So yeah, I just tested positive for HIV. I don't really know how to cope with the news actually. I seem so calm which seems strange to people. I've even started a blog to jot down my feelings and thoughts (as suggested by my close friend). I guess I am still in a daze and trying to find support in some shape or form.
Little intro, I'm 26 this year from Sydney. Kinda felt that I have screwed up my life.
Is feeling calm normal?
OJO HELLO AND WELCOME TO THE CLUB WHERE YOU WILL FIND SUPPORT AND ONFO.
1994 I GOT MY DX AND I WAS IN THE ICU NOT KNOWING IF I WAS GOING TO MAKE IT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL, AND GUESS WHAT?, I WAS CALM.
1995 I STARTED TREATMENT AND I WAS TOLD I WOULD LIVE TWO MORE YEARS, AND I WAS CALM
22 YEARS LATER, I'M STILL CALM
I GUESS AND I HOPE, YOU KEEP CALM, YOU WILL BE OK, IT'S ALL ABOUT HOW YOU WANT TO KEEP LIVING, CALM AND HAPPY, OR DEPRESS AND UNHAPPY...LIFE GOES ON, EVEN WITH AN HIV DIAGNOSIS, DO NOT GET ME WRONG, WE ALL ARE ALLOW TO FEEL SAD, ANGRY, ETC, BUT AFTER YOU FEEL HAVE GOTTEN RID OF YOUR FRUSTRATION, CALMNESS WILL COME BACK TO YOU
I DON'T THINK YOU HAVE SCREWED YOUR LIFE, IT'S ALL DEPENDS HOW YOU SEE A GLASS OF WATER, HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY...WISHING YOU THE BEST AND PLEASE KEEP US POSTED...HUGS OJO
PS WATCH OUT WHO YOU DISCLOSE YOUR STATUS TO, WAIT UNTIL YOU HAVE DIGGESTED BETTER THE "NEWS"