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Offline Queen Tokelove

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Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« on: August 30, 2007, 07:51:10 PM »
As hard as I tried to think of a snazzy title to Part V, this is all I could come up with. I guess it's due to being exhausted. I am exhausted from talking to Boo most of the night. He is still having problems with his computer, now he has no sound and that is driving him crazy. Then around 4 something I was chatting with him and Powder who is having probs catching some zzzzz's. Yesterday, I did go get my bloodwork done but I'll update you next week after the doctor's appointment....So, who is up next?
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
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11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #1 on: August 30, 2007, 09:23:13 PM »
Love the bears queen! ;)  I'm sending you a {{{{HUGE HUG}}}}!  I'm anxious to hear what your bloodwork shows.  I'm due for some next month.  Hey, that's only a few days away!
   I started my "Introduction to Philosophy" class tonight.  It's really interesting.  I love to be challenged to think and to think deeply.  So I think it will be a good class.  The instructor is laid back, which helps alot.  There are a diverse group of people in the class.  I'm probably the oldest, besides the instructor.  But that's alright.  I'm just a late bloomer. 
   It's weird, they've been having multiple problems one county over (Elkhart county) with people escaping the county jail.  Personally, I think it's kind of funny, though I'm glad I don't live by there.  They just can't control the inmates I guess.  I don't know what this has to do with any-damn-thing, but it just crossed my mind.
    I'm seeing Liz Saturday.  We're going to figure out something to do.  It might be hard, because Saturday is Notre Dame's first home football game.  I live like 15 minutes away from the stadium, so traffic is going to be a bitch.  OK, who's next? ;D
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #2 on: August 30, 2007, 10:33:50 PM »
I guess it will be me to be next....again....Some of the regs here are out with their love interests but I'm sure they will chime in a bit later. Camille has been so into Ian lately that we haven't heard much from her but can you blame her, he sounds like a very romantic person. I look forward to hearing the latest romantic thing he has done. Powder is out with Stone tonight, I think, I'm not sure. And I am a bit clueless to what the others are doing. I will prolly do a bit of posting tonight because tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me. It is time to start moving things over to the new place, so you guys prolly will not hear much from me.

Man, I don't know what came over me earlier when I started this thread. I was tired as hell and tried to get a nap in but could not go to sleep. I hope I am not coming down with Powder's sleeplessness, that would be a bitch considering what I have to do tomorrow. But then I am wondering if it is because I haven't smoked anything in a few days or just due to the fact of being stressed the hell out most of the week. Well, I guess I will do what usually calms me down....PLAY MY PS2 and play some Scarface. I need to feel like "The World is Mine" even if just for a moment and only in a video game. Oh hell, who am I fooling, I just want to kill some shit.... ;D
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #3 on: August 31, 2007, 12:36:52 AM »
As hard as I tried to think of a snazzy title to Part V, this is all I could come up with.
                                                                                  Queen , you did good. I'm not sure where the other ladies are/have been. I have been at work. Decent night. Done by 10.   I work parttime, mostly an abbreviated 2nd shift. I will get some lunches now that Robert is in school.    He had a good day today, just seemed tired when he got home from school.                                     Queen, why have you not been smoking. Are you trying to quit or are there just higher priorities with you moving?  I hate going with out but often there are more important things we need. Anyway, kinda sad tonight, thinking about starting a thread about it but will have to think on it. Goodnight , ladies. I will post more tommorrow.   Cristy

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #4 on: August 31, 2007, 01:59:39 AM »
Christy~~

I wasn't smoking because I am broke at the moment but a gf looked out for me so I am good now.. ;D But am still feeling frustrated with the gas company. Why so sad? It seems to be going around a bit lately. I wonder if it has to do with that moon thing going on. You should start another thread and just vent, you know venting does us good. I should be trying to get some sleep and has smoked 3 joints. I thought I would be sleeping like a baby by now but nope, just feeling mellow with a tad bit of frustration sitting in. I just can't stop thinking about all the bullshit with the gas. *sighs*....Think good thoughts.....Think good thoughts.... ;D
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #5 on: August 31, 2007, 08:47:50 AM »
Christy~~

I wasn't smoking because I am broke at the moment but a gf looked out for me so I am good now.. ;D But am still feeling frustrated with the gas company. Why so sad? It seems to be going around a bit lately. I wonder if it has to do with that moon thing going on. You should start another thread and just vent, you know venting does us good. I should be trying to get some sleep and has smoked 3 joints. I thought I would be sleeping like a baby by now but nope, just feeling mellow with a tad bit of frustration sitting in. I just can't stop thinking about all the bullshit with the gas. *sighs*....Think good thoughts.....Think good thoughts.... ;D
                                                                             Gotta love friends. My cousin and I look out for each other like that on occasion. Good suggestion, Queen. I think I will start a thread where we can go vent or moan or cry,which I was actually doing  last night.I always hold hurt  inside and it builds up after a while. Got no problem letting anger out,actually that's my standard mode of dealing with things, I get angry.                                                     On a dating note, Florida called last night. I was at work so didn't talk to him but I told that man before he has too many issues for me to deal with. He would be exactly what I like otherwise. Black hair, blue eyes, nice build,taller than me but not greatly so. Oh, well. Got a couple others  messaging me. Cutie from Virginia and another guy from Florida but he seems to have his shit together.                i will post more later, I am off tonight and on call tommorrow night so will be on here when I can.   Cristy

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #6 on: August 31, 2007, 01:20:26 PM »
Well, my best friend asked me if I want to go to this new Casino around here.  I'm thinking about it.  Of course, being on disabilitiy, it isn't like I could spend a ton of money.  But it does sound like fun.  I haven't done any gambling since I was like 17.  Gambling makes me nervous.  But who knows, maybe I would hit a jackpot and then I could spread the money around to my sisters here and end everyone's problems! ;D  It's just a thought....
   Oh, Queen, btw, that movie "The Fog" that Liz (the girl I'm trying to see) is the original one.  She said the remake sucked.  I'm thinking about asking her if, instead of getting together tomorrow afternoon, if she would like to get together when she gets off work at 9:30 and maybe go see the new Halloween.  It looks really good.  She loves horror movies, and I like ones that are well-made.  That way I could go to the casino in the afternoon, and go see the movie tomorrow night.  Plus, the traffic from Notre Dame's first home game is going to be terrible tomorrow, so I would like to avoid all areas of heavy traffic. 
     I am wondering how Powder is doing and everyone else.  Hope someone posts something soon so I know what's going on with everyone. ;)  Good luck moving Queen!  Sending good thoughts your way!
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #7 on: August 31, 2007, 01:33:29 PM »
For new readers, here's our history....
Part I:      http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=12526.0
Part II:     http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=13850.100
Part III:    http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=14375.0
Part IV:    http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=14848.0


Hi GFs~   Stone went to the vets to pick up his dog and they wanted to keep her for a third night.  They are having trouble getting her sugars regulated.  I am diabetic, but I am nervous.  I mean, WHAT do you do if a dog's sugar drops too low?  I will call my Grandmother cause she has had dogs that are diabetic.  I would feed my dog chocolate myself.  I know its supposed to be toxic, but it never bugged my dogs with a little bit here or there.  I love my Cheech!

