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Offline Queen Tokelove

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Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« on: August 30, 2007, 07:51:10 PM »
As hard as I tried to think of a snazzy title to Part V, this is all I could come up with. I guess it's due to being exhausted. I am exhausted from talking to Boo most of the night. He is still having problems with his computer, now he has no sound and that is driving him crazy. Then around 4 something I was chatting with him and Powder who is having probs catching some zzzzz's. Yesterday, I did go get my bloodwork done but I'll update you next week after the doctor's appointment....So, who is up next?
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #1 on: August 30, 2007, 09:23:13 PM »
Love the bears queen! ;)  I'm sending you a {{{{HUGE HUG}}}}!  I'm anxious to hear what your bloodwork shows.  I'm due for some next month.  Hey, that's only a few days away!
   I started my "Introduction to Philosophy" class tonight.  It's really interesting.  I love to be challenged to think and to think deeply.  So I think it will be a good class.  The instructor is laid back, which helps alot.  There are a diverse group of people in the class.  I'm probably the oldest, besides the instructor.  But that's alright.  I'm just a late bloomer. 
   It's weird, they've been having multiple problems one county over (Elkhart county) with people escaping the county jail.  Personally, I think it's kind of funny, though I'm glad I don't live by there.  They just can't control the inmates I guess.  I don't know what this has to do with any-damn-thing, but it just crossed my mind.
    I'm seeing Liz Saturday.  We're going to figure out something to do.  It might be hard, because Saturday is Notre Dame's first home football game.  I live like 15 minutes away from the stadium, so traffic is going to be a bitch.  OK, who's next? ;D
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Offline Queen Tokelove

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #2 on: August 30, 2007, 10:33:50 PM »
I guess it will be me to be next....again....Some of the regs here are out with their love interests but I'm sure they will chime in a bit later. Camille has been so into Ian lately that we haven't heard much from her but can you blame her, he sounds like a very romantic person. I look forward to hearing the latest romantic thing he has done. Powder is out with Stone tonight, I think, I'm not sure. And I am a bit clueless to what the others are doing. I will prolly do a bit of posting tonight because tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me. It is time to start moving things over to the new place, so you guys prolly will not hear much from me.

Man, I don't know what came over me earlier when I started this thread. I was tired as hell and tried to get a nap in but could not go to sleep. I hope I am not coming down with Powder's sleeplessness, that would be a bitch considering what I have to do tomorrow. But then I am wondering if it is because I haven't smoked anything in a few days or just due to the fact of being stressed the hell out most of the week. Well, I guess I will do what usually calms me down....PLAY MY PS2 and play some Scarface. I need to feel like "The World is Mine" even if just for a moment and only in a video game. Oh hell, who am I fooling, I just want to kill some shit.... ;D
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #3 on: August 31, 2007, 12:36:52 AM »
As hard as I tried to think of a snazzy title to Part V, this is all I could come up with.
                                                                                  Queen , you did good. I'm not sure where the other ladies are/have been. I have been at work. Decent night. Done by 10.   I work parttime, mostly an abbreviated 2nd shift. I will get some lunches now that Robert is in school.    He had a good day today, just seemed tired when he got home from school.                                     Queen, why have you not been smoking. Are you trying to quit or are there just higher priorities with you moving?  I hate going with out but often there are more important things we need. Anyway, kinda sad tonight, thinking about starting a thread about it but will have to think on it. Goodnight , ladies. I will post more tommorrow.   Cristy

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #4 on: August 31, 2007, 01:59:39 AM »
Christy~~

I wasn't smoking because I am broke at the moment but a gf looked out for me so I am good now.. ;D But am still feeling frustrated with the gas company. Why so sad? It seems to be going around a bit lately. I wonder if it has to do with that moon thing going on. You should start another thread and just vent, you know venting does us good. I should be trying to get some sleep and has smoked 3 joints. I thought I would be sleeping like a baby by now but nope, just feeling mellow with a tad bit of frustration sitting in. I just can't stop thinking about all the bullshit with the gas. *sighs*....Think good thoughts.....Think good thoughts.... ;D
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #5 on: August 31, 2007, 08:47:50 AM »
Christy~~

I wasn't smoking because I am broke at the moment but a gf looked out for me so I am good now.. ;D But am still feeling frustrated with the gas company. Why so sad? It seems to be going around a bit lately. I wonder if it has to do with that moon thing going on. You should start another thread and just vent, you know venting does us good. I should be trying to get some sleep and has smoked 3 joints. I thought I would be sleeping like a baby by now but nope, just feeling mellow with a tad bit of frustration sitting in. I just can't stop thinking about all the bullshit with the gas. *sighs*....Think good thoughts.....Think good thoughts.... ;D
                                                                             Gotta love friends. My cousin and I look out for each other like that on occasion. Good suggestion, Queen. I think I will start a thread where we can go vent or moan or cry,which I was actually doing  last night.I always hold hurt  inside and it builds up after a while. Got no problem letting anger out,actually that's my standard mode of dealing with things, I get angry.                                                     On a dating note, Florida called last night. I was at work so didn't talk to him but I told that man before he has too many issues for me to deal with. He would be exactly what I like otherwise. Black hair, blue eyes, nice build,taller than me but not greatly so. Oh, well. Got a couple others  messaging me. Cutie from Virginia and another guy from Florida but he seems to have his shit together.                i will post more later, I am off tonight and on call tommorrow night so will be on here when I can.   Cristy

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #6 on: August 31, 2007, 01:20:26 PM »
Well, my best friend asked me if I want to go to this new Casino around here.  I'm thinking about it.  Of course, being on disabilitiy, it isn't like I could spend a ton of money.  But it does sound like fun.  I haven't done any gambling since I was like 17.  Gambling makes me nervous.  But who knows, maybe I would hit a jackpot and then I could spread the money around to my sisters here and end everyone's problems! ;D  It's just a thought....
   Oh, Queen, btw, that movie "The Fog" that Liz (the girl I'm trying to see) is the original one.  She said the remake sucked.  I'm thinking about asking her if, instead of getting together tomorrow afternoon, if she would like to get together when she gets off work at 9:30 and maybe go see the new Halloween.  It looks really good.  She loves horror movies, and I like ones that are well-made.  That way I could go to the casino in the afternoon, and go see the movie tomorrow night.  Plus, the traffic from Notre Dame's first home game is going to be terrible tomorrow, so I would like to avoid all areas of heavy traffic. 
     I am wondering how Powder is doing and everyone else.  Hope someone posts something soon so I know what's going on with everyone. ;)  Good luck moving Queen!  Sending good thoughts your way!
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #7 on: August 31, 2007, 01:33:29 PM »
For new readers, here's our history....
Part I:      http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=12526.0
Part II:     http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=13850.100
Part III:    http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=14375.0
Part IV:    http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=14848.0


Hi GFs~   Stone went to the vets to pick up his dog and they wanted to keep her for a third night.  They are having trouble getting her sugars regulated.  I am diabetic, but I am nervous.  I mean, WHAT do you do if a dog's sugar drops too low?  I will call my Grandmother cause she has had dogs that are diabetic.  I would feed my dog chocolate myself.  I know its supposed to be toxic, but it never bugged my dogs with a little bit here or there.  I love my Cheech!

I took chinese food down to Stone's last night since he was running around like crazy from work, and then tried to get the dog and couldn't, had to leave her overnight again.  We were originally supposed to go out to dinner but he was beat and I was tired from my massage and no sleep.  We hung out and talked a lot, and before I knew it, it was after 1am.  We were up until 3am before we went to sleep.  Pretty good for some tired people!  I ended up staying, since Cheech has a doggie door, so he was set at home alone for a bit.  I really want Stone's dog to meet Cheech, so that Stone and his dog can come up here and stay at my place once in awhile.  We don't live that far apart, less than 20 miles, but I know how housebound one can get with a diabetic dog.  You always have to be close by to give them their meds.  Cheech has never really been around other dogs, not in years, because he bites all of them in the ass.  I am hoping he can look at Stone's dog (a female) and think of her like our Casie Beagle that was put down in April.  

I am home to shower, nap and regroup.  Stone wanted to come up my way tonight and take me to dinner, but I insisted that we stay down near his place because of the dog.  Hopefully, she'll come home tonight and get some rest.  Sleeping overnight in the kennel can really drain a doggie.  

Last night I told Stone he gets cuter every time I see him.  What I meant to say was hotter.  Damn!  I am so anxious for this to go somewhere, I mean it IS, it already HAS   ;D, but its like we are friends right now, getting to know each other, except for the obvious which happened very early on!   ;)  I just need to shut the hell up and be patient.  Sigh......This all may turn out to be better than I had first anticipated.  Notice how I don't talk about any other men anymore?   :)

Queen~   Glad to hear you did your thing with the gas co and the FTC.  Keep at it.  Hopefully, you have beautiful weather today like I do in Maryland, and your move is going well.  Don't worry, you'll sleep soundly after all of the moving you're doing this weekend.  Keep us up-to-date on the situation with the forgery and all.  What a crock of shit.

Cristy~  Glad to hear you're working.  I have kinda been looking for a job that is second shift, I haven't ruled it out completely.  I am a night owl, and besides it would give me time to have appts in the morning.

Betty~  Good for you that you can challenge your mind.  Mine has been mush lately on this summer hiatus that I have been on.  Hope you have fun with Liz.

~Cindy
« Last Edit: September 01, 2007, 09:52:17 PM by MOONLIGHT1114 »
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #8 on: August 31, 2007, 08:55:00 PM »
Hello ladies. Not quite so sad now.   I know I  said I quit but I got another Florida guy messaging me. He seems to be really nice and my living situation and child don't seem to be a issue. Sometimes they are since I live with family and have a 4 yo. That's aplus. I will update more about this later. Maybe it will turn out well  .                                       Queen, glad you are getting the gas situation straightened out.            Ml, sorry to hear about Stone's dog. Hope it improves more. Glad you and him are getting to be good friends, that's just as important as sex.                Betty,hope you have a great time at both places. I have been interested in seeing Halloween but am very much a homebody so the opportunity lately. Hope you have a great time with Liz.                Em, where are you. Did I miss something. Check in soon. I miss your wit and great advice.                                                                             All you other ladies, SS, Camille, Dragonette and any I may have omitted, take care.  Love ya'll.   Cristy

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #9 on: August 31, 2007, 09:19:18 PM »
Ok, I haven't done shit yet...lol...Go ahead and talk shit...I have been running all day today, paying off the new landlord and paying bills then having to take my room mate around to do her thing. I just got home about 20 minutes ago. I am trying to relax a bit then I am going to start packing up the small stuff that I can haul in my car plus the later the better here in the building. Most folks are sleep or in their apts by 11 that way I will have easier access to the elevator. And no one in the lobby to be in my way.

Last week I was told by my cable company that I needed to pay a past balance in order to get my service transferred. I go into the office to pay past balance and they try to tell me after I paid the past balance that I need to pay a month in advance also in order for them to do the transfer. I was livid. Time Warner is based out of Ohio but we have a local office to pay the bills. I call the Ohio toll free number and explain my situation to the Rep, for once I got treated like a good customer. She did something on her computer and put the transfer in. I think she started a new acct for the new address but still has a past due amt left from my old acct where I am now. But due to the holiday, I can't get a technician til the 6th and they can't disconnect here til then also. I was just grateful to finally have a place treat me like a loyal customer. I mean I have all their services and a few movie channels.

Christy-- I think the new Halloween would be a better choice than The original Fog movie. I got to see it before it came out today, I liked it. Let me know what you think...

Moonlight--- Sorry to hear about Stone's dog. I am sure he won't have a problem with you watching his dog while he works and takes care of business. It sounds like things are moving along great with you both but am curious to know what you are yearning for? More of a comittment? The title of gf? I think it is great that you guys are being friends as well as being intimate and that you communicate well. I can't see a problem. I haven't heard anything back yet from the gas company. I am suppose to wait for a call but I figure I would get with them after the move and the holidays. Mmmm, chinese food sounds yummy especially some egg rolls.... ;D
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #10 on: August 31, 2007, 11:42:41 PM »
Queen-  you rock, thanks for starting the new thread.  The other one was getting so conjested.  Well, I have finally figured out that I am addicted to all you guys and keeping up with our daily lives has kept me staying positive about various things going on in my life.

Moon-  Thanks for the words of wisdom regarding Cop #1.  I know I should just walk away, but that is so hard.  I guess its been so hard because I have wanted him for 10 years.  I did have a rude awakening with him when he called to ask me if I had the choice would like a boy or a girl.  I told him that it did not matter to me and he told me that he was having a girl.  The awakening part came when he told me he was having a girl and did not seem happy or excited about it.  That was very sad to me and if I was not at work I think I would have cried.  All I can think about is wanting to have a baby and here is someone who is having a baby but is not excited.  I try to remember that he has a lot on his plate and maybe deep down he is excited.  WHO KNOWS I wish that I could get in that head of his to figure out what he is thinking.  i know that is not possible so I tried to stop figuring him out.  I spoke to Cop#2 for a long time last night and that conversation was really good.  We talked about our past relationships and I told him that I was not in a hurry to jump back into a relationship and really want to get know someone, and he agreed.  So for now I don't have to worry about telling him I am positive.  Now on to you.   I am glad that you had a great night with Stone.  I am so glad that you are happy and enjoying your self.  You deserve it.   

Cristiy -  Yeah for the Florida guy.  I was started to get a little discourage myself but just emailed someone from this site and he emailed me back, and of course requested a picture.  I emailed him a picture and I have not heard from him  I hope its just because he was going to away for the holiday weekend.  Nothing makes me matter than talking to some guy for awhile then when you send them a picture and if they do not find you attractive they never write back.  I am OK if they would just say they were not interested.  But we will see,  I have thick skin I can take it.  Keep me posted on Florida.

Bettytacy -  I hope you have a wonderful time with Liz Saturday night and I hope you miss the traffic due to the game.  maybe a quite evening at home with a good movie, pizza and popcorn maybe they way to go if you want to miss the traffic.  I am hoping to out with the girls on Saturday, but we will see. Tomorrow I will have worked 6 days in a row, 12 hour shifts so I think that I may be pretty tired.

Well, I wish everyone a safe and happy holiday.  LOVE YA



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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #11 on: September 01, 2007, 02:19:42 PM »
Wow, this thread is moving at a snail's pace... ;) I guess everyone is busy doing their thing. I just stopped in for a split second to take a small break from packing. I didn't know I had so much junk but did find some rent receipts from the last address I was at when I had gas service and has found a lease from there as well. I also found an old gas bill from there too to prove it was the last place I had service at. I guess that is a good thing.

Talked to Boo for a few last night but I was so tired that I was the one not doing much talking. He is still upset cause his computer is down and they took a major chunk out of his disability for child support.And what they left him with is barely enough for him to survive on. But I am wondering how they were able to do that because here in Pa, they can't take support out of your check for arrears. I guess things are different in different states. I feel bad because there is nothing I could really say to make him feel better. It almost feels like to me that he is getting depressed because he is tired of being alone. I suggested to him that he come visit after the dust clears at the new place but am not sure if he is going to take me up on that.

I know I could talk all day but I need to get back to packing and to fix something to eat. Wonders what is going on with Dragonette, Em, Moonlight, and Camille. You guys have been very quiet lately...I'll try to check back a bit later. Have a good day ladies..... :-*
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #12 on: September 01, 2007, 02:45:49 PM »
I was started to get a little discourage myself but just emailed someone from this site and he emailed me back, and of course requested a picture.  I emailed him a picture and I have not heard from him  I hope its just because he was going to away for the holiday weekend.  Nothing makes me matter than talking to some guy for awhile then when you send them a picture and if they do not find you attractive they never write back.  I am OK if they would just say they were not interested. 

