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Author Topic: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....  (Read 36695 times)

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Offline Queen Tokelove

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How is that for a title? I think that about covers all of us..... ;D

Sorry to hear about your Latin Lover, Sun. But I feel where you are coming from. So is it over or up in the air? Kinda sounds like he wants you on standby if it doesn't work with the wife. The plot thickens from my end and I guess that is why I am up. As I told you all, I had ended it with Rico Thanksgiving night do to what I thought to be him being inconsiderate and not shown up for dinner because he was partying with the ex in laws. I get a text from the friend who set us up that Rico has not come out of his house all day Friday. My gf and her man went by there twice and he says that he doesn't want to talk to anyone. He wouldn't even open the door. They have tried calling him and he won't even answer the phone. I even text messaged him a few times and got no response from him. I am really concerned. My gf knew I had ended it with him because he told her but she didn't know why. I explained it to her which she said she understood how I felt but then she went on to say that Rico really cares about me. More than even he realized. She also said that there were some other things that she thought he had told me about but she realizes he must not of. She plans on talking to me about it tomorrow but now my mind is racing and wondering what it could possibly be. I knew his ex dogged him but this sounds more serious than knowing about that.

I am hoping he would not harm himself and just praying that he just didn't want to be bothered. But I also can't help feeling bad when I know I shouldn't. It has me wondering if I over reacted by breaking it off with him? I admit I have been feeling miserable before finding all this out as well. Will keep you posted.....
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #1 on: November 24, 2007, 04:49:40 AM »
good morning ladies,

Queen what a great title. we could have gone with the I Hate Men though too  ;) I don't Hate Men but I sure met my share of really awful ones and no, it's not a matter of perspective.
broke it off? it doesnt mean to say things cant change if he changes but at that time, what could you do? "OK see you tomorrow?". You were understanding that he needs to spend some time with his kids (even ones he raised are technically his) but he was completely not understanding of you. And what's this on being drunk, wasn't he on a pain shot anyway? so you will see. you dont have to be cold and heartless but there is a minimum you must do to protect yourself. i am sure you will keep us posted and hope for the best outcome.

Sun, oh I am sorry... that sucks, that's hard. But this is the hardest time of year and in a little while things will get better. I know it's no consolation now, but just the fact that HIV didn't play a part in this whole thing is great. I guess that's risky dating someone seperated. It's something I hear all the time from neg women too. You will find the right guy, who can resist a sexy cop? I know it's hurting like hell right now... but truely ultimately I am optimistic for you.

Betty, btw you and your warm family you will find the best ways to deal with your dad I guess. still so tough though. You're a great daughter. I didn't know what Black Friday was and then they showed it on CNN, people were standing in huge cues, pushing and shoving, and generally acting like they were scrambling for food releif parcels in a natural disaster zone. OMG.

NY, how are you today???

Moon, what a great thanksgiving, and it just gets better  ;)

Sara, if you're reading this, hope you don't stay away from the forums b/c of the disclosure issue. B/c your perspective is valuable, and we don't have to agree all the time. I hope you had a good Thanksgiving, and same to all of you. I don't want to sound bossy, but Confused, Cam, and everyone else when you post something  and don't follow thru I do worry... I can't always respond to everyone b/c there are so many new members so i guess I respond mostly to the ones who last posted. Sometimes my arm hurts and can't respond at all. But I care...

i am cranky b/c i didnt sleep well. i kept having semi hallucinations about my teeth, thinking and promising to myself to run to the emergancy clinic, but hey am seeing the doc on mon. if it doesn't go well i'll switch, problem is many docs dont accept poz patients at all. well they will not outright refuse you but they will be "busy" and "fully booked". this guy has other poz patients even though he is rude and his clinic is like from the 60s. not just the decor but the equipment. ok maybe 70's... I had to get up at 10.00 to take my meds, and I have to eat with them. Guess I'll go to the gym now, even though am dead tired.

Have a peaceful weekend all,
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #2 on: November 24, 2007, 07:28:42 AM »
Good morning ladies-

Queen, you can't blame yourself for whatever state of mind Rico is in.  I know you will make the right decision.  Just give him time. He probably has some things to figure out.  I am curious, though, as to what your friend is going to tell you about him.  But, you are not responsible for him being depressed, or whatever else he's doing.  He's a big boy. 

Sun, I'm sorry about what's going on with you.  I think it is always risky to get with someone who's separated and not divorced, especially if there's children involved.  I, also, am optimistic for you.  I know it sucks being alone sometimes.  I prefer being alone, but that's just me.  I think I have had my share of such bad relationships that being alone is a nice alternative.  I'm really feeling more comfortable in my own skin.  Not saying that if I met a nice man/woman, things couldn't change.  Patience, patience.

Drag, I'm so glad you're posting regularly.  I miss women who don't post also.  I always wonder about how they're doing and why they're not posting.  Anyway, I hope the dentist can fix your teeth in one visit.  I used to dread going to the dentist, but my teeth were horrible from childhood.  I finally had them all pulled in '89, because the ones that hadn't been knocked out were rotten.  So I've had dentures since then.  I must say, they are a lot easier to take care of, but I sure miss having "real" teeth!  I wish I had loads of money, I would get implants. 

Today I have a huge algebra project I have to do.  I'm really not looking forward to it, but it's one less thing to do I guess.  Only three more weeks of classes, then it's time for winter break!  I'm so ready for it.  I've been going nonstop to school since last fall.  But the idea of having an undergraduate degree is starting to appeal to me.  My niece I just saw on Thanksgiving just got her bachelor's degree in psychology and told me she is going to apply to graduate school.  That sounds interesting.  I wish I would have started doing this a long time ago.  But, of course, back then, I was too busy getting real-life experience! :D  When I tell some people some of the things I've done, they don't believe me.  I wish I would've kept a journal.  I mean, I remember what happened (most of the time), or at least what situations I was in, before getting totally obliterated and blacking-out.  Oh well, I'm trying to use all that to help people now.  Understanding where they're coming from and letting them know they're not alone.  That's what really helps me, is helping other people.  I'm also going to a meeting tonight.  I hope all you ladies have a great day-
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #4 on: November 24, 2007, 10:50:13 AM »
I think this song was originally from the movie "9-1/2 Weeks," with Mickey Rourke and Kim Bassinger........Aren't we all just slaves to love?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VSqGwOmKEwU&feature=PlayList&p=981635BC137577E0&index=30

Hi GFs~

Queen~  Oh, what can I say about Rico?  I agree with Betty, he is a big boy.  What did he think, that he could have his cake and eat it too?  Did he think he could get bombed when you are sick as a dog and still preparing Thanksgiving Dinner, and then call drunk, late at night and be a no-show?  And now to be sitting around, apparently "sulking" because you stuck a boot in his ass?

Sorry to be so harsh, but these kind of people are EXACTLY the kind of ones that I don't tolerate.  The immaturity and taking things for granted always pissed me off so damn much.

OK, breathe, Cindy, breathe........for Queen.

OK, so you like the guy?  You're concerned about him?  You need to find out what's going on with him if he's worth that much to you.  You say you've tried to get in touch and he hasn't replied back.  Well, you know what's next when you want a man to call, GF.  Leave him be, let him stew and hopefully he'll call when he is in a better state of mind.  Drag brought up a good point, he was drunk after getting a shot in the ER that day?

Somehow I think there may be a lot more going on with this guy than you know about.  Either that or he just isn't any good at handling stress.  Remember the tip of the iceberg analogy I gave you, GF.....  Keep us posted as to how you're doing.  Are you still sick?

Sun~  I am sorry to hear about LL.  Correct me if I am wrong, but he is NOT Cop #1 or Cop #2, right?  He's someone else?  Yeah, its tough with separated guys if they really aren't "separated," esp during the holidays.  I'm sorry you're so down and out.  I wish things didn't go the way they did for you.  Maybe you just need to taser his ass already.  I know, easier said than done, but between Rico and LL, I am ready to deliver some high kicks to these guys!  Gheez!

Drag~  I'm glad you'll be seeing the doc soon, so that you can get the teeth issue looked at.  As far as being cranky, so what?  Its the weekend, crank all you want and be better for it, get it out of your system!   ;D

BT~  Good luck on the algebra project this weekend.  I wouldn't go back to school if someone paid me.  I'm tired now, as it is!  How's the quitting smoking going?  Be a good girl!

Iceman has his daughters this weekend, so we weren't together last night, but he called at midnight, much to my surprise.  I miss him like hell when he's not around now.  We had a 3-day wait before Thanksgiving, this time its 2 days until Sunday night when I see him again.

Iceman has the walk-through at his new home either Tues or Weds before settling on Thursday.  He called last night and said he wanted me to be there with him for the walk-through.  I was really flattered that he asked me to do that!  He's also given me an extra cell phone that he had, on his plan, so we can talk mobile to mobile, without any extra charges.  I told him it was all his fault, all these minutes being used, since he likes to talk so much!   :P  Iceman also gave me a high-backed manager's chair last week, thank goodness!  He got it from one of his stores.  Since doofus moved all of his stuff out last March, I had been sitting on a little juvenile bench seat with no backrest to it!  Yes, even with the bad neck and back, I was on this little bench with a pillow under my ass all summer and fall.  Definitely more comfy now.   :D  Also, Iceman wants to fly me up to Rochester NY in February for the annual convention/banquet that his company is having.  I'm excited, but I'll need some formal wear, yikes!

I have been Freecycling and I am going to get a new dishwasher this afternoon.  My current one is mustard yellow and is prob c.1983 from when my home was built.  I checked out the hood where this lady lives with the new one, and its a nice neighborhood with huge homes, so the dishwasher should be an improvement over mine.  I tried to get a new stove and range hood but someone else beat me to it.  I'll keep looking.

I have had some trouble with the new job application process, and complained to my recruiter.  She is such a little shit, but I have killed her with kindness cause everyone is so disorganized.  I still want this job, but no official start date yet.  I don't want her to call Monday and say "OK, you start tomorrow."  I like more of a notice, so I am hoping for all next week off.  Then I can help Iceman move into his new place.

Hang in there Queen and Sun, you'll feel better soon when you both give yourselves a chance to reflect some and calm down a little.  I know you're both hurting now, I wish I lived closer to you guys.  I'd come over and make you laugh till you cried, busting on men!  I can be pretty good with the one-liners!

~ Cindy
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #5 on: November 24, 2007, 01:07:30 PM »
Good afternoon ladies:

I got done with the algebra project.  Only three more weeks of school before winter break!  I will be so happy. 

Cin, I've been being a good girl as far as the smoking. ;)  I haven't even had a drag off of one.  So, that's the good thing.  I think I might try to freecycle thing to see if I can get an easy chair for my living space.  All I have is a rocking chair and two folding chairs.  I sure would love to kick back in an easy chair while watching a movie.  Do they give away easy chairs on there? 

I just wanted to check in real quick.  Queen and Sun,  I hope you girls are feeling better.  Just give it time, especially you Queen. I totally agree with what Cin said in her post.  Don't compromise yourself!
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #6 on: November 24, 2007, 03:08:54 PM »
Here is the update......

My gf talked with Rico today. He is not fine but is doing better. The issue seems to be that the ex is not letting him see his kids all of a sudden. I guess the last time he saw them was on Thanksgiving. He likes to see them on a regular, I'm not knocking it. And if I am following right then I came in with the break up. Now to clarify about the shot, he got that the night before Thanksgiving.

I am still miffed that he left me hanging on Thanksgiving. He did call me today and told me that he missed me. He asked if he could come over to see me and I said yes. I believe there are some things that need to be discussed. My gf clammed up on me now about what she wanted to tell me the night before which has left me wondering why. She believes that he cares more for me than he is willing to admit. I admit I have fallen for him just as fast which has me concerned too because I am usually more rational or at least I like to think I am.

At the moment, I am taking a break from taking my braids down. It's about that time again. I am on day 2 of doing it so who knows how long it will take me. I will never do micro braids again!!!!! Going to perm and wash my hair whenever I do get it all down. It needs to breathe for a moment before I braid it back up which means I'll prolly be sporting a ponytail for awhile... ;D

Best believe that I am taking everyone's advice into consideration when it comes to Rico. I will keep you updated on how things progress... :-*
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #7 on: November 24, 2007, 04:23:55 PM »
Hi GFs~

Queen~  Please keep us posted as to what's going on with Rico.  It seems the tale is unfolding....maybe he was bombed because he was pissed he couldn't see his kids?  And like you said, then you went and broke up with him?  Still, what did he expect, that it would be hunky-dory to skip the meal you prepared?  Is he coming over tonight?  Maybe you're talking to him now.....Good luck, GF.

BT~ www.freecycle.org has everything, at least in my area.  I live in a densely populated area and have seen all kinds of things on there - pieces of drywall, Monopoly game pieces from McD's, kids clothes, needlepoint items, and yes, LOTS of furniture, too.  Get ready, though.  If you live in a populated area, your Inbox for email will runneth over.  One afternoon I checked and had about 150 emails for new items that were posted!

I went and picked up the dishwasher at 1pm today.  It was glossy black, with flat-touch buttons on the front, very nice.

Then I opened the fucking door to the thing.

The lady had posted that it "had a few water stains" in it from when her well filter went bad.  She said she had scrubbed and scrubbed but nothing had come off.  It looked like a fire had happened inside the dishwasher and soot was left everywhere.  The racks and utensil baskets were coated with grey funk.  I took it anyway, thinking I could clean it, and perhaps replace the racks with the ones from mine.  The more I thought about it today, the more I knew what I had to do.  The dishwasher is sitting in the county landfill where I dropped it a little while ago.

I sent Iceman a text on my drive back home, he called earlier when I was picking up the dishwasher.  He was out shopping with family and ordered a new washer/dryer and looked at a kitchen table and chairs for the new place.  So, anyway, I sent him a text saying I had dumped the "new" dishwasher, I didn't even want to take it out of my Jeep and bring it into the house.  I knew I wouldn't be happy with it.

Iceman sent a text back, saying to go look at my email.  I wanted to see what the kitchen table and chairs he ordered would look like, and he said he would send a pic earlier in the day.  So, I just got home a little while ago and the subject to his email is "Dishwasher," not table and chairs.  I figure he's sent a cartoon or a picture of some poor kid wearing an apron and yellow rubber gloves, hence a "dishwasher."  Keep in mind that Iceman has a great sense of humor and a very big heart.  Here's the email to me:

"I am sorry, but I cannot see you using a funky, water stained dishwasher that came from the the mountains. Your dishes will get funk on them and the plates will taste like horse butt. I have a solution, follow this link and you will see. We will pick this up this week when it comes in and I will install as soon as I can. You cannot fight me and you will obey!!! "

I haven't called him cause he's with his girls, but I called my parents, who are driving back from Georgia today.  I think Iceman has ordered me a new dishwasher.  I'm numb now.  Oh goodness, I think he just sent a text to my other cell phone.  Gotta go check now.

Oh my, its beginning to look a lot like Christmas.

~ Cindy
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #8 on: November 24, 2007, 05:22:02 PM »
Hey ladies!!

Queen great title, I love it! As far as Rico is concerned  I know your worried but you need to stand your ground. People will only treat you the way you allow yourself to be treated. I agree with Cindy on the ďtip of the iceberg thingĒ

Dragonette~ I hope all goes well with your teeth. I feel your pain, I hate the dentist. As a matter of fact I just cracked a tooth and Iím more upset about going to the dentist then about the tooth

Betty, congrats on doing so well! I have tons of homework to do but very little energy. I gotta get my butt moving. I think Iíll spend tomorrow cramming.

Cindy your man is awesomeÖ thatís all I can say. Iím so glad you found him!

As for myself, I finally got my Christmas decorations up. Iím exhausted now. I havenít spoken to MM since Tuesday. He called my phone all day Tuesday but I was just so frustrated that I didnít want to speak to him. I want to talk to him now, I guess in a way I just want some comfort and him to be there for me but Iím afraid to call and be disappointed or let down again so I havenít. Iím not sure what to do, to call or not to call? That is the question of the day ladies!! Remember Iím due to be induced on 12/4 if I donít go into labor by then on my own. MM keeps saying he wants to be there but Iím not sure what to think. To I call him and either risk dissapointment again or do I leave it alone knowing that I will definitely be all alone when it comes to this?

Well besides that Iím still broke as hell. Monday will be another round of phone calls and Iím just wondering how Iíll get back and forth to school and to the doctor Friday.

On that note I hope everyone is having a great evening. Iím off to make dinner.

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #9 on: November 24, 2007, 06:50:05 PM »
NY~

I had a feeling you'd be due close to the 3rd!  Call me Ms. Cleo.  Good girl, getting all of those decorations up, I still haven't hauled the ornaments out of my basement, just put up the tree and lights the other night.  I also bought two little candy cane ornaments with my name and Iceman's name on them, and we hung them up on Thanksgiving night, on the tree.

It sounds like you're doing a little better now than you were Tuesday.  Why not call MM and see what's up?  If he wants to be there for you and you want him around, give him the benefit of the doubt.  If he starts acting like an ass on the phone, well....you can always cut it short, right?

I'm off to make dinner, too.  I hope Queen is OK tonight......

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #10 on: November 24, 2007, 09:42:04 PM »
Good evening ladies:

I just got back from going out to eat with a friend, going to the 50% off sale at Goodwill and going to a meeting.  They also just opened a Fannie May store close by where I live and we stopped in there also.  I only had one piece of candy, and I remember why I absolutely love Fannie May chocolates!  I had a dark chocolate vanilla buttercream.  Yummmm. 

OK, so Rico might have been pissed off because he didn't get to see his kids.  But to reason that that was the cause of his drinking?  No.  Because that's like him saying "I'm going to get drunk on you," like a child would say.  He is an adult, responsible for his own actions.  If he says that he drank because of not seeing his kids, that's just an excuse.  People drink because they want to.  No one forces alcohol down people's throats.  I'm not trying to be too much of a hard-ass.  It just makes me a little miffed when people don't take responsibility for their own actions, especially grown adults.  It is early on in the relationship though, Queen.  And you gotta give someone a fair chance I suppose.  People are entitled to "fuck-ups."  We're all human.  Just please fella, take some responsibility!

Cin, wow, so Iceman bought you a dishwasher?  Girl, can you order another guy just like him and send him to me? :D  He sounds like a dream come true.  And it couldn't have happened to a better person.  You deserve all the happiness you're getting.  You are always trying to help people, let life give back to you.  BTW, what did you make for supper?  Something that involved Thanksgiving leftovers?  I always love the turkey sandwiches that come after the big meal.  I will try that freecycle.  Where I live is a small community, but I do live like five minutes away from South Bend, Indiana, which, as most people know, is a fairly big town (it's where Notre Dame is).  Not like Chicago or anything, but do you know the FBI has said there are more murders in South Bend than there are in Gary, Indiana?!  Wow, I'm glad I live in Mishawaka, which is just east of South Bend.  Where I live is very quiet and has really decent people.  I like it. 