I took chinese food down to Stone's last night since he was running around like crazy from work, and then tried to get the dog and couldn't, had to leave her overnight again.  We were originally supposed to go out to dinner but he was beat and I was tired from my massage and no sleep.  We hung out and talked a lot, and before I knew it, it was after 1am.  We were up until 3am before we went to sleep.  Pretty good for some tired people!  I ended up staying, since Cheech has a doggie door, so he was set at home alone for a bit.  I really want Stone's dog to meet Cheech, so that Stone and his dog can come up here and stay at my place once in awhile.  We don't live that far apart, less than 20 miles, but I know how housebound one can get with a diabetic dog.  You always have to be close by to give them their meds.  Cheech has never really been around other dogs, not in years, because he bites all of them in the ass.  I am hoping he can look at Stone's dog (a female) and think of her like our Casie Beagle that was put down in April.  

I am home to shower, nap and regroup.  Stone wanted to come up my way tonight and take me to dinner, but I insisted that we stay down near his place because of the dog.  Hopefully, she'll come home tonight and get some rest.  Sleeping overnight in the kennel can really drain a doggie.  

Last night I told Stone he gets cuter every time I see him.  What I meant to say was hotter.  Damn!  I am so anxious for this to go somewhere, I mean it IS, it already HAS   ;D, but its like we are friends right now, getting to know each other, except for the obvious which happened very early on!   ;)  I just need to shut the hell up and be patient.  Sigh......This all may turn out to be better than I had first anticipated.  Notice how I don't talk about any other men anymore?   :)

Queen~   Glad to hear you did your thing with the gas co and the FTC.  Keep at it.  Hopefully, you have beautiful weather today like I do in Maryland, and your move is going well.  Don't worry, you'll sleep soundly after all of the moving you're doing this weekend.  Keep us up-to-date on the situation with the forgery and all.  What a crock of shit.

Cristy~  Glad to hear you're working.  I have kinda been looking for a job that is second shift, I haven't ruled it out completely.  I am a night owl, and besides it would give me time to have appts in the morning.

Betty~  Good for you that you can challenge your mind.  Mine has been mush lately on this summer hiatus that I have been on.  Hope you have fun with Liz.

~Cindy
« Last Edit: September 01, 2007, 09:52:17 PM by MOONLIGHT1114 »
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #8 on: August 31, 2007, 08:55:00 PM »
Hello ladies. Not quite so sad now.   I know I  said I quit but I got another Florida guy messaging me. He seems to be really nice and my living situation and child don't seem to be a issue. Sometimes they are since I live with family and have a 4 yo. That's aplus. I will update more about this later. Maybe it will turn out well  .                                       Queen, glad you are getting the gas situation straightened out.            Ml, sorry to hear about Stone's dog. Hope it improves more. Glad you and him are getting to be good friends, that's just as important as sex.                Betty,hope you have a great time at both places. I have been interested in seeing Halloween but am very much a homebody so the opportunity lately. Hope you have a great time with Liz.                Em, where are you. Did I miss something. Check in soon. I miss your wit and great advice.                                                                             All you other ladies, SS, Camille, Dragonette and any I may have omitted, take care.  Love ya'll.   Cristy

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #9 on: August 31, 2007, 09:19:18 PM »
Ok, I haven't done shit yet...lol...Go ahead and talk shit...I have been running all day today, paying off the new landlord and paying bills then having to take my room mate around to do her thing. I just got home about 20 minutes ago. I am trying to relax a bit then I am going to start packing up the small stuff that I can haul in my car plus the later the better here in the building. Most folks are sleep or in their apts by 11 that way I will have easier access to the elevator. And no one in the lobby to be in my way.

Last week I was told by my cable company that I needed to pay a past balance in order to get my service transferred. I go into the office to pay past balance and they try to tell me after I paid the past balance that I need to pay a month in advance also in order for them to do the transfer. I was livid. Time Warner is based out of Ohio but we have a local office to pay the bills. I call the Ohio toll free number and explain my situation to the Rep, for once I got treated like a good customer. She did something on her computer and put the transfer in. I think she started a new acct for the new address but still has a past due amt left from my old acct where I am now. But due to the holiday, I can't get a technician til the 6th and they can't disconnect here til then also. I was just grateful to finally have a place treat me like a loyal customer. I mean I have all their services and a few movie channels.

Christy-- I think the new Halloween would be a better choice than The original Fog movie. I got to see it before it came out today, I liked it. Let me know what you think...

Moonlight--- Sorry to hear about Stone's dog. I am sure he won't have a problem with you watching his dog while he works and takes care of business. It sounds like things are moving along great with you both but am curious to know what you are yearning for? More of a comittment? The title of gf? I think it is great that you guys are being friends as well as being intimate and that you communicate well. I can't see a problem. I haven't heard anything back yet from the gas company. I am suppose to wait for a call but I figure I would get with them after the move and the holidays. Mmmm, chinese food sounds yummy especially some egg rolls.... ;D
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #10 on: August 31, 2007, 11:42:41 PM »
Queen-  you rock, thanks for starting the new thread.  The other one was getting so conjested.  Well, I have finally figured out that I am addicted to all you guys and keeping up with our daily lives has kept me staying positive about various things going on in my life.

Moon-  Thanks for the words of wisdom regarding Cop #1.  I know I should just walk away, but that is so hard.  I guess its been so hard because I have wanted him for 10 years.  I did have a rude awakening with him when he called to ask me if I had the choice would like a boy or a girl.  I told him that it did not matter to me and he told me that he was having a girl.  The awakening part came when he told me he was having a girl and did not seem happy or excited about it.  That was very sad to me and if I was not at work I think I would have cried.  All I can think about is wanting to have a baby and here is someone who is having a baby but is not excited.  I try to remember that he has a lot on his plate and maybe deep down he is excited.  WHO KNOWS I wish that I could get in that head of his to figure out what he is thinking.  i know that is not possible so I tried to stop figuring him out.  I spoke to Cop#2 for a long time last night and that conversation was really good.  We talked about our past relationships and I told him that I was not in a hurry to jump back into a relationship and really want to get know someone, and he agreed.  So for now I don't have to worry about telling him I am positive.  Now on to you.   I am glad that you had a great night with Stone.  I am so glad that you are happy and enjoying your self.  You deserve it.   

Cristiy -  Yeah for the Florida guy.  I was started to get a little discourage myself but just emailed someone from this site and he emailed me back, and of course requested a picture.  I emailed him a picture and I have not heard from him  I hope its just because he was going to away for the holiday weekend.  Nothing makes me matter than talking to some guy for awhile then when you send them a picture and if they do not find you attractive they never write back.  I am OK if they would just say they were not interested.  But we will see,  I have thick skin I can take it.  Keep me posted on Florida.