SS: Did you ever consider the possibility the person considers you too good-looking or out of their league? Try it.

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #13 on: September 01, 2007, 07:32:08 PM »
mmm not much going on with me but I am checking here regularly. I just came back from dinner with some friends. I missed my BF and he returns tomorrow. He sent me sweet sms's and emails when he was away. I am very happy with what I have, I am worried about some things but decided to focus on the good things instead for a while and see if that works.

Queen, I imagine you hauling and puffing (as in breathing heavily, not sparking  ;)) in a dark lobby somewhere. I wish I could give you a hand, not just you; I wish I could make everyone's lives easier. I know I am bringing stuff from the other thread into the dating thread, but really, it's not that I don't have grieviances or pain or anxiety, it's that I look at what the women here go through and I see that if they can carry their burdens I can certainly carry mine.

My eyes have been hurting and after spending 150 pounds (that's about 300$) on a private doctor when i was in London, b/c the system here is so slow, all he did is recommend I see an eye doc on that one. The system here is very beaurocratic and bogged down. I called the GP and asked for that, he asked if it was HIV.I mean, does it matter? If I have a problem with my eyes, does it matter where it comes from? i think he doesn't even understand that HIV is usually not a disease on its own, just an enabler of other diseases. Or maybe I am giving him too little credit. I dunno. All I know is my eyes hurt and I don't even want to tell you guys how long it can take to see a specialist around here, for fear of creating a self-fulfilling prophecy. Let's just hope for the best.

I will update when I have more concrete news (getting married, having children  ;); that's all I want in this life really. that and writing a book. and for everyone I love to be happy and healthy, and that includes online friends too).

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« Reply #14 on: September 01, 2007, 10:15:56 PM »
Hi GFs~

I stayed with Stone last night.  We got his dog from the vet and I helped him with the insulin and measuring her food and all.  Stone had a bug of some sort last night, he didn't feel well at all.  It must have been a junk food bug or something, at least he things so, lol, cause he was fine this morning.  I let him sleep in till almost 11am.  I fed the dog and let her out a few times, I had one eye open all night between Stone and his doggie.  I crashed on his couch this afternoon and had a strange-ass Sustiva dream in the middle of the day, lol!  It was pretty darn vivid, and in real life I could hear Stone making work calls and they were transferring into what I was dreaming.  I finally had to wake my ass up!  LOL  Its weird, these dreams, I usually don't have them, but when I do, I feel as if I can really wake myself up and stop them.  I did that today. 

Stone and I went out to run some errands and he took me to eat pizza at a nice little Italian place.  He has a business he runs alone and he might bring his brother on board to expand it and rake in some profit for himself.  We talked about that and its pretty exciting!  I'm happy for him and I'm always proud to see how much work he does on his own.  Its just that this new chick he is seeing has him sorta sleep-deprived..... ;)

I got home at 530pm or so tonight and just HAD to get Cheech out of the house.  Not only has he been without me much for the past two days, but he and I haven't really done anything in about 6 weeks since the weather got really hot.  Today, the weather broke some and the evening was wonderful, no humidity!  So, I packed up Cheech in the Jeep and drove to my parents' place.  They are at the beach for the weekend (more power to them), so Cheech and I just walked and walked around their property.  I called my GF in Colorado who is having man trouble, and we spoke for about an hour.  It was good for both of us.  I told her all about Stone today. 

I'm really happy about Stone.  Its a great feeling.  I don't see any end in sight and I hope he feels the same, or at least will start to as we get to know each other more.  He thanked me more than once about helping with his dog.  I went into the vet's last night and spoke with the doc, and then explained things to Stone in easier terms because of my knowledge with diabetes.  I think it has helped to simplify things for him.  He even held my hand today and gave me a really good kiss goodbye.  I just love that stuff.  I will be patient with him.  He is a good man and well worth it.  I just hope he develops, or already has, the same feelings for me.

Oh, btw, he has 4 brothers and 2 sisters.  Wait till I meet that bunch!  I love the idea of it!  I just need to remember not to push things too hard.

Or should I have a heart-to-heart with him?  When the hell is the right time?  I don't want to scare the guy away.

OK, Cheech is wheezing some.  Must be the ragweed from running around this evening.  I'm gonna go make sure he is alright.  I cried to Cheech earlier tonight.  I'm not ready for him to leave me.  He is pretty active for 13, I just keep worrying......  :'(

~Cindy
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« Reply #15 on: September 02, 2007, 12:28:43 PM »
OK, I HAVE to mow the lawn today, no matter what.  Its getting long out there!  Stone fell asleep with his son last night, and was online at 3am, so we got on the phone for 20 minutes.  He is going to a family barbecue today, and he'll talk more about the new business he wants to take on with his brother.  This is really good for him, as his work is seasonal, and this would help him to bank some cash before the winter months here.

Me, I can't find a job yet!  I counted and I applied to about 12 jobs last week, and 8 at the local hospital about 3 weeks ago.  I may have to go into HR at the hospital and ask for a job.  On paper, I probably look like anyone else........

Doing laundry and trying not to spend money today.  I'll mow later  :D

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« Reply #16 on: September 02, 2007, 02:48:54 PM »
Em, where are you. Did I miss something. Check in soon. I miss your wit and great advice.                                                                           

My wit went in for a tuneup and it's going to be too expensive to fix for a while. Then, add to that, my advice machine's temp gauge broke which explains why it kept overheating. It's my understanding the part is no longer made.

Suffice to report the following.  Bakery Man not only sent a nice snail mail note while en route home, but also called the day after his arrival. We'll meet for a date this week. Already the f'd up inner dialogue about disclosure/rejection has revved up. Just beating it down as if it were a rabid dog and trying to envision just being present in the moment with this man rather than coming with a roughed out script as to what if's, if/then's and oh well's.

The adoption process is a true front burner item to be sure and when it reaches the point where I can chirp about it, I will. It's been a long journey for both of us. And, while there are no guarantees, I've been told it will occur. It is an exercise in patience and I can only imagine how it is to be a kid trying to be patient. Christmas Eve was agony enough for most of us.

The interviews, Parts A and B, went well. I'm interested and I hope they are, too. 

Other than that, work, house projects and all the ToDo list stuff I've ever mentioned is as current as ever, but under more focused attack.

I've appreciated reading of everyone's successes and pursuits. We are here for such a small amount of time---I wish for each of us more peace, laughs, and triumphs to at least counterbalance if not outweigh the challenges, trauma and often needless drama.

Welcome to the newer posters. None of us ever wanted to meet you here, but having no time machine, the here can, and will hopefully, become dear.


Happy Holiday.
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« Reply #17 on: September 02, 2007, 03:20:36 PM »
wow, good luck Em. With everything.....

Let him know your first, and get to know him... he sounds worthy of getting to know.

I'm really feeling you on that one... so tough.

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« Reply #18 on: September 02, 2007, 03:30:31 PM »
Thank you, Drag. I appreciate the advice. The strange thing is getting to know me is tightly wrapped in and around the virus--in order to understand many of the things I've done or am doing or intend to do, it's an inextricable component. I am not sure I could shield information comfortably without feeling as if I were lying by omission or come across as having a very uncomplicated life and therefore, little to say. Perplexing only if I think about it in advance. That's why I'm trying to just stay with the day, the moment and the freedom of no thinking.

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« Reply #19 on: September 02, 2007, 05:30:38 PM »
Here's what I did... may not be applicable.

I knew from the start I wanted the guy who became my BF... I knew I had never met someone like him before, it was a gut feeling, not a logical thought. I think I told him very quickly that I am going through things and it's a very very difficult time and that my whole future is under a big question mark, and later than I have a chronic disease and take medicine. I told him 3 weeks later. By that time the thought of HIV crossed his mind (he also thought I might be a little crazy, so actually the disclosure showed him I was normal, he said he was impressed with my being strong, but then he didn't see me as a romantic prosepect for several months).

Not advicing, just sharing. I couldn't come out with the A-word right away, but I wanted him to know I was dealing with something really heavy. I couldn't hide that either. My whole life was so temporary, I was meeting him, and it between barely surviving.

You make a great impression Em. I am sure you will make one on Mr Bakery no matter what tactic you choose for disclosure.

Edited to add: this one's for ML... don't be anxious honey, it really sounds like you are on the right track with Stone. You know how men are when it comes to feelings, and talking about them. They don't say it, they show it. Look at the signs...
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« Reply #20 on: September 02, 2007, 06:48:01 PM »
Hello ladies. Not too long home from work. Just wanted to say hello. Now EM, i think your wit is intact, here's why.....
My wit went in for a tuneup and it's going to be too expensive to fix for a while. Then, add to that, my advice machine's temp gauge broke which explains why it kept overheating. It's my understanding the part is no longer made.

 Just beating it down as if it were a rabid dog and trying to envision just being present in the moment with this man rather than coming with a roughed out script as to what if's, if/then's and oh well's.

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    perfect examples of your wonderful wit or maybe I should have said sense of humor.                                                Keeping my fingers , toes, whatever will cross, crossed for you in the hopes that your adoption process goes well and as quickly as possible.     Hope that the Bakery man and you have a wonderful date. Just be yourself and he will love you.                                       As far as your advice part, I hope you can repare it because you are very good at giving sensible advice. I like it!!!!                                     Ladies, I will post more later. Hope you are all well and having a great day. Cristy

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« Reply #21 on: September 02, 2007, 06:54:39 PM »
Thanks for sharing your story, Drag. Very kind of you. And I'll remember it as I move nearer to " the date."  Em

and a post alert just gave me the heads up on CJC's post

Uh-oh, you mean the mechanics lied to me? They continue to take advantage of women it seems.

Thanks for the assessment and crossing things on our behalf. We can use all the crossed body parts possible.

I'll put a note in my purse, or write on my palm, be yourself but don't admit that you posted to the Scat thread. Most wouldn't understand.

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« Reply #22 on: September 02, 2007, 08:31:59 PM »
Hi GFs~

I'm at home taking it easy tonight.  I worked in the yard some today, also had to repair my fence and cut some limbs off of an overgrown tree.  It was good to get out and sweat some, I may actually have gotten a little sun. 

TY, Drag, for saying not to worry about Stone, to just look at the signs.  You're right!  After reading what you posted here, I realized I had missed a call on my cell.  Stone had called from the family barbecue.  He said everyone was kinda angry, cause they all thought they would have met me today....Not sure what Stone's reply was, but I told him I didn't think I should meet his son too soon.  Its only been three weeks.

Any advice on this one, ladies?  When do you agree to meet the little one?  I can't think of the last time I met anyone's kids.....My exBF has five nieces and nephews, and I met all of them.  They were actually calling me "Aunt Cindy."   Sigh.  I don't miss the man, I miss what COULD have been, and I sure do miss all of those "little people."  Two of them helped work on the new house a lot back then, so I got very close with them.

Going to watch a movie now......kinda tired.  I'll post more later, on that you can depend.

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« Reply #23 on: September 02, 2007, 09:26:20 PM »
Em, sometimes you can find honest mechanics but there are those who will try to take advantage. Ladies, it's been a long day. Time for me to lay it down. Goodnight.    Cristy

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« Reply #24 on: September 02, 2007, 10:26:15 PM »
CJC: Metaphorically speaking (writing) you're right. Em

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« Reply #25 on: September 03, 2007, 02:43:16 AM »
Hi GFs~

Got carried away on YouTube tonight watching some local Maryland guys who have made it big.  They are called "Cinder Road" out of Baltimore, MD. 

Today was the first day I didn't speak with Stone since....well, since we first started speaking, lol!  He went to a family picnic and maybe stayed there or got home and crashed, not sure.  I just hope he took the dog with him, if he crashed there, or I am gonna kick his ass.  At least he called and left that message earlier.  So, its been a quiet night.  Off to bed.......

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« Reply #26 on: September 03, 2007, 09:32:05 AM »
Well, it's another day.  Yesterday was my birthday (#42) and I went to a friend's house.  Someone I've known since 1989 that I met in Narcotics Anonymous (yes, I still go to meetings).  We had a girl's get-together.  I took Liz with me and noticed that she's kind of an attention seeker.  But it could have been my perception because yesterday was a weird "emotions" day for me.  It was the first time in my life that my mom has not been around to call me and say "happy birthday." :'(  I do still miss her very much. 

Queen-I'm glad things are coming together for you-finally!  I hope the rest of your move goes smooth. 

The traffic was really bad around here this weekend because of all the Notre Dame traffic.  I don't really like Notre Dame all that much because of all the hype people put into it.  It's like it's the second coming of Christ every time they have a home game.  People seem to breathe, eat and shit Notre Dame during the football season and I find it annoying.  BTW, they got their asses beat 33-3 Saturday by Georgia Tech. 

Good luck to all you ladies exploring new relationships.  I myself am very cautious with anyone I find attractive.  I hope you all have a nice day.  I'll check back in later.  I'm going to try to move some stuff around in my apartment today.  It's only an efficiency, so I'm not sure how I can rearrange things to try to make it look a little better.  I'm rambling now, so I'll stop.  Have a good one ladies.
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« Reply #27 on: September 03, 2007, 11:00:23 AM »
Happy Birthday Betty!

You and Tendai share the same birthday.

Maybe it's in the air, the weird emotions were certainly in motion in my neck of the woods.

I'm sorry this birthday arrived without hearing from your mom. I can imagine you will be tender for some time to come. Reads as if you two had a good relationship...what a bittersweet gift.

Your comment about being cautious with anyone new--- I agree with you. That's what has been great about this weeks-long wait since being asked out. Time has toned down all those initial, excited vibes which allows a little logic and calm to prevail.

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« Reply #28 on: September 03, 2007, 03:45:45 PM »
Dear Betty

Happy Birthday and many more to come. Hope this year brings you everything you wish for.

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« Reply #29 on: September 03, 2007, 04:24:52 PM »
Happy Birthday Betty and tendai.   Betty I saw you listed in the bday thread, meant to ask when your day was!  It got here early this month, lol!

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« Reply #30 on: September 03, 2007, 04:38:51 PM »
Thanks, guys, for the b.d.wishes.  I changed things around it my apartment.  I don't know if it looks better or not, just different. :D  When I was moving the table in my kitchen that has my computer on it, I accidentally unplugged plugs and disconnected cables, so I was on the phone with my cable company for quite awhile this morning.  I have a lot of tolerance when it comes to people, but not for electronic things.  I don't have that kind of a mind.  People I can handle, wires and cords I can't.  ;)
   I hope everyone's having a good holiday.  It doesn't seem like a holiday to me.  Nothing exciting happening. 
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« Reply #31 on: September 03, 2007, 04:50:03 PM »
Hello ladies. Happy Belated Birthday to Betty and Tendai. Sorry neither one was very pleasant. Hopefully next year will be better for both of you.  Hope everybody is having a good day. Not much going on here. Haven't heard from Florida2 for the last couple days but he did say he was going out of town so not really expecting to.  No work today so Robert and I went outside and started organizing the wood pile. We want a Water stove but right now just have a wood stove but it helps save on the propane bill.I help get wood up cause I don't feel like my mom should have to if i can.Dad handles the really big stuff but I help as much as I can. We had a huge Pecan limb fall a couple weeks ago and  have been getting it laid out so it will dry better.  Fun, Fun. Kinda upset cause 2 of my cats have gone missing in as many weeks. I think the tenants have been letting their dogs run at night and they killed my cats. The reason I think so is because I heard noises in the Field Saturday night and on the way to investigatethose dogs charged me. He called them off but they are not supposed to be outside loose. It's  part of our property rules.I want my cats. Sweet Girl made it cause she sleeps on top of the pump house for the well.  Can't prove anything but am very angry.  Anyway, I'm rambling. Hope everyone is having a good fun day. We are going to have pizza.  Later.    Cristy

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« Reply #32 on: September 03, 2007, 07:36:01 PM »
Oh Cristy:
  I do hope your cats turn up.  I would go crazy if my cat was missing.  But I don't let her out.  She gets too freaked out by the real world.  I hope those people keep those dogs tied up.  That's just careless and thoughtless. 