NY, I can't believe it's almost time!  Wow! ;D  If you want MM there, then have him come.  It is his child also.  But don't have him come if it's going to stress you totally out.  You need to be as relaxed as you possibly can be when you give birth.  Maybe feel him out on the phone and see how he acts.  If he says he's going to come, try not to get real anxious when he's supposed to come.  You know what I'm saying?  Just concentrate on that beautiful new baby you're bringing into the world and the kids you have now.  They're truly blessings.  If it weren't for our children, what would we do?  I'm glad you're decorating for Christmas.  Sometimes just seeing decorations makes me feel better. 

Well, I'm going to go to bed soon.  I have to deacon at my church tomorrow and do laundry.  Have a good one ladies-
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #11 on: November 25, 2007, 02:25:00 PM »
Hi GFs~

I have been trying to patiently wait for tonight to get here.  Iceman will be here around 630pm or so.  I can't wait to see him again, I am falling so hard for this man....  :D

Last night I made a chicken casserole thing.  I had been dipping into Thanksgiving Dinner leftovers Friday, so I figured I'd better save some!  Iceman said he wanted leftovers tonight for dinner!  Yikes!  I think I have just enough, I know there are PLENTY of mashed potatoes, though, lol!

OK, so only four hours and he will be on his way here!  I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait!   Also, the walk-through at his new place is at 11am on Tuesday and then we will go pick up the new dishwasher for my place. 

I hope that recruiter doesn't want me to start work on Tuesday.  This entire process has really pissed me off.  You should have seen the reply she sent to me, saying I embarrassed her cause I copied my email to other people involved with the process.  What a joke.  I have also been worried that I may not get the job now, that she'll retract it.  She stated in the email sent on Thanksgiving Day that if I still wanted the job, to call her.  I called both numbers and emailed her on Friday.  I still have more paperwork to fill out and fax on Monday, because their online system is crap.  I was doing all of this rushing around last week, thinking I would be starting on Monday 11/26, and the paperwork HAD to be in if I were to start work.  Ugh!

Drag~  To answer a question you posed about the GM and the two interviews at the dream job in early October.....If you recall, I had followed up every week after the interviews, left a message on 11/2.  The GM called ME on Monday 11/5 and said he and the owner would sit down and talk, and then things would perhaps start.  The owner and the GM both have sick family that have occupied their time as well.

Anyways, after that call from him on 11/5, I figured I would leave the ball in his court and not pursue it anymore.  So, its been three weeks tomorrow since GM called me back.  I can't wait forever, you know?  I'm disappointed, esp since I am going to be working for $10,000 less, under the watchful guise of my recruiter.  I have dubbed her "Polly Prissy Pants" aka PPP, for those of you in the US who used to watch South Park.

I have really been feeling stressed about getting this new job because I never did a face to face interview, I haven't been given details about the tasks, I haven't seen the environment or met the people at the job.  All I have done is run around like a chicken turkey with my head cut off last week, and then PPP gives me shit.  I am 38 and don't need to be talked down to by some 22yo recruiter who sent me a very unprofessional email.  Yeah, Scorpios are vindictive.  Once I get my foot in the door and start working, she had better not cross me.  I will go straight to her supervisor in TX and bitch to high hell.

Shit.  Now I am fearing that my ranting will bite me in the ass and she will retract the job from me.  Crap.

~ Cindy
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #12 on: November 25, 2007, 05:08:05 PM »
Hey girls!

Well Cin, your guess was really good, I'm actually due on the 8th but I'm being induced most likely on the 4th. The doctors want to make sure I get the IV AZT on time and they also want as much control over my labor as possible. Like making sure my membranes dont rupture too early or nothing happens that can risk transmission to the baby. Its easier to induce and watch my labor closely then to wait for it to happen on it's own. So we're down to just about a week. Thank God cause I'm done!!

s for MM, I'm still frustrated. I told him (nicely) that I was frustrated with the situation and his answer was "what else is new". So I got mad and pretty much told him to go to hell.

Still haven't done my school work, I'm procrastinating. I know I'll regret it but I just dont have any motivation today. 'm going to keep this short and sweet I'm tired and in the middle of making dinner. I'll come back later. I hope everyone is having a great evening!

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #13 on: November 25, 2007, 05:21:32 PM »
Hey Girls---

I am doing fine, no need to worry. It is just taking me forever to take these damn braids down. Yes, Rico did show up yesterday and we talked. I didn't let him off the hook for the dinner but understood where he was coming from if he would've gotten pulled over for drunk driving. He doesn't have a car but a bike and they can charge you for that here even if it is a bike.

Besides me, his issue seems to be with his ex's choice of men but I told him that is nothing he needs to be concerned about even if he doesn't want the man around his son. Which there seems to be a question of paternity as well. He has a court hearing tomorrow in regards to I guess is visitation but I told him if he has doubt about paternity then he needs to bring it up at this hearing.

We also talked about us and our feeling for each other which we admit we have but we both are afraid of being hurt. How do you get past the hurt of past relationships? Not an easy thing to do. I did text with my one gf today and told her we need to talk face to face. I am still trying to get to the bottom of what she has to tell me but I need to discuss some other things with her too. Things are starting to reveal themselves in regards to what is going on with Rico but I still feel for him being in a new place and trying to deal the best way he can. So, I guess in a nutshell is that I haven't given up on him and the relationship between us for lack of a better word is still new. Kinda that getting to know you period.

Ny-- I feel your pain in regards to MM but still let him know when you are due to deliver. If he doesn't show up then that should tell you something. Sorry that you are still broke. Disability takes forever to get, it took me trying twice just to get it but has heard of others literally having to hire a lawyer. I hope you don't have to do that.

*singing Salt N Pepa's What a Man to Cindy*....Seems like you have hit the jackpot with Iceman. I couldn't be happier for you. I am glad things are going so smoothly for you. Let us know how that new dishwasher works out.

Betty--- I am not so sure Rico's drinking was because he couldn't see the kids. I think he just over did it partying with my gf's fam and her bf. Not an excuse, you are right and I let him know this. I also told him that it looked kind of strange to me that he would be celebrating with his ex in laws but at the same time, he doesn't know anyone else up here other than them and me. But since the ex has brought her married lover up here things have kind of changed and he sees it. I think his feelings got hurt but he hasn't been back around them since then. The plot kind of thickens with the married lover too. It would seem that her lover has had dealings with someone who was poz back where they are from. I asked if this was speculation or fact, he says it is fact because I guess the poz female came forward and admitted that they had dealings w/o a condom. I swear I feel like I am caught in a hispanic soap opera.

Well I need to get back to taking down my hair. I just wanted to check in and let you all know that I am fine.
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #14 on: November 26, 2007, 05:28:57 AM »
OMG I feel like I'm in the twilight zone.  I swear, I only got an hour of sleep because someone was snoring, and it wasn't Cheech, lol.   :o   :o   :o  Iceman just left to go to the gym and get his day started.  He has buddies that he meets there bright and early.

We went out to dinner last night, so I get the last round of Thanksgiving leftovers, lol.  After dinner, we basically came home and went to bed early.  I got all upset, thinking about the future, being uncertain whether this good thing between he and I would last because its just that -- good.  Iceman talked to me for awhile and made me feel better.  Then he had to go and snore, sleeping like a baby, while I tossed and turned, lol.

Queen~ I'm glad you're OK.  Things sound relatively calm over there, even though the plot may be thickening and things are unfolding.  As far as getting past the hurt of past relationships, well, I guess that's what came to the surface with me last night, too.  You just have to trust each other.  Easier to say than do, I know.  I could have kept my emotions and feelings to myself, but I just put them out there, ended up crying all over Iceman, but at least he knows where my head is.  Rico knows where your head is too, it sounds like.  It seems like the two of you are getting closer.  I hope things work out for you.

NY~  Your man keeps giving you shit, gheez.  You guys argue a lot, but what does he expect, with you being due any minute now?  You're tired and uncomfortable.  I wish he would cut you some slack, step up and be a man.  I'll stay tuned.  Hope you're doing better when you read this.

~ Cindy
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #15 on: November 26, 2007, 06:30:39 AM »
Hie ladies

Queen - Glad u're doing ok. For damn sure u're in the middle of a soap opera. i'm so holding my breath on this. i dont even want to speculate on whats next. something explosive i bet.
2. i swore to myself that i would NEVER get braided again.  i had them done once and i sat for 7 hours and it was so painful. fortunately my hair was short back then so when i was undoing them we just cut them to where my hair started and then just unplaited. but never again. i'm sticking to weaves or my own hair..

Betty- good on yu on the algrebra. and the smoking. step by step....day by day

NY - maybe try concentrating on the baby and leave MM alone. u know the frustration can only get the BP up and all.  if he wants to be there he'll be there just keep your fingers crossed that he'll step up. like Drag says "Expect the best prepare for the worst". i'm hoping he'll come. he'll regret missing his childs birth..

Cindy - hope the job thing goes well with PPP.  Iceman seems to get better everyday. like he's God present to u after all the shit. getting u a dishwasher and all. wow..

Sun- sorry about LL. damn married men. had my fair share of that and i'm not going down that road again, believe me.

Drag - u been to the doctors/dentist? what did he say? i had four molars removed and some fillings done. i hope u have a better experience of it than i did. the stink of those latex gloves in my nose..ugh!

i'm on a holiday from men right now. theres some things im working on by myself like finding a better place to stay and moving, etc. hopefully by february i'll be set up.  then i can start looking at men.  but i must say, life is rather quiet and simple without a guy complicating things.  

Cindy cant u like make a clone of Iceman for each of us? except for the snoring! :D





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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #16 on: November 26, 2007, 07:04:22 AM »
Good morning ladies:

How is everyone this morning?  Wow, I miss a lot when I'm gone for even one day.

Cin, things just keep getting better.  As far as PPP, it bugs me also when someone a lot younger than me tries to talk down to me.  I hope things work out with the job.  I know something will happen, I just know it.   Oh, and I love leftover Thanksgiving food!  I'm still making turkey sandwiches, and let me tell you, it tastes a lot better with real turkey than with lunchmeat! 

Queen, I hope things work out for you and Rico, if that's what you want.  You should tell him he doesn't get to choose who his ex- gets into a relationship with.  It's wierd that he's questioning paternity.  Are you sure that it's not because he wants to get out of paying child support?  Some guys are like that.  It just seems odd that he was married to this woman and has been treating the kid like his own, until the court thing comes up.  I don't know gf, it just sounds kind of fishy to me. 

NY, I don't think I would contact MM.  It sounds like all he does is get you upset.  Maybe he wants to be there for the baby, but not you?  I would just be very cautious.  You don't need any added stress in your life as the due date approaches.   I can't wait!  I hope we get pictures! ;D  I just love babies. 

Well, only three more weeks of school left.  I am so happy!  I am ready for the winter break.  Today I'm registering for classes for the next term.  I will be taking Ethics, Social Psychology, Political Psychology and Microeconomics.  The last one is required, which don't ask me why they require that for a psychology degree.  Doesn't make any sense to me.  Maybe they'll change the degree requirements in the future.  The next few weeks will be really busy with schoolwork, schoolwork and more schoolwork!  We have two more projects for my child & adolescent psychology class.  And of course, another exam in algebra (and I'm sure more homework). 

Today my car goes back into the shop to fix what was wrong with it in the first place that I was supposed to have fixed a couple weeks ago.  I cancelled the last time it was in the shop because I was supposed to shop for my dad that day and he(my dad) was freaking out because I wasn't going to be over until the afternoon.  You see, my father gets himself in a panic over the littlest things.  Then he gets breathless, panics more, gets more breathless, etc.  You get the picture. It's very frustrating.  He expects us kids to drop whatever we're doing and rush over there.  I hate to say this, but he's a very selfish man and always has been.  But you know what, my mum sort of made him that way.  Every time my dad had a problem, my mum would drop whatever it was she was doing and fix it.  So, this is years of learned behavior.  I don't expect him to change now.  But it just gets frustrating. 

I went yesterday and picked up my granddaughter and brought her over for a few hours.  She is such a sweetheart.  Not this coming weekend, but the next weekend is when we're going to see The Nutcracker.  I'm excited!  I've never seen it, even when it's been on t.v.  We'll be sitting like four or five rows from the stage.  I guess Jane (my granddaughter) will be getting all dressed up.  It's an evening performance, and I know people get more dressed up for evening shows than day shows.  But I will probably just wear a nice pair of pants and sweater.  Jane is going to wear a dress, etc.  That's alright.  Little girls are supposed to look like princesses, right? :)  I wouldn't want to get all fancied up and out-do her. ;)  Anyway, I hope you ladies have a nice day.  Hopefully the thing with my car won't end up costing me a fortune.
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #17 on: November 26, 2007, 10:04:26 AM »
Hi Everyone

For those of you who are US citizens, I invite you to participate in the two Call to Action efforts described in the AIDS Activism forum. In less than 45 minutes, you can communicate with a minimum of 18 people and the Department of Homeland Security, with the ultimate goal of repealing the HIV Travel Ban.

This is a very important issue. It affects how our international positive friends may travel here in the future. And, as it relates to stigma, it could have a huge impact on how those in the US view HIV/AIDS and those infected.

Please copy the post contents there and pass along to family, friends, ASO contacts and others. In particular, the DHS time period for public comment only lasts until December 6th. The bill proposed by Congresswoman Lee allows more time to communicate. However, you may find, as I did, once you're on a roll, it's easier to get it all done in one sitting.

Thank you. This is just one component of the activism I referred to a while ago that's being worked on off-line. There will be more and I encourage you to check in periodically on the AIDS Activism forum for more information.

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #18 on: November 26, 2007, 06:04:55 PM »
Hi GFs~

I am still hacking and blowing my nose, seems that my allergies never went away.  I am getting a scratchy sore throat, time for some tea after this post!

Well, my PPP recruiter called me this morning while I was trying AGAIN to submit paperwork online.  She was as nice as anything....uh huh, nuf said.  I asked her to open the link she had sent me and to look over these pages, in order to make sure everything that needed to be submitted, was in fact, submitted.  She couldn't open the link at first, and asked me for my password.  What password?  Its a link, for goodness sake!

Turns out this medical waiver form they are waiting on isn't even part of the link they sent me!  Uh huh, nuf said.  So, I got 4 of 5 things submitted today and I haven't heard back about this Medical waiver form. 

Good news is, I don't start until Mon 12/3, so I can be with Iceman at the end of the week and through the weekend when he moves to his new place.  His sis and I are going to help him clean it Thursday after settlement.

I was feeling really vulnerable last night, letting my emotions get the best of me when I was talking to Iceman.  I mean, I started bawling like a baby, I had to let it out.  I told him I had never had anyone to talk to.  I was just being me, letting it out, you know?  Drag, I thought of you and how you must feel when you're stressed and your man helps you through things.

Well, today Iceman sent me a text saying he was glad that I talked to him last night like I did.  He said he liked seeing my vulnerable side and would be there many times in the future when I needed to lean on him.  Sweet man, all I have been wishing and praying for is someone to make me feel vulnerable again, and now here he is.......

I am a lucky girl, very lucky.

I hope everyone is cozy and warm tonight.  I'm going to go finish the turkey leftovers with Cheech!

~ Cindy



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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #19 on: November 26, 2007, 09:04:18 PM »
Hi all! Just checking in to see how everyone is doing. I had a nice and quiet Thanksgiving. Sounds like everyone else had an "exciting" time. I've been busy with school, parent conferences are next week... :P. Don't have much else going on. Take care and talk to you all soon!

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #20 on: November 27, 2007, 07:06:03 AM »
Good morning ladies:

Another day.  I took my car in yesterday to get it fixed (it's been "missing" when I press on the gas).  Anyway, it's going to cost me $500 to get it fixed!  I was hoping it would only cost a couple hundred.  Thank God that right now I have the money.  Usually I don't.  I hope this fixes the problem.  Man, cars are such a necessary evil, aren't they?  Other than that, I am so glad there's only this week and two more of school left!  I've already registered for next semester.  I will be taking (now remember, it's two classes every eight weeks), Ethics, Social Psychology, Political Psychology and Microeconomics.  I don't know why the Micro class is required, but it is.  I think whoever put the requirements for the psychology degree together didn't know what they were doing.  Oh well, onward and upward.

Cin, it sounds like your Iceman is your own personal Santa!  And you start your job on 12/3.  Wow, good things are happening. 

Viv, parent/teacher conferences, eh?  Are those hard to sit through?  Have you ever had parents get really nasty? I don't know how I would handle that.  I'm pretty much a person who speaks my mind, although I try to edit myself. 

Still no smoking, girls!  It's been well over a week. I still have times when I really want a cig, but I remind myself that "just one" wouldn't happen.  Then I would feel like shit again, coughing, not being able to breathe right etc.  So, for now, I'm not smoking.   

Queen, where are you?  Haven't heard from you for the past couple days.  I hope everything's going alright with you. 

I miss all the other women who used to regularly check in.  People must be awfully busy or something.  Have a good one ladies-
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #21 on: November 27, 2007, 08:19:26 AM »
Hi Betty, way to go with the nonsmoking!!! I am so proud of you. 500$. Cars are just money sucking devices aren't they. I have never owned one yet, although I can drive. Think though how much money you will save not smoking.

Cin, you know my op re recruiters... The problem is I beleive they will always have more candidates than they will tell us, I dont actually blame them for that since the candidates are also applying to numerous places. But basically, it's complicated enough dealing directly with employers, who needs recruiters?
Incidentally, do you know that the future (or what-the-hell-ever) of the Middle East is being discussed in the very near vicinity of your house? I think it's just a waste of time and money to be honest, but let's not go there... I just find this a funny coincidence.

anyway, I would give GM one last phone call letting them know you are on he verge of being hired by someone else, and it would be a real shame to miss out on the job, How do they expect you to get by while their take their sweet time getting their act together?

Queen, hope things are working out with Rico. I am sure he has good reasons, but look out for yourself. Listen to your gut... and have fun. If it ain't fun what's the use?

NY, I've had it up to here with MM... Do you have family or someone close who will be with you at the birth? I thought the problem was that for 2 weeks you will have no salary until after the birth when you will start recieving payment for maternity leave, please correct me if I am wrong. You are so amazing.