Bettytacy -  I hope you have a wonderful time with Liz Saturday night and I hope you miss the traffic due to the game.  maybe a quite evening at home with a good movie, pizza and popcorn maybe they way to go if you want to miss the traffic.  I am hoping to out with the girls on Saturday, but we will see. Tomorrow I will have worked 6 days in a row, 12 hour shifts so I think that I may be pretty tired.

Well, I wish everyone a safe and happy holiday.  LOVE YA



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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #11 on: September 01, 2007, 02:19:42 PM »
Wow, this thread is moving at a snail's pace... ;) I guess everyone is busy doing their thing. I just stopped in for a split second to take a small break from packing. I didn't know I had so much junk but did find some rent receipts from the last address I was at when I had gas service and has found a lease from there as well. I also found an old gas bill from there too to prove it was the last place I had service at. I guess that is a good thing.

Talked to Boo for a few last night but I was so tired that I was the one not doing much talking. He is still upset cause his computer is down and they took a major chunk out of his disability for child support.And what they left him with is barely enough for him to survive on. But I am wondering how they were able to do that because here in Pa, they can't take support out of your check for arrears. I guess things are different in different states. I feel bad because there is nothing I could really say to make him feel better. It almost feels like to me that he is getting depressed because he is tired of being alone. I suggested to him that he come visit after the dust clears at the new place but am not sure if he is going to take me up on that.

I know I could talk all day but I need to get back to packing and to fix something to eat. Wonders what is going on with Dragonette, Em, Moonlight, and Camille. You guys have been very quiet lately...I'll try to check back a bit later. Have a good day ladies..... :-*
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #12 on: September 01, 2007, 02:45:49 PM »
I was started to get a little discourage myself but just emailed someone from this site and he emailed me back, and of course requested a picture.  I emailed him a picture and I have not heard from him  I hope its just because he was going to away for the holiday weekend.  Nothing makes me matter than talking to some guy for awhile then when you send them a picture and if they do not find you attractive they never write back.  I am OK if they would just say they were not interested. 

SS: Did you ever consider the possibility the person considers you too good-looking or out of their league? Try it.

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #13 on: September 01, 2007, 07:32:08 PM »
mmm not much going on with me but I am checking here regularly. I just came back from dinner with some friends. I missed my BF and he returns tomorrow. He sent me sweet sms's and emails when he was away. I am very happy with what I have, I am worried about some things but decided to focus on the good things instead for a while and see if that works.

Queen, I imagine you hauling and puffing (as in breathing heavily, not sparking  ;)) in a dark lobby somewhere. I wish I could give you a hand, not just you; I wish I could make everyone's lives easier. I know I am bringing stuff from the other thread into the dating thread, but really, it's not that I don't have grieviances or pain or anxiety, it's that I look at what the women here go through and I see that if they can carry their burdens I can certainly carry mine.

My eyes have been hurting and after spending 150 pounds (that's about 300$) on a private doctor when i was in London, b/c the system here is so slow, all he did is recommend I see an eye doc on that one. The system here is very beaurocratic and bogged down. I called the GP and asked for that, he asked if it was HIV.I mean, does it matter? If I have a problem with my eyes, does it matter where it comes from? i think he doesn't even understand that HIV is usually not a disease on its own, just an enabler of other diseases. Or maybe I am giving him too little credit. I dunno. All I know is my eyes hurt and I don't even want to tell you guys how long it can take to see a specialist around here, for fear of creating a self-fulfilling prophecy. Let's just hope for the best.

I will update when I have more concrete news (getting married, having children  ;); that's all I want in this life really. that and writing a book. and for everyone I love to be happy and healthy, and that includes online friends too).

So good night, fine ladies...
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« Reply #14 on: September 01, 2007, 10:15:56 PM »
Hi GFs~

I stayed with Stone last night.  We got his dog from the vet and I helped him with the insulin and measuring her food and all.  Stone had a bug of some sort last night, he didn't feel well at all.  It must have been a junk food bug or something, at least he things so, lol, cause he was fine this morning.  I let him sleep in till almost 11am.  I fed the dog and let her out a few times, I had one eye open all night between Stone and his doggie.  I crashed on his couch this afternoon and had a strange-ass Sustiva dream in the middle of the day, lol!  It was pretty darn vivid, and in real life I could hear Stone making work calls and they were transferring into what I was dreaming.  I finally had to wake my ass up!  LOL  Its weird, these dreams, I usually don't have them, but when I do, I feel as if I can really wake myself up and stop them.  I did that today. 

Stone and I went out to run some errands and he took me to eat pizza at a nice little Italian place.  He has a business he runs alone and he might bring his brother on board to expand it and rake in some profit for himself.  We talked about that and its pretty exciting!  I'm happy for him and I'm always proud to see how much work he does on his own.  Its just that this new chick he is seeing has him sorta sleep-deprived..... ;)

I got home at 530pm or so tonight and just HAD to get Cheech out of the house.  Not only has he been without me much for the past two days, but he and I haven't really done anything in about 6 weeks since the weather got really hot.  Today, the weather broke some and the evening was wonderful, no humidity!  So, I packed up Cheech in the Jeep and drove to my parents' place.  They are at the beach for the weekend (more power to them), so Cheech and I just walked and walked around their property.  I called my GF in Colorado who is having man trouble, and we spoke for about an hour.  It was good for both of us.  I told her all about Stone today. 

I'm really happy about Stone.  Its a great feeling.  I don't see any end in sight and I hope he feels the same, or at least will start to as we get to know each other more.  He thanked me more than once about helping with his dog.  I went into the vet's last night and spoke with the doc, and then explained things to Stone in easier terms because of my knowledge with diabetes.  I think it has helped to simplify things for him.  He even held my hand today and gave me a really good kiss goodbye.  I just love that stuff.  I will be patient with him.  He is a good man and well worth it.  I just hope he develops, or already has, the same feelings for me.

Oh, btw, he has 4 brothers and 2 sisters.  Wait till I meet that bunch!  I love the idea of it!  I just need to remember not to push things too hard.

Or should I have a heart-to-heart with him?  When the hell is the right time?  I don't want to scare the guy away.

OK, Cheech is wheezing some.  Must be the ragweed from running around this evening.  I'm gonna go make sure he is alright.  I cried to Cheech earlier tonight.  I'm not ready for him to leave me.  He is pretty active for 13, I just keep worrying......  :'(

~Cindy
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« Reply #15 on: September 02, 2007, 12:28:43 PM »
OK, I HAVE to mow the lawn today, no matter what.  Its getting long out there!  Stone fell asleep with his son last night, and was online at 3am, so we got on the phone for 20 minutes.  He is going to a family barbecue today, and he'll talk more about the new business he wants to take on with his brother.  This is really good for him, as his work is seasonal, and this would help him to bank some cash before the winter months here.

