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Author Topic: I want to date!!!  (Read 1628 times)

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Offline Peter6836

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I want to date!!!
« on: April 29, 2007, 09:02:19 PM »
I have never been good alone. I have been married to woman for 19 yrs, I have raised my children for the most part alone. My kids moved in with me 10 yrs ago and lived with me and I cared for them. When I got sick my friend moved in with me he was a blessing. But he does not drive, and I take care of him, he does not work. My children still look to me for support. I teach in the inner city of Detroit, and try to give my all. Since I was diagnosed I have been ill aids right away. I have been since told I was an unsatisfactory teacher. Yet I have been promoted. I support my caregiver, and my children. I have never been really promiscuous, I am bi polar and have felt moments of manic and desires. I want to be loved. To feel someone in my arms and in my bed. I lived 19 years with a woman in a dysfunctional relationship and never fooled around. Now I, in my quest for love became hiv positive. I still want to experience love. I am afraid to go out to a bar, to meet others to put my self out there. I think that I am tainted, I often refer to myself as and aids infested person that no one would want. What can I do. I feel that everyday is a fight. A financial fight because I have been hospitalized four years in a row. A social fight, I do not feel worthy of love. A mortality fight, how long do I have. I have never been sexual, I have not enjoyed my sexuality. I want so much to do that. Now I have hiv to deal with. My children still make me feel guilty for who I am. My X wants me to take care of everyone including her. My friend and caregiver has nothing except me. My family expects me to be the best a person can be. On top of it all I am used to living a certain kind of life and am not willing to give it up. I know good things, I have lived a good life, I have experienced the wonders of culture, intelligence, and creative spirituality. How do I continue. How does life supply what is needed and desired. I refuse to give up.
My daughter is a joy in my life she feeds my soul. My sons are my soul, they are why I will not give in. My parents caress me and hold me daily. My sister helps me to stand tall. My friend makes me continue living with dignity.
Yet I still want to love, someone, I still want to sleep with someone, I still want to feel passion. Will this happen?

Offline Peter6836

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Re: I want to date!!!
« Reply #1 on: April 29, 2007, 09:35:32 PM »
Well I just took my Atripla, Tuesday is my bithday and I am going out to the club. My friend, my cregiver does not work well with guilt i used that to convince him to come out with me. I put on my best outfit and am looking forward to some attention.

Offline ndrew

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Re: I want to date!!!
« Reply #2 on: April 30, 2007, 12:11:55 AM »
That's what I like to hear!

I need to go out and get some attention myself.   Hope you have a great time!!


Offline incognito

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Re: I want to date!!!
« Reply #3 on: April 30, 2007, 05:12:12 AM »
hey peter,  thank you for sharing such intimate feelings.  check out groups that share interests you have. it is a great way to meet a partner on more neutral ground than a bar (nothing against bars, enjoy, but an additional option).  ive met a lot of great people (and some past partners) in volunteer organizations and hiking, running, skiing groups.  dont give up.  your needs are valid and you deserve to connect on a physical, sexual and emotional level.  when you do it makes the rest of your life much more enjoyable!
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