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Offline cocoboogie

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I Told Someone
« on: October 24, 2007, 10:36:40 AM »
Yesterday, I had some much blood drawn and was in the hospital so long I felt extremely exhausted.  My feet were in extreme pain and I was emotionally drained from everything.

I called my assistant and asked if she could pick me up from the hospital.  When she arrived and asked if everything was ok, I began crying like a baby. She had only been working with me for a little awhile and never saw me act like this.  I was laying down in the back of her car because of foot pain and tiredness.

I blurted out my AIDS status, KS/cancer diagnosis and need to start chemo soon.  She began crying also and revealed her mother had passed away 4 years ago due to AIDS/hepatitis.  She also stated her uncle has AIDS. 

I was so dizzy, it felt like she was driving a million miles a minute.  We drove around in circles downtown.  She told her lifestory of abuse from her stepfather, having a mother on drugs, and herself becoming a teenage mother raising 3 kids by 3 different fathers.

After we finish crying and screaming our lungs out, we started laughing. I cant explain why but we began laughing at ourselves and laughing at people driving by looking at us like we were crazed.  We went to Dairy Queen pigging out on Banana splits, sundaes and hot dogs.

I am glad I told her and feel she was brought into my life for a reason.  I feel more connected to her in the short time  I have known her than some people I have known for years.  I have gained courage and feel ok with disclosing to others regardless of the outcome.  Whether they accept or reject me, at least I have one new friend that accepts me and I feel there will be more to follow.
Date    CD4  VL
11/07  20     56,000 started chemo for KS
4/08    12     60,000 started Kaletra and Truvada
5/08    14     820
6/08    19     Undetectable stopped chemo
7/08   149    Undetectable  
8/09   247    undetectable
6/10   498    undetectable
1/11   408    undetectable
4/11   402    undetectable  
5/11   511    undetectable
11/11  599   undetectable
7/12    439   undetectable
3/13     479 undectectable
9/13 645  undectectable

Offline david25luvit

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Re: I Told Someone
« Reply #1 on: October 24, 2007, 10:45:01 AM »
Ain't life grand sometimes....
Glad you two shared a special time....
sounds like both of you needed it.

Sending you both a...{{{{BIG HUG}}}
In Memory of
Raymond David McRae III
Nov. 25, 1972- Oct. 15, 2004
I miss him terribly..........

Offline Bucko

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Re: I Told Someone
« Reply #2 on: October 24, 2007, 11:04:37 AM »
I'm really glad you found a confidant and support when you needed it. It sounds as if you both benefited by your little breakdowns.

A little catharsis is a good thing  ;)

(Who has had many similar moments himself)
Blessed with brains, talent and gorgeous tits.

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Offline Iggy

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Re: I Told Someone
« Reply #3 on: October 24, 2007, 11:06:48 AM »
Wow.  Talk about unexpected outcomes.

I'm glad you had such a good experience with your disclosure and hope that the two of you together are able to provide each other much needed strength and understanding.

Offline Dragonette

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Re: I Told Someone
« Reply #4 on: October 24, 2007, 11:22:42 AM »
wow, that's a great story. I am so glad for you that you found a relief and a great confidant.

sometimes things work in mysterious ways... I'd say God works in mysterious ways, that's my personal belief.

All the best to you,
"If you keep one foot in yesterday, and one in tomorrow, you piss all over today". Betty Tacy

Offline LACboi

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Re: I Told Someone
« Reply #5 on: October 24, 2007, 03:00:17 PM »
Hey cocoboogie,
Looks like god sent you someone to help you with you situation.  I wish you the best

Take care.


Offline thunter34

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Re: I Told Someone
« Reply #6 on: October 24, 2007, 03:10:19 PM »

Joy, joy, joy...

I've been waiting to see a post like this from you, coco.  You've been on my mind a lot lately.  I just saw your other current thread last night, and haven't even had the chance to post to it yet.

So happy you were able to have this experience of release.  Don't forget to drop me a line in a PM if you need to.

AIDS isn't for sissies.

Offline AlanBama

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Re: I Told Someone
« Reply #7 on: October 24, 2007, 03:13:43 PM »
We all need someone to confide in, and really be your 'honest self' with.   I think people come into our lives for a reason...

hugs,  Alan
"Remember my sentimental friend that a heart is not judged by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others." - The Wizard of Oz

Offline englishgirl

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Re: I Told Someone
« Reply #8 on: October 24, 2007, 03:19:43 PM »
what alan and the others said.

much love


"I'm not keen on the idea of the afterlife - not without knowing who else will be there and what the entertainment will be. Personally I'd rather just take a rest." Oscar Berger, PWA: Looking AIDS in the Face, 1996. RIP.

Offline DanielMark

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Re: I Told Someone
« Reply #9 on: October 24, 2007, 04:53:12 PM »
Thanks for posting your good news. I've been battling some rather deep depression for about a week (first time in years), so I was ready to read something hopeful like that.

What a great unexpected connection for you!




Offline anniebc

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Re: I Told Someone
« Reply #10 on: October 24, 2007, 05:41:41 PM »
Hi Coco

We all need that someone special in our lives..looks like you each found yours, I bet you both felt a whole lot better getting it all off your chests.

Let us know how you get on when you start your chemo sessions, I hope you managed to get some rest after all that and the pain in your feet has subsided.

Jan :-*

Never knock on deaths door..ring the bell and run..he really hates that.


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