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Offline pozguy75

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Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« on: June 06, 2007, 08:30:08 pm »
Okay, look at my avatar. You see a healthy looking 170 pound smiling guy, now close your eyes picture this:

Me in bed, hooked to IV, popping Morphine, Darvocet, Marinol and weighing in at a hefty 140 pounds! Yes ladies and gentlemen I am alive...and isn't it grand??

Do I sound bitter? Yes probably, but I am sick and tired of being sick and tired!

Let me start from the beginning....

Friday May 24th I wake up with fever, headache, and think: "It's just a little virus, I will take the day and rest...." Saturday May 25th I wake with a 104.5 degree temp, headaches, backaches, joint pain, etc...I called a friend to take me to the emergency room (because I couldn't drive), where I was admitted post haste to the hospital with sepsis. We are still not exactly sure how I got staph in my blood stream...I had no abscesses or open wounds, still a mystery at this point. I spent the following 5 days in the hospital. I was released from the hospital on Thursday May 31st with PICC line installed, and IV antibiotics for another 10-15 days.

I am officially on a disability leave of absence from work, with an unknown date of return to work.

My head hurts terribly bad, I guess that's good, cause it did confirm I have a brain, cause it's SWOLLEN from the infection. I went out to the store today, which proved to be a larger chore, than I had anticipated. I found that just after an hour of being out and walking I was winded, tired and felt as if I had just ran a marathon...

This is probably the first time I have found myself a little scared...I think what scared me most was when the doctor was very blunt with me...with out dancing around the issue, he said, if I hadn't had gone in to the hospital I could have been dead by week's end...yea, it was that serious! And still is.

I still can't seem to put weight on, and yes I am eating..I eat like a freaking HORSE, I am not putting any weight on. I am losing muscle mass and I honestly look like one of those children Sally Struthers raises money for...do you think $.10 a day will feed me?  ;)

Also, in May, I was diagnosed with HEP C, the viral load was in the millions...we should have some indication as to whether or not to start treatment in the next day or so...I have a sinking feeling that I will be starting the interferon soon...

And back to where I began...I have a headache that refuses to go away, and nausea and vomiting that started Monday night...I am just ready to be healthy again...I am so tired, yet I can't sleep through the night. So, I got me an OTC sleep aide to see if that helps tonight...

I go in tomorrow to have the PICC and dressing changed...I have a pal driving me there, cause I can't stand or sit up straight without the urge to purge...

So, I will be taking the time given to me to rest, and get well again...GOD I HATE AIDS!!!! This damned bug won't let you shake what most people can bounce back from quickly...I don't feel like I am living right now...I feel like I am surviving.
Dx 2005
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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #1 on: June 06, 2007, 08:37:57 pm »
Jeromy, I was just going to ask a few people if they knew how you were doing..   So now we know...  Jesus Jeromy,  I am sorry you are having to deal with this so head on...   Your going to pull through this...   Do what the docs say...

Hugs and Better Life


Eric & Will

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Re: Living with? Fuck NO, Surviving with...
« Reply #2 on: June 06, 2007, 08:38:37 pm »
Jeromy,

Last I heard you had just found out about the Hep C   I've been wondering what's been going on with you and now I know  :(

Please know that you will be in my thoughts.  Hang in there and feel better soon!  :-*

((((HUGS))))

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« Reply #3 on: June 06, 2007, 09:10:18 pm »
I'm sorry to hear this.  You'll gain the weight back it just takes a bit of time, speaking from experience.  Throw in some protein shakes each day, that will help.

Do you have someone who can help you with groceries if you need it for a little bit?

Hang in there.
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Offline Nico

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« Reply #4 on: June 06, 2007, 09:12:10 pm »
Jeromy,
Hang in there babe.  I have been down your path as so many of us on here.  Right now it is personal and you need to know you have "us".  Please lean on us for support.  I know that cute guy in the pic is still there and will be there.  ;)

Hugs and love!
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Offline GSOgymrat

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« Reply #5 on: June 06, 2007, 09:14:17 pm »
I'm so sorry to hear you are sick. I hadn't seen you posting in the forum much and assumed you were out having a good time. I really hope you feel better soon.

Ford

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« Reply #6 on: June 06, 2007, 09:33:27 pm »
So sorry you have been having an awful time of it. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you will be back to your old 170 lb smiling self real soon.

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« Reply #7 on: June 06, 2007, 09:47:12 pm »
Hi Jeromy, just be patient and keep fiighting!!!

I know life sometimes seems to be hard... but come on, you know you can get over this!!!! We know it too.

Remember something..."this too shall pass", I know you will be ok.

Big hugs!!!!!

