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Author Topic: I am missing you so damned much.....  (Read 3427 times)

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Offline heartforyou

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I am missing you so damned much.....
« on: September 24, 2007, 04:41:29 AM »
My dearest family,

I haven't been well the last couple of days.
Sudden side effects I had not experienced in years.

Maybe it is the AMG's cold turkey.
It certainly is lonely out here, without Dan to cuddle up at night and all of your smiling faces and warm warm hearts.

Ever sincer eturning home  I feel as if I left a part of me back in San Francisco. I cried some bitter tears.
Although my mind says it was limited event, the child and romantic in me wants it to go on forever.

I would so love to live in the US and be closer to so many of the hearts that have touched me, more then you will ever know.

Meeting people only once a year and feeling their hugs, full of hope, love, emotions... I wished I could repeat that every day.
Like the hug form Rick : syas more then a million words.

Dan is busy looking for a job. I wished he were here with me, but I hope he can forfill his wish first. It sure is lonely at night.

Thank you all for being in my life. If it weren't for you I had long be gone. And that is no empty phrase.

John, thank you for the ride. We loved it.

Alan... class 1987... here we are
Diagnosed in 1987 and still kicking
Kivexa (Epzicom),Tivicay once daily.

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Offline JohnOso

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Re: I am missing you so damned much.....
« Reply #1 on: September 24, 2007, 06:16:16 AM »

I know how you are feeling about missing everyone.....it was so sad to leave....just ask englishgirl about my blubbering at the Powell Street Station (I sat on the ground sulking at the far end of the station, about 3 feet from all the rushing trains, lol).

ah, but those glorious memories, my friend.......... :)

i am so sorry that you are not feeling well, and hope that it soon passes.

thinking of you and dan, and hoping you are soon together.

and you are both welcome in our little corner of the world anytime.


Offline RapidRod

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Re: I am missing you so damned much.....
« Reply #2 on: September 24, 2007, 06:16:57 AM »
Hermie, start planning for next year. I'm sure going to. You and Dan were a blast and I can't wait to do it all over. Like Dan said, we both waited for the A/C boarding together and he chased me down in Denver to give me a hug. Not a good bye hug, a hug that we'll see each other again. I'm like you, it was amazing and an unforgetable time. See you next year, god willing.


Offline AlanBama

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Re: I am missing you so damned much.....
« Reply #3 on: September 24, 2007, 10:17:37 AM »

Yes, here we are!  I think you are a very special man, and I'm so thankful that I've had the opportunity to know you.

It is always hard to leave everyone, isn't it?  I know it is especially hard on you, having to leave Dan.   Sending you love & hugs, and hoping you feel better soon.

Love you,
Alan -- fellow member, class of 1987 !
"Remember my sentimental friend that a heart is not judged by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others." - The Wizard of Oz

Offline Blixer

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Re: I am missing you so damned much.....
« Reply #4 on: September 24, 2007, 11:39:38 AM »

Sorry you aren't feeling well.

I can totally identify with what you expressed here.  This was my first time and it has made me different somehow.  I'm sure it is for the better.

You and Dan make such a great couple.  I know the loneliness of being apart is difficult.  I wish you both the very best!

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Offline allanq

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Re: I am missing you so damned much.....
« Reply #5 on: September 24, 2007, 11:57:03 AM »

I am so glad I had the chance to meet you. I'm trying to find the right phrase to describe how I feel about you, but none seems adequate. "Warm and loving presence" is the best I can do for now.

I'm sorry you're not feeling well right now, but I hope it won't last long.

You and Dan both looked so happy together. It must be so hard to be living so far apart from each other.

All the best to you, Mr. Hermie.

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Offline milker

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Re: I am missing you so damned much.....
« Reply #6 on: September 24, 2007, 12:16:28 PM »
Herman mon cher,

I join the others in hoping that you feel better soon. It was great to meet you @ AMG and I sure look forward to more hugging and French conversation next year :)

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