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Title: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: fearless on January 18, 2007, 06:37:26 pm
It's my big swim on Sunday morning at 10 am- 1.6 km (1 mile) from Warriewood Beach to Mona Vale Beach.

I know I've done the training and I should be OK. The swell is quite small at the moment which is good, but we will be swimming into a 15-20 knot headwind which could make conditions quite choppy

I'm such an anxious person, and the little voice in the back of my head keeps telling me all the reasons why I should not be doing this. I've never done an ocean swim before, I'm petrified of blue bottles and being stung, everyone else will be 6ft and built like a brick shithouse (I'm 5'4" and 147 lbs), my goggles leak, it's gonna be too hot (about 95 farenheit), the headwind is gonna knock the stuffing out of me, I'm not good enough.

I'm determined to do it though. Sunday will also be my 3 year anniversary since diagnosis. I want/need to show myself that this bug, and my anxieties are not going to be beat me. Not this time, not anymore.

Wish me luck.

Stephen
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: bear60 on January 18, 2007, 06:39:58 pm
Stephen...... You are FEARLESS .   Need I say more? 
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Post by: thunter34 on January 18, 2007, 06:40:14 pm
You know you've got me rooting for you!  And I think I can safely speak for others here when I say that we want a full post report!
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: ndrew on January 18, 2007, 06:47:14 pm
I agree I can't wait to hear all about it.  How exciting, you are going to have an amazing experience.  I am glad you are listening to the bigger voices that are telling why you should...

Best wishes,
Drew (who misses the ocean)
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Post by: tsw923 on January 18, 2007, 06:50:49 pm
Very, VERY AWESOME!!  You will be great!!!  Post those celebratory photos!!!

TSW
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: fearless on January 18, 2007, 06:59:33 pm
Fearless or stupid? I'm not quite sure yet.

Oh yeah, I added 10kg to my body weight too, I'm only 125 lbs.

And, I've got a mate coming along to take pics.
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: Longislander on January 18, 2007, 07:04:37 pm
It's going to be great. Your enthusiasm alone is exciting! Shoot, get new goggles if the old ones are leaking?!?!?!lol

Have a great time~
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: cubbybear on January 18, 2007, 07:17:38 pm
Hey Lil Teddybear,

Good luck with your swim matey.  Are you wearing ya dick togs? hehe :P WOOF!  We wants photos.

xx
Matt
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Post by: Nadine on January 18, 2007, 07:23:37 pm
Best of luck to you Stephen

You know we are all here rooting for you!
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: RAB on January 18, 2007, 07:27:11 pm
Little Steve

Suggestion:

Pick out the best looking "brick shit house", and start kicking your legs like crazy.

(wait that sounded naughty  ::))

Take #2

Pick out the best looking "brick shit house", get in the water and start stroking like crazy.

(Jesus that sounded even worse   ::) )

Aw screw it!  (That's sounded just filthy!   ;D)

You know what I mean!   ;)

Good luck to you buddy!   :-*  

RAB

Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: Robert on January 18, 2007, 08:05:26 pm
Hey little big guy....

you'll do you fine.  What 's this "...I'm not good enough."  Yeah, right.  LIke rocky said, once you get in the water, just start stroking and kicking.  And if you start sinking, well make sure it's one of those brick shit houses that give you mouth-to-mouth. 

And by the way, whats the going pledge?  Whatever you earn, I'll donate that amount to the AIDSMEDS Gathering Fund, deal?

robert.

(who wishes he was there to grease you down with lots of crisco before the swim and massage out those cramps when you're finished)
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: Eldon on January 18, 2007, 08:33:00 pm
Your wish has been granted.


"What Can I do today to make a better Tommorrow?"
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: cubbybear on January 18, 2007, 09:10:01 pm
You know we are all here rooting for you!

Nadine, you do know what that means to us Aussies don't you ;) Rooting = Faunicating. WOOF!  You go girl! haha
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Post by: AlanBama on January 18, 2007, 09:24:11 pm
Good luck Steve!   I'm pulling for you....
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Post by: aztecan on January 18, 2007, 10:31:48 pm
Hey Stephen,

I'm with Matt, I can't wait to see the photos. Will you be wearing some of those delightfully revealing trunks the Aussie lifeguards wear? WOOF!

I'll be rooting for you - and cheering you on as well!  ;D

BIG HUGS,

Mark

Who thinks compact, well built, Austrailian ocean swimmers with enormous hearts are hawt!

Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: skeebo1969 on January 18, 2007, 10:39:47 pm


   Good luck Steve..

   Don't doubt yourself one bit... to tell you the truth I don't think for a minute you do.  I look forward to hearing more about it and seeing those pics.  You are definitely an inspiration to me... that 125 lbs is all in the heart my man.

