Author Topic: An Apology (Read 5104 times)

Joe K · « **on:** October 07, 2010, 12:38:43 pm »

Dear Forum Members,

I want to apologize for my abhorrent behavior these past few days. I am trying a new medication to treat my PTSD and it appears that what it does best, is to make me a raving lunatic. As I read some of my recent posts, I am appalled by my actions and while it may be due to the drug, that is simply an explanation and never an excuse. I remain responsible for my actions and I am truly sorry for acting like a real jerk.

Ann · « **Reply #1 on:** October 07, 2010, 12:48:39 pm »

Thank you for the apology, Joe, it is much appreciated.

I know first hand how some meds can change one's behaviour. Half the battle is recognising what's going on and then acting accordingly. You've done this, so kudos to you.

Hugs,
Ann
xxx

skeebo1969 · « **Reply #2 on:** October 07, 2010, 01:31:21 pm »

Nuff respect Joe. (((HUGS)))

peteb · « **Reply #3 on:** October 07, 2010, 02:02:31 pm »

HUGS

phildinftlaudy · « **Reply #4 on:** October 07, 2010, 02:05:59 pm »

Love you Joe!

denb45 · « **Reply #5 on:** October 07, 2010, 02:34:36 pm »

Quote from: killfoile on October 07, 2010, 12:38:43 pm

Dear Forum Members,

I want to apologize for my abhorrent behavior these past few days. I am trying a new medication to treat my PTSD and it appears that what it does best, is to make me a raving lunatic. As I read some of my recent posts, I am appalled by my actions and while it may be due to the drug, that is simply an explanation and never an excuse. I remain responsible for my actions and I am truly sorry for acting like a real jerk.

Joe, no need, I feel Ya! I've been bouncing off walls too, my LORAZEPAM isn't working for me anymore
and I really need to get something else, like you I have Battled & Struggled w/ PTSD for a long time, Joe
here's a Big {{{HUG}}} you know were all here for ya, and you'll NEVER walk alone

john33 · « **Reply #6 on:** October 07, 2010, 02:50:04 pm »

Joe here's hoping you get the medication issue sorted for your own peace of mindµ.

Joining everyone else in giving you a hug!!

John

PeteNYNJ · « **Reply #7 on:** October 07, 2010, 03:30:45 pm »

It takes a big man to apologize and admit mistakes. I hope you get the med situation figured out.

I remember a few years back I went onto a new antidepressant (Effexor) that made me feel like a paranoid speed freak. It was not very fun.

xo

Pete

tednlou2 · « **Reply #8 on:** October 07, 2010, 10:44:01 pm »

When I see people I know or strangers go off and act bitchy, I try to think what may be going on in their lives. I remember going off on my ex and friends years ago at a bar in front of many people. It was a really bad scene. I'm sure they all thought I was some crazy bitch. My partner looked like the angel and I looked like the monster. They didn't know I had been dealing with him cheating on me and the friends covering for him.

So, I try not to pass judgment on isolated events. If they are always mean and bitchy, I suppose that is a different story.

GSOgymrat · « **Reply #9 on:** October 07, 2010, 11:59:25 pm »

I figured something was going on that some of the typical foolishness on here was rattling your cage. I hope your meds get straightened out and you feel better.

jkinatl2 · « **Reply #10 on:** October 08, 2010, 01:20:07 am »

Joe, I wish that I was, on my best day, as rational as you are on your worst.

You have all my admiration.

JK

Hellraiser · « **Reply #11 on:** October 08, 2010, 02:03:50 am »

I was really wondering what was going on with you. While you tend to have no problem with confrontation it did seem to be getting out of hand. I'm glad to have the old Joe back.

Joe K · « **Reply #12 on:** October 08, 2010, 01:09:43 pm »

Thank you all for your kind words. Having stopped the drug, I feel myself returning to normal and I just want to add a little something if I might. The reason I apologized is because I behaved badly and I have enough respect, for the members here, so that you deserved an apology. For me, the only way that I can be truly effective here, or anywhere, is to lead by example. I have no problem admitting my human foibles, as that is the string that binds us all. I like to believe, that others may witness my transgressions and apologies and realize that redemption is always possible and desirable.

I never claimed to be perfect and for me, an apology was my only option. Anything less would be unfaithful to the person that I know I am. Anything less would be an insult to the members here. Never underestimate the power of forgiveness, nor the power of saying "I'm sorry".

Merlin · « **Reply #13 on:** October 08, 2010, 06:53:42 pm »

Joe, from your humility, goodwill and usual sensibility, you are already on the right drug-yourself !

Blessed Be ! Peace !

Joe K · « **Reply #14 on:** October 08, 2010, 07:28:22 pm »

Quote from: Merlin on October 08, 2010, 06:53:42 pm

Joe, from your humility, goodwill and usual sensibility, you are already on the right drug-yourself !

Blessed Be ! Peace !

Thank you Merlin. That is one of the nicest compliments that I have ever received.

denb45 · « **Reply #15 on:** October 08, 2010, 07:38:17 pm »

Joe, what meds were you on? and if you don't mind sharing with me, in a public-open forum, you can always PM me, how did they make you feel, I'm currently on Lorazepam ,to treat my PTSD for the last 8 yrs. but, Benzos aren't a very good choice, and they are no longer working out for me, so, I'm in the process of seeing my doctor and trying something a lot less harmful, problem is, I cannot do antidepressants, I've tried a lot of them before pre 2001-2002, and they just don't work on me, I ended up on a 72 hour-Mental-Health-Hold
due to taking antidepressants back then

sharkdiver · « **Reply #16 on:** October 08, 2010, 07:51:12 pm »

Hey Joe,

I think that part of the reason why we come here is that over the years we have become a community. A community that sees past all of the occasional outbursts and snarkiness at times and really sees the true heart of the person.
I admire your passion, your strength and your ability to express anger. Thank you for being honest with your feelings. You are a good man.

Sharkie

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