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Author Topic: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October  (Read 32126 times)

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Offline camille07

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Hey Girls, time to start a new thread. 

Since my aunt flow from Red Bank is visiting I thought this was appropriate.   
Cin-  How was the interview? Did you get call back or positive feed back? 

Queen-  I wouldn't freak out about Boo just yet, he might be really out of it.  Maybe you should try to contact him when he is feeling better?

BT-  I'm sooo envious.  I wish I was back at school, especially this time of year.  Its so nostalgic, especially with the leaves turning.

Well nothing new on my front,  just super busy at work.  Hope the rest of you girls are feeling well :D

Hugs

Cammie
« Last Edit: September 28, 2007, 11:06:59 AM by camille07 »

Offline Queen Tokelove

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Re: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #1 on: September 27, 2007, 04:25:12 PM »
What a title, Camille... ;) You might want to number this thread so ladies don't get confused. I think the dating thread has blossomed into a journal of sorts for all of us. I still got the ovaries but hopes my oppprtunities and outcomes change for the better in October. Both my sons Bdays are on October, a day a part. Funny, you should mention Boo. After leaving him an IM to the tripping one he left me, I heard back from him. Just like nothing had happened, so I just went with it. He still has the fever even though he says it isn't as bad, whatever that means. I don't think he called his doc but I really can't worry about it. I want to but if I do then I will begin to stress again.

Last night I noticed that I broke out in a rash which started on the back of my arms but has since spread to different areas. I started a thread on it in Livng With. At the moment, I just took some liquid benadryl and am waiting to hear back from my ID doc. The clinic nurse, Leah thinks it could be the Bactrim, Ziagen, or one of the meds in Atripla. She kinda is going more for the Bactrim because she says if it was the Ziagen, there should've been a fever accompanied with it and she is not sure about the med in Atripla but has heard of it happening before. I hope it is not the Atripla because my body is just now getting back to normal from the minor side effects that I was having. I didn't take my dose of Bactrim today, Leah said not to, so that was cool with me. I think I will just let the benadryl do it's thing and catch a nap a little later on. I'm in a chilled kinda mood today which feels nice, not stressing about nada.

I am wondering how the other ladies are faring today? I know Cindy had things to do, she bowed out on me early on Yahoo last night. I am hoping things are getting better with Em and the adoption. Not sure what is going on with Sun and her men in uniform. I mean I have been reading their posts but am just wondering. Christy has been quiet too but I guess no news is good news, I hope.....
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #2 on: September 27, 2007, 11:51:57 PM »
Ladies, I am okay, just not very talkative at the moment. Will post in more detail saturday, when I only have dinner shift. love ya'll .  Cristy

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Re: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #3 on: September 28, 2007, 12:12:34 AM »
Hi GFs~

Cam, retype the title to read Dating Part VI:   (etc), lol, its our "pattern" of sorts!  LOL
BT, as far as the pump, its the closest you can get to mimicking a true working pancreas.  The pump is like an IV and yes, there is a small, plastic flexible cannula (needle) in you 24/7.  It doesn't hurt, not usually, unless you hit a nerve or something, then you just pull the thing off (like a bandaid) and put on a new one.  They are disposable.  So, every three days I put on a new "pod" which is prefilled with insulin.  Its remote controlled, no tubing, its all button pushing.  Go to www.myomnipod.com to check it out, its been out about 2 years, I wear it on my lipo belly, just below the waist of my jeans.

GQ~  Sorry to hear about the rash, I hate itching, but its kind of something that diabetics are prone to.  At least the poison ivy below is gone!  That shit is a real bitch!

Cristy~  I know how tiring it must be working in a restaurant.  I look forward to your posts over the weekend when you refuel! :)

I went to see a nutritionist today and talked for awhile.  It was more like counseling and it felt good, hardly talked about food that much, because being diabetic, I know a lot about foods.  I'm an avid label-reader!  I will go back for another appointment because I want tips on how to lessen fatigue through diet, if I can.

So, I got out of that appointment and called to cancel with my recruiter, it was just too late and I was tired.  I didn't want to drive an hour to their offices.  Meanwhile, three other recruiters called today, one I cancelled Monday's appointment with as well.  There is a recruiter in Frederick who has called me a few times already this summer and I am going to meet her tomorrow.  She has a position that is all AP, AR, payroll for 18 people, 401K matching, job reporting....it sounds good and I told the recruiter I wasn't a "full charge" bookkeeper, that I still had a few things to learn, just never had the opportunity.  Pay is low to mid 30s and you must like DOGS.  The owner brings two dogs to work every day!  Guess that's why its "a casual office environment" so I won't have to buy expensive clothes or wear uncomfortable shoes!  I hope I can get my foot in the door, because this is exactly the position I have been waiting for!  I have plenty of other recruiters, four to be exact, who all want to meet me next week, I said I would "think" over the weekend and call Monday.  We'll see how it goes!

I am feeling good, but I haven't heard from Stone tonight.  I'm thinking maybe he had a long day and crashed and burned.  He had to get his son to school this morning in all of that traffic and it was an early day, so......

A friend of mine had his business card drawn at a local club and won a party for 100 people at the Inner Harbor in Baltimore.  (www.howlatthemoon.com)  I don't think I can make the trip all the way there.  Its during happy hour and parking is across the street, but still its a long ways to go.  I think I will go to the pos group tomorrow night that meets on Fridays.  All of the gay guys will be there, so it will be nice to meet new people!

Saturday I am supposed to go with Stone to the Corn Maze, so hopefully he'll be into doing that.  I love those things, and the weather for the next week is supposed to be clear, upper 70s and cool nights!  I love it!

OK, so I just slid some money outta my savings to pay my bills with.  Crap!

Queen, I smell hush puppies.........

~Cindy

« Last Edit: September 28, 2007, 12:41:16 AM by MOONLIGHT1114 »
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Offline Queen Tokelove

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Re: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #4 on: September 28, 2007, 01:01:13 AM »
It is good to see that things is going ok with Christy. I know how it is to not feel like talking some days.. Yeah, I made the damn hush puppies but after taking a few bites realized I didn't want them after all. Maybe my roomie will munch on them later. I had cut my latest dose of benadryl in half cause I am not ready to go to sleep yet but see just one teaspoonful still leaves me itching. I am scratching my back like crazy and thinks the rash is moving to the front of my girl. My ears and face is itching a little bit too. But Cindy you are right, it is better to itch all over than down south. But I am prepared for that if it comes up again. OMFG, I feel like grabbing Lucifer draw his claws out and scratch my back to shreds. Ugh, how long is this freaking rash gonna last!!!!!! Guess, I'll sit back and watch some Cowboy Bebop on Cartoon Network....Night ladies...
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
Cherish the simple things life has to offer

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Re: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #5 on: September 28, 2007, 08:04:25 AM »
Queen, I had a wicked rash a while ago and I took antihistamine (like for allergy), even though the rash was from the drugs (Sustiva at the time) it releived iit, it took a while to clear but that was better. Are you on anything like that?

I am not able to work today, I could really, really use someone like you working for me, ML... all those spreadsheets and charts, how in God's name did I wound up in that. Corn maize, sounds beautiful, no seasons here this year, just rain and rain...
"If you keep one foot in yesterday, and one in tomorrow, you piss all over today". Betty Tacy

Offline Queen Tokelove

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #6 on: September 28, 2007, 11:20:13 AM »
Well, the rash doesn't appear to have gotten any worse today. My ID doc has me taking liquid benadryl which seems to be helping. I'm suppose to call him around noon today to report what is going on. I think the Bactrim was the cause. The benadryl is also great cause it has also helped with my allergies as well as helping me sleep more soundly.
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
Cherish the simple things life has to offer

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #7 on: September 28, 2007, 06:32:27 PM »
OK, I'm going to try to reply again, because I just did and I got timed-out of the session.  This site has become so maddening lately!  If it doesn't work this time, then I'm outa here!

Queen, I'm glad the rash isn't spreading, is it going away yet?  I remember (about itching) many, many years ago I got crabs.  I thought I would die!

Cin, thanks for the info and link about the pump.  Do they use that like when Insulin fails?  How long have you had it? 

Cristy, waitressing sounds like rough work to me.  I couldn't be on my feet that long.  I'm glad you like it.  I hope you're doing alright in other aspects of your life. 

I hope all you other ladies are doing alright.  I've got a lot of homework to do this weekend, but of course I'll be checking in with my homegirls-
I've never killed anyone, but I frequently get satisfaction reading the obituary notices.-Clarence Darrow

Offline Queen Tokelove

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #8 on: September 28, 2007, 07:51:31 PM »
Nope, the rash hasn't gone away yet. The itching bothers me when I take only a teaspoon of the benadryl but when I take the 2 teaspoons I am out like a light. He says during the day take one or one and half teaspoons  of the benadryl. Uh, never had crabs, so I can't say how that feels. Has had a yeast infection that had me itching like crazy. I have to drink a lot of fluids to try to flush the bactrim out of my system. ID doc told me to give him a call back on Tuesday or Wednesday.

Yeah, I was tripping about losing posts too or getting the timed out message. I thought it was something going on with my laptop. I will be glad when things are back working right. Copying everything is a major pain in the ass. Have a good weekend, girls....
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
Cherish the simple things life has to offer

The Royal Blog

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #9 on: September 28, 2007, 09:03:08 PM »
Oh wow. A high-risk post. I can't NOT do this! Take the supreme risk of typing, not copying, only to see if it goes poof or public. Here I go!

Oh yes...just wanted to say hi. I'm fine. Frustrated. Busier than ever. Have another paperwork mountain to climb, but the goal is good so I'll persevere.

It's rhyme time.

We be the very bestest Forum bitches!
And some of us has the temporary itches
Soon comes the annual season of witches
You'll hear us cacklin' at the highest pitches!

Offline camille07

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #10 on: September 28, 2007, 09:21:36 PM »
Em love it! :D

Gosh just reading these posts are making me itchy.

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #11 on: September 28, 2007, 11:53:56 PM »
Hi Girls

Just checking in to say hi.  I have been super busy at work and will take the time to post tomorrow or Sunday.  My sister is coming into town with the niece and nephew tomorrow so I have to work a 12 hour day and come home to play with them.  So most likely I will be posting on Sunday and will get you guys up to speed with Cop #1 and Cop #2.  New developments not anything to exciting but making progress.  Night to all, keep smiling and stay healthy.  xoxoxoxoxo

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #12 on: September 29, 2007, 01:22:02 AM »
Hi GFs~ 

Nice to see all of you here!  I went to my support group tonight and met the gay guys, the last time I went it was women only.  Most of the people are just like me, and there was a lot of love in the room tonight.  I will keep going and make closer connections.  We all agreed that it was nice to have a "network", if anyone needs something, there is plenty of help to be given.  One person in there has been pos for 26 years!  Amazing!  The facilitator for the group is very happy that there are so many new faces, there were about a dozen of us tonight!

I have been calling Stone but haven't heard back.  He has his son this weekend, so maybe my timing is just off.  I really wanted to go to the Corn Maze tomorrow, but I guess it can wait until another weekend.  Maybe I'll try to mow the lawn, but I'm scared cause I heard what I thought was the blade rattling last time.  I have these visions of it coming loose and chopping off my leg, but I worry like that a lot, damn Sustiva!  I'll just wear my duck boots and mow fast, really fast!

Here are some links to Corn Mazes.  If you've never seen one or been in one, they are amazing!  I love a good "puzzle" and that's what these are -- GIANT-SIZED ones!

First row, far right picture is the maze I went in, in 2005.  With Mom Dad and 78yo grandmother!  It looks simple from the air, but took us 3 hours to find the checkpoints and then get out!                 
http://www.crumland.com/photos.php

This next one is amazing, its the one for this year, so I haven't gone yet!  Its the "MOONLIGHT MAZE" (hee hee), so you go at NIGHT with a flashlight, and try to find all of the checkpoints.  Open the link and scroll DOWN -- ITS HUGE!  Who wants to go?
http://www.mazeplay.com/showmaze.php?maze=50

Edited to add.....

BT~  The pump isn't a replacement for insulin.  It IS insulin, just a different method of receiving it.  I prefill the pod with Humalog, about 130 units for me, and that lasts me three days.  I pull off the pump, the cannula (flexible plastic needle) slides right out without any pain, and I dispose of it.  Every three days I prefill a new pod and put it on again.  I get 30 pods at a time (90-day supply) from OmniPod sent via DHL.  I get the insulin at the local pharmacy to fill them with.  The blood sugar meter is also the remote control for the pod, with a bunch of presets that your doc determines for you.  I get a "spec" (about one sixth of .75 units) administered every 10 minutes all day long.  This is what likens the pump to an IV, its always in you, always "dripping" insulin into you to keep you on an even keel.  When I eat meals or a snack, I test my sugar, tell the meter how many carbs I will be eating, and it calculates the extra amount of insulin I need for that meal, on top of the basal "24/7 drip" insulin.  Its pretty complex, but I like it cause I'm a numbers nerd!  Hee hee!

OK, going to try and post this now, lol.  "CONTROL C" to copy, before I do!  LOL   ;D

~Cindy
« Last Edit: September 29, 2007, 01:46:56 AM by MOONLIGHT1114 »
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #13 on: September 29, 2007, 06:52:59 PM »
Well, it looks like we're on a new system here so let's see if it's better and maybe we can all get back to normal. 

Queen, how is your rash?  Is it getting better yet?  I hope it subsides soon.  I hate itching.

Em, I love your poem! 

ML, I hope you hear from Stone so you guys can go to the maize.  They sound fun.  Thanks for telling me about the pump. 

I hope all you ladies are doing alright.  I did a lot of homework today.  Still no smoking!  That's probably why I'm a little edgy right now.  Take care ladies.
I've never killed anyone, but I frequently get satisfaction reading the obituary notices.-Clarence Darrow

Offline Queen Tokelove

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #14 on: September 29, 2007, 07:01:46 PM »
I think the posting thing has been resolved even though I am still having issues with my browser. This is one Witch who will have a ball on Halloween....*snaps her fingers* And I don't cackle or have a bump on my nose..Has issues with being misrespresented, nothing against your poem Em but am just saying. I know you didn't mean anything by it.

The itching is still there but feels a bit better. Still taking the benadryl but took a nice hot bath with baking soda in it which seem to help as well. Just checked my sugar, it was 66 and I was shaking like a leaf. It seems like I have more problems from the diabetes than the hiv...grrrrrrr. Either it's too damn high or it drops too low, it would be nice to have a happy medium.

Nothing to really talk about today. Just online and watching Silence of the Lambs, I love me some Hannibal, he could eat me all day..... :o
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
Cherish the simple things life has to offer

The Royal Blog

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #15 on: September 29, 2007, 08:07:10 PM »
Queen, I've been known to say that if I had my choice between HIV and diabetes, I would take HIV.  That's not meant lightly.  I've been in really bad situations with HIV, but the diabetes thing is such a pain in the arse. 
I've never killed anyone, but I frequently get satisfaction reading the obituary notices.-Clarence Darrow

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #16 on: September 29, 2007, 09:28:36 PM »
Hi GFs~

Just got home from spending all day with Stone and his son at the corn maze!  Oh we got SO turned around in there, walked for about 2 hours.  You get pieces of the map as you go, so when you first go in, you don't know where the heck you're going.  We saw farm animals, rode on pedal carts (yes, even ME!), had our pics taken in the pumpkins, went on a hayride at dusk--it was all so much fun!  I absolutely love this time of year!  Stone was very generous today, buying me lunch, park admission, dinner, wouldn't let me spend a dime.  He can be very sweet.  I worry when I don't talk to him for a few days, we hadn't spoken since Weds night and then he called late this morning.  I'm glad he did!

