...and I think it's gonna rain today...

[Strayboy74]

I lost my job.  I suspect it's mostly because i'm gay, and don't integrate well into the boys club of golfing and unending drinks.  It is what it is, though, and I strangely feel relieved.  Relieved and lost.

My cycles of emotion have slowed down a great deal, and I'm starting to feel a sense of 'okay'.

I'm wondering what the next step is.  Where to go-what to do, and with the skills I've acquired, I can go many places....  I just don't know where that is to be yet.

There is an overwhelm above me and although I've pulled the cards many times, I can see only good things of this departure in employment.  Perhaps it is anxiety, a sense of failure, or maybe even just gas.  Life will just have to resolve it.

-joseph

[Hellraiser]

I lost my job.  I suspect it's mostly because i'm gay, and don't integrate well into the boys club of golfing and unending drinks.  It is what it is, though, and I strangely feel relieved.  Relieved and lost.

Dude, I've totally been there.  I used to work with three guys who were thick as thieves.  They talked about the "hot chicks" we worked with constantly.  They also didn't care for me and I wasn't really included in anything they did.  I was also by group consensus given all the shit work.  I was happy not to have to deal with them in any way possible.  Eventually this all came to a head where I slammed my keys down on a desk and said "I quit, and fuck all y'all".  I walked my ass out, I went home, and I cried like a girl.  The next day I felt like I had made possibly the best decision of my life.  Work should not be that stressful or uncomfortable.  You're most likely better off.