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Title: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: lydgate on June 25, 2006, 01:42:40 am
So I called the suicide helpline tonight. Third time in three months. Whataweakling, right? Right. I don't know what's going on. You know what? Shouting at my HMO helps.
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: Matty the Damned on June 25, 2006, 01:48:56 am
Jay,

Bubeleh! What the greasy poop is going on? You know my Yahoo! messenger? Buzz me! I'm here to chat whenever you need to.

MtD
(Who knows about this stuff)
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: jkinatl2 on June 25, 2006, 01:51:26 am
Suicide is only painless for the guy offing himself. If then.

You must have WAY more faith in your religion than I do :)

Seriously, what's the dilly? Talk to us.

Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: Sdgirl on June 25, 2006, 01:57:48 am
Hey, I don't know you but I am not feeling great about what you said in your thread, I am always here if you need to talk, sometimes a stranger is a new found friend.

All my contact information is in my profile.  ANYTIME....

Lisa
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: Matty the Damned on June 25, 2006, 01:59:23 am
See Babe? Three of the most fabulous members of AIDSMEDS are at your beck and call! You're not alone Jay.

MtD
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: Dachshund on June 25, 2006, 08:54:38 am
No lectures-just listening. We are hear when you need us. Give us a try.

Hal
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: kcmetroman on June 25, 2006, 09:01:11 am
Hey there..

There is always a solution.  Trish and I are just down the road in KC.... If you need to talk face to face, please let us know.
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: RapidRod on June 25, 2006, 09:57:52 am
Suicide is never painless.
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: Christine on June 25, 2006, 10:01:39 am
Whataweakling, right?

No, just the opposite. Smart and strong. You recognized something was bothering you, and you reached out for a helping hand. Very smart.

You can reach out here too. We want to help.
Christine
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: Andy Velez on June 25, 2006, 10:06:29 am
Jay, how did you get the idea that asking for help means you're a "weakling"?

Tell us some more about what's going on.

Cheers,
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: DanielMark on June 25, 2006, 10:29:56 am
Quote
Suicide is never painless.

Especially for those left behind.

Daniel
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: bear60 on June 25, 2006, 11:15:50 am
Hi ......Gosh...I don't know you that well but here on AIDSMEDS there is so much support.
 MY observation is this:  a close friend of mine who has been on every HIV drug known to man and who has suffered a lot from side effects and OI's....was admitted to the psych wing of the hospital because he was suicidal.  It turned out that his anti depressants were messing him up mentaly.  After he and his doctor worked out the right prescriptions and doses he was FINE!!!!!!
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: CalvinC on June 25, 2006, 12:22:52 pm

Hey Jay

Suicide is not painless for those you leave behind. Take a moment and consider them; it helps to get outside your head.

And you do sense this, otherwise you would not call a hotline. Do you have access to resources in your town? You're a smart guy and you know how the system works, so take adavantage of it.

Suicide is often an idealization that helps us cope. But if you are finding it overwhelming, please please please seek help, beyond hotlines, and beyond us, who are behind you 100%.

Andrew
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: DanielMark on June 25, 2006, 02:17:56 pm
My sentiments exactly, Andrew.

Daniel
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: Eldon on June 25, 2006, 10:29:09 pm
there is support for you all around you. No Lectures, just being friends.
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: DCGuy511 on June 25, 2006, 11:18:02 pm
Jay,
I hope you are doing okay. There are a lot of people here if you need to talk.

Steve
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: anniebc on June 26, 2006, 01:21:17 am
Hi Jay

You certainly have a good support team here, and quite a few people you can call on...so talk to them, let them know what is going on..I'm sure you will find the answer to your problems.

Thinking of you

Hugs
Jan :-*
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: Optimistic on June 26, 2006, 03:43:57 am
May I ask why you feel this way? 

Justin
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: lydgate on June 27, 2006, 03:04:07 pm
Sorry to alarm all you guys. I'm fine. Seriously, no false assurances, fine. That post was written while a bit, erm, drunk. Which led to what I call a brief (but rather intense) "spasm." Passed in an hour. Not minimizing that I was hurting; but definitely a bit of boozy drama queenery there. I'm staying at a friend's, taking a few days off from the internet. Will be back here soon, with posts both verbose and succinct. Thanks for all your messages of support, they mean a lot to me.

Jay
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: Teresa on June 27, 2006, 03:35:13 pm
Glad that your ok and your staying with a friend. Maybe you should stay away from the booze.

Just something to think about.

Again glad that your ok. Hurry back!

Hugs
Teresa
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: krakerjm on June 27, 2006, 04:00:02 pm
Maybe I've been away too long or is there too much talk of suicide here now?  Jay, we all have bad days, especially when we drink: alcohol is a depressant you know, glad you sobered up, isn't that easy for some.  But the idea that you are having these thoughts when you drink may be something to consider and look into.
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: Matty the Damned on June 27, 2006, 05:50:51 pm
Jay,

Don't sweat it. As they say, "friends don't let friends drink and post." ;)

Fondly,

MtD
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: Moffie65 on June 27, 2006, 06:02:03 pm
but definitely a bit of boozy drama queenery there.
Jay


Hey Jay,

I guess I missed this one and I am sorry, but in honor of your new status, I now forward this jpeg, and beg you to use it creatively.  ;D

In Love.

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Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: david25luvit on June 27, 2006, 07:26:47 pm
Jay.......


             Like others have said suicide is not painless.  Having tried with three handfuls of narcotics I didn't realize the pain I was giving others until I found myself still around.  Seeing the pain in their eyes made me realize just how selfish I was being........Suicide is not Painless.  Its Cruel!

             Give us more feedback.....What's going on with ya?  We're here for you!
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: Life on June 27, 2006, 08:31:54 pm
Jay,  I will kill you if you do anyting like this! ::)   "Long Term Solution, to a Short Term Problem!"

Besides,  I like you!!

Love :D
Title: Re: new topic... suicide is painless
Post by: CalvinC on June 28, 2006, 02:25:49 pm

Thanks for the update Jay.

I'm around.

Andrew