I'm getting ready to go to bed because I have to be up early to take a friend of mine to the airport so she can rent a car.  Liz and I are going to see Halloween Wednesday night.  As of now anyway.  Take care everyone-
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« Reply #33 on: September 03, 2007, 09:26:13 PM »
Betty -- It's really strange after reading today about Brad and Angelina stating they're ready for child #5 to see " Tested Positive in 1989" underneath your avatar shot of him. It made me stop and think for a second which celebrity would catch enough bandwidth of peoples' attention spans to make an impression that could translate to significant prevention outcomes? What a silly thought, huh? Probably the more impressive stat is how many celebs are positive that remain unknown. Em

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« Reply #34 on: September 04, 2007, 04:14:37 AM »
Hi GFs~

Well, I set a record tonight by getting in bed with the lights out and falling asleep at 11:22pm.  Then I woke up at 1:30am and have been tossing and turning.  I wonder if its this damn Sustiva.  Once I wake up I can't get back to sleep.  I tried the Benadryl thing last week and was knocked out the day after, too.  I might try it again, cause nothing wakes me from a Benadryl-induced stupor......so here I am, no Xanax or Benadryl tonight.  Sigh.

Cristy~  I am so sorry about your cats.  You mean they have disappeared all together?  I only had a cat once, Milo belonged to my ex, and he was an indoor cat, so he never strayed.  I would go nuts if I had an animal that was an outdoors one.  I am way too protective, and would be a mess if anything happened.  I hope you're OK, hang in there.  So, you have 3 cats, and just the one is around now?

I checked my email at this unGodly hour and got a reply sent at 1am from a realty group here in town.  It was sent by one person, but signed on behalf of the company owner.  They asked me to call on Tuesday to set up an interview.  They didn't include their phone number or address, so I had to search online to get the info.  Whoever is doing their legwork now is making them look like shit.  LOL  I almost emailed back, "I WOULD contact you but I don't even know where you're located, and I don't have your phone number!"  I caught myself and figured these people need me.  Their ad seeks "a very responsible Office Assistant" with knowledge of Microsoft and QuickBooks.  I need to get my ass in there.  They are in downtown Frederick, in the historic district where I used to work (before I transferred up to Pennsylvania for doofus man...).  I wonder if they have parking in the garage?  Lots of things to ask......Funny, I'm not even getting my hopes up anymore for a job.  I am so disheartened.   :(

I need your opinion:  Since I am so desperate for a job, do I make this known in the interview?  Do I ask them to NOT pass me by if they think I am overqualified?  I am willing to go almost 25% lower in salary just to get a job, and this place is only a few miles from my home. 

Please let me know your thoughts.......

Spoke to Stone much earlier tonight, he has sex on the brain.  What else is new?  Sigh.

~Cindy
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« Reply #35 on: September 04, 2007, 04:56:27 AM »
Hey there,

I switched sustiva specifically b/c of the sleep issues, it's something you should take up with your doctors.

I don't know about this desperate thing, they tell you what the salary is so you can just say that you are willing to start at this salary? I mean, isn't the salary a package deal with the job? Looks like they are intersted. And good location.

Job hunting sucks...

My BF got 2 months extension on his contract so now we don't have to worry for another 2 months and then he will be job hunting and get on unemployment, but that only lasts for 6 months.

I'm sending you a big hug and sleep well wishes from the other side of the pond
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« Reply #36 on: September 04, 2007, 06:46:05 AM »
Hey girls:
   It's very early here, 6:45 a.m.  Cin, I do hope you can get your sleep issues straight soon.  It's such a bitch to not have a regular sleep schedule.  Sustiva always makes me sleepy, but I don't wake up from it or have restless nights.  But everyone reacts differently to meds, and it sounds like some people have had issue with this.  Talk to your doctor definitely.  About the job, well, I guess you have to go with what your heart tells you.  What happened to selling cars?  Do you think it would be too stressful?  Personally, I wouldn't make a good salesperson.  I want to work with addicts when I get my degree.  But my doctor doesn't want me to work full-time because of my health and I really can't afford to anyway.  I can't afford to lose the prescription plan on Medicare.  Last year they paid $43,000 for my meds. 

Cristy, I am worried about your cats.  I am such a cat lover.  I am also praying for the owner's of the dogs imminent demise and destruction. >:(  I love dogs too, just not their owners sometimes. 

I hope everyone is having a restful morning.  Just wanted to get a quick shout-out to my possee before my day starts.
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« Reply #37 on: September 04, 2007, 07:40:02 AM »
Hello ladies. Just got Robert on the bus for school. I had 4 cats. 2 unneutered males, 1 neutered male and 1 small female. All are outside cats since I  hate fleas.1 of my unneutered disappeared 2 weeks ago, i thought MAYBE he wandered off. Then 3 days ago my neutered male disappeared. then Sat night I go down to the field to check out a noise and the tenants dogs charged me. SO......I think their dogs killed my cats but am not allowed to say anything.  It'll come around and next time I see them loose I will shoot them. If they are killling things, they will not stop with cats, the chickens will be next and then maybe a neighborhood child. So all that is left is Sweet Girl cause the other unneutered male is very skittish and rarely lets anyone handle him..        Thanks for the responses. Not much giong on today, work and probably both shifts, I'm on call for lunch.                                                             ML, sorry you are having a hard time sleeping. I usually take a xanax before bed and that helps but it doesn't make me groggy so...maybe your doc can suggest something that will not make you groggy the next day. Also, do not let them know you really are desperate. Tell them you are Flexible when it comes to salary. You could let them know you really want a job but leave desperate out of it.                                                                                       Betty, I admire you for wanting to work with addicts. I wanted to but am too selfish to give up my weed and It would be hypocritical of me to say I'm clean when I smoke weed.             Maybe you could volunteer at a long term treatment facility or something along those lines. I still have the rehab I went to call me and ask me to come visit but I can't cause I am still using even if its just weed.               Ladies take care and have a good day.   Cristy                                                   
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #38 on: September 04, 2007, 08:55:54 AM »
Hi Cristy,
I am so sorry about your cats. I somehow missed your post (happens when threads are long). Don't shoot the dog, shoor the owners! Just kidding, pls don't shoot anything. Just complain to the authorities. I am sorry you have to share your area with a-holes, lots of them around where my parents live, dogs barking, noise at night, garbage, shouting, etc. Here in the Netherlands I am ok with the neighours but I had an awful family next door before. Some people are a menace.

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« Reply #39 on: September 04, 2007, 09:51:45 PM »
Hi GFs~

It was a quiet day.  I stayed inside even though it was beautiful and sunny out.  The ragweed can really make Cheech uncomfortable with difficulty breathing, so we stayed in.  I took a Benadryl at 8:45pm tonight and it should be kicking soon.  I also took .50mg of Xanax which never does a damn thing for me.  If I don't sleep tonight.....gheez.

I REALLY think its not having anything to do during the day, nothing to exhaust me, so I am not sleepy at night.  I actually feel asleep from 6:30pm to 8:30pm tonight.

I haven't spoken to Stone today, he had a long work day and also had to take his son to and from school as well.  I may call him in a few minutes just to say goodnight.  But I have this feeling I will be nodding off very quickly.

Mr. Good Zip Code is online now but he is sort of irritating.  Nothing worse than someone who ends every sentence with an exclamation point!  Kinda like this!  And sometimes I'm just not in the mood!  You know?!  Calm the hell down already!

Some guy from Oregon who is pos wants to call me now.  I am like "What's the use?"  I haven't IMed him in about 2 months and he suddenly shows up and wants to call.  Looks like a nice guy, but come on, Oregon?  No chance in hell.

OK, I am calling it a night.  Where is everyone?  Em, you making cupcakes somewhere?  Queen, are you stuck under your couch as you try to move it up the stairs at your new place?  Camille, you makin' babies?  Zachysmom, you had better not be in traction, GF.

Carry on, GFs and I will check you all tomorrow.

~Cindy

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #40 on: September 04, 2007, 11:12:48 PM »
Hi Girls

Took a break to enjoy the holiday and I hope everyone had a great holiday. 

Christy I am sorry to hear about your cats.  I have a cat and would be so upset if someone happenend to him  My first cat I had to put to sleep after only 5 years.  I bottle fed him since was a kitten so it was very shocking when stopped eating and I was told he had liver failure.  I called my Dad who came with me to take him to the vet to have him put down.  That was the second time in my life that I have ever seen my Dad cry.  He was crying because I was.  But enough of that.

Betty and Tendai  happy late birthday.  Mine is fast approaching and I am not looking forward to it.  I am going to be 34 and thought that I would be married with kids by now.  I wish I could just have a crystal ball just to tell me if I am ever going to have that. 

Well, I have fallen off the wagon and saw Cop #1 on Sunday night.  He was on duty looking as cute as ever.  When he got off work he picked me up from where I was and drove me to my car.  We chatted for a few minutes and he did tell me that he has gotten a lawyer and is starting the divorce paper work.  I had high hopes of telling him that I needed to let him go so I would not get hurt, but then he told me how good I looked and wanted to kiss me so I caved.  Then it started all of those emotions all over. I had trouble sleeping that night and was looking forward to him calling me the next day.  All day I was waiting for him to call me, and he did on his way to work and we talked twice that night.  I have not been able to stop thinking of him.  Today I was watching my soap and one of the charate rs was talking to another character and she made a very good statement and that was "Sex can be intoxicating and great and sometimes after sex we want and feel there might be a relationship there when there is not"  Or something like that.  That made me think, is that what I am doing.  Its hard for me to be on this emotional roll a coaster of emotions but then its hard for me to stay away.  So right now I am a little lost and do not know what to do.  my brain tells me one thing and my heart says another.  I told my self a few years ago when I let him go the first time that I would fight for him if I was ever given the opportunity, but I am not sure how do that without chasing him way or what to say to him. 

Well, Have given you guys enough drama for one day.  I hope you guys are doing well and thanks for letting me vent and have my pitty party, since we all have issues that we would like to discuss and vent on.

On other note I saw Death Sentence today with Kevin Bacon,  Good flick but very violent and sad.

Talk to you girls later.  SS



 


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« Reply #41 on: September 05, 2007, 09:44:51 AM »
Hey girls:
   Yesterday I went to get some incense and when I came out and got in my car, it wouldn't even turn over.  It's not the battery, as the lights and radio worked.  So I had to call a tow truck and had them take it to a garage.  It might be the alternator, which is going to cost big time to get repaired.  My car is a '94 and has like 170,000 miles on it.  But what can I do?  I don't even know how I'm going to get the money to get it repaired, so whoever it was that posted in another thread about not having a car for awhile, I can relate.  Living on disability does not allow for crises such as these.  So I might try to find part-time work.  I can't work full-time, as my doctor doesn't want me to and I can't afford to pay for my prescriptions or medical care, thus Medicare is the only option.  Last year Medicare Part D paid $43,000 for my prescriptions.  But, at least if I could find part-time work to kind of supplement my income, it would be a good idea.  I don't want to drop out of school, as I have probably only until next December to be finished with my degree.  So I think I'm going to check out Goodwill, as they are used to working with people on disability.  My best friend is letting me borrow her truck for a couple days while she's out of town at a conference.  So at least I can make it to class tomorrow night.  Being at the university I'm attending, the classes are only eight weeks long, so if someone misses one class, they can fall behind. 
     I hope everyone is doing alright.  Sun- the beginning of a relationship can be very intoxicating.  Just keep you head straight, know what you are expecting and approach things cautiously.  That's what I do.  Cin, my metal friend, I am wondering how your sleep cycles are going?  Have you been able to contact your doctor about your concerns with the Sustiva?  Personally, I can't take anything like Xanax.  The body develops a tolerance for those kind of medications after taking them for awhile and you have to keep taking more and more in order for it to work.  Then coming off of them is a real bitch.  That was what my last detox was; well, that and a lot of other meds I shouldn't have been taking.  I was seeing this lunatic psychiatrist that had me on Xanax, Dextroamphetamine (he thought I had ADD), DS Vicodin every 4 hours, Morphine, tons of hormones, tons of thyroid medication, and some heavy duty sedatives.  When I detoxed off that stuff, I was literally in bed for three days.  And it took like three weeks for my mental function to return.  That doctor apparently does this to a lot of people, probably to keep them coming back to see him.  He should really be stopped...
     Well, tonight I'm going to see the new Halloween with Liz.  She's in school right now getting certified in medical assisting.  I don't think there's a heavy duty relationship that's going to develop, but having another friend never hurts.  I'm bisexual, and she is a straight lesbian.  I've had one heavy duty relationship with a woman and we even had a union.  But, things didn't work out.  It was a blessing to have her at the time.  I had the wasting syndrome when we were together and got down to 87 lbs (I'm 5'9").  She used to help me a lot.  Well, I ended up taking my second ex-husband back and that was a disaster.  I met him in Narcotics Anonymous and he went back to shooting up and ended up taking my ATM card when I was asleep one night, finding my PIN number and going from ATM to ATM and totally cleaned out my bank account.  What an ass... But, what did I expect, he was just acting like a using addict.  I can't really blame him, as I know that desperation. 
     I guess I'm getting too deep now.  Anyway GFs, wish me luck tonight on my date.  I have to go eat breakfast and get the day started.  I hope everyone's doing well.  Haven't seen anything from Queen lately.  Queen, if you read this, please let us know how you're doing!  Love ya all-
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« Reply #42 on: September 05, 2007, 11:17:05 AM »
Geez,

Everytime I turn around there's a new thread.  I'm sorry I've been sooo busy lately.  But at least this time I am posting in the right spot.  I've been busy with trying to sell my house and the up keep is insane.  I mowed the grass, but suspected that I might run out of gas so I did the front yard first.  That way when the ex husband does the back  yard he'll have the challenge of dodging the dog poop.

Happy Belated birthday Betty and Tendai


Glad to hear, Cindy, that you and Stone really seem to be working out thats really great. Btw, I'm sorry if you posted this but what happened to automotive position?

Betty- sorry about the car.  I had a datsun 280z back in high school. And I swear, every other day I would have to call my dad and ask him to pick me up in the dead of winter on his days off.....all because of the alternator.  What a nightmare.  I can definitely relate because I had a jeep cherokee a couple of years back and, guess what, the alternator.  It flooded my mind with grumblings of a pissed off dad.

Christy-  Im sooo sorry about your cats.  I have 2 left from my original 6 and its a heart breaking to lose any.  I really hope they come back. 

Sun- Glad to hear about Cop #1.  Ask him if you can play with siren.

Drag-  Job hunting is the worst.  It took me a long time to find a place that I really love, but finding a job in general can be stressful.  Take care of yourself as your guy will have his plateaus.  Hey at least he has two months to look which has to help.

Queen-  I hope the move went smoothly.   Again sorry, I will have to go back and read the last of the post in the hen house. 

Ian is great and yes we are spending  a lot of time together.  I will have to give you all the details a little later.

Oh I have a film recommendation: The Lives of Others
Its a German film (subtitles) about Germany a few years before the wall fell.  It is really brilliant.

