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Author Topic: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like  (Read 3578 times)

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Offline Amosboy

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PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« on: January 05, 2007, 09:39:43 pm »
I have just spent the last fifteen minutes reading a long, "headache inducing" post in the LIVING WITH HIV section of the forums.  I feel sad and quite honestly, a little nauseous.  I don't consider myself shallow or prone to see the world through rose-colored glasses; however, I tend to look for the best in what life has to offer.  I suppose I am what you would call a self-preservationist and I can be empathetic to a fault at times.  Perhaps, I'm having some problems shaking off the shit tonight.  I am a firm believer in the power of communication, especially when it comes from another person who is actually sitting next to you.  Nothing....I mean NOTHING can replace the subtlety of "face-to-face" exchanges.  So much more can happen within a mere glance, flirtatious wink or soft smile.  I think it has become too easy for people to sit in front of their black boxes and throw things out without real fear of repercussions.  For the longest time I was so "anti-computer" and refused to engage in any online exploration.  I thought it would somehow dehumanize me.  I felt more comfortable grasping my pen and writing something on paper or taking my paints and splashing some color on a canvas.  Even more so, I actually liked being around other people.  Perhaps, this was the hopeless romantic notion left in my head of fairytale endings and true intimate connections with other human beings.  Of course, I finally made the leap into the modern world and have had great opportunities to connect with people from all over the world, talking about music, art, sex, dreams, life, and death.  Still, it has always left me wanting more...not ever really giving me the intimacy that I continuously crave...that "face-to-face" intimacy.  I find it most disheartening to see so much crap and needless time and energy being wasted on all of this "tit for tat" bullshit.  I am right back to where I started when I first started posting on AidsMeds in December...sort of feeling disillusioned about it all.  I have found some great people here but we've spent most of our time being silly, sensual, honest, and (sometimes) naughty through PMs to each other...outside of the public eye.  Maybe that's why I spend more time in the "Off Topic" forums these days.  I feel like I worked through a lot of my own demons with regards to being HIV positive and I'm just more interested in finding some guys and gals to share some laughs (and tears) with more privately.  I guess I'm not wanting to change the world enough to spread myself all over the place on here.  Or maybe, I am just tired of feeling bad and I'm looking for positive (no pun intended) reinforcement.  I don't have the energy to spew or get so carried away with people who are "safely" sitting behind their black boxes.  It's too easy to be a fucking bastard on here.  You can't actually see the pain that you are inflicting on people.  I have enough shit to deal with at my job and with everyday living to get stuck in a web of unnecessary emotional complexity.  I'll keep it simple and fun as long as I'm able to...when the real "shit" hits the fan, I'll be able to look back and say, "I had a fucking good time, sharing some laughs and tears with people who really cared about living and making the most of it."

Brooks
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Offline Iggy

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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #1 on: January 05, 2007, 11:11:51 pm »
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« Last Edit: January 09, 2007, 11:34:01 pm by Iggy »

Offline Amosboy

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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #2 on: January 05, 2007, 11:37:02 pm »
I prefer porn to puke.  Tom of Finland is more my thing.  Nothing can replace the subtlety and intimacy of having a fucking chain around your neck.
"Love isn't love unless it's not painfully absurb."

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Offline Iggy

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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #3 on: January 05, 2007, 11:39:10 pm »
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« Last Edit: January 09, 2007, 11:33:40 pm by Iggy »

Offline thunter34

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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #4 on: January 05, 2007, 11:43:21 pm »
Who is J Lawson?  I'm clue free on that one.  Hell, I didn't even know who Rachel Ray was until I read it on here a few weeks back.  Is my gay card gonna get revoked?
AIDS isn't for sissies.

Offline Amosboy

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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #5 on: January 05, 2007, 11:44:18 pm »
(For Iggy)

I'm glad we got that shit out of the way...now send me some skin...and don't be shy about it.  I'm over the whole cat and mouse BS...besides, I seem to remember making a comment about your mouse killing pussy a while back...that avatar was yours, if I recall correctly.

Brooks
« Last Edit: January 05, 2007, 11:46:34 pm by Amosboy »
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Offline Amosboy

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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #6 on: January 05, 2007, 11:46:01 pm »
J. Lawson is one of many sappy eCard artists who are responsible for filling your email box with shit from time to time.
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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #7 on: January 05, 2007, 11:46:10 pm »
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« Last Edit: January 09, 2007, 11:33:20 pm by Iggy »

Offline Amosboy

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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #8 on: January 05, 2007, 11:48:25 pm »
I'm feeling nauseous again   >:(
"Love isn't love unless it's not painfully absurb."

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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #9 on: January 05, 2007, 11:49:08 pm »
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« Last Edit: January 09, 2007, 11:32:59 pm by Iggy »

Offline Queen Tokelove

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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #10 on: January 06, 2007, 01:19:43 am »
Amosboy,

I feel ya. I have been more in the Off Topic than anything also. Not to say that I don't like contributing to other threads when I can. Due to some of the drama as of late, I have been more subdued. Just mainly reading and throwing a joke or 2 out there when possible. As of late, I kinda feel like I'm walking on eggshells though because people have been kinda touchy about things. You know it's bad when you try to send a word of encouragement to someone and it's dissected to meaning a whole 'nother thing.
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Offline Miss Philicia

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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #11 on: January 06, 2007, 01:36:16 am »
I RESENT THAT AND EVERYTHING YOU STAND FOR!
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Offline david25luvit

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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #12 on: January 06, 2007, 03:56:13 am »
Hmm...Ok.   ::) :P :-*
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Re: PM me for fun, giggles, naugtiness, and tears...if you like
« Reply #13 on: January 06, 2007, 11:15:30 pm »
You've got a good attitude, Brooks
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