   Fearless is definitely a fitting name for you.. always has been!

  Again Steve.. goodluck!!

  Thomas
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: fearless on January 18, 2007, 11:18:32 pm
Thanks for all the well wishers.

All this pulling and rooting, though. It's a swim, not an orgy  ;D

Yes, I will be wearing tight little scungies, dick stickers, budgie smugglers, or whatever else you want to call them.

Robert, there are no pledges as such - they raise money for the surf life saving club through our admission fees only. And, thanks for the rub-down offer. Vaseline under the arms to prevent chafing, some spit in the goggles and I'll be on my way. Eek

I managed to nick some pics of last years swim.



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Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: thunter34 on January 18, 2007, 11:23:50 pm
So tell me....



Will you be wearing a Speedo?



Moisture !!

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Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: Queen Tokelove on January 18, 2007, 11:43:50 pm
Good Luck with the swim...I agree w/ the others, YOU CAN DO IT!!!! 
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: fearless on January 19, 2007, 12:03:46 am
thunter,

scungies, dick stickers, budgie smugglers = all slang for speedo's

I love this picture from the website. It comes with the following caption:

The lawns at Mona Vale are perfect for codgers catching up with each other, exchanging yarns on how good they used to be.

Can't wait.

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Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: Eldon on January 19, 2007, 12:51:27 am
Steve: When you get into that water, think the thought that you have become a part of it. Take heed and experience the difference!


"What Can I do today to make a better Tomorrow?"
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: manchesteruk on January 19, 2007, 03:28:05 am
You can do it Steve! I'll even let Australia win today to put you in a good mood.....
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: sweetasmeli on January 19, 2007, 03:55:29 am
Darlin Steve, you will be fab because you are fab!
Swim your super speedos off! And dont forget to breathe!!!

Love & hugs
Your sweetest honey :-*
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: OzPaul on January 19, 2007, 04:06:45 am
Hey Stephen

Good luck buddy, I know you'll do great. Stay within your self, have faith, never mind about the big boys.

Let us know how it all goes, OK ?

Paul, your friend down south
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: Nadine on January 19, 2007, 07:06:25 am
Nadine, you do know what that means to us Aussies don't you ;) Rooting = Faunicating. WOOF!  You go girl! haha

Hey, whatever it takes  :D
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: aztecan on January 19, 2007, 10:25:34 am
The Codgers remembering what used to be?

I'll have you know Codgerism is a standard that is hard to attain - but I'm getting closer.  ;D

Have a great time Steve. In my book, you're already a winner.

HUGS,

Mark

Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: Christine on January 19, 2007, 11:26:14 am
You will do fabulous! One stroke at a time...and breath...

Don't worry about the bigger guys...they just sink faster! ;)

Christine
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: Boo Radley on January 19, 2007, 11:55:34 am
Little Steve,

Don't you know it's the bigger pieces of driftwood the current takes hold of?  You'll be outswimming all them!

Is it too late to send you a new pair of goggles via amazon.com.au?  Just give me the shipping address.

Good luck!

Boo
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!!
Post by: Teresa on January 19, 2007, 12:32:10 pm
Best of luck on your swim! You can do it!

Hugs
Teresa
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: fearless on January 21, 2007, 02:06:20 am
YEEHAH, I did it.

I arrived up at Worriewood at about 8.30 this morning. The surf was choppy and as cold as ice in the water (we are hving these bizarre cold currents in Sydney at the moment. It should have been 23 Celsius in the water but it was below 17, but not as cold as yesterday when it was just 15. brrrr).

I was as anxius as all hell and seriously considered pulling out, but my mate Steve reassured me that all would be OK. It just look such a long, and the first boy was some 250 metres off-shore, through the surf and chop and 'dangerous current'. But, I decided to suck it and see.

The swim out through the surf was the hardest. I kept taking on water, and the swell kept pounding me. I very, very nearly pulled out. My anxiety was overwhelming and my breath short. I thought, there is no way I can do this. I managed to pull myself together - the shame and fear of withdrawing and returning to shore was greater than my fear of not making the distance. I boobed for a minute, slowed my breath, and broke it down into small tasks. 1st target was to make the first buouy, then the 2nd and so on. I got inot a rhythm, forgot about the freezing water and the overall task. When I rounded the last buouy and headed for home, I still had energy to spare and powered home. My legs were jelly when I hit the sand, but I made it. I'm not sure of my time, they told me but I can't remember. I'll get the final results in the next day or two, so I'll let you know.

I'm so proud of myself, and it was the best thing I've ever done. I confronted my fears and anxiety and I won.

Pics to follow.






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Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: fearless on January 21, 2007, 02:10:53 am
and some more pics.