Queen~  I'm sorry you've got the itchies still, I hope you're getting some relief.  Yes, I know that benadryl can knock you on your butt, I take it to help me sleep sometimes.  Not much else going on here.  I'm going to go walk Cheech down to the mailbox on this beautiful crisp night, and get my Netflix.  More "Sex in the City" -- it makes me laugh, lol!  Have any of you ever watched it before?

~Cindy

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #17 on: September 29, 2007, 10:26:28 PM »
Hey Girls-

Don't have much to say, but wanted to see you were all doing.  Nice pictures, Cin, glad you had a  great day today.

Hugs cammie

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #18 on: September 29, 2007, 11:36:23 PM »
Hello ladies. Have been really busy but will give more details Monday. I have just been pulling a lot of shifts this weekend. But I can go get new shoes for me and Robert so that makes me happy. Tired, going to bed soon
Oh wow. A high-risk post. I can't NOT do this! Take the supreme risk of typing, not copying, only to see if it goes poof or public. Here I go!

Oh yes...just wanted to say hi. I'm fine. Frustrated. Busier than ever. Have another paperwork mountain to climb, but the goal is good so I'll persevere.

It's rhyme time.

We be the very bestest Forum bitches!
And some of us has the temporary itches
Soon comes the annual season of witches
You'll hear us cacklin' at the highest pitches!

Love it, em. I have requested Hallowween off so I can take  Robert out. I worked it last year so should get it off. We will have so much fun.                                                                            Queen , hope your rash improves. I hate being itchy and have extremely sensitive  Skin so am itchy a lot.    Love ya'll.  Will write again soon.    Oh, i found a new man friend to write . He is intelligent and I will keep ya'll posted.   Cristy

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #19 on: September 30, 2007, 07:31:16 AM »
Good morning ladies-

Cin, love the pictures!  It looks like a lot of fun. I must say, I watched a couple episodes of Sex & the City, but I'm more of a Seinfeld type person.  Everyone has different tastes though.  I'm glad you had a nice time with Stone.  I knew he was going to call you!

Cristy, I'm glad you're getting extra $ right now working a little extra.  What will your son be wearing this Halloween? 

I hope all you other ladies are doing o.k.  Your Highness, I'm hoping your rash is clearing by today.  I'm going to do a little exercising (it helps me to not want to smoke) and get ready for church. 
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« Reply #20 on: September 30, 2007, 09:26:15 AM »
Hi everyone,

Looks great, this corn maze, and T-shirt weather, here is rain poncho weather, everything is damp and rotten, it has been raining for months. Yesterday I went to the supermarket which is 1.5 min away on bike, I got back drenched it was like someone through me in a pool.

Please pray for me ladies that I am undetectable otherwise this means I have become resistent to a whole class of drugs, after only 1.5 years of using them.

I have the pain in my arm, Betty, I am glad you're not smoking, I am, from stress, but only a couple at night. And Queen, I hope the itch will stop asap. I command it to stop! Em, keep tackling that paper mountain, I know if you can't do it, no one can. Are they giving you a harder time due to your status? I hope not! I would like to adopt one day too (even if I have one naturally, I still want to). Camille, hope you're feeling better. Cristy, I was such a lousy waitress, I know how hard it is. Sun, I'm glad you're finding tarot useful, I don't know much about it but I always try things and get what I can out of it even when I am not a real believer. Good luck with the second officer of the law  ;)

I have to shower, make cupcakes and do some work. I love cooking, I wish I could enjoy working just a fraction of how I enjoy cooking. I did some watercolors yesterday, but the paints, brushes and even the papers were too cheap, all made in China... sure, blame it on the crooked dancefloor  ;).

PS, sex & the City is on TV here every night, I like it as entertainment, but I can't identify with them, at all. My favorite is Miranda, she's the most real. Actually Carrie is my least favorite. Maybe cos she's an anorexic cosmogirl  ???? Then again nothing on TV but documentaries relates even remotely to my life. Have you ever seen Mad TV's Sluts & the City? a bit rude, but they laugh at all this independent woman theme. You can find it on Youtube.
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #21 on: September 30, 2007, 09:30:51 AM »
Morning ladies-

BT-  I'm definitely seinfeld, but really love Curb you Enthusiasm.  I am so happy that they have a new season.  Btw-  when I watched the first episode of CYE I positively despised it!  Then I watched another one and I was hooked!

On another note-

I'm really distressed today for several reasons.
Ian has been emailing and IM'ing over the past week.  It started off really mean spirited and I avoided most of them.  I was also making it very clear that I'm willing to be friends, but that is all.  Last night I left my AOL AIm on and he posted this long diatribe about me being an a-hole....basically because "he is willing to die for me and do anything for me and for me not to want to go back is confusing".  I sent him an email with his post simply putting, "this is the reason why I don't want to be with you".    What I have figured out is that he really sweet in the morning, but by 6pm he very belligerent and just down right nasty.  It a basic equation of beer consumption.   It makes me realize how glad I am that I decided to leave the relationship.  I know the pain of losing someone you love makes you go into a range of emotions that you normally wouldn't experience, but as I wrote in earlier posts, he clearly had issues with his means of expression before hand.  Hence the break up.

Long story short, friday my boss was let go from the company I work for.  It is a subsidiary of a Japanese company.  I am terribly sad.  He was one of the best bosses I ever had and I had worked side by side with him for the past 5 years.  He's technically savvy so we really had a lot in common, techie wise.  I also disclosed to him the week I found out I tested poz.  He was very supportive.  I am also losing another co worker/ friend.  She is the accountant for the company and will be replaced shortly with a Japanese accountant.  For me, my job was a place I looked forward to everyday.  Not just because I love my work but the people were really amazing and supportive.  I really feel so devastated and ill.   It took me years to find that perfect job and I had for the last 5 years.  Now its time for a new season I guess and make the most of it while I still have a job.  Trust me, I am very grateful to still be employed.  And I know some of you guys are having a heck of a time finding a job and some are too sick to work.   I hope I don't offend anyone by my whining.  The real issue here is just losing great friends and co workers that were with me on my journey in life. 

I also get my results back tomorrow morning so wish me well. 

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #22 on: September 30, 2007, 09:32:59 AM »
Drag-  Just read you post right after I posted.  When do you find out your results?

I will definitely pray for you. :)

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #23 on: September 30, 2007, 11:01:52 AM »
Hello

Sunday morning  -- and it is truly a Sun Day here. Lovely fall weather. Cool enough to work outside all day and not a cloud in the sky.

Jumping right in.

Drag - I do hope your results are excellent and re: your question about my status being cause for a hard time? Not that I'm aware of--I think the govt. is crossing every t, even if to excess. I'm trying not to give it any undue attention or wondering and just move on ahead.

You mentioned doing watercolors. My friend and I paint at her kitchen table as a quiet form of therapy. Watercolors are a great medium for expressing feelings or for experimenting.

GQ - You're right. The poem had zero to do with you or witchcraft. Just a whimsical moment started by the word 'itches' after reading your post. I do hope your skin has calmed down.

CAM--You certainly received more than enough affirmations regarding your decision to stop seeing Ian.  Wishing for you the joy of waving a sparkler and not the eyeful nor earful of a raging fireworks' grand finale. Edited to add: I hope the job situation is not too unsettling. That's a lot of changes both at home and work.

ML -- It's nice that you got to spend time with Stone and his son. Nothing beats being outdoors in the fall while doing something fun.

CJ -- I remember how important new shoes were when I was a kid and what a big deal it was to pick a new pair. Hope you and Robert have fun shopping together.

BT - Congrats on the continued non-smoking. Freeing up an addiction is a wonderful form of self-love.

Yesterday I bought a book, which I finished this morning. It was recommended by someone with my best interests at heart...and I want to pass along the title.

There's Nothing Wrong with You: Going Beyond Self-Hate by Cheri Huber

"A compassionate process for learning to accept yourself exactly as you are."

We are conditioned in childhood to think of ourselves as bad, inadequate, etc. and there is a way to undo the conditioning with some practice and diligence. The author has been a student and teacher of Zen for more than 30 years.

To everyone, cited or not, I wish for you a good day.

Em
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #24 on: September 30, 2007, 11:15:49 AM »
To Drag and Camille~   I am praying for good labs for the both of you.  Drag, I became resistant to the PIs (Fortovase) after 6 years of taking them, and moved on to Sustiva soon after.  I have heard that there are two new classes of drugs in the pipeline, so there are more options, please don't worry too much.  You will be just fine, resistant or not.  Modern medicine is an awesome thing!

I go get labs done this week or next for my doc's appt on 10/16, so I'll see how my stressful summer has affected me.  I usually do pretty good, just been so tired!

Cam~  I didn't know you were going through so much with Ian, esp alcohol-related.  That end of the day moodiness by one who drinks is a losing battle.  I speak from experience with my mother, a wine drinker who can never go without.  Sometimes the one drinker is just so nonsensical and immature, picking arguments and whining about very little, miniscule things, blowing everything out of proportion.  Its so damn irritating and in my opinion, a waste of time to deal with if they can't grow up!  Ugh!  Blood pressure is rising over here.

As for work, I'm sorry to hear about the transition with two of your faves leaving the company.  It sounds like you really enjoyed these people, and I hope that there are others that can help brighten the days at work.  If these people are/were so great, I'm sure you won't be the only one to miss them, and you'll make some new confidants, no worries!

Ah yes, to have a job, lol!..........

I am going to go make pancakes for Cheech and I now!  Next I will search the paper for jobs to apply to.  I just don't feel as bright, these assessment tests are screwing with my brain every time I go to see a recruiter.  Its never the same in the tests as it is in real life.  I've just gotta get my foot in the door somewhere!

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #25 on: September 30, 2007, 11:22:53 AM »
Hi Camille,

I think I can call for my results Thus or Fri. I wish you luck with yours. I understand totally about the work, it seems nothing is stable anymore, so hard to reach and retain peace.

This is the first time I am stressed about results to be honest, but that's b/c a lot is at stake. It's not about the CD4s, i know those flactuate, but the issue of resistence...

Ian sounds like an alcoholic. I hope he will not bother you anymore. I'm so sorry you had to go through this, but you are too level headed and smart to be dragged into a sticky situation.

I didn't manage to work yet, I think I will go read my self-help book too, it's called "Change one thing". I am basically trying to break out of the rut of idling and mindless munching, that's one thing I really wanna change, 2 actually...

Cheech is a lucky dog, eating pancakes. My cupcakes don't turn out so well (I said I love to cook, didn't say I was talented). They are kind of heavy, not puffy. Good luck with the week's interviews Cindy. It's like guys really, only takes one...  :-*
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #26 on: September 30, 2007, 01:38:31 PM »
Afternoon Ladies--- I hope you all are having a nice relaxing, stress-free type of day. I am still itching but it looks like the rash is clearing up on my arms but not so much on my back from what my roomie tells me. The itching is driving me crazy and in some areas it hurts to scratch. It's time for me to take some benadryl anyways but was trying to hold off because I just had a wake and bake.... :D I'll be sleep again before you know it. But that is usually how I spend my SUndays anyway, just resting.

Not sure if many of you remember but I had got into a car accident back in March. The car was damaged but then the person I got into the accident found my car and did more damage to it. Just didn't have the money to get her fixed so I drove her as she is. Today is technically the last day I can drive her since the inspection will have expired. I love my car. She is an 85 Chevy Caprice Classic. My first car since I just got my license 3 years ago. We have been through a lot together in those 3 years and been a few places. I know it sounds crazy but I am sad because in so many words, I'm putting her down. She'll end up a mental cube. :'(

Now I will be out of transportation for awhile. My best friend has loaned me my godson's car but it needs some work done to it and also has to be made legal. My godson can't get the car til he graduates in '09, so it was given to me til then. What it needs at the moment besides the legal paperwork is a battery and I think a fuel injector. I say think because the car was started once but it caught on fire and the person who checked it is not sure if it needs one or not. Which is frustrating for me because when check day comes, I usually try to have the money for the battery at least but I still never knows if it needs a fuel injector or not. I could take it to a mechanic but they usually try to overcharge me and the mechanic I did have has since retired. So, I am trying to get this car up and running before the snow hits.

Camille--- Sorry about Ian but better you find out sooner than later. I would agree with Drag and say he is an alcoholic thus the reason for his meanness. But what gets me is he really thinks you are suppose to put up with it. I am glad you showed him his own words. Maybe he will realize how abusive he really is and get some help. Good Luck with getting your results. I hope you get good news.

Drag--- Good Luck with your results too. Good to see you post again, was wondering what was going on with you.

Cindy-- Glad you had fun in the mazes with Stone and Junior. I agree with Drag, Cheech is a lucky dog, sounds like he eats what you eat. Good Luck with the interviews again this week.
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6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #27 on: September 30, 2007, 07:22:44 PM »
Good evening ladies:

Drag and Cam:  I got my fingers crossed for you guys' test results.  I'm resistant to PIs also (it seems a few of us on these forums are), but there are other things.  I was reading about some new "tropism" drug coming out.  I never remember where I read things at, though.  Crazy.  Sometimes it seems like I can remember things one second, then the next I can't remember shit. 

I hope all you other ladies are doing alright.  I finished my homework today and made some muffins.  (Double chocolate).  They're pretty good actually.  I gave some to one of my neighbors.  Other than that, my Sunday has been kind of boring.  I looked in the paper today for jobs, but there just doesn't seem to be much.  Not sure how it is in your end of the world, Cin.  I hope you have better luck.  Have a good evening ladies-

Edited to add:  Cam, my first husband was an abusive alcoholic.  He was the nicest thing when he was sober, but just add alcohol, and he was a son-of-a-bitch.  Funny how some people get like that.
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #29 on: October 01, 2007, 02:07:24 AM »
And what would we do w/o you Cindy who keeps us and the threads all together.. :D
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #30 on: October 01, 2007, 11:02:31 AM »
Hi Girls-

BT-  I swear I can smell the muffins, yum.  Not good, trying to lose weight.....added about 10 pounds when I was with Ian.  Have to lose for my 20th year reunion.  I didn't go to my 10th, but much to my chagrin, I've been talked into it.

OK so here's the results I received this morning:
CD4 went down to 300 from 410
cd4% went down to 30 something to 29.7
vl went from 1500 to 650

Doctor stills wants me off meds cause the VL is so low.  She will recheck in Dec.  She thinks my cd4 went down because of the lyme's disease.

Over all, I'm very happy.  Thank you everyone for your prayers and support.

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #31 on: October 01, 2007, 11:24:53 AM »
 Hi Camille, if you're happy, Im happy :) . I hope your immune system picks up and you can stay off for a while longer.

I won't know mine till end of the week.

As for me, all OK, but drowning in work  :-\

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« Reply #32 on: October 01, 2007, 05:19:13 PM »
Hi GFs~

I would give anything to be drowning in work right now.  I made two calls today and left messages.  I apply to jobs every day, and now I feel I have to go through a recruiter or wait for some good luck.  Time is running out, shit.  I need to be working.  I am more aggressively seeking jobs, trying to talk with people on the phone so that I can sell myself that way.  Something has got to give.  Stone didn't return my call from Saturday night yesterday, just a quick email from him when he woke up overnight last night.  This has me feeling sort of lonely cause we had such a good time on Saturday together.  I guess he just has other things going on and doesn't feel the need to call.  This is all so depressing, I really just want to be working, but I really don't want to settle for just any job. 

I'll hang in there, tomorrow is a new day. 

Also, today is my wedding anniversary, I was married on 10/1/94, and most of you know the rest of the story.  I am OK, the years have definitely made me stronger.  I am beginning to wonder if I even want to be in a relationship, I do pretty well being independent.  Dating is fine for now, I suppose.