Be well everyone and hugs to you all and haven't forgotten about Em, Ten, and any other GF I missed









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« Reply #43 on: September 05, 2007, 03:45:33 PM »
Hello ladies. glad to see new posts.  Cats haven't come back and I don't believe they will be so I'm trying to let it go.     Betty, hope you date goes well. Sorry to hear about your car, thank god for friends that will loan you cars. I have a couple people that will do that and they are close to me. Good luck with part-time work. That's what I do wait tables part-time. Hard work but I am good at it and the money is decent. And i like getting to talk to the guests and see them enjoying themselves.                                                                                     SS, glad to hear from you. Hard to resist somebody you really like. Hope that works out. So you will be 34 soon. I turned 35 July 9th, its  not so bad.                                                                                        Queen , I miss you. Hope moving is going well and you will be back online soon.                  Camille, glad to hear from you.                                                                               ML, Em, And anyone else I might have missed , take care and I 'll check back in soon.    Cristy

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« Reply #44 on: September 05, 2007, 07:59:04 PM »
Glad to hear, Cindy, that you and Stone really seem to be working out thats really great. Btw, I'm sorry if you posted this but what happened to automotive position?

Sun- Glad to hear about Cop #1.  Ask him if you can play with siren.

Hi Camille~

I know better than to push myself for the car sales position.  I could barely make it through an 8 hour day at my former job.  Why do a 60 - 70 hour week.  It would kill me, I know it.

Also, let's not encourage Sunseeker to play fiddle faddle with Cop #1, he is newly separated with a first child on the way!

Sunseeker, I know you have been smitten with this guy for YEARS, but you are stepping on bad turf, messing with him while he is married and has a child on the way!  Bad kitty, BAD!   :o

Stone wants to see me this Saturday and go see a band I always rave about.  I am psyched!  We may see each other before then, nothing firm yet.

Its been a quiet day.  Trying to stay in the house and not go out and spend money..... sigh.

~Cindy

Now its 2:40am Weds night.  I am loopy from Sustiva but can't sleep, but I will try in a few minutes.  I have spent all night reading Dating Part III, it was fun to see what we have all been through.  IMed Stone earlier tonight, but he didn't ask me out for Thursday.  This will be his first night without his son and he needs to regroup.  He has so many business calls coming in and he can't get to them, well, cause he's out on business!  I know that's a good thing, but it has been so hot here.  He was slurring his words a little today around 3pm when we spoke.  I called him at 630pm when he was done and he sounded much better, so I was relieved.  The man works so hard and is on SSDI as well. 

I can't wait to see him again, I really just can't wait!   :D

~Cindy
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« Reply #45 on: September 06, 2007, 09:27:33 AM »
Hey girls-
   Well, went to see the new Halloween last night with Liz.  It was o.k., but nothing I would really recommend.  It's so hard to find a well-made horror flick today. I actually fell asleep in the theatre! :D  Liz nudged me awake.  Things are going slow there, which is o.k.  I don't intend to rush into anything, ever.  When I first got into recovery, in 1989, I was such a relationship hopper.  And it always turned out bad. 
     I agree with Cin's advice about Sunseeker.  Girl, don't even think about it! ;)  Please don't get involved with someone carrying that much baggage right from the start.  And if he left his wife, (especially while she's pregnant), how do you know he won't do the same thing to you?  Pleeeease approach with extreme caution. 
     Sounds like a smart move not to take the car salesperson position, Cindy.  That would be a long work week, and if you know you can't handle it, I wouldn't do it either. 
     My pastor told me yesterday that the church will help me with the repairs on my car.  I just love my church.  It's non-doctrinal, which means there are no "rules."  My pastor is a lesbian who's been with the same woman for like 37 years.  They've helped me before.  I'm not a religious fanatic or anything.  When my pastor gives a sermon, she talks about things like forgiveness etc.  So it's a really refreshing change from what most churches are like.  They've been a blessing to me.
     I'm wondering what's going on with Queen.  I hope she checks in soon!  Moving can be such a headache.  I just signed another year's lease where I'm at, so I won't have to worry about it anytime soon, thank God.
    I hope everyone is doing alright.  Fall is soon approaching girls! 
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« Reply #46 on: September 06, 2007, 10:23:14 AM »
Hi Betty~

Yes, fall is approaching, the most wonderful time of the year for me!  Cooler weather, leaves changing colors, harvest time, pumpkins, corn mazes, Halloween, my birthday, football, nice new jeans to hold in my lipo gut (lol), Thanksgiving....and then on to the holidays!  I absolutely love when the weather changes because October through February is my favorite time of the year!  I tried to tan this year and enjoy the warmer weather, but its overrated.  I have a friend who has had melonoma, and so has my grandmother, so I had better just stay pale and pasty.   :D

Betty, about your alternator, I had one go bad years ago on another car, and I found out that they usually sell "refurbished" ones as the norm, at least that's what they were doing in the late '90's.  Is there anyone at the church who could switch yours out for you so you could save on labor?  It can't hurt to ask!

I first "stirred" at 6am this morning and then got up at 830am, after going to bed at 245am.  I guess that counts as sleep, I don't know.  It sure is nice to know I have the entire day ahead of me.  I am going to go grocery shopping and I only have $5 in my checking account.  Time to dip into the savings or onto a credit card and float some money until I get my unemployment pay next week. 

I don't know how many of you PRAY, but whatever God/Goddess you believe in, we need to pull together now for ME.  Yes, I am being selfish.  It is utterly ridiculous that I haven't landed a job yet.  WHY is this happening?  It has been almost 4 months, and this brain is too smart to sit at home, unstimulated most of the time.  PRAY to whoever it is that you pray to, and pray hard tomorrow at 3pm during my interview.  I am thinking I am going to dress to the nines tomorrow.  Its supposed to be 90 degrees but I don't care.  I want this job, badly.  Its with a realty company.  Its right around the corner from where I worked in 2005, in downtown Frederick.  I can get this job, I just need some help from a higher power, along with some divine intervention.

Send some good vibes my way, GFs!

~Cindy
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« Reply #47 on: September 06, 2007, 10:33:03 AM »
Sun-  I don't want to give you the wrong advice, though I was kidding about the siren.  I didn't realize that this guy's life is getting complicated.   I need to finish reading all these darn posts!

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« Reply #48 on: September 06, 2007, 11:04:16 AM »
Praying...  ;)  :-*
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« Reply #49 on: September 06, 2007, 07:15:37 PM »
I am finally moved.....
I got all of my stuff in over the weekend but can't say the same for my roomie. She has a lot of shit. I try to help when I can but we need some men. My son has been drafted quite a few times already. I had some more words with the gas company but in the end I got my service. At first, they were going to try to charge me a deposit but I guess the FTC and PUC up their asses changed all that. Then come to find out from the gas company that the gas had been turned on the whole time but since it was in landlord's name I guess he had shut off the valves in the basement. Can't be mad at him about that.

The cable and internet got turned on today, before that the cats were my entertainment. Lucifer which is my cat, is trying to dominate and giving my roomie's female cat, Polly hell. He keeps trying to mate her and she keeps scratching his nose up... :D Then he keeps trying to dominate the other 2 boys cats, Ziggy and BoogieMan. But Boogie will have none of it and hisses at him. I swear it is a sight.

Since I have been gone I have missed a bit so I will re-read the posts again. At the moment, everything seems to be a big blur. I did see that someone's alternator went out. That happened to me with my car, for a used one, I paid about 50 bucks. If you go to Auto Zone or some place like it then it will prolly cost about 20 more I would think since your car is  a 94. Mine is an 85. But I think it is great that the church is willing to help you out.
Damn, I can remember that but not who said it... ;D

I am having issues registering my son for school which is not helping me at the moment but that is another story. I will have more on that at another time. Just wanted to let you know what is going on with me at the moment and I still have quite a bit to do around here.
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« Reply #50 on: September 06, 2007, 09:41:33 PM »
So good to hear from ya, Queen.  It was my alternator, but as it turned out, that's not what the problem was. 
  Cin- I definitely will be praying and sending positive energy your way.  You'll find a job GF, just hang in there.  Sometimes it is always darkest before the light. 
    I hope everyone is doing alright.  My life is so boring that tomorrow I'm going to the library and I count that as a "day out."  School does keep me busy though.  Going to bed soon, hope everyone is praying for our Moonlight!
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« Reply #51 on: September 06, 2007, 10:22:50 PM »
Thanks for the good vibes, I am at Stone's tonight, a good surprise!  More soon, gotta get it while the gettings GOOD!  :D
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« Reply #52 on: September 06, 2007, 10:29:24 PM »
Well, Cin, as we used to say "cha-ching!" :D
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« Reply #53 on: September 06, 2007, 10:41:25 PM »
I've missed so much of this drama series, that I need one of those publications sent to my house, just for updates..... ;)
Nothing new going on here, just staying alive, my son is  sick AGAIN from school, and won't fall asleep, even though I gave him extra Dimatap ( I think he's wired instead)...
Work sucks...especially since I sit next to an ex-drunk, who clicks her tongue on her roof of her mouth after every sentence....I just want to choke her!!!...
My back pain has mellowed out some, but still there.....I assume I will be taking pain medication for awhile longer now.

Cindy don't worry.....be careful what you wish for, before you know it, you will be flooded with offers....when it rains it pours.....

Speaking of Halloween, I actually bought my son a costume in August (he's Thomas the Tank Engine, his favorite)....but it's crazy that I need to buy stuff in the summer or it sells out.. All the mom's out there are just crazy (including myself) :P
But it is also my favorite time of year, especially since my birthday is at the end of this month ::). and I plan on getting a much needed massage as a present.

Queen,
Good luck in your new place...and tell that cat humping season is over....

much love to everyone....
Nicole

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« Reply #54 on: September 06, 2007, 11:06:00 PM »
Hey Girls

Nothing new here,  going to be MIA till next week.  Going to visit family in Oregon and not sure I will be near a computer.  So I wish everyone a happy week.

Cammie-  No worries here I still want to play with Cop #1  siren.  Thanks to him I am getting sick that is what I get for kissing him.

Nicole-  Your sons costume sounds so cute.  I am needing to work on my halloween costume.  For me and my girlfriends halloween is our holiday so dressing up is a must.  I am thinking a cancan girl this year.  Keep you posted on what I come up with.


Talk to you guys next week.     SS

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« Reply #55 on: September 06, 2007, 11:17:34 PM »
So good to hear from ya, Queen.  It was my alternator, but as it turned out, that's not what the problem was. 
 

I'm curious now, what was the problem, the starter? Not a mechanic but tries to play one in real life... ;) I've learned a few things since having a car. And it's funny cause when I raise the hood to put oil in the car I get looks from dudes like, Oh she knows where to put the oil.....Uh, yeah...I think it's good to at least know the basics of your car, i.e.....where to put the oil, power steering fluid, how to jump another car off your car or vice versa or even how to use a battery starter. The things you should know if you don't have a man around... ;D
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5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
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3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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« Reply #56 on: September 06, 2007, 11:20:33 PM »
Thanks for the good vibes, I am at Stone's tonight, a good surprise!  More soon, gotta get it while the gettings GOOD!  :D

I swear between Cindy and Lucifer.... I'm going to pull out the water hose for the both of you....Maybe I need to spray around and I will attract a male... ;D
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
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11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
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3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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« Reply #57 on: September 06, 2007, 11:21:30 PM »
I sit next to an ex-drunk, who clicks her tongue on her roof of her mouth after every sentence....I just want to choke her!!!...

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« Reply #58 on: September 06, 2007, 11:39:00 PM »
Suffice to report the following.  Bakery Man not only sent a nice snail mail note while en route home, but also called the day after his arrival. We'll meet for a date this week. Already the f'd up inner dialogue about disclosure/rejection has revved up. Just beating it down as if it were a rabid dog and trying to envision just being present in the moment with this man rather than coming with a roughed out script as to what if's, if/then's and oh well's.

The adoption process is a true front burner item to be sure and when it reaches the point where I can chirp about it, I will. It's been a long journey for both of us. And, while there are no guarantees, I've been told it will occur. It is an exercise in patience and I can only imagine how it is to be a kid trying to be patient. Christmas Eve was agony enough for most of us.

The interviews, Parts A and B, went well. I'm interested and I hope they are, too.

Finally, the bakery man has showed a pulse...It sounds like he is a very considerate person. Can't wait to hear how date goes..As far as disclosure goes, only when you are ready. The what ifs and all that will drive you crazy if you let it.

I am really rooting for you with the adoption. I think you mentioned it before. It's a personal thing with me because I was adopted when I was 12 and that usually didn't happen back then. Folks mainly wanted babies and not pre-teens. How old is the child? I don't remember you mentioning if  the child is male or female. You may have but I tend to be foggy lately. I'll be praying to the Goddess for you and hope everything works out.
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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« Reply #59 on: September 07, 2007, 08:42:57 AM »
Hey Queen:
  The owner of the garage told me that with the gear shift, even though it looks like it's in park, I still need to shift it into park until it like "clicks."  So that's the whole reason it wouldn't start! :-[  The whole bill for it is $290.  That includes towing, an electrical test (when they were trying to figure out what was wrong with it), a "used car inspection" which I asked them to do, replacing the belt, and of course the labor.  I'm not sure what they charge an hour, but I'm sure it's something outrageous.  The guy that gave me a ride home in the cab when the car wouldn't start gave me the card for the garage that the cab company uses.  He said they only charge $35-40 an hour labor.  Thank God for my church.  Otherwise I would  be up shit creek. 
   Sunseeker, I hope you have a good visit with your family.  Sounds like it will be a nice vacation. 
     Halloween just isn't fun for me like it used to be.  I used to have a lot of Halloween decorations, but with moving around, I lost my decorations or sold them in yard sales.  I do love to decorate for the holidays.  I only have one decoration for Halloween.  Queen, do you do anything special for this?  Didn't you mention in one of your posts that you're into wiccan or paganism or something like that?  I really don't know much about either, except that I've read that paganism covers all the "earth" religions, even Native American spirituality.  You know, I took this test one time to see what religion I would be most compatible with and the results were that it would be Ba'Hai.  I don't even know anything about this, but I'm thinking about getting a book from the library on it and checking it out.  Never hurts to expand the mind.
     I hope all you ladies are doing alright.  Time for me to start the day.  Namaste-
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« Reply #60 on: September 07, 2007, 11:34:57 AM »
hello ladies. just checking in for a minute. Have to get  back off cause we have dial up and are waiting for calls.                                              All Hail the Return Of the Queen. Glad to see you back, I have missed you. I will read and do some more specific replys this evening. Love ya'll.  Cristy

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« Reply #61 on: September 07, 2007, 12:30:20 PM »
I am recovering and have to get ready for my interview!   :P  More soon!
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« Reply #62 on: September 07, 2007, 01:11:38 PM »
You know, I took this test one time to see what religion I would be most compatible with and the results were that it would be Ba'Hai.  I don't even know anything about this, but I'm thinking about getting a book from the library on it and checking it out.  Never hurts to expand the mind.

Betty
Those in the Ba'Hai faith are at so visibly at peace, accommodating, women-respecting, self-respecting. I lived in a building with a Ba'Hai faith family and they invited me to many of their meals---it was a tremendous experience. How interesting that you tested as a match to a particular faith. Never heard of such a test. I'd like to take it.
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« Reply #63 on: September 07, 2007, 01:34:09 PM »
Em,
  I can't even remember which site I took the test on.  Hmmm, beliefnet maybe? 
   The library I go to has only two books on Ba'Hai, and neither were in.  So I got a book about Buddhism meditation and will be adventuring into that.  I also got some CDs, put one in my friend's truck's CD player, and now it won't eject.  So there's some money I'll be owing the library.  I also got three movies, they're due back Monday, then I remembered I won't get my car back until probably Tuesday and won't have my friend's truck anymore either.  Geesh, can I ever have a good day? I'm just whining. Don't even listen to me.  There are people here who have a lot more to deal with. 
     Guess I should probably go study.  Let the weekend begin.
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« Reply #64 on: September 07, 2007, 02:07:54 PM »
Vibes, GFs, vibes.....Prayers, whatever you have to offer!  My interview is at 3pm, and I have to huff it through downtown on foot after I find parking.  Its headed towards 94 degrees!   My interview is at 3pm........wish me - pray me - send me lots of luck!

