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Online GSOgymrat

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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #50 on: June 11, 2007, 02:05:34 AM »
Glad to hear things are improving. Just take it easy and don't try to do too much too fast.

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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #51 on: June 11, 2007, 09:26:25 AM »
that's why she prescribed every fours as needed! lol

Lucky you!   ;)
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Offline sweetasmeli

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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #52 on: June 11, 2007, 10:56:25 AM »
Oops I could have swore I already posted here but apparently not. (Seriously think I'm losing the plot. ::))

Sorry to hear you've been having such a crap time if it, Jeromy. Hoping you continue to feel better and better.

Healing hugs
Melia :-*
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Offline pozguy75

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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #53 on: June 11, 2007, 01:50:26 PM »
Good news....The PICC line came out today!! No more IV antibiotics...now I need to start thinking about HEP C treatment...but, I am getting stronger each day...but I am taking my time...no rushing things...that's how I got sick in the first place.
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #54 on: June 11, 2007, 01:54:56 PM »
congrats! and good thinking. Take good care of yourself~ ;D
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #55 on: June 11, 2007, 01:56:01 PM »
 :D  Hurray....good news indeed!

Keep getting better so you can make your way to California and I'll share some of my meds with you ( I promiss you California's homegrown  is a lot better than Marinol...LOL  ;) )

Rich
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #56 on: June 11, 2007, 01:56:59 PM »
Rich, sounds like a deal!
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #57 on: June 11, 2007, 02:35:36 PM »
Hope you are strong enough to make it for our September gathering.
If not, there is always another time..and remember...San Francisco is home to wonderful PORN  ::)
Rich
(who heard that nearly every leading studio that makes gay adult content now is centered in the city)
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #58 on: June 11, 2007, 02:49:51 PM »
rich, if I come that way...can I live with you?  ;)
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #59 on: June 11, 2007, 02:58:40 PM »
rich, if I come that way...can I live with you?  ;)

Oh Jeromy,
I don't even do sleep overs :P.
but after watching you, I may reconsider  :-*

Rich
(who is afraid if they sleep over, they will never leave.... :-\)
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #60 on: June 11, 2007, 02:59:33 PM »
Hope you are strong enough to make it for our September gathering.
If not, there is always another time..and remember...San Francisco is home to wonderful PORN  ::)
Rich
(who heard that nearly every leading studio that makes gay adult content now is centered in the city)

Oh, haven't you heard?  Jeromy and I are due to be filming a scene together once we're there.
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« Reply #61 on: June 11, 2007, 03:04:12 PM »
Oh, haven't you heard?  Jeromy and I are due to be filming a scene together once we're there.
Need a fluffer?  Extra? You name it, I am here to help ! ;D
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #62 on: June 11, 2007, 03:47:23 PM »
Get in line, Rich (behind me, that is)!  ;D

David
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06-01-06 CD4 462 @24.3% VL > 100,000
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01-08-07 CD4 429 @26.8% VL 1872!
05-08-07 CD4 478 @28.1% VL 740
08-03-07 CD4 509 @31.8% VL 370
11-06-07 CD4 570 @30.0% VL 140
02-21-08 CD4 648 @32.4% VL 600
05-19-08 CD4 695 @33.1% VL < 48 undetectable!
08-21-08 CD4 725 @34.5%
11-11-08 CD4 672 @39.5%
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...MELT Down
« Reply #63 on: June 11, 2007, 05:24:15 PM »
Okay...just had a melt down...

Because of the hospital stay, I haven't paid my rent yet and now being on disability...I have no idea when I will be paid! I know I will not be getting a pay check on the 15th...God, I hope I get something before or just after...

I just got off the phone with my brother...he is going to help me with this month's rent....but I think I just had a nervous melt down...

I am just so scared and just had a crying, snotty melt down with my brother...God, I HATE THIS DISEASE and what it can do to one's emotional state. I just want someone to hold me right now...I need arms to fall into and cry....

