Author Topic: Do you ever forget sometimes? (Read 5382 times)

Seven · « **on:** January 26, 2007, 12:25:32 am »

We all have our good days and bad days, but I swear sometimes I forget I am positive, until the damn alarm on my phone goes off to remind me to take my pills. I could be in the middle of a movie, a late dinner, laughing with friends, the my phone goes off...my friends are like...oh text message? HUH...I WISH!

Do you guys ever forget...or is it just me? $:-\$

Blixer · « **Reply #1 on:** January 26, 2007, 12:36:02 am »

Seven,
I'm into this just over a year. I will say that I go for long periods and not think about being positive now. Of course, the daily meds are a reminder of sorts. I take mine at 6 AM every morning. But sometimes I find that I don't even think about what they are for now. I just take them. So yes, I guess I do forget I'm positive sometimes..... But not for long yet...

ndrew · « **Reply #2 on:** January 26, 2007, 12:38:21 am »

Seven,

I think this is an interesting question. I probably do sometimes forget, but I think for the most part it is a portion of who I am and something out of my control. I cannot change it, I can just take care of me. Although I think when you are feeling good or healthy, it is easier to accept it. I guess I do forget, but I think it is always there in my mind, the alien virus in my blood that makes me different...

Drew

skeebo1969 · « **Reply #3 on:** January 26, 2007, 12:43:49 am »

I don't think it is that I forget in as much that it is not the most over riding thought in my mind anymore like it once was. Fortunately, I have had little or no side effects with the Atripla I am on, med time has been fairly easy. I do feel for my girl though. She is on a 4 med combo and sometimes get's nausea from it. It kind of brings the whole thing into reality for me. All I really have to do is think back about 2 months ago. The memory with how I felt then is still very fresh in my mind.

Miss Philicia · « **Reply #4 on:** January 26, 2007, 01:21:57 am »

When you inject yourself with fuzeon twice a day and all the vials in syringes are spread all over your kitchen table you tend to recall vaguely that you're, in fact, HIV+

racingmind · « **Reply #5 on:** January 26, 2007, 01:43:48 am »

yeah, I have fleeting moments now and then...usually when I'm laughing with friends because everything is so "normal".....and you realize that you are, in fact, the same person. Life goes on...I just find myself having to catch up every once in a while.

Coffeechick88 · « **Reply #6 on:** January 26, 2007, 04:45:11 am »

The meds are daily reminders and the appointments every 3 months are, but other than that, I can truely say I forget. I guess it is because I've moved into acceptance, I'm more confident with myself, and I realize that I am not defined from it.

aztecan · « **Reply #7 on:** January 26, 2007, 07:18:12 am »

Like Thomas, I don't think I ever forget I have HIV. But it isn't the predominant thing on my mind most of the time.

I have plenty of reminders throughout the day, both because of meds and because of my job.

It doesn't stop me from enjoying life or continuing with my "normal" things like movies, etc., except I have to time dinners, lucheons, etc., to mesh with my Crix meal schedule.

I am pretty lucky.

HUGS,

Mark

koi1 · « **Reply #8 on:** January 26, 2007, 07:59:01 am »

I asked a guy I met through my sister this question. He has been poz for 21 years (known). He says he thinks about it every single day. I think about it every day too. I wish I could forget about it, but I am on meds now, so every time meds time rolls around I definitely know. But I also think how lucky I am that with a few pills once a night I can stay alive. I think " Wow these pills are keeping me alive." My dreams are fun on the meds though. I just woke up from a dream where I took a trip to France with my whole family. I was enjoying the deserts. And you you know what. I did not have AIDS in the dream.

rob

redhotmuslbear · « **Reply #9 on:** January 26, 2007, 10:32:17 am »

For me, it's was an issue not dwelling on being HIV+. I don't consciously ponder my height, weight, race, ethnicity, hair color, eye color, hirsuteness, masculinity, or other medical issues on a regular basis, except when they become an issue; so why should my HIV status be any different.

When I was diagnosed in 1998, it was like coming out all over again--a fact about me was made known that I simply could not hide from anymore. It can discomfort others when they learn about it, but I'm not going to let it limit me or keep me immobile in a trance or in fear.

Cheers,
David

ACinKC · « **Reply #10 on:** January 26, 2007, 10:46:06 am »

I'm on here every day. So yeah I always think about it. But its changed. I like my HIV. I mean if I could evict it I would, but its not like I really have a choice do I? My HIV has brought me closer to friends and family. It has given me a new perspective on life and the sufferings of others. I had a cousin who died of brain cancer last year, he was 1 month older than me, he had a wife and 9 year old daughter. Would he trade me? I think he would have! It has given me a new wife and bestfriend. I have a beautiful new home 1 block from my parents and 3 blocks from my sister. I have a new family here on aidsmeds and have helped others which always feels good.

