding..

Well went to the docs friday n i weigh 213 lbs again..i had lost like 30 lbs from sept to early dec n have gained it all back..UUGGHHHHH..but oh well they say that happens when ur happy..wateva!! Gotta start back a the gym ASAP!
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Good evening ladies:

Sun, it sounds like you've been very busy.  I'm anxious to hear about how your date with the poz guy goes.

Wishful, isn't it funny how we switch from cigs to Black & Milds, even though they seem to do more harm to our lungs? (At least mine feel that way).  They are cheaper than cigarettes though.  I don't know how much longer I'll be smoking them.  They cause me to have terrible headaches.  And I went back on the Chantix. 

Yes ladies, I'm back on the Chantix.  I know all the evils of smoking.  The health problems, the stench, the second-hand smoke effects.  I feel much better when I'm not smoking.  I did gain an unwanted 20 lbs though.  But I know I can lose that. 

As for the medical bills issue, I called the number on the back of my prescription card and the person I talked to told me to call Medicare.  So I did and the recording came on and told me I would have a 15 minute wait. >:(  I'm not waiting on the phone for 15 minutes.  So I will call them back tomorrow.  I took the bill for the medicine to my ASO.  Hopefully they will take care of it, this month at least; which is better than nothing.  Next Tuesday I will probably hit a food pantry.  There's some pretty good ones around here. 

How is everyone?  Drag, thanks for the PM.  I really appreciated it.  Cin, how are you?  Queen, what's up?  I hope everyone else is doing alright! :-*
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Hi GFs~

Iceman skipped an opportunity to see his first Washington Capitals (NHL) game of the season, just so he could come over and help fix my brakelight -- AGAIN.  This is the 4th time he's had to go into one or both of the brake lights to replace cracked or exploded bulbs.  Turns out the inside layer (didn't know they had one?) of the red reflector was loose.  It was rattling against the new bulbs and causing them to crack or get very hot and explode.  Stay tuned, lol!  Ice will see the Caps this Thursday instead, but we were originally supposed to have a sleep-over at my place.  ;D  Its OK, he has been so good to me with this tail light stuff in the past week, so I'm OK with him going down to DC for the hockey game.  He said he would come over late tomorrow night instead, he has the girls this coming weekend, so its tomorrow night or else we have a long wait for our love-struck selves!  ;)

OK, so WHY am I feeling drunk and tipsy with perfectly clear vision?  WHY am I unbalanced?  Why do I hate walking into open areas with fear of falling and having nothing to grab on to?  PCP Doc says its -- NEUROPATHY.  Shit.  I guess I figured after 27 years of diabetes and 14 years of HIV, it would catch up to me sometime.  What sucks is that for the past 5 or 6 years the docs and I have been blaming it on my neck injuries.  The neck injuries don't help, but they aren't so severe that they would cause this kind of feeling.

I will have blood drawn to check for neuropathy and also for lupus, just in case.  Next week I go for a "nerve conductivity" test on my hands and feet to see how bad this is.  The condition cannot be reversed, but it can be stopped from getting any worse, so the Doc says.  BT, maybe you or someone else can answer this: "Does the PN come from the virus itself or is it a side effect of the meds?  Or both?"  Curious here.

My labs are still good, but going in the wrong direction.  See what a month of working can do as far as stress to the system?  My CD4 went from 746 to 615, and my VL is still undetectable.  My cholesterol went in the wrong direction, too, but total is 188 (last time was 166 and prior I was always above 200).  I'll blame that on the holidays. 

I am ready to fall over, need to go rest my neck and my body, trying to "stand up on a boat" all day is really exhausting.  I'll reply more over the weekend.  Thanks for understanding, I am ready to do a header into the keyboard!

