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Meds, Mind, Body & Benefits => Mental Health & HIV => Topic started by: gonzo on December 19, 2011, 02:17:40 pm
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Someone I deeply cared about many, many years ago,(and still do) is back in my life, and now I find out he's dying, I had things envisioned for the both of us that will never happen now because I was such a hot headed little punk way back when.
Sometimes you don't get a second chance, so don't mess it up the first time around!
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((((((Gonzo))))))
I'm so sorry to hear about this. While you may not have a second chance to do some of the things you envisioned, you still have a second chance to give him your love be there for him now and he will need your love and support during this difficult time. It will be difficult - for both of you - but it will be rewarding at the same time. Bittersweet.
I'll be sending you both plenty of love, light, strength and positive healing energy. The body may be beyond healing, but the spirit never is. Hang in there and know we're here for you during this difficult time.
Hugs,
Ann
xxx
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Someone I deeply cared about many, many years ago,(and still do) is back in my life, and now I find out he's dying, I had things envisioned for the both of us that will never happen now because I was such a hot headed little punk way back when.
Sometimes you don't get a second chance, so don't mess it up the first time around!
Gonzo,
Your post hit a nerve with me. As Ann notes, please relish the time you have again with your friend despite the current circumstances. Be loving, thoughtful, funny, mad, silly. Believe me, you will be able to call on those moments to lift your spirits the rest of your life.
Take care.
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No good deed go's unpunished, they are probably back into your life for a good reason, be there for them, it's what we do for each other in the end that counts, it's not your fault or theirs, it is what it is
{ HUGS } all around :)
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Take great opportunity of the time you have together, fill it with love. Hugs.
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Thanks for your support, I'm dealing with this a lot better now.
I wasn't doing very well emotionally before he 'popped up', and then I was elated when he did, but when he told me his situation I was devastated.
I have stopped complaining about my issues which are nothing compared to his, and started living a little more, I can't be there for him if I'm not there for myself
It hurts to see him in pain tho, I feel so useless I wish I could do more, I never thought our reunion would end up like this, but I'll take whatever time I can get with him, I have never stopped loving him, and I never will.
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I have never stopped loving him, and I never will.
You think he feels the same? Maybe you should express that at least once it might be wonderful for you both to have that out on the table.
Im sure that is why the heavens have pushed you back together for this next little journey.
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I second meech. If there's something you want him to know...tell him now. Don't end up like I did. Having to tell my ex, what I had wanted to tell him for so long, while he lay unconscious on the hospital bed just hours away from dying from cancer (he was HIV-, always thought he'd outlive me by decades). I always thought I'd have that one last chance. But you don't...tough lesson to learn.
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I'm pretty sure he knows how I feel by my actions, I've tried verbalizing it to him, but I end up getting tongue tied, and change the topic.
I'll definitely have a serious talk with him before the year ends, even if I have to have a few drinks in me to get the courage to do so.
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Jason's gone, and I'm so angry at myself for waiting so long to reconnect with him, so many things I wish I could change, but now it's too late.
I miss him so much, I can't sleep, I can't go to work, the slightest things makes me cry, I wish I could spend just one more day with him
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Jason's gone, and I'm so angry at myself for waiting so long to reconnect with him, so many things I wish I could change, but now it's too late.
I miss him so much, I can't sleep, I can't go to work, the slightest things makes me cry, I wish I could spend just one more day with him
So sorry to hear this. You have my deepest sympathies =(
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I feel sorrow at your loss, my deepest sympathy.
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I'm so sorry for your loss. ((((((Gonzo))))))
Hugs,
Ann
xxx
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Thank you all for your kindness and sympathy,
gonzo