I want so badly to be well...to not have to worry about how I am going to get paid...or when.

I am sorry if I sound like a whiner...I just am very scared of the unknown and what my options are...

I just needed to post because it seems to help.
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« Reply #64 on: June 11, 2007, 05:33:08 PM »
 Jeromy,

You are just going through a rough patch aren't you? :'(  Try to look at it this way...everything that could possibly go wrong has happened...from now on it can only get better.
Check out what services are available for you in your area.  I know that many places offer support such as food banks, prescription assistance, etc...  and nothing to be ashamed of ( I used such a program when I was first diagnosed).
Keep venting...cry, scream, through things around..eventually you will laugh.

Rich
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #65 on: June 11, 2007, 05:50:54 PM »
Hope you are strong enough to make it for our September gathering.
If not, there is always another time..and remember...San Francisco is home to wonderful PORN  ::)
Rich
(who heard that nearly every leading studio that makes gay adult content now is centered in the city)

I beg your pardon, but the real porn capital save the former socialist republics, is Los Angeles and other neighbors in the wonderful  ;)  San Fernando Valley. "The City" is too delicate for such a prize.

Oh...and %$#&$%, Get Well Jeromy! 8)  -megasept (Valley Booster?)

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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #66 on: June 11, 2007, 07:18:00 PM »
Jeromy,

Your last message has got me pretty emotional as it was almost a year ago that I was in a very similar place...I'm happy to hear that your brother is helping you with the rent.   I think you are dead right about needing someone to hold you right now  - non sexual and non flirting - what you need now is people who can just be there for you. 

Is there anyone at all in your area that you can have stay with you (or visa versa_) for a few days?

Iggy

Offline pozguy75

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« Reply #67 on: June 11, 2007, 08:06:06 PM »
I do...I am going to ask a couple of people...I just want that feeling of being protected...I want to feel safe...
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #68 on: June 11, 2007, 08:42:25 PM »
Man you're going through a series of ups and downs you must be very tired  :(

I hope too that you will be in shape to attend the AMG in september, you'd be the third porn star I personally meet. The first one became a bf, the second one I sucked in public at Folsom Fair, so I can't wait to meet the 3rd :)

Hugz  :-* :-* :-*

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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #69 on: June 11, 2007, 08:49:55 PM »
Jeromy, have you touched base with your case worker/ASO just to make sure if or if not there's any special assistance short term or whatever for someone in your position.  At least if there is you can have the paperwork filled out, etc.  At the very least you'll know what is out there.

I went through a similar bad patch about five years ago.  Hope things get better quick for you.
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...MELT Down
« Reply #70 on: June 12, 2007, 09:07:10 AM »

I just got off the phone with my brother...he is going to help me with this month's rent....but I think I just had a nervous melt down...
Thank god for family!  So glad to hear he's helping you!

I am just so scared and just had a crying, snotty melt down with my brother...God, I HATE THIS DISEASE and what it can do to one's emotional state. I just want someone to hold me right now...I need arms to fall into and cry....
Don't be so hard on yourself you've been through so much lately and you are so allowed to cry!

I want so badly to be well...to not have to worry about how I am going to get paid...or when.
It must have been in the air cause just yesterday I told Jeffrey I'm sick of being sick! Tired of feeling blind and sick of being disabled!


I am sorry if I sound like a whiner...I just am very scared of the unknown and what my options are...
UNDERSTANDABLE!

I just needed to post because it seems to help.
Post away we are here to listen!

HUGS

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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #71 on: June 12, 2007, 10:33:25 AM »
Jeromy.

when the sky is falling, there is nothing better than a nice warm blanket to crawl under.  i hope you get some understanding arms wrapped around you real soon.  In the meantime, you've got us here and, thank god, that wonderful brother of yours. 

I love brothers.

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« Reply #72 on: June 12, 2007, 02:31:03 PM »
sweety, you know if we were all closer to you,  you wouldn't be able to tolerate all the warm hugs and love you would get from each and every one of us here at AM. And you'd no doubt be drowning in chicken soup! ;D

I wish you well.

