**WARNING: THIS IS A VERY LONG POST, LOL!**
*EMPTY YOUR BLADDER AND GET A DRINK FIRST!*
Hi Sun~
I admire your willpower, since you haven't sent a text to Cop#1 yet, woo-hoo! But, GF, WHAT is happening with the drinking and exposing your goods, well "one" "good", lol? Have to laugh, cause "Brick House" just started playing on my computer! "She's lettin' it all hang out!" Picturing you dancing around , tipsy and happy as a bird, lol! I don't drink, either, maybe you'd better mix in some water next time, in between? And you mistakenly sent a text to a coworker, a third guy? Yikes! But, hey, at least the evening was eventful?! :o
Hi Viv~
Welcome back! Yes it HAS been awhile! Get in here and tell us what's going on in your life, it doesn't have to always be about dating, if that's not your thing right now, honest! :)
Hi Queen~
I really hope you're feeling better today. Have you eaten much? Just rest and I will try to catch you tonight....but if you have no appetite tomorrow, I would call the doc.
Last night at my parents' was a little bit of everything, lol. At first I was running around, getting overheated, clearly working even harder than the wife of the birthday boy, who planned this entire thing. She is a ditz, if you ask me, lol, oh well.
I had to go lay down in my old bedroom and cool off around 730pm or so, changed my clothes, redid my make-up and went outside under the tent. Mostly older people and bday boy family there, but it was nice to meet everyone. I just mingled and introduced myself. Later on, three guys show up, one with a fiance, and two single guys. At one point, I was giving one guy a tour of my parents home and making small talk, nice guy, we talked about football. Skins were playing last night.... We went outside and I mingled a little more, there were about 25 people there and it was dark out, tiki torches lit, tunes going -- hell, I was in my element, but getting rather tired of listening to Buffet on Sirius at this point. LOL
One of the three guys introduced himself to me, as a matter of fact, he made SURE he introduced himself to me. He brought a soft cooler with his own beer and I kept teasing him that it looked like a diaper bag, lol! Mom got drunk off of too much white wine and not enough to eat -- she nearly did a header into the bushes, and we started howling with laughter! It was a riot, she drinks wine every day, but to see her laughing, and dancing and then almost falling on her head when she went to sit down, omg! I went to get her some water.
Sat with mom and told her briefly about Doc in a nutshell...doctor, knows smooth jazz artists, scuba dives, same bday as Dad, doesn't know my status.....Didn't say he was 51 though. Mom just turned 60 and Dad is 58, lol! Meanwhile, Buffet Parrothead tunes are REALLY getting boring, so I go try to talk with the "younger crowd" some, lol! I comment on the music and the guy who made sure he introduced himself to me earlier said he had a laptop with zillions of tunes on it. We hooked it up to the stereo and I kept telling him what tunes to play. You should have seen my mother. She apparently got her second wind, lol! There were only about five of us dancing in the driveway, but it was so much fun! We put on "Can't Touch This" and mom and I let ourselves go! Asses were a wigglin'! Keep in mind Mom is very petite, 5 feet tall, and LOVES to dance, isn't shy at all! So, I was right there with her, we nearly fell over many times, she was drunk and my neck/perception thing was working against me, teetering in my little heels, until later when I worked that mother out! Lynch Mob's "Wicked Sensation came on and I almost wet my pants! I did a 360 and flipped my hair completely around in a circle, bending at the waist! We didn't keep that song on for long, apparently there were only two metalheads at this party, myself and the "DJ".............. You shoulda seen the look on his face after that move I did, lmao!
So, here is DJ, as I will now dub him, standing next to me, and we are looking at tunes scrolling by on his computer in the dark. He moves in close and says, right in my ear, "Oh my gosh, I'd love to take you to dinner sometime, I'd come up here and see you and take you wherever you want to go...."
HUH? WTF did that come from? LOL I look at DJ with his beer goggles on and immediately think that I am unworthy, that he's just too drunk to see I'm nothing, really. And then, not even a split second later, I look him right in the eye, in the glow of the tiki torches, give him a huge smile and hear my voice reply "I would love that! I'll give you my number!" WTF did THAT come from? It was like an out-of-body experience, lmao! Mouth opened and spoke while brain was saying Nooooooooooo! :o LOL Here I am, HOin' myself out at my parent's house, and he is trying to put his arm around me....I had to take something inside, so I slid away and went inside for a moment to collect my thoughts.