Viv, nice to see you around. Glad thxgiving was good for ya.

I can write more about myself but my voice rec is down (don't ask) and my hand hurts but I still have to use it for work. so just a quick check in. Hugs to all and will try to post later... Oh yeah, I don't have any cavities, just my gums are receding... Thanks Cristy & to everyone who was concerned, really sweet of you. The dentist was an a-hole but I can be quite tough and poker faced when I truely decide I don't give a shit. I'll tell you one thing, everytime I go there he really gets a kick out of telling me I have HIV (yes, thanks for reminding me). Even though they always give me the last appt of the day, he always tells me really loudly in front of his assistant, who won't even look at me: "b/c you are HIV+, we have to give you the last appt of the day". I'm like, duh, I know, that's why i'm here now, on the last appt of the day. Because you are an idiot, you think that it matters what time of the day my appt's in... I can't know for sure what's going on in his mind, but I think some people just project all their sexual frustrations on you, they must think you've had a really blazing time in the sack to get this or something, I see it esp with the people that broke off relations with me not b/c I am poz but b/c I am in serodiscordant relationship and it just blows their mind how is that even possible, it happened to me with quite a few people who were supposedly ok with the diagnosis but not with me continuing to live and date... Do you know what I mean?
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #22 on: November 27, 2007, 09:35:03 AM »
Hey!  This is my 1000th post here!   ;D

Drag~  I would love to kick your dentist squarely in the balls, while you hold him for me. 

Aren't there any laws over there regarding this type of discrimination towards HIV+ people?  If that shit happened in the US, it wouldn't fly.  I've had trouble before at labs where an assistant announced to the entire lobby for me to take a seat, and then said "they will call you back for your HIV test soon."    :o   I think she was looking at me, not expecting in a million years that I was already pos and widowed at the time.  This was in the late 90s.

I was mortified then because 20 people were in the waiting room with me.  I promptly told my doctor about the incident, and he had a reputation for being a hard ass but otherwise getting the job done.  The doc wrote a formal letter of complaint to the lab, which has locations all over the US.  It was a riot!  To this day I remember that woman's name and face, but I have not seen her since.  I go to different labs now since my insurance has changed.

Is there anything you can do, Drag?  That stupid shit dentist!  I'll post more after I get breakfast!  Grrrr!     >:(

OK, I'm back.....BT~ I'm sorry you have to shell out so much for your car during the holidays.  I hope the mechanics get it fixed right the first time!  Congrats on not smoking!  Just don't do it, lol!

Drag~  As far as the Middle east talks, I haven't heard but I think they may be taking place at Camp David.  Its only a few miles from me.  I have heard that everyone is in Annapolis today.  Its the most beautiful place in the world, where I spent summers with my dear Grandmother.  This is the grandmother whose platter I found and used for Thanksgiving Dinner.   :)  We see the President's helicopters fly over all the time to Camp David near my home. 

Viv~  The dreaded parent confs.  Sometimes I bet its hard enough to get the parents in the door to discuss "junior."  It will make for some long days for you.  I know I wouldn't have the strength.  Good luck!

Call out to Cam and Sunseeker, you girls have been quiet.  Are you OK? 

One last thing, I received another email yesterday from PPP's payroll people (say that three times fast).  They sent the one link that was missing from everything, and then also said paperwork was still missing.  I am thinking this crossed yesterday afternoon, as I finally got the entire bundle of paperwork to submit electronically.  I still have to go to my dad's office again today to print and fax this last item that they left out. 

So far, I was offered the job via telephone on fri 11/16.  Mon 11/19 I went for a drug screen.  Tuesday I faxed, Weds I faxed, Weds I sent an email of complaint to all parties involved, Thursday I rec'd a nasty email reply from PPP, I left voice mails and an email on Friday saying I still wanted the job, Monday I faxed more and today I will fax more.  Whew!

Iceman says they should have already started paying me, since I have jumped through all of these hoops.  His walk-through has been switched to this evening, so he is getting off work early to come see me, and we'll go get the dishwasher first.

Oh good, the Homeowner's Association just called and will be removing the trees that were cut down on 11/7.  The power company cut down two 15-foot cypress trees and no one has come to get them.  The HOA lady loves me, so she is sending someone out today.  Too bad the wind is blowing 30mph, those guys are going to be hating getting those trees!

One of my Redskins died last night after being shot in Florida.  Taylor, #21..... :'(

OK, time to call PPP, who's voice mail always cuts me off.

~ Cindy
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #23 on: November 27, 2007, 10:47:15 AM »
Hi Cin

I appreciate your support & fury  ;) but I am really not upset about it. I wasn't when it happened either, so much so that he changed his attitude and became all accomodating towards the end of the appt. Anyway no one heard him except for the assistant who already knows, it's not like he said it in the waiting room. whatever his issue with HIV it doesn't affect me... what's really cool is that I am not pretending... it really bounced off me. It was more like "yeah yeah here we go, yawn" than "OMG, how dare he?!".

But you're really sweet. I guess I was telling this more as I am pleased with myself for not being affected... b/c I used to react to everything, and now I am doing it less. Just b/c something negative happens, doesn't men I must get affected. of course I am not talking about major disasters or my docs messing up my treatment or stuff on that scale, but a-holes will always be around.. I feel happy when I know that I don't have to be affected by any ol' one.

Love ya, thanks for sticking up for me...
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #24 on: November 27, 2007, 11:15:29 AM »
Hello Everyone---

I am fine just kinda tired. Since having the stomach virus from last week,I seem to have gotten quite a cough. Coughing up a bit of stuff too so I called my primary doctor who is working at my ID doc's office today. I am hoping he will call me in some cough medicine because this cough is really affecting my sleep majorly. But it could've happened from getting caught in the rain last week too when I was sick. Who knows?

I think your dentist is an asshole too, Dragonette. So, you have to get the last appointment of the day because you are poz? What a crock of shit!!! Makes me wonder if the man practices any type of hygiene between patients. I would've reported his ass too. I got a dentist appointment coming up soon. Now I don't know whether to tell them I am poz or not due to your situation. I prolly will and if they give me any shit my ASO is right next door!!!

Cindy, sorry about your Redskin getting killed. We got a previous cowboy who had a transplant who slipped into a coma I think the day before Thanksgiving. I forget his name but I hope he makes it. Another former Cowboy gave him a kidney I think right before this happened.

I would like to write more but I am tired and I need to go back to sleep. My stomach hurts too. :'(
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #25 on: November 27, 2007, 11:57:20 AM »
Queen~  Gargle with warm salt water, about 6 - 10 times.  Its instant relief!  Push the hot tea, and see about getting an inexpensive humidifier if you don't have one already.  I got one years ago, made by Vicks, it couldn't have been more than $15, very simple gadget, not like one of those UFO ones, lol.   :D

Drag~  Things are so different here in the US, at least from what I've seen these days.  I tell all of my docs about my HIV and no one looks cross-eyed at you, otherwise they fear we'd sue.  That's the way the society is over here.  It seems the biggest problems are the dumb asses in the medical field who open their mouth in public, thinking nothing of it.  I remember one time at the pharmacy I was picking up my Retrovir (late 90s, as well, I believe).  This really nice pharmacy tech pulled my prescription and said all loud and perky, "OK, we've got your retrovir ready."  I was mortified and said to please not mention my meds out loud, its no one's business.

I'm glad things rolled off of you, Drag.  I am getting to be that way, too.  Almost like if someone were to ask about my diabetes, I would just say, "Yes, well the diabetes AND being HIV+ make me more careful about...."  Not quite THERE yet, but getting close and more comfortable.

OK, gotta go dry this hair and go to Dad's office for the 4th time to fax shit.  OH!  And I got another call from another recruiter that I really like.  There is a job opening for me, so I may get an interview!!!  I told her I need $2 more per hour than the PPP gig, lmao!   ;D

Almost Iceman time!

~ Cindy
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #26 on: November 27, 2007, 02:05:17 PM »
Hey Dragonette, 

Yeah, I'm still here ... just reading more than posting. Sorry about your dentist .... it is so sad that there is still so much ignorance out there about HIV.

I hope everybody checks out the Activism section like Em suggested .... she's right, it's an important issue and impacts us all.

Sara


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« Reply #27 on: November 27, 2007, 10:51:01 PM »
Hi Girls

Well, I am back for a few days.  Laying low trying to get out of my funk after breaking up with LL and my two year anniversary of being positive.

Moon-  I hope you are enjoying your new dishwasher.  A dishwasher is a must for me and I am not even sure why, since I wash all of my dishes with soap and water before putting them in the dishwasher.  I am glad that things are going well with you and Iceman.  Its finally your turn and you deserve it.

Sara- I hope you are doing well and its good to see you posting and I look forward to getting to know you.

Drag -  I hope things went well at the dentist and wish I had your courage and outlook on things.  I guess I am still rapped in the whole stigma of being positive and I am getting better with this issue, but I think its going to take time.  I am just glad I have you ladies on the forums and only wish I new about the forum two years ago when I found out my status. 

Queen -  I hope you are feeling better soon.  I agree with Moon try the Vicks its a big help.  The other thing that works is the vapor plug ins and the tablets that you put in the shower and steam up with the shower.  Those work good to and I think they are also made by Vicks.  Feel better soon.

Betty- I can't wait to hear all about The Nutcracker.  I bet you and your granddaughter had a blast.

Vivyt - Good luck with all of your parent/teacher conference I am sure this is a hectic time.

NY-  I am glad that you are sticking to your guns and you told MM to go to hell.  I am proud of you and you should tell him exactly how you feel.  You owe him no explanation as to how you are feeling and you have no reason to spare his feelings.

Well, I will try to get another post in before Disneyland if not when I get back next week on Thursday.  Till then be well. 






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« Reply #28 on: November 28, 2007, 06:21:28 AM »
Good morning ladies:

Well, I got my car back yesterday.  Yes, it was $502!  Yikes!  But it seems to be running fine.  If it acts up, I'm going to go storming into the mechanic's shop and raise some hell! ;)

Drag, what an asshole that dentist is.  I wonder if you are his only poz patient since he has to make such a major deal out of your appointment?  If it were me, before I went in, I would knick my gums with a toothpick so they would be bleeding slightly when I saw him.  That might shut him up fast!  Since I have dentures, I haven't seen a dentist in years.  Other than when I had to get my top denture repaired when the tooth came out.  I don't even have any bottom teeth or denture.  I have very thin gums and they could never make my bottom denture right.  When I was getting my top repaired, they of course tried to talk me into a whole new set.  It would've cost $3,000! :o  Like I have that kind of money lying around.....  Anyway, glad it didn't affect you.  I'm like that also.

Cin, how's the new dishwasher?  I haven't had one in years.  I don't mind, because since it's just me, there's never any real major dishes (unless I'm making something that requires baking).  How does Ice's house look?  Do you like it? 

Queen, I'm sorry you don't feel good.  Seems like you've gotten some pretty good suggestions here.

Sara, good to hear from you.  Hope to hear more!  How are you, what've you been up to etc.?

Sun, are you going to Disneyland by  yourself?  That sounds like so much fun!  Hey, did you know that when someone has a terminal illness Disneyland will let them and their whole party in for free?  I did that back in the early 90's.  I got myself, my daughter, my sister, her daughter and one of her foster daughters in for free.  There's some office there you have to have fax your doctor a paper, your doc fills it out and faxes it back to them.  Then when you go, they can point you to the right gate etc.  Just a thought......

I can't believe it's almost Christmas!  I just love this time of year.  I've already registered for classes for next term.  I will be taking Ethics, Social Psychology, Political Psychology and Microeconomics.  Don't ask me why the last class is required.  Doesn't make any sense.  It's not like I'll ever use it.  I think they just needed something to fill up empty space.  As you guys know, where I got, the classes run every eight weeks.  So I'll be taking the first two classes I mentioned the first eight weeks, the last two the last eight weeks.  That should keep me busy.  Only three more weeks of school here then winter break.  I am so glad.  I am getting burned out. 

My granddaughter came over Sunday.  We had a nice chat.  It's just hard because she's referring as the lady (who has custody of my grandkids) "mom."  Not hard in the way of acceptance, it's just I never know when she says "mom" if she's talking about my daughter (Nicole) or the lady (Robin) and I always have to ask her.  I wonder how she feels, having "two moms."  I know she had an extremely hard time when my daughter first left.  Which I could've strangeled my daughter for.  But now, I see that Nicole just couldn't handle being a mom so young (she had my granddaughter when she was 16, grandson when she was 20) and she wanted them to have a good life.  So I guess she made the ultimate sacrifice.  I'm the only one Nicole will talk to about that.  I'm glad we can communicate.  Very glad.  I don't treat my daughter any different.  I seem to be able to detach from situations easy.  I guess it's because I finally accepted that I can't control other people.  So I just try to let others make their own decisions and live with them without interference from me.  I mean, if some major decision was made that I think is an extremely bad one with horrible consequences, obviously I'd say something, but then that's it.  People have to live with their own choices.  I'm not the alpha and omega in people's lives.

I hope all you ladies have a nice day.  I'm having an extremely heavy period.  I wish my doc would give me the depo shot, just so my periods would stop.  When I asked him about it he said "it's not good at your age to have your periods stopped."  I wanted to say "that's just because you're a man."  I have a few friends "my age" who are on it and they don't have any problems.  Anyway, have a good one everybody-
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #29 on: November 28, 2007, 06:37:45 AM »
I wonder if you are his only poz patient since he has to make such a major deal out of your appointment?  If it were me, before I went in, I would knick my gums with a toothpick so they would be bleeding slightly when I saw him.  That might shut him up fast! 

yes he's a prick. I can do that AND chew on a garlic clove for the ultimate surprise element.

but we're always going to run into strange people, might as well get used to it... i am not his only poz patient, i know that.
considering the problems i have had with the ID unit in the last months, I have realized that not all people in healthcare are angels, and there are many more extreme examples in the forums. But the majority are good people so I try to focus on them

I must keep this short & sweet cos I really gotta work.

Just wanted to wish you all a great & brand new day

Cind, something I forgot to mention, I am so glad you're letting Ice take care of you emotionally. And just kicking back and enjoying. Also glad you're in demand at the work market.

Betty I dunno what micro (or macro) economics is. My BF susbscribes to the Economist and I hate it, their take on anything whether war, famine, education, the AIDS epidemic is so biased and greedy. they just care about the thin layer of society that makes money off of these things. And that would be my problem with the field of economics, if it is only geared in that direction. But like I said I havent studied it. The economy sure affects our psyches though... are you going to go into councelling when you graduate. I hope so!

Sun, I am glad you're taking the time to lick your wounds. sometimes we need to lie low and take time healing. I wish there was something to speed the process... In a month will be my 2nd diagnosis anniversary too.

Queen, congrats again on the blog.

NY... less than a week to go.... OMG OMG. Hope so much you're OK.

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« Reply #30 on: November 28, 2007, 07:57:28 AM »
Hello ladies. hope everyone is well. I am good, just working a lot.        Ml, that is really sweet that Iceman  bought you a dishwasher. Aside from that he sounds like a keeper and I hope everything works out.     Sun, sorry about LL. Disneyland might be just the thing to lift your spirits.                                                                                        Betty, glad you got your car fixed. That's a lot of money to spend but having a car is worth it. Good luck with your classes and I hope you have a great time at the nutcracker with your granddaughter. I can relate to your daughter a little. I gave my 18 yo to my parents cause I wanted him to have a better life than I could give him at the time. i feel like Robert is my second chance to do better.
Dragonette, sorry about your asshole dentist but glad you can let it roll off. That is a very valuable skill.                                           Queen, sorry you are feeling bad Hope you feel better soon. Anyone I forgot, hope ya'll are well.       Sara, nice to see your post. I respect your style and conviction. Please continue to post.              Okay, here is the latest with me.     I went to pick up the police report on my car and they could not find the guy who hit it. Apparently I gave the wrong tag number or it is out of state. I was so angry, not with the police but with myself for not remembering correctly. I will call the officer Thursday and talk to him about it  but if I gave the wrong tag then there is nothing they can do. Just have to swallow it down and try to fix the damage myself or get somebody to fix it for me. The car is still in fine working condition, it just has a ugly dent on the driver's side door.                                   Oh ML and Drag. I had decide to try with my neg coworker regardless of his age but everytime I make plans to go see or call him , he's never there. I told him we need to get to know each other apart from work but since it's so hard to catch him, I think I will just let it go. I have very little patience for bullshit and do not like to feel like I am chasing someone.    But I still have my Personals ad and have been talking to a couple guys there. But that's something else, you message a couple times, then they seem to vanish. I hate feeling like I am the one chasing someone.                       On another note, HIV has even invaded my dreams. Damnit. I was having a great sex dream this morning and damn if I didn't think  about,Does he have a condom on?, even in the dream. But it was still a good dream. I need to quit reading those fantasy novels before bed.                                                                                 Anyway, take care and will check in this weekend. Cristy

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #31 on: November 28, 2007, 03:39:47 PM »
Hey Ladies---

I hope everyone is doing good. It's good to hear from you, Christy. I was wondering what you were up to. Dragonette, thanks about the blog. I am excited about it. That was what Cindy was saying I should spill about but I did not want to say anything til it was confirmed. I didn't want to tell Cindy but I couldn't keep it in, I had to tell someone.. ;) I think it will be good for me because I have a lot of things that has been on my mind or have held in for some time. Maybe someone who reads it will be able to relate or I may be helpful to someone. I have gotten a lot of support from others in the main forums regarding being chosen for the blog. And even received one from pa person I was not expecting, so it meant even more.

Rico is coming over tonight. I got to get ready for that pretty soon. Otherwise, not much going on in my world at the moment. I finally got all the braids down I think it was on Monday. I have been trying to find out if anything is going on in my town for World Aids Day. All I have seen so far is a 5 minute interview with some guy about hiv in my area. I hope there is something..I will have to give my ASO a call tomorrow...If there isn't then, I guess I will just do something on my own.
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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #32 on: November 29, 2007, 06:38:24 AM »
Hi GFs~

I got up at 545am today, trying to get my schedule back on target for work next week.  All I can say is ugh!  I tossed and turned last night and Iceman wasn't even here!  I am so nervous that I'll oversleep!  At least work is only a few minutes away!  Lucked out on that one! 