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Well Cin, my PN started as a result of a lot of AZT in the early 90's.  It just got worse.  I can't say specifically that it was the HIV, meds, becoming diabetic about 10 years ago; probably a combination of these three.  I have been on Neurontin for years.  Currently I'm on 800 mgs twice a day.  I know that sounds like a lot; but that's what it takes for me.  Hope you can get some relief! :-*
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Cristy, you just enjoy yourself with that man.  I hope all goes well for you.  Disability is a motherf*** to get on.  I hope you get help.  With your tcells declining, it may be time.  How long have you been poz?  Have you ever had any OI's that are documented?  Anyything else you can go for on the disability, like mentally (I'm not suggesting you're crazy, but sometimes something like chronic depression helps I think).  I'm sending you good energy for all that.


                                                                                       Thanks Betty.I am trying the Anxiety angle as well with the disability. I have not had any OI's but I should have been classified as AIDS in 2005 when my cd4 dropped to below 200. My doctor just did not switch my classification.   I have been diagnosed poz since September of 2004.            Don't be too hard on yourself for smoking, there are so many other worse things that you could be doing so just keep trying.                                                        I got my schedule and will probably go out with the neggie next weekend. I do have Saturday night off this weekend but have to go in Sunday at 8:30 as Supervisor so I can't go. I would be too tired.           Anyway, I will check back in tonight. Later, ladies. Cristy                                                         

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Good morning ladies:

Cristy, I will tell you one thing about trying to get disability- when I applied for it back in 1993, I was still working part-time.  As long as I was able to work even part-time, they wouldn't give it to me.  Of course, I finally had to quit working when I got the wasting syndrome, and that's when I got it.  I know some people can't afford to quit working, just saying what happened to me.

I hope all you ladies have a good day!
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I was on disability for a few years in the early to mid 90's. I had to go back to work when my husband got to sick to work anymore.
I worked for a couple of years and after he died I tried getting back on. I was denied a couple of times.

Reguardless of my numerous OI's and my tcells being as low as 3 before and at last check they where below 200 they wont allow me back on disability.
I figure for me to be allowed back on disability I'd have to have one foot in the grave and maybe the other one dangling in there with it.

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Wendy, if I were you I would contact your senator or congressman. That's how I got on it when I did-was by contacting my senator and having their office work on it.  It doesn't cost anything.  Maybe that would help you. 
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OK Ladies maybe this will give you good laugh for the day.  So I started talking to this guy from this site and he we IM'd each other for the first time today.  After we exchanged pleasant comments back and forth he asked me if I was a dominate women and which point I said yes to a certain extent.  He asked if I was into dominating my man and said I would prefer that if I was in a relationship to have a equal partnership.  He then began to tell me that he was into being dominated by a women.  I asked him how so?  He replied that whatever I told him he would do and that if he did not he would then be punished it whatever way I saw fit.  I asked him how long he has been into this behavior and has he found a lot of women that were into this.  He said that he was an ex-marine and had several women who enjoyed being dominate.  I asked him the last time that he was  dominated by a women.  He said about a month ago, that this women had him clean her house, wash her car and he was on his hands and knees like a dog while she ate dinner.  He then told me that he did not obey and she punished him and he had to wear a collar around his neck.  I then asked him if he had any pictures and he forwarded me pictures of him in some leather get up that only a women would wear.  I asked him does his family know that he is into this since he is a ex-marine, not bad looking and pretty buffed.  He told me that they did not know to what extent but that he liked a dominate women.  If I was willing to take this on he would have me sign a slave contract saying that he was my slave and if he were bad, I would be able to punish him any way I wanted.   Well, this is a first for me, I think that I liked it when guys did not answer my emails.  Not something I am into but I will not judge different strokes for differnet folks.
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sun - i've always thought such men were weird. i've only seen it on TV and read about it in magazines. so what u gonna do? guess u can turn into one of those whip-wielding, name calling, sadistic, leather clad, masked dominitrixes. i wonder how they feel when they dominate men like that. do they really hate them or its just for kicks?
think i might want to try it. just once though