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #33 on: October 01, 2007, 08:26:02 PM »
Hello Ladies. Just checking in. Not much going on here, this is my day off. but I won't be quite so busy or tired this week since I only have 4 shifts and only one is a "double". I went shopping today.Got Robert some shoes and me some new work shoes. I love those treadsafe shoes they sell at Walmart. Never slip in them even with me being quite clumsy. I'm always covered in bruises. just how my skin is .                ML, love the pictures. We have one of those, near Winston-Salem , I think. Maybe I can take Robert in a couple weeks. Glad things seem to be going well for you. Hang in there as far as your job hunt, eventually you  will find what you need.                                                          Camille, sorry how things worked out with your friend. Better to know now than later.   Glad you are happy about your labs.                          Queen, good luck with the car. I had a 93 caprice Classic LTZ(never figured out what that meant).I loved it . It was Black and would Fly (had a V8). I liked that people thought it was a cop car. Made me laugh how they would slow down when I came near in it.     Hope the new car can be fixed inexpensively. Hope your itches have greatly improved.                                                                                      Em, hope things are going well for you.Love ya.                                     Betty, Congrats on your continued nonsmoking. Ciggies are the most addictive things ion existence so Be Proud of yourself. Those muffins sound good. I like to bake but I do most of it at Christmas and give it away as gifts. If I bake for the house , we make piggies of ourselves and gobble it all up. I haven't decide what Robert will wear, I did request off cause I worked it last year and made sure to remind my manager(nicely) that it's my turn. I will take him to Walmart this weekend and let him pick his own  costume. I took him in 2005 dressed as a pumpkin and we had such a great time. I loved watching him be excited.                                                My oldest boy had his court date changed. The newest hasn't been posted yet but It's been kicked up to Superior. We will track it and the DA is keeping us up to date.                                        My brother is coming (supposedly)this Thursday to visit or live, I'm not sure. Not looking forward to it. He is very selfish and I love him but he gets on my last nerve acting like he is owed something by everyone at times. We have deeper issues but I like for him to stay away and just talk to him on the phone. We get along better that way. Enough of my bitching.                                                         A brighter note, I had a new guy to talk to  but think I turned him off when I told him I smoke weed and used to have a drug problem. Have been clean several years but it can be  hard for some people to accept. Maybe that's not the case and he will write again soon. Physically not my type but love his mind, very down to earth, single parent and smart. Maybe......                                                   Anydody I forgot, SS, Dragonette,   hope ya'll are well.   Love to you all.  Cristy

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #34 on: October 01, 2007, 09:29:02 PM »
Good evening ladies:

Cin, the job search can be such a drag.  I haven't found one yet either.  I went to a job fair today and there were about 200 people there.  It was depressing.  So I'm going to quit looking for a couple days and take a break and read or start one of my reports for school.  Don't worry about Stone.  He was probably busy with his son.  Just hang in there, girl.  Things are going to get brighter.  I can feel it.

Queen, how is your rash?  Going down?  Hope so.

Thanks everyone for the congrats on quitting smoking.  It's hard.  I really wanted one today.  But I didn't have one.  It's been three weeks.  The cravings are less and less severe.  But I've been eating more, which doesn't help my already lipo'd stomach.  I look like I'm going to go into labor any second! :D  Oh well, I don't care.  It's better than the alternative right now.  I'l worry about the weight later.  I hope everyone's doing alright.  Luv you guys. 
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« Reply #35 on: October 01, 2007, 10:25:12 PM »
All's well here.

Just got off the phone with the social worker. Discussed our strategy for updating the home study for the adoption. Set a date for her to come to the house for the interview. Forward motion is now formally engaged.

Otherwise, just hacking through stuff. Waiting to hear about work. Sanding, priming, painting. Laundering, mowing, sewing. Sometimes there's light at the end of the tunnel and sometimes not. Continuing to work part-time and freelance. Still in touch with GM. So, quite a bit is simply status quo.

Which isn't so bad--there's a certain calmness present.

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #36 on: October 01, 2007, 10:44:54 PM »
Not much to report today. The rash seems to be clearing up, even on my back. I have to give my ID doc a call tomorrow anyway. I haven't been itching hardly at all and so far hasn't taken any benadryl today but prolly will before I go to bed. It's that time again....Time to redo the braids. I started tonight hopefully it will not take a week to get done this time even though I have been doing it in blocks of 4 hours. They're small braids...

EM--- Glad things are in motion again with the adoption. Sanding? Priming? Painting? What are you doing over there? If I didn't know any better it sounds like you were painting a car. Ugh, me and the roomie has to do laundry tomorrow. Misses the laundry room in the old apartment buliding already. But the laundrymat is only around the corner so I can only bitch so much.

Christy--- Sounds like the arrival of your brother is going to cause you stress. And you say he may be living with you? Why? I would let him know from the door that he couldn't stay but that is just me, I guess. Yeah, my Caprice has a V-8 engine too and can still haul ass even with all the damage. Most get a kick seeing a female in a Caprice around here and mine especially because it has a nice system in it. Has never had a problem with the cops either, I even give them a nod from time to time when I pass them.. ;D

That's about it for me....
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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #37 on: October 01, 2007, 11:31:10 PM »
Hi Ladies

I am back for a few days.  I have been lurking, but I have been so busy that I have not had time to write.  But I am still wishing you guys well and hope everyone is doing great.  Well, last week I spoke to Cop #1 and told him that he for lack of a better term screws me up in the head and he can't not call me one night then not hear from him for 2 weeks.  He said he was sorry that he did not call for two weeks but then he makes things into a joke.  I told him that I did not think this was a joke.  I know that is his way of dealing with stressful situations.  I think I need to get him alone and talk with him face to face, he seems to do much better that way since he has to look at me and he can't walk away.  I am trying not to focus on that, I have cop #2 to focus on.  Saturday I leave to see Cop #2 and am getting really nervous.  He has been so great.  Every day he sends me text messages telling me that he has been thinking about me and can't wait to see each other.  I hope that he feels that same way after I tell him.  Like I said before I am not sure when that is going to be. I hope he turns out to be like EM's man.  So everyone pray for me. 

EM-  I may have missed this during another thread but how old is the child that you are adopting.  It sounds like you are busy getting things ready for the big arrival.

Cristy-  Hope things work out with your brother coming.  I am glad that you got Halloween of to take Robert out.  I can't wait to hear what he picks out for his costume.  My nephew is really into Star Wars so he is going to be Darth Vader and my little niece is going to be Princess Lea.  So that should be cute.  I got my costume and I am going to be Little Red Riding Hood.  My girlfriends and I  are going to be storybook characters.

Queen- Glad to see you are feeling better.  I have always wished I could to my hair in braids they look so cool.  I have short hair, right now I have the Posh Spice/Victoria Beckham hair do.  I change my hair just about as much as I change my underwear.  Two months ago I came to work with extentions then 4 weeks later my hair was short and two weeks later I put brown streaks in it.  Tomorrow I am getting my hair done so I don't know what I am going to end up with.

Betty- I wish that I have as much determination to stop eating as you do with smoking.  I admire you.

I know that I am forgetting some of you ladies and I am sorry.  My wrist is killing me and I need to go and ice it.  I will check back in before I leave on Saturday

Hugs to all.
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #38 on: October 02, 2007, 07:27:25 AM »
Hi girls-

Work is strange with a tinge of paranoia.  Oh wait, not a tinge, but a entire landscape of fear. We've all stopped communicating and stand around like it's 1984, big brother is watching.  We found  camera software installed on one of the pcs recently...that's really upsetting.  Needless to say, I am getting the resumes out as soon as possible.  It's really effed up.

queen-  glad to hear the rash is clearing up, but happy to hear your gonna see your ID doc in any event.

em-  you sound so productive.  what's the time table for the actual adoption?

BT-- Keep going on the no smoking.  When of the best things about quitting, besides the obvious is regaining your sense of smell.

Sun-  Good luck on disclosing.  I know its terribly difficult especially when you're pursuing a relationship.

Oh I tell you ladies about my appointment yesterday....in detail because it was so unusual.  When I first heard about my cd4 drop I was really upset.  I started to cry.  First time in the doctors office.  Then my doctor came in and told me that everything was ok and that my vl was so low I was on that line, but was confident that it was my "partying with Ian"(no sleep, much more drinking than usual, smoking with the beer,..eh)  that made it drop.  Anyway, she started talking about forgiveness....whether if people really forgive, especially if they still harbor feelings of bitterness and resentment.  It really turned into a philosophical debate.  she started to share with me moments of her childhood that were pivotal.  I have to say by the time I left I had completely forgotten about results and life was good again.  It was one of those moments in life that you have no idea how it comes about but its meaningful in the context of your life.   Anyway my doctor is great and I really blessed to have her.  That's really a whole other thread.  She has created programs at the hospital like nothing I ever heard or read on this board. 

Love you all and be well!

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Cammie

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #39 on: October 02, 2007, 07:52:31 AM »
Good morning ladies:

Cam, you sound like you have a really unique doctor.  It's nice to hear about anyone in the medical establishment acting like a human being.  Sometimes I think they're trained to see people as robots.  Sounds like your doc is definitely a keeper!

Em, I bet you're getting excited about the adoption.  Fill me in again on the particulars about the kid.  How old, girl or boy, etc.  I can't remember...

Queen, I'm glad the rash is subsiding.  So it doesn't seem to be the Atripla, which I'm glad for.  You don't have to worry about changing HIV meds; what a relief.

Sun, I don't know what to say about that triangle thing you've got going on. :D  Good luck with disclosing.  If he's worth it, it'll be alright.  If not, then fuck him.  (excuse my language). 

Cristy and Cin and everyone else, I hope you guys are doing alright.  Nothing exciting planned for me today.  I have school tonight.  My "Counseling Theories" class.  I have two more papers to write for that.  There were a total of three for the class, but I already wrote one, which is actually due tonight.  The classes go by so fast, because where I go to school, the classes are only eight weeks long.  There's still a 15-week semester's worth of work in them though, which kind of makes them intense.  I'm glad I'm in school, though.  I don't know what I'd be doing if I wasn't in school.  I can't seem to find part-time work.  I have a 14 year gap in my job history because of having to go on disability in '93 when I got the wasting syndrome and went down to 78 lbs.  Who knew that all these new medications would come out that would extend our lives?  But, anyway, there is that gap in my history, and I haven't yet thought of something really believable to tell people about what I've been doing.  I'm not going to stress about it though.  I guess when the time's right, it'll happen.  Talk to everyone later.
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #40 on: October 02, 2007, 09:45:01 AM »
Cam and BT -- to answer your questions..
This is a challenging time right now because the paperwork process hit a bump in the road, but the social worker and I are on it amending things as fast as possible. To be intentionally brief about it, I am adopting a twelve-year-old girl and the fact that it's an international adoption brings with it a slew of variables. It's been 1-3/4 years thus far, but I'm in for the haul---whatever it takes to bring her here. I look at her photos and imagine what it's like to be in her shoes, in her orphanage, etc. That exercise re-enlivens me at every obstacle.
Wishing everyone an excellent week. BT, I'll PM you regarding a way to handle the gap. Em
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #41 on: October 02, 2007, 10:15:08 AM »
To all the US-based Positive Women, I invite you to go to this link http://www.kintera.org/site/lookup.asp?c=nlI2IeN1JyE&b=2579775
as soon as possible due to the GLBT-sought, hard-won, two-week extension on the vote for this bill. It takes less than 30 seconds to participate. For further understanding, go to Mouse's thread in Off Topic, I'm not part of your bill, I'm not part of your community. Em
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #42 on: October 02, 2007, 06:09:51 PM »
Hi GFs~

Wouldn't you know Stone called last night at 7pm, while I was fighting back tears over the job situation?  He was near my place and wanted to take me to dinner.  I was really bummed and didn't try to hide it, you know, as far as the job search.  That man looked me right in the eyes and said that I would find something.  Just like all of you.  Sometimes I just need to hear it to make me feel better, and I appreciate it.  I may have to settle for a job that pays $30K a year and supplement my income with credit cards in the meantime.  I was being paid upper $30s. close to $40K a year before this hiatus.  I have done my budget and really need to take home $2K a month to make ends meet with bills, gas and food.  Nevermind all of the other stuff.  Thank goodness for MADAP, is all I can say!

I called Stone this afternoon and told him I wanted to see him, so we are meeting later as well.  Baby steps, baby steps.....

Cristy~  Hang in there with your brother coming to town.  Its tough to bite that tongue, but do it for the greater good initially if he's only visiting.  If he decides to stay permanently, then hold down the fort any way you need to, as you will be sharing space with the entire family.  It can't all be about one person, namely him, if you know what I mean!

BT~  Sorry the job fair was lousy for you.  Are you having trouble finding the PT job that you want, or is it the pay, or both?  I know, I know, I feel like someone needs to cut us a break already.  I mean, we want to work, we want to get out there, but there isn't a good fit.  I really wanted to have a choice in what I do, run an office, make a difference, and now I feel like I have to dumb myself down to get my foot in the door at a lower-paying job.  Maybe its better this way, the transition could be smoother, since I haven't worked in months now.  I have a meeting with a great recruiter on Thursday, the job only pays $25K - $30K a year, but they need some billing help.  If I got in there and really did GREAT with very little billing, they could see me as an asset.  Climb the ladder time, I say.  Hang in there, maybe go work at a mall?  Thats what I would do if I could only do PT.  Its more fun that way!  Work at a record store, a card store, where the atmosphere is fun!  Go for it!

GQ~  How's the hair coming along?  I remember!  It took you a week in early August to undo that DO, lol!  I'm glad to hear that the rash is leaving you, that Benadryl can really knock you out, as I'm sure you know.  Sorry to hear that you have to let go of your '85 Chevy, yeah, I can see you nodding at the cops as you pass them!  LOL  You are too much!  I always wanted a '75 Monte Carlo for my first car.  Its what my parents drove back in the day.  I still get excited when I see one on the road, which is rare.  Remember those tanks?   ...............Any peeps from Boo-Man?

Em~  Glad to hear you are being so productive with things around the house.  I wish I had that energy.  I am still trying to clean and straighten.  Stone said he would help me paint my living room if I wanted to.  I just hate to ask favors of people, but maybe I'll take him up on it.  It would be fun and make me feel better!  I admire your patience with all of the paperwork you have to go through with your daughter.  Its great that you are bringing someone else into your life.  I don't have to tell you that the wait will be WELL worth it!  Do you have other children or is she going to be your first?  I am very excited for you!

Sun~  I am praying, I am SO praying for you.  I knew how scared I was when I posted here over the summer and all I was doing was dating neggies.  I had the fear of God in me.  These threads have made me so much stronger, so much more confident, and all of you have really given me a great sense of belonging and self-worth.  So, Sun, if you disclose and he is fearful, curious, scared, whatever......just think of it as a warm up for the next guy.  Please don't take that the wrong way.  When I dated a lot of neggies a few years ago, I found I got stronger as I disclosed to more people.  I know the rejection can still hurt when you have your heart set on one guy, but you are worthy.  I think the best thing we can do, and this is the hardest, is to try not to be over emotional when disclosing.  You never know how the guy will react, so all you can do is just say it.  Please don't feel guilty if this weekend isn't the "time" for you to disclose.  There's nothing wrong waiting until next time, and allowing YOURSELF some breathing room in the meantime.

Cam~  I was so surprised to read that they are monitoring things at work!  Goodness!  Is the place falling apart?  Going under?  I'm sure the atmosphere must be very different with two of your favorite people gone and now all of this paranoia you write of.  At least you have your radar up.  I hope you can find something that suits you where you are, if it comes to that.

Drag~  Busy working girl, know that we are all thinking about you, even when you're off doing spreadsheets!  Damn Excel, I wouldn't mind if I never dealt with that program again.  I used to love it but now it just gives me a headache, lol!  Thinking of you, GF!

