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Hello Family
Had my first doctors appointment Mon. the 3rd since finding out.  So I was gonna get my counts and physical and chest ex rays etc, had all my questions written down and everything.  Now I have always been the type of person who only went 2 the doctor if I thought I was dying so maybe it's just the thought of going 2 doctors multiple times a year and going to see the therapist and my A.S.O. and so on and so forth that did it but I freaked and I didn't go.  Couldn't even pick up the phone 2 cancel I just didn't want 2 think about it.

I did make myself call today 2 reschedule and the lady wanted 2 schedule me 2 meet with a nurse practitioner this Fri instead of the I.D. doc I was originally supposed 2 see.  I politely declined figuring that it was important 2 start this off with a Doctor that I could get 2 know and if compatible continue 2 see rather then see someone new every time.
I feel bad 4 missing the appointment and I feel like I wasted their time by not even calling.  I have these visions of someone out there who really needed 2 get in 2 see the Doc and here I am throwing it away. Truth is I know that keeping up with doctors is going 2 be very tricky 4 me and I am going 2 miss some appointments so at the same time I am kicking my ass ,I feel like I have the right 2 be freaking the fuck out and everyone around me is just going 2 have 2 accept the fact that there are going 2 be days where I do some strange shit.  Hell it's only been a couple of weeks.

Anyway they rescheduled me 4 the 24th of this month and if it kills me I am going damnit LOL Wish me luck


Thank U 4 giving me a place 2 go and by reading your posts letting me know I am not alone

maybe if u had a close friend or something they can go with you for moral support and make sure u dont chicken out at the last minute. good luck

I'm scared enough as it is just having 2 talk 2 the doc LOL, I would have a hard time speaking honestly (sex life and what not) with someone else in the room. 


purplerain, the doctors are there for your health. The only thing I was asked was if I was active or not. They don't dig into you sexual history, they don't place blame. It's all medical. Yes, you should have called and rescheduled, so that someone else could have taken your place.


Having a friend go with you to the doctor is an excellent idea. That person does NOT have to go in to the actual appointment with the doctor with you, they can just sit with you in the waiting room for moral support. That support can be priceless, especially if you end up with a long wait.



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