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HIV Prevention and Testing => Do I Have HIV? => Topic started by: nevadicus on September 03, 2006, 07:09:30 pm

Title: Everyone in this online community...
Post by: nevadicus on September 03, 2006, 07:09:30 pm
Hi everyone. I didn't know where I should post this, but I decided to post it here.
Almost three years ago, I went through a period of HIV uncertainty - that time frame after having zero-protection sex with someone I didn't know, and, a few weeks thereafter, falling ill with something just like acute retroviral syndrome - that three month period of waiting in anxiety before a reliable blood test could be taken.
It was a profoundly transformative period in my life that, despite its dark, foreboding undertones, became something that illuminated my life with purpose and sometimes even great joy and compassion -- a time I wouldn't trade for anything.
I guess I'm relating this long story because during the time I thought I might have been positive, I came upon this website and this online community. I read a lot of the posts and began to tear up with joy -- I was so amazed and humbled by the loving support this community provides. I knew that, whatever the results of my blood test, things would be okay, because I found this place on the internet that filled me with a profound hope.
It occured to me to post this here because last week I had a physical at the doctors' office and asked to test for HIV again (I never did have the 6 month test, and it had been on my mind since). Fortunately, the results were still negative.
So I suppose, for whatever it is worth to anyone who reads this, this is a long overdue thank you to everyone here, and to everyone who was here three years ago, for just being here and doing this for everyone else who comes here, whatever their situation.
With gratitude,
nevadicus
Title: Re: Everyone in this online community...
Post by: man_apart on September 03, 2006, 07:44:59 pm
I totally agree with u, this site is a Gift and the people here are the best. Personally, Iam going through my own HIV scare situation and everyone has beenSO SO SO SO  patient with me and so helpful. If it wasnt for here, my anxiety would have killed me, and eventhough I havent tested yet (coz i am scared) despite the fact that everyone told me i had no risk (but i had symptoms and swollen nodes in my neck), i kinda feela bit relievd coz of the suppoert here and knowing that -God forbid- if i am to test +ve, I will have alot of support from all the great people here. Thank u all for being here for us, for guiding us in the hardest times of our lives and for ur patience. GOd bless u all, and i love u all. (especially ANN and MR. Andy VELEZ and RAPIDROD)