~Cindy

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #43 on: October 02, 2007, 10:30:59 PM »
This bears repeating.

To all US-based Positive Women forum members:

I invite you to go to this link http://www.kintera.org/site/lookup.asp?c=nlI2IeN1JyE&b=2579775 as soon as possible. Due to the GLBT-sought, hard-won, two-week extension on the vote for this bill, there's time to let your voices be heard by your representatives through this link.

It takes less than 30 seconds to participate. For further understanding, go to Mouse's thread in Off Topic, which is titled "I'm not part of your bill, I'm not part of your community."

Thank you.
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« Reply #44 on: October 03, 2007, 06:14:06 AM »
Em, Indiana Equality always e-mails me about this kind of stuff, and I already sent the appropriate e-mails through them.  But thanks for posting the link.  I hope more women participate.  It's really a shame that they want to leave transgendered people out. 

Cin, the reason I think I'm having such a hard time is that I haven't worked in 14 years.  That leaves a big gap.  I got very ill with the wasting syndrome back in '93 and got down to 78 lbs (I'm 5'9").  So I had to go on disability.  Everyone thought that I was a goner.  Hospice was even called in by my doctor.  Actually, it's a miracle that I recovered from that.  The recovery was slow.  The last job I had was a medical transcriptionist.  Nowawadays, most people do that out of their home.  And I don't have the equipment to do that and usually you have to know someone.  I do hope we can find something pretty soon.  I probably should be using employment agencies.  When I went to that job fair, there was about 200 people there.  There are so many people in my area that are without work.  I guess it's the same all across the country.  Good luck dear.

I hope all you other ladies are doing alright.  In a couple days, it's supposed to be in the upper 80's here.  Amazing!  I think it probably has to do with global warming.  Did anyone see that Al Gore movie "An Inconvenient Truth?"  It was a little scarey to me.  I wonder if there will be a planet earth around when my grandkids have kids or their own grandkids.  Nothing exciting going on around here.  Most people are still sleeping.  I don't know why I'm up so early.  Had a fitful night, strange dreams etc.  I hope everyone has a peaceful day-
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #45 on: October 03, 2007, 09:27:23 AM »
Hi Em~  Thanks for the link, I just submitted my letter moments ago.

Hi BT~  Yes, I am up very early today, like you, well all things considered, this IS early.  Stone had to be at work early and he is never out of the house early at all.  I made sure he got up and helped with the dog.  We were out of his place at 815am today.  Ironically he is working just miles from my place.  I should go spy on him, he's really hot, lol!

I was checking out traffic as I drove back to my house this morning, all of the cars were streaming in a rolling back-up, heading down-county to Stone's area.  I was thinking, well, maybe I COULD do this commute, it would just take awhile to go frikkin 20 miles! 

So, here I am awake and posting at 9am and my phone rings.  Its the recruiter I met with last Friday, calling about the job in my town where you have to like dogs!  She is pushing to get me an interview this afternoon!  I would be the first one in the door, and she is going very high with the salary.  To think I was/am ready to work for 30K is a joke.  She is pushing for mid-30s so hopefully something will give.  The recruiter also wanted to make sure that I could work independently!?!?!  OMG, like I need someone telling me every move to make after all of this time?  I am a great self-starter, like to figure things out on my own and can have a very long leash (no pun intended since this job has dogs at it, lol)!  I hope I can land this job, I have really settled some in my mind as far as salary, but I have to keep on trying......

Fingers crossed!

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #46 on: October 03, 2007, 09:28:38 AM »
Em, Indiana Equality always e-mails me about this kind of stuff, and I already sent the appropriate e-mails through them.  But thanks for posting the link.  I hope more women participate.  It's really a shame that they want to leave transgendered people out.

Thanks BT.

Hi Em~  Thanks for the link, I just submitted my letter moments ago

Thanks ML.
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #47 on: October 03, 2007, 09:33:11 AM »
ML: I hope the interview goes well for you. Em

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« Reply #48 on: October 03, 2007, 09:34:25 AM »
ML: I hope the interview goes well for you. Em

Me, too!   ;D   :D   ;D   :D   Thanks!
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #49 on: October 03, 2007, 10:26:38 AM »
Good luck ML! And to all those who need it...

Betty, I have seen Gore's film and link to the trailer in my signature here. It's really shocking.

Here we see the opposite, cold, wet, dreary summer and now in early Oct it's like November, but the winter itself is mild, the canals should freeze over, but they hadn't for over a decade, and last year was the first time they had to spray fake snow in the ski resorts in the Alps when the season started (not in the Netherlands - this place is as flat as it gets; and dont think that because I write this I have ever seen a ski resort anywhere but in a movie...  ;))
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #50 on: October 03, 2007, 02:30:21 PM »
Well, the one recruiter must not have been able to get ahold of the client, so no interview today.  Going to meet with another recruiter tomorrow and she just had a new opportunity come up today for a long-term temp position in my town.  Also, another call came in, but its just for "A/P Clerk" so I'm thinking it won't pay much, I'll see.  Waiting to hear back.

Edited to add:  I heard back about the AP Clerk position, and omg it pays!  I asked on the phone about salary and its up there.  I wowed the HR lady who was doing phone interviews and I have an interview with the CFO on Friday.  This place is about 30 miles from me one way, but its east towards Baltimore, rather than south towards DC.  South towards DC equals gridlock around here.  Anyway, this position is at corporate for a successful landscaping company that has five offices in the area.  This position is also in charge of taking care of 125 cell phones that the employees have?   :o  Holy moley!  I can do that, just report probs to vendors, ship phones, get new ones in, etc., but omg 125?  Hee-hee, I love a challenge! 

GFs keep sending the good vibes my way, so much has happened in just the past 24 hours on the job front for me!  Three interviews with clients (not recruiters) on the horizon!

Whew!
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #51 on: October 03, 2007, 06:20:32 PM »
Seriously need some medical advice...I posted this in the other forum but no responses :-[

One of my poz friends has a mysterious symptom that recently came up.  He has been off meds for the last two months due to a break in his insurance.  I urged him on the phone to at least go to a near by clinic.

Anyway, he was telling me that he recently developed red spots on his eye lids.  He thinks it may be from getting violently ill the other day and the pressure of throwing up in his temple region was extreme.  Perhaps blood vessels that popped.

Has anyone ever heard of this before?

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« Reply #52 on: October 03, 2007, 08:37:10 PM »
Hey Cam

Found this post from a person on a health website. It jibes with your notion of what/why. I bolded the part that should put your mind, and your friend's mind, at ease.

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Hi,

This is normal and nothing to worry about. I get the little red spots when ever I vomit. I usually get it on my eyelids, however, I currently have a stomach bug and have been vomitting regularly. My face is now covered in them i.e. on my chin down the side of my face an on my eyelids. It happens when you are sick because of the pressure your body is experiencing. Basically they are broken blood vessels. They take anything from 1-3 days to go away. If I'm better tomorrow I may have to wear make up for the day as I doubt they will clear up by then. 

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #53 on: October 03, 2007, 09:36:51 PM »
EM-  thanks, that's a relief. 

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« Reply #54 on: October 04, 2007, 07:01:06 AM »
Good morning ladies:

Well, Cin, I sure hope your interviews go well!  I am still sending good wishes and a lot of positive energy your way!  As for me, I've taken a break from the looking for a job thing right now.  I wish I didn't have this 14 year gap in my history, but I'm glad I have disability. It's not anywhere near the money I could get if I was still doing my old job (medical transcriptionist), but it's survivable.  And that's about it.  Surviving.....  Good thing I don't smoke anymore.  I don't know how I could have ever afforded cigarettes at today's prices.  Indiana's tax on cigarettes went up .45 cents a pack a couple months ago.  That would make what I spent on cigarettes $7.00/day, because I smoked Basics (menthol).  Brand name cigarettes are like $4.00/pack.  I know they're going up everywhere.  It's really tough, to stay quit, at times, but it's worth it, I know.  I've just gained so much weight in such a short time, it scares me that I'll end up really huge.  Not that it scares me so much appearance wise; health wise.  But maybe it'll even out. 

Today I'm going to see a diabetes educator.  I have to take my meter, so I imagine she'll read my the riot act as soon as she sees how my numbers have been off so much of the time.  It seems like lately either they're really high or really low.  Neither one is good; I need to find a middle ground (a more normal ground) with them.  I just have such a hard time trying to control my sweet tooth!  I know, I know, get sugar-free candy.  But it's just not the same! ;)

How's everyone else doing?  After tonight's class, there's only two more weeks of these classes left, then I change classes.  Next time, one of the classes is going to be college algebra.  Yuck!  If it wasn't required, I wouldn't take it.  It took me two years to pass algebra in high school and I only passed it because the teacher was tutoring me.  Even then, I didn't pass it with anything higher than a "C." 

I hope everyone has a good day-
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #55 on: October 04, 2007, 07:10:49 AM »
About the smoking , its a good thing you stopped ! Its mentioned everywhere that hiv and smoking is not a good combination,
I am not addicted... I can smoke one day 3 cigarets and then not touching it for a week, now I am sick so I can't even smell it, and specialy when I am trying to get pregnant I prefer not getting close to the smoke... My husband used to smoke one pack a day, then , one day he decided to quit so he said I will save the money I spent per month on cigarets and if I'll make it for a year I'll by myself a present with the money... So he did make it and save approx nis5000 which is approx usd+1200... so he is planning now to buy probably a big plasma screen or something like that, nice... isn't it?


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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #56 on: October 04, 2007, 09:33:18 AM »
Hey BT

Don't worry about the weight thing too much. The average gain for someone who quits is twelve pounds. I gained 2.5 times that after I quit, but what made it all melt away is (you'll love this part)...I was enrolled in college. Walked everywhere, studied my literal ass off and dropped 18 lbs in what seemed like overnight. The rest came off with just walking and better eating habits --at some point, I stopped substituting food for cigs.

A woman psychologist I spoke with at the time I quit said--look, you just break it down into two problems. First, quit smoking. Then, lose weight. Many people get all tied up in knots about quitting because they're afraid of gaining weight. It's just part of the whole process and not terribly hard to accomplish.

I applaud what you did and what you're doing BT.

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #57 on: October 04, 2007, 09:55:15 AM »
Hi BT~

Yes, at least you're saving money on not buying cigs anymore, that's true!  That tax is high!  Don't give in, you've come this far!

As for the diabetes educator, well my entire life I have been high and low, can't seem to find a happy medium, even on the pump.  What's you A1C like?  I get mine done every 3 months.  A year ago it crept up to 7.2 and I went on the pump.  Only just recently in July, did it go to 6.9.  The ADA wants diabetics to be under 7.0, and the scale goes up to 15!?!?!  Can you imagine what poor control that would be?

As for the sweet tooth thing, I am exactly the same.  I try to psych myself out with a Diet Coke.  Even if you eat sugar-free items, you're still ingesting carbs and that's what makes your sugar go up.  So, I say eat what you want, but in moderation along with exercise!  Do you walk around on a campus for your class?  Em is right about exercise, and I know that even just a 10-minute walk helps boost my metabolism and helps my sugars to stay lower.

Thanks for the encouragement with the job interviews.  Today I see a recruiter, who is a 22-yo diabetic, btw.  She is curious about the pump, so it will be fun to meet her.  I just hope she can help me land a good job! 

My sugar was 245 this morning which usually doesn't happen.  I woke up thirsty and having to use the bathroom, and last night I tested an hour before bed and I was 183.  At bedtime I was 154, so I was dropping back into normal range, or so I thought.  I had a slice of pizza for dinner and that stuff always hits about four hours later and makes your sugar creep up again, so that's what got me.  I have to be careful with those complex carbs.

OK, I need to get the cobwebs out of my eyes and get moving for this interview.  Its supposed to be 89degrees and foggy here all day?  That's weird, we've never had fog through the day with a hot temp like that.  What to wear, what to wear....

I also get my massage therapy again today after two weeks of going without.  Yay!

~Cindy
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #58 on: October 04, 2007, 02:47:12 PM »
Ladies~~

Feeling good today for some reason. Maybe because I disclosed to my roomie last night. Started a thread on it in Living With. Thank you ladies for giving me your support. So today I kinda feel like I am sitting on top of the world.

Betty-- I keep forgetting to get with my diabetes instructor just to get educated on what to eat. My fasting sugar today was 135. My doctor wants me to have one of a 100. I have noticed that whenever my counts get to the 90's I start getting jittery. There have been times when it has been as low as 68 but that usually happens when I take my meds and don't eat something.There are times when I am a bad girl and get the munchies. I usually don't crave sweets but usually wants a salad but I have my moments when I eat candy. And I can't live w/o my Pepsi. It is like my coffee when I get up but notices when I don't drink any for a few days I get caffeine headaches. To me my happy medium seems to be in the 130-150 range. I usually feel just fine.

Cindy--- As always, good luck with the job search. I'm sure there is a job out there with your name on it.

Well, nothing special is jumping off today. The rash is pretty much a done deal. Got a call from my clinic nurse, my ID doc wants me to start on Dapson to replace the Bactrim. I got to take it for 4 months or until my cd4 gets a bit higher. Last time it was 215 but am expecting it to be better due to starting the Atripla and Ziagen. I haven't had anymore funky dreams or the drunk feeling. I usually don't eat anything after 10:30 pm and if I do it is because of munchies but I try to eat healthy... ;D

I will have to get back to doing my braids but thought I would check in because I have been quiet the past few days. I will be around lurking and posting from time to time.
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #59 on: October 04, 2007, 08:05:55 PM »
Hey Queenie-  Its nice to  read " feeling good today".  I did read your post earlier about the roommate....it must be a weight off the shoulders. Especially, when the reception is good.   I love it when you tell someone when they kind of shrug their shoulders like, "yeah, so what".

Cin-  How did it go with the recruiter today?  Any prospects?

BT-  Keep up the good work.  Go and buy a new pair of jeans, if you're gaining a little weight, with all the money you saved.

Drag-  what's the word from the doctors?  did you get your test results back?

Work has been good this past week despite the changes.  They decided to keep my friend on a little longer which makes me over joyed.  Change really is good sometimes.  I've been moved into  a position where they're really giving me more challenges now and an allowance for things I might need for my department.  Wow!  We've all resigned to the idea of being bugged, if that's even the case.  I'm starting to wonder if its a case of super paranoia or insanity started by one individual and passed along to each co worker, each one running with their own ideas of a super nanny cam operation. 

Hope all is well with everyone tonight.

hugs to all,

Cammie



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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #60 on: October 04, 2007, 10:36:56 PM »
HI GFs~

Yes, GQ, it WAS good to read your post and know that you are feeling great!  I am tired tonight early, which is GOOD.  I have to get back into a better rythym around here with my sleep, so I will post and then go to bed.

I met with my recruiter today and they have a "long-term temp" job in Frederick which is great pay.  They are submitting my resume tomorrow and the hiring person will be back on Tuesday.  The frikkin job is only 3 miles from my house!  Thank goodness for MADAP, because my insurance premium through COBRA is covered for another year.  So, if I interview for this close-by job, even though its temp, I am A-OK.

I go to the landscaping company tomorrow.  They are high dollar, in a more expensive county, so we'll see how it goes.  The interview is at 1pm. 

I have a "stalker" as I like to call him, here in the posts.  That's why I had that Iron Maiden pic up.  Wouldn't you know I changed it back to the real me last night, and *pop* there's another PM from this guy.  This happened earlier in the summer with someone else and it irritates me.  This guy has nothing in his profile, no age, no location, and a mere 6 posts here in the Forums.  I wish people would do the right hting and introduce themselves some before they go start sending PMs.