I have my new dishwasher.  Iceman was an angel and installed it Tuesday night.  We did the walk-through at his place and its nice--today he settles on the house and gets the keys!  He's going to ride his new Harley from his sister's to his new place since the weather is relatively good.  For BT, he's got a 2008 Dyna Super Glide FXDC, its red.   ;D  I get so nervous thinking he is in Baltimore traffic on that thing, but he's been riding for years, since he was in his 20s at least, so he knows what he's doing.  Still......  :-\

I went dress shopping yesterday at Macy's.  Iceman has a formal banquet in NY at the end of February.  I found two clearance dresses, one a full-length classy formal gown with a little jacket, brown, for under $50.  The second a pewter/black party dress, short with taffeta under the skirt.  Too small for me but I managed, lol.   :D  It was $32 down from $149.  I'll model them for Iceman tonight.  I like the long gown but how am I going to get it to NY?  Its looooooong and will surely wrinkle some.

I haven't told PPP that I'll need a couple of days off for the event.  I can barely get a word in edgewise with her on the phone.  She still couldn't manage to tell me who to report to Monday, so I emailed her yesterday.  Now she can't manage to tell me what time my shift ends, so I'll just wait and see.  The place is only minutes from my home.  I am still waiting to get an interview with another company, hopefully after work one day next week.  This way I'll have choices.

Queen~  I have to go check out your blog soon, I just haven't had time in the past two days.  I'm really happy that you got asked to do this!  How's the tummy?  Rico tonight?  Anything going on there, or do things seem to have settled down some?

Cristy~ Damn, so sorry you couldn't catch the guy who hit your car.  Just keep your eyes peeled every time you go back to that same area!  As for the older coworker guy, maybe he'll come around.  I guess things are getting hectic with everyone with the holidays upon us.

Drag~  Yes, its a welcome thing, being able to talk to Iceman and not be judged.  He really understands where I am coming from, and he understands how I feel, with all of these years and no one to talk to.  He's had AA as an outlet for his demons, and has formed some close bonds with people.  I've had no one to vent to who really understands HIV and what I deal with.  Iceman is definitely the closest one to that.  Glad to hear there's nothing major with your teeth.  Just sounds like you may need to floss and rinse to get those gums back into shape again. 

BT~Sounds like you had some good quality time with your granddaughter, and The Nutcracker date is only about a week away!  Its an absolutely beautiful presentation, which you're sure to love!  How's the car running?  Should be perfect after you shelling out all of that money!  How is your father doing, any changes there as far as taking his license or more home care?  I hope he's alright.  And the smoking?  You're being good, right?  ;)  Good luck with your classes, I stayed as far away from ECON as I could in college.  Social Psyc was OK, I remember I had a really cool Professor for that one.

Sun~ Glad to see you posted, enjoy you're trip to Disney.  I had never heard about what BT said, getting admission to the park if you had an illness.  I tell you, those passes are expensive, prob up to $75 a day in Florida's DisneyWorld.  I hope your vacation is so much fun that it leaves you wanting a vacation again after you get home, lol! Now I hear "Its A Small World" playing in my head, lol.   :D  As far as your funk, you know it will get easier with each day with regards to LL.  My goodness, your vacation couldn't have come at a better time!

Cam~ You've been laying low, where are you?

Tendai~ Thanks for checking in, I'm working on a non-snoring Iceman clone for you, lol!

Confused, Viv, Sara....all of us ladies.  Have a great day!

~ Cindy
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #33 on: November 29, 2007, 07:24:37 AM »
Good morning ladies:Drag, chewing on a garlic clove, eh? :D  That would be a good one!  I do hope things clear up with those teeth soon.  I don't know what microeconomics is either.  The only reason I'm taking it is because I have to.  If I didn't, I surely wouldn't.(Kind of like algebra).  I think someone told me it's a business class.

Cristy, great to hear from ya!  I'm so sorry about that other car, but I am glad your car is running alright and no damage was done to the motor.  Is the dent real bad, or nothing major?
  Queen, I don't know if I said this yet or not, but congratulations on the blog!  I saw Peter's thread about it in "Living With..." forum and read your blog (and Jaser's).  It's really good.  I think, like you said, this will be a good outlet for you.  It takes a lot of courage to do something like that.  BTW, how did it go with Rico?  Are you guys hot and heavy again? ;)

Cin, my car is running like a top.  As well it should be.  And yes, I'm being a good girl.  No smoking!  You know, I myself have several close friends in NA.  I love having them.  They are people you can tell anything to without fear of judgement or some off-the-wall response.  There is one person I met in NA back in '89 who I made my power-of-attorney several years ago.  When I was having a lot of trouble physically, I put her name on my bank account, so she could pay my bills etc. for me.  She never, ever mismanaged my money while she was in charge of it.  She's still like my best friend.  People like that are so invaluable.  Don't worry about Iceman on the motorcycle.  Have you ridden on it yet?  Do you have a leather coat, chaps and riding boots?  Here in Indiana, you don't have to wear a helmet, but people on a motorcycle have to wear glasses (that's a law).    It sounds like you got a couple of really pretty dresses at Macy's.  Good luck with that.   

Nothing major going on here.  My dad is so OCD it's unreal.  When he wants something, he calls like a zillion times, just to make sure.  It's funny.  I'm going over there Friday to give him a ride to his credit union so he can pay his mortgage.  Yes, he still owes on the house.  He and my mom refinanced it four times, yesfour times.  I think it was because their credit card bills were so astronomical.   

Other than that, I have two more papers due in my child & adolescent psychology class.  And tonight is algebra.  After tonight, there's only two weeks left, so we're getting down to the stretch.  Thank God for that.  I'm really dreading taking the microeconomics class, and would still like to know what that has to do with psychology.  Oh, Drag, you asked me if I was going to go into counseling.  I'd like to be an addictions counselor.  I feel like maybe, just maybe, I could help someone.  I want to do that, because for so long I took from society, and now I need to give back.  My therapist told me maybe I should consider getting my master's.  But I don't know.  Some days I feel like I'm hardly making it through these classes.  Having ones that are doubly hard, well, I just don't know if I'm up for that.  And someone told me that in graduate school, you can't get any lower than a "B" to pass the classes.  Hmmmm...

Well, I hope you ladies have a great day-
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #34 on: November 29, 2007, 06:08:20 PM »
Hello Ladies----

Yes, I am very excited about the blog. I already have my next entry done. The responses I have been getting has been great. I got one today from someone who could relate to being betrayed by their family in regards to their status. And after reading my first entry is really glad that there is someone like me who is blogging. I feel I have done the right thing by starting this journey.

Yes, Rico came over last night and left this afternoon. It seems like things have died down a bit but I am still taking it one day at a time. I have to go buy some more condoms though. My ASO was suppose to have mailed me some but I haven't gotten them yet and I am down to 3 from a bagful. Can you say getting it in like rabbits.. ;D Hey, it has been 2 years since I have had a little pipe laid!!!! Ok, I'll behave but you get my drift.... ;)

My tummy seems to be doing much better but I can't get rid of this damn cough. My doc prescribed some Mucinex or something but my insurance doesn't cover cough medicines for anyone over 21 which seems crazy to me. I am switiching insurance on the 1st so I guess I will go buy some over the counter stuff til I get to see my doc on the 13th.

I wish I the gas prices would settle down. My gas bill which I got today was outrageous....227 bucks, my first one was only 109 but I guess I am using more gas since it has gotten colder. But I plan on talking to my landlord too about trying to get some weatherization done around here. I think that may be most of the problem but not sure yet.

Cindy--- I am glad you got a job finally. Everything is coming full circle, gf. No worries and it sounds like you're going to be the Belle of the Ball at this upcoming event. I hate to repeat myself but I am happy for you.

Betty-- Sorry to hear about your Dad. Glad you got your car fixed. I think mine will have to sit for the winter because I really can't afford to get it fixed with everything else going on which sucks. But what can I do?

NY--- It's getting to be that time...Goes into singing, "She's having my baby"...... :D

I'm going to need to start sending out Xmas cards soon....Sheesh...Then I'll be kicking 39 in the ass come January.... ;D
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11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
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3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #35 on: November 29, 2007, 08:02:02 PM »
Ok so here  I am....been a while since posting anything on here but better late than never.  Lets see work is going good....slowing down a bit so my schedule is changing to better accomidate the kids.  Fussing on a daily basis with husband who says he is filing for a divorce on the 1st so that I will have to go back to Ala to fight for my kids, well he thinks he is going to get them every summer and I get them during the school year.....I wondered if hemight have even the slightest chance of that until...................................hmmmmmm this morning I got a phone call from ala and was told that he was all over the news down there....I get my mom on the puter to see what she can find and low and behold there is this article...


...A burglary suspect is arrested in the parking lot of a Geneva church while reportedly smoking crack cocaine.

Geneva Police Chief Frankie Lindsey says alert neighbors on Pine Street reported Stanley Davis leaving a home with several items.

A short time later, one officer saw the suspect's vehicle parked at the church off of Maple Avenue.

Authorities say they found the stolen property in Davis' car.

The 45-year-old suspect is behind bars at the Geneva County Jail on burglary and theft of property charges.

Additional charges are pending in the case.


well all be damned....................and he thinks he is going to get ahold of my kids...............sheittttttttttt

anyway he was released from jail and the reason is due to him telling the county that his meds cost 4500 a month...which they do....buttttttttttttt he has not taken them in 4 months........... so off i go to see the local judge cause he is in that bit of trouble and his mo is he will run....he gets paid tommorow......and who do I just happen to call......the police dept that arrested him and let them know he will probably run and that he does not take his meds so he needs to have his ass back in jail............oooooo evil li ol me.....anyway that is my news fo the day!

*Sherry*


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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #36 on: November 29, 2007, 08:03:56 PM »
I havent written in here in a while. Thanksgiving was interesting this year. We drove to Houston and visited Billy's family. His family has more drama than mine so thats why I said interesting. I laughed my ass off watching one of his sisters unload a loud verbal assault on one of his brothers. I was waiting for her to beam him in the head with the container of coffee she was holding.
Nothing like that ever happens in my family so it proved to be quite entertaining.

Hope ya'll had a great holiday.

Wendy

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #37 on: November 29, 2007, 09:35:22 PM »
LMAO@ the article on your hubby, Seekay. There wouldn't be a judge in their right mind or smoking crack that would give him custody of your kids... ;) And robbing a church, I hate to see the karma on that one. And I don't blame you, I would've dropped a bug to the police on his ass too. Now let's see if they act on it.....

Winiroo--- I hate family drama but sometimes you can't help but laugh when it goes on somewhere else. Well, depending on how far it goes, of course. My oldest sister called me the other day to tell me that my other sister(who I don't mingle with) wanted to invite me over for dinner...*chokes* Yeah, as fucking if...I got my sick ass up and cooked anyway. It wasn't the best of holidays but at least my Cowboys won... ;D
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #38 on: November 29, 2007, 09:56:16 PM »
I would hate family drama too if I had any. My family has never been dramatic. Its just me and my brother and 4 parents. All 4 of my parents get along really well and I love my brother to pieces. The only drama in my family is my son being lazy. LOL

A holiday with Billy's family was new to me so it was funny. The funny part was that she unloaded on the brother who annoys me with his over the top self righteous born again stuff.
Billy has 2 brothers and 5 sisters. Only two of the sisters and aside from Billy one of the brothers showed up for dinner. That is unheard of in my family. Usually the only time someone misses a family gathering with my family is if they are sick or out of town.
Guess I'm lucky...


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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #39 on: November 30, 2007, 08:00:42 AM »
Good morning ladies:

Queen, better tell your ASO to keep those condoms coming! :D  I'm glad someone is getting some.  It's been like six years for me.  And believe me, the last lover I had wasn't anything at all to brag about.  Actually, since I started becoming pre-menopausal, the only time I get any kind of horny is right before my period.  I guess it's just a hormonal thing.   I'm really glad you're blogging now.  I think that will help you.  And I'm glad you're getting such good responses, but why wouldn't you?  You're a special person, Queenie, and people on here know that.

Sherry, that story is kind of funny about your soon-to-be-ex, but also sad.  I'm glad you tipped the police off.  It's something I certainly would do also.  Your children need to be protected from this lunatic. 

Wini, my family has had some drama in the past.  It is funny to see it in another family, but it's hard when it happens in your own.  I'm glad you have such a close famliy.  I do also, despite the drama. 

Today I'm going to my father's to take him to his credit union.  He says he wants to buy us lunch from Arby's.  I feel sorry for my dad.  He's really going downhill fast.  I hope he makes it to Christmas.  Of course, I hope he makes it for longer than that, but that's doubtful.  But you know what, he's a stubborn old coot.  He's already outlived his doctor's expectations.  He's lived through colon cancer and a ruptured anuerysm (in his aorta).  It seems like most older people I know are just made tougher than younger people.  I wonder if that's because they've had to endure more hardships than the younger folks of today.  Anyway, he told me he doesn't know what he's going to do about Christmas, as he doesn't have very much money.  I told him not to worry about that, we're all just glad he's still around.  Christmas has become way too commercial anyway.  I know people have been saying that for years, but man, I can't believe how these commercials are today.  I remember when I was a kid, I just wanted a new Barbie or when I got older, a new album.  Now, kids wants Ipods, computers, flat-screen t.v.'s, etc.   I'm more in the spirit of trying to help people who aren't fortunate enough to have their own place etc.  I found the address for a local "mission" where homeless people stay.  They open their doors every day to people on the streets to feed them three meals a day and provide them with a warm place to sleep at night.  Anyway, I sent them a check to help feed people during this holiday season.  I did it in memory of my mum, who was always feeding people.  I'm not saying this to toot my own horn; just saying people need to help each other more.  A town not to far from me just had a disastrous tornado over the summer and so many people lost their homes.  They applied for relief from FEMA and got turned down.  Wow.  And the local Red Cross is getting stretched thin with all the fires etc. that has happened recently.  There are so many ways for people to help each other.  I guess I'm just prattling on now..........

I'm still not smoking!  Only two more weeks of classes, thank God.  I'm ready for a break.  I hope all you ladies have a great day-
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« Reply #40 on: November 30, 2007, 08:10:52 AM »
I found the address for a local "mission" where homeless people stay.  They open their doors every day to people on the streets to feed them three meals a day and provide them with a warm place to sleep at night.  Anyway, I sent them a check to help feed people during this holiday season.  I did it in memory of my mum, who was always feeding people.

Kind of you, BT. It touched me to read of your dad's want to give gifts at a time when it's tough for him. Have you shared your story of giving to the homeless with him? I would think he would be terribly proud to know he has a thoughtful daughter who honors her mother's memory in such a way. You might have an opportunity then to say to him that it's more than enough that he is present as his finest present to the family.

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #41 on: November 30, 2007, 11:44:30 AM »
Hello Ladies----

Not much going on with me today. Someone offered to buy my car, the Caprice cause they want the engine and tranny. So, my busted up baby will be gone as soon as I get my $500 system out of it. One car down and one to go. I am still coughing but my doc called in a script for some Mucinex so hopefully that will help.

It sure is getting quiet in here. Where my ladies at?
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #42 on: November 30, 2007, 12:53:20 PM »
Im here just laying low b/c of my shattered wrist... have a great weekend everyone...  :-*
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« Reply #43 on: November 30, 2007, 01:12:05 PM »
Hi GFs~

A very quick check-in from Iceman's place, we have been moving and moving stuff between Baltimore and closer to my place.  I am beat, haven't eaten, but his sis is on the way with lunch.  Next, we're off to unload some of the storage shed.  We got the BIG TV moved, but I am BEAT!

More when I have more time, prob Sunday night!

~ Cindy
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« Reply #44 on: November 30, 2007, 02:54:03 PM »
Yep, Betty, the condoms came in the mail. So, I am off and running again...When I get some time, I am going to have to check out our Goderator Ann's condom links. I am sure I can learn some things there.... ;)

Cindy, take it easy with all that moving!!! But I'm sure Iceman will work out all those kinks.. ;) I bet you're limber as hell now. What? Yep, I said it... ;D

Dragonette, Sorry about your wrist. Those thermal things don't help? I know you will come back when you can. Rest that hand.


I am trying to check in as much as possible but has been blogging. Something happened today that had my blood boiling..It made for something to talk about.. ;D At the moment, I am just enjoying the good green and laying back....T.G.I.F. Ladies..... :-*
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #45 on: November 30, 2007, 07:06:32 PM »
Hi ladies!

It's been awhile since I've posted but thats just because at first I was going through a bit of a depression. I just felt really down and overwhelmed. Then I got sick :'(  I think I push myself to do so much all the time that I finally got run down and was bed ridden for about a day. I guess all the sleep payed off because I feel a bit better today. I went to the doctor and was surprised to find out that my counts have actually gotten better!! I've been feeling shitty so I assumed they were looking worse. As it stands they went ffrom CD4-690 to a CD4 of-860,  and my VL is below 50~undectable. So I'm glad to hear that. They scheduled my induction for 12/4 Tuesday WHOOHOO!!!! ;D  The fat lady has sung and it will be all over soon!!

Well, I just wanted to check in and say hello. See how you ladies are doing and post a quick update. I have tons of work to catch up on before Tuesday and I'm trying to make sure everything in my house is in order since I'l be in the Hospital for about two days. Hope all is well with everyone. I'll try to post again before Tuesday.

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #46 on: November 30, 2007, 07:58:35 PM »
Good luck Momma!

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« Reply #47 on: November 30, 2007, 08:46:06 PM »
NY-- Sorry to hear you have been feeling bummed but chin up and PUUUUUSSSSHHHH!!!!!! ;D Glad to hear you are feeling better. Congrats on the great numbers and being undetectable. Good news indeed!!! I'm sure you have picked out a name for the little guy. We want details...birth weight and all that.

I am still in chill mode and watching wrestling with my roomie. Thank the Goddess that I am recording it... ;) Rico is coming over tomorrow. We talked today. He noticed that I was pissed off and was trying to be sweet. At the same time I was trying to do the same for him since he was being allowed to see his son after 5 days. My gf called him over since her sister's bf wasn't there. I guess the ex was being gracious today. ::)

My son did a drive by and stopped over to see me for about 2.5 minutes. Just long enough to pick up his support that his father pays. It was good to see that he was in one piece but I know if I need him he is just a phone call away.

Before I leave, I must acknowledge my COWBOYS!!!!! We are 11-1 after defeating Green Bay last night. We also took out their quarterback, Brett Farve. I like Brett though......Oooooh, my roomie left the room, I can finally watch the rest of Smackdown in peace.... ;)
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #48 on: November 30, 2007, 09:01:42 PM »
They cut into the game too much for commercials and the announcer or what ever they call the guy sucked.