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Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: Eldon on January 21, 2007, 02:17:27 am
Steve: Truly, there is an awesome result of personal power when you DO confront your fears and your anxieties.

1. Sort out your tasks

2. Set your pace

3. Keep your focus and your determination

4. You then will make it to the finish line

AWESOME!

"What Can I do today to make a better Tomorrow?"
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: anniebc on January 21, 2007, 05:03:55 am
Way to go Steve..i don't know how I missed this thread, you have every reason to be proud.

Hugs
Jan :-*
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: Nadine on January 21, 2007, 05:37:49 am
YAY STEVE!!!
(http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g312/hckytwngrl/thcongratulations.gif)

I knew you would make it
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: Teresa on January 21, 2007, 06:38:47 am
               (http://img441.imageshack.us/img441/9468/wtgdancingbug7vi.gif)

Great pics!

Hugs
Teresa
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: joemutt on January 21, 2007, 06:44:22 am
Congratulations, we always knew you had it in you.
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: aztecan on January 21, 2007, 07:21:31 am
YEE HAW!  

Way to go Steve! I was winded just looking at the surf in those photos!

I'm going to lift one in your honor today!

BIG CELEBRATORY HUGS!

Mark
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: sweetasmeli on January 21, 2007, 07:32:42 am
 ;D YAY TO STEPHEN!!! ;D
BRAVO BRAVO BRAVO!!!


Soooooooooooo proud of you honey! ;) Now relaaaaaaaaax....!

Love hugs & a great big kiss
Melia :-*
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: skeebo1969 on January 21, 2007, 08:27:02 am


   Steve,

     Awesome... just fricking awesome!!  I commend you for doing something so challenging and I can only imagine how it felt walking on that shore after finishing.   You have come along way Steve.  I am really proud of you!

   Thomas
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: virgo71 on January 21, 2007, 08:30:37 am
So exciting!! Good luck!
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: koi1 on January 21, 2007, 08:40:03 am
Congrats! For he is such a good fellow...

rob
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: budndallastx on January 21, 2007, 09:44:05 am
congrats!  (and how cold was the water ? )
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: Christine on January 21, 2007, 10:53:07 am
Fantastic! Those waves were scary looking. You did it!! Yea!!

Christine
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: Life on January 21, 2007, 11:14:17 am
Steve, all I can say is Wow!  Those waves look to be very unforgiving....   

NOW WHAT YOU GONA DO!!!

Love,
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: twofires on January 21, 2007, 11:49:18 am
thats very cool!
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: RAB on January 21, 2007, 12:27:23 pm
Hey Steve:

You rock!  Seriously!

With a whole new level of respect and wonder,

RAB
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: AlanBama on January 21, 2007, 02:41:46 pm
YAY STEVE !    I knew you could do it bud.
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: Robert on January 21, 2007, 03:38:34 pm
 
Steve....

That is so cool.  I was thinking of you yesterday while you were swimming.  I knew it was your big day and, buddy, you did IT!  What is it about these little, piddly things like swimming in the surf that makes us feel so good?  I don't know but I'll tell you, I'm proud of you, that's for sure

robert

(who was busy rubbing out those cramps of yours in his dreams) :P
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: ndrew on January 21, 2007, 05:55:18 pm
Wonderful, congratulations and thanks for showin us we keep on livin' and succeeding!

Drew
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: bear60 on January 21, 2007, 06:07:36 pm
Good for you! Great pictures too!
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: cubbybear on January 21, 2007, 09:35:55 pm
Hey Teddybear,

I'm proud of you, that was very, very amazing.  Congrats my mate.

xx
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: tsw923 on January 21, 2007, 10:19:11 pm
Steve --

Congratulations!!  You really kicked butt out there!!  Way to go...enjoy it...bask in your success... And then let us know what you are gonna do for an encore!!! ::)

TSW
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: Longislander on January 21, 2007, 10:42:28 pm
Congrats! That's awesome Steve!~ Thanks for sharing your adventure with us ;D
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: OzPaul on January 21, 2007, 11:14:39 pm
Hey Steve

Way to go !!!

Any more big swims in your future, maybe this summer ?

Cheers
Paul
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: Ann on January 22, 2007, 08:52:29 am
Way to go, Stephen! Totally fan-freaking-tastic. What a way to commemorate your D-Day! I'm glad it all went swimmingly for you - I had every faith in you that you'd triumph and triumph you did. Well done mate!

