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Author Topic: Did I just go home with him?  (Read 770 times)

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Offline Ihavehope

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Did I just go home with him?
« on: March 15, 2007, 12:50:56 PM »

I had my first post-HiV positive trauma, make-out session with someone who I would probably learned to love and would have been comaptible with because he has many of the qualities I like.

Last night I got a call from an ol "friend" who I use to drink and get high with. I made the decision to try my best to avoid any kind of drugs and have been avoiding this "friend". So to keep my mind off doing something illicit, I went to a gay local bar to have a drink. I met a very handsome Italian/Puerto-rican guy who seemed to like me. I was a little tipsy so I was not my usual shy self, and started a conversation with him. He is 32, hairy, tall, slim-medium built, moustache, deep voice with dimples. Totally nice guy and 1 hour later I ended up in his place. Slutty me huh...

I was a bit nervouse when I arrived to his place, he took out a ciggarette and offered me one but said no, then he offered me some water and drank a sip. 15 minutes into the conversation, i touched his hand and we began to kiss. I admit if felt very nice, for once in many months if not year felt desirable. I felt like I was actually living my life. One thing led to anther and we ended up in his bed and all I mostly wanted to do was hug and kiss him and not let time go by. It almost felt too good to be true. His package was VERY VERY nice, but for once in my life I didn't pay much attention to it. He wanted me to spend the night with him but felt really uncomfortable because his cell kept ringing many times, he claimed to be single but you know gay men.

So i left after a couple of hours and didn't even leave my number with him. I left kind of abruptly because I knew that regardless of how much i liked this guy and how good I felt, I had nothing to offer him but problems. It also seemed like he was a bit of a player considering his cell was ringing every 10 minutes. I know there was a mutual attraction and he liked the fact that I look like i just graduated from high school but I am too scared to like someone because of this HIV.

On my way home, I was pissed that I let a Hot guy like him go.
« Last Edit: March 15, 2007, 12:55:09 PM by Ihavehope »
Infected: April 2005
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Re: Did I just go home with him?
« Reply #1 on: March 15, 2007, 01:19:56 PM »
You romantic twink you !

It's great news that you were able to overcome fear about being in bed with someone, i'm still waiting for this to happen to me. You're still wary about going further and it will take time. As for the cell phone, there is an off button, suggest that to him next time you see him :)
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