Lostgirl:
What can I say? I logged on this morning feeling low having not slept well and found wonderful replies to my first post from some wonderful women. Of course I cried! However, now I feel a sense of empowerment (can't say how long it will last but it is good just now!) and if I have stolen some of your strength ladies I will try and give it back some day when you need it!
Briefly, I will let you know a little about myself. I have posted a new topic mainly because I am not sure how to reply (via thread?) to each of you so the whole of my life is now a new learning curve in everything! I am 51 years old (used to feel about 20 years younger now feel 20 years older!) and from a small rural village in NE Scotland but have now lived in Texas for a year. We moved here thro my husband's work and hence I feel very alone with the news he gave me and you ladies were the first I could offload onto, not having any close friends here. What makes things especially bad is we were holding onto our home in Scotland but my husband felt we would be better off selling as we were to be here till we retire. He had his suspicions about his status when he persuaded me to sell but didn't share hence I now have no home near my family and makes it so difficult to even consider moving back. Maybe I am meant to stay here then and work it out with him.
Did not realise just how far across the world all you ladies were and hearing from you all was fantastic. I used to live in Holland many, many years ago and absolutely loved it and the people. NZ I would love to go to (my sister is going this year - lucky soul!) as I had a penfriend there for many years. Thank you to all the Scottish ladies replying - made me feel at home (I could just hear your accents as I read the words!) and for those of you who have not been to Scotland but love it - how wise you are! It is a fantastic country with fantastic people (but then again so are many other places and people!) and I hope for those of you who would like to travel will make it one day.
Thank you again and I will keep reading the Forums for inspiration. Thank you for my warm welcome.
Dragonette:
Hi Lostgirl
Sent you a PM
Take care,
emeraldize:
LG: To be clear in case I confused you, I'm of Scottish blood, but sadly, not birth. When you want to add to a thread, simply go to very bottom of the last post and you'll see the buttons to use. Glad you're here and holy cow you're in the US!!! Yeah for our team. However, sorry to hear about the lack of homeland domicile which limits your choices. EM
BT65:
Hey Lost: Glad you're finding your way on here. There are wonderful people here and they are all a great support. Hope to hear more!
Lostgirl:
Update from Lostgirl. Your positive vibes and words worked wonders this morning. After feeling so sorry for myself, I pulled my socks up (actually I'm not wearing any - just flips flops, but you know what I mean!) and forced myself to phone a couple of (female) infectious disease specialists and eventually (I didn't give up!) spoke to this fantastic nurse who wouldn't give me the chance to hang up before I gave my name and phone number, gave me some advice which I put into action and am now awaiting an appointment for more blood work etc. It was great to actually talk to somebody who could take charge (just for the moment!) and get me moving! Hurrah for me! (I'm making the most of this positive moment - life is too much of a roller coaster to take it for granted!). One downside in concentrating on me is that I feel a bit more removed from my hubby but I'll work on that. I know there are rocky times ahead, but hopefully some good ones as well. I have already found the best ones and that is everybody on this forum. Thank you and my best wishes to you all.