New to Poz Just Tested Poz in Nov 08

[melloyellow]

Hi all, I just tested poz in Nov. I don't have to take meds now.  I feel bad being 48 and now HIV +. I am going to take care of myself just feeling kinda numb right now. Really don't have much to say right now. I am glad that this site is here, I have been reading lots of thing here.

Take Care

[Assurbanipal]

Hi melloyellow

Nice to hear from you.  It takes a while to get your head around all the important stuff, but it sounds like you have a while to do that.  Have you had a chance to look through the Lessons?
http://www.aidsmeds.com/articles/Introduction_4702.shtml
They can be really very helpful.

I found out I was HIV+ at age 49 -- but I had AIDS by then too and no time to learn anything before starting treatment.  But that was a couple of years ago and I'm happy to be healthier again.

At any rate, just wanted to say welcome

Assurbanipal

[melloyellow]

Thanks, I haven't gone through the lesson let. I will. Thanks for responding to my message.

[woodshere]

Nothing like finding out you are HIV+ when you are in your 40's.  I was somewhat embarrassed to have avoided HIV in the earlier years of the virus, only to screw up later on.  But it is what it is.  The numbness will wear off and most likely you will resume your life much like it was before.  Welcome and best to you,
Woods

[jayjax]

Hey Mellow,

Welcome to the forum.  I'm sorry to hear about your diagnosis. Please keep a positive attitude and continue to use this forum.  There is a wealth of information available here and great people to offer advise through their own experiences as well as answer questions or concerns you may have.

I would also recommend finding a support group in your local area if you have not done so already.  Like yourself, I'm up there in age and just found out that I was infected in Oct 08.

Time is a healer.  Keep in touch with everyone here.

JayJax

[LBpozguy]

Hey Mellow,

Welcome to the forums :-)  I found out I was POZ in Sept. I too am in my 40's and like you feel the samewway.... I saw so many of my friends die in the 80's. Don't know how I made it out of that time without HIV.

I have found so much information on here. Everyone is so nice and so supportive. Keep reading around. for all the great info.

Don't worry, you will start to get out of that funk soon. It took me awhile but I am now starting to feel better about myself. Talking to others have been a great help.

Good luck and again Welcome!

LB

[rocky48]

Welcome to the site.  I tested positive the end of July 08 at the age of 60. Still scared about all the things to come. Everyone is great here and totally supportive. Hope you have a ID doctor. I am not on any meds and hope not for years to come. No real studies about having hiv at the age of 60.

My first set of numbers in Sept.08 were CD4@472 and VL@1300
My second set of numbers for Dec.08 were CD4@622 and VL@3490

My doctor said, I am doing great. Just wish my mind would tell me that same thing.

Hang in there I guess we are not alone.

Take care

[mecch]

I feel bad being 48 and now HIV +.

Thats a normal reaction. There is no nice age to serocovert. I serocoverted in my 40s. Look at the bright side, or have some gallows humour - if you had seroconverted in your 20s, in the 1980's, it might not and probably would not have been such an optimistic picture.
I hope soon enough this becomes more of a distraction than an all consuming emotional and physical trauma. All the best to you.

[melloyellow]

Thanks to all of you for you advise and comments. I really appriciate it. I will take care of myself
just still feeling kinda numb. I think about it all the time and I just pray and continue on with my
day. I told my family and they are great and they even went online to find out as much as they
could about HIV. I am thankful that I don't have to take any meds now. I go back to the specialist
in March for another blood check.

I will keep in touch.

Thanks

[auspoz]

Hi Melloyellow,

I'm really sorry to hear about your recent diagnosis. Welcome to the forums. You really have found a great support place here.

I'm really pleased to hear that your family reacted so well. That is really excellent news, and I'm so pleased that you have that love and support. I'm sure that will also make it a lot easier for you. I know it did for me- when I told my parents, things started to get better.

Hang in there my friend. You can make it. Things do get better, and I hope things continue to do so for you.

Auspoz.

[melloyellow]

Thanks this is a great place to be right now.

[Andy Velez]

Hey Melllow,

You're taking the right steps to maintain your health. A good partnership with your doctor is essential. It's good to know your numbers are being monitored.

It's good to read that your family is being supportive. Remember to be a good friend to yourself as well, just as I imagine you would be to someone else.

You're always welcome here to ask questions, to discuss anything that's on your mind and to just hang out. Gradually you're going to learn whatever you need to know about in order to maintain good health.
Give yourself time to get adjusted to this new part of your life. And it will be only something in your life and not all that your life is or will be about.

Cheers.

[todd123]

Hey bud,

Similar story here. Just found out last July with VERY  LOW/HIGH numbers.   I was so numb for probably about 2 months after that.  It also hit me that I had to deal with my addiction issues finally and for real this time.
It's tough to have both on your plate.  But finding out I had full blown AIDS was the ONLY think that was going to get me real help.
I do believe now, seven months later it was a blessing.  I'm think of you and all of my poz brothers and sisters out there.

take care,
Scott