I told him he was getting on my nerves and to back off.   ;D  I have more important things to deal with.  Wait till he sees mascot "Eddie", if he even figures that out.  (Stealth mode now......lol).

Cam, it sounds like one of your buddies is still at work?  That's nice to hear.  You may be right about the paranoia just being gossip, but things will prob die down some soon.

Lonely tonight.  Need some (man) arms to hold me.

Where's Cheech?  LOL  He's all I've got sometimes, and that's OK with me.

Sleep well, everyone.

~Cindy
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #61 on: October 04, 2007, 11:46:09 PM »
I have a "stalker" as I like to call him, here in the posts.  That's why I had that Iron Maiden pic up.  Wouldn't you know I changed it back to the real me last night, and *pop* there's another PM from this guy.  This happened earlier in the summer with someone else and it irritates me.  This guy has nothing in his profile, no age, no location, and a mere 6 posts here in the Forums.  I wish people would do the right hting and introduce themselves some before they go start sending PMs.

I told him he was getting on my nerves and to back off.     I have more important things to deal with.  Wait till he sees mascot "Eddie", if he even figures that out.  (Stealth mode now......lol).


Cindy
Have you reported him to the moderators? Doesn't matter what your avatar is as its your screen name that can be followed. We can block posts, but can we block e-mails? I've never had cause to want to block someone's PMs, but it seems it's worth asking. Food for thought...you've got enough info on here that if someone really wanted to stalk you, it wouldn't be difficult.
Em


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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #62 on: October 04, 2007, 11:51:30 PM »
Hi Em~

I am pretty sure the guy is out of the country, and he means no harm, he is just "smitten" if you know what I mean.  I just don't like people PMing me if they haven't introduced themselves.  I had to get my two cents in with him, this is the 3rd or 4th PM in a few weeks. 

It would be nice to block PMs, but the guy right now is more irritating than anything.

I'll keep you posted, and believe me, if he gives me any crap, I'll promptly report him, I have no problem with that.

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #63 on: October 05, 2007, 12:14:41 AM »

Hi Em~

I am pretty sure the guy is out of the country, and he means no harm, he is just "smitten" if you know what I mean.  I just don't like people PMing me if they haven't introduced themselves.  I had to get my two cents in with him, this is the 3rd or 4th PM in a few weeks. 

It would be nice to block PMs, but the guy right now is more irritating than anything.

I'll keep you posted, and believe me, if he gives me any crap, I'll promptly report him, I have no problem with that.

~Cindy
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I see.

How do members "introduce" themselves to you?  Is that a matter of filling in their profile with more complete information or is there some other process?

I don't need to be kept posted on your stalker. It would be interesting however to learn more about this introduction phase.

Em
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #64 on: October 05, 2007, 01:56:52 AM »
Cindy-- I have to agree with Em on the stalker, report his ass to the moderators. Is there a way to block PM's on here? Never has had to but has a wicked tongue that would guarantee not being bothered again. When the drama was going on with you know who, I hurried up and put his ass on Ignore and reported him on the Personals.

Girl, now you sounding like you are whipped, missing some man arms, didn't you just see Stone the other day? ;D I'm just playing with you. But at least you get to say you have a man and see him. I don't know what to call what me and Boo have. I can't call it a relationship but we have FEELINGS....I know what I would like to be feeling though.... ;) It's sad when someone online holds your interest more than the men where I live.

Camille---- Glad things are getting better at work. Sounds like you may be getting more responsibilities thrown your way, smells like promotion to me. And the paranoia prolly is from the water cooler by someone who didn't have anything better to do, I wouldn't sweat it.

Well it is almost 2 am. I think I will play one of my computer games. Btw, Cindy, they have a new Diner Dash, I know how you liked Wedding Dash...
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #65 on: October 05, 2007, 05:54:05 AM »
Good morning ladies:

Well, guess what!  I got that part-time telemarketing job!  The lady called yesterday and saiad they will let me work part-time!  I'm so happy.  I start Monday. 

Your Highness, I'm so glad the rash is gone.  You must be feeling so much better. 

Cin, just hang in there sweetie.  You'll find a job.  I'm glad you have another year on COBRA also.  I agree with everyone else about that stalker, though.  I don't mess with people like that.  I would report him immediately.  You never know when some people might snap.  I wouldn't take any chances.  I do like you avatar, how appropriate.

Cam, I'm so glad your job is going better.  Some people will always be paranoid.  There's nothing to do but ignore them. 

I hope all you other ladies are doing alright.  I'm going to read some other threads, exercise etc.  Today I have to do my dad's shopping.  He always only has like five or six items anymore on his shopping lists and could really get it himself, but I think he likes to see us kids.  My brother goes over on the week that I don't and my oldest sister is over there two to three times a week.  I have one other sister in Arizona who calls my dad every day.  My oldest sister and her husband are going on vacation next week, so my dad asked me if I would call him every morning to make sure he's up.  I wonder if he's worried that something will happen to him and no one would know.  He has such a hard time breathing, but won't quit smoking.  Not that that would cure anything; the damage has already been done to his lungs.  I'll tell ya'all though, listening to him is like an affirmation for me to not go back to smoking.  And when he goes somewhere where he will be awhile, he has to take one of his oxygen tanks.  I see that and think "do I really want to get like that?"  Anyway, I hope everyone has a great day-
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #66 on: October 05, 2007, 07:16:23 AM »
Betty, congratulations!!! And Camille, I am happy for your that the work thing is working out alright, maybe even better than before. I am happy for Queen cos she's happy, and keeping my fingers crossed for everyone else.

My results sucked, big time. They indicate resistence, although I posted about it on the Living with and got some encouraging responses, my correspondence about it continued with more detials from my side and it is a lot more discouraging than that post looked, I have also done some reading and eductaed myself. It seems that I am becoming resistent to 2 drugs and at least one drug family (non-nukes). My biggest concern is to keep the nukes (family containing AZT, Viread, among others). I have no idea what will happen, I will probabaly get put on an entirely new regimen, who knows if it will be pregnancy friendly, most probabaly it won't be lipo-friendly at all. I know I should change asap to avoid getting more resistent and the new regimen not suppressing the VL. I am really depressed right now. I know that my situation is nowhere near as tough as what Betty or ML had to endure, but for me it is a severe blow to become resistent so quickly. I am really depressed, nothing more to say really, I was just picking my life and getting on finally with some very delayed work things and talking about babies etc, and now I just think that I could be dead in a few years. To be quite honest, except for the pain it would cause my parents, brother and boyfriends, I wouldn't mind if it just happened right now in a non-HIV related way than just dragging my ass through resistence and side effects. I know this is very negative, but this is what I am thinking. I will call the nurse practitioner later today and see if she's already talked to the doc and what did he say, but I really doubt it.

All the time I struggled against this virus in the most proactive way but now it is not something I can do or control anymore and effort don't matter. For the first time since this ordeal begun I feel poisoned and worthless. I understand this is not a latent thing but something actively growing and feeding on my body until it can kill me, the host. I know there are many people who live with this for decades, not just from this forum. I do know that. But I don't think I will be one of these people. I don't have the strength or the luck. I also can't believe I have letmyself become so happy, chilled and laidback in the last months. I should've known this would happen. Sorry to pour all this here but I have to let it out. Otherwise no one would know what I am thinking...  :'(
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #67 on: October 05, 2007, 07:50:08 AM »
Wow. Sunrise on two ends of the spectrum here.

First, BT huge congrats. You'll be terrific. And Cam, sounds like things are turning around quickly at work. Good.  I'm glad for both of you.


Drag

Thank you for sharing what must be torturous for you. Please lean on us for as long as you need.

I am going to ask you to do something that sounds impossible.
Really truly impossible especially for a young, spirited, optimistic woman.

Get that incredible mind of yours out of the future---of forecasting no babies, side effects, doom and gloom----and out of the past, ridiculing yourself for having become happy, laid back and chilled as of late.

As simple-minded as it sounds, please stay with today.
Get the medical info you need today. Do the work you have that is required of you today. And, do something you enjoy today.

This is what you have...today. Yep. Sounds too simple, but this is it.

I have no intention of losing you to a mental walk into the waves of the ocean of your imagination. Nope, not if I or anyone else among us can talk you back in from your contemplation at water's edge.

Your immune system needs you back on task today.

You do have the strength to do this much. I know it.

If you are truly in a state of depression, then talk to the doc about how to get you defunked without debilitation. Put that on the asap list, in fact, the nurse practitioner might be able to help you there, too. If it's temporary derailment and not depression,( and that is presuming you know the difference), then you can pull yourself out. We'll be here to cheer you on and I'm banking on your beau and family to the degree that you're letting them in.

With love and light.
Em


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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #68 on: October 05, 2007, 08:45:41 AM »
~Cindy
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I would not want to be your stalker  ;)

Drag-  First off, don't ever compare yourself to others and feel like your complaining.  Our experiences are our own and our pain is our own and individualized. 
I am so so sorry for what you are going through.  This is definitely a time to lean on the people you are close to.

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #69 on: October 05, 2007, 01:21:47 PM »
Dragonette~~

This post is just for you because of the state of mind you are in right now. I will concern myself with you and post with the ladies later. I know they understand....

I can not pretend to know what you are going through because I can't. I have been following your other thread and read what Newt said. If I am understanding him correctly, just because the one class of drugs may be failing you, you still have options with a different class. I know it is frustrating but don't give up hope. I also have to agree with Em, you need to focus on the here and now. Not so much the future. I know you had your heart set on having a baby but for now put that on the back burner. Just take things one day at a time and be thankful that you have made it through one day and able to start another. Who knows why our bodies are the way they are and why the virus does what it does. Not sure who you can chalk that one up to but it is not your fault for the way you are. And however your chemistry is made up, it is you and you are UNIQUE. Hmm, that word doesn't look right but I assume my spell check is on.... ;)

I know you are feeling a flood of emotions about now. For that we are here for you, let it out, whether you want to scream, cry or be angry. But if you feel that you need professional help then by all means go seek it. The last thing you need to do is hold it all in. Just because you are poz does not mean you are not meant to be happy. I totally agree with Em on that one. If you need reassurance on this may I suggest that you read Christine's thread in Living With or some of her past posts. That woman is an inspiration and you may also get some inspiration from reading them. Like I said, I don't know what you are going through but knows that one day I could be there but wants you to know that I am here for you. I will be keeping you in my thoughts...
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #70 on: October 05, 2007, 01:46:31 PM »
Drag-  I meant to finish my thought and we lost internet.

I think by just doing the best you can to take care of yourself mentally and physically is really important right now.  I know you need to feel bad, so take all the time to cry and let it out.  But I agree with EM.  Don't fall into that that dark place where you can't get out.  This is really an important time to talk to the professionals for mental and physical assistance.

Christine is an amazing person with an abominable spirit.  We have corresponded through email a few times, and she's really become an inspiration to me. 

Of course, we are always here with open arms.

Big hugs sweety,

Cammie

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #71 on: October 05, 2007, 08:43:30 PM »
Play this link and dream about how great you can be.......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8jd5hyGVw3k&feature=PlayList&p=C92DC9D8E908A2F3&index=0


Hi GFs~

BT~   Congrats on the job!  I KNOW you are psyched!  I hope you enjoy it!

Cristy and Sun~  You two are laying low, working a lot?  Check in GFs and tell us how you're doing!  Sun, are you going to see #2 this weekend?  Enjoy yourself and remember to BREATHE, it'll be OK!

Cam, Em and GQ~  Very good advice given to Drag.  I read Christine's post minutes after it came up the other night and was overcome with sobbing.  It hits too close to home.  Someone so young, vibrant and strong, to have to be dealing with this crap!

Drag~  I agree, let it out, cry your head off, but don't stay down in the depths.  Becoming resistant to a class of meds is scary, but its not the end, its not final.  I have been taken off of two regimens and have become resistant to a third in my years with the virus.  So, I guess that makes three classes that I can't even take again.  Its OK that this has happened in only two years, really.  I think the same way that you do, I think, "Oh gosh, another class of meds that won't work......"  but there are MORE.  I posted that in your other thread.  Please don't despair, you're really going to be alright and things will feel good again before you know it.

As far as getting pregnant, tonight I went to my HIV support group.  The facilitator said that Sustiva is the only med that interferes with a pregnancy.  That's just one med, Drag.  Just one.  There are so many others you can take.  Have you told your doc that you are considering getting pregnant?  Ask her how long you have to be off of Sustiva before conceiving, if you're even going to be on Sustiva.  The key is planning ahead so that you can have as many options available to you as possible.

We all love you very much and you will be OK.  Really, you will.  I can't say it enough.  I wish I were there to give you a big hug and cry with you.  I know the despair, I know the darkness, sometimes a wave will rush over us from out of nowhere, when we think we're getting through our day OK.  Cry and give into it and feel those emotions, confront them, and be stronger for it.  I know you have that courage in you, Drag.  Don't give up on yourself.  There is so much hope for our futures.  For YOUR future.

~Cindy
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #72 on: October 06, 2007, 12:51:10 AM »
Hi Girls

Just a quick note to Drag:  I am new to this as well and recently started meds about 3 months ago and I am scared as I don't know if they are working either.  I started meds not because I needed them due to my levels but because I had swollen lymph nodes and was trying to get that under control.  I just got my blood work back yesterday and still don't understand what all the numbers mean.  I went on line to some of the lessons on this site and was able to get a little in site.  But all I can do is wait till my appointment in 3 weeks so see what the doctor says.  In the mean time I just keep telling myself that everything is OK and by stressing is just going to make me feel worse.  I will be thinking about you and thinking positive thoughts that everything is going to be OK with you. 

I will be MIA till Thursday.  Tomorrow I am leaving to see Cop #2.  Freaking out and like Moon said trying to breath.  If I can get to a computer I will check in and let you guys know how things are going.  But most of all i want to check in on Drag. 

OK everyone say a prayer for Drag and send her our positive thoughts.  I am sorry that I have not addressed everyone and will check in if I can while I am gone.

Sun

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #73 on: October 06, 2007, 04:46:55 AM »
Hi everyone

I can't tell you how touched I am by all your wonderful responses. The situation is more complex than what appeared on the thread with Newt and I moved to PMs and read stuff. I won't go into the whole resistence thing now. I will be OK, I just need time to understand it all, I am a bit shocked that everything happens so soon. My docs want to wait but I will get a second opinion. I don't know yet what will happen so it's hard to write, but I will keep you updated.

A friend who saw what I was going through invited me & my BF for homeade pizza last night and then at work I even told my boss so I can say that emotionally, support-wise, between this forum and my real life, I couldn't have it better. I just couldn't. I am so so lucky and blessed, and to think so many people with HIV have to deal with isolation and even rejection on top of the disease itself. My VL is very low and it's not like I will die tomorrow, it's just that this is the first time I feel that this thing is here to stay and anytime it has a chance it will get a big foot in the door... how come this truth never git home before, cos I was busy dealing with the social, economical, romantic and other "fronts". Not that work is over on any of these (or ever is for mmost people). It made me realize that with all the problems with society, discrimination, even poverty, the #1 and biggest enemy is this virus. And that's never going to change. I do know Christine and it is through her story that I learned that one can become resistent through no fault of their own very quickly and run out of treatment options... I am very scared for her. I pray that a new type of drug will come out soon that she will be able to use.

I will reread all your posts. I love you & thank you so much for being there for me. Also my friend in Asia who wrote me a PM. I see my social worker at the hospital Mon, and we are still going to the gynecologist on Oct 31st. Moving on....

Sun, good luck with it... I hope so much you cop that cop ;D (could never resist a corny joke), & good luck to everyone else, with Everything. Everyone needs a measure of luck in their lives, but we (pozzies) play at higher stakes, someone once told me. 

