An update on me..Rash, love, and a few other things

[LatinAlexander]

Hi all:

I wanna thank you all for all the time you spend reading my posts...And replying to them...

Well, here goes my update: The rash has reduced. I do not have rash anymore on my face, nor the plants of my feet. There is still a little it in the palms of my hands and in the inner parts of my arms... However, my body has been really itchy all past week. But today I am better. So far, we are not giving up on Sustiva+Combivir. My doctor told me to be watching for a rash attack again, just in case, and let him know ASAP. Plus, It seems I only have one more hurdle. Anemia. Let's hope that bitch doesn't get me.

Last night, I met with a friend. He was very sad, because his BF was leaving to go to study to another country. And the goo-bye scene, reminded me of my own. Yes, I haven't given any details on that..But here it goes a summary(all before being diagnosed) : I Meet a wonderfull guy (38 years old). He told me he had a bf, but that things were nor right at all. I tought It would be a one night stand, and so stupidly , I created an Illusion. He left, we changed mails for a few days, and later he told me he just wanted us to be friends, that he wanted to fight for his previous relationship (He told his BF about me). No one to blame, but me. For being stupid. However, he told me he wanted us to be friends. So did I, but I asked for a few weeks, I needd to organize a little bit myself, my feelings..Cool things down. I promised hm I would write him again when I would feel strong enough to be just friends...I wrote him 3 days ago. And I think that I am not that strong... Shit.

Sooo, my meeting with my friend yesterday reminded me all that, and It was so tough. I was with him all the afternoon and part of the night. I knew exactly how he was feeling, and did not wanted him to be alone.

Besides that, everything is fine. My ID Doc wants to see me next week to order some tests for my liver and make sure everything is getting better. He is a so nice doc...

Well, life goes on, It seems. I want to keep in contact with that guy, as friends. I wish there could be something else, But i have to be realistic. he has a life, and I have mine.Unfortunately, they are not crossing any nearby future. Damn, I am an asshole. I am listening music about good-bye s and stuff like that...Kinda shitty.

THANK YOU ALL GUYS!!!!

Alex

Alex

[Life]

Oh Alex,  You are so strong and are dealing with ALOT.    Superman comes to mind...  Easy does it and let all of this settle down for a bit.  Then, recharge, go out and take life by the horns.   I have no doubt you are going to come out on the other end very soon sweetie...  I know we are very proud of what you have accomplished in such a short time...

Breath easy,

Love

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[blondbeauty]

I am glad your rash is fading.  I donīt think its time for boyfriends...I left Manuel (my new boyfriend one day after starting meds). A sustiva effect? Maybe...But now its time to dedicate all our spare time to ourselves. Future has great things for us.

[frenchpat]

Alex,

glad to hear that you are doing better, at least in body. As for your heart/soul, I am not an expert but I do know that time heals those wounds pretty well. Wishing you strength and patience.

Pat