Hugs,
Ann
xxx
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: manchesteruk on January 22, 2007, 03:14:06 pm
Well done mate! This post inspired me to go ahead and sign up for a run i'm going to do.  I nearly backed out but could tell what a sense of achievement you had after finishing that!
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: fearless on January 22, 2007, 06:43:08 pm
Thanks guys/gals,

I feel on top of the world and ready to face any challenge life has to throw at me. As many of you may recall, I'd been having some therapy last year to overcome my anxieties. During the sessions, it became clear to me that I've been suffering from anxiety all my life. It had prevented me from doing so many things, and well, led me toward the the behaviours that resulted in my infection.

Whilst the swim itself was important and fun, the real victory was in facing up to and overcoming my fears. A lesson I can hopefully now apply to so many other aspects in my life.

As for future challenges, well for starters, I intend on swimming in the Sydney Harbour Swim Classic, a nice and easy 1.5 km swim in Sydney Harbour. The backdrop as you can see from the pics is simply stunning, the race starting and finishing at the Opera House. Stay tuned.

"Your chance to inspect the Opera House, the Botanical Gardens (well, its seawall, anyway), Mrs Macquarie's Chair, Fort Denison and the Sydney Harbour Bridge close up and personal. How often do you get to see these icons from in the water? Well, often, maybe, if you've been in the habit of falling overboard from Harbour cruises.

This is a pretty special swim, against one of the most spectacular backdrops in Stray'a.

Water is good, much better than most who haven't done this swim expect. Indeed, the water is pretty good as a rule. And, at that time of the morning - this swim starts earlier than most, to get all the mugs out of the harbour before the ferries really get cracking, and the weekend admirals in their out of control sailboats get blown off course by ineptitude - there is a calmness about it. Ahhh, the serenity (beep! booommpphh! smack! crash!) on the harbour at that time of the  morning. But don't be deceived. Despite this pacific scene, this swim can challenge you from your toes to your mind. The deep waters and the narrow channel of Sydney Harbour mask a ferocious current when the tide is on the flow. That's why the organisers brought the course closer in to Farm Cove last season. It's no dinky swim. But it's a privilege doing it.

The Sydney Harbour Swim Classic essentially follows the course of the swim leg in the 2000 Olympic triathlon - Man o' War Steps towards Mrs Macquaries Chair, out to Pinchgut and back to Man o' War Steps via Bennelong Point, under the northern foyer bar of the Opera Theatre."




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Post by: fearless on January 22, 2007, 06:55:41 pm
And, as a reward for all my hard work and efforts, I plan on taking a holiday to Lord Howe Island possibly in April this year.

It's a World Heritage listed Island, part of New South Wales (my home state) and about a 3 hour flight NE of Sydney. It has the southern most coral reef in the world, the pristine waters ideal for snorkelling and some great rainforest and walking trails.

Home to about 200 permanent residents, no more than 400 tourists are permitted on the 12 sq km Island at any one time.

My kinda relaxing holiday.

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Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: fearless on January 22, 2007, 10:28:16 pm
Sorry, I'm gonna bore you guys to death with this, but I wanna blow my trumpet some more.

The official results are in.

I finished a respectable 464th from a total of 512 who finished the race. In all, some 568 people started, but 56 did not finish either due to hypothermia (it was 15 to 16 in the water, hence the shrinkage) or they couldn't make the distance which was over 2 km, not the 1.6km it was meant to be.
In my division, 40-44 year old men, I finished 55th of 61 entrants.

You can read all about it at: http://www.oceanswims.com/nsw67/monavalerep07.html (http://www.oceanswims.com/nsw67/monavalerep07.html)
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Post by: Longislander on January 22, 2007, 10:33:11 pm
It's all still awesome! It's great to hear that the therapy has been helping you with anxieties, and your life is now opening up to you with all sorts of possibilities!! More power to you~ ;D
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: JohnOso on January 24, 2007, 08:41:05 am
Woohoo!   

How in the hell did I miss this thread too?  Let's hear it for the 40-44 age group (Holla!)

Great, great job Steve.  Inspiring story, not only for the race itself, but the background surrounding your reasons for entering the race.

Just one question:  how the hell does one get to Lord Howe Island?  Um, not by swimming i take it  ;)(sorry couldn't resist).  The place doesn't look big enough for an airport.

In admiration,
John

Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: fearless on January 24, 2007, 08:52:53 pm
John,
the airport is that tiny cleared area you can see running across the island, pretty much smack bang in the middle. Gonna make for one hell of a landing.
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: Cliff on January 30, 2007, 02:55:01 pm
Great job Lil Steve!!!!!!!  Sorry I'm just getting to this now.
Title: Re: Wish me luck!!! (YAY, I DID IT)
Post by: confused one on January 30, 2007, 03:03:57 pm
Good things come in petite packages. You may have some advantage in your size.
The others have more drag with the head winds. More weight plus more force equals
more work.
None the less I'm sure you will at least show yourself that you can do it.
 
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