A guy emailed me in the POZ Personals, sending me "Good Energy" regarding the job search.  A lot of guys read along here, who says they don't like a soap opera?  So, a big "thank you" to Mr. Good Energy!   ;D
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(4:15pm) OK, interview with the realty company is done!  Let me just say.....I kicked ASS.  They have FREE parking which is wonderful!  The medical coverage is the same PPO plan I am on now, which is good (so I can continue on my insulin pump)! 

They loved me and I had a lot to say, touched on a lot of what they were looking for with my own job experiences from the past.  I did a lot of talking, wasn't going to leave anything out. LOL They placed their ad last Thursday and received over two hundred emailed resumes!    I was very honored to be called in by them, its a husband and wife team, prob in their late 40's, and they were both very nice and laid back.  I would have my own office and basically be the "hub" for the company!  Yay!  They asked what I wanted to make and I said I was very flexible, somewhere in the $30-$40K range.  Personally, I would like to make $36K, but we'll see if I get an offer first.

Only downside is the cost of benefits, kinda?  I didn't ask what the premium was per month, but its basically the husband and wife on their plan along with the office assistant.  The deductible is $2500!  Yikes!  OUCH, big time....but I still have my fingers crossed.  They have set-up a flexible spending account from which you can pay the deductible, and they said the salary would be lower if I were to choose coverage rather than forego it.  I'm thinking that means they pay the premium?  I forgot to ask after I nearly fell off my chair from the deductible amount! 

Dumb question time since its been so long since I've paid a deductible.  The deductible is a reflection of out-of-pocket costs (i.e. copays, not the actual cost for services), right? 

They will be deciding by next Tuesday, so I'll know really soon!   ;D

Oh goodness, I am so psyched, and I have STONE on the brain BIG TIME, too, even though I feel like I just left his place, lol!

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« Reply #65 on: September 07, 2007, 05:50:34 PM »
Hello again ladies. Not much going on here. My needy one moved back to his family's house and has been calling but I'm not answering the phone. i would have really liked to have him but it would be like taking on a grown child and I already have a child.                                     Queen, Glad you got moved. Sorry you are having problems with the school , hopefully they will be sorted out soon. Lucifer will chill after a bit, once the other kitties slap him a couple times. He's just being male. Is he neutered? cause if he's not and there is a female in the house he might start spraying. Just something to watch out for.                                   

  The owner of the garage told me that with the gear shift, even though it looks like it's in park, I still need to shift it into park until it like "clicks."  So that's the whole reason it wouldn't start! :-
Betty
                                                                               Hello Betty, My dad has a 63 Chevy II that does that. You have to put the shifter in just the right spot for it to start. Sorry you had to deal with all that. Sounds like you have a great support system and that's a wonderful thing.                                                                      ML, glad the job interview went well and I hope it turns out to be everything you want, need and more.  Glad you and Stone are doing well                                                                                        Sun, hope you have a great visit with your family. I Know you are grown and all that and you really want cop #1 but are you sure it will be worth the hassle that you might have to deal with. I wish the best for you no matter what, just something to think about.       Nicole, my son loves Thomas the tank engine. We watch it Sundays on PBS. they have a lot of really good children's shows. He's loving Pre-K and seems to be doing well.                                                   Anybody I missed, Em, anybody else , love ya'll and will check in again soon.    Cristy       

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« Reply #66 on: September 07, 2007, 06:31:17 PM »
Ok, now imagine me cussing because I am about now. I just lost a whole post explaining the drama behind getting my son out of his old school and hoping he gets into the new one because they are full but some students are suppose to be leaving next week, I have to wait to hear from the guidance counselor next week. I think it got lost because I was trying to post it as I was getting a PM.

If you haven't checked out my thread in the OT forum, I will give you the short version here. I have to start meds now. My cd4 has dropped to 215 while my vl dropped to 16,590 from 27,400. I have noticed a trend when it comes to that but when cd4 raises vl raises too which is weird to me and I have asked if anyone knows why this is.
It's a bit of a disappointment since I have been doing so well with getting the diabetes under control but I also knew this day would come, so no worries. I will be on Atripla, Abacavir, and Bactrim til my cd4 improves then I will stop the Bactrim. I have also developed thrush which seems to be moving down my throat. Has appointment with my primary next week but I have the joy of doing a 24 hour urine tomorrow...Oh, Joy. But after all the fuss of getting the lantus pen now my doc thinks I may not need. I know that is a good thing but DAMN. We are not seeing eye to eye on the metformin. I will keep you updated on that episode after the appointment. All the other tests came back fine, first time I have not been anemic. They thought I was finally taking the iron pills but Queenie just changed some eating habits...I will write more later in response to other posts but at the moment I have the jitters and must go take care of that....Hope you ladies are having a good day....
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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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« Reply #67 on: September 07, 2007, 08:51:47 PM »
Hey girls:
  Cin, so glad to hear that the job interview went well.  Just know I've been praying for you and sending you lots of {{{{WONDERFUL ENERGY}}}}!
    Queen, I did read your post in OT and responded to it, I think.  It's really good that you got your blood sugar under control.  I, meanwhile, have not and the doctor just called today because of an elevated test that came back and raised my Insulin dose.  You know, last year when I quit smoking, started exercising and eating right, I was able to get off the Insulin.  Maybe I can do that again.  I really started tearing up smoking cigs when my mom was in the dying process.  I felt like I needed a stress reliever. Anyway, I hope things get straightened out with the school.
   In about 10 minutes I'm going to go to Kroger's to get some popcorn to watch one of the movies I got from the library today.  It's a foreign love film and has really good reviews on it, so I'm looking forward to that.  This weekend I'll be jamming on studying for my classes. I have TONS of it to do. 
   I hope all you ladies are having a good start to the weekend.  Talk to ya'all later. 
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« Reply #68 on: September 07, 2007, 10:02:41 PM »
Queen, very frustrating  when you lose a post. ML suggested that you copy the post before you send it and I just tried that and it worked really well.    Cristy

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« Reply #69 on: September 07, 2007, 11:32:47 PM »
Ok, now to respond to some of these posts....

Betty-- Halloween is a holiday for Pagans. To be celebrated in many different ways. I usually do some type of spell or ritual. And since my roomie is Pagan too and our first Halloween together, we will prolly do something. I am hoping that the doc will just put me on Lantus and that alone. I have to do a 24 hour urine in the morning.

Christy--- No, Lucifer is not fixed yet but the first piece of change I get, he is getting nipped. But there are 2 other male cats in the house, they are roomies. And what do you mean might, he has sprayed 3 times already but it is funny to watch his tail jiggle around.

Powder-- Glad the interview went well. Does this mean you got the job? When will you know?

Not much to add, has been talking to Boo since the internet came back on yesterday. He is still tinkering with his computer instead of accepting the fact that he blew something. Thank God It's Friday!!!!!! I need a break.. ;D ;D
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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« Reply #70 on: September 08, 2007, 08:53:20 AM »
Hey Queen:

I have a question.  In one of the threads in OT, you mentioned a pentacle.  Is that the same thing as a pentogram?  And you said people think it's satanic.  That's what I was always taught.  What does it mean?  I'm just asking questions because I'm really ignorant to all that stuff.  I'm sure you get this all the time, but I was always taught that anything like "wicca" or "paganism" was from the devil.  But when I was reading a little bit about paganism, I read that it actually includes all the "earth" religions, even Native American spirituality.  Of course, I was reading this on the internet and one has to be really careful about what is on the internet. Also, do you call yourself a witch?  Just curious.  I used to have a friend who said he was a warlock and he did some kind of rituals for the Summer Equinox and the Winter Solstice.  He used to dress in a black robe and summon gods and goddesses.  Have you ever heard of anything like that?  He was also a reader.  I asked him if he did sayonces (not sure how to spell that.  He said he did, but he didn't do them that often.  He said you never know what spirit was going to come out, and that you have to have complete control over the situation.  I guess my question would be, if you don't know what spirit is going to come out, how do you know you will be able to have control over them?  I probably sound pretty ignorant with all these things, but I really try to remain open-minded to things I don't know anything about. 

I hope everyone else is doing alright.  Cin, did you see Stone last night?  Cristy, how are you holding up?  And everyone else (Em, etc...).  I tried to finish a movie last night about midnight.  It was a foreign film with subtitles which got really good critical reviews, which is usually the type of movie I try to look for.  But I ended up falling asleep in my rocking chair and woke up about 3:00 a.m.  Today I have scads of studying to do and I'm also going to color the roots in my hair.  This is kind of a bother, but if I don't do it, I will surely go grey in no time. 

Hope everyone is having a good morning.
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« Reply #71 on: September 08, 2007, 12:19:45 PM »
Hey Queen:

I have a question.  In one of the threads in OT, you mentioned a pentacle.  Is that the same thing as a pentogram?  And you said people think it's satanic.  That's what I was always taught.  What does it mean?  I'm just asking questions because I'm really ignorant to all that stuff.  I'm sure you get this all the time, but I was always taught that anything like "wicca" or "paganism" was from the devil.  But when I was reading a little bit about paganism, I read that it actually includes all the "earth" religions, even Native American spirituality.  Of course, I was reading this on the internet and one has to be really careful about what is on the internet. Also, do you call yourself a witch?  Just curious.  I used to have a friend who said he was a warlock and he did some kind of rituals for the Summer Equinox and the Winter Solstice.  He used to dress in a black robe and summon gods and goddesses.  Have you ever heard of anything like that?  He was also a reader.  I asked him if he did sayonces (not sure how to spell that.  He said he did, but he didn't do them that often.  He said you never know what spirit was going to come out, and that you have to have complete control over the situation.  I guess my question would be, if you don't know what spirit is going to come out, how do you know you will be able to have control over them?  I probably sound pretty ignorant with all these things, but I really try to remain open-minded to things I don't know anything about. 

I saw your post in OT and what Mark posted was pretty on point. When drawn it is a pentagram and when worn a pentacle, not sure if that makes sense to you or not. Don't have the right words in my head, I just woke up not long ago. It is usually considered Satanic when the top point is facing down. But like Mark said, there are other reasons for the point being down. I wear my pentacle necklace as a form of protection and like I said, I never take it off unless I am cleansing it as in jewelry cleaning, spiritually cleansing, and reinforcing my protection spell. For me, the points mean earth, air, fire, water, and spirit.

Do I consider myself a witch? Yes, I do, not just because I follow the ways of Paganism but found out that it was practiced by my Grandmother. My Mother believed in it but didn't really practice it. I consider myself to be a solitary eclectic witch which means simply that I work alone but follow different paths of Paganism, not just one. I did try to join a Coven once but just did not feel comfortable with it.

As for your friend, I understood what he meant. When you do seances, you do have to take precaution because it is like opening a doorway and if not experienced, you could let anything in. I use to read Tarot cards but doesn't have a deck anymore. I need to get another one. I use to do readings for my friends and for myself. A reading to me is not to tell the future but to guide a person through events that may have happened in the past that may be connected to the present with a possible outcome in the near future. I hope I haven't confused you. One site that I use to check out is WitchVox.com. You might find some answers there. It's good to know you have an open mind.
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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« Reply #72 on: September 08, 2007, 06:35:16 PM »
Hello ladies.  Queen , I have read quite a bit about. I found it quite interesting but can't remember alot about it. Fried brain.                                   Freak Alert on POZpersonals. He goes by signdog and I mailed  him for 2 days and he comes up with" Do I spit or Swallow?" and when I got offended said I am a prude.   I could see if we had discussed anything sexual but had not. so watch out.   Will update, just be aware  cristy
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« Reply #73 on: September 08, 2007, 10:53:09 PM »
Christy and Betty~~

I had tried other religions before I was drawn to Paganism. Being raised as black, I was made to go to Baptist church every Sunday. As a kid I was into it...Bible study..choir but then as I got older I noticed that most people came to church mainly to gossip even the little old ladies or founding members of the church. And the biggest whore seemed to be the Pastor.. ???

Growing up I attended Catholic schools and we use to have to go to Mass for certain holidays. The statues drew my attention at first. Then confessions kinda drew me in cause I could do something wrong and be told to say 10 Hail Marys and everything was ok. Once again as I got older, I had a problem with that as well but still loved the statues... ;D

After being disappointed by those religions, I kinda felt like I was in limbo. I knew there was a God but just had problems with the foundation of those religions, I guess. I had a dream which really stuck with me. At this time it was Halloween and I had read an article in the paper about a local High Priest. The article intrigued me so I called the newspaper and asked the reporter if he could get a hold of him and left my number. I didn't think the guy would call me but he actually did. We met up and I discussed my dream to him in detail and he seem to have understood it perfectly. He said it was a calling and suggested some books to read. I did and felt like this was the path I was meant to take and felt comfortable with it. It was about 5 years later that I discovered that my Grandmother was a witch, so to me it made perfect sense to why I was drawn.

On to the dating.....Been chatting with Boo. After the one episode I had Qwesty on Poz Personals, I have not put my ad back up. Not sure that I will anytime soon.
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« Reply #74 on: September 09, 2007, 08:31:01 AM »
Thanks Queen. I know what you mean about some of that stuff. Maybe one day we can roll a blunt and sit down and have a long disscusion about it.                                                                           I have been considering just cancelling my personals profile  after this last experience. I am very openminded but damn right I was offended to be asked that after 2 days of mailing someone. Uncouth Jerk!!!!! Him, not any of ya'll.                             On a bright note, there was  a small cookout here last night and I ate very well. I also made a pineapple upsidedown cake and It was SO good . Hope everyone  will have a good day. Later, Cristy                                                 

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« Reply #75 on: September 09, 2007, 11:40:08 AM »
Hi GFs~

I hear you about the Personals.  If it weren't for my spotlight in a few weeks, I would've taken my ad down by now, too.  I want to see how things go with Stone, though.  Too many brothas hittin' me up in the Personals, when all I would be interested in is a slice of whitebread.  I think most of the emails I get are from scammers anyway, its a pain in the ass.

I saw Stone last night after thinking he had fallen asleep at his place and was going to miss our date!  Yikes!  He called at 9:30pm and made me think he was just getting into the shower or something and next thing I know he's at MY door, and I'm not ready, lol!  It all turned out fine.  We got to the club around 10:45pm or so and I had left my cell phone in the Jeep.  Stone goes to the bar to get drinks and someone taps me on the shoulder.  Its the guy I danced with back in July, the one who remembered me from my old neighborhood.  I hug him hello and realize it has been 7 weeks and he never called me!  Now I'm sure he thinks I am a bitch, oh well.  I told him I was here on a date, and he said for Stone and I to go and talk with them in a bit.  Honestly, I was pissed at my childhood friend, Pat, who was the link to this guy Jeff (aka tall brother).  Turns out the GF who found me on herpes.com a week ago said Pat was a dog.  All he does is go look for other women while his GF is in the same bar, so I didn't feel like talking to Pat.  It would have been awkward with Jeff and Stone side by side, so I just stayed with Stone and we never went to find the other group.

Not too long after, I look past Stone and there's Mr. Good Zip Code standing 5 feet behind him.  So, I go over and say HI, say I'm on a date and don't want to be rude to Stone.

Stone looked hot, and GF was in her element!  Music was loud, good, it was dark, it was fun!  The drummer came up to me in between sets and said HI.  I thought that was nice.  I introduced the drummer to Stone. I have been following this band for about six years now.  The place we were in last night held 400 people, easy, its huge.  At one point Stone and I were on the dance floor and a big lightbulb shook itself loose from about 25 feet above our heads and nearly hit the guy in front of us.  Thank goodness it didn't shatter, but the band must have shaken it loose, lol!

