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Off Topic Forums => Off Topic Forum => Topic started by: heartforyou on November 01, 2007, 07:08:55 pm
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My therapist explained to me that, in difficult situations I let the small vulnarable kid in me take over and let people walk all over me.
From the other side he said I show the strength and the power of a boxer. Like two different sides in me.
He told me : It is all in the mind. Just let the small kid grow up and train the boxer.
I thought it would be interesting for many of us to sort of visualise that image.
But, he also said that I always seem to choose an adversary from 2 categories higher then mine. Seems like I always need a challenge.
Am I a masochist or just a stubborn, driven fighter????
Anyone recognises that mechanism?
Hermie
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do themes of justice resonate with you? what about the story of david versus goliath? i don't know about pyscho stuff i'm just throwing things into the mix! interesting post
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;) Hi Hermie,
I can definitely relate to what you are saying. Coming from an abusive father and a mother who lost her path getting involved with drugs later on, I've never been accepted by my family. Add to that, my sexual orientation, HIV, and the fact that I have a hard time accepting I am gay, I always feel the sense of wanting to be loved and fitting in.
I tend to allow people to walk over me simply because I want people to love, like, and accept me. At this point in my life, I recognize this, but I still have a long way to go with working on this. I am making very slow progress but I feel it's better than nothing at all.
I am fortunate to have a partner (as well as, his family) who is loving, supportive, and patient, so I try to focus on being thankful for this, as well as a supportive sister.
What's strange is that I tend to be a fairly shy guy but most people get the opposite impression because of my appearance, since I competitively bodybuild. A lot of people make negative comments about it and say I'm taking steroids or trying to show off. I am definitely the last guy to ever even think I am better than anyone, so those comments make me feel bad but I usually keep it to myself.
I think the fact that you recognize your behavior means you're making great progress, so I would say you're a driven fighter committed to making success in your life's journey. I would hope you look at a challenge meaning that you're strengthening yourself mentally.
Take care and be well,
Marco-Antonio
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Thank you guys.
I talked to my therapist tonight and realise I have a long way to go.
Marco, yes , i can hear you.
thanks for the inspiration.
Love
hermie
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Sweet Hermie,
What ever it is that makes you tick, it's the reason that Ric and I love you so much.
We know that you will come to grips with this and that you will always come out on top.
Love and hugs, T&R