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Main Forums => Living With HIV => Topic started by: YoungbutPOZ on November 17, 2011, 05:00:29 pm
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All of this is still relatively new to me, and I'm finding it hard to cope with some things.
I was diagnosed on April 9th this year. Around that time I had a lot going on. I was doing drag around that time and I had agreed to dance for a friend for a drag pageant. I ended up dancing in a drag pageant four hours after i was diagnosed. :(
I was having complications with my heath and stayed sick. I went to the doctor two weeks later and I found out my CD4 count was low so they gave me a choice to start meds. I started the meds two more weeks after that and my CD4 jumped almost 200 points and I have maintained a CD4 of around 600. My viral load was low even when I tested poz. Within the first month of meds I was undetected.
My health wasn't the only thing happening around that time.
I was seeing this guy, and was going strong with him. I told him about the HIV and he was okay with it at that moment. I lost my job in June and moved in with him. Everything seemed fine, he was with me every step of the way through everything. In July while driving down the interstate, my car blew up. In August, I found out my boyfriend had been cheating on me then whole time we had been together. It seemed like one thing after another.
I moved back to my mothers house. A week after moving back in with mom, my sister decides meth was more important than her three kids. So I end up having to take care of three kids while my parents are at work.
I would like to move out of Alabama here in the near future, but I am kind of discouraged because nothing has gone my way this year. I don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes it would just be nice to have someone to talk to. I've tried the personals on poz but it seems like everyone on there is just a judgmental as anyone else in the gay community.
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i'm sorry that you're going through such a difficult time. it can be very frustrating whenever everything comes at you at once like that. i know. i've had a hard year too. but we hold on. do the best we can, and we survive and manage to come through the other side eventually.