Juan Carlos
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19/04/07 CD4: 494 /CViral: ?? /Peso: 80kg
19/07/07 CD4: 659 /CViral: ?? /Peso: 79.5kg
06/03/08 CD4: 573 (después de meses muy deprimido) /CViral: ?? /Peso: 79kg
17/09/08 CD4: ?? /CViral: ?? /Peso: 84Kg
06/02/09 CD4: ?? /CViral: ?? /Peso: 85Kg /HCV: Neg /HBV: Neg.
07/03/09 CD4: ?? /CViral: ?? /Peso: 87Kg / Gym 3días/semana y Natación 2días/semana.
12/05/09 CD4: 470 /Cviral: ?? /Peso: 87Kg.
08/07/09 CD4: ? /CViral: ? /Peso: 77Kg.
09/12/09 CD4: 510 /CViral: ? /Peso: 78kg. No medicinas aún
10/01/10 CD4: ? /CViral: ? /Peso: 76Kg.
15/05/10 CD4: 320 /CViral: ? /Peso: 76Kg.
01/02/11 CD4: 291 /CViral: ? /Peso: 78kg.
05/05/11 CD4: 366 /CViral: ? /Peso: 78kg.
27/07/11 CD4: 255 /CViral: 138000 /Peso: 78kg.

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Offline Iggy

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« Reply #8 on: June 06, 2007, 10:01:21 pm »
Yes - You are just surviving at the moment but damn if that isn't worth a hell of a lot more than you are giving yourself credit for.

No - this is not some feel better and be happy response to your post - I respect you and what you are going through too much to do that, and as much as this sounds like a load of crap - you have to believe that you are gonna get through this. 

I know when you moved months ago you started a new life in many ways, but do you have anyone nearby who can be checking in on you and helping you around the house?






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« Reply #9 on: June 06, 2007, 10:08:30 pm »
Sounds like you have been through the wringer so to speak.  I remember feeling that way when I was discharged after my second round of PCP.  Going to the super market was a total killer.  Thank god for my partner and parents because I simply would have not made it without them.  I hate PIC lines and the antibiotics associated with them, but better than a hospital bed, nothing beats the couch and/or bed in our own home.  Take care hon, the weight will come back too fast and much too much in my case.  HUGS!
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« Reply #10 on: June 06, 2007, 10:38:59 pm »
Jeromy sweetheart-

If I could be there I'd make sure you were as comfortable as could be expected and as entertained as I could muster, but unfortunately I'm not. All I can do is reassure you here and tell you that, no matter what condition you find yourself in I love you deeply and with all my heart.

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« Reply #11 on: June 06, 2007, 10:52:51 pm »
Jeromy-
   Just hang in there.  I had sepsis and was in a coma six years ago.  I was in the coma for two weeks, then unresponsive.  My power-of-attorney told me that when I was taken to the emergency room, they went to do an MRI and I flat-lined on the table and was "dead" for a couple minutes and my mother had to make the decision for them to revive me.  I just feel really lucky that I made it through that and can even still think straight. 
     You'll get through this.  One day at a time, one step at a time, one minute at a time.  You'll be in my thoughts and prayers. 
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« Reply #12 on: June 06, 2007, 10:55:10 pm »
Jeromy, you poor guy....

my bouts with sepsis were some of the worst times of my life.   I know what you are going through.....

stay strong, my friend.

love & hugs,

Alan
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« Reply #13 on: June 06, 2007, 11:08:13 pm »
Hey Jer,

Damn, I was about to PM you and see what you've been up to and where you've been.  To a small extent, I understand how you feel.  When I had that damned PCP back in December, I was a bit freaked out about the whole thing.  What helped more than anything, emotionally anyway, was the support and concern from folks here and friends and family visiting me in the hospital.  Even though we're not there with you, you know we're thinking about you and are hoping for you to have a speedy recovery.  Take care.

David
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Offline thirtysomething

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« Reply #14 on: June 06, 2007, 11:40:51 pm »
Oh man I cannot imagine what you must be going through! I just hope you feel better.

Take care

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« Reply #15 on: June 06, 2007, 11:43:24 pm »
Hi Jeromy,

Though I don\\\'t know you, I feel for you. I hope all will be better and that you gain your weight back. I bet even at 140 you are still as handsome as your avatar pic. Staph infections are scary. I have four wisdom teeth that have to come out before they become badly infected but, I am afraid because of this little virus called HIV.

TaKe Care,

Carolann

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« Reply #16 on: June 06, 2007, 11:55:57 pm »
Hi Jeromy

Just wanted to give you some big old ((((hugs))))

Thinking of you
Jan :-*
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« Reply #17 on: June 06, 2007, 11:57:49 pm »
Hey Jeromy,

Lordy honey, I remember you mentioning the Hep C but then you disappeared.

I am so sorry you are going through this. I have every faith you will be back to your old self again, it just may take a little time.

Know you will be in my thoughts and I will be sending copious amount of healing and energizing energy your way.

Take good care of yourself, please.