Paul
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5/06   ?? /37000                     8/07 491/55000/24%    9/09 913/U/39%
8/06   349/9500 25%              11/07 515/68000/24     2/10 845/U/38%
9/06   507/16,000 30% !          2/08  516/116k/22%    7/10 906/80/39%
12/06 398/29000 26%             Start Atripla 3/08
3/07   402/80,000 29%            4/08  485/undet!/27
4/07   507/35,000 25%            7/08 625/UD/34%
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #73 on: June 12, 2007, 10:06:52 PM »
Jeromy,  its just so new for you.   These things we are use to obtaining or taking for granted, well it just aloof right now Jer....  Once you find how disability works (by talking to them) your fears will deminish.   Your brother is there to help you through until things become clearer, when you become well'er....  Keep reaching out your hand Jeromy.   It will always be met and pulled in for that long awaited hug..   Keep your wits about you and please catch up on your crying...  It does a body good...

Love,

Eric

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« Reply #74 on: June 13, 2007, 04:01:05 PM »
Jeromy, have you touched base with your case worker/ASO just to make sure if or if not there's any special assistance short term or whatever for someone in your position.  At least if there is you can have the paperwork filled out, etc.  At the very least you'll know what is out there.

I went through a similar bad patch about five years ago.  Hope things get better quick for you.

I don't have one...I should probably get one though...
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« Reply #75 on: June 13, 2007, 04:05:09 PM »
Jeromy, how are you doing today honey?

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« Reply #76 on: June 13, 2007, 04:13:32 PM »
Jeromy, how are you doing today honey?

Melia x

I am tired...but I think I am getting better...I am venturing out more, an hour or so at a time, trying not to overdo anything. But now I am ready for a nap...
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« Reply #77 on: June 13, 2007, 04:16:18 PM »
I am tired...but I think I am getting better...I am venturing out more, an hour or so at a time, trying not to overdo anything. But now I am ready for a nap...

Hang in there babe.  That is just the beginning, you'll get stronger each day, just conserve your energy best ya can.  I know it's tough, but think how great it will be to get back to where ya were before.
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« Reply #78 on: June 13, 2007, 04:21:45 PM »
I am tired...but I think I am getting better...I am venturing out more, an hour or so at a time, trying not to overdo anything. But now I am ready for a nap...

Well just you take it easy. And happy napping. Naps rule. ;)

Wishing you all better soon and sending you healing hugs
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« Reply #79 on: June 13, 2007, 04:45:55 PM »
glad you are feeling a little better. keep on keepin on
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« Reply #80 on: June 13, 2007, 10:43:53 PM »
Jeromy.  So saddened to read of your roller-coaster existence these last few weeks.  I know what you mean about just being held by someone.  Virtual arms and a firm shoulder are the best I can offer at the moment.

Wishing you a speedy recovery through this brief rough spot!

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« Reply #81 on: June 14, 2007, 09:08:55 AM »
Hey Jeromy-

I wish more than anything I could give you a really great big hug that says, "we are all here for you".  I know where you've been and the absolute frustration of being kicked when you're down...whether its by the virus or the landlord.  I am praying for you sweets, you can get through this.

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« Reply #82 on: June 16, 2007, 12:47:36 AM »
I don't have one...I should probably get one though...

Okay, my ASO sucks! Maybe I shouldn't say that, but, they wouldn't even talk to me really...why? Because I have a job, insurance...in other words, I am not dirt poor with no other means...all I wanted was a housing list...but, nope, nadda..."come back when you are homeless, no money, no job, and no medical insurance then we can help you...but in the mean time, look at all the pictures of the volunteers and the wonderful cakes and events we put together!"

Do I sound a little irritated? Well I am...guess I should think of myself as a lucky for having a job and insurance...but not even to really talk to me....they could have at least told me such on the phone when I called...but my God the guy who answered the phone, couldn't even tell me the address of the place! Lord, I wonder what needs to happen next!

