In terms of relationship, I can handle being alone well. Ever since I broke up 2yrs ago, I already accepted my fate as forever alone guy. So not being in a relationship is not an issue for me. Although it can be lonely at times, but I'm such a hermit (I don't even own any FB or social media OR dating site/apps lol) living my own unsocial life. If someone took an interest on me, I can just said that I'm poz and we'll see from there (recently I met someone and we had a crush on each other and when I told him, he suddenly had to move out of town so yea lol).
I won't tell my parent. Ever. I never told them about my illness before since I knew my parent had to struggle with their own illnesses. My mom passed away last year to complication and I don't know about my dad but it's best for him to not know about my condition.
In terms of coping up with my status, I think I'm coping up well. My family (including me) had always subjected to illnesses. Me taking a 2x1 medication everyday is nothing compared to what my mom has been through with taking like 3 or 5 x3 for 5 years. I'll live and be grateful for today's medical advances.
Now. My biggest challenge is my resistance of drugs. My body resist most of the drugs known to human. I develop severe allergic to penicillin, ibuprofen, or any NSAIDs. I even develop allergic reaction to any generic pills sold. I will see my doctor this Friday noon because suddenly I develop allergy to my arv regimen (after taking the new truvada regimen). This is a challenge before whenever I got unusual illnesses (that's why I got to the critical point because the doctor can only treat me with therapy and not medication as I will develop allergy to them) but this... I need this med. Hopefully the doctor has something to counter my condition.
Another challenge is my dream life. I'm relatively young (28 y.o) aiming to be a full professor while living my academic tenure now. I planned on getting a scholarship for my PhD abroad but this... this changed my life so much I don't know what to do now. Sigh...
Heading a center of research, everyone just seemed to push me to go for the scholarship application but I somehow doubt that they would take someone poz. As for my co-worker, well, I just said some shit about me having la-di-da illnesses and they will believe that (like I said, I have a record of having many unusual illnesses and some even reach critical condition so they will believe anything I said). I know they will chop my career when they found out I'm poz so yea. That's why I can't even think on applying scholarship right now because they will need me to be truthful of my status and then everyone will know that I'm poz. Not to mention how to cope up living with HIV abroad, the cost of medication, insurance, etc.
But eh, that's for me to handle. I know I can handle anything well so I believe I'll have some alternative route to this dream life I planned on living AFTER I successfully deal with this allergy I have lol