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CalvinC:

Sorry guys, this is a bit of a sob story, but I'm again distraught and crying.

I'm reading Wharton's The House of Mirth, the part where Lily realizes she has to say goodbye to her old self:

     "And you have come to it now?" Selden asked.
     "I shall have to come to it--presently. But there is something else I must come
to first." Lily paused again, trying to transmit to her voice the steadiness of
her recovered smile. "There is some one I must say goodbye to. Oh, not you--we
are sure to see each other again--but the Lily Bart you knew. I have kept her
with me all this time, but now we are going to part, and I have brought her
back to you--I am going to leave her here. When I go out presently she will not
go with me. I shall like to think that she has stayed with you--and she'll be
no trouble, she'll take up no room."
     She went toward him, and put out her hand, still smiling. "Will you let her
stay with you?" she asked.
     He caught her hand, and she felt in his the vibration of feeling that had not
yet risen to his lips. "Lily--can't I help you?" he exclaimed.
     She looked at him gently. "Do you remember what you said to me once? That you
could help me only by loving me? Well--you did love me for a moment; and it
helped me. It has always helped me. But the moment is gone--it was I who let it
go. And one must go on living. Goodbye."


In one fell swoop, I lost myself and the man of my dreams. F**k f**k f**k. I can't stop crying.

Andrew (sorry for the pity party, but it's a rough day)

Moffie65:
Andrew,

Self realization is sometimes very traumatic, but in the end, totally worth the trip.  ;D

In Love!

DanielMark:
Hang in there Andrew. Nothing in this life lasts forever - not the good and not the bad.

There are still brighter days ahead.

Daniel

dario:
Only the very special and the very best are capable of such feelings.  Only the hearts of true lovers throb and  shed tears! The more you love, the deeper the depths of the abyss! Yet the risk is worth taking.

Bucko:

--- Quote from: dario on June 22, 2006, 06:42:37 PM ---Only the very special and the very best are capable of such feelings.  Only the hearts of true lovers throb and  shed tears! The more you love, the deeper the depths of the abyss! Yet the risk is worth taking.

--- End quote ---

Such a beautiful quote, such a heartfelt thread!

You touched deeply, Calvin, and you as well, dario.

Brent
(Who loves a good cry)

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