Have a great weekend, love you all,
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #74 on: October 06, 2007, 08:30:33 AM »
OK Drag, take a deep breathe.  I know, learning of resistance can be tough.  Hell, I'm resistant to all the PIs.  But, there are more meds out there that can and will work for you.  But make sure you let your feelings out.  Fear, sadness, frustration etc.  Holding them in will only make them worse.  We all love you and are cheering for you, girl.  Don't cross out the future yet.  And, like someone else said, take things a day at a time, not years at a time.  No one can say what will happen even a month from now.  All we have any remote control over is what happens in our lives today. 

Cin, I am wondering how the job interview(s) went?  And are you doing anything special with Stone this weekend? 

Sun, good to hear from you.  I hope things go well with #2 this weekend.

Today I have to color my roots (again).  If I didn't color my hair, I would have so much grey!  If I can ever figure out how to move my picture from the pozpersonals section to over here, I will so people will be able to connect a face.  Maybe I'll ask a friend of mine's son to, since he's really computer savy.  I'm totally not.  He's the one who put it on the personals site from his mom's computer. 

Well, I had applied a couple weeks ago at one of the Salavation Army's stores in my area.  They are looking for part-time people.  Yesterday the manager called and I went for an interview.  She told me to call her in a couple days, so I will do that.  If she were to offer me the job, I'm not sure which one I would take.  I also did the on-line application for Wal-Mart and someone from there called me also.  Now, I don't really like the whole corporation of Wal-Mart, because of how they treat their employees. If people don't know what I'm talking about, then you can go to walmartwatch.com.  I believe that's the link.  But, anyway, they called when I was taking a nap.  When I woke up, it was like 7:30 at night, so I figured I would just call today and leave a voicemail.  I don't know what type of help they need.  I can't stand for very long, because my left kneecap is broken and the cartilage in it is completely crushed (happened from being pushed down a flight of stairs by a past relationship).  And in my right knee, it's collapsing.  But I know Wal-Mart claims they make reasonable accomodations for people.  So, we'll see. 

I hope you're doing better, Drag.  Just hang in there and don't cancel any plans yet.  Hope everyone else is having a good morning. More later-
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #75 on: October 06, 2007, 12:39:05 PM »
Hi GFs~

Today I picture all of you...........  ;D

Queen~  With arms above your head taking those braids down, or maybe you've moved on to "putting them up" again?  GF sighs and takes a break to play Diner Dash!  You wonder about Boo and how he's doing, but not for long, as the game captures your undivided attention now.  You take a deep breath, smile, and know it will be alright. LOL   ;D

Em~  Painting, planting and paper-pushing.  Digging in the dirt planting mums, on a step ladder priming your walls, digging through your file cabinet for papers needed to send in regarding your daughter.  You take a deep breath, smile, and know it will be alright. ::)

Cam~  Even though its not a workday, I picture you scrutinizing your computer at work, wondering if paranoia needs to be a reality there, and then chuckling to yourself when you realize it doesn't.  You look up at the corners of the room, in case the boss has installed under-cover cameras or bugs!   You take a deep breath, smile, and know it will be alright.  :D

Drag~  I picture you today as a Free Spirit, clearing your mind as you ride like the wind through the streets near your home.  Riding your bike and going to the store for a few things, perhaps?  Your hair is blowing back and the breeze invigorates you as you smile up to the sky......and you think to yourself, "Yes, I'm going to be alright....."   You take a deep breath, smile, and know it will be alright.   :-*

Sun~  Driving up I-95 or maybe south on it, not sure, to go see #2.  Nervous excitement, accompanied by a little bit of hesitation as well as assertiveness for the emotional challenge that you feel is waiting for you with disclosure.  You take a deep breath, smile, and know it will be alright.  :)

BT~  Pondering about which PT job to go for.  There were none before, and now there are options.  You're excited about working, about making a difference and earning some money.  You take a deep breath, smile, and know it will be alright.   ;)

Cristy~  I picture you at home, outside, out at the woodpile.  You stack up wood with little Robert, inhaling the humid air that is way too warm for this time of year.  You think about your brother's visit, wonder to yourself how you will handle things with regards to him.  You take a deep breath, smile, and know it will be alright.   8)

Myself~  I have caught a Fall cold, and my throat is burning.  I dream of chicken noodle soup as I post, but decide to have some later in the day when I may need it more.  Its a hot sunny day, I am sick, but had a great interview yesterday, really hit it off with the CFO for the company.  I recall how she and I agreed on many things as far as what was important to the company.  I wonder if I will be called back for a second interview.  I wonder why Stone hasn't called in a few days. 

I take a deep breath, smile, and know it will be alright.   :)

~Cindy
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #76 on: October 06, 2007, 02:13:13 PM »
Funny Cindy, You're not far off with what I plan to do today. Just let me insert that I have gotten up after sleeping in and feeling quite relaxed today actually. I checked my sugar which was 165, not surprised considering what I ate last night. Gets up and pours a glass of Pepsi. Sits back on the bed and takes my diabetic meds along with the Dapsone. Turns on the tv and surfs the channels for a bit but decides to watch the cartoons that were recorded this morning. Rolls up a phatty for a wake and bake and smokes. Then contemplates whether to continue doing hair today or just chill....Still out on that one so pulls out the laptop. Checks out my messenger list and sees Cindy needs some chicken noodle soup. No messages from Boo, not sure what's going on there. Logs online to the forums to chat with her online family especially her girls.......Afterwards will go into  a Diner Dash Hometown Hero coma, it's the newest in the Diner Dash series....May do hair later since it is a nice cool breezy day, it's not like I have anything else planned...... ;D

So now you pretty much have my day. Betty, I did see online where some Walmart works just got awarded over 62 million for something. I would reconsider working for them, not just because of that but because of your knee. I don't think there is a sit down job anywhere in there, at least not at my Walmart.

Well I'm off to chat with the rest of the family and you know the rest.....
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #77 on: October 06, 2007, 04:08:28 PM »
Cindy-  what i loved about your post is that we were all happy, with positive actions, doing our thing and that's how you saw us.  I think thats really important that we see ourselves as that, regardless of the situations around us.  I've been working on it and it works.  I'm not saying its hard at first, but its almost like starting a good habit. 

Today I was at the dog park, which I take Jada to every saturday and sometimes sunday morning.  A friend and I were in a great conversation, watching our dogs go at it (her dog is 1/4 of the size of my dane and the two are great buddies), when we saw a rotweiller pick up a pekinese (tiny dogs almost resembling pugs) and start violently shaking it.   The dog had the little one in what's considered a death grip.  My friend and I was horrified, people were crowded around doing everything in their power to stop the dog and nothing was working.  A full minute past and a complete stranger, a women and yes I am emphasizing that, jumps on this huge rottie and the little one is released.  The owner snatches the little dog and runs to a shady area hysterical as you can imagine.  My friend and I started pouring our water bottles on the wound which was on the hind leg thankfully.  The worst part is the woman was so hysterical b/c this was her partners dog, not her own.  As bad as it got, everything slowly got better.  The woman with the rottie stuck around for the rangers and offered to pay for the vets. We calmed the lady down.  For what the dog just went through the disposition of this dog turned around.  The wound stopped bleeding and we were able to calm the distraught woman.  She left for the animal hospital around the corner and was gracious.

What is so upsetting is that the woman who brought the rottie in (not saying either that rotties are all bad, this is just a single incident) just got the dog from the ascpa and wanted to bring her down to the dog park for fun.  She had no idea how her dog would interact with other dogs...where is the logic?

I've been going to this park for 3 years and never saw this before.  But was I have seen is altercations, fist flying between men at least 4 times.  Crazy huh?

Hope you all are having a great afternoon.  Except for our girls in the other parts of the world, hope you are having a great evening or morning:)

Hugs to you all,

Cammie


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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #78 on: October 06, 2007, 06:36:47 PM »
what a bunch of great posts. Cindy, you rock!!! Betty, Camille (in the PM), thanks so much for the support, and to everyone who responded earlier, you know who you are! I am still so touched. How fortunate I am to be surrounded by such supercool ladies. I'm dying to meet all of you.
Yes I feel better today. went to town with BF, some shopping, I can't say I didn't have the choked throat teary eye syndrom, esp looking at all the families and crowds of Saturday, I can't say why that always makes me sad, & I am not even PMSing, still it was good. I got home and made some couscous, which is one of my specialties. Tomorrow I'll go to the gym and work. Yes I ride a bike everywhere. For one thing, my license doesn't hold in the Netherlands. For another, it's scary to drive here with all the countless other bikes. Finally I really like it, not always in the rain and the wind, but it gets me places...

I have been getting mixed messages on the drugs thing, manly b/c there are two schools of thought, the ""wait it out" and the "change ASAP before you ruin your chances of a healthy life for good". I wrote a letter to the specialist I saw in London, asking for consultancy (paid of course). If I can, i would like to take full advantage of my current regimen until new drugs come out, but not at the price of overall resistence, obviously. I know I have good docs here, not complaining, and I know that they probabaly think I'm a spoiled hysterical brat (or something), but that's OK... they don't have to live with HIV, as a foreigner, as a woman, yada yada yada, I do. So I figure if I can consult on a complex problem with a really big name, I'll do it. And that makes me feel just a little bit better. Don't get me wrong, I am not looking for the "big name" in HIV treatment because of the prestige or the number of publications, I liked this doc mainly because he is gay and has a positive boyfriend he speaks very openly about and for the first time since this thing begun I felt a doctor was really seeing me and not just a set of numbers. When I was waiting for him at the clinic, he came in and I thought he was one of the patients. So he knows... My problem though is - for the first time - not the medical establishment, nor the stigma - just this microscopic evil thing, and that is so scary. I am not in this alone though.

My friend has asked me to join the board of the positive women's group I talked about here a while back, for that I have to spend one day a month in another city. Even though I am swamped with work, I think I will go for it. Next week I go to Amsterdam to see them again. I was so distraught when she called me I couldn't talk, but I have been thinking about it and I think I should do it. We don't have a good representation here as women and as foriegners, though most of the women are much worse off than me, being illegal immigrants (but not all). I am afraid of committing and then not being able to contribute enough and letting people down, but I will try to clear that up. Energy spent is energy expanded, just like at the gym right? I'll let you know how it goes.

Monday I get my new room at work and voice recognition software. I won't have time to train it for a while but when I do it should make writing much easier. Yes my work is treating me well (except for being temporary and with no social rights, but they haven't much choice in that), I really am so lucky.

Big hug to all you fine ladies out there, enjoy whatever you're doing. I'll be trying to follow Em's and basically everyone else's advice, do what I need to do, and something for fun, and not think of the past or the future... smile, and know it's gonna be alright...

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #79 on: October 06, 2007, 09:10:19 PM »
GQ

you kill me...

wake and bake

You are my online version of Comedy Central, I swear.

ML

planting mums? oh, I wish!!!! that will be a reward if I get my work-work done.

I did buy some gourds. That's fall-ish.

DRAG

 :-*

BT. Oh, BT.
Save thy wounded knee

As dear GQ
Has forewarned you

Good old retail
Can and will only assail

And to everyone else, Cristy CJC - where are you? Sun -- love Drag's "cop a cop" -- that's very good! Cops probably have t-shirts with that on it, heh? Blessed. Blacky. Dorjus if you haven't moved and, and, and...

Have a good weekend.

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #80 on: October 06, 2007, 09:14:19 PM »
Oh yes.

Cam---Bow WOW and Holy Crap---
A woman jumped on a Rotty! That had to be somethin' to see.

What an exciting day at the pooch park!!!

I'm surprised you all weren't picking up after the owners.  ::)


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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #81 on: October 06, 2007, 11:34:23 PM »
Too bad I don't get paid like the comedians on Comedy Central. I was just watching Lisa Lampanelli on there last night. I love her. Most rotties are trained to be mean sad to say. I do play with a few pits from time to time who are quite friendly. But I will always be a cat person. We have 4 here and my cat seems to be trying to mate the female still but it is quite entertaining. Everywhere she goes, he is not far behind.

My day pretty much consisted of what I posted earlier. It did get rather warm today which seemed to have drained me quite a bit.I guess that is all for me, nothing really to report.
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #82 on: October 07, 2007, 06:40:24 AM »
Wow, what I miss when I don't check in during the day.....

Cin, what a great post!  I love your visuals!  I picture you rocking out, doing the air guitar thing to "Smells Like Teen Spirit" by Nirvana. ;)

Queen, you're probably right about Wal-Mart, even though it says in their application that in accordance with the American with Disabilities Act, they will make reasonable accomodations.  I will probably take that telemarketing job, as it's a sitting one.  And I know what you mean about cats.  I prefer cats.  I have a girl that I rescued from a refuge here.  I've had her for a year and a half and she's my sidekick.  She's jumpy as hell, but she probably has post-traumatic stress disorder from being with all those other cats before I adopted her.

Cam, wow.  I'm so glad the other dog was at least still living.  I'm sure the owner was a mess.  I would be.  I'm surprised the owners didn't get into a fight about it.  I don't know what the rot's owner was thinking, not even knowing the dog's temperment and taking it to a dog park?  How ludicrous. 

Drag, I'm glad you're calming down.  Things will be o.k.  You have a lot of other options.  I'm glad you're doing something for fun.  That's so important.  And I make it a point to watch some comedy every day.  I've got to laugh each and every day.  That keeps it light. 

I hope all you other ladies are doing alright.  I'm off to start the day.  Tomorrow is the first day of work, wish me luck-
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #83 on: October 07, 2007, 10:18:36 AM »
Hello ladies. I am still here, just kinda lurking instead of posting. 



Cristy~  I picture you at home, outside, out at the woodpile.  You stack up wood with little Robert, inhaling the humid air that is way too warm for this time of year.  You think about your brother's visit, wonder to yourself how you will handle things with regards to him.  You take a deep breath, smile, and know it will be alright.   8)


~Cindy
                                                                                                                    Love that, Ml. And so accurate.  that is what Robert and I will be doing if I can get him away from the boys.                    Queen, I have no say in the household. I live here but only contribute food and housekeeping services so......                               My brother came in Friday. Things have been okay so far but I have basically been staying in my room reading.                                         Drag, sorry to hear about your resistance. I know nothing about that but hope it works out for you.                                                      Betty good luck with the job. First day will be great. Just keep saying that and it will be so.                                                               ML, Hope the interviews went well.                                                   Em, Did you buy seeds for gourds or already grown ones so you can make a nice arrangement. I bet you have a really good green thumb.. I hope things are going well for you.                                     SS, hope this weekend goes well.                                                   I will be lurking and reading but just don't much feel like posting.Have a new book, well new author to read. Got about 10 of her books. I like books that are as far away from my reality as I can get and these fit the bill. The Author is Laurell K Hamilton.  They are full of magic and mayhem so I like them. Oh, yeah, the later ones have a lot of sex in them. I would like some of that in real life but will just go without til I find what I'm looking for. I am talking to a very nice man but we are just talking right now. He's nice but not sure about sparks so.....    I love ya'll and will try to check in more often.  Cristy(edited for spelling and cause it didn't look the way I wanted it to)
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #84 on: October 07, 2007, 10:59:59 AM »
       Em, Did you buy seeds for gourds or already grown ones so you can make a nice arraingment. I bet you have a really good green thumb.. I hope things are going well for you. 

I bought already grown gourds that look like they're from another planet. They've hybridized gourds such that they're getting more and more strange. So I chose some of the strangest I could find to make a table arrangement for a dinner I'm hosting.

I like to garden, but I've been known to be a bad mom to a houseplant or two in my life. I'm much better now---more of a homebody than ever before.

Thanks for the well-wishing---yes, things are going fine. Normal life challenges and continuing calls for patience and persistence. Nothing off the charts which is a fine thing to be able to write.

