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Offline chodelyode

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Now I may have done it
« on: June 24, 2007, 06:45:12 PM »
   OK here it goes.   just to give you some background i am 27 married for 6 years and had a dumbass attack last night. I was at a risque strip club last night and there is several things that i shouldn't have done that i did. First i paid a African American stripper 60 dollars for sex when she was doing a lap dance ( i only mention she is African American because reading some articles it suggests they are at a higher risk --why is beyond me iam not a racists person)she put on a condom but i was nervous and drunk and could not achieve a full erection. she put the condom on in the booth so i do not know how well but it was covering the head we had sex for about i min in anxiety and nervousness i did ejaculate went to the bath room and took it off -i did not see any skin exposed or holes but it only takes a small hole so i have been told ---i have one child and one on the way---and i know it's no excuse but i wanted a night out to raise some hell since we had just found out of my wife being pregnant---should i be tested ?---if so should i avoid sex with the wife until the results come back ---i can not believe i did this ---appreciate your advice very much ---thanks for the good you do

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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #1 on: June 24, 2007, 07:06:04 PM »
cho,

You did the right thing and used a condom. Condoms have been proven to prevent hiv infection. There are no such things as "small holes" in condoms. When they break, they do so in a very noticeable way. The head of your penis was covered so you were protected.

You do not need to test for hiv over this incident.

Ann
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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #2 on: June 25, 2007, 09:16:46 PM »
    I know i probally shouldn't worry as much as i am but it's hard---I just keep thinking of murphys law and that i did a bad thing and i should deserve the worst.My wifes pregnant and i don't want to hurt her or the unborn baby--and all the possibilities that could have went wrong --i know if she did the deed with me god knows how many times she does it in a shift---i wish i could take back what i done but i can't

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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #3 on: June 25, 2007, 10:18:19 PM »
I just keep thinking of murphys law and that i did a bad thing and i should deserve the worst.

Cho,

As Ann notes you did the right thing by using a condom and as a result you don't need to test for HIV.

You do need to understand that HIV is not a punishment for bad behaviour. It's just a virus, not a judgement from an angry god.

MtD

Offline chodelyode

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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #4 on: June 26, 2007, 03:49:13 PM »
  I just feel like i have done a real horrible thing ===maybe because i have not had very many sexual encounters----But i feel as if i put my unborn child and wife at risk and do not know what to do to cure it---six weeks seems so far away and 3 months even longer .I am starting to obsess about it and when i something happens that should make me happy i instantly think oh wait I might have screwed my whole life up anyways ---i know alot of people probally feel that way that are in the same boat ---any suggestions ---sorry to be bothersome ---i hope you don't get angry --i do apriciate your help since you don't even know me -----peace out

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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #5 on: June 26, 2007, 03:55:08 PM »
Chod,

It sounds like you're having an attack of the guilts - and we cannot help you with that here. If you can't forgive yourself and move on, then you might benefit from seeing a counselor about it.

You used a condom and therefore you were not at risk for hiv infection.

Ann
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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #6 on: June 27, 2007, 04:05:29 PM »
   I probally wouldn't be as concerned if i were totally erect and had put the condom on myself -the thing is i have heard there not as effective unless ypur fully erect --Is that mainly to prevent slippage?---i am really guilt stricken --add with that a paranoid disposition in general---
are tests at 6 weeks for the most part cocnlusive?-----Now i surf the web for info and alot of sites try to scare the shit out of you --ya know---also the packaging on condoms offer no numbers just they help to prevent the risk of getting hiv-----So many vague terms and it's like they feed into what if's ---thanks for your help

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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #7 on: June 27, 2007, 04:16:15 PM »
Looking for statistical numbers feeds the "what ifs" more than anything, in my opinion.  You are having guilt attacks.  Nothing from what you describe indicates a cause for HIV alarm.  And yes, the fully erect thing has to do with the increased chance of one coming off. 
AIDS isn't for sissies.

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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #8 on: June 27, 2007, 07:43:00 PM »
cho,

You did the right thing and used a condom. Condoms have been proven to prevent hiv infection. There are no such things as "small holes" in condoms. When they break, they do so in a very noticeable way. The head of your penis was covered so you were protected.

You do not need to test for hiv over this incident.

Ann


Reread Ann's sage advice. You were never at risk.

And how the hell would you "Harm" your unborn baby? This hysteria only proves the guilt that weighs so heavily in this entire thread. Pick up the pieces and move on.

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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #9 on: June 27, 2007, 10:34:40 PM »
You need to know that wallowing in these totally unwarranted fears in terms of HIV is neither a tribute to your higher character nor an expression of love to others in your life including your forthcoming baby.

The very best thing you can do for all concerned is to see clearly what you did, take a good deep breath, let it go and get on with your life.