Anyway, I think I have my living situation resolved, I spoke with my building management and laid it all out on the table: I have AIDS, thought I was moving in with someone, but his BF is moving in and now I don't want to homeless, is there an available apartment for me to move into? And yes...(cue chior: haleluiah) Two floors up, end unit, and bedroom and bathroom are all on the same floor! I should be able to move in a week or so...


So with that stress behind me...hopefully...I have decided to start the hepatitis treatment next week.

I am on disability already, and I will be flying out to see family over the 4th of July so, I figured...the time is right, do it now, nip it before it nips me!

So, I am just trying to keep my dinner down...and lying in bed...thinking what a terrific resource this place is!! Thank you all again for your support...
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« Reply #83 on: June 16, 2007, 04:33:42 PM »
Jeromy,

I'm glad to hear that your living situation is under control.  That alone should take a lot of stress out of your life and help you give 100% of your time and energy to focus on your full recovery.
You have all the right to be frustrated with the ASO situation.  The situation is terrible because of the huge budget cuts from the government.  Basically the money is not going towards anything that "condones or support" inappropriate behaviour >>no sex education (gay or straight) only abstinence, no funding for HIV education/prevention [condoms, needles, STD's  (specially for the already HIV+, gays and intravenous drug users)]<<  Bottom line is they (ASO) have so little that they can only afford to do little for those who trully have nothing, and I mean NOTHING! 
I could go on and on about this..... >:( >:( >:(
Anyway.....
Despite your experience with the system, you sound better every time you post, I hope I am right about that :)
Keep getting stronger and healthy


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« Reply #84 on: June 16, 2007, 05:37:30 PM »
Jeromy...
Reading each one of your posts, i was speechless...
Sometimes no words of wisdom help, but u managed to live through it and u r getting better!!!
i am relieved to read at the end...
Take care bud.
from one ocean away o sends u a big hug.

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« Reply #85 on: June 18, 2007, 01:32:18 PM »
With each day that passes, I seem to be better...but the nausea...I am still dealing with the nausea. And one other thing I am noticing is, my appetite seems to be declining as well...I mean, I get hungry but not overly hungry.

I have my follow up tomorrow, but the good news out of all of this is the latest blood cultures are negative and the staph is gone! So, now I can focus on the Hep C treatment and start rebuilding my lean muscle...

So, I will continue update with new information as I get it!

Thanks for being here!
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« Reply #86 on: June 18, 2007, 01:54:25 PM »
Hey, that's good news, Jeromy! See!........it's a slow process but recovery and strength do return. Keep up the good work--the good progress.
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« Reply #87 on: June 18, 2007, 02:06:18 PM »
Jeromy
I have just read your latest posts and am glad to hear your health has improved.
Good news !!!
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« Reply #88 on: June 18, 2007, 02:12:59 PM »
See?  Jeromy is a prime reason that the production of nandrolone decanoate should not have been halted for HIV patients.  Someone who lost as much weight as he has recently would benefit greatly from this, and would most likely regain the weight in a matter of six months.
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« Reply #89 on: June 18, 2007, 02:21:23 PM »
One tiny step forwad is always better than two steps back! That's great news about the staph infection now tackle the Hep C. Maybe your doctor can give you something for the nausea. As long as you're not getting sick from it you really need to make yourself eat even if it's junk food such as milkshakes ice cream or cookies to pack on the calories. You can do it Jeromy!