Me, I can't find a job yet!  I counted and I applied to about 12 jobs last week, and 8 at the local hospital about 3 weeks ago.  I may have to go into HR at the hospital and ask for a job.  On paper, I probably look like anyone else........

Doing laundry and trying not to spend money today.  I'll mow later  :D

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« Reply #16 on: September 02, 2007, 02:48:54 PM »
Em, where are you. Did I miss something. Check in soon. I miss your wit and great advice.                                                                           

My wit went in for a tuneup and it's going to be too expensive to fix for a while. Then, add to that, my advice machine's temp gauge broke which explains why it kept overheating. It's my understanding the part is no longer made.

Suffice to report the following.  Bakery Man not only sent a nice snail mail note while en route home, but also called the day after his arrival. We'll meet for a date this week. Already the f'd up inner dialogue about disclosure/rejection has revved up. Just beating it down as if it were a rabid dog and trying to envision just being present in the moment with this man rather than coming with a roughed out script as to what if's, if/then's and oh well's.

The adoption process is a true front burner item to be sure and when it reaches the point where I can chirp about it, I will. It's been a long journey for both of us. And, while there are no guarantees, I've been told it will occur. It is an exercise in patience and I can only imagine how it is to be a kid trying to be patient. Christmas Eve was agony enough for most of us.

The interviews, Parts A and B, went well. I'm interested and I hope they are, too. 

Other than that, work, house projects and all the ToDo list stuff I've ever mentioned is as current as ever, but under more focused attack.

I've appreciated reading of everyone's successes and pursuits. We are here for such a small amount of time---I wish for each of us more peace, laughs, and triumphs to at least counterbalance if not outweigh the challenges, trauma and often needless drama.

Welcome to the newer posters. None of us ever wanted to meet you here, but having no time machine, the here can, and will hopefully, become dear.


Happy Holiday.
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« Reply #17 on: September 02, 2007, 03:20:36 PM »
wow, good luck Em. With everything.....

Let him know your first, and get to know him... he sounds worthy of getting to know.

I'm really feeling you on that one... so tough.

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« Reply #18 on: September 02, 2007, 03:30:31 PM »
Thank you, Drag. I appreciate the advice. The strange thing is getting to know me is tightly wrapped in and around the virus--in order to understand many of the things I've done or am doing or intend to do, it's an inextricable component. I am not sure I could shield information comfortably without feeling as if I were lying by omission or come across as having a very uncomplicated life and therefore, little to say. Perplexing only if I think about it in advance. That's why I'm trying to just stay with the day, the moment and the freedom of no thinking.

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« Reply #19 on: September 02, 2007, 05:30:38 PM »
Here's what I did... may not be applicable.

I knew from the start I wanted the guy who became my BF... I knew I had never met someone like him before, it was a gut feeling, not a logical thought. I think I told him very quickly that I am going through things and it's a very very difficult time and that my whole future is under a big question mark, and later than I have a chronic disease and take medicine. I told him 3 weeks later. By that time the thought of HIV crossed his mind (he also thought I might be a little crazy, so actually the disclosure showed him I was normal, he said he was impressed with my being strong, but then he didn't see me as a romantic prosepect for several months).

Not advicing, just sharing. I couldn't come out with the A-word right away, but I wanted him to know I was dealing with something really heavy. I couldn't hide that either. My whole life was so temporary, I was meeting him, and it between barely surviving.

You make a great impression Em. I am sure you will make one on Mr Bakery no matter what tactic you choose for disclosure.

Edited to add: this one's for ML... don't be anxious honey, it really sounds like you are on the right track with Stone. You know how men are when it comes to feelings, and talking about them. They don't say it, they show it. Look at the signs...
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« Reply #20 on: September 02, 2007, 06:48:01 PM »
Hello ladies. Not too long home from work. Just wanted to say hello. Now EM, i think your wit is intact, here's why.....
My wit went in for a tuneup and it's going to be too expensive to fix for a while. Then, add to that, my advice machine's temp gauge broke which explains why it kept overheating. It's my understanding the part is no longer made.

 Just beating it down as if it were a rabid dog and trying to envision just being present in the moment with this man rather than coming with a roughed out script as to what if's, if/then's and oh well's.

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    perfect examples of your wonderful wit or maybe I should have said sense of humor.                                                Keeping my fingers , toes, whatever will cross, crossed for you in the hopes that your adoption process goes well and as quickly as possible.     Hope that the Bakery man and you have a wonderful date. Just be yourself and he will love you.                                       As far as your advice part, I hope you can repare it because you are very good at giving sensible advice. I like it!!!!                                     Ladies, I will post more later. Hope you are all well and having a great day. Cristy

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« Reply #21 on: September 02, 2007, 06:54:39 PM »
Thanks for sharing your story, Drag. Very kind of you. And I'll remember it as I move nearer to " the date."  Em

and a post alert just gave me the heads up on CJC's post

Uh-oh, you mean the mechanics lied to me? They continue to take advantage of women it seems.

Thanks for the assessment and crossing things on our behalf. We can use all the crossed body parts possible.

I'll put a note in my purse, or write on my palm, be yourself but don't admit that you posted to the Scat thread. Most wouldn't understand.

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« Reply #22 on: September 02, 2007, 08:31:59 PM »
Hi GFs~

I'm at home taking it easy tonight.  I worked in the yard some today, also had to repair my fence and cut some limbs off of an overgrown tree.  It was good to get out and sweat some, I may actually have gotten a little sun. 

TY, Drag, for saying not to worry about Stone, to just look at the signs.  You're right!  After reading what you posted here, I realized I had missed a call on my cell.  Stone had called from the family barbecue.  He said everyone was kinda angry, cause they all thought they would have met me today....Not sure what Stone's reply was, but I told him I didn't think I should meet his son too soon.  Its only been three weeks.

Any advice on this one, ladies?  When do you agree to meet the little one?  I can't think of the last time I met anyone's kids.....My exBF has five nieces and nephews, and I met all of them.  They were actually calling me "Aunt Cindy."   Sigh.  I don't miss the man, I miss what COULD have been, and I sure do miss all of those "little people."  Two of them helped work on the new house a lot back then, so I got very close with them.

Going to watch a movie now......kinda tired.  I'll post more later, on that you can depend.

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« Reply #23 on: September 02, 2007, 09:26:20 PM »
Em, sometimes you can find honest mechanics but there are those who will try to take advantage. Ladies, it's been a long day. Time for me to lay it down. Goodnight.    Cristy

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« Reply #24 on: September 02, 2007, 10:26:15 PM »
CJC: Metaphorically speaking (writing) you're right. Em

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« Reply #25 on: September 03, 2007, 02:43:16 AM »
Hi GFs~

Got carried away on YouTube tonight watching some local Maryland guys who have made it big.  They are called "Cinder Road" out of Baltimore, MD. 