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #49 on: December 01, 2007, 07:57:47 AM »
Good Morning Ladies  :-*

I have no clue to why I am up so freaking early. Maybe because I was high as a kite last night and was out like a light around 3 am. I told myself I was going to sleep in today since Rico will be over a little later this evening. Tonight's activities include some tequila and Corona. Wooo Hooooo. Even in moderation because I have never been one to get sloppy drunk, it looks to be a good evening. Plans include watching a little Beowulf and the Hitman.

I noticed it has been a little slow in here. I hope that means everyone is doing fine and just doing their thing. I guess I got part of the name right in this thread when I mentioned "loving life". After doing a wake and bake, I think I will lay back down and see if I can drift back to sleep for a few hours. Due to tonight's agenda, I prolly will not check back in til tomorrow. Hopefully, I won't have a hangover when I do. Have a good one.......
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #50 on: December 01, 2007, 08:01:49 AM »
Good morning ladies:

I agree with Queen, where is everyone?  Oh well, Queenie, I guess not everyone checks in as regular as we do.  That's alright.  I just feel like I'm missing something if I don't check in here every day.  And I've really grown to love the people on here and I want to know what's going on in their lives and if there's anything going on in my life, I know I can get support and answers here.  

Well, today is World AIDS Day.  I really don't know what to say except I'm pissed off at the local ASO, because they're not doing anything for it.  I'm like WTF! >:(  They used to have a rememberance kind of service in the past.  Every year it was at a different church.  Now, nothing.  I guess maybe I should start planning something for next year and try to get with some other HIV+ folks in the community instead of just bitching. I always say, better to get involved than to just stand around and bitch.  I remember when they brought part of the Quilt to Notre Dame 13 years ago.  It was really something to see.  The part that broke my heart were all the kids' and babies' panels.  I just found a book that I had bought there yesterday when I was in the basement.  So I brought it upstairs and I have been slowly reading through it and sometimes, shedding a few tears.  My mum started to make me a panel, but never finished it.  The mother's support group here finished it for her 13 years ago when I had the wasting syndrome and wasn't expected to make it.  I'm not sure who has it right now.  Anyway, I hope everyone is having an o.k. day and maybe a day of remembering and reflecting.  

Em, I'll tell my dad what I did, to let him know I'm still keeping my mum's memory alive.  He tried to give me some money yesterday for helping him, which was a whole ordeal in itself, but of course, I refused.  I understand things are tight for him.  I don't mind helping him but he's just so damn OCD, it can drive someone crazy.  It's gotten worse since my mum passed.  I think though that the death of someone really close can aggravate underlying conditions, be they medical or psychological.  

Cin, I hope you're resting well in between moving.  And eating and generally taking care of yourself.  How do you like his place?  I'm anxious to hear all about it.

Queen, I will be reading your blog either this morning or later today.  I'm looking foward to it.  

Drag, I hope your wrist heals well.  That must really suck.  I don't know what I'd do if that happened to me.  I broke one of my fingers when I was in grade school playing baseball and that majorly sucked.  I can't imagine a shattered wrist.  Ouch!

NY, OMG!  I am so excited!  Pretty soon we're going to have a little newborn baby among us.  Wow!  I know you must be doubly-excited.  I know you won't have much time to post when the baby comes, but please, please, at least post a birth announcement or something of that type so we know all the details!  

Anyway ladies, onward and upward.  Today I have to do a paper for my child & adolescent psychology class.  Other than that, nothing exciting happening.  Take care-
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #51 on: December 01, 2007, 09:01:43 AM »
Hi Betty... dont worry, my wrist is not literally shattered, just painful from too much computer work. I said i would rest so many times and never did. I really need a break to let it heal. On 12/12 I have an EMG scan, i am hoping they will find carpal tunnel syndrom, then I can actually have surgery to fix it. But I have to get them to agree first b/c the EMG is for the pain in my feet actually.

Have a good one everyone. Wherever you are. GOOD LUCK NY. You are one brave mama!
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #52 on: December 01, 2007, 10:19:11 AM »
Hi ladies. It's been a while since I checked in. Things have just been hectic lately. I went to the doc yesterday for my labs. She insisted on the flu shot. I have read all the threads here about getting one and not one of them said how much that MF'er hurts!! OMG! Anyway, my labs will be back next week. When I get them I will update. Have a great Saturday!
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #53 on: December 01, 2007, 03:08:22 PM »
Plans have changed....Rico is not coming over tonight. He was suppose to come over after visiting with his son but now his son will be staying with him overnight. I must admit that I am a bit disappointed but I know how much it means to him to have him overnight. This is a first for him but in the back of my mind, I am just thinking that the reason for this is prolly due to the ex and her man wanting to go out or something. Now I won't see Rico til Wednesday night..... :( But I still have a case of Coronas and the good green, so the night is not a total loss. I'll just be watching Beowulf alone.....

Confused-- Good to hear from you. The shot prolly hurt because you tensed up your arm when she gave it to you. I am kind of a pro on the shot thing since I get my depo every 3 months and notices when you tense up it hurts more. Or she didn't shoot you in the fleshy part of your arm.

Betty-- I am like you, I always check in here daily and usually more than a few times. I have gotten close to the ladies too. It saddens me when some tend to drift away for whatever reason. I have been working on my blog, I have 3 entries already. I am thinking of doing one today since I have plenty of time on my hands now. Plus, I am really enjoying doing it and have gotten some good comments. I think it will be good for me and will lead to me being more open about things.....

Well, I have already opened my first Corona.......Cheers, Ladies..... :-*
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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #54 on: December 01, 2007, 09:09:51 PM »
hey girls, still here and watching. love you all.

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« Reply #55 on: December 02, 2007, 12:06:48 AM »
I dunno why the shot hurt so much. I did like I always used to do. I didn't tense up. I didn't even look so I wouldn't see it coming and she did get me in the fleshy part. It just hurt. Its still tender today. I did depo for years and it never bothered me...go figure.
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #56 on: December 02, 2007, 06:58:20 AM »
Good morning ladies:CAM!  Long time, no hear!  How are you doing?  What have you been up to?  Now come on, you can't just check in without letting us know what's going on!  I miss your regular postings.
   Queen, I hope you're not too hung over today.  I understand your disappointment, but I'm sure Rico was thrilled to have his son with him overnight.  I'm glad you're blogging more.  I'm sure that will help with getting things out and getting good feedback.
Confused, I don't know why the shot hurt you so much.  I had my flu shot about a month ago, and it didn't hurt.  But, usually shots never hurt me.  If you didn't tense up and she got you in your fleshy part, I really don't know why it would hurt and still be hurting.  Hmmmmm.  Glad you got the shot though.  I think that's important for all us pozzies to do.

I wonder how Cin is doing helping Iceman organize his new home.  Girl, I hope things are going alright and you're not wearing yourself out too much. Other than that, I was wondering if anybody did anything yesterday (being that it was World AIDS Day).  The ASO here did nothing.  That really pisses me off.  They used to have memorial services at a different church every year.  I don't know why they had their fingers up their asses this year.  But I will let them know how I feel (toned down of course).  I saw Magic Johnson and his wife being interviewed.  My dad called me and told me that he saw Bush giving a speech and he also saw where they had part of the Quilt.  He asked me if I remembered going to see it years ago with him and my mum.  I told him of course I do.  About 13 years ago, Notre Dame had part of it displayed at this place called the Stepan Center on their campus.  It was really moving.  I remember the last day that they had it displayed, everyone took a candle and formed a circle around Stepan Center and there was a prayer that was said and I think we sang some song. 

Has anyone ever seen "And The Band Played On?"  That is probably my favorite movie about the early days of HIV/AIDS in the U.S.  I used to have a copy of it, but I don't know what happened to it over the years. I would like to track it down somewhere though and purchase it.  I miss terribly all the friends I've lost to this damn virus.  Although I have a good support system, no one can take the places of them.  I haven't been to a service for someone who died from AIDS in a little over a year, which is a lot different than what it used to be.  But, people are still dying.  I wish, oh how I wish, that I would see a story on the news about a cure being found.  With all the money these drug companies make, there should have been a cure a long time ago.  Anyway.......

I don't have a whole lot going on today myself.  I'm going to a get-together this afternoon of some of us ladies in Narcotics Anonymous.  I hope everything goes well, as a couple of the women have been fueding lately.  If they start again today, I'm leaving.  I don't like to be around fighting today.  I got all my homework done Friday and yesterday, so I'm covered in that area.   I hope all you ladies have a good day-
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #57 on: December 02, 2007, 09:49:45 AM »
Hi GFs~

Totally exhausted, spent last night at Iceman's for the first time.  We went to Walmart 2x yesterday for stuff.  On a Saturday.  During Christmas season.  I never even go to Walmart on a Saturday normally.  I try to go when no one is there.  My back was absolutely killing me last night.  I haven't lifted anything heavy, but with my fibromyalgia, just being on my feet a lot sends my lower back into searing, burning pain.  I'm better today.  Cheech got to come over last night and stay with us at the new place, too.  There's a long fenced yard, so he is happy.

I miss all of you, I hate not having time to read and respond.  Perhaps tonight I'll get a chance, if not, then tomorrow after my first day at work.

NY, good luck with being induced Tues!  BT, Queen, Drag, Cristy, Cam, Confused, Tendai, Sun, Win, all my GFs, more soon!   :-*

~ Cindy

P.S. - Queen crackin' a Corona at 3pm?  Girl!  You gonna be on lots of insulin, be careful!   ;D
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #58 on: December 02, 2007, 03:53:54 PM »
Sorry, I didn't have a chance to update yesterday. Rico did end up coming over after all. I guess his son got to missing his mommy so he sent him back. After his phone call saying he wasn't coming, I had drank the first Corona,got dressed and went to CVS. I didn't take my phone. While at CVS, I had to show the pharmacy that I had switched insurances and pick up some prescriptions. After doing that, I was walking around the store picking up a few things. By the time I place everything on the counter and turned around, Rico was there. I was surprised and happy. When I made it back to my place, the first Corona had hit me along with about 4 doobies so I had to lay down for about 45 minutes. When I drink Coronas, I usually space them out due to my diabetes but I had slammed the first one due to thinking Rico wasn't coming....

We, roomie included, ordered some chinese last night before we got to drinking the tequila. I had one shot, they had 2. I know my limitations... ;D Of course that meant with doing the shots, I had to have the lemon/lime along with the salt. From that point on, I was had a nice buzz going thus was feeling quite warm and fuzzy. ;D Let's just say it turned out to be a nice night.

And waking up today was just as nice being snuggled up in Rico's arms all morning and part of the afternoon. He has now made it a habit to turn his phone off when he comes here. After he left, I knocked off the rest of the chinese from last night and have just been chilling. I will more than likely spend the rest of the day relaxing by playing my computer game and doing a bit of blogging. I'll more than likely will go to bed early because tomorrow is another hectic day of paying bills.

Cindy--- Good of you to check in. I hope you are taking it easy today after all that moving. Glad Cheech like the new surroundings.

Cam--- Good to see you peek in, girlie. How have you been?

NY-- I'm counting down..... ;D

Betty--- Nope, I didn't have a hangover but Rico did. I know when to say when.... ;D Has never liked the feeling of being drunk but a good buzz isn't bad along with the good green... ;)

Confused--- I did get a flu shot that didn't hurt when she shot me but the area was sore for a few days. I breeze through the depo shots too. All I ask the nurse is which side this time.... ;D

I hope you all have a good day.... :-*
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #59 on: December 02, 2007, 07:21:44 PM »
Hi ladies:

Cin, I hope you're feeling alright.  And good luck on the new job tomorrow!  I hope everything goes alright.  Please let us know how everything goes! 

Queen, when I used to drink/take drugs, the only reason I saw for drinking alcohol was to be drunk.  That was just my philosophy.  I couldn't smoke marijuana after smoking it for several years because it made me extremely paranoid.   They say that the pot today has a higher level of THC in it and is stronger.  I don't know, I don't do anything anymore anyway.  I hope you have a good evening though and are resting and recuperating after seeing Rico. ;)

Today was just a normal Sunday.  I went to church, came home, ate a little lunch and took a nap.  I did rent a couple movies and tonight I'm going to watch (for the umpteenth time) "And The Band Played On."  I'm sure I'll get angry and sad all over again.  It's a wonderful movie for those of you who haven't seen it.  I hope you ladies have a nice evening-
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« Reply #60 on: December 03, 2007, 04:46:02 AM »
hie ladies

i hope u all had a great weekend.
Queen - nice to see things with Rico going so well ;). And congrats on the blog girl.
Cindy - are u sure your backache wasnt only due to the fibrowhatsit? methinks Iceman had contributions towards that ;D
Betty - hows the non-smoking going?
Drag - i hope your arm is better. u gon learn to be a one armed bandit till u get it fixed.  ;D is your voice-reg back?
NY- tomorrows the day right. i'm so excited for you. i hope all goes well. the final countdown...

i went for a wedding on saturday. remember the difficult friend i once wrote about? his uncle/cousin and wife were the ones getting wedded, the ones i stayed with a couple of months. they were married traditionally a few years ago, this was the white wedding. anyway the wedding was great. beautiful venue.  they were set up on top of a swimming pool thats where they made their vows. of course the bride looked beautiful, (is there such a thing as an ugly bride i wonder).  the groom looked liked like a cuddly teddy bear. the bridesmaids were all pretty. the groomsmen , well... ::).  One of the bridesmaids was dancing a bit too vigorously with her big hips and her skirt bust the zip and she had to dance holding it for a while till she gave up and went off to fix it. (think it was Hips dont lie they were dancing to) :D
it was great , i think they got over $2bn as well as forex. no eligible single men there though. bugger.
i got home about 8pm tried to sleep. then my old ex-ish called me saying he wanted to see me "just to talk and maybe watch a movie". yeah right
he came over but i was so tired i fell asleep. then around 1am theres this knocking at the gate and honking and he wakes me up. i go to the gate chop-chop before my landlord wakes up.
theres coppers at the gate.
"whose car is this, why is it outside, u know theres been breakins lately around here? u'll give us work when u find your car stripped or robbed. etc etc."
he just apologised and they said they wanted money "for a quart (of beer)". he absolutely refused. said he didnt have any money and the money that was in the car was his uncles who is a colonel in the army.
"so lets go to the station then". they said
he said fine lets go and they got into their cars. i scarpered off back inside. he called me a few minutes later and said the coppers said that they had "some other business to attend to" and let him go. ::)
He says he makes it a point never to give coppers money. I think he relies on dropping his uncles name around so they dont pursue things. The day he meets some hard headed officers is the day he will cough up. no point sleeping in a jail cell or wasting time at the police station  when a little grease money will make them leave u alone.
thats my weekend.  my boss is away for TWO WEEKS so i wont be coming to work everyday. woo hooo!
have a wonderful day y'all :-*



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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #61 on: December 03, 2007, 07:33:19 AM »
Good morning ladies:

Tendai, WTF?  The cops wanted money from your ex?  Wow, what a bunch of slicksters!  Are they all like that there (the cops)?  And if someone doesn't pay up, they put them in jail?  Wow.  I'm still not smoking.  It's been a couple weeks now.  I've been exercising a little.  Nothing major, just some yoga.  I'm glad to see you checking in.  Sounds like the wedding was nice.  No, I've never seen an ugly bride. 

I hope the rest of you are doing alright.  It snowed here last night; they're warning people out driving on the news this morning.  I was going to get snow tires on my car, but with the recent expense it cost me to get it fixed, there was no way I could afford it.  Oh well, it's a big car (Ford Crown Victoria), so I suppose if I get a sandbag or something and throw it in the trunk (it's rear-wheel drive) it will help.  Other than that, nothing really going on here.  I hope all you ladies have a good one-
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« Reply #62 on: December 03, 2007, 08:32:55 AM »
Hi all! Just checking in. Not much is going on here. Same old, same old. Have a good day!

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« Reply #63 on: December 03, 2007, 10:37:05 AM »
I've never seen an ugly bride. 

I have. Ever watched Bridezilla?

my wrist is killing me.... otherwise nothing new. Had a good weekend. Just quiet but good.

It seems to be this time of the year when not much is happening. No news good news. Tendai i am glad youre getting time off. Queen I am glad you're getting off [;D ;D this was irresistable]. Betty I'm just glad you're off the nasty old smokes. And Cammie, I always wanted a Great Dane. I love any kinda dog actually. Moon, hope you're sleeping the cramps off. Does Ice know how rough this was on you?

All the best to everyone, Viv, Cristy, NY [tomorrow???], Confused, Sara, Sherry [you're a brave woman, looks like karma's on your side]
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #64 on: December 03, 2007, 12:24:48 PM »
Hi ladies,

Dragonette~ Rest the wrist!! :'(

Betty~ i feel your pain! It snowed where I am too. I hate the snow but it's hard to avoid driving in it unless you have no life. Just go slow and be careful. Oh and I have seen an ugly bride up close and personal. haha. Thats all I'll say about that!

Tendai~ Enjoy your relaxing two weeks at work, or lack of.  ;D  I wish I has a boss that went away for weeks on end. Unfortunatly theres ALWAYS a boss at my job.

As for the rest of you I hope your all staying warm and doing well. Tomorrow is the big day for me. I don't go in until the evening, not sure why they scheduled it that way but I'm not gonna question it. MM is in route here as we speak. Things are a little less tense between us, so I'll just take it for what it is. Worse case senerio I have a beautiful new swing (one of the newest models I love it) New stroller, car seat and a few other goodies thanks to him. Even if he is a jerk, he helped out so I must give credit where credit is due. And I guess he did keep his word about being here for the birth of the baby. So I won't bitch, since I'm on a quest to maintain peace. Today will be very busy, taking care of last minute things. Then I hope to get some sleep, I was up all night last night doing school work.

As for disibility still getting the damn run around. Still frustrated. I contacted a supervisor at DSS to see if I could finaly get some damn help and she told me she would have a worker call me with an apt. That hasn't happened so I'll give them until tomorrow before I call in the AM and bitch, again. The ASO has been in touch but really hasn't done much to help yet. Mostly gathering info. I called them today to inform them that I REALLY NEED HELP ASAP!!! Hopefully they get on the ball.

Well, I'm out for now. I'll try to check in again tomorrow. If not I'll have pics of my new baby boy when i get back.




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« Reply #65 on: December 03, 2007, 12:56:50 PM »
actually after typing this i made a couple other longer posts here. i dont know why, i feel very emotional, tis that time o the month... so i post to let it out. problem is there is always something to write on in these forums. i am having pain in my eyes too, but since they have been checked 2 weeks ago and the doc said there is absolutely nothing wrong, what can i do? it took me months to schedule that appt. the system here is really really slow and beaurocratic.

i am working on a computer all the time, i try to pace myself re posting not to add to it. i will rest from tomorrow. That's a promise.

