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Main Forums => Living With HIV => Topic started by: Bucko on June 04, 2006, 11:15:51 pm
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As you know, I've been posting accounts of my recent activities involving on-line hook-ups on the Spin Cycle, the blog I share with Matty, Ronnie and Hermie. You are also aware that the articles are a frank and explicit description of unprotected sex between consenting HIV+ men.
You may also remember that I was reticent to post a link from this message board due to an encounter that went beyond the parameters of reasonable limits and precautions. The incident I was so worried about is described in chapter three, the one just published.
I will say that from my point of view, this was one of two encounters (the other, I think, will be in chapter four) that revealed what all this overactive libido was really all about, and it was a very painful lesson to have learned. I was retchedly sick with a UTI for over a month about a week after the incidents described and lost nearly ten pounds (which I could ill afford to loose and which I'm struggling to regain). But from a creative perspective, the final 1500 words are perhaps the finest I've ever written, as challenging as the topic might be for those who choose to read it.
So here goes: With my usual caveat:
WARNING: SEXUALLY EXPLICIT!
http://thespincycle.blogspot.com/ (http://thespincycle.blogspot.com/)
Thanks-
Brent
(Who is back to himself again, finally)
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WHEW!
Brent, dear....
I have stated before that your writing talent is breathtaking, and I agree with you that this is some of your best to date.
One thing I haven't ever said is how brutally honest and downright electrifying your descriptions are. In fact, although I know I'm reading about your sexual exploits in vivid detail, I find myself scrutinizing every word, every sentence because of the sheer artistry of the delivery of your written word.
The only other way I can explain what happens for me is like this: for years, I was a freelance calligrapher. Sometimes, (and much to my chagrin!), I would mis-spell a word, so focused was I on the execution of the components of the letter with my pen and ink.
Reading your third installment last night, I found myself re-reading a paragraph after paragraph, for in my mind, I kept losing the story line!
My other thought is this. There are few people willing to share such private details about encounters spurred off the internet, raw, lusty, boisterous and beyond.....as you are. Or who does it as well.
Challenging? Topic matter, yes. Writing? SUPERB.
With love,
Zephyr (who adores her Brent)
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Well Bucko, I don't smoke but I certainly need a cigarette after reading that.
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Matt
(He who is living vicariously through Bucko)
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Buck-Buck,
Exquisitely written Brent. It has been haunting my thoughts since reading. Raw and powerful it brought up many emotions in me. Just what a good writer should do. I am so glad you are back.
luvs,
Hal
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OY! :o
Brent, your descriptions are so vivid I feel as though I were there.
Glad you are back.
HUGS,
Mark
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:P :P :P :P
WOO HOO
I NEED A SHOWER!
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Brent, I've GOT to quit reading your encounters at work... It makes it embarrassing when somebody comes into my office and I have to stand up.... ;) Keep 'em coming... I can't wait for chapter 4!
David
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Zeph-
I was hoping to get your "cameo" in this chapter, but as you yourself know, it follows the conclusion of my first encounter (yes, there was a follow-up) with B36. You no doubt remember the terror I felt afterward, among other contradictory emotions. I am taking your advice this afternoon, BTW, and will research how to go about getting representation.
Matt-
I'm smoking one for us both, baby. BTW- your signature "eyes with lashes" look suspiciously like a butt ;D. In an article I once posted on The Spin Cycle delving into just that topic http://thespincycle.blogspot.com/2005/07/ass-or-new-dark-meat-0.html (http://thespincycle.blogspot.com/2005/07/ass-or-new-dark-meat-0.html), I used a similar image. It makes me smile whenever I see it.
Hal-
Naughty boy, posting a tease in the comments section of the article! As to the compliments, all I can say is thank you, dear. You know how much they mean to little me.
Mark-
You have followed my writing from the very beginning, watched the progression and evolution as my confidence in my abilities and decisions as to what comprises acceptable subject matter grow and change. You and I have also had enough off-board communication for me to appreciate your point of view. Thank you, my friend. I look forward to seeing you in Montreal very much.
Iggy-
I'll respond to your post in the comments portion when I'm done here, but I believe that you already know the answer. I have alluded elsewhere to an aborted version of The Sicilian Wedding Sheet, which was 1500 words of drivel and flatulent self-pity, and which dissects my state of mind at the time to such an extent that Jung himself would have skipped whole paragraphs out od boredom and irritation.
I made the creative decision to keep chapter three almost entirely on-point (or in ass, if you like) as a short-cut to a description of my feelings (and motovations) at the moment when the things being discussed actually took place. Switching back and forth between the physical and psychic (as in psyche) would have diluted the message, which, for the time being, should be just as you feel right now.
Sorry about your breakfast, though...
Jeff-
Soap up good!
David-
Ah! Were that I could read them aloud to you ;D
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I'll just state in postcript that I am one of those people who cannot learn from the experiences of others, and who need to experience things for myself before reaching an understanding of the nature and consequences of life. This might well be why, after years of attempts with several highly-skilled professionals, therapy has done so little to help me wrestle with my demons.
Thanks for reading-
Brent
(Who will shake the hand of anyone who offers one)
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Reading this made me all sticky and sweaty!!
Sometimes I wish I smoked again...this certainly warrants it!
I love you Buckles!!
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As always darling, a triumph. The shocking and controversial work of the Spin Cycle continues apace!
MtD
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Simply breathtaking.
I love the necklace of new words, neverending row of pearls that I turn and toss to see the true and full gloss.
bisousssss mon coco :-*
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Hermie...
That was amazingly beautiful, too!
My heart is all a-patter.
Love,
Zephie
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Hermie...
That was amazingly beautiful, too!
My heart is all a-patter.
Love,
Zephie
It's why Hermie's on the Cycle too babe.
MtD
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We all love our Hermie, I just wish he'd blog more (hint hint)
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Brent
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And comment! We just love comments at the Spin Cycle. Don't be shy -- all comers welcome. ;D
MtD