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Elle in better times, at grandma's.
Charlie sleeping by her side tonight
Charlie showing her with kisses, when she came home
Well, not just interesting.. got a little choked up
Tuesday, I talked to my friend by phone, about the loss of his cat. I told him how sorry I was. Elle (Ellie), our 13 year-old dog, was playing like normal. She did her not very subtle demand for canned food, by taking her paw and moving the ceramic bowl around on the hardwood floor. After talking to my friend, I asked Elle to make a deal, that she would live to at least 16 and go in her sleep. She accepted the canned food deal, so I thought she agreed.
Strange how these things go. Wednesday, she didn't get up to go pee in the morning, like she normally does. I thought she was just tired from playing in the yard. Later, she threw up food, which still had food from the night before. She had recently been on antibiotics for a leg sore, so I thought maybe they screwed up her stomach, like they often do. But, she was so lethargic, and we figured this was more than just antibiotic issues. Around 11pm, we decided to take her to the ER. Our 16 year-old had gotten suddenly ill and died within about 8 hours. We didn't want to take chances on bloat.
The vet ruled out bloat, so we thought maybe it was worms. A stray cat had been coming into our yard and crapping. Well, it was much worse. Liver labs 10x the upper range of normal and a mass on her liver. They kept her overnight, to give her fluids and meds and to do an ultrasound the next morning.
It is so hard to comprehend how there were no signs. How could she be herself all the way up to that day, and then so sick. One would think she would be lethargic, not wanting as many treats and food, over the course of weeks or months. I've had friends tell me about human relatives, who were the same way-- totally normal and then so sick at once, with cancer spread throughout their body. No signs at all.
She was happy to come home, but could not get comfortable last night. My anxiety was so bad, because it pained me she could not get comfortable. Today, she has slept since 4pm-- some 8 hours so far. I was so happy to see her rest. Brian and I tiptoed, so we would not wake her. She's on some meds. One is a liver med, which is suppose to protect liver cells. Surgery and/or chemo is an option. That would cost thousands, with no guarantee. Even if we could afford it, I could not put her through a surgery, which may not do anything. She would be in more pain and more sick. The plan is to give her the meds and see if she starts feeling better. Some people feel you should just put a dog down right now. If she had been sick for a long time, I could understand that. But, she was totally fine up until Wednesday. Maybe she will start feeling better. Her gallbladder was full of sludge, which they are also treating.
I've not had to make the decision, to put a pet down. My cat got suddenly ill and died in my arms. Her illness to death was about a week. As I said, our 16 year old started feeling sick around midnight and died just as we picked her up, to carry her into the vet at 8am. While so heart broken, I was so glad they went so quickly (relatively speaking) and we did not have to make the decision. That decision is just awful. I imagine you always feel they will start feeling better. I guess if she does not start feeling better and doesn't eat, then we will know. She still goes outside on her own. She did eat a little. She is sleeping, instead of being so uncomfortable. She's not on any pain or sleeping meds. I hope this rest will reveal a dog more active tomorrow. With cancer, I know we will likely have to make that decision, even if she starts feeling better for a while. She slept by my side, when I was sick. She knew I was not well, even when I didn't know just how sick I was. She also wouldn't leave our other dog's side, when she was sick. She grieved the loss of her big sister. She went through what can only be described as a depression, for a few months after she died.
« Last post by michaelzalnasky on Yesterday at 12:59:37 AM »
Thank you all for being so accepting to the group
I like being able to read and compare experiences
And learning that there are many people just like me
Interesting thought I remember just after moving to Florida in November after my first doctors appt at Care Resource which primarily treats HIV/Aids patients my daughter ask how it went
My reply was amazing as I sat in the waiting area I realized Madison there were 11 people in that waiting area and I learned they were all in the same health contion as me but more importantly I realized they came from all walks of life...
Again I'm new here but quickly learning the benefits of being an active member
Again I thank you all
« Last post by hayssam on Yesterday at 12:25:26 AM »
research has shown that about eight percent of human genetic material comes from a virus and not from our ancestors, according to researchers in Japan and the U.S.
The genomes of humans and other mammals contain DNA derived from the insertion of bornaviruses, RNA viruses whose replication and transcription takes place in the nucleus. Research led by Professor Keizo Tomonaga at Osaka University in Japan shows virally transmitted DNA may be a cause of mutation and psychiatric disorders such as schizophrenia and mood disorders.
The findings were in an article by University of Texas at Arlington biology professor CÚdric Feschotte in the Jan. 7, 2010 issue of Nature magazine. Feschotte speculates about the role of such viral insertions in causing mutations with evolutionary and medical consequences. The assimilation of viral sequences into the host genome is a process referred to as endogenization, which occurs when viral DNA integrates into a chromosome of reproductive cells and is subsequently passed from parent to offspring.
Until now, retroviruses were the only viruses known to generate such endogenous copies in vertebrates. But Feschotte said that scientists have found that non-retroviral viruses called bornaviruses have been endogenized repeatedly in mammals throughout evolution
« Last post by tednlou2 on July 03, 2015, 11:37:36 PM »
I also read FICO will start (if not already) to count medical bills to a lesser degree, as far as the score is concerned. However, I've learned many lenders (home and car) use other scores, besides just FICO. When we bought our truck, they used some score calculated just for auto lenders.
I have disputed items. If they don't respond within 30 days, they are removed. I have good credit now, by paying off bills, paying bills on time, as well as contesting items. I have had several removed, by just contesting them. Even if I owed the medical bill, I contested it. I didn't feel one bit wrong in doing it, since I don't believe medical bills should ruin your credit. Yes, I am rationalizing what I did, but I don't feel guilty about doing it. A credit card I ran up would be a different story. If the bill is on all three, you just have to contest with all three. They make it easier now, with being able to do it online, instead of having to mail in a form.
« Last post by Joe K on July 03, 2015, 11:22:48 PM »
I AM UNDETECTABLE!
« Last post by leatherman on July 03, 2015, 11:21:50 PM »
I also find the lack of any religious leaders denouncing such hatred, to be absolutely deafening.I just had this discussion with 2 pastors today. If those supposedly "good" Christians would stand up and drown out the "bad" Christians, this world would be a better place.
Not only does "silence = death" but also "silence = consent".
You can relax as you never had a risk. Oral sex is not a risk for infection. HIV is a very fragile virus. Its outer surface becomes damaged, immediately when leaving the host; where changes in temperature, pH and moisture levels, alter the HIV outer surface, rendering it unable to infect. The mouth is another barrier, as it protects us from pathogens that we encounter daily and it contains over a dozen proteins and enzymes that alter the HIV leaving it unable to infect.
There have been no fewer than three separate serodiscordant couples studies (where one person is HIV positive, the other negative.) These couples were tracked for three. five and ten years. The couples used condoms for penetrative vaginal and anal sex, but NO BARRIER at all for oral sex. Any kind of oral sex.
These studies yielded NO infections.
You have not had a risk and you do not need to test over this incident. If this incident it your only concern, Your 6 week negative result is conclusive: you are negative.
« Last post by alabama04 on July 03, 2015, 10:28:29 PM »
Also around the 6 week mark i noticed tingling in my fingers and palmse
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