I don't know if when Queen gave the title to this thread she thought of giving birth but it sure gives a new meaning to Love's Labor. i found out yesterday a friend of mine's pregnant and she has been trying for ages. i really want this too, but there is a part of me that doesnt even dare to hope for all that. maybe that's why i'm so emotional. things have been amazing with my BF lately. and it can be overwhelming, in a good way, but overwhelming. like i will have all those horrible memories of the past flood me, things i havent thought about in years. or fear that something could go wrong. how stupid is that? Do you know what I mean? I wonder if Cindy has the same. dont get me wrong i am not whining here, at all.

NY, I wish you an easy birth (insofar as it can be easy). MM had better be good, but you can't worry about him now. Just you are important. I will be thinking of you tomorrow in particular. Big hug & the best of luck to you & Baby!
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #66 on: December 03, 2007, 03:08:33 PM »
It has been snowing off and on here too. The wind is what makes it so bad. I went out for a moment, to get money so I could pay bills. And like every month I am flat broke. At least I don't have to worry about anything being cut off. But I am also trying to squirrel away some money.

I am still coughing like crazy but I think the Mucinex is breaking up the flem. Lucifer is perched on my lap as I write this which is not normal, he usually is chasing Polly around. Oh now he wants to stretch out on my laptop with his paw on the keyboard. This would make a good picture. I think I better start keeping my webcam close by. I have also noticed that he has put all his fur on my nice black shirt. Now I am going to have to change....

Now remember to breathe NY and PUUUUUUSSSSHHHHH. You know the drill. It's good to see MM stepping up even if the steps are small ones. It means progress. Sorry you are having such a time with your ASO....Damn my phone rang and it was my ASO, how weird is that? But keep on them.

Dragonette--- I know how you feel when it comes to things going so well. It's like you're waiting for something bad to happen so you can say I knew it...Since things are going so well, if it ain't broke, don't fix it..... ;)
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« Reply #67 on: December 04, 2007, 07:32:24 AM »
Good morning ladies:

Today's the day for you, NY.  I can't wait.  I'm holding my breath!  Pretty soon we will have a new baby boy among us, wow!

Queen, I see you've got one of those dinosaur eggs in your sig line.  I saw Jaser's thread about them.  Do you know when it's supposed to hatch? 

Today we're supposed to get more snow.  In fact, it's supposed to be snowing on and off all week.  Glad the repairs on my car are done.  Or at least, I think they are.  I'm going to get my usual labs done today.  So in a couple weeks I should have some numbers to report.  I hope they're good.   My algebra teacher e-mailed everyone in class the final.  OMG, it's so long.  I don't remember how to do all of the problems, so I will have to look back to see.  It will surely take me a long time to do.  Please keep me in your thoughts.  Still no smoking, though.  Hopefully this final won't drive me back to it. :D 

Other than that, my pop is hanging in there.  I hope he makes it through Christmas.  My sister put his X-mas tree up and he told her it didn't seem right to have the tree up without my mum. :'(  But my sis assured him mum would've wanted him to have it up.  This is such a difficult holiday for me, I can't imagine what it's like for him.   I hope all you ladies have a good day-
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« Reply #68 on: December 04, 2007, 08:04:51 AM »
(((Betty)))

I really feel your pain. I wish there was something I could do.

other than that, what I forgot to write yesterday, I am not happy with you not having snow chains. I have very limited expereince driving on snow but it was very scary. Please be careful. Can't you get 2nd hand chains or something like that? why do people have to get new ones every year? do they wear out? sorry this must be a dumb question...

I'm exahusted. I didn't sleep for who knows how many nights like a good solid sleep. It's my feet, I have to leave them out of the blanket even when it's freezing b/c they have all sorts of wierd feeling and aches. I get an EMG scan next week for that. When it's not my feet it's my stomach on the PIs, luckily I sleep alone otherwise I am not so sure my BF could still find the farting toad version of me attractive  ;D.

I told my boss I'm taking the day off tomorrow. I have a lot of issues with my bosses, mostly about copyright stuff (stealing my ideas). But I'll give them one thing, they are very kind when it comes to my health. I told my boss everything about the resistance issue and how I had to fight with the hospital. I have the best conditions at work, even have my own room alone when my collegues share 2, 3, 4 and even 5 a room. That's not thanks to my bosses but to the kindness of the administrative staff, who don't know what's wrong with me but know that something is. I also get a massage twice a week from my phisiotherapist, and I get my supplements on my insurance, all of these things that I am very doubtful I could get anywhere else. Even with all these great perks, and coming and leaving work whenever I want and basically setting my own schedule, it's so hard, that I have no idea how people maintain a normal job. We have people here on the forums who are nurses, teachers, flight attendants, business people that have to fly and keep all kinds of crazy schedules. Tough jobs even when you're completely healthy. Not to mention people who have to waitress or work in some giant retail outlet for tough conditions. I don't know how they do that cos I am worn out... I just hope and pray that I will always have convenient jobs like this one. I didn't always have such white collar jobs, I started working in a megastore witth 14 hour shifts and up to 2 years ago I was still doing chambermaid work here in Holland a few days a week for extra $, but I have had it so easy most of my adult life with my employment compared to most people. Some people work hard for a lot of money and some people work a hard for a little money. I always work a little for a little money, which will prob not be enough when I have kids but is just OK for now. For now that's the only way I can have it... I don't have the feeling anymore that I can do everything. Even on my own job I tend to F up, forgetting things and the like.   

Anyway that was 2 breathless minutes about employment and HIV...

Betty, when you are craving that cigarette over your final, just repeat to yourself "my life is not in danger". I read this somewhere, that when we have a challenge or something stressful, our psyche, or the deep primitive part of our brain, responds just like it would 10,000 years ago if we were confronted with a lion in the wilderness or something. So even though your newer brain knows that it's just a paper for school and what's the worse that could happen, your inner brain which is in charge of your feelings drives you nuts. And it said, that you have to speak to your inner brain in simple repetetive language, even stating the obvious, b/c that's the way to calm it down.

Today is the first day of Hannukah and when I was diagnosed it was also that time although it is in a different date every year, what I remember is that as this is the holiday of miracles my parents and I were praying for a miracle, meaning a wrong result. That was such a sad time. But I did get my miracle and I continue to get it even if I have been diagnosed. I will not be doing anything, but tomorrow we celebrate sinterklaas (Dutch holiday giving presents instead of on xmas) with some Dutch friends and others.

~NY, you probabaly will not be reading this, but I am thinking of you and your little miracle!~

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #69 on: December 04, 2007, 09:53:48 AM »
Hello ladies. I am well. Been reading but not posting much.                    NY, best of luck with the induction. So glad that MM is helping and I cannot wait to see the pictures of your beautiful son. ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D            Queen, hope you get to feeling better.                                             Betty, sorry about your dad. Hang in there lady and keep being there like you are.                                                                        Not much going on here. I am working a lot this week.I am also talking to a interesting guy in Maryland. I am also messaging a couple In NC(where they came from all the sudden , I have no idea) and I went to see my work friend Sunday. He had surgery so we went to cheer him up but I don't want to date him, just be his friend.                                                                                              My oldest got out of jail Thursday and I went and got him and took him to the Shelter. He is not allowed here so I did what I could for him. He has already gotten a job and I sent him paperwork yesterday so he can get his picture ID. I think he is better off in Greensboro since there is nothing out here anyway.    Anyway, hope everyone is well. I will check back  later.      Cristy

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #70 on: December 04, 2007, 12:05:39 PM »
I hope everyone is having a good day thus far. Not to worry, I am doing fine. Still coughing, surprised I haven't coughed up a lung yet... ;D I'm just laying in the bed and waiting on WoW (World of WarCraft) to finish downloading so I can start playing. I guess I have been seeing too many of the commercials with Mr. T and William Shatner so now I want to play. You get a 10 day free trial but I went ahead and ordered the game. I should have it by Friday or Wednesday the latest. I guess you can say it was my Christmas gift to myself. I thought I would be able to give some gifts this year but there were too many bills...I still am trying to get my car up and running.

I am a bit frustrated with Rico. What else is new, right? I'm not going to get into the details here. I cracked open a bottle of Arbor Mist(Sangria), blazed up a blunt and blogged about it last night. If you want to know what's going on then you will have to go check out my blog. No, I'm not plugging my blog, it's just that I don't feel like writing it all here. That's a lot of typing... ;D

I have officially gone into hibernation just like the bears... :D We've been getting hit with a lot of snow as of late. For the most part it has gone away but it snowed last night and it seems to be sticking. The temp has been like in the high 20's to low 30's. When it gets to be like this I don't come out of my house unless it is necessary. I may end up having to cancel my doctor's appointment next week but will see if he needs me to get any kind of blood work done. I am talking about my primary doctor not my ID doctor. I don't see the ID doc til January. Since both primary and ID doc works with each other when one of them sees me they usually send a report to the other stating results of whatever tests they ordered. I just got my A1C done in October, so I don't think there really is a reason to see my primary.

Christy, it seems like you got a little bit going on in your world.Your oldest is out, huh? I hope he has learned something since being locked up. Time will tell. How is your baby doing? Good, I hope. So, what is going on with the guy in Maryland? Does it sound promising or is it too early to tell? Good Luck with that but keep us in the loop.....

Betty, Yeah it took me forever to get my eggy. In order for it to hatch, you have to click on it, so please click on my eggy ladies or my baby will die. I haven't thought of a name for it yet. I'm think it is suppose to hatch in 7 days. I got to get with Jaser on the details. He has 4 now. Matty the Damned has 2.

Speaking of hatching, I am so excited for NY. She will be having her baby today or is it they are breaking her water today? I hope she doesn't be in labor long and little man co-operates. That's it for me........

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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #71 on: December 04, 2007, 06:47:41 PM »
Good evening ladies-

Where the hell has Cin been?  Giving a shout-out to you girl, hope you're doing alright.

Queen, I clicked on your eggys.  They're going to hatch in 6 days?  I got myself a couple presents also.  I got a new winter coat and some boots.  Actually, the boots are really nice (snow boots) and I got them really cheap on Sierra Trading Post's website.  The coat I got at Wal-Mart's website.  Uh-oh, I said that word (Wal-Mart).  I really don't advocate shopping there, because they're so evil to their employees.  But I needed something that wasn't expensive. 

Cristy, you've done all you can for your son.  He's got to do something for himself now.  I wish him luck.

Drag, were you talking to me about the snowchains?  We can't use them here in Indiana.  They're illegal.  My brother used to live in Alaska and he said they were mandataory there.  Frankly, I don't see how anyone could live in Alaska.   It does sound like you have a very accomodating employer.  Be thankful for that, I guess.  As far as your feet are concerned, have they ruled out PN (peripheral neuropathy)?  It sounds like you might have that.  I'm no doctor, so don't take that as an official diagnosis; I was just wondering.  My feet used to bother me terribly and I have PN.  I'm on medication for it now, so it's better.  I hope they find out what's wrong with yours. 

I wonder if NY has had her boy yet.  Queen, I think they were just supposed to induce labor.  Hopefully we'll get some news soon.  This is exciting!  Other than that, I had some labs done today, so I should have some results (CD4, viral load, cholesterol, A1C etc.) in a couple weeks.  I see the doctor in January, but I always request copies of my labs.  I guess the lab for the diabetes (A1C) was not good, because his nurse called me this afternoon and told me to increase my Insulin.  OK.  I know I need to eat better.  I'm going to after the holidays.  I just can't right now.  Speaking of eating, I got the ingredients I'll need to make cookies and fudge.  I'm going to make 3 different kinds of cookies, and 2 different kinds of fudge.  My daughter in Washington wants me to send some to her.  So I might try that.  Maybe I'll get baking this weekend.  I'm just so fearful that if I make everything too early, I'll end up eating it all.  Ugh!

Other than that, nothing exciting.  I hope you ladies have a good evening!
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #72 on: December 04, 2007, 07:14:08 PM »
Ooooh you making fudge, huh? How about some special brownies??? Oh wait, no you can't. Sorry about that, I wasn't thinking. I'm a little off my game today so to speak. I think it is finally over with me Rico...For good this time. I spoke to my friend who hooked us up and she was telling me a few things via text messaging. One of her messages I forwarded to Rico's phone. All of a sudden my phone starts ringing and of course it is Rico. I didn't even bother answering, I just listened to the voicemails. I sent him a few text messages to which there was no response so I pretty much got my answer. I am just numb about now. I cracked open the other bottle of Arbor Mist.....2 tears in bucket, motherfuck it.....Cheers.....Life goes on....

I think I am going to have to download my game again...Grrrrr....it said I didn't have enough memory so I took out a few things. Oh gee, there goes the phone again....It's Rico...Can we all say IGNORE....Anyhoo, hopefully the game will download now. If not then I will have to keep taking things off.

Oh man, Rico left me another voicemail...Let me go listen to it...UGH.....I will chat you ladies later....
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #73 on: December 05, 2007, 05:56:07 AM »
Hi GFs~

Just checking in so you don't worry.  Work has been OK, I passed my training course yesterday on the second try, taking an online test.  For some of the girls it took all afternoon, but I helped quiz one Latino girl and she ended up going from a 73% to a 97%, better than any of us!  I felt good about helping her, she's only been in the states for 3 years.

Work is kinda boring, with coding and data entry, we are still in our training room, but Friday I think we go out on the floor and start doing real work, processing claims.  My recruiter, PPP, still has her head jammed up her ass in Texas, I emailed her yesterday about the timesheet procedure, just to get the ball rolling.  Glad I did, she said I would have to call my hours in on Friday.  I better not get her voice mail, cause it always cuts me off.

Its been a very exhausting 2 days, with things to do each day after work, that and all of the wind howling here made it tough to get around.  Its finally calmed down, but they are calling for snow today, only 4 inches, but everyone is freaking out, lol.  I have my Liberty, and I will get around OK.

Wish I could write more and respond to each of you individually, but I am running late to work.  Betty, I am thinking of you and your father, NY I am hoping you've had your baby and are feeling some relief, Drag I am jealous you get to celebrate holidays so early in the month when I still have to wait, Cristy I hope you're OK with your son being let out now.

Oh, and my neighbor next door informed me his Chevy Impala was stolen from his parking spot right next to mine on Monday night.  Shit like that just doesn't happen around here, but....he got the car back, found some juvies with it at the local Walmart, found drugs in the car.  Fry their little asses, I say.

Iceman and I have seen each other every day since Thursday.  I'll go to his place tonight if I'm not exhausted.  I worry about getting to work late tomorrow, with his place 20 miles down the road.....

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #74 on: December 05, 2007, 06:52:26 AM »
Good morning ladies:

Oh Queenie, I am sorry about things with Rico.  I was hoping things would work out.  But you know best.   And no, I can't make special brownies.  Like I said before though, even when I was using drugs, I quit smoking pot a long time ago because of it making me so paranoid.  When my mum was in her last days I did, however, threaten to make her some of those brownies. :D 

Cin, I'm glad you checked in.  That's nice that you helped that girl with the test.  Just don't take on too much at once with the new job, Iceman etc.  I know you know how to take care of yourself, though. 

I wonder if NY has had her little boy yet.  I'll be anxiously waiting to hear from her. 

We got snow here, and are supposed to be getting it all day.  Oh well, I only have to go to class tonight.  I might go to Kroger's and get a couple bags of that rock salt and put some down around here so the mailman doesn't break his neck. :o  Things can get kind of slippery. I'll probably put the other one in the trunk for extra weight, since my car is rear-wheel drive.  I brought the snow shovel up from down the basement, and might have to use that before the day is over.  It's supposed to snow on and off all week.  *sings It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas*        I hope you ladies have a good day and to those of us in the North, stay safe!
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #75 on: December 05, 2007, 10:00:37 AM »
Yep, the snow is falling here too. I'd say we got a few inches and it is here to stay. I gotta go to the pharmacy and pick up my Atripla today. I hate not having any transportation but the pharmacy is only around the corner. Since the snow is here and it looks like it is going to get worse before it gets better, I think it's better I not drive anyway.....

I am still numb in regards to Rico. I am sure it will wear off after awhile. I just don't get men. They say they want a good woman but when there is one right in front of them......In his case, he'd rather be with someone who has dogged him in the past and has another man. Go figure...But that's just my luck, I never seem to have a good track record with men. Back to the drawing board, I guess. This time I will be accepting applications from poz men only. It'll just make things a whole lot easier....*sighs*....

It's good to hear from you, Cindy. Are you liking the training so far? Kind of sounds like you are bored already and can't wait to move on. I think it was nice of you to help the girl out too. Take it easy and be careful out there in this weather going back and forth.

I wonder if NY had her boy yet too. I hope she isn't having a long labor. I guess we will just have to wait til she comes home. Prolly be this weekend.

I think I am going back to bed for a few more hours. I don't know what's up with me getting up at such ungodly hours. I guess I just got stuff on my mind. Talk with you ladies later on....
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #76 on: December 05, 2007, 02:07:30 PM »
HEy ladies, Just checking in..2 more days till im 31...hmmph..GOd is good...Nothing going on here with me..just hating the cold weather , working and coming home to get in the bed (after feeding the kids of course)..I HATE WINTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...BF is goin thru stuff with his baby mama, so he is a lil distracted..i try to mind mines when it comes to that cus i am a baby mom too so i understand....man Queen i could use some Tequila and a Corona right about now...how far are u from trenton?..lmao,,Peace everyone...ill be on tomorrow... ::)
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #77 on: December 05, 2007, 02:39:47 PM »
Wishful, Girl, I got a gallon of Jose Cuervo and about 14 Coronas left. The tequila isn't even half way gone yet. I can hang on to stuff like that for awhile because no one comes to visit that often and I don't drink that often. Not the hard stuff anyway. I have knocked off the small bottle of Arbor Mist Sangria on Sunday and cracked open the bigger bottle yesterday. I had about 2 glasses then. That's a bit of drinking for me so I will prolly chill now and not touch anything til closer to New Years Eve. It is also my roomie's birthday....