Anything other or less than that is just wanton self-indulgence, so lay off of that. It's bad for everyone's health. No kidding. 
Andy Velez

Offline chodelyode

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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #10 on: June 29, 2007, 02:32:47 PM »
   I do appreciate everyone for the work you do and all the posts ---it does help but unfortunately only for a short period of time i may need counseling to prevent panic attacks and deal with this ---I've just always been an unlucky sort of person and this leads me to believe the worst will always happen to me --I'm assuming there is nothing else you can tell me that will help since you have already told me in your expert opinions i do not have anything to worry about but i do thank you for your time ----best of luck to you all and thank you ----If you do read this please post something so i know you have read this i do read the old posts throughout the day to try to help myself

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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #11 on: June 29, 2007, 02:44:00 PM »
If you have trouble shaking your fears seek professional mental health counseling.

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« Reply #12 on: June 29, 2007, 03:15:51 PM »
Yes, we've read your latest posting.

Go get yourself some professional help and see about changing what you consider to be your bad luck. You know life is tough. If you expect it to be otherwise you will constantly be disappointed. We're all unlucky except when we're not. If you get what I am saying.
Andy Velez

Offline chodelyode

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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #13 on: July 01, 2007, 10:37:59 PM »
   I know you all probally hate to see my name or another post from me ---Yes i probally now do need mental counseling over this and other probally obvious reasons you all plainly see related to anxiety guilt and overall self esteem issues. I guess i have always have thought of myself as a good father, husband(contrary to hear lately) and a good hearted person.Still it is beyond me why i did what i did and i do take accountability for the bad situation i put myself in and decision i made. I know that if i were not married , no children to support and one in the "oven" so to speak i would not be as concerned. I try hard to contain the fear and guilt but have a hard time due to my responsibilities and the thought of my child (soon to be children) growing up without one parent as a result of my poor decision making. I am not a bad person in my heart i know that --but i have made bad decisions as i know everyone does from time to time i just hope this one does not have a catastrophic result any more than pain staken stress and mental anguish i know burden and punish my self with on a daily basis.  I do not know why i post this i guess as an outlet ---i do appreciate you all given me this out let and opportunity to place these thoughts somewhere. Also i appreciate your very well thought out posts and comments that are clearly compassionate and come from the heart---you are a deep man Andy and everyone at some time or another should hear some of your insights and the way you break it down to the brutal truth. ( No offense to anyone else)-peace out

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« Reply #14 on: July 02, 2007, 03:58:49 AM »
chod,

Hiv isn't a punishment sent down to men who stray from their partners and it isn't some set-up to cause you to be found out when you've played away. It is a virus that is transmitted under very specific circumstances, circumstances that did not occur in your incident.

If you need help dealing with your feelings of guilt, as well as the echos of your childhood, the place to get that help is with a therapist, face to face, not here on the internet.

You had protected intercourse and therefore were not at risk for hiv infection.

Ann
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Nymphomaniac: a woman as obsessed with sex as an average man. Mignon McLaughlin

HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts

Offline chodelyode

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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #15 on: July 06, 2007, 04:02:18 PM »
   It has been a couple of weeks now and i do feel a little better than b-4 --I think you continuosly for your input as i have over and over again ---i know you say i did not have a test warrented sexual encounter --but i do plan on testing because it seems to be the only way to put this behind me ---my question is is six weeks a accurate time for testing or should i wait for 12 weeks ---i keep getting conflicting info when i look it up ----thanks a million for helping me thru this difficult time

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Re: Now I may have done it
« Reply #16 on: July 06, 2007, 04:41:07 PM »
If you are going to test for self preservation then take the test at 12/13 weeks post exposure. If you take it before you'll be back here not believing your results.

Offline chodelyode

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« Reply #17 on: July 07, 2007, 07:43:13 PM »
  REally i had read on some websites like Medhelp that 6 weeks is 98 percent that u are not infected ---Is that wrong. I know i would still probally have some anxiety issues. But that would probally help some ---This is hard to deal with and i will never ever stray again --I just pray daily this isn't a catastrophic series of events

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« Reply #18 on: July 07, 2007, 07:59:25 PM »
Yeah and on medhelp he'll tell you heterosexual rarely contract HIV and you don't need to test. You weren't told what test would give you a conclusive result at 6 weeks now were you? Why? Because there are no approved tests to give someone a conclusive result less than 3 months.  What would you do if you had a risk? You don't even need to test to begin with. Protected sex is just that, PROTECTED.

Offline chodelyode

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« Reply #19 on: July 08, 2007, 05:33:33 PM »
  No he didn't mention the type pf test to use---they just stated that at 6 weeks 98 percent of people will show if they are positiveor not ---I was just thinking that the standard has always been 3 months and that was when nintendo first came out and now we have x-box and ps3, And laser surgery and such --I just figured they would have came out with a faster way by this point---I guess i'll grind out 3 months and wait then --

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« Reply #20 on: July 08, 2007, 05:40:12 PM »
I guess i'll grind out 3 months and wait then

Do you even bother reading what we write?

You don't have to grind out for 3 months because you don't need to test. You don't need to test because you didn't do anything which would have put you at risk of being infected with HIV!

Ya dig?

MtD

 


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