NEVER expected anything to come of last night. Mom caught up with me dancing again later and whispered, "He likes you.....!" I told her I would have Dad check with the birthday boy, since DJ is a good childhood friend of bday boy's. Dad said he would investigate for me, lol!
What a shitstorm THAT scenario could be, if I dated this guy, disclosed, then he tells bday boy, and bday boy who works for my Dad knows my story? Bday boy is a good guy, like family to us, and this is all putting the cart WAY before the horse here, just daydreaming about "what ifs" but I always find that I am trying to protect my parents from my status. I just need to stop it already. Here I am, placing the stigma "shitstorm" on an entirely hypothetical scenario.
I have been dating all kinds of guys this year, DJ just turned 34 last March. Oh my, a young one, not usually my type these younger ones (I will be 38 in Nov), and he is just starting a divorce, but I can certainly be a friend or date some if he wants. He lives 70 miles south of me in Virginia, but what the hell, right? After all, he DID see me in my element, with the 360 and all, lol!
So, the evening was fun and I was trying to be discreet about DJ after he left. We were standing around, some of us, including both of my parents, and Mom said again "He likes you....." I said, I know, Mom, and pulled his biz card out of my drink kozy, lol. Talked to Dad later one-on-one as I was leaving and that's when he said he would ask bday boy about DJ's details, lol. Dad is so cool! (DJ called today and we spoke for an hour, he offered again to come up and take me out. I know he wasn't drunk this time, lol! We'll see what happens, as he is just starting that messy divorce.....)
So, back to last night, it's 1230am, and I am rolling down my parent's driveway in the country, ready to head home and I check my cell. Ooooh! I have a VM! I listen and its Stone! I finally got to hear his voice! Very well-spoken man, and such a flirt! I was happy at what I heard! He has his child this weekend, so I haven't called back, but I've emailed him. We missed each other online last night, but I may try to call again later this evening. Just not sure what his schedule is with the little one.
Haven't heard from Doc, but honestly, I am distracted by Stone now. With him there is absolutely nothing to hide, as he is pos, too! (Yes, ladies, ML is actually in touch with a pos guy in HER area who seems worthy!). This leaves me feeling vulnerable, which is a good thing for me. I have put in some of my personal ads this year that "I want a man who can make me feel vulnerable again, because I have become so guarded."
I KNOW why I have become guarded, because I have been dipping in the neggie dating pool, and fearing disclosure left and right. I have to talk to Stone tonight, see what he's about. I have a feeling we will be meeting very soon! I can't wait! OMG ;D :D ;D :D :P
Needless to say, I didn't go to the club to see the band last night near my house. It was 1am when I passed by it on my way home. I got home and Mr. Good Zip Code was online, and I apologized for not making it. He said the band was too loud (what? a band is NEVER too loud!) and he said the music was "OK." Turns out there were about 6 of his HS buddies with him at a table last night. Now can you imagine IF I did go, and I was at a table with 6 men, and then JAY is in the club somewhere, too? Probably would've been too overwhelmed.
I woke up today and the first thing I thought of when I opened my eyes was Jay, it kind of surprised me, I was still fuzzy from sleeping.....and then immediately I realized I couldn't remember his last name. I panicked and then I quickly smiled to myself. Perhaps I am letting go now, after a month of not being in touch, after 6 weeks of not seeing him. I knew I would be OK eventually, as now he is slowly slipping away. Besides, Stone is on my horizon. I want him to bench press me already, lol! :P
Stay Tuned!
~Cindy
P.S. - The F'N doorbell went nuts today AGAIN! FOREVER! Around 4pm I looked outside and there was Jim's truck. I yelled, "KNOCK IT OFF!" towards the front windows and almost popped a blood vessel. Man, I sounded MEAN, lol! Surprised myself, even! As he was pulling away, I sent a text to his cell: "Stop it, pls. & respect my privacy in the future." I have my phone turned off now but will go to see what dumbshit he prob sent back to me. Now he has my # again, no excuse not to call ahead! Hah!