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Main Forums => Positive Women => Topic started by: TabooPrincess on May 22, 2009, 03:08:57 pm
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Hello :)
I've finally found some courage to post on here - I've been reading people's stories for a while now and it's been so so so so helpful.
A bit about me. I seroconverted in August last year and was diagnosed in October. The more I've found out the more convinced I am that my boyfriend already knew his status, but that story is for another day and we're still together now , albeit very very up and down. There is much much more hurt and pain with this relationship that I feel I can go into at the moment - I still fear that telling people the full extent of what he has done to me and what I have put up with will result in them teling me to leave him. I can't leave him. Not now anyway...and I'm hoping that in time I will be able to trust again.
I've been through every emotion that every woman on here seems to have gone thru and as such I feel I've found people who finally undestand the dark days. Mostly I feel like a fool - I've never been a risk taker and always had boyfriends tested before unprotected sex - current boyfriend swore to me he had been tested and I trusted and believed. That trust has left me with a life-long virus.
I have vowed that this is a secret that will remain with me until I die, perhaps it's some kind of denial at the moment but it's all I've got.
Anyway, my CD4 counts are good and the doctors have told me it'll *probably* be at least 5 years before I need medication.
I'm in England and in my late 20s - would be very interested to speak with woman in a similar situation to myself.
'It is what it is'
TabooPrincess :)
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Welcome TP you are in the right place, there is love and support here and no judgement.
I wish you the best.
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Hi TP. Welcome. I look forward to getting to know you.