Em

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #85 on: October 07, 2007, 11:52:12 AM »
OMG, I woke up today and couldn't talk.  LOL  I have a really bad sore throat, well, I guess it could be worse.  It doesn't hurt too much to swallow, but its hard to clear my throat.  I don't think I've ever sounded this funny before!  It all started Friday night, so I have been inside all weekend with Cheech, catching up on shows I recorded.  I have gargled with salt water and I will really push the fluids.  My nose is fine, I can breathe through it no problem, so if I can just nip this sore throat, I'll be better!

I am going to watch the Skins game today, but it sounds like I've already yelled at the TV some, judging from this voice.  I'll survive.

Lots of tea, fluids, and rest, hoping this doesn't get really bad......

Have a great Sunday, everyone!

~Cindy
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #86 on: October 07, 2007, 02:36:14 PM »
Good afternoon ladies:

I'm just checking in before I get started on this paper I have to do for school.  So, I'm just kind of lurking also.  Hey, Cin, I hope you feel better soon!  Take care ladies-
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #87 on: October 07, 2007, 02:47:45 PM »
Hail to the REDSKINS!

(cough, cough)

LOL   :D
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #88 on: October 07, 2007, 05:13:27 PM »
Who the heck farms gourds?  I always see them in the fall.  I have never known any one who grows them?  I've grown pumpkins, I've seen pumpkin patches, but never a gourd patch. 
And, is patch really appropriate for gourds?

Ah, the oh so important questions of life.

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« Reply #89 on: October 07, 2007, 06:52:42 PM »
Hey, Notre Dame won their first game yesterday.  And, oh, fuck it, I don't care.  I hope everyone's having a good evening.  I just finished a report for school so I'm brain-dead at this point. 
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #90 on: October 07, 2007, 10:47:43 PM »
Hello Everyone

It's been a year since my diagnoses, and rape. Now I am ready to move on and start to date. However all the men I come across I feel isn't worthy of my heart. Is it beacuse I am expecring to much, or am I afraid that when the times comes and I have to disclose my status they will reject me? So I take it amongst my self and find all the things wrong about them. In my defense some are just a**holes. I am 25 with the world at my feet, so what am I afraid of. One guy that I was dating and I did find myself caring for him, fell to tell me he had a live in girlfriend. I didn't find that out until she called my house asking me 101 questions that she should have been aking him. It just turned me off so bad because I was like wow, are you kidding me he left about the most important thing. I must admit that I am starting to feel the pain of being lonely.

I want kids I want a family, but I am not sure if that's ever going to happend for me.
so what do I do? Do I keep searching until God blesses me with that special someone. or do I settle and just accept who ever as a seat filler for now?

I know that I am still dealing with my own issues like me starting to love and accept myself with my disease. However it would be nice to have someone.

It just hurts so bad because Now that I am ready to find and give myself to someone. I can't because of my situation. I still get angry and jealous when I see some of my associates out and about with there mates and they are freaking disease free. When they have slept with everything that would stay stiff long enough.

Maybe it's the cool whether that has me feeling like I need someone, or maybe I am just coming to terms with myself. I don't know! However it would be nice

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #91 on: October 07, 2007, 11:21:16 PM »
Hi GFs~

Good Lord, she's got a gourd!  LOL  I dunno if they are in "patches" or not either, Cam, lmao!  We might have to post picks and take a vote!

BT~  Do you like Notre Dame?  I remember you saying traffic was a bitch before, but I don't know if you support the team or not.  I'm a Maryland Terp and a Washington Redskin!

Hi Afraid~  Its nice to see you back here.  Everything you posted echos exactly what I am thinking as well.  I am 37 and widowed 11 years now, and I wonder if I will ever settle down again.  I have dated a lot but have wondered where this is all leading.  I get very lonely, too.  I just want one special man to call my own, but yes, its difficult to trust.  I started posting here last June because I was driving myself insane, debating whether or not to disclose to a neg guy I was seeing.  Its good to read that you are starting to accept yourself with the virus.  That's been the hardest thing for me.  Just by virtue of posting here with these women and friends in the Forums this summer, I feel much stronger.  Yes, with dating there can be trust issues, sex needs to be discussed openly, and my goodness, there is always the fear of rejection.  I sometimes wonder when life is going to start over for me, and then I realize that "This is it!" 

I know that the loneliness can be unbearable, but get out and clear your head, and know that its OK to be alone sometimes.  Get out and socialize, date, date, date, because there is strength in numbers.  I bet that the more guys you date, the better the chances are of you finding a really good one for keeps.  Remember, you don't have to be intimate with all guys that you date and therefore disclose, you have a right to choose, too!  I think that dating will boost your confidence, and will attract good quality guys your way.  I think sometimes what we need is a little bit of attention, its normal for us to want to be close to someone.  I used to beat myself up mentally when I was dating, getting so nervous about the future and disclosure.  But you know what?  I kept on dating, and it made me stronger and more confident.

Get out and mingle, go where the music is, if thats your thing, go run or bike ride through the park, even if you're alone, you'll most likely run into people in the most unlikely of places. 

Oh, and most of all, remember to be PATIENT.  Good things take time.  Big hug to you tonight.   :-*

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #92 on: October 08, 2007, 04:10:27 AM »
Hi Afraid

Glad to see you back. I think if you have the ability, you should try to get some counceling so that you don't face this dating thing alone. I think because of the rape, everything is more traumatic and difficult for you. Add to that the poz situation, makes life very difficult for you. I say for youn because objectively, there are a lot of guys who would not judge you nor reject you, and in fact only sympathize with you, the question is how to find them. Most likely a better way to find someone like that is not clubbing or internet dating (with the possible exception of poz sites) but through friends, school, church or another social activity, or just by chance. But you will have to keep your eyes and ears open to see that special guy who looks like he has a good heart and an understanding spirit. I think you treat dating in the same way that I did until my diagnosis, like we (women) are out on a metaphorical shelf and the men approach and choose. I now realize that I have to target and choose actively because 99% of the men that used to approach me were sleazy. This was especially true until the age of 24-5 when I started to have serious relationships with guys from university, work etc. Until that point, I dated guys who hit onn me in clubs, bars, etc. I am not saying you can't meet someone great at a bar but I think it's less likely.

I don't know in which country you live nor how you pass the time, if you are working, what is your social setting. Try to look around you... sometimes the best guys are just under our nose and we don't see them, especially when we are young(er)... Gosh, now I can't believe this piece of "auntie" advice really came from me, but I guess somehow I did manage to mature in the last decade  ;)
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #93 on: October 08, 2007, 04:27:13 AM »
Hi all.  I had posted this an a different section and a few ladies said to post it here as well. :
10-7-2007I have only dated two men once each in the past two years and sex with only one(an old boyfriend at that.) I really want to meet someone yet when I go on the poz website or any other site I meet a few nice guys, then they pressure to meet right away like they are going to die tomorrow. I have one a few days ago who I had been sending emails with an IM on yahoo messenger and within few days he is saying lets meet(when we live over 300 miles apart. then IM's say I love you..where are you..an pressure started. I told him I need to talk with him by Email a bit, then we can talk on phone and go from there it takes time to learn about eachother etc.. (His reply was what are you waiting for time is to short. I have been doing this three years and need to meet someone. I am ready to rage &  then he said he had to go now to get back online to meet someone else). Am I crazy to feel that is to much to fast and for all the wrong reasons?? Maybe I have just been on my own for to long and I am just wanting to be really safe and sure before I g et my heart in this love thing again. I do feel alone at times but I am not lonely nor desperate. I would love companionship then friendship and if love comes then passion that would be perfect. I dont believe just because we are HIV positive we have to settle for just anyone and we are allowed to take our time for our soul mate to find us. That's not crazy either right?  Thanks for any feedback   
 
This is the reply to those ladies on the other section.
10-8-2007
Thanks ladies for the replys. They cracked me up.   whew I knew i was normal but those men seem to spin things so dam fast ya start to wonder ( is it me? ) i am happy you all said no its now. hahahah. I have read more than half of the threads and they are great. I am glad I found you ladies and look forward to meeting more of you. I have already made friends with confusedme(amy) and shes a doll so hope you get to know me soon as well.  Dawn

Oh here is what I sent him then I deleted him from IM
wow you sure get mad when things dont go your speed. well I wont bother you again as it appears unless I pretend to be in love now rather than be thruthful and say I am really interested in you lets get to know more and go from there then you throw me way. Cant find a true friend, companion an partner that way. Hope you find what you are looking for as I am looking for a true connection and that takes time and patience with eachother.     Bye delete... bye bye....



I am so looking forward to meeting more of you as your advise I have seen so far is cool and real.  Bye for now Dawn ;)
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #94 on: October 08, 2007, 06:08:52 AM »
Dawn, you know what, I am thinking most likely he said he loves you because he wants to get into your pants.  I can't believe guys still try to use that trick.  Glad you broke things off with him; he sounds like a slickster.

Belief, you have to be alright with just being with you.  Did you ever get any counseling for the rape?  Although we can help you through these things, you really need a trained, professional therapist who can help you sort through the residual feelings and any issues you still have.  I was gang-raped, held hostage and beaten when I was 15 and it took me quite awhile in counseling to get "back to normal." (Whatever that is or was).  That was a big issue for me.  I was hooking up with guys (prior to counseling) that weren't worth the time of day.  Substance abusers, or physically/emotionally abusive etc.  I really had to recognize what the rape did to me and all the baggage I carried from that.  Please seek out counseling for this, and I think you'll find your opinions of the type of man you will settle for will change. 

Cin, no I'm not really a N.D. fan.  Yes, the traffic is a bitch when they have a homegame and when they are going to play, people around here act like it's the second coming of Christ.  It kind of makes me sick.  South Bend is getting to be such a shithole, N.D. is one of the few things it has I think that keeps generating a lot of money through the town, so in that way it's good.  I'm really a Chicago Cubs fan, although they lost their ass in the play-offs.  But being a Cubs fan is like a tradition amongst me and my brother.  If someone is a true Cubs fan, it is like a tradition, more than just "being a fan." 

Well girls, today is my first day at a real job in 14 years.  I am kind of nervous but I plan on doing some yoga this morning and meditating to try to get centered.  Wish me luck and if I'm not too tired tonight, I'll post about the day.  I hope everyone has a great day-

Edited- when I put "Belief," I should have addressed it to "Afraid."  Sorry Belief, and thanks Cin for pointing it out!
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #95 on: October 08, 2007, 08:47:23 AM »
Who the heck farms gourds?  I always see them in the fall.  I have never known any one who grows them?  I've grown pumpkins, I've seen pumpkin patches, but never a gourd patch. 
And, is patch really appropriate for gourds?

Ah, the oh so important questions of life.
    Lol At Cam ;D.   Apparently there are some gourd farmers who take this very seriously. They must, to be coming up with some of these wild mutant hybrid gourds that we  see this time of year.                       Betty, Hope the job goes fantastic for you today. You will have quite a full plate with job and school                        Afraid, i think Betty is right to suggest counseling. Rape is a horrible thing, then to find out you are poz from it, doubly traumatic. If you can, find a therapist to talk to. And of course we are here for you but we do not take the place of trained counselors                               Seek(I will adopt Em's name for you) You should take things exactly however fast or slow YOU want to. Don't let anyone push you into more than you are ready for. Good men still exist, it just takes  time to find and get to know them                                                       Everybody else. Love ya'll, hope you are well and I will check back in later. Love Cristy

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #96 on: October 08, 2007, 10:37:20 AM »
Cam: Google 'gourds' and you'll get your answers. Not to life's questions, but to your gourd's gourd questions. You won't find the kind I bought, but it is interesting to see the site of the world's largest grower of gourds used for crafts, painting, carving and other sites that feature gourd use. I'm glad my humble, half-dozen gourd purchase launched your fertile wonderment. Yes, they're grown in patches.

Afraid: Good to see you posting again. BT's got this one covered in terms of empathetic advice---the very best kind. I am sorry these events happened to both of you and glad the perps did not kill you. Take good care of yourself and don't settle for anyone to fill a seat---ever. What a waste of everyone's time.

BT: Have a great day at work!

Seek: glad you found the thread.

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #97 on: October 08, 2007, 11:18:25 AM »
Hi GFs~

Sick as a dog today.  Its just my throat, though, so I am sipping hot black cherry tea.  I have no voice right now, kinda "squeak" when I talk, but that will get better through the day, lol!  I'm taking meds regularly, so I should be OK.  It figures I need to get my labs done this week, when my system is down, so to speak.  Oh well.

I had a dream this morning and I was in my callback interview for a job, at the same place.  It was a guy interviewing me, but after a minute, he walked me to the CFOs office and said "This girl is sweet.  We want her working for us."  Funny, in my dream, I looked at the CFO who really did interview me in real-life last Friday, and then I looked at the guy and said, "....but....." as if he was going to say WHY they couldn't hire me.  There's my insecurity in my dream, goodness!  The guy said, "Nope, you're in, we want you here to do great things."

So, hey, I am dreaming about getting a job, and I never dream!  Crazy me, needing to make sure, even in the dream with a "...but...", lol!   ;D

OK, I'm gonna go curl up with my hot tea now.....

Have a great day GFs!

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #98 on: October 08, 2007, 03:22:32 PM »
Hello Ladies---

It's getting close to that time for someone else to start a new thread. I'm not sure who is up for the challenge. I have been kind of quiet and just observing things. I haven't really been in the mood to talk. Don't know why because at the moment nothing is wrong. Woooo Hoooooo. Just has chosen to be quiet or only speak when I have something to say.

Welcome to the ladies just joining this thread. It's a great bunch of women here. I have read your threads as well but has nothing to add because I agree with what has been said. But feel free to vent or just share, it's what we do here. And just know you are not alone.

Something is going on with my left ear. I think it is clogged up with wax from the hearing aids. I haven't made an appointment to get them cleaned out since I can't drive my car. And the other one isn't fixed yet. I have been using over the counter stuff but it doesn't seem to be helping much. Other than that everything seems to be going fine. Just sitting here watching Rose Red.

Cindy--- If you don't dream and all of a sudden you are dreaming about an interview, I would say it just goes to show how much the job thing really is on your mind. Kinda pouring into the sub conscience. And how did you end up with a cold? Prolly from those damn mazes you love so much... ;D Keep sucking down the soup and tea. I hope you get better soon.

Betty--- Good Luck with your first day of work. I hope your knee holds up. I was just thinking, how about a knee brace, would that give you some support? My best friend has messed up knees and at times she can barely get out the bed.

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #99 on: October 08, 2007, 05:51:54 PM »
Hey everyone:

Queen, I do have a knee brace that I wear every day when I go out.  Otherwise my knee "clicks" really bad.  I exercise five days a week.  Just yoga right now.  I can't do a lot of the poses, because I can't bend my knee past a certain degree.  But the yoga helps with my legs staying strong, and with the breathing that I do during the yoga, that helps with wanting to smoke. 

Cin, girl, you better be careful.  Don't let your sore throat get too out of control before you do something about it.  I've never heard of black cherry tea, but it sure sounds good.  I like tea, but the past few days it's been in the upper 80's here, so I haven't really wanted any tea.  Unusual weather for Northern Indiana in October.  I think it's global warming.  I do what I can, recyclying wise.

Glad everyone else is alright.  Today at the job, it went great.  I met a lady who's raising her six grandchildren because her daughter was murdered.  And this lady had polio when she was two, and so she walks with braces that she holds and her right foot drops.  She is determined though, so how can I be any less.  Hope everyone is having a great evening.  I'm not going to linger here too long because I'm sweating like some kind of farm animal. :P 

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #100 on: October 08, 2007, 07:58:42 PM »
ML  - FYI

http://jobs.aol.com/article/_a/september-jobs-report-is-solid-110000/20071005130509990001?ncid=AOLCOMMjobsDYNLprim0001

GQ - New Thread coming up indeed. I think our philosophy student should give it a crack...

watcha say BT?