Today was the first day I didn't speak with Stone since....well, since we first started speaking, lol!  He went to a family picnic and maybe stayed there or got home and crashed, not sure.  I just hope he took the dog with him, if he crashed there, or I am gonna kick his ass.  At least he called and left that message earlier.  So, its been a quiet night.  Off to bed.......

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« Reply #26 on: September 03, 2007, 09:32:05 AM »
Well, it's another day.  Yesterday was my birthday (#42) and I went to a friend's house.  Someone I've known since 1989 that I met in Narcotics Anonymous (yes, I still go to meetings).  We had a girl's get-together.  I took Liz with me and noticed that she's kind of an attention seeker.  But it could have been my perception because yesterday was a weird "emotions" day for me.  It was the first time in my life that my mom has not been around to call me and say "happy birthday." :'(  I do still miss her very much. 

Queen-I'm glad things are coming together for you-finally!  I hope the rest of your move goes smooth. 

The traffic was really bad around here this weekend because of all the Notre Dame traffic.  I don't really like Notre Dame all that much because of all the hype people put into it.  It's like it's the second coming of Christ every time they have a home game.  People seem to breathe, eat and shit Notre Dame during the football season and I find it annoying.  BTW, they got their asses beat 33-3 Saturday by Georgia Tech. 

Good luck to all you ladies exploring new relationships.  I myself am very cautious with anyone I find attractive.  I hope you all have a nice day.  I'll check back in later.  I'm going to try to move some stuff around in my apartment today.  It's only an efficiency, so I'm not sure how I can rearrange things to try to make it look a little better.  I'm rambling now, so I'll stop.  Have a good one ladies.
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« Reply #27 on: September 03, 2007, 11:00:23 AM »
Happy Birthday Betty!

You and Tendai share the same birthday.

Maybe it's in the air, the weird emotions were certainly in motion in my neck of the woods.

I'm sorry this birthday arrived without hearing from your mom. I can imagine you will be tender for some time to come. Reads as if you two had a good relationship...what a bittersweet gift.

Your comment about being cautious with anyone new--- I agree with you. That's what has been great about this weeks-long wait since being asked out. Time has toned down all those initial, excited vibes which allows a little logic and calm to prevail.

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« Reply #28 on: September 03, 2007, 03:45:45 PM »
Dear Betty

Happy Birthday and many more to come. Hope this year brings you everything you wish for.

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« Reply #29 on: September 03, 2007, 04:24:52 PM »
Happy Birthday Betty and tendai.   Betty I saw you listed in the bday thread, meant to ask when your day was!  It got here early this month, lol!

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« Reply #30 on: September 03, 2007, 04:38:51 PM »
Thanks, guys, for the b.d.wishes.  I changed things around it my apartment.  I don't know if it looks better or not, just different. :D  When I was moving the table in my kitchen that has my computer on it, I accidentally unplugged plugs and disconnected cables, so I was on the phone with my cable company for quite awhile this morning.  I have a lot of tolerance when it comes to people, but not for electronic things.  I don't have that kind of a mind.  People I can handle, wires and cords I can't.  ;)
   I hope everyone's having a good holiday.  It doesn't seem like a holiday to me.  Nothing exciting happening. 
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« Reply #31 on: September 03, 2007, 04:50:03 PM »
Hello ladies. Happy Belated Birthday to Betty and Tendai. Sorry neither one was very pleasant. Hopefully next year will be better for both of you.  Hope everybody is having a good day. Not much going on here. Haven't heard from Florida2 for the last couple days but he did say he was going out of town so not really expecting to.  No work today so Robert and I went outside and started organizing the wood pile. We want a Water stove but right now just have a wood stove but it helps save on the propane bill.I help get wood up cause I don't feel like my mom should have to if i can.Dad handles the really big stuff but I help as much as I can. We had a huge Pecan limb fall a couple weeks ago and  have been getting it laid out so it will dry better.  Fun, Fun. Kinda upset cause 2 of my cats have gone missing in as many weeks. I think the tenants have been letting their dogs run at night and they killed my cats. The reason I think so is because I heard noises in the Field Saturday night and on the way to investigatethose dogs charged me. He called them off but they are not supposed to be outside loose. It's  part of our property rules.I want my cats. Sweet Girl made it cause she sleeps on top of the pump house for the well.  Can't prove anything but am very angry.  Anyway, I'm rambling. Hope everyone is having a good fun day. We are going to have pizza.  Later.    Cristy

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« Reply #32 on: September 03, 2007, 07:36:01 PM »
Oh Cristy:
  I do hope your cats turn up.  I would go crazy if my cat was missing.  But I don't let her out.  She gets too freaked out by the real world.  I hope those people keep those dogs tied up.  That's just careless and thoughtless. 

I'm getting ready to go to bed because I have to be up early to take a friend of mine to the airport so she can rent a car.  Liz and I are going to see Halloween Wednesday night.  As of now anyway.  Take care everyone-
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« Reply #33 on: September 03, 2007, 09:26:13 PM »
Betty -- It's really strange after reading today about Brad and Angelina stating they're ready for child #5 to see " Tested Positive in 1989" underneath your avatar shot of him. It made me stop and think for a second which celebrity would catch enough bandwidth of peoples' attention spans to make an impression that could translate to significant prevention outcomes? What a silly thought, huh? Probably the more impressive stat is how many celebs are positive that remain unknown. Em

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« Reply #34 on: September 04, 2007, 04:14:37 AM »
Hi GFs~

Well, I set a record tonight by getting in bed with the lights out and falling asleep at 11:22pm.  Then I woke up at 1:30am and have been tossing and turning.  I wonder if its this damn Sustiva.  Once I wake up I can't get back to sleep.  I tried the Benadryl thing last week and was knocked out the day after, too.  I might try it again, cause nothing wakes me from a Benadryl-induced stupor......so here I am, no Xanax or Benadryl tonight.  Sigh.

Cristy~  I am so sorry about your cats.  You mean they have disappeared all together?  I only had a cat once, Milo belonged to my ex, and he was an indoor cat, so he never strayed.  I would go nuts if I had an animal that was an outdoors one.  I am way too protective, and would be a mess if anything happened.  I hope you're OK, hang in there.  So, you have 3 cats, and just the one is around now?

I checked my email at this unGodly hour and got a reply sent at 1am from a realty group here in town.  It was sent by one person, but signed on behalf of the company owner.  They asked me to call on Tuesday to set up an interview.  They didn't include their phone number or address, so I had to search online to get the info.  Whoever is doing their legwork now is making them look like shit.  LOL  I almost emailed back, "I WOULD contact you but I don't even know where you're located, and I don't have your phone number!"  I caught myself and figured these people need me.  Their ad seeks "a very responsible Office Assistant" with knowledge of Microsoft and QuickBooks.  I need to get my ass in there.  They are in downtown Frederick, in the historic district where I used to work (before I transferred up to Pennsylvania for doofus man...).  I wonder if they have parking in the garage?  Lots of things to ask......Funny, I'm not even getting my hopes up anymore for a job.  I am so disheartened.   :(

I need your opinion:  Since I am so desperate for a job, do I make this known in the interview?  Do I ask them to NOT pass me by if they think I am overqualified?  I am willing to go almost 25% lower in salary just to get a job, and this place is only a few miles from my home. 