It was a little awkward later because when Stone and I were on the dance floor, there was Jeff aka "the tall brother" from July 21st, standing about five feet behind us, I kept seeing him out of the corner of my eye.  Turns out that Pat had sent me a text earlier saying that he and Jeff were there and where was I?  It must've been sent right as I was walking into the club, and I missed it.  Mr. Good Zip Code was on the dance floor looking like a total dork, and I kept seeing him look at me through the crowd.  Stone and I made it up front to the amps a little later with no problem, and I was giddy.  I love that shit!  LOL  The drummer set his electronic drums on automatic, and came out to sing a tune that I had requested earlier.  He came over, leaned down off the stage and grabbed my hand, it was so cool, lol, everyone was looking at me!  He was singing "Relax" by Frankie Goes to Hollywood, it was incredible!  I was hoppin' and boppin' and singing right along to every damn song last night. (www.thereaganyears.com)

So, I just sent Stone down the road here at 11am to go give his doggie her shot.  I am headed down to his place in a bit, to hang with him, and try to help him with work or whatever.

I keep thinking of Christy's pineapple upside down cake, tho, lol.

Have a great Sunday!

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« Reply #76 on: September 09, 2007, 12:24:54 PM »
Glad to know you had a good time with Stone at the concert. I use to love that song Relax too. Gosh, that brings back memories of Duran Duran, INXS, Thomas Dolby, The Romantics and a whole bunch of others. Yes, Queen was into 80's music big time.

Now I am trying to remember who Pat is? But I thought it was funny that your previous dates were there. Now if that would've been a black person, all hell would've broken loose. Joking but at the same time am serious, I have seen it get real ugly. Man, I need a social life!!!!!

I had to get up early to drop my urine off at the lab and get more blood drawn for the appointment with my primary doc on Wednesday. I assume it is to check kidney function. It's been raining for the past few days including today so I don't see much happening really. At least my car is getting washed... ;) If anything I will prolly drift back to sleep since I didn't go to bed til 4am. I am off to wash the dishes..
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« Reply #77 on: September 09, 2007, 06:25:39 PM »
Hey girls:
 Last night my sister had a birthday thing for my granddaughter, my brother and myself (we all celebrate b.d.'s in Sept.).  At my mom's service, at the end, there was a DVD that played of my mom during her different years.  My brother-in-law burned a copy for everyone in the family, and when I got home last night I watched it.  That set off a 20 minute long crying spell.  It just hasn't gotten any easier.  Not that I expect it would. 
    Queen, thanks for answering my questions.  I was always raised that anything that had to do with stuff like what you're into was from the devil and shouldn't be messed with.  But of course, that was another time.  I do try to remain open-minded about things like that, as I don't think any one religion is the total truth.  In fact, at the church I go to, this fall in our Sunday school we're going to be talking about the symbolism the Bible uses.  In other words, not everything in it is to be taken word-for-word; some things are just symbols of some other meaning.  So I'll be looking forward to that.  I was always wondering how in the world a man could live inside a whale. :o 
    Sorry about your experience on the personals Cristy.  I would've been totally disgusted with that asshole. 
     Anyway, I hope all you ladies are having a good close to the weekend.  I'll probably be up late tonight as I took a four hour nap today!  My brother will be here in a little while and we're going to watch HBO's documentary special by Spike Lee (I just love him) about Hurricane Katrina.  Later-
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« Reply #78 on: September 09, 2007, 09:18:43 PM »
Glad to know you had a good time with Stone at the concert. I use to love that song Relax too. Gosh, that brings back memories of Duran Duran, INXS, Thomas Dolby, The Romantics and a whole bunch of others. Yes, Queen was into 80's music big time.

BTW, GF, they also played "Let's Go Crazy" by Prince!  By then I was slammin' in the front row!   ;D
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« Reply #79 on: September 09, 2007, 10:54:04 PM »
Funny, How when folks play Prince, it is always something off of his Purple Rain or 1999 albums. Yes, those were good ones but how about playing something else...LOL... I think I need to school folks on classic Prince...
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« Reply #80 on: September 09, 2007, 11:04:35 PM »
Date Update: Date occurred last night. Very nice. Excellent dinner. Hours of non-stop conversation that never came within 100' of the topic of health, status, etc. Next date is next week. Calm, kind, good sense of humor and scholarly. It's been years since I went out on a date and this was well worth the wait.

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« Reply #81 on: September 10, 2007, 12:39:44 AM »
Well, it is about time. Glad date was nice.
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« Reply #82 on: September 10, 2007, 07:43:08 AM »
Date Update: Date occurred last night. Very nice. Excellent dinner. Hours of non-stop conversation that never came within 100' of the topic of health, status, etc. Next date is next week. Calm, kind, good sense of humor and scholarly. It's been years since I went out on a date and this was well worth the wait.
                                                                                     Yah!!!!!!!!!!! for EM. So glad that your date went well. hope next weeks goes just as well.                                                                             Queen, that's because those are the only Prince albums most white folks know. He has some really good music but even I am only familiar with some of it  ;)                                                                   Things are good here, just got little man  on the bus, now to figure out what to do today.                                                                   Betty, glad you had a good celebration  with  your family.  I probably would have cried over the DVD also. I still do sometimes when I see pictures of loved ones that have passed. Even my cat. I really loved that cat.                                                                        Hope everyone is doing well. My respiratory infection is easing up and I am feeling better. 1 more nasty Levaquin to take and I am done.   Love ya'll.  Cristy

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« Reply #83 on: September 10, 2007, 08:46:40 AM »
Mornin' All.

Thanks much, ladies.
 
CJC, good to know you're feeling better. Not fair to have a respiratory challenge BEFORE winter. Maybe you'll have gotten it out of the way early!

BT, I appreciate that you share glimpses of your grieving with us. I'm sure it is good for you and know that it is for us as well...

Have an excellent week everyone.

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« Reply #84 on: September 10, 2007, 10:56:35 AM »
GOOD NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I went out back about 30 minutes ago. And One of missing my cats was outside eating. His name is Nighty and he is the neutered male I said went missing last week. I love that cat and am so glad he is not dead.The unneutered male( Sweet Pea) is still missing but it's possible he is roaming, they do that. I will tell the tenants but will not apologize, first cause I never said anything to them(would have turned into a fight, she seems to have a temper like me  but I am 15 years older so can actually check mine most of the time) and cause I still think their dogs ran him off.  fuck it , who cares about that, I don't like them anyway!                         NIGHTY IS HOME!!!!!!NIGHTY IS HOME. I gave him some tuna.      Cristy, who loves animals more than most people. ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
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« Reply #85 on: September 10, 2007, 05:21:43 PM »
Hi GFs~

So glad to hear that Nighty made his way back home, Cristy!  That is such GREAT news!  I am very happy to hear of the reunion, I just wish your other kitty would come back, too.  Fingers crossed!  Pets are just the COOLEST!   ;D

Em, Em, EM!  FINALLY had the date!  Woo-hoo!  Patience is definitely a virtue!  I am pleased to hear that Bakery Man is a calm, nice guy.  Maybe we should call him Brawny Man since he initially called you from the mountaintop?  LOL   ;)  I hope you are doing OK with thoughts of disclosure.  I know its putting the cart way before the horse, as you are still getting to know each other, but even still, I know how much it all weighed on me when I was dating Jay back in June.  I am thinking about you, and I know you'll just take it as it comes.  Its all you can do, you know that, even if we try to have a dress rehearsal for something like disclosure.  Glad to hear he has asked you out again for next weekend already, too!  Yippee!

Betty, I am thinking about you and the loss of your mother.  Was it a month ago today?  That DVD has got to be a very sentimental thing for you.  Cry all you want, its better than holding it in.  I have a video that I took of my late husband David, back at a gig in December 1992, before I even tested pos (that came a year later).  I haven't watched the video in a long time (prob out of fear that it will snap the ribbon, have to get it onto DVD!), but whenever I do, I end up smiling and jamming to the tunes!  Whenever I hear the band's tunes play, I think of Dave.  "Come Again" by Damn Yankees, "Jet City Woman" by Queensryche, "Ramble On" by Zep where he played acoustic on a stand in front of him, with the electric slung over his back, and would then jump back to where his pedals were to jam on the electric again......ah the memories.  They are sweet, if bittersweet, at times.


Hi Queen~   You were trying to remember who Pat was? He was the guy that lived in the same hood as me when I was 7!  Yes, seven!  He is also the guy that Jay had small talk with in early July, he was helping Jay move a barbecue grill back to his house, and they started talking about who Jay was "seeing."  Remember, Pat figured out it was me Jay was referring to, but didn't let on at first, and was yanking Jay's chain some with questions about me.  LOL  Anyway, I have never "hung out" with Pat, and since he is a dog who gets way too wasted at the clubs, I am not missing anything by not being his friend.  Turns out Stone knows someone that Pat knows, we saw him across the way at IHOP after leaving the club.

I went down to Stone's yesterday from about 1pm to 1am.  We just did domestic stuff, took care of the dog, he cleaned some, I tried to give him some financial advice, etc.  It was nice to have his company.  We went to the grocery together cause his bank is there and he had to make a deposit.  We ended up shopping some, it was fun, believe it or not.  He is so cute, gets so excited over new things, new ideas, all of this coming from a big man who is a cross between a tank and a grizzly bear!  He is joining a gym close to his place soon, and is stocking up on things for the new diet.  I turned him on to ground turkey, really good when you make tacos with it!  Yummy!

I casually got some heart-to-heart time with Stone last night, too, and I saw how it softened him a little even before I left for the evening.  I remember Drag telling me not to worry, actions speak louder than words.  Drag, you are so right!  Where are you, GF?.....  So far, my intuition and patience with him/things has been right on.  I figured he needs to move slow in the romance department because of where he's been with two crazy women before me, three, actually, but two are ex-wives.  The ones he was married to were just selfish people, and the last wife drank too much.  Its a shame that I have to pay the price for their screwed up lives, but its still early for us.  I know my actions are speaking loudly to him, too.

Stone said he didn't like it when a girl he was dating last April wanted to refer to him as her BF without an agreement of sorts on it.  This evidently happened when this girl was trying to rush everything in the space of a few weeks, and she was a bitch to him when she drank, so it turned him off.  I don't drink and I have a pretty good head on my shoulders.  Only thing is, I have all of my eggs in one basket here now.  I don't MIND it, as I am wildly attracted to Stone and I am excited as I get to learn more things about him.  However, because of the, shall we say, "bedroom factor" with Stone and I, I wouldn't feel comfortable dating another man at this time.  My loyalties have always been fierce, and it wouldn't be fair to anyone if I dated someone else.  I wouldn't even go talk to Jeff, the tall brother from July, at the club Saturday, because I was attracted to him a couple of months ago.  It would've just been awkward.  He had his window of opportunity and chose not to act on it.  But even if Stone doesn't consider me a GF (at least that's what I got from the conversation last night), he HAS told his entire family about me.  So, even if I don't have the "title" I think its safe to say "I have the man."  He isn't seeing anyone else, we are too busy getting to know each other.

The whole heart-to-heart last night started out with me gently saying, "I've noticed something about you......." and his reply before I even went on was "Oh no, what is it....."  I gently said he wasn't a "touchy-feely" kind of guy, meaning in MY mind, affectionate.  He said he isn't usually one to talk about feelings so early on, or something like that, so I just forced myself to be QUIET.  He actually started talking and leading the conversation, and I was VERY gentle with him, as I know guys usually don't talk about feelings much, at least not this one.  I said I thought he didn't like the feeling of being "vulnerable" and he said he didn't like that word, yet he steered the conversation from there.   ;D  I love it when I can keep my mouth shut, but it took willpower.  I didn't want to shape anything he was going to say to me, and what he did say came from the heart. 

He went to hold my hand while walking me back to my car last night, and I saw a certain tenderness in his eyes as he said goodnight and then kissed me. 

Ah, contentment......  :)


On another note, I have had some good things happen today.  I think they will change my life and relieve a lot of stress for me.  No, I haven't heard about the job, that's for tomorrow, but I will post more tonight.  I am very pleased......

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« Reply #86 on: September 10, 2007, 07:49:58 PM »
Funny, How when folks play Prince, it is always something off of his Purple Rain or 1999 albums. Yes, those were good ones but how about playing something else...LOL... I think I need to school folks on classic Prince...

I know this is way after the fact, but what about "I Wanna Be Your Lover" or "Why You Wanna Treat Me So Bad."  Is this what you're talking about Queen?  Yes, I used to jam back in the late 70's.  I used to listen to WBMX out of Chicago. That station doesn't exist anymore.  But I used to jam to Zapp, Lakeside etc.  That was waaaay back.

Em, so glad to hear about the date!  Keep us posted with details!

Cristy, I am so glad Nighty came back.  It must be such a joyous reunion!  Here's hoping that the other wanderer joins him and you soon! 

Hope everyone is having a good night.  I took a break from studying to check out how everyone's doing. 
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« Reply #87 on: September 10, 2007, 08:13:09 PM »
Hello Ladies-----

It has pretty much been a chilled day for me. Got some more cleaning done, swept down the front stairs and mopped them. Tomorrow is the back stairs which will require some bleach to get rid of that empty house smell. I went to see about getting some help with furniture. So, I'll be waiting to hear back on those calls. But everyone pretty much chills in their rooms anyway. Lucifer is still after Polly relentlessly. I need to find a vet and fast!!!!!


Cindy--- If I recall, I thought I said Stone was the one awhile back.. ;) But am thrilled that things are going so well. Give it time, he will be calling your gf more than I do... ;D I swear you need to pay for text messaging, don't your company have an unlimited text plan? If so it shouldn't be much. Hell, I will pay for the text....LMAO...Anyhoo, just be patient with Stone like you're doing, I see you guys together for awhile. Just call me Miss Cleo, girl!!!!

Betty--- I feel your pain on missing your mother. I miss both of my parents and even though my mother has been gone the longest I still think of her, the same goes for my father. I was just putting their pictures up in my room last night. It will get easier with time when it comes to the crying spells, I still get them from time to time.

Em---- You have been kinda silent, girlie. Is everything ok with you? I'm glad the date went well, I wanted to be more enthusiastic but you didn't give me much to work with... ;) I am glad you enjoyed yourself and found someone who can stimulate you mentally. Sometimes mental stimulation is the best form of foreplay.. ;) If that was out of line, forgive me, just smoked one and am feeling like a horn dog. Could be Lucifer's horniness too since me and my cat are connected like Christy's. But I am already fixed...WTF????   ;D ;D ;D

Christy-- I am so glad your cat came back home. I know that can of tuna was a treat for him. Hopefully the other kitty will come home soon. I am sorry you are not feeling well. Don't know how I missed that you were sick.

Has anyone seen Life Support with Queen Latifah in it? It's on HBO, I watched it last night and it brought me to tears which is hard to do. Some of the things just really hit home to me. If you haven't seen it, I suggest you do.

It's Monday Night, so it is almost time for RAW, my Monday night wrestling soap opera. Tonight I get to find out who Vince McMahon's bastard son is. The cliffhanger is that he is one of the wrestlers.... ;D Will check in later and let y'all know who it is...

Ooooh Betty, you caught me just when I was gonna post. That is just the Prince era I was talking about along with his Controversy album. Ok, you going back with Lakeside....How about some Bar-Kays?
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
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« Reply #88 on: September 10, 2007, 11:42:50 PM »
Hello ladies. Did I mention that ya'll are most of the people I like as well as my animals. Just thought you should know. Thanks for the reply's about nighty. I did the right thing and told the tenants that he was home. Turns out mom told them that I thought their dogs killed my cat and since I was wrong, I felt I should, not apologize , but let them know I was wrong. Usually I hate to be wrong but in this case am glad.                                                                                            Betty , I agree with Em( i usually do) , your sharing of your grief allows me to touch on some of my own . Thank you                                                             Queen, just because we are fixed does not mean we can't go into heat. God, I am.   And have several options but they are neg so.....   Guess I'll just get over it.                                                                              ML, Glad thing are going well with  Stone . I will catch your update about the job and other good things in the morning      .     Love ya'll.   Cristy                                                                     

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« Reply #89 on: September 11, 2007, 08:35:27 AM »
Yes, Queen, I remember the Bar-Kays.  I think the music was better back then maybe.  I also used to love the long version of "Good Times" by Chic.  When they set into that bass guitar solo, I think that was just tits!  Anyway, that was another time.......

