Welcome, Guest. Please login or register.
December 09, 2016, 01:28:10 AM

Login with username, password and session length

  • Total Posts: 704666
  • Total Topics: 56099
  • Online Today: 240
  • Online Ever: 1421
  • (August 13, 2016, 05:18:44 AM)
Users Online
Users: 3
Guests: 211
Total: 214


Welcome to the POZ Community Forums, a round-the-clock discussion area for people with HIV/AIDS, their friends/family/caregivers, and others concerned about HIV/AIDS.  Click on the links below to browse our various forums; scroll down for a glance at the most recent posts; or join in the conversation yourself by registering on the left side of this page.

Privacy Warning:  Please realize that these forums are open to all, and are fully searchable via Google and other search engines. If you are HIV positive and disclose this in our forums, then it is almost the same thing as telling the whole world (or at least the World Wide Web). If this concerns you, then do not use a username or avatar that are self-identifying in any way. We do not allow the deletion of anything you post in these forums, so think before you post.

  • The information shared in these forums, by moderators and members, is designed to complement, not replace, the relationship between an individual and his/her own physician.

  • All members of these forums are, by default, not considered to be licensed medical providers. If otherwise, users must clearly define themselves as such.

  • Forums members must behave at all times with respect and honesty. Posting guidelines, including time-out and banning policies, have been established by the moderators of these forums. Click here for “Am I Infected?” posting guidelines. Click here for posting guidelines pertaining to all other POZ community forums.

  • We ask all forums members to provide references for health/medical/scientific information they provide, when it is not a personal experience being discussed. Please provide hyperlinks with full URLs or full citations of published works not available via the Internet. Additionally, all forums members must post information which are true and correct to their knowledge.

  • Product advertisement—including links; banners; editorial content; and clinical trial, study or survey participation—is strictly prohibited by forums members unless permission has been secured from POZ.

To change forums navigation language settings, click here (members only), Register now

Para cambiar sus preferencias de los foros en español, haz clic aquí (sólo miembros), Regístrate ahora

Finished Reading This? You can collapse this or any other box on this page by clicking the symbol in each box.

Author Topic: Left my heart in s.f.  (Read 3873 times)

0 Members and 1 Guest are viewing this topic.

Offline lucas clay

  • Member
  • Posts: 518
Left my heart in s.f.
« on: September 24, 2007, 11:28:19 AM »
I didn't think i would enjoy A.M.G. as much as i did, Nadine really wanted to go so off we went.I was looking forward to meeting a few of the people i had talked to on line, and seeing S.f.
I think it was the second night we were there everyone was together talking and Thom looked at me and put his arm around me, big grin on his face, and it dawned on me.( i am always amazed on how "STOOPID" i can be sometimes)

 this was not just a group of people getting together because of a common bond ( hiv)
but a group of people that had more love in there hearts than in any other place i have been in.
Its hard to put in words. Such a diverse group of people but with one thing in common.
 Love for there fellow man, compassion, wanting to help and sharing your pain when your down. sharing your joy when the good things come your way.
Lucas did not leave his heart in s.f.
I came back with more heart than i left with.

                                      love ya all

Offline Blixer

  • Member
  • Posts: 712
Re: Left my heart in s.f.
« Reply #1 on: September 24, 2007, 11:43:32 AM »

I totally know what you mean.  I came to SF not knowing what to expect.  I was very nervous and unsure about things.  But I agree that it turned out to be so much more than just a group of people who came together because of a common bond (HIV).  The love and acceptance was amazing.  I had never felt anything like that before.  It is so good to see that so many have been touched by this short experience.  With so many bad things in life... this is one of the very bright spots.

Diagnosed 1/9/06
8/27/2007 CD4 598, 29%, VL 58 (72 wks)
11/19/2007 CD4 609, 30%, VL < 50 (84 wks)
2/11/2008 CD4 439, 27%, VL <50 (96 wks)
5/5/2008 CD4 535, 28%, VL <50 (108 wks)
10/20/2008 CD4 680, 28%, VL <50 (132 wks)
Changed to Atripla in 2012
1/14/2013 CD4 855, 35%, VL <40

Offline milker

  • Member
  • Posts: 4,034
  • Protected phone sex
Re: Left my heart in s.f.
« Reply #2 on: September 24, 2007, 12:21:54 PM »
Hi Lucas,

this love, friendship, bonding energy is definitely recurrent in all the posts I've seen from everyone that participated in AMG. I too never felt something like this with so many people. I look forward to seeing everyone again.

