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Title: I am tired of thinking
Post by: bleueyes on January 02, 2009, 08:49:04 pm
I don't really understand what he is doing... I own nothing, he owns a house and I will have to work when he dies... So why not give me time to get my life in order while you're alive???? (You're meaning him)
I am confused.  I want him to just love me and allow me to get something for myself for when he passes. 
He wants sex alot and it does bother me except it is not too important!  I like it at times, then other times he talks me into it... so nothing is wrong there.  It is just that I worry and want to know if there is anyone who will talk to me.
I just want to trusty people, even my older sister wanted to ask about the personal.  And she hadn't anyone.
Being in a relationship is hard without a good person to talk my worries over with and I am lonely when I want to talk of things my husband has no interest in.  We are to the point where I watch tv in another room and he watches it in the next room, sometimes.
I would like to find a friend.  Someone who watches the tv, (I watch Supernatural and so does my husband), I am learning so much in cooking now, I guess really that is all there is to me.
I am alone for friends.  Living with the same person gets to the point where you both already know what is going on. 
The situation really is I don't want a new man in my llife, but I want other people to talk too.  And I am on this line because another man would not make too much sense for me.
I don't have the best advice, but I try sometimes, other times I leave alone because I just don't know.   
Title: Re: I am tired of thinking
Post by: vivyt on January 02, 2009, 10:43:10 pm
Hi bleueyes. I have seen you post before. Are you just blogging or are you looking for responses. I'm a little unsure.... :)
Title: Re: I am tired of thinking
Post by: BT65 on January 03, 2009, 12:15:55 am
This is the ex that you caught talking to a transexual on a singles site?
Title: Re: I am tired of thinking
Post by: bleueyes on January 03, 2009, 03:45:01 pm
I was thinking my husband... yes. Then we recieved calls from the credit card company where someone was using our card.
My first thoughts were, after the card company called; we were hit with a computer virus about the same time, and our information may have been stolen this way? 
All I know is the person was caught at a Zales jewelry store using my husband's credit card after making purchases at a Victoria Secrets.
I guess what tipped off the card company was the person obviously did not know the credit limits! We had to fill out paper work.
As it turns out we sort of knew the person.
I rewrote this reply to make it more factual, we had three months of forms being sent to us, and it was very hurtful to go through this. I actually hate writing about it.