Cin, my  metal friend, I am so glad to hear about how things are going with Stone.  Yes, it's hard sometimes to keep our mouths shut, but I think it will pay off.  I don't know a whole lot of men who are open about feelings.  I think it has to do with the way society stigmatizes them.  You know, they have to be the strong ones etc.  My second ex- was probably the most open man I've been with.  Too bad he started back on the addiction downward spiral. 

Well, girls, it's been almost 48 hours since I've had a cigarette.  I can already breathe a little better.  I've been taking Chantix.  Last night I had a killer headache though.  But this morning I feel better.  I even did a little exercising.  I wish I could do a lot of exercising, but my left kneecap is broken and the cartilage in it collapsed from when the last guy I was with pushed me down a flight of stairs, and that's been like six years ago.  There is a lot of muscle wasting in it etc.  But, I am quitting smoking, hopefully for good.  Of course, I haven't been around anyone yet who smokes.  I'm trying to get a firm foundation in quitting before I do that.  Liz smokes.  She is taking Chantix right now also, but she doesn't really want to quit.  Her doctor is the one who told her she needs to.  I told her I think someone has to really want it and be mentall ready to quit.  I think forcefully trying to get someone to quit smoking is like forcefully trying to get someone to quit drinking or using drugs-it doesn't work for long.  I'm going to make my apartment smoke-free and my car also.  That will be hard.  But I'm determined.  With lung cancer (caused from second-hand smoke) killing my mum and my dad having emphysema and chronic bronchitis (and still smoking), my chances of smoking successfully are pretty thin.  Plus the compromised immune system from HIV and diabetes.  Anyway, I'm determined.  Wish me luck.

Queen- I am so glad you're getting settled in your place.  I don't know what to tell you about Lucifer.  You need to get him clipped!  Is he still spraying?  I think there are things you can get at a pet store for that, not sure.  I have a female cat, and she's been fixed. 

About coming into heat, I'm going through a preview of menopause right now.  Sometimes sex seems like it would be wonderful, and sometimes it's like "who cares."  Of course, I haven't gotten laid in like three or four years.  It's bad when you can't remember the last time, but the guy I was with was not
a good lover.  Maybe something will happen with Liz...... ::)

Cristy- how are things going with your son (the one who's in the pokey).  You know, when I was with my first husband, he was in jail at varied time for like 8 or 9 months out of every year.  It was really hard.  I went to see him sometimes; but of course he didn't even ask if I would get him out.  I hope you're doing alright with that. 

Hope everyone's having a restful morning.  I'm going to get my day started.  My Counseling Theories class is tonight and I have to do laundry today.  Talk to you girls later-
Betty
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« Reply #90 on: September 11, 2007, 12:25:26 PM »
Hi GFs~

I am anxiously awaiting phone calls from my Case Mgr at the Health Dept and also from the Realty company I interviewed with on Friday.  This is the other "good news" I referred to above.  I posted about this mainly  in my other thread in Living With HIV, called "In A Dark Place Here." 

I called the Health Dept. yest and my case mgr was out, but the lady I did talk to told me there were all sorts of ways that I could get assistance, even while working a FT job!  It really gave me a big sense of relief, I have been way too concerned about making ends meet for many years now.  I found out that I can get help with a huge deductible for health care, as well as with the cost for the monthly premium as well, and housing, too!

Turns out the lady I spoke with yest is the facilitator for the local support group, so I am going to go this Friday.  I am really nervous, but it will only be about 4 or 5 women.  Then I can meet the gay guys the following week, lol!  She says its cut right down the middle with the people there, either straight women or gay guys attend, no others.  Told you there weren't many straight men in the DC area that are pos!

I am getting really fed-up with the Personals here on POZ.  The same little shits keep making up all of these fake ads and I have recently started replying to them, rather than erasing the emails.  I say something like "Lots of luck you little sh*t."  When I don't hear anything back, I know I've hit the nail on the head with a scammer.  I can usually tell from the pictures, even if they look legit, when you "click to enlarge" they won't enlarge.  This is because the little scum copied them off of the internet.

Got one from the UK last night from a Tonny______2777 or something like that.  Can't remember his last name.  WHY would someone from the UK want to meet me?  Sounded like he was high in his email, all dreamy and shit. Its always a dead giveaway....White male, educated who likes soul and R&B.  I have my intuition and something just doesn't "jive" with the music preferences.  And since when do you spell "Tony" with 2 N's?  Gheez! 

Maybe I should just take the damn ad down already....Stone DID finally call last night at about 12:30am.  He had his cousin with him all day yesterday, showing him stuff about his business he does.  They talked all day long, it seems.  I was boo-hooing by the time he called, all worked up, doing my 9/11 thread.  I had a few friends I was IMing, Queen included, and we were chatting about today.  It still seems so surreal, like the Towers going down was part of a Hollywood movie.

Betty~   Ray aka J.R.E. posted something somewhere in a thread about the immediate effects of quitting smoking.  Its kind of like a timeline thing, from minutes to years down the road.  Have you seen it yet?  I'll try to find it for you.  Glad to hear you have had such willpower!

No exciting phone calls yet.  It has finally rained here today in Maryland, no sunshine for the first time in days, weeks even, but it has finally cooled off!.......Cozy day to stay inside and watch movies.  Yeah, that's what I'll do.   :)

~Cindy
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #91 on: September 11, 2007, 04:28:46 PM »
I spoke with my Case Mgr a little while ago and I will meet her on Thursday at the Health Dept.

No news on the job front, but I have gotten used to this shit now, dammit.  >:(

I also reluctantly called to get my PAP results.  I had one come back abnormal in early May, had a uterine biopsy right before memorial Day (normal result), had a cervical cell swab done then as well (normal result), and early August was another PAP.

Whew!  I am not getting a D&C, its risky putting a diabetic under anesthesia.  This is my first month off of the pill since 1989 at age 19 and we'll see how it goes, dealing with fibroids, too.
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #92 on: September 11, 2007, 05:01:21 PM »
Cristy, glad cat came back! that is good news, no need to apologize to neighbours b/c dangerous dogs should not be running free in any case.

Cind, don't give up on the job just yet. It takes time, and awful lot sometimes (sigh). the only reason I'm sticking with my boring "job" is b/c I dread looking for a new one, something which'll have to happen in 2 years anyhow. Glad you had a good night rocking to the 80's. I did tell you lot I saw Prince, live, like 3 weeks ago?!

Betty, good luck with Liz!

Em, good luck with Mr. Gentleman!!

Queen, good luck with the moving, and upheaving.

I have been very happy with what I have lately. But that doesn't mean there are no blips on my screen... lipo fear is one, fear of future another, missing my parents, missing my country (even though I kinda hate it, home is home), regrets over lost friends, a new year as of tomorrow, worries about fertility, need I continue?

Love reading this forum though. It is like a soap opera - days of our lives, now I not only live my own but feel what others are going through. I can't keep up with the typing but am here listening.

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« Reply #93 on: September 11, 2007, 11:15:17 PM »
Ok my bad.....I haven't had a second to read through the threads....my job is taking up so much of my time.  But wanted to let you know I'm thinking  of you all.   

Just to give you an update:   I had the worst sexual experience with Ian using condoms last week.   It was a nightmare.  And tonight made up for it all. It was really amazing.

I wanted to know if anyone heard from christine I think from PA?  Is she ok?

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« Reply #94 on: September 11, 2007, 11:23:36 PM »
Christine is up in Mechanicsburg, about an hour north of me.  I haven't seen her here.  Her last posts were on 9/4.

Better make sure those condoms FIT, and use lotsa lube, over and over.

I am gonna buy stock in Trojans :D

Em, where ARE you?  I miss my Mother Hen! 

ZM/Nicole, what have you been up to?

I think some chickens have flown the coop!   :D

Edited to add:   I sent Stone the link to my 9/11 thread, and somehow he was able to post under my ID.  My feathers were ruffled some, but its all good now, lol.   ;D
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« Reply #95 on: September 12, 2007, 07:27:50 AM »
Hey Cin:
  Don't give up on the job thing.  I will be looking (probably) for part-time work starting next Monday.  Even though school takes up a lot of time, I need something to do with the remaining time.  My doctor doesn't want me to work full-time; I couldn't afford it anyway.  I need my Medicare Part D.  I did pay off a library fine that I had for like five or six years, so I'm checking out books, movies and CDs.  I'm reading a book right now about love in ancient Greece.  It's really interesting, as it talks about all the gods and goddesses and their exploits.  I'm also reading a book about meditation, as I try to do that every day.  Still not smoking, this is my third day.  I hope I can stick to it this time.  I haven't been around anyone yet who smokes.  Most of my friends do, and I need to prepare for that. 

Good to hear from you Cam.  Glad you had good sex! ;) 

It's a new day.  I hope everyone is doing alright.
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« Reply #96 on: September 12, 2007, 10:13:22 AM »
Good Morning All

I've not contributed much lately and explaining why would bore you...suffice to say it's the To DO list mostly. On a newsy note, I was elected to the board of a 20-year-old AIDS service organization. They've got their priorities straight and I'm happy to be on board. 

Cindy - regarding you missing Mother Hen...a while back, I wrote " my advice machine's temp gauge broke which explains why it kept overheating. It's my understanding the part is no longer made. "  was code for cessation of advice giving as much as possible unless someone specifically asks. Introspection-driven. I am passing the hen feather boa to you, lass.

Betty - congrats on the no smoking, you will never regret it ... my sisters and I were all multi-pack per day smokers and over the years, we've all quit ... what a relief to my never-so-much-as-tried-a-puff registered nurse mom

Drag -- you couldn't have renamed the man any better...he is a Gentle Man and not only talks, but listens closely and with an open mind whether to humor or naggy sensitive issues --- he's a refreshingly different soul in my experience thus far

Camille - good golly Miss Molly! lucky, lucky you -- speechlessness never sounded so good

CJC -- meant to comment a long time ago (it will seem rather silly now) that I never felt/sensed that Nighty was a goner and I'm glad that is so. Outdoor kitties have their disappearing acts which cause owners' hearts to palpate. Yes, your nearby Fidos were cause for concern, but cats have good survival instincts except near cars it seems.  My kitty is a constant source of joy and a totally indoors boy. I adopted him shortly after the dx and he was the best medicine for me then and now.

Life is good. We've heard from Tendai. She is safe and hopefully not battling more than the sniffles. We've heard from Belief after a long silence. GQ is moving in and nesting/pun intended/ with utility company nonsense in the past and Boo perhaps in the future. Cindy will meet a case manager and get some financial assistance. And, she will find employment.

The sky here is blue. Sun is hitting the top of the tree outside my window. I have my part-time work. I have projects. I'm grateful and I'm waiting for responses from others about all sorts of things.

Patience. Just patience.

Things are unfolding as they should.

See the work. Do the work. Avoid the misery.


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« Reply #97 on: September 12, 2007, 02:22:24 PM »
Cindy - regarding you missing Mother Hen...a while back, I wrote " my advice machine's temp gauge broke which explains why it kept overheating. It's my understanding the part is no longer made. "  was code for cessation of advice giving as much as possible unless someone specifically asks. Introspection-driven. I am passing the hen feather boa to you, lass.

Cindy will meet a case manager and get some financial assistance. And, she will find employment.

I thought the parts not being in was a temporary downtime with the advice.  Wow, suddenly I feel naked......de-feathered maybe.  I'll have to remember to be very direct when I need some Mother Hen advice!  It sounds like your life is a busy one, Em, and I understand that.  It just hasn't been the same around here without you and I speak for all of us when I say we miss you.   :-\  Do you have date #2 this weekend?

As for the job, well, Betty, its always easier to find a PT job, no offense, because they won't be paying you any benefits.  Therefore, you have options as to what you want to do.  I want a FT job with benefits and that is asking a lot from a perspective employer.  I didn't hear from the Realty company yesterday or today, so I have given up hope now.  It really pisses me off.

I am really pissed about not getting that job.  Tomorrow will be better.

I am probably going to see Stone tonight, as his son's Jewish mother (Stone is Catholic) wants the little one for the holiday tonight.  Little guy is out of school for these three days.  Its Stone's weekend, but ex-wife is a dumbass who never plans anything and never wants the kid around that much.  I hope Stone gets his son Thursday through Sunday, since its his weekend, Jewish holiday or not.

Betty, you know the pic in the 9/11 thread was of the pro wrestler "Stone Cold Steve Austin," right?  Stone isn't as big as the wrestler, but he is working on it.  I wouldn't want to mess with him if I was a guy!

Can't stop thinking about Tendai today..........

~Cindy

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« Reply #98 on: September 12, 2007, 03:10:56 PM »
Hello ladies. Not much going on here. Waiting to get my little man off the bus at 4.  Nighty is still here and follows me all around the yard. When I get some batteries , I will take a picture of him and Sweet girl and post it for ya'll.                                                                           Em, glad to hear from you. Sorry the part is no longer being made but sometimes that's the way it is. Good luck with the organization. You will be a great asset.    Hope your second date goes as well or better than the first.                                                                     Ml, finding a full time job with benefits will be a challenge but you can do it!!!!! It will take time but don't give up.saw Stone's post . Glad ya'll are "close friends"  . Hope that continues to go well.                                  Betty, His court date is the 27th and we probably won't go. It will be continued so he can get a public defender. My mom might go.               Hope things work out with Liz and you get some happy time.             Speaking of happy time, I am in such heat. i am getting on my own damn nerves and no relief in sight. oh well, it'll cycle down, it always does.                                                                                           Camille, glad things went well this time. Hope they continue to go well.                                                   Love ya'll. Will update again soon.    Cristy                                       

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« Reply #99 on: September 12, 2007, 08:53:18 PM »
OK, Cin, now I feel like a total fool.  I haven't watched wrestling in so long, I forgot what Steve Austin looked like.  *WOOPS*  Anyway, I hope your Stone gets as big as that. 

What a boring day.  Of course, I could have studied, but I didn't even crack a book today.  I haven't seen Liz, but have talked to her briefly. 

I wish I could find a part-time job.  I know, Cin, it's easier to find than a full-time one, but I need to have something to explain the gap from '95 until now.  You know, why I haven't been working.  I'm not going to go into the long drudgery about having AIDS. 

I hope everyone is having a good night. 
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« Reply #100 on: September 12, 2007, 09:00:42 PM »
Yep, date #2 will be this weekend--probably Sunday--something simple, like a movie or coffee in a nice spot with a view. Our phone chats are welcome layers in my life parfait. The pace is perfect.

The introspective review causing me to realize it would be better to advise when asked will require me to think more before I speak or write. For me, this is a timely exercise, to be sure.

If someone directly seeks my input, that's different. I'm aware of offering unsolicited commentary, my tendency to wax opinionated and my newfound want for balance.

Time for dinner. I'm starved!

Brevity leads to clarity and SOUP!!

Em
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« Reply #101 on: September 12, 2007, 10:19:47 PM »
Hiya Girls~~~~

I hope you all had a pretty decent day. I had an appointment with the primary doc today. Can't really say if it was good or bad, really. The results of the 24 hour urine and blood draw shows that I may be in the beginning stages of liver disease but not quite sure. The reason I say this is because both ID and Primary docs both ordered the same bloodwork but the results came back different. The primary docs percentages came back lower and the blood drawn was like a week apart. SO, Primary says not to worry but will be keeping an eye on my liver...Inside I was really screaming holy hell while on the outside I remained calm. I feel like I am slowly falling apart. He finally agreed to leave me off the metformin, will continue with the Actos and Glypizide. The Lantus pen is a last option but has to get a H1AC done. Even though my fasting sugars have been great, he wants an overall picture.