mid-dec: stupid ass
mid-jan: seroconversion
mid-feb: poz
mar 07: cd4 432 (35%) vl 54000
may 07: cd4 399 (28%) vl 27760
jul 07: cd4 403 (26%) vl 99241
oct 07: cd4 353 (24%) vl 29993
jan 08: cd4 332 (26%) vl 33308
mar 08: cd4 392 (23%) vl 75548
jun 08: cd4 325 (27%) vl 45880
oct 08: cd4 197 (20%) vl 154000 <== aids diagnosis
nov 2 08 start Atripla
nov 30 08: cd4 478 (23%) vl 1880 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
feb 19 09: cd4 398 (24%) vl 430 getting there!
apr 23 09: cd4 604 (29%) vl 50 woohoo :D :D
jul 30 09: cd4 512 (29%) vl undetectable :D :D
may 27 10: cd4 655 (32%) vl undetectable :D :D

Now accepting applications from blowjob ninjas™

Offline David_CA

  • Member
  • Posts: 3,246
  • Joined: March 2006
Re: Left my heart in s.f.
« Reply #3 on: September 24, 2007, 12:58:31 PM »
If you think there was any bonding that occurred at your first AMG, wait 'til you attend another one!  You've already met a lot of the people you'll see next year, so much of the initial 'apprehension' won't even even be an issue.  You'll jump right into the 'second night' almost right away.  It'll be like you're meeting a few new people, but also like you're reuniting with a lot of old friends.  What's also cool is just what Milker mentions.  You can almost see a difference when attendees reply to posts of other attendees.  It's not just a screen name and words you're responding to; it's a real person that you talked to, and maybe really got to know, at the AMG.

Black Friday 03-03-2006
03-23-06 CD4 359 @27.4% VL 75,938
06-01-06 CD4 462 @24.3% VL > 100,000
08-15-06 CD4 388 @22.8% VL >  "
10-21-06 CD4 285 @21.9% VL >  "
  Atripla started 12-01-2006
01-08-07 CD4 429 @26.8% VL 1872!
05-08-07 CD4 478 @28.1% VL 740
08-03-07 CD4 509 @31.8% VL 370
11-06-07 CD4 570 @30.0% VL 140
02-21-08 CD4 648 @32.4% VL 600
05-19-08 CD4 695 @33.1% VL < 48 undetectable!
08-21-08 CD4 725 @34.5%
11-11-08 CD4 672 @39.5%
02-11-09 CD4 773 @36.8%
05-11-09 CD4 615 @36.2%
08-19-09 CD4 770 @38.5%
11-19-09 CD4 944 @33.7%
02-17-10 CD4 678 @39.9%  
06-03-10 CD4 768 @34.9%
09-21-10 CD4 685 @40.3%
01-10-11 CD4 908 @36.3%
05-23-11 CD4 846 @36.8% VL 80
02-13-12 CD4 911 @41.4% VL<20
You must be the change you want to see in the world.  Mahatma Gandhi

Offline Buckmark

  • Member
  • Posts: 1,641
  • Would you like to tie me up with your ties, Ty?
    • Henry's Home Page
Re: Left my heart in s.f.
« Reply #4 on: September 24, 2007, 01:26:33 PM »
It's not just a screen name and words you're responding to; it's a real person that you talked to, and maybe really got to know, at the AMG.

For me , this is the biggest (and I hope longest-lasting) effect of attending AMG.  I appreciate all of our technology that allows us to communicate and keep in touch over long distances.  But meeting in person is far more powerful, and forges a stronger connection with, and understanding of, one another.  That's what I am most grateful for.

"Life in Lubbock, Texas, taught me two things:
     One is that God loves you and you're going to burn in hell.
     The other is that sex is the most awful, filthy thing on earth and you should save it for someone you love."
- Butch Hancock, Musician, The Flatlanders

Offline Oceanbeach

  • Member
  • Posts: 3,565
Re: Left my heart in s.f.
« Reply #5 on: September 24, 2007, 11:01:08 PM »
Hey Lucas,

I live close enough to SF to go anytime and have often done so.  In all my travels to the city, I have never felt more at home and at peace with the world as I did at AMG.  Have the best day

Offline RAB

  • Member
  • Posts: 1,895
  • Joined March 2003
Re: Left my heart in s.f.
« Reply #6 on: September 28, 2007, 09:21:47 AM »

Sorry for the tardy reply, but I wanted to say I thought your post above was wonderful.  You said it perfectly, what so many of us felt during AMG.

Meeting you and Nadine made it even better.

Lucas did not leave his heart in s.f.
I came back with more heart than i left with.



Terms of Membership for these forums

© 2016 Smart + Strong. All Rights Reserved.   terms of use and your privacy
Smart + Strong® is a registered trademark of CDM Publishing, LLC.