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Hello. not much happening here, little snow, no school.                   Win, sorry to hear about your disability troubles. It is very hard to get as Betty said.     Betty, I think you are correct, I probably won't get it as long as I am working parttime. That sucks!!!!!!     And it appears no lawyer wants to help. So maybe I wi,      I don't know what  I will do, have to think on that one awhile.                                                        SS, yes I have heard of men like that. If you want to, try it. You might both like it.I have never had one of those but am familiar with the slave concept. It just depends on your level of comfort but I wouldn't sign any contract, tell him  it's a trial basis.                                                 I made a date with the negative local guy for the 26th.  He wanted to go this weekend but I work Sunday so next weekend is better.      Should be a fun night out.                                    Time to feed the critters, I will check back later. Cristy                             

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Good morning ladies:

Sun, that's funny.  I know of men like that.  When I was a junkie in the early 80's, I used to do anything for money and have participated in stuff like that.  Of course, at the time I didn't mind doing it, because I wanted to get high.  Like Cristy said, I wouldn't sign a contract though.  I wouldn't want to be bound by anything. 

Tendai, good to hear from you!  How have you been girl?

Cristy, no lawyer will help you?  Why not?  Maybe they think since you're still working, they don't have a chance of winning.  I don't know what to tell you.  If you think you can make it, maybe you should quit.  But can you afford to do that?

Anyway ladies, I e-mailed my care coordinator at my ASO to tell her that someone (Phily) said that ADAP should be my secondary insurance.  I know here in Indiana there's a long waiting list, but I think it's like that in every state.  I don't expect to hear back from her until tomorrow, but hopefully she can sort it out.  Other than that, I have class tonight.  It's Ethics and I love it because it's very thought-provoking. 

It seems like hardly anyone is checking in here.  I hope I don't end up talking to myself!  Have a good one-
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Betty, i believe that is exactly it. The one lawyer I contacted said if I can work parttime then I can work full time. I said I  can barely work 20 hours per week, How am I supposed to work full time. so I guess I will just try another lawyer. I don't want to quit my job cause it's really hard to find work around here. Everything is 45 minutes away and since I would only be able to find something making minimum wage, the drive would not be worth it. Thanks for your advice.                               I hope you enjoy your ethics class.                                                                                                 If it was me in Sun's  position, I would probably scare the poor guy to death. Break out a strap on and whip  if he was bad.  But I tend to confuse Dominate and hurt so he better be glad it's not me.                   Hope everyone is staying warm and dry. I go to work at 4:15 but will go slow so should be fine. Maybe we will be busy ;D    Cristy

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Cristy, what I would advise, if you really want and need disability is to quit work and wait it out. I know that's hard, especially if you can't afford it.  I know you'll give it some thought.  Good luck at work this afternoon.  I hope you're going to be o.k.
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GFs~

I'll be posting a lot this weekend, since its my weekend without Iceman.  :(  We didn't see each other last night, he was at a store 1-1/2 hours away from me.  It snowed tonight and he wanted me to go to the Caps game, but I was exhausted.  He skipped it anyway cause the roads were bad. 

I saw my ID doc today and my CD4 is higher than 615, like 650 or something -- I'll have to check the printouts again.  So tired, more this weekend, I want to chime in on the disability issue as well.

And I didn't forget, although she hasn't posted in a bit, Happy Birthday to ConfusedMe.  I hope it was a relaxing, uneventful (in a good way) day for you!

Yeahs, where the hell is everyone?  I am running on fumes, but still like to check in.  Queen?  CAMS??? (Update, GF!)

Oh Sun, btw, I shudder to think what this guy will do when you tell him you are a police officer.  Oh dear God.  LOL    ;D

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OMG, I forgot Sun was a cop! :D  That thickens the plot!  So, you already have or have access to the gear to deal with him if he's bad!  :D :D  I'm laughing my ass off right now, I have to stop!

BTW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CONFUSED!
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oh he'd be orgasmic if Sun came at him in full uniform, shades  and HANDCUFFS!! oh he'd be in heaven! :D :D

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I wonder where Queen is/has been? :-[
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Wow, it sure is "vewwy vewwy qwiet" in here..........I forgot to take my meds last night -- first time ever.  I'll survive.  Also, my CD4 is 615, my doc read me the wrong number, she has been pissing me off with her bedside manner.  I am going to start looking for a new one, but they are difficult to find nearby.