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #101 on: October 08, 2007, 08:33:44 PM »
Hi Em~

Thanks for the link.  The article pretty much echos what I have learned this summer.  I am still hopeful that a job will come through soon!

Cough is getting bad tonight, but I see my ID doc next week.  I'll certainly call my PCP this week if things get worse.  Off to get more tea.  Stone hasn't called in days, and I am just too tired.

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« Reply #102 on: October 08, 2007, 08:35:13 PM »
Em-  thanks for the info, here here I shall Google the Gourds!  LOL

Cin-  Hope you start feeling better in no time.  Is it possible to easily change your blood work to next week if you're concerned?   My doctor suggests if her patients are feeling off then put your blood work off until we get better (off meaning common colds etc.)

BT-  Well you made it made through your first day in 14 years, whooo hooo.  As for your co-worker wow, I can't imagine what she's suffered and endured in one life time.....the loss of a child in an incredibly brutal nature and polio....geeesh. 

Hello to the rest of you girls.

Long and productive day off -"thank you Mr. Columbus".  Time to read a bit and get ready for another Owellian day at the office.

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« Reply #103 on: October 09, 2007, 04:40:55 AM »
Good morning ladies:
   
I was thinking about starting another thread, but my mind just isn't active yet.  I couldn't even think of a catchy title. :-\  I was out by 7:30 last night.  But it was a "good tired."  (You know, I never did figure out what that meant, isn't tired just tired). 

Cin, don't wait to see the doctor if you're not feeling better.  You don't want some nasty infection to take hold!  I know you will find a job.  I just got lucky.  But, of course, I didn't have any salary requirements either.  My doctor doesn't want me to work full-time, which I'm glad about, because I can't afford to lose Medicare.  Last year they paid $43,000 just for my medications!  I know that when I report to welfare about working, they will yank my food stamps (who cares, I only get $9/month anyway) and tack a bigger spend-down on my Medicaid.  But, oh well, I can live with that.  Anyway, I'm prattling on.  Please take care of yourself girl.  I don't want to hear any reports about some horrible infection that's got to be cleared up by the doc!

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« Reply #104 on: October 09, 2007, 05:36:50 AM »
Betty, one of your post said your knee Clicks alot. My daughter is 21 and since she was in mid teens her knees both sound like they are tearing when she bends etc. When she was younger they said it was her growing so fast as she is tall. Then in late 20's they say its lack of muscle. I and today she said her knees really hurt even when walking. She is not heavy and eats healthy, always has. I want her to h ave my chiro see her next week when she comes home to visit from San Francisco, she agreed. What caused your click if I can ask? ???
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« Reply #105 on: October 09, 2007, 06:23:10 AM »
Hi Ladies,

Cin, I hope you will see a doc asap if this doesn't get better. i don't know how it is over there, but here we can see an emergency doc after hours (not same as ER, just a clinic). I find these docs a lot more approachable than the normal GP so sometimes I just go there instead. I have had these things before and they always cleared up, but it's always good to have a doc listen to your lungs and pay attnetion to that. Get well soon!

As for Stone not calling... let's let you get well first. I am kinda ticked off about that, but you're the priority, since we can't do anything to change him. Except... call him and let you know how it makes you feel. My BF used to do that, like when I was visiting my parents, he'd just not email or call for days. It was like he forgot about me. He told me he was just no good at these things. But he's changed/learned now. This could be the case, just carelessness on his part. Or, I hate to say it, but there are still guys out there, Cindy honestly you are a pretty, vibrant, fun woman. I KNOW there are guys who would love a partner like you, whether they are neg or poz. But now is not the time to deal with that. As for the job, I know you're killing yourself trying, but maybe it would be best to give up some demands. I know how hard it is, but that's what I'd do. Of course there are some things like insurance which are indespensible, but money... money is just money. Just to make it clear I live off far less than 30,000$ a year for sure. Of course i don't have a house or a car. But cars and fuel are much much more expensive here anyway than in the US.
I'm just saying how much I make to emphasize that I too would love to make more and have a much better job, but I take what I can... not that you shouldn't aim high, but that you should cut yourself some slack, soemtimes there are things we can't control like a bad job market.

Betty, how's the new job going? I wish you luck, and that you enjoy it. I wish I had the discipline to do yoga, I like it, just doing it alone... so many things I want to do.

I couldn't post yesterday, was bummed with life, met my social worker at the hospital, work issues accumulating, stresses galore... but every yesterday has a today, and every today has a tomorrow, so I crawled out. The Black Sheep has been revived  ;D

The bestest wishes for everyone here! as I write this the sun just came out, but alas, I have Excel sheets to attend to... If I am good and work for 90 minutes straight, I'll go for a jog (I have to work from home b/c my new room is still being set up).
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« Reply #106 on: October 09, 2007, 08:13:33 AM »
Good men still exist, it just takes  time to find and get to know them 

not in Zimbabwe they dont.  they moved out of the country a whiles back and now we're left with the liars the cheats the commitment-phobes and the downright a##holes

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« Reply #107 on: October 09, 2007, 08:59:43 AM »
CAM

get ready for another Owellian day at the office.

This sentence stopped me for a moment. Then, I realized you meant to write Orwellian (cuz of all the Big Bro actions as of late). BUT, what a great typo as this is the kind of day we can all strive for-- an O-well! ian day. Complete acceptance of what comes and dismissed with a snap and an Oh Well.

ML - Glad the article echos what you've observed this summer. I forwarded it because of the recent tally of 100,000+ new jobs which is some good news. BTW - the facial photos you posted were quite educational for me and I'm sure for others. Hope you hear from the firm whose CEO you liked. Re: your current illness+stress=challenged adrenals...do you take any supplemental vitamins?

DRAG - Black Sheep? Baaaaahh. Are trying to pull the wool over our eyes? Are you fleecing someone in the land of wooden shoes? Shear lunacy, I say!

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« Reply #108 on: October 09, 2007, 11:24:40 AM »
Cindy, sent you a PM
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« Reply #109 on: October 09, 2007, 02:57:50 PM »
Hi GFs~

Doing a little better today, although a recruiter called early today, wanting me to be at an interview in a matter of hours.  They told me this last week on Weds and I was ready to go, but never got the go-ahead call.  So, I called the recruiter today, and speaking like a pre-pubescent boy with his voice changing, I squeaked, "I can't go to an interview until I get my voice back."  They said they would try for tomorrow at 2pm.  Still no call to confirm.

I am pushing fluids, keeping my throat moist, and its helping.  I'm not too worried about my labs tomorrow, I'll go mid-morning and get them done, then hopefully go to the interview in the afternoon.  I don't take a multi-vitamin.  I have tried several times over the years and those horse pills tear up my stomach no matter how much food I have in me.  I get nausea and feel really sick.  It can last for a few days sometimes.

I spoke with my mother for an hour today, and she actually listened, to all of my garbled talk, about having to go to Social Services and considering getting food stamps, not having enough money for groceries, as well as unemployment ending in a few weeks.

She had no idea.  It all started when she said she was sending, yes SENDING, Halloween candy to my sister-in-law in Georgia, so that she would have something to give the trick or treaters.  She has been doing this for years!  That sounds kind, but also frikkin lame to me at the same time.  That's when I told her how bad things were for me, that I didn't qualify for help because none of my bills were late, because I have mortgage rather than rent to pay, etc.  I am closer than ever to landing a job with three very good prospects in the pipeline, so I am thinking positive.  Imagine that, lol!  ;)

My internet and TV were down earlier and I did call Stone when my voice came back some, as well.  I left a message, saying I wanted to catch up on things, and that I had been pretty sick for four days.  I hope he's just busy with work, who knows?  Maybe he's sick as a dog, too, like me.  Its been kind of strange not speaking to him for so long now, but I have been resting up with this sore throat.

I think I am doing a little better today.  I've always heard that when you start to cough, your illness is on its way out.  I coughed bad yesterday.  We'll see if it gets worse this evening or not.

~Cindy
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #110 on: October 09, 2007, 05:52:17 PM »
OK, so one recruiter called back and I am scheduled for 2pm tomorrow.  The job is only 2 miles from my house!  The pay is lower, but I have realized that its tough to make what I used to, and if a job is close by, I can go down a few thousand.

Can you see me on a scooter driving to work?!

Hee-hee!  Gotta get this voice back, sipping hot tea.  This time its cranberry-apple, BT!

~Cindy

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #111 on: October 09, 2007, 06:36:38 PM »
That's great news... will keep my cramped fingers crossed as well! Get some Strepsills for the throat.
2 miles... hmm... you could get a bicycle...
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #112 on: October 09, 2007, 07:47:32 PM »
Hey, at least if I worked in Frederick, I wouldn't have to buy 4 new tires for the Jeep so soon.  I could go 4 miles a day forever, lol!   ;D
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #113 on: October 09, 2007, 08:00:43 PM »
Em- Obviously, you understood my intentions in my post but its great that you extrapolated the Oh well addition.  Speaking of addition, when is the new addition arriving?

I was with a girl friend yesterday and she said, "hmmm, getting the baby bangs".   I thought it was a haircut she was referring to.  "Baby bangs, what the hell is that?"  She starts laughing and said, "no baby PANGS".  Well,...... I'll leave my reply for a whole other thread  ;)

Cin-  Your post snuck in seconds before mine.  I didn't realize you were feeling worse.  And in the blink of an eye you are feeling a little bit better today?  That's the reality of posting, if you're gone for a day, its incredible how you can miss integral pieces of information. Geesh, thanks to your direction I might still be lost posting on old threads of yester-year.

BT - How was the 2nd day on the job? The second day is always better since you know the layout and everything isn't a complete mystery.   Waiting eagerly on the new thread title btw.

Tendai-  Believe me, New Jersey has its beloved share of liars and cheats.  I think I dated half of them :-\

I'm very excited.  A dear friend in the W. Palm Beach area is getting hitched.  She knows that my $$$ situation is tight, therefore,  flying me down and setting me up in a hotel for the weekend.   At first I was very adamant in not going and accepting her gift but she insisted based on her staying with me a few years ago.  Earlier today I find out from my sister that she is flying down to W. Palm the same day on the same airline for vacation.  Let me just add, I've never been there and she's never been there, what are the odds. Kinda bizarre right?

From the bizarre to the mundane mall. 
I was able to treat myself and buy a very cool betsy johnson dress.  A macy's gift card, that was long for gotten in my bedroom junk draw, was demanding to be utilized so I just had to comply.  The best part is the dress went from $235 to $32 with yesterday's sale.  I had just enough left on the card for shoes...again another bargain.  This is the first time in a very long time that I was able to treat myself and it felt great.

It was the only thing I received on my birthday (which is fine,  don't really like making a deal out of it as the sand grains slip downward gaining speed each year). Now months later it turned out to be a God send. 

Hugs to everyone and the rest of the ladies

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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #114 on: October 10, 2007, 05:13:07 AM »
What caused your click if I can ask? ???
Dawn

Dawn, having no cartilage in my knee is what causes it to click.  The last time I went to see my orthopedist, he took x-rays of both my knees and told me my cartilage was totally crushed in my left knee; in my right knee, it's collapsing.  This all started when the last guy I was in a relationship with pushed me down a flight of stairs (yes, Tendai, there are assholes here also, believe me).  My kneecaps broke, and I didn't stay off of my feet to allow a little healing.  My left leg won't straighten out; it has a permanent bend in it.  When I bend/straighten my right leg, me knee sounds like someone's ripping a rag down the middle.  But, my doctor told me if I had a knee replacement now, I'd have to have another one in 10 years.  I really don't want to do this as I'm still able to walk right now(not in a wheelchair).

Cin, I do hope your throat is better today.  I'm so glad you have an interview today!  I'm sending lots of good energy to you. It's too bad you can't take a multi-vitamin.  I take a generic women's formula.  But if it upsets your stomach, I can understand why you don't take one.  I hate feeling nauseated!  Have you heard from Stone yet?

Queen, where are you?  Haven't heard from you in a little while. 

Cam, have lots of fun in West Palm Beach!  I've never been there, but I'm sure it's really nice.  That's nice of your friend.  Girl, don't even feel bad about letting her pay
for it if she wants to.  Just consider it a nice gift and get out there! 

Well, my second day went well.  We stayed a little longer, but oh well, we're getting paid.  One of the girls I go to school with told me last night that she worked where I'm working for a little while.  She said it was very mentally draining though, so she works somewhere else now.  But I can't complain, at least I'm working when so many people are losing their jobs and can't find work.

Today I was freezing when I woke up!  The temps went from the 80's down to the 40's.  Crazy shit man.  Yesterday I saw on the news about the polar caps melting.  This is scarey to me when I think about my grandchildren and their children.  I recycle aluminum.  I take it to my church because they recycle.  I wish I recycled more, but on the street I live on, the truck doesn't come by.  Which is very strange, because like 10 blocks over, the truck is there every week.  Maybe I'll just start hauling my recyclables to other people's houses where the truck picks up the things  (no, I wouldn't do that) ;) 

I hope all you ladies have a great day.  Cin, {{{BIG HUG}}} girlfriend!
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #115 on: October 10, 2007, 05:20:26 PM »
Hi GFs~

I am exhausted from today.  Woke up at 5am with low blood sugar, but waited it out because I had to fast for my labs.

I had an excellent job interview today, the mgr called the owner right in front of me and set up interview #2 for tomorrow.  Looks like I will be employed as soon as I want to be, just have to be sure!  This job will pay more than I've ever earned and its 2 miles from my house doing what I love!

I am so excited and nervous!  I went right to my father's shop afterwards to bounce thoughts off of him.  He said everything I needed to hear, basically, "Go for it!"

I am totally distracted about working again, its a good thing!  I still have two other prospects in the pipeline, but I think this place will be my new home very soon.  They practically made me the offer today, except that I have to meet with the owner. 

I am totally beat, didn't get lunch, so I am going to go fall over.

BT thanks for the hug, Drag thanks for the emails and Queen thanks for the IMs. 

I hope everyone is doing OK out there.  Time to change the "Nut Job" slogan under my avatar to a more promising one.....  ;)

OH....just finished reading a sunny thread.  TY to my friends, male and female, who have stood by me.  Insert pac man theme........  ;)

~Cindy
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Re: Dating Thread Part VII: Ovaries, Outcomes and Opportunities in October
« Reply #116 on: October 10, 2007, 06:27:44 PM »
*Waving@Betty*.... Here, I am girl....I have been quiet here, but have been putting my thoughts elsewhere... ;) Today has been a year since I joined the forums so I started a thread over there but really has bonded with you ladies over here too. I love this place and the people in it.

Ok, Betty this thread is getting kinda long and we are waiting for you to start another one. I know you are a working girl now but throw something out there. We need to get another one going. The temps dropped here today too. I actually had to turn the heat on before I went to bed last night. When I got up, it was warm so I turned the heat off and opened the windows. It's still a little nippy out there. I was reading online that they think winter will be mild this year. I can only hope because over here we get slammed with a lot of lake effect snow.

 Cindy, sounds like you have landed a job if all they are waiting for is you to meet the boss. It's good to have a job you like and the pay you want. As far as the IMs go, I'm always here for you even if I am afk. I got the last one you sent me, I'll get back to you on that shortly. LMAO@insert pac man theme. You liked that one, huh? :D

I hope all you ladies out there who are quiet are doing ok. It would be nice to hear from you. I must run, I have a roast to put in the oven before it gets too late. Last night me and the roomie didn't eat dinner til after midnight.....
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