HUGS,

Mark
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« Reply #18 on: June 07, 2007, 12:02:10 am »
Jeromy, I'm sorry to hear this. Your movie stories are alot more exciting!

Please take very good care of your sweet self and get back to normal~

Paul
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« Reply #19 on: June 07, 2007, 12:04:15 am »
Jeromy..

I'm so sorry.  Not having heard from you in a long time I was fearing the worst and hoping for the best.  From depression to HEP C to sepsis is, like they say, going from the frying pan into the fire.  I'm sorry it's all such a bitch right now.

However godawful they may be, try those protein drinks like Ensure.  And I do so hope you have someone there to help take care of you.  

All our best

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« Reply #20 on: June 07, 2007, 12:32:45 am »
Jeremy,

I sorry to hear that you are going through this.  I HATE HIV/AIDS too >:(, I hate it so much that I decided it will not beat me, it will not take the best of me.
I know in times like this it is difficult to think clearly, but I know you are going to bounce back from this and you will beat the crap out of HIV/AIDS.
 
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« Reply #21 on: June 07, 2007, 01:42:02 am »
Hey Jeromy, sorry to hear about all this.  Hang in there, the world needs more Ardon Masters. ;)
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« Reply #22 on: June 07, 2007, 02:25:04 am »
Man that sucks, i'm sorry to hear this  >:( I hope your body bounces back soon, you've been through a lot, lately.

Peace,

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« Reply #23 on: June 07, 2007, 02:37:20 am »
Damn Man,
What a biotch of time! You have staff in your blood??? Never heard of that one holly crap! I am sorry this is all happening to you. Hang in the bud, be brave, be strong! Keep us posted!
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Offline JohnOso

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« Reply #24 on: June 07, 2007, 04:48:00 am »
Jeromy,

Sorry that these things are happening to you, man. 

Sending out big furry hugs to make things better for you.

Hang in there, you've got a lot of folks thinking about you.

John

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« Reply #25 on: June 07, 2007, 05:01:35 am »
Jeromy, hang in there. You got yourself a nasty bug to fight with and it will take some time so don't over do yourself. Hope you have a speedy recovery.

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« Reply #26 on: June 07, 2007, 05:50:46 am »
((((((Jeromy))))))

Aw sweetie, this sucks! Keep fighting - you can beat this and come out on top.

I kinda doubt that you would be allowed to start the hep C treatment until you're feeling stronger, but honey, please do start the treatment as soon as you are able. It's a bitch, but it WILL help you in the long run. You know I speak from experience here.

You also know where I am and how to contact me. Don't hesitate! I know how important support is while doing the interferon/ribaviron stuff - and I'm here to give you that support. You can do it, really, you can.

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« Reply #27 on: June 07, 2007, 06:57:49 am »
Hello, Jeromy. I had wondered where you were lately.  I am really sorry to hear you got sick but am glad you are getting better. Hang in there, your weight will go back up and you will be your normal beautiful self, soon. Try not to get too down. Things will get better. Cristy

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« Reply #28 on: June 07, 2007, 07:25:03 am »
Thinking of you Jeromy.

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« Reply #29 on: June 07, 2007, 07:36:25 am »
Jeromy,


Wishing you the best-----Hang tough !!


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« Reply #30 on: June 07, 2007, 09:42:55 am »
Well wishes sent your way!!!

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« Reply #31 on: June 07, 2007, 09:46:38 am »
Jeromy

I'm sad to read about this most recent turn of events. 

Wishing you a speedy recovery from the staph infection, then on to the Hep C.  (As Ann says--do it!)

Take care guy.

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« Reply #32 on: June 07, 2007, 11:27:10 am »
Jeromy my boy like I said in my PM yesterday I hadn't had the chance to read your thread so I just plugged it into my text to speech reader and listened.  I'm so sorry to hear about the hell you've been through since May 24th. I had hoped your absence was for other reasons. I'd often check your profile to check if you signed in but I think it seemed stuck on May 8th. I was just so happy to see you online that I decided to wait until today to read the thread. I know you can beat this! If it wasn't for this fucking PML I'd be in my car headed to Charlotte. I'm sure Jeffrey would understand. (maybe)  ;)
I've been thru the weight loss and it just takes some time. Before PML I was 200+ then with PML I fell below 150 and now I'm struggling to keep it down at 185.

I'm glad you found your way back here where you are loved by many!

HUGS and  :-* :-* :-*

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« Reply #33 on: June 07, 2007, 11:47:04 am »
Jeromy~~~

Damn sweetie, I hope you get better soon. Like the others, I also wondered where you were. Stay home and rest up, find someone to check in on you and take care of your bills etc or better yet do it online if you can. I will be sending my rays of sunshine to you, lovey!!!!
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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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« Reply #34 on: June 07, 2007, 02:39:15 pm »
Sending you a big {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}.
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« Reply #35 on: June 07, 2007, 03:02:03 pm »
Hey!!
Damn I hope you are feeling better. It is June 7th and I don't know what is going on with you, but my hopes and wishes are with you.