A GF at work who sits right behind me is pretty cool.  Today I found out that she has been living on the same court as me for six years!  Small world, huh?

Its Group for me tonight.  I am going to pig out, come home and pig out some more on a cake I baked last night and then I will proceed to skip breakfast tomorrow.  I have to fast each meal on separate days to straighten out my pump doses.  This is a way to see what my body does on the current dose without any food or extra insulin.  Wish me luck!

My back felt so much better today, and you know what?  I shoveled snow last night.  It was a quick shovel, about 15 minutes, but it really limbered up my entire back where I had been having a lot of pain and stiffness.  I'm still a little off balance from the neuropathy, but working on that, too.  I'll keep you posted.

Drag, thanks for the PM, lots of good info in there.  Its always nice to see what someone else has gone through.  I'll reply over the weekend, GF.

OK, everyone "Come out come out wherever you are!"    :D

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Happy Birthday to ConfusedMe. I hope I wasnt late to say it.

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Hi Girls

Well I am glad that you guys had a good laugh about my dominatrix story, I know I sure did.   I loved reading the posts and got a good laugh when you guys remembered about my line of work.  Yeah something tells me he does not want to talk to me anymore.  He IM'd me the other and was telling me that he will fly out to me see.  I told him that was nice and all, but that I was not really into his life style and I like it to be more 50/50 in a relationship.  He just did not get that, he said that he could be the dominate one for a while and tell me what to do and if I was bad he would punish me.  Now I am all in for roll playing but when it its someone who wants to live like this all of the time, is just not my thing.  He must have also forgot that I was in law enforcement since he asked me if I was 420 friendly.  (Now I must say that I really don't care what you do in your personal life but due to my job I cannot be around that kind of thing.  I am sure that some of my friends do it and don't tell me and all I  ask is that if they are in the same car with me or at my house that they don't have it any where near me.)  But I told him that I was not 420 friendly and he said that he needed it for a head injury from when he fell off a ladder.  I asked him how often he smoked and he said every day.  My reply was OH  and then he signed off and I have not heard from him since.

Well on the home front I have found a roommate.  Its a coworker and he is 22.  So the rumors are starting already that I am sleeping with him.  He has spent the night several times if we get off late, but he sleeps in my spare room.  So we are going to play a joke on everyone at work.  We are all a bunch of jokers at work.  So his sister is pregnant so we are going to take her ultrasound picture of the baby and photo-shop so it has my name on it and we are going to have it on his locker.  (All of the guys have pictures of their spouses, kids etc on their locker)  We figure this will teach people to start rumors.  At this point with him moving in and me wanting to have a baby, which is no secret they just may believe it. 

Well that is all I have, so I guess no news is good news. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY   CONFUSED

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I have been reading around on here tonight when I should be sleeping.  I was hoping that Queen would show up.  I sent her a text message, but its from a new phone number, so I don't know if she'll read it.  :(

I just clicked on Cristy's first dragon and thought its name was cool...."Creeping Death," like the Metallica song from back in the day.

I took my meds at 10pm tonight after missing them last night (only time in my life) and I am getting a little buzz, not too bad.  Damn insulin pump is beeping, time to go change that now.  Its always something.......

Sleep tight, GFs!

Sun, you posted while I did.  Yes, I think the fall off of the ladder certainly DID something to the guy, and if he is willing to fly and see you.....LEG-HUMPER ALERT, no offense!  LOL  And just when we thought those leg-humpers had quieted down!  LMAO  Love the ultrasound pic idea, too, lol!

~ Cindy

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Aloha ladies,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CONFUSED! hope this will be a year of happiness & joy for you.

Queen, pls check in!!