Please let me know your thoughts.......

Spoke to Stone much earlier tonight, he has sex on the brain.  What else is new?  Sigh.

~Cindy
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« Reply #35 on: September 04, 2007, 04:56:27 AM »
Hey there,

I switched sustiva specifically b/c of the sleep issues, it's something you should take up with your doctors.

I don't know about this desperate thing, they tell you what the salary is so you can just say that you are willing to start at this salary? I mean, isn't the salary a package deal with the job? Looks like they are intersted. And good location.

Job hunting sucks...

My BF got 2 months extension on his contract so now we don't have to worry for another 2 months and then he will be job hunting and get on unemployment, but that only lasts for 6 months.

I'm sending you a big hug and sleep well wishes from the other side of the pond
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« Reply #36 on: September 04, 2007, 06:46:05 AM »
Hey girls:
   It's very early here, 6:45 a.m.  Cin, I do hope you can get your sleep issues straight soon.  It's such a bitch to not have a regular sleep schedule.  Sustiva always makes me sleepy, but I don't wake up from it or have restless nights.  But everyone reacts differently to meds, and it sounds like some people have had issue with this.  Talk to your doctor definitely.  About the job, well, I guess you have to go with what your heart tells you.  What happened to selling cars?  Do you think it would be too stressful?  Personally, I wouldn't make a good salesperson.  I want to work with addicts when I get my degree.  But my doctor doesn't want me to work full-time because of my health and I really can't afford to anyway.  I can't afford to lose the prescription plan on Medicare.  Last year they paid $43,000 for my meds. 

Cristy, I am worried about your cats.  I am such a cat lover.  I am also praying for the owner's of the dogs imminent demise and destruction. >:(  I love dogs too, just not their owners sometimes. 

I hope everyone is having a restful morning.  Just wanted to get a quick shout-out to my possee before my day starts.
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« Reply #37 on: September 04, 2007, 07:40:02 AM »
Hello ladies. Just got Robert on the bus for school. I had 4 cats. 2 unneutered males, 1 neutered male and 1 small female. All are outside cats since I  hate fleas.1 of my unneutered disappeared 2 weeks ago, i thought MAYBE he wandered off. Then 3 days ago my neutered male disappeared. then Sat night I go down to the field to check out a noise and the tenants dogs charged me. SO......I think their dogs killed my cats but am not allowed to say anything.  It'll come around and next time I see them loose I will shoot them. If they are killling things, they will not stop with cats, the chickens will be next and then maybe a neighborhood child. So all that is left is Sweet Girl cause the other unneutered male is very skittish and rarely lets anyone handle him..        Thanks for the responses. Not much giong on today, work and probably both shifts, I'm on call for lunch.                                                             ML, sorry you are having a hard time sleeping. I usually take a xanax before bed and that helps but it doesn't make me groggy so...maybe your doc can suggest something that will not make you groggy the next day. Also, do not let them know you really are desperate. Tell them you are Flexible when it comes to salary. You could let them know you really want a job but leave desperate out of it.                                                                                       Betty, I admire you for wanting to work with addicts. I wanted to but am too selfish to give up my weed and It would be hypocritical of me to say I'm clean when I smoke weed.             Maybe you could volunteer at a long term treatment facility or something along those lines. I still have the rehab I went to call me and ask me to come visit but I can't cause I am still using even if its just weed.               Ladies take care and have a good day.   Cristy                                                   
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #38 on: September 04, 2007, 08:55:54 AM »
Hi Cristy,
I am so sorry about your cats. I somehow missed your post (happens when threads are long). Don't shoot the dog, shoor the owners! Just kidding, pls don't shoot anything. Just complain to the authorities. I am sorry you have to share your area with a-holes, lots of them around where my parents live, dogs barking, noise at night, garbage, shouting, etc. Here in the Netherlands I am ok with the neighours but I had an awful family next door before. Some people are a menace.

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #39 on: September 04, 2007, 09:51:45 PM »
Hi GFs~

It was a quiet day.  I stayed inside even though it was beautiful and sunny out.  The ragweed can really make Cheech uncomfortable with difficulty breathing, so we stayed in.  I took a Benadryl at 8:45pm tonight and it should be kicking soon.  I also took .50mg of Xanax which never does a damn thing for me.  If I don't sleep tonight.....gheez.

I REALLY think its not having anything to do during the day, nothing to exhaust me, so I am not sleepy at night.  I actually feel asleep from 6:30pm to 8:30pm tonight.

I haven't spoken to Stone today, he had a long work day and also had to take his son to and from school as well.  I may call him in a few minutes just to say goodnight.  But I have this feeling I will be nodding off very quickly.

Mr. Good Zip Code is online now but he is sort of irritating.  Nothing worse than someone who ends every sentence with an exclamation point!  Kinda like this!  And sometimes I'm just not in the mood!  You know?!  Calm the hell down already!

Some guy from Oregon who is pos wants to call me now.  I am like "What's the use?"  I haven't IMed him in about 2 months and he suddenly shows up and wants to call.  Looks like a nice guy, but come on, Oregon?  No chance in hell.

OK, I am calling it a night.  Where is everyone?  Em, you making cupcakes somewhere?  Queen, are you stuck under your couch as you try to move it up the stairs at your new place?  Camille, you makin' babies?  Zachysmom, you had better not be in traction, GF.

Carry on, GFs and I will check you all tomorrow.

~Cindy

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #40 on: September 04, 2007, 11:12:48 PM »
Hi Girls

Took a break to enjoy the holiday and I hope everyone had a great holiday. 

Christy I am sorry to hear about your cats.  I have a cat and would be so upset if someone happenend to him  My first cat I had to put to sleep after only 5 years.  I bottle fed him since was a kitten so it was very shocking when stopped eating and I was told he had liver failure.  I called my Dad who came with me to take him to the vet to have him put down.  That was the second time in my life that I have ever seen my Dad cry.  He was crying because I was.  But enough of that.

Betty and Tendai  happy late birthday.  Mine is fast approaching and I am not looking forward to it.  I am going to be 34 and thought that I would be married with kids by now.  I wish I could just have a crystal ball just to tell me if I am ever going to have that. 

