cold comfort, nagging doubts of change, and optimism

[zach]

This will be the last month of my heavy pill load. Starting next month I swap to Stribild. As I sit here tonight counting out the last of my pills and filling the reminder strips, I felt anxiety building up. I have full faith and confidence in Stribild, but seeing all the meds that I've needed this year to keep me alive and get me healthy again a voice in the back of my head whispers... I need all those pills. Doubts and anxieties creep in. I think about how hard I fought to regain the health I have now, and in many ways I value my life more now than I ever have.

I am really looking forward to this year. I'm comfortable being positive, it took awhile but I can live in my own skin again. Time to go live the rest of my life.

Carpe Diem, and all that jazz.

“Because in the end, you won’t remember the time you spent working in the office or mowing your lawn. Climb that goddamn mountain.”
― Jack Kerouac

[initforlife]

Zach you have  come a long ways my friend your new meds will be kind to you also. and go climb that mountain you only live once. Heck climb it twice since you are feeling so much better! This is a new year and I plan on it being the best year ever. I'm doing better at being poz too but I can thank y'all here  for that. yall have help me so much and continue to do so!

[gam65]

Zach,

Congratulations!!!!!!!!!! Don't fret the one pill is great and I was on stribild until last month and I'm on Triumeq now because I also have a kidney disease.  You'll enjoy taking the one pill and yes you've come a long way and I agree with you because I felt the same way about life, I really value my life now but most of all I value others as well.