Me am ok except for my buggered arm. Cindy, I told you it was to do with this sitting quiet... you need some movement, we all deserve more than being cramped in a chair all day. speaking of which... i have to work on the weekend on the bloody presentation.

this week i was struggling with anger over my bosses and workplace. basically some changes have been made to our salaries which were unfari, and my bosses are continuously ripping off my ideas which irritates me to no end, and I do think they would never dare to do this if they didn't know I was poz and more desperate about my future. fuckit. but yesterday as i was ready to blow a fuse, my BF came home all wet and told me he got a flat tire and had to walk in the rain. well i was bitching and moaning about my work grieviences and he was strangely quiet, then we were eating and he told me he had been in an accident and got knocked off his bike by a car! OMG!!! That sure put things in perspective. I have seen a couple of cyclists killed by a car here. That made both of us think, what's the point of worrying so much over things outside our control when the real thing is living life now.

I still have to watch out with my arm so will keep this short. Tendai you know I'm so happy for ya. Cristy & Betty, lots of luck with the establishment & all those hurdles that it puts up. I have no social security, none, nada, that's one reason I am so pissed with my job. I don't need it, but you never know. i can't claim unemployment either.
One reason I am so worried about this is that I am hoping to have a kid in a year or two.

You guys are so strong. Actually all the women who use this boards are inspiringly strong. Speaking of strong women... & creepy men, Sun I am glad you're staying away from that one...


"If you keep one foot in yesterday, and one in tomorrow, you piss all over today". Betty Tacy

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Hi GFs~

I got up early and amazingly my blood sugar was in a "good" range, so I am able to fast through lunch today.  God help me.  My sugars have been nuts, and the only way to make sure your basal rate (translate "IV drip" from the pump) is set correctly, is to fast through one meal on three different days.  So I ate breakfast at 830am and I don't get to eat until 4pm today.

I'm a little worried because I have errands to run, and with the vertigo/neuropathy thing I would feel better with food in me.  I can always quit and start over on another day if I need to.  Going to get my roots done today, so I'll be in a chair for a little while, no probs there as far as fasting.

I have thought about disability recently as well, and once I get my nerve test results back, I'll know better what to do.  I'll call my Case Manager or my support group leader to get help with where to start.  Its amazing that the unbalanced thing is the most debilitating, with everything else that I am dealing with.  Here's my shit list:

Diabetes, on insulin, 1981
HIV+, 1993 (meds since '95)
neck injuries - 7/01 & 11/02, resulting in fibromyalgia
Generalized anxiety disorder since '89, but minimal probs

Possible diabetic neuropathy now but I have NEVER been hospitalized or had an OI for HIV, so I wonder how my disability would look?  It just seems like a monumental task to go through it all.  My neck really bugs me, but I haven't seen my chiropractor since June.  She said I needed therapeutic massage therapy, so that's what I've been doing since then, to the tune of $30/week.  Even all of that time while I was unemployed, and my massage therapist doesn't take credit cards, its all been out of pocket.  So, I'm concerned that if I DO turn to disability in the coming year, my chiropractor won't have any recent history on me.  Sure, I could go back, but its a $50 deductible since its a new year, and then $20/visit.  Last May I was going 3x/week when I started back.

I am just one big math equation, and lately its been getting difficult to keep things balanced with this body, no pun intended.

OK, I need to go shower and get to my hair appointment, and try not to think about food.  Wish me luck.  If I fast well today through skipping lunch, I am going to pig out tonight, lol.

I have sent Queen a text message and an IM, but nothing yet.  :(

~ Cindy
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Good morning ladies:

I'm getting a little worried about Queen.  I hope she checks in soon.

Cin, I don't even know what to tell you.(about the disability).  You can read from my previous posts, it's hard to get; and when someone has it, then gives it up and then tries to get it back, good luck.  I've never given it up.  I have had two OIs: 1)wasting syndrome; 2) PCP.  Oh, gf, you don't even want me to start on my "shit list." :D  I'd be here for an hour, just typing things out.LOL  Anyway, good luck with that fasting today.  I hope things even out with your pump.  I still find that fascinating (the Insulin pump).  I look forward to hearing more from you this weekend.

