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Offline Torchwood

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Complera, Severe Depression
« on: Yesterday at 10:31:52 AM »
Nov 1st was my 3yr anniversary of Complera. I have been suffering from acute depression for the past 6 months. Yesterday morning I almost put a bullet in my head. I am over that now. My survival mechanism for depression is to turn it into anger. I have been angry a lot this year. A lot of yelling and stomping around the house. I have never hit anyone, pretended to hit anyone, broken things, punched walls or been verbally abusive. I raise my voice and yell. My wife told me that EVERYONE in my life is afraid to tell me anything because they are afraid of my response. She says no one wants to be yelled at.

Today I asked my doctor for suggestions on taking something other than Complera. We'll see what he says.

Yes, there is a lot of other things going on with me and more that I will never reveal. Quit the benzo's after 8.5 years, still feeling that shit and my CNS recovering. Wife and I are separated and I am living an hour away, on a mattress tossed on the floor in an empty house where the only 4 pieces of furniture are a TV, TV stand, folding table and a desk chair. It is just a miserable, lonely existence by myself. I no longer have a career. If we were to split up, I am just screwed. Found out that while I was gone for 2 weeks earlier this year running a yearly charity event I do, the new CPA told my wife that 1 of 3 people were stealing money from her. I was one of those 3 people. CPA later found the missing transactions. That CPA is going to be fired soon.

Spent last night at the house with my wife. We're working on things. Started marriage counseling this week. Today should be interesting. My wife has her therapy session today. We are both in therapy individually. I will also add that I am not normally a depressed. I also dumped my psychiatrist and am going to get a new one. Currently taking it day by day.
Discovered 4/2006
VL: 1600
CD4: 1005
Started Complera 10/2011
VL: 48,500
CD4: 570
VL: Undetectable
CD4: 890
VL: Undetectable
CD4: 895
VL: Undetectable
CD4: 1193
VL: Undetectable
CD4: 1461
CD4: 1273
VL: Undetectable
CD4: 1788
VL: Undetectable
CD4: 1532
VL: Undetectable

Offline Almost2late

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Re: Complera, Severe Depression
« Reply #1 on: Yesterday at 10:42:01 AM »
Hi Torch, sorry to hear of the rough time you've been having but good to see your trying to patch things up with your wife, wish you luck..

Have you thought of maybe asking your doc to switch you to Tivicay/Truvada?.. It might be the rilpivirine in complera that's depressing you.

“Nothing in the world can one imagine beforehand, not the least thing, everything is made up of so many unique particulars that cannot be forseen.”
― Nostradamus

Offline Jmarksto

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Re: Complera, Severe Depression
« Reply #2 on: Yesterday at 04:01:52 PM »
Torchwood;  Sorry to hear of your difficulties, but it sounds like you are making some good steps to improve things - such as marriage counseling.  My experience is that marriage counseling is a great thing when both parties really try. 

Complera.....I am in the process of switching off Complera (I have some reserve that I want to use up first) because of similar (albiet less severe) issues you are having.  I am switching to Truvada and Tivicay.  My advice would be to switch off Complera as fast as possible.

I wish you well,
03/15/12 Negative
06/15/12 Positive
07/11/12 CD4 790          VL 4,000
08/06/12 CD4 816/38%   VL 49,300
08/20/12 Started Complera
11/06/12 CD4   819/41% VL 38
02/11/13 CD4   935/41% VL UD
06/06/13 CD4   816/41% VL UD
10/28/13 CD4 1131/45%  VL 25
02/25/14 CD4   792/37%  VL UD
07/09/14 CD4 1004/39%   VL UD
11/03/14 CD4   711/34%   VL UD


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