I finally got my World of Warcraft to download so I will probably lose myself in that for a few hours. I still have to go pick up my Atripla which I am putting off because I know it is cold as hell out there. When I finally go do that then I will just come back in and chill for the rest of the night. And try not to think about Rico which will be hard because this is usually one of the nights he comes over and stays the night. *sighs*
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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #78 on: December 05, 2007, 06:30:27 PM »
Hi Queen~

I'm sorry about the crap with Rico.  I apologize for not saying anything in my previous post, but I hadn't read your blog yet, I was running late to work  ;D  Are you sure about everything that's going on?  I know you are close with your friend, but from what you posted in your blog, it sounds like you never spoke to Rico directly, even if it was to get the truth from him and then ream his ass out.  Just want to make sure you aren't jumping to conclusions just bec of what your friend passed along to you.

It snowed 4 inches here today, more than anywhere else in the DC Metro area.  I didn't go to Iceman's tonight, I am too exhausted and didn't want to be out on the road with the morons who can't respect other drivers.

Cheech is SO happy to see the snow!  He leaps around in it, does a vertical jump and bucks like a bronco, he is nuts!  He loves the cold weather and so do I!

Iceman is going to get me some rock-bottom prices on Yokohama tires for the Liberty and he said he would even put them on my Jeep himself on a Saturday.  He just keeps getting better every time I talk to him!  He is a real sweetheart.

My mother pissed me off Monday night.  It was a rough evening, after my first day at work, and it also would've been my little Casie's 15th birthday, so this was the first "birthday" that she wasn't here for ever since I got her in June '93.  Anyway, Mom says that Dad said he is "tired of meeting all of my BFs...."   >:(  What?!?!?  Dad has a very good head on his shoulders, while Mom is a nut, sitting home, conjuring shit up in her spare time and passing it along the family grapevine.  We take her words with a grain of salt, but still what she said about Dad hurt.  #1) because it was Mom's idea for she and Dad to meet Iceman soon, #2) because she prob twisted Dad's words before relaying them to me, #3) because it seems that one or both of them has/have little faith in my choice of men, and lastly #4) um, they have only met 4 guys that I have dated, say it with me, "FOUR" since David died in 1996.  "Yeah, that's a lot of BFs, people."  Gimme a break.  I have a good mind to cancel the "Meeting the Rents" rendez-vous for 12/15 just cause my mother has pissed me off, its a busy time of year and I have only known Iceman 6 weeks myself, so why do they need to meet him so soon?  Cause Mom WANTS to.  She can be so fucking nosey.  I have a good mind to cancel, I tell you, just because I CAN.  Hmph!   :D

OK, done venting, time to go get dinner and shower tonight, so I'm not late to work tomorrow.  Everyone stay warm, and lock your doors!

More soon, I miss you all, GFs.  Bear with me as I transition back into the working world and get my schedule straight.

Wishful, Happy Birthday to you for Friday, is it Pearl Harbor Day on Friday, or is that on 12/6?

~ Cindy
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #79 on: December 05, 2007, 10:11:00 PM »
Cindy...I can't see my friend making it up that he has been to her house begging her sister to get back with him especially since she is the one who hooked us up. I also gave my friend's bf the 3rd degree about the situation when he came over. His take on it is that Rico really likes me but being a man he can't stand to see his ex with someone else.... Then I find out him and the ex has been divorce for 4 years so that tells me he has been trying to get back with her since then. What I do know from Rico is that he likes me that much is obvious but his actions show me otherwise. Why should I have to wait on him to get over his ex? And he sure as hell can't love us both. I haven't heard anything from him today but I wasn't sitting by my phone waiting on him to call either. My friend asked me if I heard from him since she hasn't and I told her no. I can only be so understanding....And what about my feelings? It seems like he is not even considering mine in all this....Oh well....

If I was you, I wouldn't even take Iceman to meet your parents. If they ask why plans have changed then tell your father what your mother said. Of course, we miss hearing from you but understands that you are working again. Keep us posted when you can....

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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #80 on: December 05, 2007, 10:24:15 PM »
Queen~  That does sound messed up about Rico, and its been 4 years since they split?  He needs to wise up and let her go.  Life has been passing him by and now look, he has no one.  Its a shame that you liked him so damn much and that his mind had to be wandering elsewhere, I am so sorry.  Hey, at least you had some good times with him, like I did with Stone, and then when shit got weird, it ended.  Some things weren't meant to be, you know?

As far as Iceman meeting the 'Rents, I am really thinking about cancelling.  Mom said she wanted she and Dad to meet him "first" before the entire family did at Christmas.  I agree with her on that, but who said I was bringing him to my Aunt's for Christmas?  I feel obligated to go to my Aunt's for Christmas because I missed last year, being with Doofus up in that half done log home in the mountains.....I dunno, I don't look forward to get togethers as much since my brother is away fighting the war.

I just may tell Mom that 12/15 doesn't work cause Iceman is putting new tires on my Jeep, and who knows about Christmas.  I want to be with Iceman, my mother is pissing me off, trying to run the show all of the time.  She needs to butt out sometimes.  I'm a big girl, I can do what I want.  But I am torn, still.......Crap.

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #81 on: December 06, 2007, 04:56:34 AM »
Hola chikas

a very quick one b/c it's 11 and havent started work yet.

Queen, that sucks about Rico... it's so complicated. I would be quietly licking my wounds too. i don't like competition. i really feel for you.

but, i didn't know he is 31, that's a big age gap. you need someone mature whose done with the bs.

my wrist hurts so much, can hardly type this. will try later
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #82 on: December 06, 2007, 07:15:14 AM »
Good morning ladies:

Queen, kick that boy to the curb.  I wouldn't be with someone who wasn't over their ex- either.  I'm really sorry that it didn't work out.  But I'm glad you found out now instead of later. 

Cin, I wouldn't take him to meet your parents on the 15th either.  Your mom sounds like a real fruitcake.  Maybe you should talk with your father about what she had to say.  And then confront her.  Or maybe you've tried that before and it doesn't make a difference.  I'm really sorry about your bro not being around right now.  You would think that our lame-ass president would not want to keep this damn war up with all the lost lives and the trillions it costs to keep it going.  You must be terribly proud of your brother.  I'll keep him in my prayers. 

Wishful, happy birthday.  Hey, 31 is still young.  Wait 'till you get to be my age (42).  I just noticed this hideous wrinkle I've got by my lips.  I feel like I need botox or whatever it is that people get to reduce the wrinkles.  Of course, I won't be getting it, unless I can convince Medicare that it's medically necessary. :D 

Well, only a couple more classes to go and I'm done for the semester!  I can't believe it.  You know, having classes run for eight weeks makes them a lot tougher than if we had a full 15 week semester, but it also makes them go by a lot quicker!  I can't believe algebra is almost over-*raises the coffee cup in a toast*    I don't know what I'm going to do in my time off.  I was thinking about contacting the ASO here and seeing if they need any volunteers.  That would at least give me something to do.  And I can use it on my resume when I graduate. 

Well, everyone take care and be careful out in the snow!
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #83 on: December 06, 2007, 07:58:58 AM »
Hello, ladies. Not much going on here. Took Robert to the doctor yesterday but he is fine. Mommy just gets nervous when he is sick. Tried to see my oldest son yesterday but was not willing to hang around the shelter with my baby so we left. I let him have it when he called for making us wait.  And haven't heard back from him yet.  Oh well, we will not go out of our way again.                                                  Queen, sorry about Rico but I think you are making the right decision. I read your blog, love it,  and you did right to make the choice for him.                      The man I was talking to in Maryland had potential but I don't know if it will go anywhere. and the others from  NC message once, then you never hear from them again. Fuck it, I hate feeling like I am chasing someone so I won't.   Oh, well, got work so I will check in later.  Cristy

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #84 on: December 06, 2007, 09:50:33 PM »
Queen - I havent read your blog but I get the notion that Rico likes you when it is convienient for him. Thats a suck ass position to be in but there are plenty of women who will put up with it thinking they cant do any better or that he reallllllly loves me.
You deserve to be numero uno....

Cindy - I dont think I would subject the Iceman to family drama this soon in the relationship.

I cant recall the lady's name who is expecting the baby but I'm thinking of her and hope she and the baby are well.

Its been a long day of shuffling around the old man I do caretaking for.  He is mentally exhausting but it pays well and I know him real well and have enough patience to deal with him for the most part.  He's like a giant pubescent boy who eats too much, curses too often and cant remember anything important but remembers everything you wish he'd forget. LOL

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #85 on: December 06, 2007, 10:17:41 PM »
Hello ladies. I hope everyone has had a great day.

Cindy, I agree with everyone else about meet the parents day. I wouldn't go either, but I am also the girl who NEVER brought a guy home to meet mom and dad.

I myself have had a great day. Part of my great day was a call from my clinic which scared me at first. I thought if they were calling they must have bad news. I was gladly wrong. The called to give me my lab results and while I know they are good results, I am still confused. My CD4 (I think I got that term right) went from 400 to 428. I didn't even know that it was possible for it to increase without medication. My VL went from 6,500 to 9,950 which from all I have read doesn't really matter since I am not on medication but it can't be good. It really bothers me that it went up so much. Do you ladies have any input for the confused newbie so I don't have such mixed emotions?
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #86 on: December 06, 2007, 10:29:39 PM »
Hi GFs~

Confused~  Remember with the VL you need to watch the trend with the numbers.  IMO it seems that the jump from 6k to 9k isn't much, BUT, if it keeps going in that direction, you may need to consider meds.  Keep in mind, back in the day when I went on meds they didn't even have VL testing.  All in all, it seems the numbers haven't really changed much from where they were before, so I think you're OK.  I still have to get used to this idea of people putting off going on meds.  Things were different in 1995, your CD4 went below 400 and you went on meds, that was it.  So, I've been on meds since then.

Wendy~  Your post made me laugh, about the guy you care for remembering everything you wish he'd forget, lmao.

Cristy~  Curious as to who you were talking to in Maryland, lol.  I seem to have spoken to most, at least the ones with pictures, and trust me, there's only one good poz guy up here.  We're just friends, he's really cool.  What city does this guy live in?  PM me if you'd like.

BT~  You made me laugh about Mom being a fruitcake!  Thing is, everyone here agrees with me about cancelling the rendez-vous, for the most part.  Mom will bitch when I do that and make everything about her.  I usually give in because its the right thing to do, but I realize I don't even owe my Mom shit when it comes to certain things.  She'll prob get all hostile and defensive and see right through my bullshit with cancelling, but so what.  She started this mess.  All I did was give in and then change my mind.  Pisses me off.  I may even ditch the family for Christmas, and spend it with Iceman.  No one ever calls anyway unless they are being nosey or they need something.  Dad is cool, though, I just hate that he gets caught in between all of the shit with my Mom and his Mom, my grandmother. 

Yeah, it all comes down to a fruitcake, and it ain't me, lmao.

I hope NY is doing OK after her delivery.

Drag~ Sorry to hear that your wrist is hurting so much.  We know you're watching, lol.  Just type a "*" or something, lol, and we'll know you're OK!   ;D

Very tired, so off to bed.  Tomorrow is Friday, TGIF!

Oh and BT, congrats on the dreaded algebra winding down!

Queen~  Hope you're OK, just playing games and chilling.  Take it easy on yourself, gf.

~ Cindy

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #87 on: December 06, 2007, 11:59:56 PM »
Today was not a very good day for me. Nope, not at all....I tossed and turned before I eventually went to sleep which was about 5 am. I got the tears out of the way. I was back up by 11 ish and by 12, I was cracking open a Corona. Talked to my one friend who was trying to get me to come over her house but I decided not to since Rico's ex is now staying with her. And that I may run into Rico. She(my friend) called Rico and cussed him out which must've been true because all of a sudden my phone rang....Yep, Rico....More bullshit followed by even more bullshit. But from listening to what he was saying to me, it was if he was trying to keep a lot more under wraps and accusing me of telling my gf things which I didn't. But I also told him that it was obvious to me he was lying to me and the ex....I guess he was telling the ex that he hadn't been intimate with anyone...What?!? But my friend told her sister we were. I didn't know it was suppose to be a secret even though I never told my friend. Then he goes on to say that he can't trust females because he has been hurt so much...But yet I am catching him in multiple lies...... ::) Why is it so hard for men to be honest. Even when you give them the chance to air their dirty laundry.... After all that, it was time for a shot of tequila and to just be done with all. I am not feeling like myself but I am feeling a tad bit better. I am just hurt because after being guarded about my feelings, I open up to someone and all this happens....I am really in a funk about now and am not sure when I will snap out of it....I've tried distracting myself but nothing seems to be working...
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8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #88 on: December 07, 2007, 05:26:31 AM »
***

have to take it v eqasy w the typing from now on. work up late not at work yet.

cind, i know ur mum is nuts, but we have one family... give her/them a chance. talk it out w her say u hurt. it would be great if ice & your folks could blend well, after all he might be the one... its ok to be pissed just do whats good for u. i think u have a love hate relationship w your mom i do recall u calling her and being close.

queen, u will get over this. just give it time. i know it hurts.

sorry i have to be short must be really careful from now, i have emg next week hopefully they will scan the wrist too

have a greatweekend all, hugs
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #89 on: December 07, 2007, 06:11:52 AM »

My CD4 (I think I got that term right) went from 400 to 428. I didn't even know that it was possible for it to increase without medication. My VL went from 6,500 to 9,950 which from all I have read doesn't really matter since I am not on medication but it can't be good. It really bothers me that it went up so much. Do you ladies have any input for the confused newbie so I don't have such mixed emotions?


Hi CM,

That viral load increase is absolutely nothing. And nothing to worry about either. Your viral load is TINY and with numbers like that, you could go for years yet without meds. Really!

I've been positive for ten years now, still not on meds and I can tell you with confidence that your CD4 can go up without meds. Don't be surprised if it goes up and down. You might want to find out what your CD4% is like, because that number is generally more stable. There is a good explanation of what the absolute CD4 and the CD4 percents mean in this Lesson. By the way, T-cell is another way of saying CD4.

There is also a good Lesson on Viral Load.

In short, relax! Your numbers are great! Fingers crossed they stay that way.

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #90 on: December 07, 2007, 06:49:40 AM »
Good morning ladies:Confused, what Ann said.  I wouldn't get concerned over those numbers.  How are you doing other than that?

Queen, I'm so sorry you're feeling blue.  But that's to be expected.  Like Drag said, give it time.  Time does seem to heal wounds.  It's still fresh right now.  I don't think I would even answer the phone if it was Rico anymore.  It sounds like he's acting rather childish.  Be glad it didn't get any further than what it did, emotions wise.

Cin, Friday is here.  You know, I know what Drag means when she talks about having only one family.  But you have to do what's best for your peace of mind.  Have you ever confronted your mom about her craziness?  This should be a special Christmas for you with Iceman.  Have you thought about what you will get him yet?
  OH, I am so anxious for NY to post those pictures and details about her new baby boy!  I hope everything went alright.
  Today I'm going to my dad's to do his shopping, what little of it he has.  He gets Meals-On-Wheels, so he hardly has anything for me to get at the store.  He wants me to bring him a carton of cigarettes.  He lives right across the border in Michigan, and you'll recall I live in Indiana.  Well, cigarettes are about $20 cheaper per carton here in Indiana than they are in Michigan.  So I don't blame him for wanting to save some money.  (I'm still smoke-free).  He seems to be doing well emotionally.  My sister in Arizona just e-mailed us kids last night about sending my pop a bouquet of flowers with a candle in the middle for him to put on his table for Christmas.  Now, unless my oldest sister waters them, the flowers will probably die, as my pop surely won't remember to do that. :D    Algebra is officially over for me.  I turned in the final exam last night.  My teacher wants to get together sometime for coffee.  I told her that would be fine.  She's a very nice person and is pretty much the reason we're (the students) going to pass this class, because of her patience and caring.  My other class will have the last session next Wednesday.  Then I'm off for three weeks. 

Oh, Drag, I do hope they find out what's wrong with your wrist and can fix it for you.  Keep your chin up. 

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #91 on: December 07, 2007, 08:00:30 AM »
I'm still an emotional mess but feeling better than I was yesterday. I spent most of the night talking to my best friend about the situation with Rico because she knows me better than anyone. We've been friends for over 20 years. We talked til 3 am. I went to sleep but as you all can see, I am up again. I can't get a full 8 hours. I feel like I am sleeping in shifts. And to be honest, I can't stop thinking about him which is driving me insane.

I have no plans for the weekend but to sit in my fortress of solitude better known as my bedroom. It's too cold to venture out anywhere. Maybe I'll try some meditation but will definitely be staying away from the tequila... ;D

I hope NY and baby boy are doing ok too. Dragonette, I hope your hand gets better soon. Cindy, forget about the Momma Drama and just do YOU. If you want to spend the holidays alone with Iceman then do it. If your Mom decides to have a fit, so be it, she'll be alright. I feel more for your Dad who will have to endure it all, poor guy. Betty, I love those pics in your avatar. Where do you get them from? I know you are happy algebra is almost over.

I am outta here. Have a good weekend ladies...
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #92 on: December 07, 2007, 08:53:32 AM »
Hello Ladies.   ML, sorry about your mom, mine is similar in that we take most of what she says with a grain of salt. It always has a grain of truth but everything else can be changed at whim or boredom level, not sure which it is.  But we only have one family so try to keep the peace even if it's you doing the bending.       I am well. Got a double today and get paid.  I have only bought one Christmes present and that's my mom's.  I only buy for mom, dad and kids. Everyone else, I make cookies and chocolate candy and chocolate covered pretzels. I like it and can make enough for about 20 people with 20 dollars worth of supplies.                                                                                       I finally heard back from my Maryland friend. I hate when they act all interested, then nothing.  OOOOO, that irritates me.                                                                                     Haven't heard from my oldest since I tore him a new one for having me and Robert in Downtown  Greensboro waiting for him. I cannot stand that area. Dealers and users and scammers everywhere. So I probably will not go back to see him for a while. I have to protect me first.                                                   My brother wants to come back. My mom says no but if they let him, Robert and I will be leaving . I would lose my job but at least I would feel safer. I would go stay with my cousin.                     Hopefully it will not come to that but if it does then I will handle it.      Hope everyone is well.     NY, where are you, lady. Hope everything went well with the birth.                                 Later, Cristy
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #93 on: December 08, 2007, 06:46:22 AM »
Good morning ladies:

Queen, I usually go to google and just put in "avatars." Usually I get some pretty good sites to choose from.  Again, I'm really sorry about Rico.  But you know, if he's stuck on his ex-, you don't want him.  I wouldn't want to play second to an ex.  I know you're going through a lot right now, but remember, it will pass. 

Cristy, so if your brother comes back you and Robert will be moving?  Well, you need to do what's best for your peace of mind.  I'm sure you would be able to find another job with your waitressing experience. 

Cin, how are you girl?  NY, are you home from the hospital yet with your new baby?  Oooh, I can hardly wait to see pics! 