I am not poz, but I am living with someone who is and it terrifies me waht he could go through. I love this man with all my heart, and I hope that someone is loving and caring for you just as much!!!

Thinking of you!

Jodi
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« Reply #36 on: June 07, 2007, 03:29:01 pm »
Jeromy,

I wish you were not getting a couple decades worth of medical drama thrown at you in a few weeks, but that's the way things go sometimes.  You may feel like hell, but you still gave me a boner here at the office this afternoon!  WOOF!

Hugs,
David
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09-30-09   208wks VL  2050  CD4 925 (42%)
06-25-08   143wks VL  1359  CD4 668 (32%)  CD8 885
02-11-08   123wks off meds:  VL 1364 CD4 892(40%/0.99 ratio)
10-19-07   112wks off meds:   VL 292  CD4 857(37%/0.85 ratio)

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« Reply #37 on: June 09, 2007, 10:36:56 am »
Hiya kiddo,
I've been thinking of you, and wondered how you are. I am only an hour away. If you need a good nurse, I won't hesitate. PMing you.
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« Reply #38 on: June 09, 2007, 12:42:23 pm »
Jeromy,

I am so sorry about all this. Sending you good, healing thoughts. Rest, keep eating, and be good to yourself. You will heal, it may take longer than you want, but it will happen.

Christine
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« Reply #39 on: June 10, 2007, 05:56:47 pm »
Thank you everyone, for the well wishes!

I see the doctor tomorrow, to see if this PICC comes out or not. I hope it does...and I am officially on disability...didn't think I would need to use that for awhile...thank God I have it.

The headaches seem to have weakend their hold on me, and have lightend up....I still have some nausea, and that is really annoying.

I ventured out to the market today, and I was so winded, it was crazy. A really cute guy asked if he could help me with my buggy, and who am I to turn down assistance? I am not that independent!

But I slept most of the weekend which is what my body needs, rest...and for me to admit that is well, the battle really...I don't admit that I need help and when I do, I really mean it...

I have a couple of friends driving me around cause I am not quite comfortable behind the wheel right now...and I have all of you!!

I have missed you all, and if feels good to be back home!
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« Reply #40 on: June 10, 2007, 06:33:46 pm »
Jeromy,

Glad to hear you are a little better.  Have you asked your doc about Marinol?  It works very well for the nausea, only downfall is you will be stoned for a long time and it doesn't really help if you are having problems keeping anything down.
I hope you keep getting stronger and healthier by the minute.

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« Reply #41 on: June 10, 2007, 06:35:49 pm »
Jeromy,

Glad to hear you are a little better.  Have you asked your doc about Marinol?  It works very well for the nausea, only downfall is you will be stoned for a long time and it doesn't really help if you are having problems keeping anything down.
I hope you keep getting stronger and healthier by the minute.



I am on Marinol...and you are not kidding...it definitely keeps you stoned! It also seems to help with the headaches too...
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« Reply #42 on: June 10, 2007, 07:09:27 pm »
Hey Jeromy..I too am happy to hear that you're a bit better!

Just hang in there and take good care of yourself!

((((((HUGS)))))

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« Reply #43 on: June 10, 2007, 07:20:14 pm »
Hey ....Nice to see you back on the forum and great to hear that Marinol works for you.
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« Reply #44 on: June 10, 2007, 08:03:44 pm »
Glad to hear you are feeling better. Keep it up.  Cristy

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« Reply #45 on: June 10, 2007, 08:12:41 pm »
Jeromy-
  So glad you are feeling better, even if it's only a little bit.  Just keep going and hang in there-things have to get better, right?
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« Reply #46 on: June 10, 2007, 08:36:35 pm »
Why do I get this urge to squeal like a pig when I see you online? OINK  ;) See what you do to me! I'm glad to read you're beginning to feel better. Don't push yourself just yet. I'm glad you have friends there to help you out. Good luck tomorrow at the doctors. Hope he tells you that PICC can come out and that you'll never need that again.

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« Reply #47 on: June 10, 2007, 08:48:46 pm »
Jeromy,
Glad you listened to your body and got some rest.  I love naps when my body calls for them.  They make me feel so good.

Just take your time - only your time and get better. 

Hugs and better days.
Rog 
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« Reply #48 on: June 10, 2007, 09:50:33 pm »
Have you asked your doc about Marinol?  It works well...only downfall is you will be stoned for a long time.


Wait...it's downfall is what?     ;D



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« Reply #49 on: June 11, 2007, 01:48:03 am »

Wait...it's downfall is what?     ;D



And to J:   :-*

that's why she prescribed every fours as needed! lol
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