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HIV Prevention and Testing => Do I Have HIV? => Topic started by: sacredchamp on October 11, 2012, 06:37:39 pm

Title: need help. Validate my risk
Post by: sacredchamp on October 11, 2012, 06:37:39 pm
Hi all. Here is what happened.
Last saturday i went out to by few things since it was crowed i was just waiting
infront of that shop. There was another guy who was standing beside me and
he was looking at me very weirdly. I was little drunk and before that i accidently
collide with him and said sorry. He didn't say anything. As of i remember he took
something from that shop and left. I brought whatever i needed and left that place.
I was approximately there in that place for 2 Min.

While coming back this thought popped up in my mind and actually i've been fearing
for this disease and i've tested myself 8 times in last one year. But honestly i don't know
why that needle thought came in my mind. I never thought about such incidents.

My mind said i saw something like needle in his hand. I came home removed my shirt and
checked my back and ass and Arm everything was fine. No pain nothing.

Next day evening i noticed a tiny red hole which absolute looks like a needle puncture
in my hand in the side where he was standing. It's exactly in my left hand near
last finger but behind my palm. Almost near my last finger bone.  i pressed little hardly
and blood came. Now i'm terrified that he might have injected something. But when i was
standing and while coming back home and while checking i didn't check this part but
i absolutely didn't feel any pinch pain at that part. I'm trying to tell that if he had pricked i would have
known but i was little intoxicated that time which again makes me worry because i was out of mind.

Somebody please help me :(
Title: Re: need help. Validate my risk
Post by: jkinatl2 on October 11, 2012, 08:03:12 pm
Under no circumstances was this an HIV event.

The whole urban legend of people poking others with infected needles is fiction.

He would have had to draw blood from himself (assuming he as HIV positive, a psychopath, and had a huge viral load) and then IMMEDIATELY inject you with that blood. Not just poke you. Actually inject that blood into you. That hurts, and it hurts a lot.

I sincerely hope you can find a mental health counselor to assist you in overcoming this irrational fear of HIV.

You were not poked with an HIV tainted needle by some stranger in a store. You weren't.

Title: Re: need help. Validate my risk
Post by: sacredchamp on October 11, 2012, 11:45:25 pm
Hi sir thanks for the reply. I know this can't happen. But problem is i saw a wound which was exactly like a needle mark. Today is 6th day i still see that. Few questions.

1. How long the needle should go inside the skin to reach blood stream. I mean my wound is almost 1mm deep, i didn't bleed much, the wound is near my bone.

2. At the worst case scenario if he'd injected blood by inserting needle 1mm depth under skin, would blood be injected to blood stream or it just doesnt? I want to move on but following the incident, that wound size location of that wound making me sick.  also my body temp was 97 during morning. But from 2 days my body temp is 97.5 at morning around 8am reaches to 99 by evening. I always feel chill and hot at day time.
Title: Re: need help. Validate my risk
Post by: jkinatl2 on October 12, 2012, 12:37:09 am
It would be virtually impossible to get a needle one mm under your skin and then inject anything in any environment outside a medical facility. Such care and skill would take two people keeping very still, and the person injecting would need a very delicate touch. In addition, injecting anything into you would take at least a few seconds with the needle inside you while the plunger was pushed.

Also, it would hurt, and leave more than just a tiny red mark.

What you are worrying about is pure fiction. I am afraid I cannot "validate" your risk. It's an invalid scenario, and it would be cruel to pursue this line of reasoning with you further.

I sincerely hope that you seek out counseling to overcome this irrational fear of HIV.

Title: Re: need help. Validate my risk
Post by: sacredchamp on October 12, 2012, 05:33:21 am
Hi sir. Yes i know i surely need a mental health professional and i'll go soon. This incident happened on saturday night and when i checked nothing was seen but i didn't check my fingers. I remember on sunday night, some of the skin around the wound i am talking was elevated it was like peeling off and i remember removing that skin from my finger and it hurt that time. But when i saw it on monday evening it was very deep and i could see my bloody flesh inside. I want to know can skin peel off when someone put needle into finger. I don't know why i got that wound not able to recollect. It's not very tiny also. There are heavy cockroaches in my room and some of the cockroaches Might have bitten me near tat finger or may be bed bugs i'm hoping. Hope you could shred some light. Thanks

i don't even know if somebody can inject like that. Because i was there in that shop for almost a minute.
And even the wound size looks bigger than needle tip size.

Since the skin was off my mind says he might have injected from some angle. :( i'm thinking about this too much and days are like hell
Title: Re: need help. Validate my risk
Post by: Ann on October 12, 2012, 08:08:31 am
scared,

Yes, you are thinking about this NO RISK situation too much. Far too much.

Please re-read everything Jonathan has written. The whole scenario you are worried about is nothing more than an urban legend, and urban legends do not infect people with hiv.

You said you have tested eight times in one year and unless you're going around having unprotected intercourse with loads of people, that's just overkill. It points to a serious hiv phobia problem and you need to address that in an appropriate setting with a qualified therapist. An internet website is NOT an appropriate setting and we are not therapists.

You have NOT had a risk for hiv infection.

Ann