So do I think about it? Yeah, all the time. And as things stand Ive got more reasons to be happy to have it right now than not. Jesus, never really thought about it quite like that until just now. Im sure that it may change and there are aspects of it that OBVIOUSLY suck ass. But hey, I read a book once where a guy was complaining about his problems and his dad looked at him and said "son YOU dont have problems, take a look at that quadrapalegic guy over there, HE has problems. You have inconveniences, HE has problems. But if you ask him, he would tell you that he doesnt have it so bad. So dont come telling me how bad you think you have it." And this always got me thinking, when I think i have it bad, I think of a pediatric cancer unit or a burn unit. I dont have it bad. Im still very blessed even with my cooties!

ACinKC · « **Reply #11 on:** January 26, 2007, 10:52:40 am »

Quote from: koi1 on January 26, 2007, 07:59:01 am

I asked a guy I met through my sister this question. He has been poz for 21 years (known). He says he thinks about it every single day. I think about it every day too. I wish I could forget about it, but I am on meds now, so every time meds time rolls around I definitely know. But I also think how lucky I am that with a few pills once a night I can stay alive. I think " Wow these pills are keeping me alive." My dreams are fun on the meds though. I just woke up from a dream where I took a trip to France with my whole family. I was enjoying the deserts. And you you know what. I did not have AIDS in the dream.

rob

The dreams can be fun. Its almost like the movie Total Recall where they implant vacations and stuff in your brain as memories! I swear to god they are that vivid sometimes!!!

Christine · « **Reply #12 on:** January 26, 2007, 10:54:20 am »

No, I never forget. But, it has become part of what I am, I don't like it, but I accept what it is, and I have learned to live with it.

Christine

Ihavehope · « **Reply #13 on:** January 26, 2007, 11:15:15 am »

I can't speak for everyone else but now when I learned I was positive I felt like there is not time to waste on being bored, upset and as depresed as I was before knowing because now I know there is a nasty virus in me who wants to bring me down. I can't imagine living my life giving up now and beating myself up over this on a daily basis so I push myself to do things that I never thought I would do. Like? Telling my family and friends how much i love them, enjoying the company of uncles and cousins who I once disliked, Apologizing for things I may have done or said to people and most importantaly take better care of my body, regaining my religious faith and not doing any drugs!

What's funny is that every little moment where i am laughing and happy and feel good i feel like time is going by so slowly and I feel proud of myself for taking charge of my emotions. Laughing and feeling loved is my new high. But as you probably know, there are also very rough moments especially when I wait for my results, know I am heading to medications real soon and hiding this from my family has been a nightmare. I also go through 10 different emotions in one day because I constantly remember I am poz. So I personally don't think you will forget that u are HIV for a long period time but when you do it feels so good. Enjoy those instant moments.

Anyhow, i think

blondbeauty · « **Reply #14 on:** January 26, 2007, 01:27:34 pm »

Yes I forget most of the time. Ehen I was diagnosed I promised I wouldn´t be bothered by silly things again...But now I am again doing it. $:-\$

redhotmuslbear · « **Reply #15 on:** January 26, 2007, 01:43:12 pm »

Quote from: blondbeauty on January 26, 2007, 01:27:34 pm

Yes I forget most of the time. Ehen I was diagnosed I promised I wouldn´t be bothered by silly things again...But now I am again doing it. $:-\$

Define 'silly' ... the drug store running out of your hair color before a big date? a cocktail party substituting Ritz crackers for crostini?

I save my anger for deserving situations, like General Motors and a local Chevy dealer dinking around with my 3 year-old vehicle for three months.... they think I'm going to be a good homo and lick up their crumbs, but they will be sorely mistaken when I'm through.

Javicho · « **Reply #16 on:** January 26, 2007, 02:15:22 pm »

I will say yes I forget most of the times, but when I have doctor's appointment and have to draw some blod yeah I know why is that for. Other than that totally fine

J.

marco23 · « **Reply #17 on:** January 26, 2007, 02:26:12 pm »

I admit..I do forget but then I always remember when I meet someone and he's interested in me...I've had several experiences where I disclosed and he disappears...So anytime someone shows an interest, I remember.

Brian360 · « **Reply #18 on:** January 26, 2007, 07:31:22 pm »

Is it being forgetful? Or just the fact that you really haven't had to take pills on a regular basis for most of your life and your subconscious blocks the reality until you look at the pill bottles in your medicine cabinent or bathroom sink. Or is a part of the HIV/AIDS dementia problem??

Although I've been positive since mid-2004, I really hadn't stuck to a regimen until July 2005. Until my current doctor ordered the "big" pill box for all my meds, I thought I was taking them on schedule until this last Tcell count dropped from 92 to 27 in 30 days.

It would be nice if we could funnel some of the funds meant for NASA and this nonsense of space exploration into some serious AIDS research.

Brian

tsw923 · « **Reply #19 on:** January 26, 2007, 09:56:43 pm »

I don't know that I forget completely. I mean I take my pills every night at 11. Can't forget why you're taking 3 pills.

But I don't obsess every day like I did when I first found out. Now I find that I do it in spurts... when something happens and I really can't get around my HIV status, like watching some of those lovely birth control commericals or when I start thinking about having kids, etc. Its always there in the back of my mind, but I try not to let it rule everything. It's just another part of me.

Ty

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