Well, I have fallen off the wagon and saw Cop #1 on Sunday night.  He was on duty looking as cute as ever.  When he got off work he picked me up from where I was and drove me to my car.  We chatted for a few minutes and he did tell me that he has gotten a lawyer and is starting the divorce paper work.  I had high hopes of telling him that I needed to let him go so I would not get hurt, but then he told me how good I looked and wanted to kiss me so I caved.  Then it started all of those emotions all over. I had trouble sleeping that night and was looking forward to him calling me the next day.  All day I was waiting for him to call me, and he did on his way to work and we talked twice that night.  I have not been able to stop thinking of him.  Today I was watching my soap and one of the charate rs was talking to another character and she made a very good statement and that was "Sex can be intoxicating and great and sometimes after sex we want and feel there might be a relationship there when there is not"  Or something like that.  That made me think, is that what I am doing.  Its hard for me to be on this emotional roll a coaster of emotions but then its hard for me to stay away.  So right now I am a little lost and do not know what to do.  my brain tells me one thing and my heart says another.  I told my self a few years ago when I let him go the first time that I would fight for him if I was ever given the opportunity, but I am not sure how do that without chasing him way or what to say to him. 

Well, Have given you guys enough drama for one day.  I hope you guys are doing well and thanks for letting me vent and have my pitty party, since we all have issues that we would like to discuss and vent on.

On other note I saw Death Sentence today with Kevin Bacon,  Good flick but very violent and sad.

Talk to you girls later.  SS



 


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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #41 on: September 05, 2007, 09:44:51 AM »
Hey girls:
   Yesterday I went to get some incense and when I came out and got in my car, it wouldn't even turn over.  It's not the battery, as the lights and radio worked.  So I had to call a tow truck and had them take it to a garage.  It might be the alternator, which is going to cost big time to get repaired.  My car is a '94 and has like 170,000 miles on it.  But what can I do?  I don't even know how I'm going to get the money to get it repaired, so whoever it was that posted in another thread about not having a car for awhile, I can relate.  Living on disability does not allow for crises such as these.  So I might try to find part-time work.  I can't work full-time, as my doctor doesn't want me to and I can't afford to pay for my prescriptions or medical care, thus Medicare is the only option.  Last year Medicare Part D paid $43,000 for my prescriptions.  But, at least if I could find part-time work to kind of supplement my income, it would be a good idea.  I don't want to drop out of school, as I have probably only until next December to be finished with my degree.  So I think I'm going to check out Goodwill, as they are used to working with people on disability.  My best friend is letting me borrow her truck for a couple days while she's out of town at a conference.  So at least I can make it to class tomorrow night.  Being at the university I'm attending, the classes are only eight weeks long, so if someone misses one class, they can fall behind. 
     I hope everyone is doing alright.  Sun- the beginning of a relationship can be very intoxicating.  Just keep you head straight, know what you are expecting and approach things cautiously.  That's what I do.  Cin, my metal friend, I am wondering how your sleep cycles are going?  Have you been able to contact your doctor about your concerns with the Sustiva?  Personally, I can't take anything like Xanax.  The body develops a tolerance for those kind of medications after taking them for awhile and you have to keep taking more and more in order for it to work.  Then coming off of them is a real bitch.  That was what my last detox was; well, that and a lot of other meds I shouldn't have been taking.  I was seeing this lunatic psychiatrist that had me on Xanax, Dextroamphetamine (he thought I had ADD), DS Vicodin every 4 hours, Morphine, tons of hormones, tons of thyroid medication, and some heavy duty sedatives.  When I detoxed off that stuff, I was literally in bed for three days.  And it took like three weeks for my mental function to return.  That doctor apparently does this to a lot of people, probably to keep them coming back to see him.  He should really be stopped...
     Well, tonight I'm going to see the new Halloween with Liz.  She's in school right now getting certified in medical assisting.  I don't think there's a heavy duty relationship that's going to develop, but having another friend never hurts.  I'm bisexual, and she is a straight lesbian.  I've had one heavy duty relationship with a woman and we even had a union.  But, things didn't work out.  It was a blessing to have her at the time.  I had the wasting syndrome when we were together and got down to 87 lbs (I'm 5'9").  She used to help me a lot.  Well, I ended up taking my second ex-husband back and that was a disaster.  I met him in Narcotics Anonymous and he went back to shooting up and ended up taking my ATM card when I was asleep one night, finding my PIN number and going from ATM to ATM and totally cleaned out my bank account.  What an ass... But, what did I expect, he was just acting like a using addict.  I can't really blame him, as I know that desperation. 
     I guess I'm getting too deep now.  Anyway GFs, wish me luck tonight on my date.  I have to go eat breakfast and get the day started.  I hope everyone's doing well.  Haven't seen anything from Queen lately.  Queen, if you read this, please let us know how you're doing!  Love ya all-
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #42 on: September 05, 2007, 11:17:05 AM »
Geez,

Everytime I turn around there's a new thread.  I'm sorry I've been sooo busy lately.  But at least this time I am posting in the right spot.  I've been busy with trying to sell my house and the up keep is insane.  I mowed the grass, but suspected that I might run out of gas so I did the front yard first.  That way when the ex husband does the back  yard he'll have the challenge of dodging the dog poop.

Happy Belated birthday Betty and Tendai


Glad to hear, Cindy, that you and Stone really seem to be working out thats really great. Btw, I'm sorry if you posted this but what happened to automotive position?

Betty- sorry about the car.  I had a datsun 280z back in high school. And I swear, every other day I would have to call my dad and ask him to pick me up in the dead of winter on his days off.....all because of the alternator.  What a nightmare.  I can definitely relate because I had a jeep cherokee a couple of years back and, guess what, the alternator.  It flooded my mind with grumblings of a pissed off dad.

Christy-  Im sooo sorry about your cats.  I have 2 left from my original 6 and its a heart breaking to lose any.  I really hope they come back. 

Sun- Glad to hear about Cop #1.  Ask him if you can play with siren.

Drag-  Job hunting is the worst.  It took me a long time to find a place that I really love, but finding a job in general can be stressful.  Take care of yourself as your guy will have his plateaus.  Hey at least he has two months to look which has to help.

Queen-  I hope the move went smoothly.   Again sorry, I will have to go back and read the last of the post in the hen house. 

Ian is great and yes we are spending  a lot of time together.  I will have to give you all the details a little later.

Oh I have a film recommendation: The Lives of Others
Its a German film (subtitles) about Germany a few years before the wall fell.  It is really brilliant.

Be well everyone and hugs to you all and haven't forgotten about Em, Ten, and any other GF I missed









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« Reply #43 on: September 05, 2007, 03:45:33 PM »
Hello ladies. glad to see new posts.  Cats haven't come back and I don't believe they will be so I'm trying to let it go.     Betty, hope you date goes well. Sorry to hear about your car, thank god for friends that will loan you cars. I have a couple people that will do that and they are close to me. Good luck with part-time work. That's what I do wait tables part-time. Hard work but I am good at it and the money is decent. And i like getting to talk to the guests and see them enjoying themselves.                                                                                     SS, glad to hear from you. Hard to resist somebody you really like. Hope that works out. So you will be 34 soon. I turned 35 July 9th, its  not so bad.                                                                                        Queen , I miss you. Hope moving is going well and you will be back online soon.                  Camille, glad to hear from you.                                                                               ML, Em, And anyone else I might have missed , take care and I 'll check back in soon.    Cristy

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« Reply #44 on: September 05, 2007, 07:59:04 PM »
Glad to hear, Cindy, that you and Stone really seem to be working out thats really great. Btw, I'm sorry if you posted this but what happened to automotive position?