Then since I have changed pharmacies, I have been catching hell. I switched to a Rite- Aide closer to me but they just became a Rite- Aide but they are slow as hell. My Atripla and Ziagen was suppose to be ready on Monday. I went earlier today and got told to come back at 6, so when I did, it was still NOT ready but when they did fill it, they said the doctor wrote an illegal prescription. I am like  :o ....and WTF? I explained to the pharmacist that the ID doc faxed the scripts to their store and the pharmacist showed me the fax but all you saw in the background of the scripts was ILLEGAL!!!!! So, I asked the pharmacist what am I suppose to do cause I need these meds to live. He said he will be calling my ID doc tomorrow and I chimed in so the hell will I. But he gave me the meds anyway, Thank the Goddess. I was all psyched to take them tonight but remembered that my clinic nurse said call her first, DAMN!!! I also got my scripts for diflucan some stuff called Sulfamethoxazole/ TMP DS. I am assuming this is the Bactrim???? Looking over at my nightstand, I see that I am now taking 7 pills between the diabetes and hiv meds. Which makes me feel even more like I am falling apart. I will report tomorrow night on how Lady Atripla and Lord Ziagen do me.

It seems I am not the only one falling to pieces, I got an IM from Boo telling me about his ID appointment. He has to get a genotype test done. It seems like his meds aren't working but I get the feeling my Boo has a problem with adherence. He smokes the good green like me but is not eating much so they want to put him on Marinol. Maybe that and the green together will help him eat. But I feel so helpless and I guess a bit selfish. Helpless to help him and selfish because  I finally find a poz man and he seems to be doing worse than me. With the way things are going, I may lose him before I even get to see him.... :'( What? Am I not meant to have a slither of happiness? And when I do feel just a bit of contentment, it is to get stripped away from me? I swear life is a cruel bitch.... :(
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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« Reply #102 on: September 12, 2007, 10:39:45 PM »
GQ

I'm at a loss for words.

I hope your regimen agrees with you and that your liver is not in an early stage of anything but good functioning.

So, how many miles are between you and Boo?

Em

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« Reply #103 on: September 12, 2007, 11:13:42 PM »
Well Em, he is in Illinois and I am in Pa. I think it is at least a 12-13 hour drive....
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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« Reply #104 on: September 13, 2007, 07:12:09 AM »
Good morning girls:
 
Queen- yes, the Sulfa.. is the Bactrim.  That's how mine comes also.  It must have been really, really frustrating about the doc writing illegal scripts.  I wonder how that happened?  You know, about Boo, don't project what's going to happen with him.  He'll probably be fine.  I had to have a genotype test done and I was adherent.  I'm glad I did.  Then the doc could put me on meds that (hopefully) are actually working.  I should be getting my bloodwork results real soon so I'll know.  Just hang in there.  I was on Marinol like 14 years ago.  I didn't like it myself; it didn't make me feel stoned, just panicky.  But I understand it affects different people differently.  BTW, how is your thrush doing?  I hope it's getting better.

Still no smoking.  It's day #4.  I hope I continue to be smoke-free.  I can already breathe better.  I tried to do some pilates yesterday and man, did I ache afterwards!  I am sooo out of shape when it comes to doing any exercising.  I guess everyone has to start somewhere though. 

I hope everyone's having a nice, restful morning.  Am I the only one who gets up this early (7:15 a.m.)?
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« Reply #105 on: September 13, 2007, 08:30:36 AM »
BT

Nope, I'm an early riser! You are not alone. Great news on the smoking cessation---thank goodness the rewards come fast early. It's not like the tedium of dieting and weighing one's self and hoping for incremental changes.

The monetary gain is what surprised me so much and less illness per year.

Em

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #106 on: September 13, 2007, 09:42:50 AM »
Hello Ladies.    Queen , hope the medicines work well for you. i take atripla and it seems to be doing well for me. I have wild dreams sometimes and my ass is officially flat now but other than that........And those things are really no big deal. Maybe your scripts showed up illegal cause of the faxing. Hope it's sorted out soon and glad you were given them regardless.            Sorry about Boo, hope he improves as well.                                                                          Em , have a good time on your date.                                                  Betty, glad the nonsmoking thing is going so well. I need to quit but don't want to .                                                                                 Okay, I am talking to Florida 1 again. I know I said I wasn't but  he says he's single again so....... This is not helping my in heat to go away. He is so far away that unless he comes here there will be no helping it anyway.  I work all this weekend so maybe will get some extra to go buy some stuff we need. Gotta get Robert some new jeans for school. He doesn't need them yet but he only has 1 pair that fit. So I get to go shopping Monday, maybe I better go Sunday after work so he can try them on. I will check back in later. Doesn't AMG start today. I wish I could have gone. Oh well, next year maybe. Later,   Cristy

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #107 on: September 13, 2007, 04:31:51 PM »
I guess the thrush is doing better, my throat doesn't feel sore anymore. I have been taking the diflucan and the Bactrim, tonight is the beginning of my relationship with Atripla and Ziagen. Goddess, I hope I don't lose my ass, that is one of my best features... ;) I was told not to eat anything for 1-2 hours before taking the pill. That's gonna be a challenge when the munchies hit me.

The reason I don't think Boo was adhering is because he had told me that he stopped meds once before because they were doing a number on him. I haven't heard anything from him today, hopefully he will be feeling better. I will try to keep an open minf concerning his health but only eating soup and dropping weight can't be a good sign.

I get a call from the Assistant Principal of my son's school, whom I met before. Asking me why my son is not in school, don't these people communicate? I had to explain that I had been to the school twice last week explaining that my son works nights but because of his grades, they want him to go to night school which is not possible because he works. She seems surprised by this and then says well I'm not sure if we can do anything but I'll get back to you....WTF? Isn't a child's education important anymore? And the other school I tried to get him into hasn't called me back yet. I have called them twice. I am worried about being hit with a truancy for my son but I am doing everything humanly possible to get him back in school. What is left for me to do but play their waiting game. >:(

Other than that, it's same shit different day....Have a good one, ladies....
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #108 on: September 13, 2007, 09:56:24 PM »
Just a bit of a drive by post...I am chatting to Boo now on YIM. He apologizes about last night but was depressed about his doc visit. We talked some more this evening about things. This man is not eating, he should be weighing about 190, he weighs 136. I weigh more than him at 163. I was telling him that I have to start my meds tonight and we were discussing our cd4s, his is 24. Now this by no means scares me to the point of not talking to him and am still attracted to him. My heart is just breaking because of what he is going through. I told him to try to eat things that would put weight on him. Usually potatoes,rice, and bread is known to do that but what else out there can add weight? His doc is planning on putting him on Marinol. I hoping with that and the real shit will help also.
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #109 on: September 13, 2007, 10:21:03 PM »
Hi GQ

What about some of the nutrient/supplement drinks, milkshakes, bananas, etc. ? If cost is a factor for the drinks, perhaps his pharmacist or doc will know where he can obtain it at the best rate possible.

This might sound strange, but does he exercise at all---whether walking, free weights, biking, etc. ? If he can build up his activity level he might be able to kick his appetite into greater gear while adding hi-cal foods to his diet.

Em

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #110 on: September 13, 2007, 10:25:26 PM »
Hi Queen~~

What a shitty day, but let's talk about you first.  Beginnings of liver failure?  WTF could that be from?  Something hereditary?  You weren't on HIV meds, not that they would cause it, and I'm not even sure if diabetes would cause it, if left unchecked.  How long were you on oral meds for diabetes?  Do they have side effects known to cause liver trouble?  Jesus, I am sorry you had to get that news, and I am just hoping it doesn't turn into anything major.

As for your Rx being faxed to the pharmacy, what dumbass were you talking to there?  Cristy is absolutely right -- when you fax a document that has a likelihood of being forged (i.e. check or in this case, a doctor's script), the words "illegal" or "void" will show up in the "copy."  Same goes for if you put the doc on a copy machine, because there is only ONE original.  So you're pharmacy should be well aware of this and take the faxed script as valid, calling your doc's office to confirm it as such if they need to.

So have you taken your meds?  You will drop weight at first, trying to adhere to not eating.  I did when I started Sustiva.  Please don't worry about the "buzz" you may feel, its not that big a deal.  I have found that when I am awake and "work" through it, say by staying on the computer, it goes away within an hour.  If I lay down to go to sleep, it lasts longer.  I'm sure it has something to do with metabolism rate and how fast the med is being absorbed into your body.

I'm really sorry to hear about Boo.  Didn't you say he was 6'1" or 6'2"?  Weighing 136 is not good at all.  I am sure he is fatigued beyond belief.  I hope he has better luck with meds and adherence in the future because it could really change things around for him in a good way, and quickly.  Tell him not to give up!

As for your son and school, and working nights......keep a record of all of the calls you have made.  Sometimes its really the best thing, especially if you get stressed out, make a zillion calls, and then have trouble remembering exactly when they were.  Keep calling the other school every day and demand to talk to someone.  I explained to Stone today that sometimes the only way to get "customer service" is to bug the shit outta the people.  His electric outlets are all messed up in his apt, and last night the AC didn't work.  It was cool, so that was good, and the AC got fixed today.  He is hardly ever home, so having maintenance come out to look at the outlets isn't convenient.  Its supposed to rain tomorrow, so Stone won't be able to do his regular outdoors work, and he wants the electrical problem fixed tomorrow.  I told him to call, call, call and say he was waiting to get on the schedule as promised.

Cristy, there's no harm in talking with Florida or IMing, unless you are going to take it to the next level and meet the guy.  I am a firm believer that IMing is a great way to pass the time and get to know someone!

As for MY day.......well, shit on it all.  I knew I didn't get the Realty job cause they were supposed to call by Tuesday, but today I got a voice mail from the husband.  He was very kind and said I made a very strong impression on he and his wife in the interview.  I know all employers say that when you don't get the job, but he sounded really sincere, and asked if there was anything he could do, if I had any questions, to just call.  Well, YEAH, you could DO something and F-ing hire my ass!  My frustration aside, I am going to call tomorrow to speak with him and thank him for his time, but then.....I am going to ask for a small favor.  I am going to ask that if he hears through business networking of anyone who needs an Office Manager, to please put my name out there, give a copy of my resume, give my email, whatever.  I must get a job because............

I can't get much help at all from the Health Dept.  Nope, housing assistance only goes to people who pay RENT.  Well, shit on that.  Just because I could afford a mortgage 14 years ago when I bought this place with my husband doesn't mean its been easy for the past eleven years since he's died!  Now, I have no job, so how the hell am I supposed to support myself?  Same with copays for health.  If its not HIV related, no-go.  OK, that's fine I understand, but they will cover copays for GYN, eyes, dentist, primary, and ID docs.  Oh yeah, IF these docs are on their approved list.  There is basically one doc per category.  So, what do I get help with?  My frikkin $20 copay to my ID doc cause she's "approved."  Shit, she's the only ID doc in Frederick County.

Sorry to vent, but on a lighter note, I may be able to get free therapy (which I am starting to think I could benefit from...) from a woman who deals more with HIV.  I have a therapist that I went to for about seven years, last time was in Oct 2004, but he can't relate to the HIV issues.  I HAVE seen him downtown in Frederick a couple of times this year, and he has said to come back and see him.  He knows that my life has been turned upside down this year since Mr. Dumbass kicked me to the curb last December.

I am just so pissed that I can't get any financial help.  Its as if my mortgage is a burden.  What?  Am I supposed to sell my house to make ends meet?  Hell NO!  I have held on too long.  I may be able to get help with my electric bill and maybe the water bill, but all in all, this just blows, it just frikkin BLOWS.

I need to go check the employment listings, AGAIN, so I don't lose everything I have worked so hard to keep...my home, my Jeep, my sanity.

Ugh!  Thanks for listening, but tonight I am PISSED.

~Cindy

HIV+ since '93, 1/12 - CD4 785 and undet.   WOO-HOO!!

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #111 on: September 14, 2007, 03:49:22 AM »
Hi girls, a quick one before rushing off.

Queen, I am so sorry to hear your troubles, and now you got me worrying about Boo too. He needs to see a doc, see them more often, whatever, but something needs to be done. There are people on the other forums that know more than me, I can't help feeling that this is really urgent.

About your son I didn't quite get the ins and outs, just that's it's a massive beaurocratic headache. Again not much to offer but sympathies, I hope venting here helps you some.

Cind, I am so pissed you didn't get the job! I know it's their right blah blah blah, still I am pissed.

Not much more to say, I am reading everyone's posts for a while and just kind of overwhelmed with the difficulties you are facing. You know, I have been to so many countries where people think the USA is paradise. Europe is no safe haven (esp not for me, without any rights such as benefit), but I think the US is another ballgame. Very harsh.

Cind, This is JUST a suggestion, an idea rolling in my head, that if things keep going well with Stone,  maybe you should pool resources. Just like Queen moving in with her friend. It's cold out there, we need to stick together to keep warm with the people we care about, whether family, friends or partners.

It is almost too hard to read the women's b/c I identify so much (I do with the guys too, but the women hit closer to home). It's become so that I am speechless. My life isn't easy (actually very complicated),but when I read others, what can I say... Just this one thing: there are some amazing people on here, people who are extremely resilient and strong. I am scared for all of us, but I also know we have the power. You've already done everything each one of you have done and been through all that you have, I beleive it shows that.

To Betty, Cristy, Em, and everyone else, I'm always reading.

Hoping for a peaceful weekend,

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Re: Dating Thread Part V:Sisters from another mother....
« Reply #112 on: September 14, 2007, 06:50:56 AM »
Oh dear Queen, Boo's weight is definitely a cause for concern, especially with his low t-cell count.  He needs to see an HIV nutritionist.  Does he have a lot of diarrhea, or just no appetite?  13 or 14 yrs ago, I went down to 87 lbs (I'm 5'9").  I had Hospice coming in, was getting my documents "in order" (will etc.).  It was a long recovery.  I was put on Marinol.  It had a bad effect on me, because of the sesame oil in  it.  But that's just me.  I hope it works for Boo.  I really would suggest him seeing a nutritionist though, and preferably one that deals with HIV wasting.  About your son, wow.  What a mess of red tape.  Just keep calling the other school you're trying to get him in, every day.  Like Cin said, log all the calls you make about this situation in a notebook or something, so if anyone says "what have you been doing" you can show them. 

Cin, I am so sorry about your situation.  I know where I am the housing authority won't help with mortgages either.  I guess they figure if you have the credit and money to buy a house, you should be able to maintain it.  But what they fail to realize is that situations come up in people's lives, like in your life, where that becomes almost impossible.  It's too bad they don't offer more help.  I think it would keep the forclosure rate down.  Just keep plugging away at the job thing.  I'm sure it will work out.  You put out good karma, so something will work out.  Hang in there, my metal friend.   :-*

I hope everyone else is doing alright.  I'm going out to eat this evening with a friend of mine.  I'm taking Liz out next weekend.  I'm going to take her to a stuffed pizza joint.  Maybe we can take things to another level.  As far as the smoking, still no cigarettes.  I understand Cristy, about your not wanting to quit.  You really have to be mentally ready to do this shit.  It was really hard last night because one of the students in my class smokes the same thing I used to (Basic Menthol Light 100's).  I almost asked her for a cig, but didn't.  I have to write a paper for my class (Philosophy) that's due next week.  I hope it comes out o.k.  Have a good morning everyone!
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