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Meds, Mind, Body & Benefits => Mental Health & HIV => Topic started by: Marcus805 on July 12, 2012, 12:26:30 am

Title: In a FUNK
Post by: Marcus805 on July 12, 2012, 12:26:30 am
I have been in a weird funk for the last month and have been considering suicide.  Each night when I take my pills I wonder if I take all them at once, will it kill me.  I have been poz for 3 1/2 years.  My cd4 was 5 when I was diagnosed and after 3 years its only at 139.  My viral load is just hanging out in the 200's and neither of the 2 doctors I have seen can seem to figure it out.  I am tired of taking pills.