Sun- Glad to hear about Cop #1.  Ask him if you can play with siren.

Hi Camille~

I know better than to push myself for the car sales position.  I could barely make it through an 8 hour day at my former job.  Why do a 60 - 70 hour week.  It would kill me, I know it.

Also, let's not encourage Sunseeker to play fiddle faddle with Cop #1, he is newly separated with a first child on the way!

Sunseeker, I know you have been smitten with this guy for YEARS, but you are stepping on bad turf, messing with him while he is married and has a child on the way!  Bad kitty, BAD!   :o

Stone wants to see me this Saturday and go see a band I always rave about.  I am psyched!  We may see each other before then, nothing firm yet.

Its been a quiet day.  Trying to stay in the house and not go out and spend money..... sigh.

~Cindy

Now its 2:40am Weds night.  I am loopy from Sustiva but can't sleep, but I will try in a few minutes.  I have spent all night reading Dating Part III, it was fun to see what we have all been through.  IMed Stone earlier tonight, but he didn't ask me out for Thursday.  This will be his first night without his son and he needs to regroup.  He has so many business calls coming in and he can't get to them, well, cause he's out on business!  I know that's a good thing, but it has been so hot here.  He was slurring his words a little today around 3pm when we spoke.  I called him at 630pm when he was done and he sounded much better, so I was relieved.  The man works so hard and is on SSDI as well. 

I can't wait to see him again, I really just can't wait!   :D

~Cindy
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« Reply #45 on: September 06, 2007, 09:27:33 AM »
Hey girls-
   Well, went to see the new Halloween last night with Liz.  It was o.k., but nothing I would really recommend.  It's so hard to find a well-made horror flick today. I actually fell asleep in the theatre! :D  Liz nudged me awake.  Things are going slow there, which is o.k.  I don't intend to rush into anything, ever.  When I first got into recovery, in 1989, I was such a relationship hopper.  And it always turned out bad. 
     I agree with Cin's advice about Sunseeker.  Girl, don't even think about it! ;)  Please don't get involved with someone carrying that much baggage right from the start.  And if he left his wife, (especially while she's pregnant), how do you know he won't do the same thing to you?  Pleeeease approach with extreme caution. 
     Sounds like a smart move not to take the car salesperson position, Cindy.  That would be a long work week, and if you know you can't handle it, I wouldn't do it either. 
     My pastor told me yesterday that the church will help me with the repairs on my car.  I just love my church.  It's non-doctrinal, which means there are no "rules."  My pastor is a lesbian who's been with the same woman for like 37 years.  They've helped me before.  I'm not a religious fanatic or anything.  When my pastor gives a sermon, she talks about things like forgiveness etc.  So it's a really refreshing change from what most churches are like.  They've been a blessing to me.
     I'm wondering what's going on with Queen.  I hope she checks in soon!  Moving can be such a headache.  I just signed another year's lease where I'm at, so I won't have to worry about it anytime soon, thank God.
    I hope everyone is doing alright.  Fall is soon approaching girls! 
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #46 on: September 06, 2007, 10:23:14 AM »
Hi Betty~

Yes, fall is approaching, the most wonderful time of the year for me!  Cooler weather, leaves changing colors, harvest time, pumpkins, corn mazes, Halloween, my birthday, football, nice new jeans to hold in my lipo gut (lol), Thanksgiving....and then on to the holidays!  I absolutely love when the weather changes because October through February is my favorite time of the year!  I tried to tan this year and enjoy the warmer weather, but its overrated.  I have a friend who has had melonoma, and so has my grandmother, so I had better just stay pale and pasty.   :D

Betty, about your alternator, I had one go bad years ago on another car, and I found out that they usually sell "refurbished" ones as the norm, at least that's what they were doing in the late '90's.  Is there anyone at the church who could switch yours out for you so you could save on labor?  It can't hurt to ask!

I first "stirred" at 6am this morning and then got up at 830am, after going to bed at 245am.  I guess that counts as sleep, I don't know.  It sure is nice to know I have the entire day ahead of me.  I am going to go grocery shopping and I only have $5 in my checking account.  Time to dip into the savings or onto a credit card and float some money until I get my unemployment pay next week. 

I don't know how many of you PRAY, but whatever God/Goddess you believe in, we need to pull together now for ME.  Yes, I am being selfish.  It is utterly ridiculous that I haven't landed a job yet.  WHY is this happening?  It has been almost 4 months, and this brain is too smart to sit at home, unstimulated most of the time.  PRAY to whoever it is that you pray to, and pray hard tomorrow at 3pm during my interview.  I am thinking I am going to dress to the nines tomorrow.  Its supposed to be 90 degrees but I don't care.  I want this job, badly.  Its with a realty company.  Its right around the corner from where I worked in 2005, in downtown Frederick.  I can get this job, I just need some help from a higher power, along with some divine intervention.

Send some good vibes my way, GFs!

~Cindy
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« Reply #47 on: September 06, 2007, 10:33:03 AM »
Sun-  I don't want to give you the wrong advice, though I was kidding about the siren.  I didn't realize that this guy's life is getting complicated.   I need to finish reading all these darn posts!

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« Reply #48 on: September 06, 2007, 11:04:16 AM »
Praying...  ;)  :-*
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #49 on: September 06, 2007, 07:15:37 PM »
I am finally moved.....
I got all of my stuff in over the weekend but can't say the same for my roomie. She has a lot of shit. I try to help when I can but we need some men. My son has been drafted quite a few times already. I had some more words with the gas company but in the end I got my service. At first, they were going to try to charge me a deposit but I guess the FTC and PUC up their asses changed all that. Then come to find out from the gas company that the gas had been turned on the whole time but since it was in landlord's name I guess he had shut off the valves in the basement. Can't be mad at him about that.

The cable and internet got turned on today, before that the cats were my entertainment. Lucifer which is my cat, is trying to dominate and giving my roomie's female cat, Polly hell. He keeps trying to mate her and she keeps scratching his nose up... :D Then he keeps trying to dominate the other 2 boys cats, Ziggy and BoogieMan. But Boogie will have none of it and hisses at him. I swear it is a sight.

Since I have been gone I have missed a bit so I will re-read the posts again. At the moment, everything seems to be a big blur. I did see that someone's alternator went out. That happened to me with my car, for a used one, I paid about 50 bucks. If you go to Auto Zone or some place like it then it will prolly cost about 20 more I would think since your car is  a 94. Mine is an 85. But I think it is great that the church is willing to help you out.
Damn, I can remember that but not who said it... ;D

I am having issues registering my son for school which is not helping me at the moment but that is another story. I will have more on that at another time. Just wanted to let you know what is going on with me at the moment and I still have quite a bit to do around here.
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