Tonight is The Nutcracker I'm taking my granddaughter to go see.  I'm actually kind of excited.  It should be a whole new experience.  Yesterday I went to my pop's and did a little shopping for him and picked up lunch at Wendy's for us and visited with him.   He told me it just doesn't seem quite like Christmas with my mum being gone. :'( :'(  I told him I know.  I really do miss her.  I know I'm repeating myself, but I can't help it.  I was watching Jeopardy last night and thinking about all the times my mum and I used to play that together, even if it was just over the phone.   

Other than that, not much going on here.  I hope you ladies have a nice day-
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #94 on: December 08, 2007, 08:15:18 AM »
Hi GFs~

I've been up since 730am on a Saturday!  wtf?!?!?  lol  I am tired and need breakfast, I will post tonight.   :D

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #95 on: December 08, 2007, 10:46:09 AM »
Hello ladies! Well I made through parent conference week...woo hoo! It is so stressful fitting everyone in and meeting with 32 sets of parents. Unfortunately not every meeting is 100% positive and some parents just find it difficult to believe that their child is not perfect.... :) Most of them went very well though so I am happy.

On a different note, I had my first experience informing a doctor about my status and it really made me nervous. I had been having a problem with my toe, some kind of infection, and I went into a podiatrist. Of course on the paperwork they ask about any medical conditions. I was worried about what the doctor would think but it went just fine. She was really great and ask how I contracted it and she told me about how her aunt contracted it through a blood transfusion and a colleague through a needle stick. We had a discussion how it totally changes your outlook. So long story short, it was a good experience. As for my toe...I had an infected ingrown toenail, thanks to the nail shops where I get pedicures. So now I am hobbling around on my boo boo toe :)

In the past I had mentioned about my ex (the who gave me HIV) had been trying to get back into my life and how I did not know how to handle it. Well I finally let him know how I was feeling. We had been communicating via email for many months. Just so you know this "relationship" had been off and on for 12 years. Although now he has multiple children w/multiple women...yeah I know what a winner. There is a lot more to get into but I'll save all you from the boredom :) I let him know that he is not a good person and has never taken responsibility for anything. I told him that I need to take responsibility too for putting myself out there again and again. There was a lot more other stuff but the point is that I feel REALLY good about it. For the first time I feel like I have closed a chapter in my life and don't have mixed emotions about it. I feel like a weight has been lifted.

OK...enough about me...it sounds like everyone is staying busy and doing well.
     Cindy: How is the job? Do you like it?
     Queen: That sucks about Rico. I am sorry. Hang in there!
     Betty: Enjoy the Nutcracker. I have never seen but read the story
     Draggonette: What is exactly wrong with your wrist? Is it carpal tunnel syndrome?
     Confused: Nice count!
     NY: Enjoy that baby!
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #96 on: December 08, 2007, 11:48:45 AM »
Good Morning My Ladies in Waiting----

I am just sitting here watching cartoons. Yep, I am still a kid when it comes to toons. I am little pissed with Time Warner because this damn dvr box has a mind of it's own. It seems to record my shows when it feels good and damn ready.... >:( It messed up my recording of wrestling last night then around 1 am it decided it didn't want to me to look at anything but some boring ass channels. I give them a call and they reboot my dvr from their office and still nothing. This truly disturbs me since I am one of their customers who has ALL of their freaking services. Now I have to wait 5 days for a techician to come out. Her consulation to me, I can disconnect the cable wire from the dvr and hook it to my tv and view channels 2-99 which is basic cable. What? But I am paying for their digital package which includes movie channels.......HELLO?

Last night, guess who I get a call from? Yep, Rico. Sounding very depressed I might add, not that I was happy to hear him sound that way. The conversation was casual. The usual questions: Him: What are you doing? Me: (trying to sound nonchalant): Nothing just chilling, watching tv...Him: I miss you and I have been thinking *pause*... I just don't want to get hurt again....*pause*... Can I come see you tomorrow?.... Me: *pause* I suppose so, I'll be here...Him: *sounding more pitiful* Ok, well I need to go to bed but I'll be over...Me: Ok, bye....*click* Yeah, I know what you ladies are thinking. I just want to hear what he has to say. I am still feeling hurt so he will have to deal with my attitude...

I am waiting on my roomie to get up so we can go do laundry. We should've been got it done but with it snowing like it had been neither one of us wanted to go anywhere. I am still coughing but I think it is coming to an end. I am coughing up a lot of stuff. I may have to go to primary doctor appointment after all. I think it is affecting my hearing as well. It seems like my right is clogged which makes it even more difficult to hear even with my hearing aid in. I also think it is draining. I need to see my Ear doctor but he is just too far out to get to w/o a car.

Have fun Betty with your grand daughter at the Nutcracker. Cindy, we await your post with baited breath. It's been quiet in here lately. Dragonette, Betty, and a few others have been trying to keep this thread going. I sure hope the next installment doesn't go into a rut. Someone needs to step up for naming the next one. Who will it be? Someone jump in there when it's time. I hope NY and baby boy are ok and I am just as excited as you, Betty. Dragonette, When is something going to be done with your hand? I hate to address you because I know it pains you to write.

That is it for me. I'll keep you all posted...
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5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #97 on: December 08, 2007, 08:17:04 PM »
I was out shopping all day with my parents, saw my Gram and Aunt, too, which was nice.  Gram and Aunt saw Iceman's pic and had nothing but compliments, of course Mom had to put him down.  No one listened to her, lol.  :D  I am so wiped out from traffic and being on my feet all day.  My official "catch up" post will have to wait, so sorry.

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #98 on: December 08, 2007, 09:16:06 PM »
Nothing much to report, just checking in. Rico didn't show up but he called saying he was sick. Whatever, it wasn't like I was holding my breath for him to come anyway. So, I was not disappointed at all. I'm glad he didn't come because I am tired from doing laundry. And I just want to chill. At the moment, I am watching Gladiator, one of my fave movies but it also reminds me of my Dad. It was his fave too so every time it is on, I make sure I watch it. I need to buy the dvd. The dvr is still acting hinky. I had to reboot it, now the movie channels play but the basic cable channels are skipping...Grrrrrrr.... >:(

With the exception of NY, Dragonette, and Betty, I pretty much feel like I am talking to myself in this thread. The scary thing is I seem to be answering myself too.... :D Don't give up the ship yet ladies, check in some time. You know who you are so I don't have to name names. Honestly, it seems like the whole forum is moving kinda slow. But then I have to remember just because I don't have a life, you guys do.... :D I guess I'll go do some blogging... :-*
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5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #99 on: December 08, 2007, 10:48:43 PM »
Good evening ladies:

Well, I just got home from dropping my granddaughter off.  The Nutcracker was fabulous!  The dancers were all right on the mark.  I really had a good time.  After it was over, we went to this place in downtown South Bend called "The Chocolate Cafe." (South Bend has The South Bend Chocolate Company, hence the offshoot-the cafe).  It was packed!  There was no where to sit, people were waiting just to order, it was madness.  So I got a double chocolate coffee, my granddaughter got a dark hot chocolate, and I got us each chocolate covered marshmallows.  OMG, they are so good!  Yeah, I know, I'm diabetic.  Oh well, gotta live once in awhile. 

Oh, I also got my numbers today in the mail.  CD4 380 (down from 600); viral load 214,000.  I will probably see the doctor next week instead of waiting until January.  I have a cold sore that's been there for two months and won't respond to the usual over-the-counter treatment and I also have a rash on my feet.  No, I didn't change laundry detergent and it doesn't itch.  Strange thing.  The cold sore I'll probably need Zostrix to clear up.  I had one in the past that was like this and that was the only thing that cleared it.  So, I'm going to bed pretty soon.  Now I know why I've been so tired lately.  I'm sure things will get better.

Yes, Queen, hardly anyone is checking in anymore.  Maybe the time of year, I don't know.  It seems like people were checking in pretty regular a while ago, but not now.  Oh well, we have to prevail.  Talk to you ladies later-
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #100 on: December 09, 2007, 12:00:06 AM »
Queen I am sorry you feel like you are talking to yourself. I am reading I've just hit a funk. The husband pisses me off. He's trying to be sweet now cuz he knows I am pissed off and that just makes me madder. Add his BS with the money problems and the car breaking down last night (it's fixed now) I've just been kinda blah. I musta been a rough bitch in a past life b/c I haven't been bad enough for my karma to be this bad. I'll try to check in more. Maybe it will keep my funky mood down to a min.
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #101 on: December 09, 2007, 12:43:38 AM »
Hey now, give a girl a break with her first week back to work AND running with the masses at the malls and shopping centers today, lol!  I have checked in a little but I am exhausted!  Didn't get crap done tonight, could only wrap a few gifts cause I need tissue paper, so its back out again tomorrow.

BT~ I can't remember if you're on meds are not, I'm thinking you are.  Get yourself taken care of OK?  Now I want marshmallows covered in chocolate, I need a fondue pot.....lol!  :D

Queen~  Drink a Corona for me, with LOTS of lime, I LOVE lime, mix it with heavy metal and I do crazy shit, ask Iceman, lol.

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #102 on: December 09, 2007, 08:21:04 AM »
OK, Cin, you get one break.  Yes, I'm on meds.  Sustiva and Trizivir.  The doc that put me on that combo was an intern and he's been gone for about six or eight months.  The doc I have now is not an intern and is very well versed in HIV.  So he'll probably put me on something else.  Oh, btw, that chocolate covered marshmallow thing was sooooooo yummy!  The chocolate there at South Bend Chocolate Cafe is so good.  They did have a selection of sugar-free chocolates, but why should I behave? :D  Christmas is here and this is major sweets time for me.  Anyway, you got a break, now you better check in more regularly! ;)  Good luck out shopping today.  I'm so glad I got my shopping done.

Confused, sorry that you're going through all that mess with your hubby.  It helps me to check in here every day.  I'm not saying you have to religiously check in every day, just saying it might help you to talk things out here and get different people's views on things. 

Well, it's time for someone else to start a new thread.  Who will it be?  Today I'm going to do some grocery shopping and I'm interviewing my oldest sister for my child & adolescent psychology class.  She lives a couple towns north of me and it was freezing rain during the night.  It should be interesting making the trek to her house.  If it's too bad, I'm just going to do it over the phone.  No sense tempting fate.  My bro is coming over tonight for movie time/pig-out.  He's diabetic also, but like I said above, 'tis the season!  I hope you ladies have a nice day.  *thinking about NY and her new baby*
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #103 on: December 09, 2007, 12:31:36 PM »
hi ladies

hand still hurts so gonna be careful. sunday night here, i had a painful conversation with the bf, we are still very good, but i dont think he want to start working on the baby thing soon and i am not sure either. it seems that he is not sure that he is sure that he wants to be with me *forever*. having a baby would just cement the whole thing, there are other issues too, not knowing where to live, him being unemployed, him not knowing where we would live, me vetoing living in his hometown, there are just so many obstacles. i try not to think of it as being rejected cos i know he loves me very much, but it hurts, anyway on thus he will be going to spain and i will join him less than a week later and will stay there for 2 weeks, i am not feeling up for that to say the least. i have entertained the idea of postponing my ticket to another day for a while.

strangely i am upset about this but i can say i am still ok. tue i have the scan for my feet, which will find out if i have pn or not, and hopefully for my arm as well which will find out if its carpal tunnel syndrom, but i reckon its standard rsi.

Betty pls be careful with the sugar, you know food is addictive... i know cos i am addicted to it also. as well as the internet, one reason why i got my arm in such a state. both are things we need to use moderatly, in my case i go online for work every day as well, and so its a more complex addiction than the usual ones. i hope you get your numbers sorted asap. Queen hope you heal your heart asap. i will try to check in writing again in a few days. love you all,

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #104 on: December 09, 2007, 02:01:33 PM »
Hey Ladies----

Since this thread is moving at a snail's pace or so it seems, I will let this thread ride out til tomorrow. If no one starts a new one then I will again. I know you ladies are busy doing your thing and I seem to be the one who is here on a regular. Well, Betty and Dragonette too.

Betty, I am glad you enjoyed yourself last night. It sounds like you had a really good time. Confused, I understand being in a funk but don't keep it bottled in is all I'm saying. You know we are here for you and it sounds like you need to vent. Let it out!!!! Cindy, Yes, you're a working girl and has a man now so there is not much time left for little else. We understand, give us a holler on your day off or something. Dragonette, You are going through so much right now. I will be praying for you. Not sure what else to say.

Rico did end up showing up last night. I guess he could see my attitude cause he went to explaining himself but oddly enough, I really didn't care about what he said. It went in one ear and out the other. He noticed the difference in me because now he is singing the tune of he knows he has to prove himself. I'm just like whatever, I'm not holding my breath to see if he does or not. I hate being this way towards him but he caused it so now he has to deal with it. I feel beat. I think I will just be lazy all day today and sleep off and on. It's Sunday, not much else to do really. Have a good one, ladies.....

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #105 on: December 09, 2007, 08:20:47 PM »
Hello Ladies. Hope everyone is well. Queen and Betty, you are definitely not talking to yourselves , I check in often but do not always have time to post.                                                    Betty, yes, IF my brother came back , I would have to go. He raises my stress level so much that I want to get high. And that's no longer a option for me.     Sorry about your cold sore and rash. Hope your doc can give you something to help.            Queen, That sucks that Rico is being a pain but glad you  let it slid off. I will check your blog for a new post. i like your blog.                            ML, hope you are well.                  Has anyone heard from NY or did I just miss it.                                      Dragonette, Sorry you hands and feet are giving you trouble.   Try to have a great time in Spain.                                                 Anyway, Take care. Later, Cristy

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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #106 on: December 09, 2007, 08:35:41 PM »
Would you believe I still did not get any damn sleep!!!! I guess that just means when I do go to sleep, I will sleep like a baby. Before I forget, My Cowboys are 12-1 and we won our division. It was a tight one, winning by one point but a win is win, baby!!!! I'm just chilling and watching Kill Bill Volume 1. Nothing much else to do..... :-\
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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #107 on: December 09, 2007, 09:20:46 PM »
I know I should check in and vent here. I know you ladies would so have my back. I just know how I am when I am angry or upset. I say things that I might mean but don't always impliment. When I don't do what I said I feel like I am backtracking whatever. I don't like that. I will sit back and think I want him to leave but I never do anything to let him know I want him to leave. If he ever thinks I am pissed he kisses ass and finally does the right thing to make me get over it.

I am pissed off at him now because he is still not working and he is spending too much money. Everything has been a contant struggle since he came home. I knew it would be hard but I had no idea it would be this hard. I'm frustrated and getting fed up. I know I am not totally fed up yet because I haven't put him out. Sometimes I hate that I don't have a short fuse. Mine is way too long. I know that I should have already told him to go and started on straightening out my life again. I'm just not at that point yet and I don't even really know why.
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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #108 on: December 09, 2007, 10:27:39 PM »
Hi GFs~

Oh I should be in bed, I am ready to fall over.  I decorated the tree tonight and got the rest of the decorations for table tops, etc out, including my Nativity scene.  I actually knelt with Cheech next to the tree and prayed tonight.  I prayed for all of the special people in my life, including all of us and those who have HIV.  Whenever I pray, I cry, which is why I can't bring myself to go to church, I feel I get too emotional.  I hope to overcome that someday.

Iceman was a little hurt by how my Mom doesn't seem to have anything nice to say about him, he was reading my earlier post in here.  I told him not to worry, that Mom is too critical most of the time, and then she goes and can be your best friend.  For example, she called today to pass along a nice compliment that my Dad made about me.  After spending all of yesterday running around with my parents, my Dad told my Mom that I was actually pleasant to be around.   :D  He told Mom he wasn't sure that if it was the result of Iceman or my new job, but he saw that I was in a good mood.  Well, Yay for me, I say!  I am usually in a funk because of something, but I think I am doing OK now.

Iceman is at the Ravens game, texting me and saying how the game stinks!  Poor guy, the Colts are clobbering his team!

Confused~  I'm sorry to hear about the stress at home with your man.  Don't hate that you don't have a short fuse, that way you won't make any rash decisions that you may regret later!
Cristy~I hope your brother stays away, as rude as that sounds.  It would suck if he wrecked your home life with your parents and son.  Hang in there!
Queen~What are you going to do about Rico?  Since he came over and you talked are you hoping that things will die down and be easier for the both of you?  I'm thinking that because you haven't shut him out completely that you're willing to give this another chance.  At least he knows who's boss, and that you don't take any shit.  How are your ears doing?  And the cough?  I can start the next thread tomorrow night if you want me to.  I want to think of a catchy title with "December" or "Holidays" in it.  Oooh, I just had a lightbulb moment!  Hee-hee!
Drag~Well it sounds like that pretty head is still of "sound mind" on your shoulders.  You and your man have so many things going on, just give everything a little time.  The living location and his changing jobs are crucial to your future.  I have been meaning to ask what "RSI" stands for with regards to the pain you've been having.  Do you have or have you had blood clots in your legs before?  Some people in my support group are dealing with PN and the nurse said to check for circulation problems and clots.  It seems very common, I hope everything will work out OK for you.
BT~I hope you get to switch your meds.  I am on Sustiva and Truvada.  Have you ever been on Truvada before?  Its been an easy regimen for me.  I have been pigging out and buying more crap for myself than for Iceman while shopping.  Well, not really, but I got new jeans and new shoes for work! 

OMG I haven't told you all about work!  You can start as early as 6am or as late as 730am, and then leave 8-1/2 hours later.  You get 2 scheduled breaks, 15 minutes each, and you take a half hour lunch whenever you want to.  You can switch up your schedule every day, arrive late, arrive early, it doesn't matter.  I have been in a training room with three other women, but tomorrow is the big "first day" out in cubicle world!  You can listen to your iPod, MP3 or CDs with your headphones on, everyone does.  The work is easy, no challenge, so its a good segway for me getting back into the working world.  The casual dress (jeans!), the 3 mile commute and the headphones to block out the chatter boxes are all adding up to a good job.  The pay is less than what I've made in about 5 years, but its a start.  At least I have my MADAP to cover my COBRA benefits until next fall!

OK, going to start the new thread while I have my "inspiration!"  I hope you all like it!

Cam, tendai, Win, NY and all the rest of us fine GFs, stay safe and warm tonight!

~ Cindy


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Re: Dating Part XII: Labors of Love, Love's Lost, and Loving Life.....
« Reply #109 on: December 09, 2007, 10:34:02 PM »
Its time to go check out Dating Thread Part XIII!!   ;D
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