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« Reply #90 on: June 18, 2007, 02:25:51 PM »
Well done Jeromy!  :)
13/03/07 1er diagnóstico /Peso: 79kg
19/04/07 CD4: 494 /CViral: ?? /Peso: 80kg
19/07/07 CD4: 659 /CViral: ?? /Peso: 79.5kg
06/03/08 CD4: 573 (después de meses muy deprimido) /CViral: ?? /Peso: 79kg
17/09/08 CD4: ?? /CViral: ?? /Peso: 84Kg
06/02/09 CD4: ?? /CViral: ?? /Peso: 85Kg /HCV: Neg /HBV: Neg.
07/03/09 CD4: ?? /CViral: ?? /Peso: 87Kg / Gym 3días/semana y Natación 2días/semana.
12/05/09 CD4: 470 /Cviral: ?? /Peso: 87Kg.
08/07/09 CD4: ? /CViral: ? /Peso: 77Kg.
09/12/09 CD4: 510 /CViral: ? /Peso: 78kg. No medicinas aún
10/01/10 CD4: ? /CViral: ? /Peso: 76Kg.
15/05/10 CD4: 320 /CViral: ? /Peso: 76Kg.
01/02/11 CD4: 291 /CViral: ? /Peso: 78kg.
05/05/11 CD4: 366 /CViral: ? /Peso: 78kg.
27/07/11 CD4: 255 /CViral: 138000 /Peso: 78kg.

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« Reply #91 on: June 18, 2007, 02:25:57 PM »
Hi Jeromy,

I'm happy to hear you are getting better... I knew you would  ;)
now as far as....

...but the nausea...I am still dealing with the nausea. And one other thing I am noticing is, my appetite seems to be declining as well...

Here's my solution for that ( and I deal with nausea EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!)


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« Reply #92 on: June 18, 2007, 02:41:18 PM »
Hi Jeromy,

I'm happy to hear you are getting better... I knew you would  ;)
now as far as....

Here's my solution for that ( and I deal with nausea EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!)


I am still taking the Marinol...but it seems the later it get the worse the nausea gets...
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« Reply #93 on: June 18, 2007, 02:49:45 PM »
Jeromy,

Glad to hear you are starting to feel better and the staph infection is gone. Hopefully you will get the nausea under control real soon!

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Teresa
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« Reply #94 on: June 18, 2007, 02:49:51 PM »
That's good news Jeromy. Just continue to take care of yourself. Don't over do it because you feel better.  ;)

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« Reply #95 on: June 18, 2007, 02:57:31 PM »
Hello, Glad to hear that you are feeling better. Now, if we can get your appetite built back up. Sorry the nausea has been bad. If the green doesn't help or marinol, maybe some ginger ale or sprite might help. Probably not if it's that bad but maybe worth a try.  Have a great visit with your family and I hope the Hep C treatment is not too hard on you.  keep us updated.  Cristy

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« Reply #96 on: June 18, 2007, 07:29:34 PM »
Hey J...
I read the entire thread.  My thoughts are with you.  I hope you have been able to find someone to put his arms around you and hold you ... make you feel safe.   

Please keep fighting, and remember, people care about you.

S
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« Reply #97 on: June 18, 2007, 08:47:24 PM »
Hey J...
I read the entire thread.  My thoughts are with you.  I hope you have been able to find someone to put his arms around you and hold you ... make you feel safe.   

Please keep fighting, and remember, people care about you.

S

Hey there..thanks for the thoughts! And yes, I have found a pair of arms....and they are strong, sexy, and protective...I am so looking forward to waking up ten years from now, with those same arms around me...I have a feeling he feels the same...


I am just very apprehensive about tomorrow's appointment...but I will post when I get home and let you all know
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« Reply #98 on: June 18, 2007, 10:38:38 PM »
Hang in there babe!  Think positive, no pun intended.  You're a brave guy with a big heart, the rain clouds will clear soon  ;)

Charlie
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« Reply #99 on: June 19, 2007, 05:52:43 PM »
I had the most wonderful Dr's appt today...

So here's the bottom line:

Bacteria gone,
CD4: 670
VL: undetectable

HEP C: last month the VL was 1,810,000, liver functions: ALT: 1280
Today: VL 20, ALT 27

I just can't believe this wonderful turn of events! I am excited and happy...

and I have a guy that loves me...I am over the moon! My smile today matches the avatar!

Dx 2005
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