Drag, thanks for checking in. Wow, thank goodness your bf was alright!  That was a close one, eh?  So, what's going to happen with your arm?  Is there anything the medical establishment can do?  Is it ever going to heal?  I know you probably can't check in here (and type) regularly, so just do what you can. :-*

Sun, love the idea of the ultrasound pic!  Good luck with him being your roommate also. I didn't know you were looking for one.  Glad that guy quit bothering you.

It's only 4 degrees here this morning!  And it's not supposed to get much warmer.  Ugh!  I don't have anywhere to go until tonight.  I think I'll probably stay in and study for my exam in my Ethics class and there's a movie I have to watch for my social psych class and do an assignment.  I can't believe this cold snap we're having.  Other than that, there's really nothing exciting or interesting to report.  I hope all you ladies have a good day.  I'm sure I'll check in later.
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OK, it's 9 degrees outside.  This evening, actually in a couple of hours, I'm going to a community meeting about trying to achieve some peace.  I think HRC (human rights commission) is putting it on; not sure.  I'm interested in doing something because, well, it just bugs me when people bitch and don't do anything; mostly myself.  So, I really didn't feel like it, but I forced myself to take a shower.  I used some of the Paloma Picasso shower gel/lotion that my best friend gave me for X-mas.  Of course, it took me long enough to take a shower today.  It's just so cold outside, I really don't feel like going anywhere.  But I did commit to this, so I'm going to go through with it.  I'll let you all know how it goes.  Other than that, it's been quiet today.  Neighbors not fighting, no dogs barking, just freezing cold outside.  And 9 is the high for the day! :P
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OK ladies, so I was going to go to that meeting, but my period started.  This makes five days in between them now.  It's not real heavy, just really bothersome.  So, I'm not going and I'm staying in.  It's too cold to go outside anyway.  Just FYI.
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I have eaten three pieces of cake since 5pm, and I want my man tonight!  LOL

I had breakfast at 830am and didn't eat again until 5pm, hence the three pieces of cake following dinner.  OMG, it was just SO yummy!  Bad girl, Cindy, very BAD.   ;D

Iceman sent me some text messages today when he was out with the girls.  I was very flattered when he called tonight and they were both in the car with him.  He really DOES talk to a lot of store managers all day long every day, so the girls didn't have any idea that it was me.  They don't even know that Daddy has a GF, its much too early to spring that on them. 

Iceman and I miss each other like crazy!  I was with him last weekend, all weekend long at his place, and then I saw him briefly Tuesday night when he came over to fix my taillight for the fourth time.

I am having serious wothdrawl, let's just say Aunt Flo didn't help last weekend, either.  :P

Speaking of Flo, BT, you mean you just stopped 5 days ago and have now started again?  Oh my, Aunt Flo is bringing her sisters along, sounds like.  I'm glad you're getting this checked out.  Keep us posted.

My hair turned out great today!  I am very pleased, got my roots done and kept my natural blonde on the ends, looks like I just came in from a walk on the beach!  I only started coloring my hair last year, and glad I decided to do so, but damn its expensive!  I spent Christmas money on my hair and treated myself today.

I still haven't heard from Queen, this is all very strange.  She's never been gone this long, and she's never been in so much of a funk that she has stayed away.  If she was in a funk, she'd post something very short and to the point, to let us know she was OK.  I am going to text her again.

I am so worried about her now.  I almost want to go on a road trip, but I don't have her new address.  Its a 6-hour drive, it would kill me, but I could almost do it.....Damn, now I'm thinking too much.  I hate not knowing how she's doing.  I just thought for a moment and I remember her last name from when I sent her a card once.  Hmmmm, I hope I don't have to use it and check the hospital near her or anything, but I could. 

I'm such a worrier, dammit, Queen, come back to us, GF.  :(

~ Cindy
« Last Edit: January 19, 2008, 08:27:53 PM by MOONLIGHT1114 »
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